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STUDIO VLOG 21 ✦ opening up about my struggles (and honest talks about mental health)

hi lovely friends ♡
I've been wanting to open up about my anxieties and fear of judgement for a while now, but I honestly didn't have the courage. This week, I wanted to take back control of my life. I decided to talk openly, film whatever I wanted, wear no make-up, ugly laugh, and do all the things I used to be afraid doing in front of others. This is my first step towards building self-love and self-compassion for myself, and I am planning to start a new youtube series called "self-love diaries". Please stay tuned, and I hope you enjoy :')
lots of love,
malin♡
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where do you live?: boston area
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  • @madebymalin
    @madebymalin3 жыл бұрын

    Only 8 more days to shop my CAT LOAF SHIRT! 🍞 here’s the link: www.bonfire.com/store/made-by-malin/

  • @emeryryan2415

    @emeryryan2415

    3 жыл бұрын

    I know Im asking the wrong place but does someone know of a trick to get back into an instagram account?? I stupidly lost the account password. I would love any tricks you can give me

  • @malikleighton58

    @malikleighton58

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Emery Ryan Instablaster ;)

  • @emeryryan2415

    @emeryryan2415

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Malik Leighton thanks so much for your reply. I found the site thru google and im trying it out now. Takes quite some time so I will reply here later when my account password hopefully is recovered.

  • @emeryryan2415

    @emeryryan2415

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Malik Leighton it worked and I now got access to my account again. I am so happy:D Thanks so much, you saved my ass !

  • @malikleighton58

    @malikleighton58

    3 жыл бұрын

    @Emery Ryan Happy to help xD

  • @crispy_lettucej0573
    @crispy_lettucej05733 жыл бұрын

    You don’t even need to share much about your personal life until you feel comfortable, I am here for the amazing cute artwork and your studio vlogs, never feel pressured to do things you don’t want to! :3

  • @tirameowsu
    @tirameowsu3 жыл бұрын

    I personally really struggle with talking about my own mental health, so hearing you talk about your own in such a normal and casual fashion is always so motivating to me,,, it really helps normalize these things in my own head, and I'm sure you're helping a lot of others in doing so. ty for another wonderful vlog malin!! good luck apartment hunting 💕

  • @bearypinkparfait
    @bearypinkparfait3 жыл бұрын

    Vlogs like this always brings me to tears, hearing someone who struggles with the same feelings about not being in charge of my life or torn between different world s/cultures, makes me feel less alone and understood...thank you Malin :') I hope you continue to find your voice and where you feel you best belong, without having to constantly thing about other people's expectations or perceptions of you 🥺💕

  • @TaffyToodles
    @TaffyToodles3 жыл бұрын

    malin i am so so so proud of you for opening up! its not easy to put yourself in a vulnerable position, but you are so strong and well-spoken, and a really wonderful person

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️

  • @hannalukis4783
    @hannalukis47833 жыл бұрын

    i love how you can explain things that i cant comprehend into words!! bcs i also find it comforting/easier to talk to strangers/new people but i just cant explain why? the whole prejudgement and being the person you are at the moment totally makes sense to me :') also!! the songkran cats are such cuties!! i love seeing you embrace your Thai culture

  • @Musikchic47
    @Musikchic473 жыл бұрын

    I love your cat's scraggly meow...my cat sounds like that too, lol, like an old lady who smokes too many cigarettes

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yesss she croaks at me and i love it

  • @RadhiaRahman
    @RadhiaRahman3 жыл бұрын

    i could literally listen to you talk for hours bc my brain is just absorbing all the lovely things you have the share with us!

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Awww thank you radhia 🥺❤️

  • @Izybuzy
    @Izybuzy3 жыл бұрын

    I have depression for years since 2018. It's hard to go to work, that I had to drink 2 glass of coffee every morning to lift my mood. I moved to another job 3 times in less than 2 years. I was working as graphic designer, brand manager, then background artist for animation. Art is my passion, but strangely it didn't enjoyable anymore. Then in 2020 I quit my job because it's getting worse to waking up from bed and do simple thing like bath. But I realize that I need money to live, and I didn't want to embarass my family by doing nothing but sleep. It will just add more anxiety. Yes no one know about my condition, not even my bestfriend, but I actively share to stranger about it because I feel better. Including now I'm writing comment here :D After quit the job then I started my own business, in handmade bath and body care. I'm proudly say that it's growing well and since I'm working at home, I have time to heal. Not completely escape from depression but I'm happier now. Thank you for making the video, I'm happy that people share their mental health, I feel like connected to people and not feel all alone. Depression and other mental health are suck, but I wish we can be happier each day, and successfully reach our dream.

