I was legit with my therapist and I explained the absence of an attention filter as I walk into a room where other people exist and absolutely everything must get processed. The person in the corner is eating something that stinks. His friend is showing signs of being angry at him and they might yell at him any second. The dog is twitching in their sleep. The window is open and I can hear traffic and birds and the fridge is buzzing and so are the lights and there’s a strobing to the that appears to be bothering exactly no one else. And as I step into the room I notice the tv is on and nobody is watching it. And on top of everything I’m being spied on my a hungry cat that I now have on feed because you just know that’s why you’re being eyed like you’re a walking rotisserie chicken. And on top of all that someone looks at you and asks you how your day has gone and you freeze like they’ve just asked you what the molar mass of uranium 249 is… because underneath all that exhausted mental bandwidth, you now have to remember how to use words. That’s how it feels at times.

@wesley3300

2 ай бұрын

Dude yes lol *walks into room* other person: “Hey man, how’s it going?” Me: “uhhhh” *dial up noises…processing* “I’m doing fine, how about you?” *proceeds to make the small-talk as quick and painless as possible so I can move on*

@johnharvey5412

2 ай бұрын

For me, I'd be inextricably drawn to the TV even if it's something I have no interest in watching. I wonder if that's my way of "checking out" of the situation.

@ReccaPatel

2 ай бұрын

Wait… this is a thing? Is not just me??😮

@SarahDale111

2 ай бұрын

I'd be drawn to the cat. 😸​@@johnharvey5412

@24shineon

2 ай бұрын

@@wesley3300one thing I’ve tried to do about small talk is to gear it towards something I’m interested in as comfortably as possible, though it doesn’t work when I just don’t want to talk to someone so it’s not foolproof 😅

My number 1 trait of autism is hypersensitivity. I swear sometimes I can feel my cells vibrating.

@lisa_wistfulone7957

2 ай бұрын

Yes!! What IS that microvibrating sensation from? It’s smaller than if I were trembling from adrenaline, or at least when I recognize I am. But it’s related to hypervigilance and sensitivity…

@lizevans6677

2 ай бұрын

I feel vibrations too,

@j-ivey

2 ай бұрын

It’s exhausting and overwhelming!

@ProudtobeaNeurodivergent_1248

2 ай бұрын

I always feel tiny vibrations too! My body is never completely at rest

@CrankyB1tsch

2 ай бұрын

It's just your broken brain doing broken brain things

Hearing electricity in the walls, feeling emotional heaviness in the room…. I really need to get a diagnosis, almost 50 and realizing all the coping I’ve done just to participate in society. The pandemic was the best for me, able to stay in my safe place and not have to mask so much. I’ve become feral and less tolerant of the normies.

@etcwhatever

2 ай бұрын

I literally heard a short circuit on a wall no one else in the house heard. My dad already knowing i have abnormally sensitive hearing didnt hesitate to make an hole on the wall. He was like "this couldve burn the entire house. You have superpowers" 😂😂😂

@chriscohlmeyer4735

2 ай бұрын

Four foot florescent bulbs at 60hz - I hear the electricity flowing thru them in particular at "normal ceiling heights" in stores with higher ceilings I can manage for a while but get tense and can tend to make stupid purchases.

@recoveringsoul755

2 ай бұрын

I smelled something strange. Following my nose through the whole place. Finally came to the automatic coffee maker. The kind with a clock that you leave plugged in and could program to start making coffee so it's ready in the morning? Yeah smell was really strong there. It smelled like melting electrical wires. So I unplugged it. I feel like I avoided a fire too Now I unplug appliances that aren't being used

@Casey-hz1sn

2 ай бұрын

I can relate to sound sensitivity, the experience you mentioned during the pandemic, and the realizing that I also would benefit from a proper diagnosis or at least support towards that in my late 30s as I don’t want to keep struggling through life, particularly in my career. I have been seeing a pattern in my recent jobs post-pandemic of struggles with the interpersonal stuff. I am even dealing with it in a role I am doing as a sub for a special education class that seems to be focused on kids with autism. I don’t think many if any of the support teachers are neurodivergent in any way.

