"I dont have many memories of childhood but I know I was super anxious growing up." Man, I felt that one.

@G-Sagittastellium

Жыл бұрын

Same

@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool

Жыл бұрын

same ❤

@drleonardoregio2074

Жыл бұрын

@AlizzaBliss I would love to be in your life 😊

@DivaDivine88

11 ай бұрын

I thought I was weird because I barely remember anything from my childhood.. the little details are so hard to recall.. especially the good times.. as a foster child I think the back and forth of not knowing where I'd stay year to year and having acovert narc as a best friend just widdled away at me little by little and I didn't start to understand what I went through until I learned about narcissistic abuse at the age of 28..

@Angel_N.S.

10 ай бұрын

​@@DivaDivine88I'm 16 with C-PTSD and still suffering with trauma mostly every day. Any suggestions for me.😢

I actually appreciate the acknowledgement that it can be caused by "small" traumas. The point is that extreme things like sexual abuse are obviously, and rightfully, respected as legitimate trauma. Smaller things are not. People who try to open up about them are treated as if they are too soft and have nothing to complain about. It's about legitimizing the small things, not dismissing the big ones.

@TheCorty

8 ай бұрын

I wish I could paint this across the sky, this is so important

@jesmasa1

7 ай бұрын

Yes. I even tried convincing myself it could've been worse. But one small trauma in my childhood has effected me greatly. I still haven't sought help. These videos help somewhat though. Like validating small traumas 😅😢

Damn this hit hard. I parented my mom. I’m 35 now and she has since passed. I am for the first time in 15 years unmedicated and I feel like I can’t regulate my emotions at all. I’m not even sure how to fix it. I was abused physically, mentally, emotionally, sexually most before the age of 16. By the time I was 17 I found out I had cancer and at 18 I had major surgery and radiation. I just want to be able to live in my own head at this point without it making me cry.

@Uffda.

9 ай бұрын

I’m really proud of you. That sounds like a lot, and just one thing after another. And you made it through every single day all the to now. You didn’t deserve to be mistreated. You do deserve to heal. To you, and anyone who sees this: I wish upon you peace. I wish upon you full cupboards and steady hands. I wish upon you restful, uneventful sleep, and many unremarkable contented moments. I wish upon you healing, and growth. I wish upon you the gentle scent of your favorite flowers or plants. I wish upon you peace. You deserve peace. 🌱 I say this, because on my own path, I wish these things upon my self as well. (And there weren’t any replies on this comment yet. ) May your day be better than anticipated.

@Healinghands829

9 ай бұрын

@uff-da Thank you for your kind words. Day by day I am slowly becoming the new me. Stronger than ever.

@BambiBryant

9 ай бұрын

Anxiety Rx by Russell Kennedy I finally understood my anxiety as internal alarm, and I went back to my childhood trauma to resolve it once and for all. I’m off of anxiety meds and working towards getting off of antidepressants. I’m much happier. I hope you read it and find relief! 💕

@Healinghands829

9 ай бұрын

@@BambiBryant thank you for sharing 😀

@aqua6613

8 ай бұрын

I just let my feelings roll. But I am also a trucker and I can do whatever I want in the solitude of my truck so I don't have to mask all the time for other people. Emotions and crying triggers a lot of people and I hate when people think I'm crying because I'm trying to manipulate something. This world sucks where everything is projection and judgment and you are really not free to express yourself. Someone's crying I don't care what reason it is I'm going to cry with you and cry for you. Life is so hard as it is. I feel worse for the people who can't cry and have all that stuff just eating at them on the inside. That kinda is a cancer too. We're gonna beat it tho and not let it beat us down.

I had a therapist 2 years ago during I think our 2nd session say “ haha it’s not like I’m going to diagnose you with CPTSD or something haha “ jokingly - my jaw dropped at the unprofessionalism and considered it rude I felt hurt and didn’t want to see again because she did NOT know me nor what I’ve been Dx with yet and you don’t make jokes about that stuff. ( I have a great sense of humor but I’m a nurse myself and you just don’t do that to your patients )

@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry that happened to you. I hope you found someone that can support you better ❤

@nellieshoals

9 ай бұрын

PTSD is actually relatively easy to meet criteria for. Did you know the majority of people with it are actually women?! I think it has to do with being a woman and the dark stuff that we face (SA, domestic violence, etc.) So yeah, it's not that outlandish of a diagnosis at all!!!

