I salute you! thank you for your service

Thank You, honestly, respectfully, thank you. I just got out of the ER last nite. I wasn't aggressive or bad to others, but i was thinking more bad towards myself. Then just to take a breath and get out there, noticed. It was like a deeep breath. Wow, seriously, wow. A breath of air, finally. Man that was nice, i dont ever think i cried and laughed at the same time before. 😅 wow, it was like i breathed again from a long, long time. I walked down the middle of the street, barefoot. At night. All the neighbors were out there just afraid of me. They called the police and the ambulance. I talked to them, we laughed and talked but i still said i needed to get checked out so they took me to the ER. They did the basics and then a nurse came in and for some real reason she just felt good. Like i felt her aura. She was good, nice. We talked-about being in the military and how i grew up as a bratt and did my time in service and how she was a spouse and how her husband was a vet and she knew the lifestyle. Lol it was real nice to just talk to a person, like family. Someone else who knew some of the stuff.(Lol man im gonna get her something like a cake or something. she deserves that.) After i cooled down, i wasn't aggressive or anything like harming others or myself. So i got discharged. Slept. And starting watching theis videos she set me up with to talk about PTSD and anxiety attacks and stuff. How to cool down with others sometimes like counting to 10 or taking deep breaths, or heck, just walking away from the situation. Its just good to talk to other veterans too. The only thing that you need to do is just say that you might need some help and reaching out there. No joke, "its okay not to be okay"