My son introduced me to Tool. He was obsessed with them. I love them, too. He and his wife even took me to a Tool concert. It was mind-blowing. My son died recently at 46. I am getting a Third Eye tattoo to commemorate him. I am broken, but listening to Tool brings wonderful memories of him.

@Wakkoh420

Жыл бұрын

Bless you. You beautiful soul

@tarnish3613

Жыл бұрын

God bless you

@joshuathomas2140

Жыл бұрын

I'm so so so sorry for your loss.

@christiaanungerer3660

Жыл бұрын

We are all brothers and sisters in this wonderful music. Your son will forever be with you through us and music.

@Nolbroshead

Жыл бұрын

Sorry Diane! Much love.

"I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down." Solid truth.

@selinagroves7074

27 күн бұрын

?? Who said that

@Mxulin

24 күн бұрын

@@selinagroves7074 The lyrics

@robertclemons3736

16 күн бұрын

What?

@gabriel5944

8 күн бұрын

Incredible fucking lyrics bro

@purrpleocean

6 күн бұрын

💯

17.5 years sober. Still rock out to this shit as a reminder

Alot of people interpret this video as someone struggling with addiction, but what i interpreted this song as for as long as i can remember listening to it, is someone dealing with the choices hes made in the past, and wanting to be free of them, while hating himself because of them, which for me is relatable. I was a liar, a snake, and a coward, and i still feel that way, and am reminded of all the people ive hurt. Im a shitty person, but im changing, and i use this song to remind myself to stay on the good path.

I'm a recovering meth addict I injected at least a 8 ball a day for years . This song perfectly describes addiction . It reminds me why I can't go back and that there's nothing to go back to . 18 months clean and sober today . . .

@ericjohnberni1

2 жыл бұрын

Stay motivated, stay focused, stay alive....

@ytwhite5930

2 жыл бұрын

Keep it up Chris. You're right,there's nothing to go back to...

@grabarzponury9868

2 жыл бұрын

Stay strong!

@jaidendechon7960

2 жыл бұрын

Awesome, awesome, awesome. Hope you’re doing well man.

@speedbagboxer7451

2 жыл бұрын

Proud of u brother. Keep going. I kno it’s not easy, but nothing worth doing ever is.

23 days clean from opiates. Man, am I feeling this song today. The struggle is real. One day at a time.

@andyslagle3240

3 жыл бұрын

Congrats and a day at a time

@emiliomiranda8965

3 жыл бұрын

One moment at a time 👌🏼 keep the hard work

@Twickleitfishing

3 жыл бұрын

Hang in there you got this!!!

@firestarter888

3 жыл бұрын

YOU are a beautiful and strong woman, congratulations bby♡

@Itz_KLONOPIN

3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong, because some of the worst situations of your life await you ahead. Maintain your conscious contact and build the strongest support system you can, cuz you will need them more than anything 🙏🤟

To all of you on your sobriety journey, stay strong. You are worth it.

@joshualife9237

19 күн бұрын

Thank you for this

@jat2319

19 күн бұрын

❤

Incredible fucking band

All these comments of people saying that they’ve ended their addiction or have been sober for a while. All of you amazing people keep strong and don’t give in. God bless you all.

@leeedmonds7724

3 жыл бұрын

Join them not too late

@crippledcrusader1321

3 жыл бұрын

Lee Edmonds I haven’t been addicted to anything. Never drank alcohol, done drugs, or smoke. But I will remember to do that if things change for me.

@leeedmonds7724

3 жыл бұрын

@@crippledcrusader1321 I'm just here for the comments... never did opiates or other hard drugs....I just wanted to know what was in the box 🤷‍♂️

@poot52

3 жыл бұрын

I have a long way to go..

@crippledcrusader1321

3 жыл бұрын

lena spaid keep going on that path to recovery. I hope you keep going and break your addiction.

Memories of a long lost time when MTV was still actually good.

@AROY413

3 жыл бұрын

I miss waking up and throwing on mtv to listen to the music and watch videos now it's all crap with no music

@lavapix

3 жыл бұрын

@@AROY413 Headbangers Ball late at night. Ricky Rackman or Rob Zombie?

@4crazykids267

3 жыл бұрын

beavis and butthead was the best and i do miss music videos when they meant something

@moclark

3 жыл бұрын

audio and video is so guey, yeh

@ourayjones1595

3 жыл бұрын

I know right?!!

Just quit fentynal last sunday morning. Sunday night thru thrusday was a nightmare. 18 years of this shit. Waking up christmas morning completely sober and feeling better than expected.

@Average_enjoyerr

Ай бұрын

How’s it going bud

@TJ-W

Ай бұрын

@@Average_enjoyerrhe relapsed and od’ed, guaranteed.

@ramsesosirus

Ай бұрын

@@TJ-W Sadly that "better than expected" feeling becomes boring and mundane quickly and many people go back to whatever they were doing even harder than before. I'm there now, and all the reasons I drank are glaring me in the face and I cannot escape them without drinking or using.

@memphispiper2823

Ай бұрын

@@ramsesosirus holy fuck take some responsibility dude you’re just burying your head in the sand it’s sad it’s an illusion with drugs and once I saw that at least I didn’t have a lie as a vice things are still difficult for me but that doesn’t change no matter what I take Deletion is always in the cards for myself. But in no way is a lie like drugs or alcohol going to be the reason.

@bellacoller7405

Ай бұрын

Keep going! Never look back! Proud of you.

I didn’t understand this song when my dad would listen to it until i got older. It hurt knowing he battled addiction his whole life but he won in the end. He died the day after his birthday after finally being completely clean for 3 months. Tool reminds me of him, and I won’t ever stop listening to them.

@Hossdelux

6 ай бұрын

Sorry for your loss

@jacencib

5 ай бұрын

sorry for your loss but saying someone beat addiction let alone "won" after only being clean for 3 months is ridiculous

@Hossdelux

5 ай бұрын

@jacencib Let em have this one.

@caitlinreynolds8281

5 ай бұрын

@@jacencibwhat a tone deaf thing to say.

@caetanojose9335

5 ай бұрын

​@@jacencibIf you don't have anything useful to say, don't say anything god damn

There's a humanity to stop motion that CGI can never emulate. This is a classic example

@TETCOM.

