Appreciated hearing you talk about anger ❤️🙏

Beautiful talk and q&a. I cried a bit, and laughed. ❤🙏

@TrueFreedom

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❤️🙏

Hey Artem, I have a question about sleep and dreaming. 
 First some context: I am in what I would call the non-dual (but not yet liberated) stage. I had my first awakening in 2022 and have since highly reduced reactivity to more or less zero. I don’t experience boundaries, distance and subject object separation anymore. I also don’t experience objects or the world as „real“, they appear more like part of a single „hologram“ that just appears or just is (just an experiential description, not a metaphysical one). But of course when I stub my toe it hurts, so there is an experience of physicality. Now with all of that there comes a sense of freedom, unconditional love and equanimity but it is not all-pervasive yet. I am still doing some emotion work especially in regards to close relationships but that has become quite intuitive and spontaneous. So for example when something comes up in regards to my ex girlfriend who I am still very close to I tell her about it and if necessary let the emotions come out. A few weeks ago I met with her at my place and cried a lot in front of her telling her about my feelings of deep shame, not feeling good enough and feeling like a child that has been abandoned (after our break-up). Doing that was quite cathartic. I sense that some of the deep shame is still there but I’m open to it and I know the time will come when it all comes out. I am also being more and more compassionate and loving with myself and others. Now to sleep …

 I currently dream a lot while sleeping (mostly weird dreams that I can’t remember after a few hours - I can remember them most of the time directly after waking up though). I also often experience a kind of heaviness and grogginess waking up which goes away after a few minutes or 1-2 hours after getting out of bed. Especially the last few days I had difficulty getting out of bed. After waking up I always fall asleep again and it feels very heavy like there is a lot of gravity to the sleep and dream state. After falling asleep again in the morning I always dream a lot more and I often have several cycles of waking up and falling asleep again. Some of the dreams seem to be about not feeling good enough but many dreams also just seem very random and I don’t recognize any recurring psychological patterns in them. I currently sleep around 7 to 9 hours a night, sometimes 10. I don’t wake up in dreams and I can’t remember ever having experienced that. I’m okay with the situation and I don’t really suffer much from it but I feel like there could be a lot more clarity and peace in and around sleep. I haven’t had really good sleep for several years now but it also isn’t bad. I’d appreciate some feedback from you, Artem :)

 Also are you 100% sure that enlightenment means no more dreaming at night? Much love,
 Yannick

How do you experience anger without perpetuating your own egoic story?