  • @mayberryyam
    @mayberryyam3 жыл бұрын

    I loved hearing about your 3rd culture experience, because I totally feel the same way! 😭I'm Filipino-Canadian but I've been living in America for most of my life, so I kinda just feel like I don't fit in any of these cultures... What really helps me cope with this is finding friends who feel the same as me. So we find joy and fun in just being ourselves, instead of trying to be a perfect specimen of our cultures.

  • @TeacupGirl
    @TeacupGirl3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so glad you feel like you can speak up and use your voice again in videos.... Honestly, the little Songkran kitties were so adorable! We were living in Thailand for two years, and Songkran was really a joyous time that I and my family really enjoyed so I’m happy it’s being celebrated elsewhere too!! ☺️💦💦

  • @tizi2003
    @tizi20033 жыл бұрын

    Apartment hunting and moving can be so stressful! Moving is listed as one of the major stressors. Take good care of yourself like you are doing. Acknowledging your feelings is key...and as you said, they are like friends or acquaintances...they come and go...

  • @ErinBrodieBot
    @ErinBrodieBot3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so proud of and in awe of you for talking about such difficult things, and I hope you know how much of a role model you are for people

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Love you brodie ❤️

  • @belldiy6771
    @belldiy67713 жыл бұрын

    omg when I saw your shirt on instagram, I thought you just drew over the picture. But now that it's actually a shirt, 🤩👏😊💛🙌😭 QUEEN! I love it so much!

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    AHH TYSM!! 🥺

  • @fullbloomandco
    @fullbloomandco3 жыл бұрын

    I totally get what you mean about not feeling at home anywhere. I never realized it was such a common feeling... but you are not alone

  • @peihsing
    @peihsing3 жыл бұрын

    Omg I have that fear too, on what people gonna think about me or judge me on what I do

  • @hotcoffeewarmpages2913
    @hotcoffeewarmpages29133 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for being so open about your mental health! I struggle with my own and it’s so good to hear other people (especially artists I look up to, like you) talk about their own ❤️

  • @thebunnytofu255
    @thebunnytofu2553 жыл бұрын

    i appreciate how you pour out your feelings and thoughts to us🥺 i hope this community makes you feel safe💛 youre inspiring as always, i hope you have a good day malin🌷🌸✨

  • @glossytaron5930
    @glossytaron59303 жыл бұрын

    learning about the Thai water festival was so interesting and ive never heard of it before! now off to research it some more :)

  • @HoneyxLime
    @HoneyxLime3 жыл бұрын

    I related to you so hard and I felt that even more when you mentioned your age. I’m also 26 and going through the same thing

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Hugs!

  • @GiantMounTaesan305
    @GiantMounTaesan3053 жыл бұрын

    the sweater is so pretty! please remember smile always!✨

  • @ThePaperbackFairy
    @ThePaperbackFairy3 жыл бұрын

    I appreciate you opening up to us about your mental struggles. I also get very caught up in thinking about what my family and friends will think, but if you keep trying, it will get less and less intense... Take care love ❤️

  • @kristinlarson3001
    @kristinlarson30013 жыл бұрын

    I loved your blog and my heart is so happy for you on your journey of grieving for who you were but embracing and loving who you are today. I’m on a similar journey so I relate to you so much! Thank you for your honesty ~ and I love your cats! 😻😻😻

  • @mwah6736
    @mwah67363 жыл бұрын

    What an amazing way to start my day!! Thank you for dropping this new content malin!

