My mother was depression all my childhood and emotionally neglected us. She was also unreasonable strict. I left home at 16 to get away from the restrictions. I no longer have contact with my parents

@hecatesnightfall9121

3 ай бұрын

Very similar but she was not strict thank goodness. But mine is in pisces.

@sushritichatterjee688

3 ай бұрын

​@@hecatesnightfall9121 Mine also in pisces

@crystalasplund6628

Ай бұрын

Miy childhood was similar but it was my father that was depressed and neglectful and my mom was overly strict only with me.

Wow. Spot on!!!! My mom was the masculine figure in the home. Very cold upbringing. I’m sure I was loved but no support from my family. I didn’t feel seen or understood. Always worried about how broke we always were. Too much responsibility for such a young age and when I was in college, I remember saying I didn’t want to pursue being a doctor because I didn’t want the responsibility. This is something I need to work on!!!!

I think like a rock when I’m home. I feel creative and positive when I walk out.

@kdkmovieexplainer3631

Жыл бұрын

Same bro... Mine is in pisces.

@breannajoyal5201

Жыл бұрын

Same here! Mine is in Capricorn.

@breannajoyal5201

Жыл бұрын

& My north node is Aquarius in the house of creativity (5th)

Left home at 16 due to family issues, and literally moved to another country. Age 40 my dad develops a life threatening condition, I loose my job, and have to move back to childhood home. Astrology just blows my mind.

Saturn in the 4th Aquarius/Pisces (Vedic/tropical). Abject poverty, POS absent biological father, emotionally unstable Asian mom with BPD. Abandoned us on a farm for a summer. Tried to change the story of what happened as if we weren’t there witnessing everything in our childhood, the abuse, restrictions, etc. home was cold. Mother was cold. I started my life in Saturn Dasha so you could basically say I didn’t have a “childhood.” It was spent studying and practicing classical music. I have many regrets. One is spending the last 10 years in crisis mode ever since leaving the house. 2nd is thinking if I was a perfect child, obedient, disciplined, well-behaved, it would bring peace at home some how. Nope. It didn’t matter. No matter how hard I worked, how much I achieved, my mom always had something to say, something to criticize, something to pick apart. My friends and I with Saturn in the 4th house (we seem to find each other) realize that going no contact with the disciplinarian parent is doing what’s best for us. I wish someone told me earlier in life that trying to be an overachiever was pointless. I’m not here to bring balance to the force, I’m not here to parent my emotionally immature Asian parent. That’s not my job. Not my obligation. My obligation is to the family I created and boy, do I let these little monsters run wild! Watch what you want, play when you want to. 5th house stellium in Aries right here, baby! Freedom to express, create, and enjoy!!

@coreyforney6854

10 ай бұрын

,💚💚💚Sounds like my earth family. Sun in Taurus Aries in Venus 5th house.

@TFrom58

5 ай бұрын

Omg my life is so similar to yours! Aquarius/Pisces 4the house cusp Aries sun that gives me life in 5th house Sadly....its true that we have to separate from my parents especially my mom for me. She used me as her little maid, emotional sponge, scape goat basically I was low key responsible for her and my siblings through her many pregnancies. I have been crying since Saturn has come close to my natal at 8 Pisces, its forcing me to see my parents for who they really are! I can't believe I have to emancipate myself tottally, I'm so sad about it, yet it feels like I can start living finally!! 😭😭😭🤦🏾

On point, roles reversed with parents, raised by baby sitters and grandparents, stayed away from house/parents, nurtured self, lack of nurturing feeling. Had to leave home early.