@ExistWithMeASMR

9 ай бұрын

I would not interpret that as a swipe at PTSD. I would interpret that as not being a quack and give you a complex diagnosis on your second appointment. My ex had a Dr give him 3 huge diagnosis like bipolar, antisocial personality disorder and something else that didn't make sense with those two things. It was a 15 minute visit. She really should not be practicing medicine.

@Grimenoughtomaketherobotcry

8 ай бұрын

​@@nellieshoalsThe "majority" of people with it are women because the majority of men who have it don't seek help, for many reasons.

@Grimenoughtomaketherobotcry

8 ай бұрын

​@@ExistWithMeASMR Very true, but there is no place for joking dismissals by a health care professional of a potential diagnosis at anytime. It ought not to have happened, and it was highly unprofessional.

I never had any idea how PTSD was ingrained into my behaviors, my emotions, my entire being until I finally open up about everything I had gone through. What I thought was normal was far from it. I'm having to relearn 50-something years of behavior and rediscover who I am.

@Eric-tj3tg

Жыл бұрын

Best to you on your journey...Our boat is an unfortunately large one!

@larsstougaard7097

Жыл бұрын

Wow edd I'm in the exact same situation, I have struggled with my health for many years. Only now I see its like 50 years of c ptsd affecting everything. It can be super subtle to catch these deep nervous and belief systems running in the background, like the whole foundation it built on it. I hope you find the right help for what you need. And my experience is to move on if the therapist don't meet you and you feel safe.

@G-Sagittastellium

Жыл бұрын

Me too ! I was just saying that , I’m 47 & only past few years learned that I have C-PTSD ( I’ve been Dx with PTSD, C-& PTSD depending on the provider , before it was only generalized anxiety disorder with panic attacks … my childhood & adult traumas were Not acknowledged / diagnosed properly for so so long.

@artistocracy

8 ай бұрын

I am 68 y/o female and am now grasping how my mother treated me, when watching these informative role play videos, is why am easily beset by instant anxiety and even panic when triggered by certain of my husband’s thoughtless behaviours.

@LeslieV.

8 ай бұрын

Same! After both my parents died my eyes were opened! I had one alcoholic and the other one was full of rage and anger! I couldn’t move with being yelled at and told I was doing wrong!

I think one can develop such responses even in their adult life when they encounter people who kind of pose a threat to their peace ,stability or confidence . It's not only in childhood that you develop sense insecurity or helplessness which eventually lead to ptsd .

@aacooks5532

11 ай бұрын

Exactly

@erykahhoney588

9 ай бұрын

I agree

@lorrainetaylor8570

8 ай бұрын

Yes I agree.

@msmltvcktl

8 ай бұрын

Unfortunately, this video is about *complex* PTSD, which develops when a person is physically trapped in the abusive situation and cannot escape due to various reasons. So you're half right; it does develop in adults who are trapped by abusive partners (e.g financial control), chronic homelessness, and POWs for example, but not so much from single event traumas. That's usually standard PTSD

Took me until my 40’s to validate the trauma of emotional neglect, despite years of therapy, poly pharmacy and lots of anguish. With the help of psychedelics, a caring coach and resources like your book, I’m finding healing, hope and meaning in my life.

I grew up terrified of how my dad would react every time i had a bad grade at school. The anxiety was so intense, that i remember one day crying uncontrollably at school thinking that I'd die that day, not feom my dad hurting me but i just thought that a car would hit me and that was gonna be it... Pretty intense feelings for a 12 yr old child to experience...

Breathwork saved my life....and gave me the chance to live my life.... not my trauma's life. I'm still a work in progress, but I freaking LOVE myself now (even all that deep and intense and sometimes scary shadow of mine). Baby steps upon baby steps ...I keep going!