  • @THEDOPETRUTHCO
    @THEDOPETRUTHCO3 жыл бұрын

    Yup i am the same way. U r not alone lol. Its ok girl we grow n build better in life , :) much luv

  • @honeypie7201
    @honeypie72013 жыл бұрын

    i'm so excited for the new series! i've missed your "casual" vlogs so much :D amazing video as always, you're very eloquent and candid about your struggles, it gives me hope ^^

  • @josielennon4906
    @josielennon49063 жыл бұрын

    Can’t wait to watch, and also get both my sweaters. They are so adorable 🥰💗

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    ah yay!! thank you so much :D

  • @LauraJayneCakeee
    @LauraJayneCakeee3 жыл бұрын

    This was so nice to watch, its great to hear your thoughts and feeling as they can be so relateable! Such fun to learn more about your culture, it's so interesting 😊 Take care, Malin! ❤ xx

  • @baomii
    @baomii3 жыл бұрын

    the tiny gasp i let out 🥺💛 YES i’m so excited for you to share more thai culture in your work!! honestly even though i’m not a third culture kid, i feel very similarly about being in between worlds and not being asian enough. incorporating my culture into my art has always been a way for me to embrace my asian identity and take pride in the many forms of inspiration that make up who i am 🥰 i always admire you for being so open with mental health talks and i feel similarly about the way i share my personal life online with strangers ahaha! love everything as always and looking forward to this month’s patreon rewards~ 💕

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Cam!! Thank you so much for your kinds words 🥺 seeing your work really inspires me to connect with my culture more and so far I’ve been having so much fun! And ahhh I noticed you joined my patreon thank you so much!! ❤️❤️❤️

  • @wunderkind2204
    @wunderkind22043 жыл бұрын

    I think its so beautiful, that you share your culture in your art. I love that you teach other people about thailand, I want to support you on patreon sooo bad, after Uni I can finally afford it :D please, please tell us more about your culture in your vlogs, I enjoy that so much, not only the food, but everything I saw and learned so far!

  • @bluebearyco8683
    @bluebearyco86833 жыл бұрын

    Mosa is so cute omg 😭❤️ and omg I relate so much to how you feel about people you know irl watching your videos and stuff! I always feel like I have to censor what I say or what I post because I'm afraid friends and family will worry about me or judge my feelings but hearing you talk about it was so comforting ❤️❤️

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    You’re not alone❤️

  • @glencop8842
    @glencop88423 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for doing these videos, I am beyond grateful for being able to watch them 😌 take care 💛💜

  • @kawaiikoikingdom
    @kawaiikoikingdom Жыл бұрын

    Hi Malin! I have been watching your videos for a month or so now, and I AM SO INSPIRED WITH YOU and can relate to you so well. I am also born in Thai and I came to Canada, and feel seperated from the Canadian culture and the Thai culture as well. I am an artist just starting to find my style and hoping to open up my own art business. I watch your videos for inspiration with my art and for tips on the business, as well I have a diagnoses mental illness and struggle with it and finding motivation and creativity to finish my art projects. But your videos always give me inspiration and motivation to continue doing my art!

  • @sundaysunshine
    @sundaysunshine2 жыл бұрын

    I love your illustrations, personality and editing style!! Great job!!!

  • @kathopy
    @kathopy3 жыл бұрын

    OMG! so excited! and that sweater is beautiful!

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    thank you so much!

  • @userrr0909
    @userrr09093 жыл бұрын

    so aesthetic (((❤❤ im crying ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @kiruraja
    @kiruraja3 жыл бұрын

    I love your drawings and your video when there is a new video I feel like flying in the sky.

  • @sarahsworld-2240
    @sarahsworld-22402 жыл бұрын

    Girl live your videos so much so relaxing n soothing love seeing your cat don’t give yourself a hard time I think your amazing love ❤️ 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

  • @user-xl8ud9ic4r
    @user-xl8ud9ic4r3 жыл бұрын

    thank you for this

  • @muemue5527
    @muemue55273 жыл бұрын

    Yay! Another studio vlog! I love your studio vlogs!

  • @charlottesucreries3353
    @charlottesucreries33533 жыл бұрын

    Mosa meow ohhw so cutee ahah

  • @MuchLove-3
    @MuchLove-33 жыл бұрын

    Yay!

  • @asukalovelydoll
    @asukalovelydoll3 жыл бұрын

    Malin you are so cute and I loved to follow along your days and life and how simple things in life matter. Plus your cheeks are super cute and squeezable~ lots of love 💕☺️🤗

  • @VnyArt
    @VnyArt3 жыл бұрын

    I'm looking forward to watching the video🌟💕 Sooo cute🐾

  • @westical
    @westical3 жыл бұрын

    I love how your vids are so unique and just totally you! look forward to each upload

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!!

