Flynn and Wes wrestling together and Maisy sitting there silently judging them was everything😂

@emmagreersmith

Жыл бұрын

I was dying 😭😭😭😭

@pink99644

Жыл бұрын

She’s just like: “Brothers… 🙄”

@DarlingDevil4691

Жыл бұрын

@@pink99644 as a sister to an older brother, I 100% agree with Maisy 🤣

@liva4060

Жыл бұрын

such a sister moment

@iosifinaballerina696

Жыл бұрын

I know that was so funny😂🤣

Watching Flynn and Wes wrestle in the bouncy house was just so cute, I don't recall seeing them play like that together in the vlogs! And Maisy giving them side eyes, it was too funny 😂

@rachelotremba8100

Жыл бұрын

Yes! And the music playing when Maisy was judging them was hysterical 🤣

@misscrackwood

Жыл бұрын

@@rachelotremba8100 it was top tier editing, Kory is awesome for making these moments extra special!

Hearing you talk about feeling paralyzed and unable to get out of bed is so affirming as someone who deals with the same thing on almost a daily basis. It is such a hard feeling and I hope you know how much it means to hear you talk so openly about it and I also hope that you know you are not alone in these feelings. I grew up with a mom who had postpartum, and it was sometimes really hard to watch, but knowing how strong she was to go through it, I know you can too - and your children are so lucky to have a mom like you. You're not alone Colleen, and I hope you do what you need to take care of yourself. Thank you.

@leighwhite5634

Жыл бұрын

Serotonin levels are down

@DestructionAesthetics

Жыл бұрын

You're amazing Jenna ❤ keep going

@novaflorencia

Жыл бұрын

i'm so sorry that you're going through that. i hope you know that Jesus loves you so so much and there is hope in Him! sending you a hug 🩷

@sngray11

Жыл бұрын

I also struggle with that from time to time. I am sending you strength, prayers, and positive vibes that the feelings of paralysis and being unable to get out of bed begin to dissipate for you. 💞 Please know that you aren’t alone with your struggles and what you are currently going through. It isn’t easy, but you can get through this. Hopefully you have a good therapist or someone else that you trust to help you get through this trying time. I wish you all the best and am sending lots of love your way. 💗

@Faith-Ireland

Жыл бұрын

I don’t have post partum depression or anything pregnant related since I’ve never had kids but I do have Depression and anxiety. I take Zoloft for it and it helps me feel less worried about worrying lol. But I’ve had a bad week about staying in bed. No energy etc. but next week is a new week and figuring out what works for you would be good.

Colleen, it seems like a great time to get reconnected to your (good) therapist again if you haven't seen her lately. To help offset your risk of things getting worse and to help you navigate the tough mornings and exhausting moments. We love you!

@reneeturcottecicigoi9435

Жыл бұрын

That was gonna be my exact comment. As somebody who has had depression and panic attacks for 33 years, it’s important that we take care of ourselves mentally. I usually end up seeing my therapist at least once every few years. It’s almost like going to a doctor for a physical, except this checks out my mental health. Also, it’s really important to not talk down to yourself. It took me a long time to learn this. I am almost 51 now and I still catch myself thinking bad thoughts about myself. But now I’m able to stop them quicker and change them to something more positive. I really hope you’re feeling better soon. Don’t be ashamed to take time out for mental health self-care ❤

@suepeterson163

Жыл бұрын

I agree

@DestructionAesthetics

Жыл бұрын

The school shootings must be so scary for parents, anyone would be badly triggered by the threat of danger to your babies 😢

@camilagrijalva4109

Жыл бұрын

Agreed.

@trikywu

Жыл бұрын

This is good advice.

The babies laughs make me smile EVERY TIME

@ColleenVlogs

Жыл бұрын

Me toooo! 🥰

@true_billie

Жыл бұрын

@@ColleenVlogs ily!! 🫶🏻

Maisy's love for books and the way she reads is so cute ❤

I LOVE the little belly laughs where they are totally cracking up at Flynn!! There is nothing better!! 💕

I am in NO way an expert, but what you described is super similar to how I felt during my burn-out. My partner became chronically ill half a year before and so I became a carer, but at the same time I was still in college, writing my thesis, and also working 20h a week. And I just literally, physically, at one point could not do anything on my to do list. No matter how small. I felt strangled in my own body, still do sometimes.

@AreebaHaroon

Жыл бұрын

Do you have any tips for dealing with burnout?

@ColleenVlogs

Жыл бұрын

This is exactly how I feel recently! 😢 “strangled in my own body” is the perfect way to describe it. Thanks for helping me to feel seen and less alone by sharing that. I’ll bring it up with my therapist and see what she has to say. ❤ sending you love.