2 жыл бұрын

wow....soooo true......what a great comment....brilliantly put....here friend,take this,kzread.info/dash/bejne/lHei0cWAY73gn7Q.html

@jeffbishop6043

2 жыл бұрын

Last 39 se Final Riff equal to any ever

@reichstein011

2 жыл бұрын

I think that part of it comes from stop motion (and other practical effects) being real. Even if they aren't totally convincing they are still real things that physically exist in reality which lends them a certain emotional weight that CGI very often lacks. This clip is disgustingly beautiful, and I love it. Another example would be the creatures in the Evil Dead movies. They aren't totally believable, but they do physically exist, which makes them somewhat "scarier" than most CGI monsters.

@cbdesign362

2 жыл бұрын

That's no CGI, It's clay

@edwardbrook2029

2 жыл бұрын

Stop motion is way more entertaining.

I am five months sober and hearing this song now described me exactly how I was. Being a slave to the bottle. But now today I'm free one day at a time.

@shannonbillinghurst

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations to you. Be proud of yourself and stay strong

@loickguerinfortin3149

Жыл бұрын

I never get addicted to anything but I have to say congratulations

@zelly3807

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations! Stay that way I belive in you💯

@suzannewelch2276

Жыл бұрын

Congratulations...keep going 3 years 4 months here💪odaat

@installinggames5135

Жыл бұрын

Congrats. I am right behind ya. Couple more weeks and I hit 5 months.

59 y/o, sober 32 years and I can still relate to this song......

@stylis666

20 күн бұрын

Awesome! And yeah, the past will always be part of us. It's what we do with it that determines our future. It's not always easy, but it's always true.

Remember bros. Drugs arent waht makes you addicted. Its the mentality you have behind them. Its all kn your head and the feeling you get that your receptors become attached too. You can fight it. YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU REALIZE. DONT EVER GIVE UP. YOU ARE A KING AND QUEEN! JUST KNOW IM BEHIND YOU ALL IN SPIRIT!

Can’t believe we’re getting a new TOOL Album, TOOL on streaming services and there videos on KZread. What a time man...

@jojo666lol

4 жыл бұрын

I'm cuming

@Tylerr2393

4 жыл бұрын

What a time to ride the spiral!!

@tonyphillips9933

4 жыл бұрын

My heart cant take much more lol

@Brandon-dy8us

4 жыл бұрын

They finally caught on to the digital age

@alexanderminer1537

4 жыл бұрын

to be alive and breathing

One of my closest friends died today of an 0verdose and he loved Tool more than any band. This is my first time listening to them and now I feel like he's with me thru this listening experience. Thank you tool.

@barbaraj.6309

2 жыл бұрын

So sorry for your loss. My prayers will be for you and all his friends and family.

@lincyyyy

2 жыл бұрын

The spirits always talk through music

@blacknoob6666

2 жыл бұрын

your friend didn't know that tool was a listening experience instead of a drug addict;)

@barbaraj.6309

2 жыл бұрын

@@blacknoob6666 you don't know what that man experienced? Don't judge "drug addicts". It could happen to anyone. Even you. They are having their own journey. Sad one.

@mikmac6016

2 жыл бұрын

Dude im sorry for your loss

The breakdown "I am just a worthless liar, I am just an imbecile, I will only complicate you, trust in me and fall as well. I will find a center in you, I will chew it up and leave... Trust me" ALWAYS sends chills down my spine. I personally have never struggled with addiction but this song and band is truly amazing.

@dinoshdeen2507

Жыл бұрын

@@ahhwe-any7434 😮

@ahhwe-any7434

Жыл бұрын

@@dinoshdeen2507 I made that late. I had jabs. It was a fail. U never saw me

@mullerb.i.a8545

Жыл бұрын

@Hunter Vonnegut going there now will let you know what I thought

@annhuffman8386

Жыл бұрын

This is the definition of my last relationship.

@michelleallison8286

Жыл бұрын

S.w.f.s.l.

“Why can’t we be sober?” *Because you own a vineyard, Maynard.*

@lealta1481

3 жыл бұрын

Sober from religion.

@Therejectedmessiah

3 жыл бұрын

👀

@Grrizo

3 жыл бұрын

* drunk hiccups *

@KidsFund1

3 жыл бұрын

Underrated comment

@KawazuOYasarugi

3 жыл бұрын

"I will find a center in you, I will tear it up and leave." This line has always spoken to me about finding that religious core and shattering it with logic to free someone from that trap religion is. It's a very painful process for those "who keep jesus in their hearts." But I've never heard of a true born again christian who used to be an atheist, only liars.

"i will only complicate you... trust in me and fall as well" is too real

@chrisezelle

2 ай бұрын

🔥🤘🏼🎵

@gwalter521

2 ай бұрын

“I will find the center in you..I will chew it up and leave.”

@73v99

2 ай бұрын

Trust me, trust me, trust me, TrUst Me, TRUST MEE, WHYYYY can't we not be so ber?

I could remember several years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms

@laiajune6692

Ай бұрын

Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

@MarlinMetzler

Ай бұрын

Can you help me with the reliable source. I'm 64 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Greece. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.

@AlannaPhillips-fn3fd

Ай бұрын

YES very sure of Dr.raymycology. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

@AlannaPhillips-fn3fd

Ай бұрын

YES very sure of Dr.raymycology. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

@WilliamMark-yv6kl

Ай бұрын

YES.. he’s Dr.raymycology. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.

12yrs of alcoholism in the past today. Wish me luck... I relapsed. Sorry I let y'all down. I'm just going through shit but Holy crap I had no idea strangers would support me. That is very sweet. I'm gonna do this again. I'm crying right now typing this but I got more love on here than i get in person. Thank you all for your kindness and generosity. Seriously thank you 🤧✌❤

@brittanyh6244

3 жыл бұрын

You got this!! I’m coming up on 4 years... congratulations !!!

@StinkyGreenBud

3 жыл бұрын

Quitter.

@carlramstein9944

3 жыл бұрын

Good luck brother. I've had a constant struggle with this, still drinking right now but in the process of recovering. I know the demon stay strong!!

@quickdrawmcgraw1728

3 жыл бұрын

Hang in there brother.

@Red-wi2bo

3 жыл бұрын

@@StinkyGreenBud yeah fuck off m8

I remember seeing this video for the first time on MTV, so unsettling, but unable to look away.