  • @krismasx_
    @krismasx_3 жыл бұрын

    yay! i new studio vlog! i love watching your videos so much!

  • @Yukime92
    @Yukime923 жыл бұрын

    I got the navy blue cat loaf sweatshirt, and it's very cute and comfy~

  • @kanshawty8648
    @kanshawty86483 жыл бұрын

    I always love watching your vlogs and hearing your talks about mental health. It's comforting to hear and I feel like I'm not alone with these feelings that you share with us. We're so v proud of you and good luck with finding an apartment !!

  • @glowatyourownpace
    @glowatyourownpace3 жыл бұрын

    Oh you're reading The Body Keeps the Score! Isn't it good!? I actually started reading Scythe on your recommendation and I love it so far!!! Great vlog as always! Thanks for sharing your feelings. I feel the same way about not really being my "true self" because what if that offends someone else? It's been hard and sometimes lonely to be like that... so *hugs* for you too! Oh and I love hearing about your culture! I feel like Americans don't really have a "culture", so I love to hear and learn about other cultures from all over the world! Always be true to you!

  • @Livvyma
    @Livvyma3 жыл бұрын

    What you were saying about overthinking about your actions, I feel ya... I always do the same thing

  • @angellinicole
    @angellinicole3 жыл бұрын

    This studio vlog is so precious and eye-opening!! I am an art student and I started my youtube channel about a year ago but I find myself struggling to keep up with it because I always think about what other people say but this video motivated me to just do what I really want. I also love how you incorporated your culture in your art and I would also want to do that in the future if I opened my art shop

  • @seoulologyy
    @seoulologyy3 жыл бұрын

    I got mine in white, but still in the laundry. 😅 Excited to wear it though!!

  • @beetle6207
    @beetle62073 жыл бұрын

    ur vlogs always make me want to draw, so inspiring!!!!!!!!

  • @Livvyma
    @Livvyma3 жыл бұрын

    your art is so cute!!!!!

  • @kogistudios
    @kogistudios3 жыл бұрын

    Omg malin!! I have been so worried about you im glad you're finding your voice and being your lovely self! I was trying so hard to get in contact with you 5 weeks ago to send you some goodies from my shop to cheer you up since your last studio vlog and I cannot find any info to where to send stuff to you! Please let me know a P.O. Box or somewhere else youre comfortable receiving stuff from my shop! You're one of my biggest inspirations and I would love to help you like you've helped me with some free cute goodies!! Keep being you!!! Give mosa lots of love for me! Xoxo Nicole

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much Nicole! Im planning to move but when i do i will definitely open a PO Box! ❤️

  • @kogistudios

    @kogistudios

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@madebymalin I can't wait!! You got this malin!! Keep going and don't give up!!

  • @MoMo-is4ct
    @MoMo-is4ct3 жыл бұрын

    Your cat is very cutttee & when you mention Mel I’m like :{}

  • @kaityskorner
    @kaityskorner3 жыл бұрын

    Aw omg I love this! I made a video like this as well and I believe that it should def be talked about more! Love you

  • @itscharliebee2307
    @itscharliebee23073 жыл бұрын

    First off I didn’t finish this video when it was first posted and when I went to look it back up I accidentally typed in “Made by Mosa” 😂 And for a second note I’m so glad you share parts of your childhood and culture on your channel! I feel like I learned so much today! I didn’t know about Somgkran and it was so cool to hear about. Growing up the elementary I went to would have a field trip once a year. we would go to this park that had a special watergun playground. It had fill up stations and wooden forts and tunnels. It was always the coolest trip every year and something everyone looked forward to. I only ever got to go there for school and haven’t been back since. I hadn’t thought about it for a while but your stories of songkran brought back a lot of memories of that park as a kid.

  • @anadreamer
    @anadreamer3 жыл бұрын

    I love this video and I am really happy that you felt comfortable being more open with us.

  • @kreativekatart580
    @kreativekatart5803 жыл бұрын

    4:50 I feel the same way! I feel like we are more alike than I realized

  • @akio_ryuu18
    @akio_ryuu183 жыл бұрын

    Hi po. I love your vlogs and even your products... And when I want to watch studio vlog, I always end up watching your videos. You inspire me a lot to do some artworks❤❤ God bless po. Greetings from Philippines

  • @Feonalilly
    @Feonalilly3 жыл бұрын

    I love studio vlogs with a lot of talking because I'm usually multitasking and can't always look at the screen lol. Subscribed

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much!