@mirjamschaart

Жыл бұрын

@Areeba Haroon For sure professional help is always best. But what helped me most was doing things that make me happy. Even if that meant not doing a task that was actually kind of important. Prioritising my happiness helped so much! And never beating myself up over tasks I did not get to do, always celebrating task I did get done🩷

@mirjamschaart

Жыл бұрын

@Colleen Vlogs So sorry you feel that way, it's awful! But happy my comment made you feel less alone, because truly, you are never alone! And your feelings are always valid❤️

so excited to watch this!!! love you guys 💖

This just made my whole morning. Your family is so cute! 💗💗💗

Thank you so much for sharing! I am constantly watching your videos and feeling so understood. I am going through the same feeling right now so I totally get it. Hope you are feeling better soon much love ❤

Hearing someone else who experiences these spiraling thoughts filled with self-loathing just like me is really reassuring. I am constantly beating myself up over things I have done or not done and perseverate constantly. Thank you for always being so transparent; it is more appreciated than you will ever know! I love you!

Thank you for being so open you help me so much and make me feel better because i know I’m not alone and other people feel this way❤

I love how real you always are. I’ve learned so much from watching your blogs and I really appreciate it and you

Sending you lots of love and support, Depression sucks I know I have it as well as anxiety, and what few people realize is that it's not something that goes away. Whenever I have a good few months and I think I’ve gotten over the worst of my depression, it silently returns. This isn’t a battle I asked to fight. I’m tired of knowing it’s always coming back. That is what few people realize about depression. So I fully understand your frustration about it and sending you lots of love.

i love watching your vloggs so much. you’re so real and a beautiful soul. i’m sorry you’re feeling depressed/ going through depression. it was extremely hard, especially mixing adhd with it. you are strong and will get through it!! don’t beat yourself up for not being able to get out of bed. just take it one day at a time. 💜💗

hi colleen!! i'm not a therapist but from my own experience, when i felt depressed for no reason, my mom sent me to get some blood work, and we found out that my vitamin d levels are abnormally low and thats what causes my depressive episodes that have no real triggers. i dont know how it works for everyone but with me, it was due to poor diet and not being outside enough. i hope this helps anyone!!

I'm going through this right now.. I had my baby on January 1st and just went back to work. I don't want to leave him. Even leaving him with his father isn't soothing to me. I've had so many breakdowns since going back to work. You have definitely helped me through my pregnancy, the birth, and now my postpartum. I just want to say thank you so very much for all of your honesty and for allowing us to see that you're not just a famous KZreadr who fakes it for the camera. You are a human who shows us your feelings and you try to relate to us.

@Greenislife

Жыл бұрын

This is heartbreaking 💔 I wish you could be home with your baby as long as you want!

@dolphinattack55

Жыл бұрын

@LittlePeculiar thank you! I wish every mother was able to stay home with their baby for the first year without having to worry about money. There are some countries that have longer maternity leaves, and they are paid. It just sad that the US hasn't come to the realization yet that the first year of a babies life is critical.

@Greenislife

Жыл бұрын

@@dolphinattack55 yeah, the US is sadly behind there. I live in Sweden and as a single parent i get 480 days maternity leave for my baby, it should be a minimum of 2 years everywhere in my opinion.

I had a really bad, really overwhelming day today, but watching this vlog helped me unwind and feel normal again- thank you so much for posting

Colleen, I have watched you for years and have always seen you as a big sister to us. Giving yourself grace and knowing it is okay to not be okay is how we get through hard times. You are doing an amazing job🤍

Thank you for being so open and honest Colleen! Your videos help me get through stormy and dark days❤

COLLEEN-As someone who holds a degree in the science of psychology, I want to tell you, I'm proud of you for trying something new! I know it may have only been a few minutes in your back yard, but swinging that bat at the ball is good for your brain health. When we exercise our minds by trying new things, it forces our brains to adapt to new ways of thinking and this is actually good for our mental health too. Also, in those moments of anxiety, in the perfect way you described a glass filling upto the top, squeezing our breath from us, inducing a panic- It's REALLY helpful to try to remember to take VERY SLOW DEEP BREATHS, maybe even close your eyes. When monitoring patients with electrodes, breathing exercises proved to calm electrical storms in the brain! Love watching you and your lovely heart. ❤

The way you explained your first anxiety attack resonates so much with me I remember trying to explain my anxiety to someone when it was at its highest as a jar of water that just kept filling and filling until it I was drowning in it and just couldn’t handle it. Also love love love boots #2

It means so much that you’re so open about your mental health. It helps me more than you know. ❤

I never comment but i’ve been watching you for yearsss. I just want to let you know I really appreciate you speaking on your experience with depression. I’ve had an experience i’d never had before recently where I felt all kinds of emotions that i’ve never felt and I didn’t have a reason for feeling them. (Im getting help now, yay) It freaked me out, but knowing that other people have those feelings as well makes me feel hopeful. Watching your vlogs warms my heart and reminds me sadness and anxiety are temporary feelings. So thank you queen, love you🥰

I send you much love and support Colleen!!!