@etcwhatever

2 ай бұрын

@@Casey-hz1sn i hope you get the support you need. It would be amazing if you could be a kind of positive role model for those kids. While not pressuring yourself off course. I know i tend to be too perfectionist and to burn out.

I always thought it was like that for everyone. A cafeteria where I can hear *everything*. Every murmur, every conversation blending into one seamless chorus of sounds, every shuffle, every chair movement or plate, silverware. Every little sound going on, I hear it.

@wesley3300

2 ай бұрын

Same here

@etcwhatever

2 ай бұрын

And thats why i always went to the cafeteria before or after everyone else.

@maiyapercy

2 ай бұрын

I thought so too for a very long time. And I asked myself: How do they do it? How do they handle this? Why is it so hard for me?

@elvwood

2 ай бұрын

I actually got my hearing tested at a hospital because I had so much trouble filtering sounds in a noisy environment. Turns out I have near-perfect hearing, and I always put my difficulties down to that before I ever considered that I might be autistic.

@SecondDraft

2 ай бұрын

@@elvwood When I was little, I had a bunch of tests done and I'm convinced faculty and a case worker I had knew there was something up with me but my mom refused to budge or admit anything might be amiss. So I was left to just sort of... founder in school.

If our nervous system is constantly on high alert that might explain our fast reactions. According to a recent test I have the reaction speed of a 23 year old. I'm 62.

@rhuechantal6316

2 ай бұрын

Yes. I relate. Thank you for sharing this.

@jmaessen3531

2 ай бұрын

Ooh, interesting. Never connected these dots. But I bet you're right! Sometimes my family will say "wow, good catch" bc I'll snag something that's falling right outta the air without even thinking about it. My nerves must be constantly scanning and preparing for that. I tell you what though, it's tiring 😂

@TheWickedgit

2 ай бұрын

@@jmaessen3531 Exactly! I do the catch thing constantly. And yes, it's exhausting and might factor into why we get so tired - our central nervous systems must become severely depleted by this constant hypervigilance.

@TheWickedgit

Ай бұрын

It is said that Jedi can deflect laser blasts with a lightsabre because they can see a short distance into the future. Or they might be autistic, or we might Jedi 8o)

Thank you for verbalizing exactly how it feels because I have been struggling to do so!!! 💗

@roxyheart7874

2 ай бұрын

Same

Being told that “You’re too sensitive” didn’t help me. It felt like a criticism, rather than information I could use. Your mentioning that we are each various in our senses helps me to see why I’ve had challenges in different situations. Hearing sounds, smelling odors, etc., that others weren’t sensing, were challenging to handle. Being “sensitive” can be a gift or a curse. With my diagnosis. I realize that I’ve had to accommodate to others’ “insensitivities”, rather than find ways to deal with my “sensitivities”. I am awakening to my faulty “education” by a world which denied my senses.

@samiversart

2 ай бұрын

If I could give this comment more than one like I would.

@blewdraaz1057

2 ай бұрын

That's just it I don't have to accommodate other energies. I'm learning to bring mine back to me and block others

@recoveringsoul755

2 ай бұрын

That particular comment is a common one used by abusers. They can treat you badly, but if you try to talk about it, it's "you're too sensitive" as if it's YOUR FAULT they choose to abuse If it's not that, are we too sensitive? Or are they not sensitive enough? I can't stand the grocery store. Too many people and their feelings, the advertisements screaming at me. It's hard enough making decisions already. And each item requires a decision. It's exhausting I had a system down pretty good before. Made a list ahead of time, sorted by how the store was laid out. Stuck to my list and avoiding the aisles I didn't need anything. Went at off hours to avoid crowds. It was faster and less painful that way

I have always been an empath I was today years old when I learned that was an autism thing. When you mentioned feeling other people's feelings as being part of autism a light bulb went off

@recoveringsoul755

2 ай бұрын

I'm not sure all autistic people are empaths. Because it's possible for a person to be autistic AND also be a narcissist, who has no empathy. Or other autistic people who aren't NPD but still lack empathy. So, all empaths are not automatically autistic. Or vice versa

@recoveringsoul755

2 ай бұрын

And there are non autistic people who are also empaths

@allisonharranmua8193

2 ай бұрын

@recoveringsoul755 yeah, there are, but that's not the topic of the video. No one was disputing this.

