Bibi was his girlfriend, and ironically, they did end up separating after some time. The song is about his fear of losing everyone around him because of his illness.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

I guess this song and video were a foreshadowing...😪

@anniedh600

Жыл бұрын

Was she the girlfriend that moved out, which caused Ren to look for a renter to move in, which turned out to be Romain and thus their friendship and ultimately the beginning The Big Push? Funny the path life takes us one. Also, was she the girl in It’s Alright - the video where they drew chalk hearts on the sidewalk to brighten people’s day? I love that video.

@joshuawiedenbeck6944

Жыл бұрын

@@anniedh600 I'm not sure about that part. That would be an odd twist of fate if it's correct.

@xdaniedx

Жыл бұрын

​@@anniedh600 Yes. She's the girl in the "It's Alright" video as well.

@gcarap

Жыл бұрын

@@anniedh600 Yes tp all Annie, as Ren phrased it, "Some French guy" responded to the ad after Bibi left and the rest is history.

This one is a tough watch - Ren was very ill at the time and expected to die before he reached 30. He wasn't diagnosed with Lyme Disease until 2016 so this track precedes that. Bibi was his girlfriend at the time, which makes it even more poignant. Incredible that, despite the pain he was going through, he was able to create something so beautiful.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

I wonder what they were telling him he had?!

@sammyd8860

Жыл бұрын

@@MrsRealistic They were telling him that he had chronic fatigue syndrome but also that much of his illness was created by his own brain and therefore out of his own control (and theirs). He has never stopped challenging that and looking for his own answers

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

@@sammyd8860 And "chronic fatigue" is just a label for something without answers... kind of like SIDS. I'm sure they never stopped to try to find out what was CAUSING it. I'm had he continued to question and search!

@sammyd8860

Жыл бұрын

@@MrsRealistic I remember a colleague of mine suffered something similar and it was dismissed as "Yuppie Flu" like a lifestyle disease of the young and ambitious

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

@@sammyd8860 That's why I hate the medical system. If it's not easy, like a tumor or an easy diagnosis they shrug their shoulders and throw some pills at you.

This is one of his favourites he said, and it's one of mine. It's so raw and genuine and I've not got 1 bad word to say about it, or him come to think of it. I can relate to him so much ❤❤❤❤❤

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

He's very true to himself which i love

Ren has just turned 33 and I am so happy his music is taking off in a big way

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

He is one of the best looking 33 year olds I have seen!

@FooDogDat

6 ай бұрын

@@MrsRealistic Video may have posted in 2015 but not filmed then, Ren would have been about 26 that year which is when he got back to music, but I think this was done much earlier, more like when he was in the first years of his illness.

@MrsRealistic

6 ай бұрын

@@FooDogDat Yes he looks incredibly young

The emotion in this is video is tangible, great review but, yes, going to have to listen to Ren - 'What You Want', to lift me back up again.

I love the music in this. The two halves musically great. So sad though

I have to go listen to something really cheerful. I really like Crutch though, I been listening to Patience today, another old one very touching. Good reaction Mrs R.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Yeah it was pretty dark!

@robmarar

Жыл бұрын

@@MrsRealistic theirs one Ren song that I find underrated and overlooked by many reactors that I believe you'd appreciate with your background in poetry. This is a haunting piano ballad that Ren wrote, that has his artist friend Molly featuring her ethereal vocals on the track & Ren blends genres by infusing some wonderful Spoken Word Poetry as well as some intricate Rapping. I think it's a modern masterpiece. 🤯 Ren Ft. Molly McKinna - Penitence kzread.info/dash/bejne/hGFrt6p9n67Sfdo.html ❤

@flea1683

Жыл бұрын

@@robmarar it's a beautiful song.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

@@robmarar Thank you for the suggestion... I'll add it to the list!

This is so very personal to him and how he felt going through the pains and uncertainties but what I also like is how this can relate to anyone who, without necessarily going through the physical. can feel the desperation of their lives losing hope or day to day dark depression. I know the mental part of his journey was the hardest but I'm saying how this video shows the depth of anger and hurt and how we all need that "crutch" though sadly sometimes that crutch can devastate. I am looking at the visuals and listening to the lyrics and music but feeling and applying them to how I have felt at times. He interpreted his pain so clearly here and I understand it. Thank God he is out of the worst right now. This is very hard to watch. He said he was afraid of getting hypothermia from being on the cement as he was freezing. Thank you Ren for this great piece of work from a most talented artist. Thank you for sharing♥🙏🏽✌🏽

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Yes, he conveyed that message perfectly!