The beginning where you described depression was so relatable. Thank you for sharing. I don’t know if my depression will ever go away. I feel this way every day.

Hi Colleen, I just wanted to let you know how inspiring your videos can be. Your always doing something fun with or for your kids even when your having a hard day. Watching your videos always makes me excited to be a mom one day. 💕

The same thing happened to me the other day. Couldn’t not get out of bed. You got this Colleen!

Please Colleen. Give your kids their privacy back. Kids are not content, and it should be THEIR decision if they want to be online or not. #QuitClickingKids

April is Mental Health Awareness Month and these types of conversations are really important to have! I’ve suffered from clinical depression my whole life but went untreated until I was 30. And let me tell ya, once I got medicated, my life turned around. I feel like yours is compounded by your ADHD and dermatillomania. You are loved!!

Heyy Colleen! Sending love from Lithuania!! 😊

It’s interesting how you describe the feeling of being in a cup of water filling up to explain your anxiety. I use a similiar thing - it’s like I’m treading water in the ocean and the waves just get worse and worse. Currently in the middle of a depressive episode too right now, so sending my love.

Thank you so much for sharing your mental health struggles. It makes me feel less alone. I love you!!

A helpful tip my therapist gave me was to not focus so much on the why. There are days where I’m depressed & I want so badly to figure out why because then, I think I can control/avoid it next time. But, in reality, you can’t. Instead of hyperfocusing on the why, my therapist just told me to validate my feelings “I am feeling depressed and that’s okay.” I’ve found that this is helpful because there isn’t always a trigger to trace it to. Like Colleen said, sometimes, it just creeps up on you & there’s no rhyme or reason.

I was listening to the podcast after watching the vlog about you trying the clothes on you ordered and I was sooo frustrated how you said „I literally never buy clothes online for myself“ when your last vlog was about that lol 😂😂😂

I have the same doc martins, wear them a lot Colleen. They get sooo comfortable when you wear them a lot. Trust me.

I'm also dealing with out-of-nowhere depression and a bunch of other weird physical/mental symptoms right now. It's so confusing and frustrating and it freaks me out. And sometimes I end up spiraling into an even worse state by thinking "why is this happening? is something wrong with me? does this mean it's going to happen all the time now?" But it's affirming and honestly a bit calming to hear you talk about your experience. Thank you so much for sharing and sorry you're dealing with this. I hope we can both find the courage to lean on people for support, and that we'll find some relief soon.

Love the kitty vest! 😻 & love you!

Omg I’ve been waiting for something like thissss

0:23 I’ve felt the same way for the past couple months. You’re not alone, thank you for what you do : )

Anxiety is so incredibly draining and confusing, i also myself struggle with anxiety, Ive been through the stuff that you explained such as feeling anxious when I’m alone or not feeling well, trust me it’s not something you’ll feel forever. I suggest finding a therapist you like and just doing the things you enjoy! Anxiety is a very scary confusing thing and it’s hard to get through but I promise you it’s possible🫶 love you Colleen!!

Just, now that you have all those sad feelings, try to keep care of yourself. Many times we forget ourselves in this pregnancy and motherhood journey. As better you are as better your kids will be. Don't worry Colleen. Lots of love from Spain ❤

these kids are so free to express themselves, they are so smart i love watching them grow

I'm so sorry you're dealing with your depression being bad at the moment - right there with you. Grateful for you though because this video reminded me I needed to reorder my meds! 😅

White boots definitely!. I think the taller ones were having a MOMENT! definitely a good vibe. You can't go wrong with either white boot!

My Doc Martens were super uncomfy when I first got them too, but after I wore them for a while and broke them in they got a lot more comfortable and have lasted me for years and years! So maybe if you wear those super cute boots a bit more they might get more comfy :)

Good Evening Colleen! Wes and Maisy are cool! I love how the twins and Flynn laugh together. Love your vlogs so much!! Love chocolate, hugs.