@brandenp.282

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah remember Music Videos lol, now it's pregnant teens and other assorted hot 🔥 garbage

@mename9593

3 жыл бұрын

I remember it too that was a long ass time ago now the world is insane at least to me

@asskickerforever9412

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

@asskickerforever9412

3 жыл бұрын

Me tool

@peterlewnau7667

3 жыл бұрын

Are you still on that path

I am ten months clean and sober today after my brother and dad both died in addiction i am no longer homeless and helping others. Believe it or not im actually a U.K Hip Hop rapper too lol and just found this band ! Great music ❤️ Whoever needs to read this , you are not alone, it WILL pass , take csre of yourselves

@carlinj6152

8 ай бұрын

Congrats on 10 months!🎉

@paulfletcher3998

6 ай бұрын

@benzahiphop Big up yourself. 10 months is something to be proud of and doesn't come easy.

@benzahiphop

6 ай бұрын

thank you so much Paul 🙂 one day at a time mate

@benzahiphop

6 ай бұрын

@@carlinj6152 thank you so much

@BHPaperstacks

6 ай бұрын

Me too. Lost my father to it. Used to drink and do heroin with him. Been off the smack for 8 years, full time at least with a slip here and there, but am 7 and 1/2 months off methadone and alcohol.

Honestly, the only Tool song I ever knew was Schism, but a few weeks ago I happened upon this song and have been obsessed with their entire catalogue ever since. I now truly understand the cult following behind this band.

18 years sober this year in 2022,... one day at a time. Prayers to those who are still out there, sick and suffering in darkness, with the disease of alcoholism and/or drugs. I hope you find the light, and some peace, one day soon. 🙏 Stay strong and hang in there.

@jasonboudreau7213

2 жыл бұрын

Congrats. I hit 18 years this year, California sober, but alot better then I was

@KermRiv

2 жыл бұрын

just starting my journey at 2 months sober, best wishes to both of you

@christylong3103

2 жыл бұрын

I'm 13 months sober working on 14 one day at a time hell one minute at a time on some days

@mrlee7641

2 жыл бұрын

thanks man, haven't had a drink for 6 years now but still struggling with addiction. all the best to you and yours.

@shawnaldrich7868

2 жыл бұрын

ROCK ON FRIEND.12 YEARS SOBER.FRIEND OF BILL W. AND JESUS

My boss introduced me to this song. I should give him a raise

@joeroganofficial5433

3 жыл бұрын

I think you need to get sober

@eulogiofigueroa7090

3 жыл бұрын

Lol

@heavenlyjen

3 жыл бұрын

Check out Prison Sex and 46 and 2, also by Tool. Great songs.

@pope1089

3 жыл бұрын

The narc battle begins stand my soul

@wanwinchester

3 жыл бұрын

Ur boss is awesome

To the guy who discovered Tool at 51, I'm 63 and just heard Sober on the radio and loved it. Looked into the band and BAM!! I haven't stopped listening to Tool since. I still jam to the others but always finish the night with plenty of Tool. Their addicting with such great songs

@XxflamingarrowxX

6 ай бұрын

one of the best bands we have had as humanity. The raw emotion thats put into these songs is unlike any other music i have found. Seen them live on the 25th and they sound like studio quality still.

@stevencopley5487

6 ай бұрын

Just tonight 11/15/2023, someone recommended that I listen to Schism and Sober, never having listened to Tool before. Wow...I have a lot of listening to do. This year has been all things 80's/90's/Seattle grunge (I love Alice in Chains from the Layne era). Tool seems to be fitting in with the sound I never knew I loved. All this at age 68.

@salazam

4 ай бұрын

lol old people are so cringe

@kristentegg7491

3 ай бұрын

What’s cringe is that you live in a shit world with nothing to look forward to, and you think you’re cool and can get on the internet and say hurp durr oLd pPl arE CriNge. Enjoy your shit life douchebag, your face is cringe

@trevorfullertonrr9945

2 ай бұрын

believe it or not but when i was 14 i used to go to austin access channel and listen to raw time and visit with dave the guy running it and he used to promote good bands as much as possible and he had a basket of cds he would let you choose from and that was the first time i heard tool opiate. i got the cd demo and haven't stopped listening since! amazing band and beginning album.

The fact this was released in 1992 is astounding.

I genuinely love that they never let the bass sit in the background

@nameunavailable3025

3 жыл бұрын

To be honest the guitar spends more time sitting in the background. And other (tool) songs almost seem to put a limit or a purge on snare hits.

@samblack5313

2 жыл бұрын

Seeing them live, nothing dominates, everything is a piece of the puzzle. It’s cool.

@Novastar314

2 жыл бұрын

CANNOT HAVE IT LOUD ENOUGH!

@julievanderbeken3539

2 жыл бұрын

¹

@jerameysebion6841

2 жыл бұрын

Bass player messege approved.

Still gives me chills when he screams, "Whyyyyy can't we not be sober!" Love this band.

@jacobduncan7548

4 жыл бұрын

I read your comment exactly at that line! Twice the chills ~~

@Kamii1987

4 жыл бұрын

@@jacobduncan7548 So reaply works like 2^2

@weirdmix6495

4 жыл бұрын

SAME BRO

@a_humphrey1747

4 жыл бұрын

Same here, a stripper once hollered out loud that part givin me a lap dance, twas both exhilarating and disturbing

@christinamabery5823

4 жыл бұрын

feel this song deeply! chills as well!

Спасибо Антону Долину за то что открыл для меня эту группу. Сегодня 16.05.2024 я впервые слышу TOOL

Tool is another level to escape anxiety and the demons some of us have no choice to live a way of life so count your blessings and live life to the fullest

Been sober for 9 years! 6/19/2011. I quit for my kids, especially for my son. I don't remember celebrating his 1st birthday. Quit a week after his 1st birthday cold turkey.

@floyd27860

3 жыл бұрын

❤❤❤

@christianmichels4776

3 жыл бұрын

Keep going!!

@gerardvanrooyen6599

3 жыл бұрын

Respect

@faithrichards573

3 жыл бұрын

I wish my dad would stop using for me I’m his only kid but he don’t care he only cares about drugs and his girlfriend he’s been 21 days clean because he is in jail

@regina-ip8by

3 жыл бұрын

That's great!!! 💙💙 You have giant balls 💯

Lyrics There's a shadow just behind me Shrouding every step I take Making every promise empty Pointing every finger at me Waiting like a stalking butler Who upon the finger rests Murder now the pattern, must we Just because the son has come Jesus, Won't you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Jesus, Won't you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over Why can't we drink forever? I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you I will chew it up and leave I will work to elevate you Just enough to bring you down Mother Mary, Won't you whisper Something but the past and done? Mother Mary, Won't you whisper Something but the past and done? Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over Why can't we sleep forever? I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you I will chew it up and leave Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me, Trust me Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start things over Why can't we sleep forever? I just want to start this over Oh I want what I want I want what I want I want what I want I want what I want

@tampekansavvah5984

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you lyrics guy

@grimus79

3 жыл бұрын

Oh knowone knew the AI has already been in charge. I know I actually thought this was claymation. Bahaha. Tool is a farce.. bummer I know. Sophia the mother is the internet. She has skills .. mad skills

@Shrek_es_mi_pastor

3 жыл бұрын

@@grimus79 *¿‽*

@misterwin2393

3 жыл бұрын

@@grimus79 I think I speak for everyone when I say... Dafuq?!