  • @vaneavieiradossantos788
    @vaneavieiradossantos7883 жыл бұрын

    I love is videos ❤💜❤💜

  • @liviacostea
    @liviacostea3 жыл бұрын

    Congrats for the driving license! 👏🏻

  • @faribaart469
    @faribaart4693 жыл бұрын

    Excellent

  • @dorothy.j
    @dorothy.j2 жыл бұрын

    Well u can put that idea as travel sticker maybe people might interested

  • @__2rus
    @__2rus3 жыл бұрын

    8:25 that sound tho oml

  • @anitas_tinkershop
    @anitas_tinkershop3 жыл бұрын

    🥰🥰🥰

  • @zeicento
    @zeicento3 жыл бұрын

    Hello from Thailand ka :), Happy Song Kran naka,,, love your video ❤️

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you ka!!

  • @bye2565
    @bye25653 жыл бұрын

    :o is that amazing shirt available?

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    yes! here's the link :D www.bonfire.com/store/made-by-malin/

  • @bye2565

    @bye2565

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@madebymalin omg, thank you!! I will definitely be considering buying! :p

  • @OhanaCraftAmigurumi
    @OhanaCraftAmigurumi3 жыл бұрын

    chatty is good ! hehehe5555

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Do u like do u like 😹

  • @OhanaCraftAmigurumi

    @OhanaCraftAmigurumi

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@madebymalin oh I loaf it ❤️🤣🤣🤣

  • @angelloumivy6577
    @angelloumivy65773 жыл бұрын

    what is the game you play with the cat ?

  • @icjacks2348
    @icjacks23483 жыл бұрын

    I think the “not fitting in” is for everyone who is non white but more with people born outside of the states. I know my mom will say it too. She moved to the states when she was 15 n now she’s in her 50’s n when we go visit family in Mexico she’ll say that she doesn’t feel like that’s home anymore like she doesn’t fit in there.

  • @alyss.art_
    @alyss.art_3 жыл бұрын

    if you were worried about being out and not having your wallet because your license was in it, if you ever get in any trouble it should be fine as long as you have your license number!

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Omg thank you i need to write it down now

  • @alyss.art_

    @alyss.art_

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@madebymalin ya! what i do is i save a picture in my email so i can access it from anywhere!

  • @dorothy.j
    @dorothy.j2 жыл бұрын

    What book u are reading?

  • @_dansilverio
    @_dansilverio3 жыл бұрын

    Is that the Brazilian flag behind you on your doorknob?

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes! It was a gift from a brazilian friend hehe

  • @yl9400
    @yl94003 жыл бұрын

    CC Indonesia please

  • @zarelyrojas8967
    @zarelyrojas89673 жыл бұрын

    hello I love your videos, I wish you could put subtitles in Spanish

  • @Sparkiiro
    @Sparkiiro3 жыл бұрын

    It makes me sad to hear that you were encouraged to believe that about your Thai culture in school. I used to teach English in Hong Kong and I felt uncomfortable when my boss or Chinese colleagues would idolise my accent, my language skills and even my skin colour - some of my pupils had parents who were just so grateful to me for making their kids sound 'less Chinese' and I'm like...please don't take your culture away from them. I was discouraged from speaking Cantonese or asking them about their language and stuff. I was told to punish them if they spoke Chinese. I obviously never did, I would end up spending a few minutes at the end of the lessons getting them to teach me Chinese and they always found it really fun. I guess what I'm trying to say though is those Thai New Year stickers are so cute and be proud!! If people don't want to support you for drawing part of your culture then they're just stinky. I'm glad you went with that theme

  • @madebymalin

    @madebymalin

    3 жыл бұрын

    This is so normalized in asia too! At my school we had to pay a fee for speaking thai in school, which is why we stopped and only spoke english. Thank you for sharing your perspective and experience! Your words mean a lot to me so thank you ❤️

  • @Sparkiiro

    @Sparkiiro

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@madebymalin A FEE??? Oh my days that's so wrong!! I'm so sorry that was a thing :( And you're welcome!! I'm so happy ;u; Your vlogs always make me super happy so thank you too!!

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