Awesome brother . I'm 51. On Suboxone 6 years. My life is great. I have 11 years clean of herion and coke ect ect. Life has a way of favoring those with no greedy agenda. No 12 step stuff needed. Just man up and change behavior. Get a job and save money and life will be good. It's simple really. I used to do na and aa. Unfortunately I was made weaker in 12 step mentality. I found what works for me. Me. I want something done right I do it myself. I challenge all drug abusers to man up make choice and get on Suboxone or what it takes to man up. Get a job and just live our life. It's simple as that. 12 steps complicate life for me so I did it my way , god 🙏 is there for us. No group needed. The groups are brainwash on a way. I was in AA 20 plus years and na. Meetings ?? Whatever works for you bro is great. Stay clean. If you have doubts later and you will , explore. Recovery or recover ? Up to us what we want. I chose to recover. Recovery is for sick and weak people who are not 100% themselves. After we are clean years and years we are recovered if we choose to be. 12 step groups keep you dependant on them and going to meeting for rest of your life. That is not recovered. That's weak and recovery 12 step style. No no. Just some power back and man up get job and god will reward us all. No meetings needed. There are unlimited ways to stay sober and simple way is do not use. Make a plan to never use. Yes it's possible , I'm on year 12. Many more clean OUR way. All that matters is we are clean. Thank God and do what feels right for you