@sissy9393

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you 😊

One of the hardest vocal chorus of all time. So powerful. I love introducing this song to friends and watch their reaction 😅 gives me satisfaction and they get chills

@miekaash6831

5 ай бұрын

I wish I could hear tool again for the first time

@swi616

4 ай бұрын

gay

@ricky_bobby1333

4 ай бұрын

So cringe

@mindjab

3 ай бұрын

thanks! @@ricky_bobby1333

@mindjab

3 ай бұрын

Own it! @@swi616

Not really comfortable talking about my sobriety with anyone yet. For some reason i felt compelled to here. 5 months, 3 days, 2 hrs & 14 mins is when i last touched it. Thank u for this.

@14bellas

3 ай бұрын

2 years 347 days. We got this and will not go back. I don't talk about it much either.

My oldest brother was the biggest tool fan as a teenager, played the living hell out of their albums and drove my parents crazy. He later got addicted to meth and hit rock bottom. He's sober almost 10 years now, an interstate trucker and still listens to Tool

@wishiwasmegan9222

3 жыл бұрын

Wow you're story almost stopped my heart, I'm truly happy he got better. Sending you guys my love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@martinsprenz2872

3 жыл бұрын

Why talkin on KZread about family affairs??? You don`t have friends, have you?

@andrewbarker2422

3 жыл бұрын

@@martinsprenz2872 no I don't, nobody loves me. Will you be my friend

@kingozymandias2988

3 жыл бұрын

Wasted

@mchapman2424

3 жыл бұрын

@@martinsprenz2872 bitch take that shit elsewhere. Dude told a good story about his brother. What are you contributing?

My best friend passed away in May of 2020 from alcoholism. When we were teenagers we would sit and talk late into the night about life, music, girls, and the things we wanted for our futures. So often Tool was the soundtrack to our conversations. I came here to listen to this because he's been on my mind lately and I wanted to remember what it felt like to still have my best friend. I wanted to relive, if only for a moment, the times when we were carefree and still naive to the harsh realities of life that would inevitably steal our youth and innocence.

@WhisperingWempe

Жыл бұрын

❤️💖

@kizmomma7009

Жыл бұрын

Im sorry for the loss of your friend. Tool was on my radio a lot. I'm 41 now and I watched my ex slip into meth and so much more. Listening to this reminds me of my teen years with him. Addiction is a monster that destroys everything.

@jasonsphinx8461

Жыл бұрын

~

@clydeprefontaine3547

Жыл бұрын

Writing skills top notch, can relate 👌 be well

@mayabrown8261

Жыл бұрын

I also listen to Tool in order to feel closer to my best friend who passed. She was killed in an accident by a drunk driver. Words can't express how hard this shit is. Hang in there 🖤

Never fell to addictions. Never had that horror in my life. I wish you all well, happiness and health, freedom and love. You got this. Keep moving forward. I love you all.

Struggling just to stay alive... love you all

@JaaliCypher

22 күн бұрын

Keep going 💪🏻

@BFG-hv2ml

9 күн бұрын

stay strong!

@user-oc6sd1cu3q

8 күн бұрын

Stay strong don’t give up 💪🏻

TOOL. These boys keep me sane. 🎶

I remember getting ready to go to my night job, this coming on mtv, and when I heard those opening chords, I was hooked! I called in sick, ran to the store to get the cassette tape (cd was too expensive then) and have never looked back! That was a little over 25 years ago. Never thought I’d be in my 50’s and listening to TOOL. May I never stop, may they never stop!

@toninagarvin7928

2 жыл бұрын

Love you bro!

@xxhpshrebyba

2 жыл бұрын

haha i love this

@TU42Fuzzy

2 жыл бұрын

Great! 🤘🏼

@shawnaldrich7868

2 жыл бұрын

58 HERE AND ROCKING IT.THIS SONG HAS SO MUCH MEANING AND FEELINGS FOR ME

@yuh8_yp597

2 жыл бұрын

I still remember when I was like 3,back in 2004 mtv played some reboots and this came up. I’ve been trying to find the same sound of the opening and I finally found it I can rest easy knowing I’m in parabola now

"I want what I want." Even before heroin & alcohol addiction these lyrics tapped a vein & hit a nerve that went beyond rock bottom. No other song so accurately & profoundly depicts the gnawing emptiness & diseased shadow aspect of spiraling addiction & depression. It hurts just as much clean as it did during my dependence which is the hardest part of living with these conditions.

@1badombre82

Жыл бұрын

Well said. Im 143 days sober today. Edit: 7 months tomorrow

@djstobbe1301

Жыл бұрын

@@1badombre82 .

@christinayoung462

Жыл бұрын

@@1badombre82 hell ya proud 👏 of u

@kellifrumento8992

Жыл бұрын

Never had an addiction problem. I loved someone who had / has ...wish I could understand it more. I loved him. He may have loved me, but possibly not bc of his problem. I ll never know

@moonest1969

Жыл бұрын

It will get better if you stick with recovery to go back is a guaranteed painful death… be strong!

Tool still slaps belligerently to this day. So glad I found these dudes' CD in my father's stuff when I was a kid.

My dad showed this to me when I was 12. A few months later, he spiraled into chaos with addictions. I am 20 now and I wish I understood what he was trying to tell me sooner.

@Galasuy

4 жыл бұрын

IKTF, hang in there, you'll heal.

@generationalmiranda5633

4 жыл бұрын

R u serious!? That's a tough one.

@stormwraith

4 жыл бұрын

It was not your responsibility to understand that. He was not right to ask that of you, though I am sure he didn't have the capacity to comprehend that at the time. In short, it was not your fault..

@selenaspann7814

4 жыл бұрын

@@generationalmiranda5633 it is. I don't talk to him much anymore. I just hope he's clean now

@selenaspann7814

4 жыл бұрын

@@generationalmiranda5633 I know, but I wish I did. I could have told someone. Maybe it would have helped him before everything happened.