I am so excited to see your show tomoreow

I love this video so much, and I’m always looking for routine like videos with babies, could you do a day routine with time stamps? Is that a weird request?😂😂

OMGGG IM EARLY AND COLLEEN I WATCH YOU EVERYNIGHT BEFORE I GO TO BED YOUR AN AMAZING MOTHER WITH BEAUTIFUL KIDS

YOUR SHIRT IS AMAZING!!!

Hi colleen I love your videos I have watched every single podcast and video love you ❤

usually when i can’t find a reason, i tend to think of the collective. maybe i’m just feeling and being a vessel for all of our dread, and i hold a space for it as long as i can. so. i wish you the time and space to work through these waves the best way you can!

I struggle with that feeling of paralysis pretty much every day, and I have since I can remember. It wasn't until university when I finally started to go to therapy that it became apparent that that feeling of paralysis was due to trauma I had experienced, but never fully processed. For me personally, I started practising somatic experiencing and nervous system regulation with my therapist to help foster feelings of calm and safety in my body. That did wonders for me. I still struggle to get out of bed most days now, but I am able to manage it so much better because I have the tools to do so. It doesn't control my life or my mind anymore, it's more like a side character in my life :) maybe nervous system regulation could be worth looking into for you!

I was feeling like this a couple days ago and couldn’t stop crying. I work from home and was crying while working.

THE TWINS ARE GROWING UP TOO FAST 😭

@sarenamacias

Жыл бұрын

FR😭😭😭

@24K_TRXPVIBEZ

Жыл бұрын

IKR

@amysimms4518

Жыл бұрын

THEY AREE

@belleclaire910

Жыл бұрын

They were just born 😭😭

@Peas286

Жыл бұрын

They really are ❤

I AM SO SPORTSSSS😂 the most Colleen thing I’ve ever heard

Rewatching your vlogs because I miss you Colleen

From a nurse: Watch out with bath bombs with kids. They can cause urinary tract infections easily just FYI. I love you gurl!

@ColleenVlogs

Жыл бұрын

Omg! I didn’t know that! I got a “child safe” one so I thought it would be okay. I feel so dumb. 😩 Thank you for letting me know!!!!! No more bath bombs! 🙅🏻‍♀️

@mommy4life602

Жыл бұрын

@Colleen Vlogs don't even sweat it love. You love your kiddos so much and I know you never would do anything to hurt them. You're such a great mom!

Omg I am so early!! Love your family your family is so beautiful❤❤

My favorite bath bombs are from Basin! They are amazing! I got my first set from downtown disney in orlando!

Thanks for your honesty in your depression. I understand this so much.

I agree im trying to get my school to have a green ribbon week so we all learn what mental heath really is and its more than depression and that there is more like anxiety and how to help your friends or others who have mental health issues. And you will get through this hard time like you always do :)

I like the short white! Will be at Nashville show with my daughter! So excited😀🎉

Exactly! I totally relate to You.

On the topic of depression. Girl...same. I've been so snappy recently then I get so sad and I feel sick and so exhausted. Then the cycle starts again. So frustrating!

Early! Colleen I love you so much!

Colleen, you are so brave for talking about this, unfortunately we live in this world that make we believe that we aren't enough in anything. We are not good enough, we are not smart enough, we are not efficient enough, we are not productive enough, but guess what you are a badass mama who deserve self love and is doing the best she can! Your kids are so lucky to have you as their mother and you are doing great, hope you can feel better soon! Xx 💕

Guuuuuurrrllll same. I feel exactly the same. YOU ARE NOT ALONE. ♥️

Thank you for making me smile today 😊 and I’ve been there! Depression is a real pain. Also TTQ: what is kory and Erik’s relationship like? Are they friends?

I love your channel and videos ❤

I really appreciate your mental health realness - a lot of us are dealing with anxiety and depression day to day and different things work for different people - especially while raising kids! One of my main issues while raising young kiddos was starting myself down a shame depression spiral that would paralyze me - My counselor suggested me read the book "The Upward Spiral" and it was a great book that both helped me understand brain chemicals and the link to depression anxiety and to catch myself when going into a shame spiral. Other things that helped get me out of the funk was mindfulness practices, accomplishing small tasks, and moments of gratitude. Best of luck on your continuing journey through the dark and finding your light :)

@ColleenVlogs

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for the suggestion! I’m gonna order that book now! ❤

BOOTS NUMBER TWO! The white tall cowboy boots! Stunning!

The high white boots with the sparkling dress gives me Taylor Swift vibes in the best way!❤

Tortilla talk: I’m 17 and suffer from anxiety and depression, a few weeks ago I had my first full on panic attack where I was sobbing and felt like I couldn’t breathe, personally I prefer to be alone whenever this happens. My question is, whenever you get these anxiety attacks, what do you do to help yourself get through it? What are your coping mechanisms? I watch your videos every day and it helps me stay in the moment and it’s become such a routine, thank you!