Hunger and Power are amazing tracks also.

@MrsRealistic

11 ай бұрын

Thanks for the suggestions!!

For REN, this was truly his reality. Misdiagnosed with Lyme disease for 7 years by conventional doctors who deemed him mentally ill, but when patients are experiencing neurological symptoms, they very often become misdiagnosed. Lyme disease can present itself as many neurological conditions including Acute Transverse Myelitis[3], Ptosis[4], Seizures, and Chronic Fatigue[1] and these symptoms can be often misdiagnosed or deemed psychosomatic. Second is dealing with the symptoms of Lyme neuroborreliosis, these neurological symptoms often leave patients feeling drained and debilitated as they begin losing their quality of life. Over time, patients find themselves unable to do the things they love as they struggle to get ahead of their progressing symptoms.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

What an awful roller coaster

@docdurdin

Жыл бұрын

@@MrsRealistic Spoken like a true Mom.

@teardrop-in-a-fishbowl

Жыл бұрын

Psychotic events can also occure when *neuro* borreliosis-burgdorferi kicks in. I had such symptoms too (huge anxiety,thoughts of self-harming me, eca ) when misdiagnosed in 1980/1982 and most of all NOT treated with adequate antibiotics (broad-band antibiotics). I thought, after getting borreliosis in 1982 for the second time, I will die. Maybe I had luck being a good trained athlet with a good functioning immune system to not die, but the effects on the body remain and I'm sick now for more than 30 years, in early pension, have to deal with several *unsolved health problems* and still not getting treated (yeah pills and more pills). "They" don't know the long-term effects of untreated borreliosis and if the bacteria can mask themselves and hide in parts of the body where wether the immune system nor medicine can reach them (fat layers, spine, neuro system,brain, fascia eca) anymore. "They" say long-term borreliosis doesn't exist, but there are no scientific researches about that and as we know several viruses live forever in the human body and are active when stressed out or having health problems of a other kind like influenca or other virus infections. I'm 58 now and half of my life is *gone by* in pain and desperation. Having all sorts of diagnosis,but most don't really fit and only describing the symptoms, feaded with pills they themselves cause symptoms and then the toleration thing (was on morphin, after 20 years of using opiates to kill the pain). I detoxed from buprenorphin and was told I need opiates anyway and climb "the ladder" again, just like with the other stuff too. It isn't funny, but I'm a fighter and I don't want to quit yet. Was it in my thoughts? You can bet on it! So, listening to Ren was painful, related and helpful too. My thoughts when listening to certain music by Ren is mixed, but I always enjoy his genius attempts to tell his story and give the listener something to reflect,joy and inner "friendshipness" with him. I'm sorry if I didn't use the English language properly. I'm old,sick, destructed and still learning it by myself. Thanks for reading and stay strong who ever needs this message from me! You're not alone, don't fight alone and use whatever it needs to comfort yourself in bad mood or health crisis! With ❤️, Andreas.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

@@teardrop-in-a-fishbowl I'm so sorry you've gone through this. Thank you for sharing your story here. I wish you better health in the future. Have you worked with a functional medicine doctor? They work with the whole body, not just masking the symptoms. Blessings to you! 🙏

@teardrop-in-a-fishbowl

Жыл бұрын

@@MrsRealistic Thank you very much! No I haven't yet. Additional problems, related to all sections of my spine (several protrusions), occured and I have to solve them first (surgery and other non- inventional measures). Things like this happen if your muscle apparatus is in pain, disbalances and spasms are "torturing" you when using them (walking, working,cooking a.s.o.), you avoid using them much. But our spine, heart and the whole body needs exercise. So, one thing comes after another and being muscle sick ("myo-fascidal-pain symdrom") and getting spasms with one wrong move (since over 40years,over 30 years chronically!) makes you vulnerable for additional health problems like cardiovascular problems, overweight, fatty liver (medication related) kidney problems and disc problems (no exercising,much walking and working without "being lazy", I'm my own hard critic for sure!). So it is, unfortunately. I need specialists for at least three, four different medical specialties. I live in Germany. We have good specialists, but if you don't (can't?) treat the main problem, the muscle apparatus, you're always to "late" on other things that occur. Not knowing, or not getting,what causes my muscle deseas is the main problem. I have to read Ren's medical report, maybe I find a "solution", steps I can avoid or find steps that weren't made yet but necessary. I'm still me (lol), with a good working brain(?) sitting on my phone, or computer and enjoying other peoples work online. Wish you much success with your channel! Thanks for taking the time to read my novels 😀 and above all replying to me. Much appreciated! Greetings from Germany, Andreas.