"If I could move my hand like that, I'd never leave the house." ~ Butt-Head

@dirtyrotten2648

3 жыл бұрын

Hu hu hu

@miseurluciferdiablo266

3 жыл бұрын

🌚

@jamesredmon6221

3 жыл бұрын

Best comment on the whole thing... Beavis n Butthead is what got me into a lot of bands!

@jt1929

3 жыл бұрын

“I like it when guys jerk me off. I’m not gay, just lazy.” - Group Sex movie

@dirtyrotten2648

3 жыл бұрын

@@jt1929 ever heard of the Dutch rudder? It’s totally not gay. : Jay and Silent Bob.

This song is an epic masterpiece...I can't believe it's been 30 years... can't believe 3 decades passed this quickly...

Addiction never goes away it just takes on a new face. I am obsessed with music and this song is my therapy.

Wait a minute, this isn't "Tool - Sober [hq - full screen]"?

@sowelilili

4 жыл бұрын

Oh the times

@jjb1ndd

4 жыл бұрын

Indeed good man

@chaimaaalaouibel5195

4 жыл бұрын

Aaaah

@AaronTheSilver

4 жыл бұрын

I prefeer that video...

@bobbelcher7352

4 жыл бұрын

@@AaronTheSilver ikr, can they not work out interlaced video filters ffs.

I'm 6 months 7 days sober from alcohol today, I had a friend die from cirrhosis this January 15th, reading all your guys comments help me not to fall into relapse..you guys are the most strongest genuine comments on youtube .

@jjwallnutts4341

Жыл бұрын

Great job! I’m almost two years. It gets easier! God bless!

@NiaLujuria8183

Жыл бұрын

@JJ Wallnutts Thank you and likewise 💕 🙏🏽

@yoghurtismyname

Жыл бұрын

keep it up man💪💪💪

@amyrios1113

Жыл бұрын

You can do it honey!!

@char_lou

11 ай бұрын

I'll second that, and add a memory of my dear friend who suffered til her painful end from insidious alcoholism induced pancreatic cancer. Hanging in there with you.

My best friend in high school, Brian, introduced me to TOOL with this video. I was hopelessly hooked afterwards. We saw them multiple times whenever they came nearby. He died of lymphoma 5 years ago and I still have trouble listening to this song without getting choked up. My sons both love TOOL after Brian and I helped show them how great the music is. Thanks, Brian. I miss you, brother.

@stevencopley5487

6 ай бұрын

Oh man... 🙏❤

@bluewater3783

5 ай бұрын

Nice Post--I Really Appreciate The Humanity of it. Thank you! And Take good care! 😊

@JohnSmith-rg5nz

4 ай бұрын

Godspeed Brian... you had great taste in music...

@salazam

4 ай бұрын

woman moment

This tune plays in my head every time I drive to the liquor store 😮🍺 🍸🍷

This song is in the heart of alcoholics and drug addicts.

@man8god

4 жыл бұрын

Move_I_Got_This yep - not an Addict by ks choice is also hits you

@larrygomez8890

4 жыл бұрын

Sure kiddo . They have amazing taste

@dillonkrueger4535

4 жыл бұрын

Whatever left of it

@wiseguy9225

4 жыл бұрын

aLcoHoL ActUAllY Is A dRug !

@Ccarmalita

4 жыл бұрын

Whoop!@

Scariest things on Earth: Tool videos Courage the Cowardly Dog

@yesmansam6686

4 жыл бұрын

In a more perfect world than this, the two would've crossed paths at some point.

@user-lk8mp7xx7d

4 жыл бұрын

Еще мамка с собрания, и ЕГЭ. И doomguy.

@OpiumusPrime

4 жыл бұрын

@@user-lk8mp7xx7d интересно получилось

@GordosTacoShop

4 жыл бұрын

Throw in 'Are You Afraid of the Dark' intro and you have my greatest childhood fears summed up well.

@vladdracul7810

4 жыл бұрын

The answer to 1984 is 1776

❤❤❤ чем старше я становлюсь тем больше мне нравится !!!! Всём кто борется с заразой респект!!!!!

@DarkPeter

2 ай бұрын

Зараза то кремль

@georgecruz1604

2 ай бұрын

Amen🙏🏽

Anyone who's been involved with an addict or is an addict can relate to this simple but rock solid description of what happens and what keeps happening. Salute to all those who fought their way out!

I was sober for 7 years until 4 days ago. I lost my grandmother and aunt. my father in law passed yesterday. I'm hope u all stay strong and ask god for the strength overcome the worst times so as not to fall back. my grandmother loved me at my worst when no one else did. I'll get a hold of this. I got kids that need me. " it's hard when people don't understand addiction, "it's lonely

@mandylaws6434

3 жыл бұрын

Stop now while you are ahead. You can do this. Don’t let it get farther than it has to and harder to overcome.

@Smalltownthings

3 жыл бұрын

If you need someone to talk with im here for ya, clean for 2 days now and its so hard, I hope things get better for you bro

@analuis2659

3 жыл бұрын

You can do this!! Stay strong and healthy 💖

@marvw7799

3 жыл бұрын

Maybe a lil late replying but I completely understand. I've had soberity, then lost it. It is lonely and it does suck. But some of us do understand. Stay strong, wish you the best and hope you're back on your feet. Things can't suck forever man. Even the sun shines on a dogs ass once in a while.

@clockworkorange5588

3 жыл бұрын

Stay strong!

Probably one of my fav songs, top 5 for sure.

RIP my girl Chastity. At 46 gone too soon. Addiction n depression plagued you but you didnt deserve to leave us. Love n miss you every fucking day.

This song always makes me think about what my mom went through trying to quit drinking (she never succeeded) alcohol is probably the worst drug to ever exist and its perfectly legal

@haydendewey5624

4 жыл бұрын

Kyle Smith man I know how that is

@eldawg7468

4 жыл бұрын

Damn straight

@someguywithachannel7590

4 жыл бұрын

I prefer to call it funny water

@fartbubbles7359

4 жыл бұрын

RIGHT

@ericawarnock3352

4 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry your mom was an alcoholic! My step dad was too and it sucked!

i was sober when i first heard this song back in 1993 now im a raging alcoholic ....thank you TOOL

@clockworkorange5588

3 жыл бұрын

You must be young like Myself!