@miaj5118

Жыл бұрын

Same same same

Just want to add my comments as someone with Saturn in 4th, hope it’ll give everyone some insights. Indeed I grew up in poverty. My family business went bankrupt when I was 5, and we have to run to a different city and start everything again, basically disconnected from my hometown. I have to work from the age of 6, slowly taking up responsibilities as I get older. I spent my weekends on the street doing manual labor with my father, and when I was 12-15 I spent all summer working 12 hours a day. It was hard work, although my family did show their love for me. It’s getting better as I have my own stable job now, but I can see that once my Saturn returns, something crazy is going to happen again with my family (me and my Dad have Saturn return in the same year). I don’t know what it will be, just hope for the best. Wish all of the Saturn in 4th out there the best, too

@AlinaMilaya

Жыл бұрын

You should not really worry about Saturn return, I did it fine and actually inherited some good money (unfortunately, I blue them out lol but I did make almost all my childhood dreams to come true, including skydiving lol and visiting Europe). Yes, it started (I assume) with breaking up with my bf of 5 years and indeed it was hard, but that was my decision bc I did not feel like we are happy together :) So now I can say “thank you, Saturn!!” Lol

It's true. There was poverty when I was growing up, and we had to live with my grandparents for maaaany years, too! My family on the side of my dad is really strict, they're part of an ancient line of lawyers and are very conservative, and I've always been very creative and don't agree with them. My economic situation improved a lot as of the age of 24 aprox.

@kezmenflowers8691

11 ай бұрын

Similar situation. My financial situation improved around 24 as well and my dad's side comes from politicians, judges, business owners and lawyers. I don't talk to those people because they are a stick in the mud.

I’m looking at my daughters chart and seeing this scares me. She’s only 1 right now. I’m so sorry baby girl I’m doing my best, I’m not sure what to do about this.

@aliahspirituality

3 ай бұрын

My niece has it in her chart and it scares me too! She’s so loved I don’t want her to ever feel badly about her childhood 😢

Reading these comments make me feel not so alone anymore. I was raised by my grandparents because my parents were drug addicts and were out doing their own thing. My grandparents were very cold towards me and unloving and I had to lick my wounds a lot. Even when my dad committed suicide or when my brother died and even when my mom died I just got cold treatment from my family. I don't care to talk to them anymore because I had to make it on my own and even dealing with homelessness twice and my own mental problems and even my own suicide attempts I couldn't keep begging them to show me love anymore so I just decided to break ties with both sides of my family. Also the physical and mental abuse I got from them added to my trauma as well. Fuck em. Crazy thing is, around my Saturn Return at 28 my mom died. I moved from Florida to California at 26 and ended up moving back to Florida at 27 to be with my ex and then at 28 my mom surprisingly just died from lack of care for herself, then at 29 my ex and i broke up and the reality of how shitty my family truly was hit me and how truly alone i was in the world, so i had a mental breakdown and was hospitilized for 3 months. Im doing way better now being alone to myself.

I have been binge watching your videos regarding my natal chart and this one is the most frighteningly accurate yet to the point that it feels like a one-to-one reading. My parents were kinda absent and my grandparents had to take care of me but I never really graduated the childhood stage in a certain sense and I still feel like home/family life is my biggest restriction. This is tough no joke 😅

i never stop being suprised over and over by the accuracy of astrology! i did have a more masculine cold mother who is very restrictive about many things especially small details like dust cleaning and perfect orginazations because she also has ASC virgo, and i was being taken care by my amazing grandparents most of my childhood (which my grandpa is a capricorn my grandma is sag) which gave me the love and warmth i was so missing in my inner family/ home also because i have saturn in gemini in the 4th house the biggest traumas i had in life was learning disabilities and my parents getting frusturated and angry at me not being able to understand and sitting with me doing homework from morning till midnight each day and because of thier frusteration of me not understanding it used to sometimes turn into violent situations, mostly verbely but sometimes phisically too, it's incredble how you can see all of that accurately in astrology ! thank you for the video!

I was raised by wolves. This makes sense! Great content - listen at 0.75 speed once she gets going - you will take more of this valueable info in…🧡

you blew up my mind when you talked about the Erricson's theory...I have saturn in aquarius in 4th house....being a psychology student I was also reading this theory...about a couple of months ago...and I realized that my earlier stages were not fulfilled (crisis) and I am not able to satisfy the next stages....but as soon as I turned 27 this year...my saturn returned 4th house again...I unintentionally started to resolve all those crisis...one by one...your reading was spot on....

