You know I only wished for four words from her. And that was “I’m proud of you”

I grew up knowing I was always going to be second best. I grew up knowing I would never be good enough for my mother. When she wouldn't get her way, she would yell. She always treated my brother better than me. She yells at my step dad. My dad and her fight every time they get. She never told my dad I was born, my grandfather told my father. She always tells me that I won't be able to graduate. She told me that I won't make it through boot camp in the Army if I ever joined. I had a best friend, her mom was so cool. I was actually jealous of her cause she had a cool mom. She was never there when I was being bullied. She was never there, I had to raise myself up to end of elematary. My sister came into my life

No matter how hard I try I'm not good enough, she was suposed to be there suposed to understand but she never understands.

The biggest problem in the world is that anyone can have children, but not everyone can be a parent

I am a 24 years old woman....My mother has been blaming me for every wrong in the house and it has gotten worse....nothing change except for getting worse....she blames me even for the arguements she has with my siblings and stops talking to me.... It's kind of weird how can these people never even love the life they brought into this world.

I wish tho my mom will be here so she see what ima doin now but see choose to come into a guy I've never felt mom's love I wish she will come back

She made me feel like I was worthless. I never felt pretty, the the bully’s the taunts those words would have never mattered if my mom could have looked me in the eye and called me beautiful. She never could and even now she has 5 daughters and I feel like there’s a part of me that holds the thought that she regretted me out of all of us. As I walked through the isles of the grocery store and kneeled down to cry all I could wonder was how could my Mami say that to me?

I never knew an argument could be solved without yelling. I was genuinely confused when my teacher said it possible. I love the moments between the anger. The times where she would be calm and happy. But things change and I’ve grown to be silent or fight back when I have the energy when she yells. But hey, she’s never hit me so that’s a plus lol. She’s my mum and I love her, I just wish anything below and 87% was shit.

I don't remember her being a terrible mother when I was little, but as a single mother she was always away having to work to bring me home. But as I've grown up, she's kind of become someone else, I love her so much and I try so hard to make her proud and give back all the love and effort I saw her sacrifice for me as a little girl.But I grew up and she started to replace good words of encouragement with harsh and hurtful words, she started calling me a parasite when I don't do something she says... She seems to have stopped loving me like before...

The words that i wanna hear from my mom is, “Im sorry. Im sorry for all the things i did, all the pressure and the anger i put out on you. You are brave, confident, and a smart girl. U are my dauguter and Im proud of you….I love you.”

"A child could never hates it's mom until mother hates child first "

My mother was never physically abusive. She never said anything like “I shouldn’t have had you” or “you ruined my life” and for years I thought she was the most wonderful person and why I ended up with so many mental health problems if they were so great. This year I’ve only started to realize how cold they were to me. I try to hide when I’m feeling upset around the, because I know they won’t take me seriously or say “I’m sorry you feel that way” which only makes me feel guilty for having emotions. I’ve had three mental breakdowns this week and my parents have been there for none of them. I could list so many things my mother has done to make me feel like shit, like finding a stash of m&ms I keep around for when I get the munchies and saying that she hopes I don’t have an eating disorder because of how she raised me, she doesn’t even know that I already am well on my way to an eating disorder but I get the feeling that she would worry that she did something to mess me up instead of actually caring about how I feel, telling me that I need to find a hospitalization program that lasts for less than three months because she doesn’t want me to go too long without a job, telling me that making a pillow for my grandfather (who was dying) wasn’t a very useful gift idea and to just get him some books instead, saying my partner and I are too mentally ill to be together, despite the fact that my partner is more mentally sound than she is because they actually go to therapy, despite the fact that my partner actually cares about how I feel and tells me that I’m loved and that I’m going to be okay while my mother doesn’t even acknowledge how I feel and just ask me what I want her to do to fix things (which is very stressful to have all the responsibility of fixing the problem on me instead of trying to find a compromise), she doesn’t know that I’ve contemplated self harm and that I’m passively suicidal, or maybe she does know and just doesn’t care, and the more I think about it, the more I remember her less than stellar emotional support from when I was growing up. She’s trying her hardest and I know that and recognize that. I don’t want to demonize her but it’s hard to feel the love for your mom when you’re too busy feeling alone.