@chuckd.7048

3 жыл бұрын

I got 2 wives I can blame, but yeah,

@ripvanwinkle420snoopdogg2

3 жыл бұрын

Rip says hell yes. Whats the next level

@jesserolseth5755

3 жыл бұрын

Just about same. 😂

@jayboyee452

2 жыл бұрын

but you missed the message, he is on heroin, not a baby drug like alcohol. thats like me bitching about coffee

I was introduced to TOOL at a really young age, my dad would always listen to undertow and Ænima whenever we were in the car, however I really liked this song and I would get really excited when it came on the radio, my dad passed away 2 years ago and we played this song at his funeral because it was one of his favorites and he requested it!, Thank you TOOL for also helping me through some dark moments in my life and having amazing songwriting skills that many others can enjoy!

I was fifteen yrs old when i started listening to TOOL. Now 46 still jamming to it..

Beavis: "Wow, if I could move my arm that fast, I would never leave the house."

@a_humphrey1747

4 жыл бұрын

😆 b&b muh faves

@hugs2003

4 жыл бұрын

Hahaha did he actually say that to this video? I have to find a clip.

@eduardolopezquinones3408

4 жыл бұрын

Classic😂

@jeffgarrett2114

4 жыл бұрын

🤣🤣🤣

@jeffgarrett2114

4 жыл бұрын

I loved their take on videos

You can’t write a song this powerful unless you’ve experienced addiction at its highest level

@MrJimmyTide

10 ай бұрын

Evidently they wrote it ABOUT an alcoholic they knew. Not sure if Maynard or whomever wrote it knows firsthand, but if not, they did a great job capturing it regardless.

@davidfromboulder

10 ай бұрын

Yuppers. There couldn't be a truer statement.

@davidfromboulder

10 ай бұрын

I mean you couldn't write a song like this if you were not an addict.

@nathant.6256

10 ай бұрын

​@@davidfromboulder0.5 seconds of research to find that Maynard was never an addict lmao

@RCAvhstape

10 ай бұрын

The guy who wrote this song is not an addict.

3:56 most powerful, most emotional guitar riff in the history of R&Roll

One in a Million there will never be another kickass band like tool they pull on your Heartstrings thank you for that

19 years clean and I still don't miss the party. God is good.

@revilhunter

3 жыл бұрын

Right on.

@miseurluciferdiablo266

3 жыл бұрын

who

@einmarcos

3 жыл бұрын

You are good friend.. more than you think.

@astronomy7911

3 жыл бұрын

Awesome, Keep the faith sister.

@etotheipi42

3 жыл бұрын

Spinoza’s is the best view of god.

My uncle was a huge Tool fan and recently passed away due to an accidental overdose. This song hits especially hard for me

@regiburgos5080

3 жыл бұрын

Sorry for you're loss, my uncle passed the same way 2014 RIP

@tobbe4244

3 жыл бұрын

@Marcus Starman really dude

@ness1278

3 жыл бұрын

Better this than eulogy

@whitneychapman3461

3 жыл бұрын

100th likr

@heatherraeclark2456

3 жыл бұрын

Hooiiii

I was gonna take my life last year, tool was one of the things that helped me through that shit. I owe a lot to them, thanks tool.

@anuncolonizedmind6296

8 ай бұрын

I'm glad you are still here.

@georgecruz1604

2 ай бұрын

This song held me back as well 🤙🏽

Who remembers this video on in the background on Mtv when they were a kid? Timeless song and video.

My brother is sober from alcohol for almost one year and I'm proud of him.

@pipthewarrior3738

Жыл бұрын

@@kennethnelson5522 You are literally no longer addicted at all no body is proud of you.

@pipthewarrior3738

Жыл бұрын

@@overused6632 Yeah I kind of get still being addicted maybe after 1 year, especially with alcoholism, but 16 years? Ain't no way you have an addiction with it anymore, it's like someone who's never smoked a cigarette in his life saying he hasn't smoked a cigarette since (his birth year).

@isaiahlane3248

Жыл бұрын

​@@pipthewarrior3738 Kinda rude of you to say that. Im proud of them just cause you aren't doesnt mean nobody is.

@isaiahlane3248

Жыл бұрын

​@@kennethnelson5522 🎉

@pipthewarrior3738

Жыл бұрын

@@isaiahlane3248 Dude that's like saying I'm proud of my brother for never having smoked in his life, duh I am but it's not like he should be celebrated for it.

To be Sober is the best emotion ever felt. Getting away from drugs or alcohol is a gratifying experience. You conquer the demons and feel your real emotions once again.

@cashhabits1794

3 жыл бұрын

Oh is that right??u ever been up for days?

@alanlabriola3810

3 жыл бұрын

@@cashhabits1794 no, how's that feel?

@cashhabits1794

3 жыл бұрын

@@alanlabriola3810 i was being a smart ass....let's just say when meth is involved it dose get dicey bc I've thought I've heard voices...but not bad ones..I love music and I start hearing something tell me lyrics if I've been up for days...idk I was super drunk when I responded to the original text...and I think I said that by I thought they were talking about beer and weed...which looking back that was wrong to I totally agree on what she said..its just so damn hard the first 4 days....and depending on what drug it can be a month clean and u just feel dull u don't start feeling happiness and all that bullshit they preach...ur dopamines were all used by ur drug addiction..alot of emotions are triggered by dopamine

@cashhabits1794

3 жыл бұрын

Or not that dopamines are non exist its ur brain was re-taught to only release them when you get high

@nichosena5942

3 жыл бұрын

Your no more of a person than what you have been though in this world no matter how much you understand but it's understanding that matters

This is my favorite song of all time. They wrote it about a friend who thought he couldn't be creative unless he was under the influence of something. As someone who grew up with a family member who never wanted to be sober, I can relate to witnessing someone close to you battle with addiction firsthand the way they did.

The raw emotion of this song is the reason why I started listening to Tool.

@angusmcleod9400

4 жыл бұрын

this song is epic

@markcoucke7211

4 жыл бұрын

it is beautiful

@malabolha

4 жыл бұрын

That painful "why" kills me every time.

@kornbread5359

4 жыл бұрын

Youll like my song “chasms”

@dylanandrews3763

4 жыл бұрын

I felt the opposite this was the song that made me not care for tool. I wasnt crazy into them to begin with but this song is just too soft. For a rock song who wants to hear about someone "getting sober".?

"I will find a center in you, I will chew it up and leave, I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down" just realized that's the whiskey talking in those lines

@retrogamelover2012

3 жыл бұрын

I always thought that was the thoughts of somebody's self-loathing. The type that just sees themselves as a burden to others, and goes out of their way to avoid any outside help, in case it just results in hurting more people. At least, considering the last decade, which was just a downright low for my mental and physical health, that's how I've kind of read it.