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

Glad the video resonated !! 😊

True. When i was growing up i had no freedom. I never been to a party or sleepover or school dance, not even my own graduation. My mom was a single mother and she worked 2 to 3 jobs to support me at times, but in between all that she loved to garden so she had me working in the front or backyard weeding and shoveling mulch etc from sun up to sun down. My summer vacations were not 'vacations'. I put on sunscreen every day not to go to the beach but to avoid skin cancer while i sat in the blazing heat pulling out weeds... anyway, because i had a stifled childhood i feel emotionally and physically stunted. I dont know how to behave normally in social settings, and people call me "lazy" because im quiet and hesitant to take on certain things. You could say i lack confidence, but i also am aware i avoid things because subconsciously i feel pressured by everyone or every little thing to 'show up and do it' at the cost of my own comfort or joy. This resulted in me turning down higher positions at work, managers saw ton of potential and responsibility in me but i was quick to shut them down because i didnt want to feel chained to something else apart from my own self again... I am 28 now and i still dont know who i am, what i really like enough to pursue as a career, and i often feel i am 'supposed to' stay home and not do anything, its hard to explain. My partner may ask me casually 'whatre you going to do tomorrow?' and i am always the practical/'boring' person... i just say "clean, do laundry, take care of the cats, watch something"... as much as i would love to go out and explore new hobbies or new places i feel so stuck in myself and i know its more mental than actual reality. This has caused me a ton of depression...

Very true! Home was cold and I moved out at 15 to another country lol

So wild. My parents are quite old and we’re older when I was a child. We were very poor and very religious. Both of my parents were absent in different ways. The things that stemmed from this upbringing have been my biggest area of struggle my whole life. I feel like I am finally working through it. Saturn will be direct in its original place in my chart next year. My life is honestly wonderful right now. So much is opening up for me in career. I’m a little nervous now that I’m approaching the return. Very interesting video. Thank you.

This was the most accurate description of my family ever. Growing up I watched a video about an orphan boy, and I cried so much, now tha I think about it - i related so much to that boy. Orphan in a full family😢

This made we want to cry 😢. Aqua in the 4th house.

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

♥️🌟♥️

I could go on with personal info but you pretty much nailed them all.

4th house in Sagg. A lot of changing home place, now it will be 8th time and not last. Family home was cold, restricted like in army, helping my parents with theirs work as a child etc. Both parents work a lot, literraly I was carrying myself since age 4.

@bewiseandkind9471

Жыл бұрын

Resonate!!!

@Ststepaniants

Жыл бұрын

Exactly the same!!!! Thanks for sharing! ❤

Damn! This was deeply spot on… I’m balling 😭

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

♥️♥️

Saturn in Gemini: Difficulty finding emotional security and establishing a sense of stability within family relationships. Communication may be challenging. Very accurate 😊 Also have sun and pluto conjunct in my 10th house which truly indicates an absent father. Emotionally absent mother and father in childhood:)

Saturn in leo in the 4th house, and Capricorn has midhaven. I grew up with my grandmother. My dad lived there but wasn't there. Then he died at about age 12, I then went to live with my mother, who is a narcissist. I moved out, and back in with various family members (that's the co-dependent part). I recently moved into a place, didn't like it, it felt so claustrophobic, so within 13 days, i moved and lost all of my my money. I also now realize that I move around a lot......what a life😢

Profound for me! Thank you so much! 🌹🔥💛

Wow. This is SO accurate. Thank you for sharing this 💛

This was very eye-opening, as someone who has this placement. Thank you!

Great explanation 🙏💜thank you

You are awesome!

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

Thank you!! 🥰♥️

Omg, girl, I just love your videos!❤

@barbarajsc

2 ай бұрын

Thank you!!! 🥰♥️

Thank you. Now you have answered the question I always ask, even though my solar sign is Virgo, but I am afraid of taking responsibility, as if if I did, this would never end.

Thank you❤

This is so accurate!