@allisonharranmua8193

2 ай бұрын

@recoveringsoul755 again...no one was disputing that. All I was saying is that I didn't realize there was a link. Most people assume we are emotionless robots, and we definitely aren't. Yes, lots of people can be lots of things, and autism has many things that can go along with it. We all know we are individuals who experience the world differently from eachother. That wasn't the topic of this video though. Sue me for finding something that resonates with me and helps me explain a part of myself I don't always understand.

I get tunnel vision in crowded places or places that have a lot of intense light/energy, i.e. at the mall, concerts, even just attending high school and walking down hallways in between classes. It gets so intense that I have to shut down just to get by and make it through. It's an incredible amount of effort just to exist in these spaces, so I limit them. I end up just staying at home a lot by myself.

That electricity thing. Whew! I bought a power strip for my laptop so it wouldn’t get fried. For weeks I was just completely ON THE EDGE. I turned off all of the fans to dust them. Then I heard it plain as day. The horrendous squealing noise. Once I finally figured out what it was. I invested in a GE brand, gave the other one to my mom, haven’t had an issue since with it. But the noise electricity makes is awful.

Does anyone else struggle with family members intentionally messing with them? My mother will make the loudest sounds she physically can, because she knows it triggers actual fight or flight in me. But every time I say anything, I'M the bad guy for "being upset" at it. I wish I was just upset by it. What upsets me is how she doesn't seem to care. But it also upsets me when I'm shaking with fear, anger, and adrenaline and I literally just woke up!

@wesley3300

2 ай бұрын

That sounds awful :( I’m sorry that you’re treated that way. I hope you have some access to help and/or a place of comfort you can retreat to

@orangesnowflake3769

2 ай бұрын

That sucks, hopefully you can move out eventually and won't have to deal with it

@blowitoutyourcunt7675

8 сағат бұрын

get a beta blocker, it will help settle that down so much!good luck! cheers

When I was a kid and undiagnosed, we had fleas pretty bad and I would tell people I could hear the jumping in a gap between my wall and bed it was only after I started putting a bowl of soap water down there that and caught like hundreds that they believed me. Also can’t stand a windows being open because it changes sound even when it’s completely quiet outside

I agree about the antenna and, as I work in a shop, sometimes it's sooo hard not to mirror dissatisfied customers, it takes a lot of time to gather some more pleasant thoughts about it.

@kayleekrueger8575

2 ай бұрын

If I go into a store where many people are unhappy it is extremely hard to stay focused on what I'm trying to find at the store and I'm fighting the STRONG feeling that I need to leave the space because of how intense it feels.

@roxyheart7874

2 ай бұрын

Yes I agree with you and Kaylee I have the same issues. It got way way worse after a TBI. I actually have lost a lot of my ability to mask I have times where I can for awhile but like today I ended up having 2 meltdowns and there was a lot of screaming in between. I had too much on my plate and no help.

@etcwhatever

2 ай бұрын

​what is tbi? 😢

Yes girl and that is why we don't know if I have autism or ptsd or borderline or all. Of both or... It's so hard to try and figure ones self out when I relate to so much!

@etcwhatever

2 ай бұрын

A lot of us have cptsd because we didnt understand most of what was going on growing up and dealt with rejection and bullying. Id be wary of bpd diagnosis as meltdowns can be confused with bpd by not so good therapists. If im in my own environment and not overstimulated im quite calm.

My antenna keeps track of all sounds in my background and when there's a new sound I have to identify it, which I've become very good at, or I have to investigate it and learn what it is. Every sound is calculated for normal or new/a problem. Mostly it's stuff in my house like machines with motors or pipe noises, or stuff going on outside and around my house. I can't turn it off, even when I'm absorbed into other things like reading or watching TV.

@charleshanson9467

2 ай бұрын

Oh, and I also subconsciously monitor all the noises my kids make. Bickering, running, why toys they're playing with, all the different types of crying per kid (x4).