Thank you for sharing awareness and education on C-PTSD. I have it but only realized / became educated on it over the past few years ( I’m 47 ). I knew I’ve had traumas but I didn’t know my GAD symptoms were actually more related to my C-PTSD

Your videos are amazingly accurate. You are really good at storytelling. Thanks for making this kind of content so relatable, ppl really need to understand the importance of parenting in order to stop repeating those patterns generation after generation. Raising a child is not just feeding and dressing up them, let’s take responsibility for what we’re doing to our children

I definitely know I have cptsd. My mom yelled at me constantly, I had to take care of mom cuz she was physically disabled, I had to do all the house chores, I was never allowed to leave the house other then for school. Always got blamed or punished for things that didn't even have anything to do with me...like my cousin would act out and thow a tantrum and I would be the one getting grounded and he would be rewarded with treats and loving attention even tho he just thuw a tantrum and punched us all and tried to stab us with a knife and threatened to burn the house down with all of us inside....but me coloring quitely in my room minding my own business not bothering anyone in the family I got punished for him acting out all the time. My dad worked nights and double shift so I barley ever saw him, my aunts and uncles worked all day. My cousin nwas mentalaly retarded and couldn't even go to school. So when I was home I had to clean and take care of others and when I was not needed I was sent to my room to be quiet and out of the way, I was given clothes and food and shelter that is needed for a child to grow up and I was allowed to go to school. But other then that I was left on my own and to fend for myself and neglected physical and emotionally

@zeenatbaer138

8 ай бұрын

Bless your heart ♥

My now narcissistic alcoholic sibling saved me. Told me and taught me to laugh at my parents fighting around the age of 6. I started to see adult behaviors for what they were at that point. However it did not prepare me for the narc ex and the recovery from that ordeal. Upside I made it thru and will use my learned experiences to help others recover and live a good healthy life.

@LilThreat88

8 ай бұрын

Good for them for helping you at that time! *SI mention warning . . . . My older brother saved me when I was so stressed as a teen that I expressed thinking of joining our dad in "heaven." He helped me see that religion wasn't the answer and what if it wasn't true, and thinking about that totally saved me. Love him~

Ironically, I quit my trauma therapist because of my cptsd. Having appointments scheduled every other Tuesday for over a year in advance, but she would continuously cancel 1 hr. before appointment time. Every excuse imaginable. Never had 2 appointments in a row. I know when I'm not wanted. 😢 couldn't deal with 1 appointment a month.

@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool

Жыл бұрын

I am sorry that happened to you. I hope you found someone else who can support you better ❤

@jclyntoledo

Жыл бұрын

I'm proud of you for leaving and knowing your worth. That was very unprofessional of them and I hope you find someone else.

@stevensawyer5924

Жыл бұрын

@@jclyntoledo Thank you 🙏✌️❤️🌞🐶

@Frau.P

8 ай бұрын

I also had a bad trauma therapist 😢 its the worst that can happen to people suffering from trauma. Therapist can do so much damage, i dont know if i recover from that.

The end when you said "it remembers" gave me chills

So far, this is the video from your channel that I can relate the most, for sure! And it feels so relieving! I’m used to asking my therapist why it feels that I had a big trauma growing up, even though I know I didn’t. Well, C-PTSD makes totally sense to explain my fear and anxiety still stuck in my body. The small traumas of my childhood certainly can be felt here, in my body today. And I’m very happy you mentioned in the video, Dr Nicole, that we can heal from these traumas. It just hit me and motivated me to do the work! Thank you so much ❤ for this amazing reminder.

Cptsd isn't just "small" traumas. I was repeated raped at 4 years old by a family member without any help, then abused by my mom's bf, then my own bf, then guys in college.

@23respectme

9 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry that happened to you. Cptsd isn't just small trauma's but it doens't have to come from major things either. Some people get cptsd from growing up within an angry tense environment for instance.

Ive been in therapy for about 2 years. I love my therapist so much and shes has helped me become free in so many areas but I have noticed that although I've grown so much over the last few years, theres still some big things holding me back. Seeing videos like this have brought so much clarity that there isn't something wrong with me and that there is hope for healing! Thanks for sharing! It reminds me that I'm not the only one dealing with this and I think this is reassuring to me after hearing my parents ask me when I'm going to stop going to counseling haha!