Wow!

Painful / Beautiful / Thought provoking / Sad / Poignant - that's too much for me in a 3 minute song, but I will watch it again and again, why ? because it touches my soul and that's precious

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

I'm sure that's exactly how it was intended 😊

thank you for reacting to my favourite artist ever ❤❤❤

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

You're welcome! He's amazing!

This is such a beautiful piece of music and amazing that Ren could produce something like this at a time when he was suffering. I’ve heard it said that artists, the very best of them, are often close to insanity. Ren did say in one of his interviews that the psychosis he suffered had him believe of that he was being controlled by demons and that at the time he found this the only rational explanation for what was happening to him. He said he felt he had to act in unpredictable ways to escape their control. In one of his songs, I forget which now, he refers to depression being a blessing in disguise. Maybe without the suffering we wouldn’t have the wonderful artist we have today in Ren. Perhaps not. Who knows, but we are blessed to have him now

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Yes! On the one I just recently did "Illest of our time" he says depression is a blessing in disguise! He had said in an interview i watched, that he knows all the things he's been through have made him who he is, but at the same time there isn't an alternate reality where he HASN'T been through all of that to know whether he'd still be the same person. I thought that was such a great point!

Out of all the ren songs this ine hits the hardest. My ex wife took off bc of my seizures. Vows mean nothing to some people. Been single for 9 years since bc i havent been able to find a woman willing to be there for me after a seizure.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry. It's odd to me because women are naturally care takers. What happened to "in sickness and in health"? I can't imagine dealing with something so scary and not having your wife there by your side. 😪 I hope a good woman finds her way to you 🙏

Thank you for your reaction. I have come like them a lot. This is so so hard to watch. I think that's why so relatively few have uploaded reactions of this. It's hard for those in Bibi's situation. The fear of letting the one you love down, because you can't handle the pressure you live under, is paralysing. The support system to relatives trying to help is below the below, at least where I live. I also think it is about realising that the drugs you took to not lose your mind just gave a temporary relief and, when they went out of your system, it made the situation even worse. Now your "crutches" are talking about your drug addiction and not about the reason for it, leaving you even more alone.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Very well said! Thank you for your comment. 😊🙏

I took the end when she disappeared as, no noone would stick around.

@MrsRealistic

9 ай бұрын

That's a good take! A lot of people think it's going to be too much to take on. 😪

We have exactly the same taste in music and I know if I lived in the USA 🇺🇸 🇬🇧 we would definitely be mates xx🩷🩷🇺🇸🇬🇧

@MrsRealistic

2 ай бұрын

Aww thank you Stacey! :)

Ren just turned 33 March 29th.

He's 33 xx

Yeah... Thanks! Blows me away that video has Soo few views! Thank you for sharing! :)

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

I guess he didn't really pop off until his recent stuff?🤔

This is an old song - before ren was diagnosed with Lyme's. I don't want to assign knowledge I'm not sure about, but I think Bibi was his girlfriend at the time and it was a callout to her...

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Yes, I think he was only very recently diagnosed correctly. I hope he reaches full health again. He deserves it so much!

There is an explanation of the song, by Ren, in the description.

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

Thank you 😊

💔💔

He just turned 33

There is a line in Hi Ren, "my music...gives me a purpose to hang onto."

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

How perfect!

So glad you dipped your toes into ren's pond but now let's take a dive into his ocean😂 ren and and Eden Nash/ ocean❤ kzread.info/dash/bejne/qqOdmdKCYN2tgKQ.html

Well done…

Dear GOD try also hunger illst of our time see how good a rapper he is chalk outlines him and chinchilla ballads the guy's talent is for me a one off

@MrsRealistic

Жыл бұрын

He's truly gifted. 😊

#HOGLOVE2HOGFAM❤🧡💛#BRANDON💚💙💜🤎💯💯