I'm surprised nobody's actually asked me what it's like to be autistic but when I want your what people say it's like to be autistic videos I just feel like that is really really relatable. I've actually recently started paying attention with the sound of electricity sounds like. I've honestly noticed I've been able to hear electricity way longer than I ever thought i was because I didn't know I was

@wesley3300

2 ай бұрын

Yeah I think I know what you mean. I just recently found out I’m autistic, and being able to recontextualize my experiences has been really interesting, to say the least. Idk about you, but I noticed that a lot of the discomfort I experience has been due to tiny nervous reactions to sounds (I work in retail and it’s very noisy). So, one thing I’ve been trying to do is to intentionally connect with the sounds around me, trying to let myself feel them more completely. Not sure if it’s a good idea or not, but it has produced some interesting results. Incidentally, I remember-long before ever knowing that I was autistic-once being at work and really focusing in on the electric buzzing from the various refrigerators and appliances, and decided to make the noise more enjoyable by trying to guess which musical note it was. Now, I don’t have perfect pitch, so I don’t know if my guess is correct, but most electric humming seems to hover around an A…? Maybe? Lol in any case, sometimes I’ve found that engaging with the annoying or difficult things in my life as a game or fun challenge has helped me cope without becoming completely miserable.

I feel like I am constantly hyper vigilant and it is so overwhelming and exhausting even when I’m alone at home I am still very hyper vigilant of my area around me thinking something is going to happen

@Catlily5

2 ай бұрын

Me too, I have PTSD too though.

I don’t think I’ve ever felt fully relaxed in my life ever

@Catlily5

2 ай бұрын

Yesss! I feel the same way!!

@heatherrae901

17 күн бұрын

I feel most relaxed when I’m by myself in my own controlled environment. But if my phone rings, that’s over lol

Yes ❤❤❤ thank you, I also notice how I talk on video is very different to a lot of NT people

@orangesnowflake3769

2 ай бұрын

I really want to know if it seems liks i talk different

I recently demonstrated to a friend of mine how deep this goes. We had gone out for lunch at a restaurant I haven't visited in nearly a decade. Pointed out a car with a window decal that he had not even noticed and explained that this car has been parking in that spot since at least *2007.*

People feel my awkwardness coming in a room😂

Still can't believe it sometimes - I thought I was psychic or crazy. Grateful for my diagnosis every day!

Yes! I can feel everything in the room, especially the emotional energy transmitted from others. But that also makes me a good therapist. It's channeling these perceptions and making constructive use of the information information information coming in.

Real. I don’t really experience a singular sensitivity it more so the fact of MANY things are going on and it’s just so overwhelming.

Thank you so much I can't thank your COMMUNITY enough..A mother of a autistic adult son and a retired Home Health Aide

My issues have often been with noise and crowds. I used to avoid parties as a kid, even if my family was throwing them for me. These days, I’ve become more social and I’ve often assisted in planning parties with my family. I think I see my friends more than most people do. I’ve outgrown a lot of my old behaviors, since I’ve had a very loving family and years of therapy.

All of the above and then some. I was on an airport bus in Osaka Japan and seated by a window. An elderly lady was still coming down the aisle when the bus moved off abruptly. I recall feeling concerned for her prior to the bus moving. According to witnesses that mobbed me after, I moved like lightning and caught the elderly lady, saving her from falling. One person I recall asked me if I was a soccer goal-keeper or professional athlete. I have no recollection of the time between before the bus moved to after I helped the elderly passenger to a seat. I have also blacked out at other times of acute stress such as violent assaults to myself and came out of it after containing the attacker. The hyper awareness is exhausting...

I've always been like this. I thought it was from childhood trauma however, as that healed as well as a few more things that is when I discovered the underlying nuerodivergence ( ADHD) with a neurologist and medical Drs. and the massive amounts of research that we all do. I am still listening and learning. Thank you for sharing.