Yea, I set boundaries by eliminating being in a romantic relationship as a possibility. I feel like all it is are people just tolerating eachother and all a romantic parter would want to do is manipulate and betray me. I also have a unbelievable distrust of the world and have to fight my thoughts that I'm a piece of shit and beat myself up for even the littlest mistake. I also have tremors which is a nuerologic disorder. It is very draining and all of these just seem to remind me that I am more just a f ed up person and can't wait till I get off of this miserable earth. I do not tell my parents tho cuz I got sexually violated one time (I was on drugs, granted, trying to heal other pain) and got told I had it coming.

@Nourished_in_Style

Жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry that happened to you 😢 I hope you can find some support that you need. Remember that you are divine and you are worth investing in.

@MexicanApachemiwok777

Жыл бұрын

I was born to be a beautiful man, but the ugliness is powerful I do what I can.

@aacooks5532

11 ай бұрын

Totally agreed with you.. with the trauma im going on.. i really wanna live miserable world and life asap

@MexicanApachemiwok777

11 ай бұрын

@@aacooks5532 I also believe healing doesn't mean trusting again.

@nellieshoals

9 ай бұрын

It's not your fault that you think that way about yourself. It sounds like somebody taught that to you a long time ago. You can heal, I'm genuinely hoping the best for you. 💙🙏

Main thing I worked on was recognizing where I was and who I was interacting with. It gave me time to tell my inner child that there was an adult there and they were not alone. Also taking a breath and sending it down into my belly helped to ground and reassure as well.

This needs to be talked about more in public. Schools should have therapists to examine every student coming in, (or at least those who are struggling with school) so they can get help instead of a burnmark. I have already concluded something like this but only now hear about that specific term. It perfectly fits the picture. ...I recently recalled a memory, where i gave up a train seat for a little girl that was passing by with her class. She turned around and gave me this shining and innocent smile, while genuinely saying "Thank You!" in a loud and happy manner. (Typical elementary school kid behavior) ...I almost cried. Not because of joy, but because i had a painful realization. Namingly: I realized my pain and my suffering. ... Seeing how this kid radiated happiness, innocence and a genuine behavior of trust and goodness, not suspecting the littlest evil of anyone around her, made me realize that i used to be just like that and even more so, how far i've gone astray... When i remembered recently at home, i just bursted out into tears and asked myself: "What happened to me? What did i go through, to become the polar opposite? 😞 What went wrong? Where did it take the wrong turn?" It's all so fucked up...

I feel too far gone from this. I dunno how to find joy in anything anymore or motivation to keep pushing. Feels like it’s this no matter how hard I work or how self-aware I become.

@BigIndianBindi-jy1cz

9 ай бұрын

same, which is why drugs help.

@Grimenoughtomaketherobotcry

8 ай бұрын

​No, drugs don't help if you are self-medicating.

0:19 You described my childhood exactly… other than other things that were done against me since a very young age…

You’re helping so many! 🙏🏻❤

Thank you for these videos. I experienced a lot of anxiety throughout childhood but being a teacher in a chaotic and hostile work environment triggered/reinforced issues with authority figures abusing power. Which caused CPTSD and many additional health issues due to stress, prescriptions and more stress.

I love the format of these videos. So enlightening! Ty

Love your way of delivering a delicate message 💝

What a time for this to come. Lol. Thank you for the upload.

i developed c-ptsd from being in an abusive friend group. i feel like i'll never escape it. every day just talking to my friends feels like running a marathon in my head. i'm so tired

Wow! Super grateful about your work and this channel and me found each other. Thank you!

Best channel on KZread ❤ thank you!

So grateful for you!!!! 😭🙏🌺

I love the way you teach with skits. Really brings it to life so it is totally clear. Can you do a video...maybe you already have...where you demonstrate one scenario problem and show how each attachment style would respond to that particular problem. Like, secure would respond to this problem like this....anxious like this....avoidant like this...and disorganized (me apparently) like this.