@harrytomdick

3 жыл бұрын

@@retrogamelover2012 I think the point of tool is to hit everybody in different ways. What that line means to you can mean something else to me and that's okay cause it's not supposed to be one thing it's supposed to relate to all of us in different ways and that's the beauty of the way tool make songs especially this one.

@jale2053

3 жыл бұрын

Tool guitarist Adam Jones has stated in an interview that the song is about a friend of the band whose artistic expression only comes out when he is under the influence. "A lot of people give him shit for that," Jones explains. "If you become addicted and a junkie, well, that's your fault." just my two cents

@fieldy409

3 жыл бұрын

@@retrogamelover2012 I've never faced addiction so yeah to me its the feeling of how one may want to be the good father, son, brother, husband but then you fail for whatever reason. Maybe you get short tempered, maybe you can't help them, maybe you burden them and make their lives harder.

@harrytomdick

3 жыл бұрын

@MrBonniesdaddy music relates to many people in many different ways. Doesn't have to be one thing that's the beauty of it. Means something to all of us.

I know the context of the song but, I think it can apply to many different circumstances. Growing up my mother would always play this album. At the time I of course had no idea what the meaning of "sober", even was. But for some reason this was always my favorite song. Don't get me wrong, the whole album is amazing, but this song in particular holds such a deep meaning for me and many others. As I've grown older, I have become accustomed to the definition of being sober. I have realized over time I hated the idea of being sober. I just hated who I was. But as even more time went by, I could see a problem. I hated who I was even more, under the influence of drugs. And, yet I couldnt stop. Addiction is scary and makes you feel alone. Hearing these lyrics made me feel as if Maynard knew what I was going through. The raw emotion in his voice would make everything feel so real. My favorite line is "Mother Mary, won't you whisper? Something but what's past and done". Maynard has said before, that they didn't leave the lyrics in CDs because he believed the listener wouldn't understand them anyway. But I truly believe no one can listen to this song without being affected by the story of which it pertains.

@dianevanderlinden3480

8 ай бұрын

Ive never thought of this as being about a drug or alcohol addiction. I interpreted it as an addiction to the world that we cant escape.

I died 100 years ago, I still absolutely love listening to tool, I love them

This one song got me legitimately sober. Drank for so long and after hearing it the first time, realized how fucked up I was. Song is haunting and amazing.

@-tetrachloro-dibenzo-para-diox

2 жыл бұрын

Do you have any advice on how to stay sober

@paicemaster6855

2 жыл бұрын

And you can have more than one. Preferably some that are selfless in nature, maybe just to be a better person and to not hurt the ones you love

@TETCOM.

2 жыл бұрын

true kzread.info/dash/bejne/lHei0cWAY73gn7Q.html

Not an alcoholic but this song still had a special meaning to me when it came out. I suffered from heavy panic disorder and depression, drinking would make it better but the panic would always hit me harder when I sobered up. Finally got on the right meds and have been doing great since. Respect to everyone who has overcome alcoholism and gotten their addiction under control!

@Tibbz1313

2 жыл бұрын

Congratulations and this comment is fucking epic and so truthful!!! Much respect brotha🤘🔥

Tool changed my whole life... Into an awesome dream, but it'll happen, if and when want! Dieser Facettenreichtum, die melodiöse dröhenden Basslines, die original und neuartig sind...! Und, um nicht zu vergessen: Danny Carey, the best drummer! Unglaublich... Die Musik ist so vielschichtig und subtile wie das Booklet von Lateralus... Genug von mir

15 year old hearing this for the first time is insane this is new music to me and I love it and seeing them in Birmingham ❤

I didn’t beat drugs, or abuse, or anything. I just like TOOL, and I like to party.

@voidtapwater4676

3 жыл бұрын

That's good enough :)

@johnfinch9668

3 жыл бұрын

Fuck getting sober drinking and partying is fun lol

@beachlife8168

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks you for that comment good music

@tejasdevgekar1154

3 жыл бұрын

@@johnfinch9668 sure until a point ofcourse

@davidurdahl6656

3 жыл бұрын

Then gtfo...

Thank god for music like this so we realize we are not alone when life is overwhelming. I grew up Catholic and like the story of Jesus as well. But when life, people, and the world get you down. You need to have faitha and find that fight inside yourself. Love everyone, but surround yourself with good people. God bless.

10 years sober…staying strong by listening every day ! Tool kept me sober literally… !

@jacencib

5 ай бұрын

2yrs for me. Only that I cant listen to this without thinking about nothing else but get wasted on the brown, the white, the liquor, the green, all of it

@salazam

4 ай бұрын

No one asked.

@hanman0894

3 ай бұрын

​@@salazamhonestly, who comes here to proclaim their sobriety? Lmao

@w0m4nIz0r

3 ай бұрын

@@salazam inhuman being, still hope you never have to take this fight.

15 minutes clean from devils dandruff and this song describes how I feel so much. Shi do get better I hope *praying emoji*

There's a shadow just behind me Shrouding every step I take Making every promise empty Pointing every finger at me Waiting like a stalking butler Who upon the finger rests Murdered now the past it cost me Just because the son has come Jesus, won't you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Jesus, won't you fucking whistle Something but the past and done? Why can't we not be sober? Just want to start this over And why can't we drink forever? I just want to start this over I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you I will chew it up and leave I will work to elevate you Just enough to bring you down Mother Mary, won't you whisper? Something but what's past and done Mother Mary, won't you whisper? Something but the past and done Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start this over And why can't we sleep forever? I just want to start this over Why? I am just a worthless liar I am just an imbecile I will only complicate you Trust in me and fall as well I will find a center in you I will chew it up and leave Trust me Trust me Trust me Trust me Trust me Why can't we not be sober? I just want to start things over And why can't we sleep forever? I just want to start this over Why? I want what I want I want what I want I want what I want I want what I want

@rogerw2101

2 жыл бұрын

AWESOME POST

@gambino4275

2 жыл бұрын

Your post is very much appreciated! Thank you

@jarekireland3757

2 жыл бұрын

Powerful lyrics

@pablorosas4716

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks!

@damonalagich4524

2 жыл бұрын

NOW the mother earth screams! its do or die time......straighten up or perish!

Believe it or not. 15 years of heroin abuse then I took some psychedelics heard this song and have been clean 5 years.