Whenever my mother did anything for me, I was always expected to "return the favor" down the line by sacrificing my happiness, life, purpose, everything for her and my brother and my father. Everything I ever got was another debt of giving up another fundamental part of me for their approval. I ended up with schizophrenia just because my family hated me so intensely for being the cause of my father's death when he couldn't verbally and physically threaten me anymore. And even then, my acquired disability wasn't their fault, all the stress they forced on me was my own fault for crying to them about it and bothering them about it all the way to when I was born. I was left to my distant relatives when I was born, because my mother thought that her career and happiness going to America was far more important than my needs, so I was never fed by her, never held by her. My relatives raised me, and even then they saw me as someone else's child. My father, also, saw me as a parasite from the moment I was born. He solidly believed that all the way to the end of his days.

I once talking to a work friend about stuff my used to do I thought it was normal, until I started crying my eyes out and she just hugged until I let go. I see more of a maternal figure in people I've known for less than a year than someone I've known my whoile life.

Its very sweet you displayed all these comments and gave those people a chance to shine through their darkness. I love that its the same video but with reality overlaid. Beautiful.

My grandma would hit me for not doing the dishes at the exact minute she asked me to. I remember running up the stairs as fast as possible just so no more bruises could form. She's my mom's mom and my mom never understood why I hated her so much and still forces me to spend time with the woman that told me I should cut my stomach off so I looked slimmer and that if I were hers I would have been disowned back when I was two. I've had depression since I was three and suicidal thoughts since I was 7. I never understood what a grandma should really act like because that's all I ever knew was being hit and yelled at and told that no one loved me since I was three. I'm now twelve and I don't know just how much longer I can hold on.

All I ever wanted was a mom not a master mind, not a manipulator or narcissistic asshole,or smoking addicting junkie. All my life that woman done nothing but used me for her own selfish gain or my siblings I love her yes we rarely had good moments. But that doesn’t change everything you did as someone once said “I AM NOT ANGRY!! I AM IN PAIN YOU PUT ME HERE!!!! THE PERSON WHO WAS SUPPOSED TO LOVE CHERISH ME MOST!!!”

I currently have a verbally abusive mother and it's not pleasant in any way. For me, every days an argument and I recent had one with her today, she drove me to the point where I yelled at her to the top of my lungs. My very last words to her were "I hate you, I really hate you for what you made me become."

When I was 7 my sister stated taking up all of my mothers attention, and I am a very attention seeking person. Me and my sister used to fight non stop. Whenever I was in the same room as my mom my sister would usually come in, since we we’re always fighting my parents like to keeps us in separate rooms,so if my sister came in my mother would send me out. That happened for a year and. A half. I had so much bottled up anger. Eventually my mother sent my sister to go away instead of me. She explained that I had been leaving and distancing myself from everyone, all true, and it was because of them. I started hanging out with them more. Even though I was much happier i still had 2 years of bottled up anger and no was to let it out. For about a year I had been randomly throwing up, only on the carpet like twice I always made it to the bathroom, and then I told my parents. It was just random whenever I ate to much of had to much liquid. I never felt sick or anything when throwing up it was just strange. My mom got annoyed and she started blaming me for it. I already had depression, which my mom ignored, and her doing this gave me a lot of anxiety. It got worse. Anyways we fight a lot and I’m always apologising. What I don’t understand is that when me and my sister fight I’m told to be responsible and apologise even if It’s not my fault because I’m the oldest but when my and my mom fight I still have to apologise. I think it’s a “ respect your elders” thing. Whatever. My life’s shit 🤪 and I wanna die but I’m to scared of pain lol, my mom sucks and I don’t feel safe around her 😓. P.S I’m not trying to say my life is worse than anyones or something.

My mother is not here to support me, she is here to torture me until i die!😭😭