Got the best understanding of CPTSD possible, didn't quite understand what it was till now. Waiting to read your upcoming book!!

I had a traumatic upbringing and have all those symptoms and more (have fibromyalgia now also). My psych did a standardised survey for diagnosis to see if I had ptsd and the survey said I didn’t have it but I’m 99 percent sure I do.

@marcelaortiz4931

Жыл бұрын

a survey, so generic :( So hard to find a good doctor in any area these days. Go with your instinct that's definitely the way and Dr Nicole is a good guide too.

Its insane how CPTSD and autism are similar. I was diagnosed with ASD at 41. I can count the amount of memories from my childhood. I dont know if I am truly autistic or just severely traumatized?

But how do I heal this?

Thank you for that explanation. I Can relate.

And then we continue to circle back around with relationships and friendships that mirror what we grew up around in caregivers. Identifying and accepting that someone can have a good childhood, but still have traumatic instances so important to identify. then finding the root of those unmet needs and healing those. So the cycle doesn't continue throughout the rest of someone's life.

Great great great video and explanation :) thank you ❤

I love the way you say D it’s so cute !!

Wow! This hit home . ❤😢

I grew up with a mother who was a severe hoarder and very neglectful. Caused my cptsd for sure i lived in trash since my earliest memories and its had some serious effects.

I was super anxious growing up and when I wasn’t, I was checked out. My friends always described me as having a poker face or being oblivious to my surroundings.

😢 the extreme anxiety!.( FOR A CHILD IS IT LITERALLY FEAR!!) well it doesn't go awar it only worsens with the layers of guilt and shame and self hatered. It makes everything else difficult! I don't know how to heal from it!

@AicimounLight

8 ай бұрын

Same! Going home was stressful!

My entire childhood summed up in less than 1 minute

I like your skits.

❤ thank you…

Thanks. 😪

I remember I slept through a beating that my dad gave my mum and have always felt relieved and guilty at the same time strange.

Therapy assisted ketamine has been helping me a lot with understanding and integrating my childhood traumas but I did a ton of trauma informed yoga and meditation practices first that helped prep me for it. There is hope but god it’s a hard road.

What I experienced in childhood has made me never want to be in a romantic relationship, never have kids, etc. due to how my parents faught all the time and that's what I was surrounded by all my childhood. The only true love family life I've known was from romance novels because none of my high school friends had that good or okay family/home life either, there was always some sort of divorce or fighting etc. In childhood, I ran to books to get that feeling of falling in love because irl I have panic attacks if someone hugs me or touches me due to anxiety and lost the only relationship I had in high school because he couldn't hug me or hold my hand or even be close to me. I always feel like I'm in trouble even now at 29 years old and walking on egg shells with my parents because they start on me if I pick either side. So I say "I'm team switzerland. Leave me alone." and they call me drama queen after that. Can't win.

The majority of my memories up until middle school are so blurry and I really don't remember when I was 6-10 years old.

What people with CPTSD need to know from a partner perspective is living with someone who is constantly in crisis can make your partner want to give up; even if they do love you. Acknowledging, not ignoring your pain is not hard in fact I feel it brings us closer. I just want one conversation that isn’t laced with attention to your feelings because I have feelings too, I want to share space not live on the wall. I don’t mind taking the time to listen, be consistent and caring but I don’t feel there is any room for anything else in the relationship. The constant crisis sucks the life out of everything because I know you can’t be happy. You’re too busy being scared of any possible threat real or imagined. Because of this you ask for support but by the time I am done supporting there isn’t time or energy for anything to make our relationship better. I am just constantly supporting you. This is not what you want to do to your partners. Please if you care about yourself and your partner get a professional therapist and don’t forget about asking how you can make space for your relationship and not put self imposed limits on the relationship that strangle the life out of it.

"I don't have many memories from childhood" yeah because you could never sit down to actually process any of it, there was always the next crisis to prepare for

Thanks Nicole.. im still not fully healed ...yet...💛

@ThePersonalDevelopmentSchool

Жыл бұрын

It's a life long journey, but keep going, bit by bit ❤

I am sure my dad caused me CPTSD but I was relatively better before entering a relationship with my abusive ex. I started to more hypetvigilant Does abusive adult relationships also cause cptsd?