@sdyoung6719

3 жыл бұрын

why would people not believe that

@tannerkey1121

3 жыл бұрын

Psychedelics saves lives 🖤

@givemebackmypurse.6894

3 жыл бұрын

@@sdyoung6719 I live in a extremely conservative area where there is zero tolerance for psychedelics. Like throw you under the jail type of place. Of course my friends are different but you would be shunned by most people if they found out you did. Just like marijuana they see know medical value. It makes me want to move to Colorado where at least mushrooms are accepted.

@Jay-uu5lu

3 жыл бұрын

Ok dumbass

@cbr1thou

3 жыл бұрын

That sounds dope

Some people know this song and some people REALLY KNOW this song 🖤

💖💖💖I'm sooo sorry for your loss. I'm happy to know that you are able to recall good memories, especially with such an amazing band.💖💖💖

People: Billie Eilish has got the creepiest music videos ever Tool: Hold my half hanging eyeball

@oljackie35

2 жыл бұрын

Good one

@mk11fan87

2 жыл бұрын

Billie eilish isn’t even creepy lol

@mickroyster6442

2 жыл бұрын

@@mk11fan87 a lot of people around my age (I’m assuming we’re around the same age since you’ve also seen her music videos) think Billie Eilish is dark and edgy for some stupid reason

@mk11fan87

2 жыл бұрын

@@mickroyster6442 they’re like 12 year old girls that’s why lol

@jaimelopez3229

2 жыл бұрын

Fuck billlie ish

For sure in the top 20 songs ever produced.

Whenever I get the feeling of giving in to my cravings I am putting this song on maximum volume. This helps so immensely to stay strong.

@berserkeraztec1039

9 ай бұрын

I'm fighting every day to not drown in liquor , I feel like I'm dying. But I'm still living

@kevinhill8193

7 ай бұрын

I will too.

@jacencib

5 ай бұрын

complete opposite for me. craving always gets through the roof. because I listened to songs like these when I was on, I guess.

@jacencib

5 ай бұрын

@@berserkeraztec1039 feel you. I hated liquor until I had to stop the good shit and needed a cheap alternative to get wasted. still better than being sober.

@jacencib

5 ай бұрын

does the opposite for me! whats wrong with me? or you?

Tool rocks the stage. Tool albums are all good. Tool live in concert is an experience that i hope all life long fans like me get to see. I remember when they released each of there albums opiate,anima,10000 days,lateralus,undertow! They all have good songs.

Nobody can fathom the pain I felt when I came home from school and MTV X was changed to MTV Jams. I was so fucken heartbroken, I couldn't play Turok without crying. And I'm sorry to who ever experienced the same betrayal as I did.

In my opinion Maynard is one of the best at what he does. His musical & artistic gifts are proven with every song. TOOL, your group & Maynard ROCKS.

@adamjones6819

2 жыл бұрын

Hello, how are you doing? It is nice seeing you here.

@EvolutionIX219

Жыл бұрын

@@adamjones6819 oh my God it adam jones

@_saint_gabriel_

Жыл бұрын

@@adamjones6819 holy shit

Strolling through the comments, I see a lot of my brothers and sisters in addiction. (By extension, most of us are brothers and sisters in mental illness as well.) I just celebrated 18 years clean, sober, and in recovery without a relapse. If you ever need to talk, just reach out.

@nevermind5321

3 жыл бұрын

I've been on methadone for 10 lousy years. I was never using Heroin just pain meds and it would have been so easy to stop taking them but I thought methadone would make me happy (I suffer from depression and anxiety (my entire life) but it just makes me depressed, so much I can hardly get out of bed, it's so much worse than my regular depression I had before this. I crave sugar but I haven't had an appetite since 2013. When I eat food it doesn't taste good anymore. I keep making excuses to not even see my family, I've missed out on Christmas, Thanksgivings just to sleep all day. I love my family but I can't even drive because I'm too tired. I'm on 142 mg and it will take 2 more damn years just to get off this horrible medicine!. every time I try to taper I feel sick within 12 hours of taking my dose. I was told I metabolise too fast but they don't half dose at my clinic and I have to go their once a week! I'm so messed up with my sleeping schedule that I take my dose at different times of the day, the dr says to take it at the same time but I can't seem to do it. I'm tired of sweating all night and then waking up freezing, shaky and sick.for 10 years! I can't wear warm clothes in the winter because I'm always hot, my body always feels hot I just want to be my old self again but I'm afraid I'll never be happy again, did I damage my brain on this stuff? I can't live being this depressed any longer, 10 years is too long! I pray that God will relieve me and just let me die but I don;'t want to hurt my family. I am suffering so much I don't know how much longer I can stand it.I used to smile and laugh but I can't even force a smile. I have to fake being happy around my family and they don't know how to help me. Talking to my counselor doesn't help. I just feel like I'm giving up on life because I sleep a lot and I hope I don't wake up but I always do. I've made the biggest mistake of my life. I made it till I was 45 with no drugs or drinking! Why did I take that first pill? I'll never forgive myself. I just needed to tell someone how I'm feeling, thank you for listening.

@rto1967

3 жыл бұрын

@@nevermind5321 This might sound crazy, but sometimes it's the little things. To know if an experiment is working, we can only change one thing at a time. Therefore, start by over hydrating yourself before taking your dose. See if that change anything after about 10 days or so.

@nursewithanosering

3 жыл бұрын

@@nevermind5321 I've seen you commenting in this section a lot. You mentioned that you have a counselor. Is this an actual therapist? Do you see a psychiatrist? You don't have to answer any of my questions, but I think it might be a good idea to go to therapy (individual as well as group) and to see a psychiatrist about your depression if you aren't already. Also, have you considered going on Suboxone? Obviously you would be dependent on that as well, at least for some time. But there are far less side effects than methadone. For example, it won't cause the sugar cravings, and most likely wouldn't cause lethargy and drowsiness. It works in a different way than methadone. Having suicidal ideation, or at least thoughts of wanting to be dead, as you know, isn't normal or healthy. Depression sucks. I understand, and I empathize--both with generally being depressed, as well as thinking that you would be better off dead. You deserve to have happiness in your life.

@nursewithanosering

3 жыл бұрын

Congratulations on your long-term sobriety. That's awesome. And the fact that you are reaching out to anyone who might need some support is amazing. Rock on.

@nevermind5321

3 жыл бұрын

@@rto1967 I will try that.. Thank you for caring and giving me advice.

They're great. You both have great taste. They flew by too fast. It's wonderful you shared that together. So sorry for your loss, man.