This kind of explains why I just end up pounding water whenever I'm in allowed busy room, I figure I might as well be stimming with drinking my water and then it'll give me an excuse to go seek peace in the bathroom

Yes I can hear electricity it's overwhelming

Thank you 🦋

I can walk into a room and feel people’s feelings well most people especially when I’m at my best friends house I can pick up on how she’s feeling without her even telling me

If i walk into a room with too many widows open letting in light, a anxiety inducing ceiling fan running, more than two people, sometimes a itchy looking/feeling fabric couch/chair, and whatever else that might be there... I've had panic attacks because it's too much. As soon as walking through the door I want to walk right back out.

And people intentionally gaslighting too.

When I was in grade/elementary school back in the 70s... there was no support back then for autistic kids like me who were average-to-above-average intelligence... so, school was an all-day circus of sensory input. Even though I had no issues at home using the bathroom, two times I urinated in my pants at school because I was unaware until it was too late that I needed to go! That did not help in my making friends in the least.

It also makes it hard to respond on cue to someone taking to you or respond correctly even though you heard them. Because you hear everything at once and might be answering them according to the conversation next to you although you heard them. 😩

@orangesnowflake3769

2 ай бұрын

I'm sometimes slow to reply or muddle my words but it's just cos it takes a few seconds to get my words in order

@Candice144

2 ай бұрын

@@orangesnowflake3769 same here or else it will come out not in order at all.

Smells would cause flashbacks and I thought it was just because of the experience when I was actually already hypersensitive. Sounds, lights,smells others feelings...yep I have everyone of these traits. I always have. I had no idea what it was.I think I do now.

Dislike the electricity noise . The worst one is the big lines outside

@jmaessen3531

2 ай бұрын

Ugh the awful sizzle buzz of the big outdoor lines is wild. 😭 There are some that we pass on a couple routes where we walk our dog and I always have to speed up our pace near them til it fades. It suuucks!

This is why I drank a lot in my late teens and 20s. I wanted to see concerts or dance (special interest) but couldn't tolerate the environment. Also drank to relate socially.

Ohhh link for the full video please and thank you 😊

I was kept awake last night because of the electricity in my desk pulsating like a heart beating. I’ve unplugged it in the past. Sometimes it’s louder to me than other times.

(this comment is not related to what's being said in the video and might sound weird haha but) you have lovely eyes ❤

Yes I feel this always

I say I feel like a walking ganglion. No protection from outside stimuli.

Thank you for this!!!

Wow do I relate to this!! 100%

This is so true. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

Yup, the big sponge or antenna or radar 😫

Yeah, an antenna of overwhelm!😢

+momonthespectrum *Rather than hypersensitive, I'm hyposensitive.* Don't read others' body language and/or emotional states. In fact, have to _remind_ myself to eat due to compromised introceptive and proprioceptive nerves.

@wesley3300

2 ай бұрын

Welcome from the other side of the spectrum! Lol Seriously though, that must be tough, but I’m glad that you’re taking care of yourself even when your body/brain isn’t giving you the signals you need. I hope that you receive enough respect from the people around you that you can still communicate with them; some people can make it very difficult when we can’t pick up on the non-verbal cues. Don’t forget to stay hydrated as well! :)

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Sometimes it’s too unbearable

I’m autistic and rh negative so it’s always an overload 😅

@XaltaTarot-qs2hc

2 ай бұрын

same

@RaccoonNation

2 ай бұрын

@@XaltaTarot-qs2hcdoes not surprise me one bit that you read tarot.. being an RH negative 😁💖💫🪄

You explained it perfectly. I understand this all so well. Thank you, Taylor. 🩷

This is how I ended up with Fibromyalgia. 😢

Where is the rest of the video?

Yes

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WAIT HEARING ELECTICITY IN THE WALLS IS AN AUTISTIC THING???!!!

❤

I thought you would have mentioned the god awful humming from these stupid 5k towers!!! I have been more overstimulated and more headaches

Wait other people can’t hear the electricity in a room

My son has not been able to be diagnosed as Autistic despite being obviously so. This video fits him to a T.

Sounds like ADD

You don't feel "electricity in the walls", it's just a faulty brain doing faulty brain things

@Catlily5

2 ай бұрын

Hear not feel, Cranky B.