Please share further on this subject, if you're led 💫

I told a nurse I had this and she said "what's that?"

I do all of these things and it doesn’t feel like things ever get easier 😭 this is a hell of a road to travel on.

I find I am setting up barriers when I'm at work because it really distracts me when i have others behind or around me. I feel safer to have barriers set up; be it my cart, a ladder or a display stand. I don't feel I can trust others because I grew up with narcissistic parents who gaslit me and ignored and belittled my feelings. Its tough to try to navigate in this world without wanting to end myself. Some people can be so triggering and I'm so afraid I'm going to lose my job and end up homeless because its so hard to control my actions and emotions.

@KittyCatParty

8 ай бұрын

I just want to say I completely relate. It doesn’t feel safe to let anyone that close

Be aware that c-ptsd is not recognized as an actual diagnosable disorder in the DSM5. It's kinda like imposter syndrome, it is technically a thing that can describe what someone is going through, but it's not an actual diagnosis.

I had to do all of these things for both my parents who were horrifying Parent.s. I have identified I have this with tiny therapist but I don’t seem to know what to actually do about any of it.

THE WORLD NEEDS TO KNOW ABOUT THIS SO MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The "I don't have a lot of memories from my childhood" thing. I find it easiest to think of it as What's vs How's. It's easier to remember Hows then it is to remember Whats. For example: I remember How much I hated my 7th grade math class. I don't remember What my teacher said and did to make me hate it. I don't remember exactly What my dad did, but I remember exactly How it felt and know exactly How it affected me. Do the What's really matter? No. I don't need to remember every insult my father ever hurled at me to understand and accept that he did it and it hurt me

I've never known anything other than this. Thanks mom

I’m 100% certain I have this. Been trying to find a trauma therapist. I want to get hypnotherapy too at some point

So I've seen a lot of different therapists over the years, mostly in free/low-income clinics because I struggle to keep a job or health insurance for long periods of time. I have noticed that they frequently screen for PTSD symptoms, but they don't ask about the "smaller" traumas (aka Adverse Childhood Experiences or ACE's) in relation to PTSD. I had to go online to learn about and take a test on ACE's. I am dismayed that no therapist has ever talked to me about them nor screened me for them. They seem to only want to focus on CBT for the most part... I also looked up C-PTSD, and I read that it's been a term since the 80's, but never was added to the DSM due to too much overlap with PTSD symptoms and not needing a separate diagnosis. So I'm confused on what to think or how to bring this up to a therapist, since no one has ever talked to me about it and it's not technically a diagnosis. I feel like my childhood trauma isn't "severe enough" to actually be taken seriously by therapists as actual PTSD, even though I know it affects me a lot. 😢 I am hypervigilant and frequently on edge. But I don't have flashbacks or most of the classic PTSD symptoms. It's confusing and frustrating.

My problem is that I remember almost everything and I'm still going through C-PTSD. Every time I watch one of your videos I have a mini breakdown/epiphany.

No memories? Pff...the nightmares become more twisted as the years pass.

Literally. The. Story. Of. My. Life.

I grew up with a very violent alcoholic father. I remember having panic attacks in school and looking at the clock seeing it close to 3 o'clock. Would give me these terrible stomach pains from fear im guessing. Not knowing how my Dad mood would be when i would go home.

"Being forced to parent your own parent"- nope, never, what are you talking about? She was more like my sister. Haha. I definitely have this...

"Small" traumatic experiences. Nah babe - it's any chronic trauma

How can you teach your body and mind to heal if you are living around the same type of people that caused the trauma

I was dx with C-PTSD two years ago... this sounds almost identical to my experience in childhood. I had to parent and raise myself. 😞

To get treatment for this do we need a psychologist or is a therapist ok?

Isn't C-PTSD not recognized in America? Don't they instead put the symptoms under Borderline personality disorder? And why is that? It seems so neglectful and irresponsible. Please correct me if I'm wrong.