@MissAdeleJayde

Жыл бұрын

If you’re somewhere where this is available, grab an ice pack and hold it to your chest. It helps reduce my panic attacks to at least a manageable level so I’m functional enough to go through other coping mechanisms.

@abby3448

Жыл бұрын

@@MissAdeleJayde Thank you so much, I will try to do that!

@christinereinelt5172

Жыл бұрын

@@MissAdeleJayde I’ll have to try this as well, thanks for the tip

@cate5834

Жыл бұрын

or put your face in ice cold water there is some sciencey thing that happens to forces your nervous system to calm down. also what helps for me is trying to embrace the feeling i know it sounds weird but for me its like bring it on! that sometimes makes it go away

@maddied3886

Жыл бұрын

Another great one is called 5 Senses where u point out 5 things u see 4 things you hear 3 things u feel and 2 things you taste

I love how interested in reading she is! have you considered getting her letter cards?

That depression is so present at the time I. Life when we should be happy is tough. It feels so unfair that we first go through this massive physical burden that pregnancy is and then because it's not enough there are depressions, physical health problems and all this pressure and guilt that others and we ourselves put on us. I am so glad you have your family and friends to support you this much.

9:37 Mazie's having a blast meanwhile her brothers are...well... being brothers 😂😂😂🥰

TTQ: will you ever talk about your prev marriage?

I haven't watched in so long due to having my own baby and going back to work full time. Those babies are SO big now.. I can't believe it. ❤️❤️

never stop being you colleen!! i LOVE your videos and how you are always so open and real! love you you’re doing great!!

I think the first boots go good with the dress. There a shorter pair, just like the dress (: Side note: always say this, always will. but you are such a joy to Watch every single day. The fact that your job is just going on KZread and on tour making people laugh and feel happy by telling your silly life story and Miranda is so cool! And you really enjoy it too, which shows how much of a genuine person you are. You have been a role model for me for so manny years, showing that whatever or whoever comes your way to try to stop you from doing the things you love, it’s not our problem it’s theres. We can choose to forget it and just move on with our weird selfs and nothing will change about us, only make us stronger sometimes. And if your kids have a mom teaching them that message every day that explains there Joy, Enthusiasm, and kind heart. We all love you Colleen, don’t ever forget it. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE 💕🙃

You can talk to us about anything colleen we all love you and everything will be okay and you are blessing angel ❤

It could be burnout as well. I sometimes will go through periods were I’m so depressed for no reason and a lot of times it’s solely because I’ve had too much going on and I got too overwhelmed and needed to shut down for a little bit. I hope you feel better soon.

Omg that elephant 😭😭😭😭 I remember Flynn loving it, time flies by so quickly

I wait all day for you to post!!! Love you Colleen! Im currently 35 weeks and 3 days pregnant and so depressed and over it. You help me feel better. -Jewell

@JoanieBowers

Жыл бұрын

❤ wishing you a wonderful birth of your baby. 🎉

The twins are SO in love with Flynn! 😍

I’m staring at a bottle of antidepressants and readying myself to take the first step of starting them to make me feel better like I know they will. Mental health is so hard. Thanks for being so open about your struggles, it’s a huge comfort to have you alongside me in my own journey!

@alexandriaedwards10

Жыл бұрын

Sending you light and love! Proud of you for taking a step. You are not alone ❤

@kellsbells3703

Жыл бұрын

You got this!! One day at a time.

Maisy reading you the phrases she knows is SO stinkin' cute 🥺

Def go with the tall white boots

love from Argentina!!! ❤

I loooveee the bond between ALL the brothers!! Flynn and Wesley are the cutest!!! And meisey…. 😍😍😍 (sorry if i destroyed the kids names’ spelling)

Hi Colleen! First! I love you and your family! ❤️💗❤️

colleen your hair looks so good

Colleen ❤ you have had the most stressful 2 years. Your feelings make sense. Book that vacation!

wow the way i can relate so hard about the depression creeping up... I do the same thing where i get extremely unproductive and then wake up angry with myself and cope with my resentment of myself by being even more unproductive. the paralysis takes over and i can't do anything. i'm in college and assignments are starting to snowball and idk how i'm going to get everything done. at least you and i aren't alone. i hope you get too behind and you feel better. :( :)

Absolutely love ur cat shirt so cute ❤

so cutteee i love you

I love how Colleen says (about the boots at the end) that "they're dr marten "type" boots." But they literally are Dr Martens lol. And yes, any and all Dr Martens are and will forever be cool and cute 😍