Thank you

Wow wow wow!!! Very accurate and makes so much sense. This is the third time in the last year and a half, almost two that I have ended up back in my mothers home. All different reasons but I have been struggling financially and am doing an immense amount of shadow work and healing lack mentality, and limiting beliefs. This was so helpful!!!

@barbarajsc

7 ай бұрын

Glad it resonated !!! 🥰♥️

This is excellent...and I want to add I LOVE the speed you talk....you could keep up w me in convo!

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

Thank you !! ♥️🌟

@sarahstevenson8155

Жыл бұрын

Do you have a Mercury in aries? :) I do as well

you are soooo clear

@barbarajsc

9 ай бұрын

Thank you!! 🥰♥️

The only KZreadr I had to slow down instead of speed up lollll What a wonderful insights!! Especially regarding MC, bc I am a cap in its so hard that at age of 37 I am still could not get into my dreams to become a professional and successful, having a family :(

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

😄 I’m so glad you know about that option !! 🌟

@AlinaMilaya

Жыл бұрын

@@barbarajsc I did not want to miss even a word lol! What’s a wonderful insights!! ❤ thank you!! -cap sun 5h, scorp moon, mars, Pluto in 4h, Saturn in 4th in sagg 🤪

@miaj5118

Жыл бұрын

​@@barbarajsc aries placements?

I cannot believe how bang on you are, it’s eerie. I definitely would like you to give me a private reading, if you’re available. I’ll look you up on your website.

@barbarajsc

6 ай бұрын

Thank you !! Looking forward to it 🥰

Childhood was like military school, little while stayed with my maternal mom but being a Scorpio moon/ taurus asc, then I became the boss of the house. And finally left the house, still have overloaded responsibility and still sponsoring them.

Saturn in 4th House CAPRICORN. Jesus. Thanks, little doll

This is a very painful aspect😢

That is impressive! How can we heal from this? What can we do?

Very important what you said. Can you please explain your view if I have Pluto/Saturn conjuction in Libra?

Same here Saturn in 4th house...

Aries saturn 4th house Adopted at birth sealed records been tripping that mystery and abandonment Whole life. my relationship with my adopted parents was normal they were alchohalics and I grew up to one too. Alchohalism is not genetic boys and girls it's learned

Can this also be for Capricorn on the 4th house cusp instead of Saturn in the 4th house? I feel this is VERY much my early life. My Saturn is in the first house in Libra on top of ascendant. I did leave home early on in life...

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

Yes !!!

Please, could you give me an advice in few sentences. I have a son, 3 year old. He has Jupiter, Pluto and Saturn in Capricorn in 4th house with Jupiter on the lowest degree of 3. Jupiter squares Asc and Mars squares Pluto and Saturn. Please..please could you give me an advice or opinion? Thank you so, so much. ❤

My son has saturn in leo 5th for placidus and Saturn in leo 4th for whole signs. Which should we recognize?

It this effects are same for retrograded Saturn in 4th house with highest degree in natal chart?

For whole houses Saturn is in the 4th but in 5th for traditional chart. Which is right?

And what about Saturn in the 4th and the Moon in Cancer? (conjunct MC in Leo, by the way)

@codeman7348

Жыл бұрын

I have moon in cancer in the 8th house. I’m guessing yours would be the 9th if your MC is in Leo. The hardest part I would say is the abandonment issues, clinginess, and feeling like if you do something wrong, people will leave you, but at the same time you might want your space to yourself, so finding a balance between your space and safely bringing people into your space is a struggle at times. Maybe you’re super creative and hardworking, depending on your sun (is it in the 6th house?) but deep down you might feel insecure and not good enough. That’s just my guess.

My child has this placement & none of this resonates , I'm very loving & nurturing toward my child. This stuff scare me lol

What do you mean by "cancer is the most abandoned sign"?!

@barbarajsc

Жыл бұрын

Emotionally, Physically. They are always looking for a family. They also tend to have orphan past lives a lot of the time/or even in this life/or just feel like an orphan because didn’t have the family feel they were looking for when growing up

@valeria-militiamessalina5672

3 ай бұрын

That's why they are so needy.

Thank you