@Frau.P

8 ай бұрын

It ia discussed if borderline and ptbs are the same disorder. To me that is stupid

Between 5 and 25 I was bullied almost everyday from 8am when I was dumped at the bus stop for the school bus until I got home at 5pm. My college years were no different, my room mate was the campus drug dealer who regularly put magic mushroom tea in my food. I was also repeatedly sexually assaulted by a girl in my class between the ages of 5 and 11, and twice by a boy in my maths group as a teenager. This is not all of the traumatic experiences I suffered

Can you do an episode on how pain is just a sensation/state of mind? I hear people in holistic, natural, and spiritual communities say it ALL of the time but they never explain it and I cant find a single video on it, or an article that isnt argumentative anti spiritual people

@drleonardoregio2074

Жыл бұрын

@plentifullollipops8657 I would love to be in your life 🙈

@RepentImmediately

8 ай бұрын

Probably because it's a belief and not a fact... speaking as someone who was deep in a spiritual path for 15 years and ultimately had my own channel for 5, many spiritual communities are echo chambers of beliefs that have no factual base. Beliefs are regurgitated to the point where they become facts in people's minds and people accept certain notions as gospel even though they are not thoroughly explained or proven, but that doesn't make them facts.

..well, damn.

Pardon the question, but @0:27 in are you saying "that was really scary" or "my dad was really scary"? "My dad" makes sense in context. I'm trying to understand if the auto-generated subtitled misheard you and thus mistyped what you had said.

Oh… yeah.

Yup I have CPTSD. The gateways in your brain are totally rewired. Even when things are good it’ll pop up with an episode because your brain is almost addicted to roller coaster rides. It freaking sucks.

When your dad says pack up everything we’re moving and you can’t even have a proper goodbye with all your friends, and you’re only in the 4th grade

I have never met my birth parents I was adopted and this family as a hole abused me in every way you can think of. At the age of 48 I found my birth certificate and found that I had been living a life of lies. My birth certificate blew me away I found I’m not English thank God, but Irish ☘️ I changed my name back to my birth name that my birth mother gave me when I was born. Still missed out on my country my culture and the rest. Just more crap to deal with, at least I’m not English 😅

@Eshrimpski

5 ай бұрын

What is wrong with being English…?

@Jonathan-eh9jq

5 ай бұрын

@@Eshrimpski they had a man called Oliver Cromwell he came over to Ireland and committed genocide, the potato famine, they got there empire by terrorising country’s including Ireland 🇮🇪 and the occupied 6 counties of Northern Ireland

When did CPTSD become only about childhood trauma? I thought it was about long term or multiple trauma. I apparently have CPTSD and I had a very lovely childhood, I lived in an extremely violent area for a year, was originally diagnosed with PTSD, now two years later the diagnosis has changed to CPTSD. Watching video after video saying it’s childhood related is making me feel worse because once again I don’t fit

Yeah

Yeah I have

I remember everything, I just wish my traumas were an angry dad and not the crap I did go through. May be I wouldn't be as screwed up.

When your mother constantly theorised you

I remember most of it

Mood

Definition if ME.

“Consistently exposed to * small * traumatic events”? As someone with that DX for over 20 years that is almost the opposite of my understanding of what makes PTSD “complex”.’ My countless, actual, traumas were anything but “small”. Add in a sexually abusive therapist in my 20s that I was seeing for the physical, emotional and CSA I lived with from a very young age and I don’t even think there is a clinical DX that describes me… other than “completely screwed “.

@Frau.P

8 ай бұрын

Even the difference between "small" and big is falshe to me. But yes, cptbs stems from major, multiple things.

Emdr video should help. What else should I do to heal? Anyone?

@thelordcommander5

Жыл бұрын

Small steps and know this might take a while.

Not just from childhood…

C-PTSD can also come from repeated BIG T traumas................... Such as sexual or physical abuse. Feels wrong to have it explained like this 😠😠

I was good until I suffered extensive medical trauma via gaslighting and wilful negligence, that lasted six years. It ALL came back then and I’m still ass deep. This is a LONG process.

oh oops this was actually triggering uh oh