hello everyone. 10k views on this channel isn’t something I thought i’d break. i am very thankful for whoever to take their time and listen to this. i understand it may make you feel vulnerable, so this is a safe space. if someone is ever rude to you in the comments, please report them, and do not take it to heart. we are here for you.

life doesn't even feel real

@wrathofgrape3634

18 күн бұрын

Fr though

It’s weird how depression and stuff almost makes you feel a sense of calm in dark and what most other people would find eerie like music, images, places etc. I’ve had depression most of my adult life, I’m 28 now but was at my worst when I was about 19. I’d attempted suicide a few times, but could never truly go through with it. I used to go out on late night drives alone into the hillside and just cruise along backroads at 1am, felt like I was the only person in the world. Those drives are some of my happiest moments. This music, images like the one here, make me feel like I’m on those drives again. Peaceful.

@jasmine-fn2iq

Ай бұрын

i’m glad your still with us 🤍

@iamthegreenarrow762

Ай бұрын

I understand what you mean, the darkness looks different when you are depressed, it feels different, it feels comforting; even peaceful.

@haulidayz302

Ай бұрын

hey dude, i want you to know this. i don’t know how you feel, but i think i’ve felt something similar to this too. a point of hopelessness where you can’t find any reason to just be. i think it’s ultimately human nature for us to ultimately encounter the meaninglessness of the world at some extent, and unfortunately this happens to the most perceptive of people. but i know one thing to justify all the suffering. that’s Jesus. if you aren’t big on the religion thing, i think you can pull some great wisdom that might give you peace anyway. pull open a bible and hear what it has to say. i’ve been at my lowest, but whenever read the bible i find a clarity i’ve never felt before. please please please ask me and questions or doubts, because i care for you on the very virtue that you are God’s creation.

@d.d1921

25 күн бұрын

U have a meaning to live ur strong for not giving up

I don’t wanna be here but I don’t wanna hurt the few people that care about me

@SchizoLifter01

2 ай бұрын

Even the darkest of nights will end, and the sun will rise again.

@iGAM3PLAYZi

27 күн бұрын

This is so accurate to my situation right now I would happily go but my mama would be devastated

@knives5964

25 күн бұрын

​@iGAM3PLAYZ someday I hope you have the ability to live for yourself

@milhito832

8 сағат бұрын

God loves you and has a plan for you wait and give your life to God it will be okay

My ex girlfriend comitted suicide on start of this month. For brief moment, i have realized just how so much little you can lose in such a short time.

@nbaxdjgtxxx

3 ай бұрын

Lamento mucho tu perdida

@Kazmick

3 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry…

@-Andsori-

3 ай бұрын

One day they're there and the next day they're gone.

@aly-eb5vh

3 ай бұрын

may her soul be at peace

@Zombina638

3 ай бұрын

Sorry

This is the symphony I want to hear on my dying breath.

@answerlover911

3 күн бұрын

its the most beautiful song

My sister committed suicide last year. I cant help but cry 24/7. Even though she never treated me the best still i loved her with all my heart and even though she wasn't the best she still loved me. She left me a text saying how proud of me she was and and how she was happy i had gotten so far and told me to hold on as i suffer depression. Im crying right as i type this. I know these words are meaningless but i needed to get it out. I'm sorry.

@humbloom

17 күн бұрын

I am so deeply sorry. To lose such a close and beloved member of your life is incredibly tragic. Your words are not meaningless, they are very important as you are expressing your feelings and emotions, don't ever feel they're useless. Praying she has found peace at last.

@milhito832

8 сағат бұрын

God loves you and when he made the sunets skies and moutnains he looked at all he had made and he saw it and he still needed you in it to anyone reading this enjoy life and give your life to God and accept Jesus Christ as your lord and saviour, so whoshallever beleiveith in him shall not perish but have everlasting life

my dad died 2020 and it took me three years of sparks of depression that could last as long as weeks and now as i sit here on the bus I have to let go of the past to move on and it is not as easy as people ssy it is it took me a lot of self questioning and dought and more to be where i am today praise god

@TheClopez

2 ай бұрын

I'm sorry ❤❤

@scruf_

2 ай бұрын

I lost my dad on February 22nd 2023, we just passed the year mark, this 22nd will be 13 months. I miss him so much, I don’t know how to feel anymore. I’m sorry for your loss, I know how you feel- I really do.

@hellothier2

2 ай бұрын

@@scruf_ ya but listen trust me it will get better with time you just got to think it will no matter what like I did sorry for your loss the first year or two is always the hardest point

@milhito832

Ай бұрын

Praise God I’m sorry for your loss

Hey guys , I been fighting depression for 18 going on 19 years and I think I’m really done with my battle well ik I am. Been thru a lot words can’t even explain all of it but ik for a fact im tired of feeling like this. To anybody in my family who may see this years from now im sorry i tried but at the end it always gets the best of me. Don’t be mad at my decision be happy im not faking a smile and happiness anymore….

@Vic_99.

Ай бұрын

Congratulations bro!!

@milhito832

Ай бұрын

No no don’t give up God loves you and when he made the stars lakes and the beautiful sunsets and skies those sweet days where everything feels okay when he made everything he saw all of it and said we need you in this world. Life is precious. And it changes so keep going it will get better God wants a relationship with you and loves you never give up

@iamthegreenarrow762

Ай бұрын

God loves you, and He has a plan for you, a great plan. He wants you to be happy in this life, even though you may have to go through rough times, it will be okay, once you make it through this.

@traveler6784

Ай бұрын

This ain't about god loving you. I'm probably a little late,but I hope you changed your mind. Maybe dying isn't worth it just as much as living. So instead of trying hard to die,try hard to live. You will struggle and suffer either way,and if you don't,someone you love will. This means that,pain never really goes away. Please be careful with your choices,you are a treasure of life itself,don't let people rob you of what you really are.

@juussivePalate

Ай бұрын

Happy for you man

Love the slowed version ! The picture fits the song so well It makes me want to actually be there, lost in the snow

@Lucia681

Ай бұрын

I wanna disappear in a thick fog in the woods

@sviffi

13 күн бұрын

I think it is sand

@stress4380

11 күн бұрын

@@sviffi i don't think so

This song is unexplainable and you just get a vibe but you cant say what that feeling is...

@redtopat

2 ай бұрын

for me its a mix ofthe most sad and vile emotions its like walking on sharp broken glass knowing that all your effort is in vain, it makes me feel hateful.

@user-Christ-Follower

2 ай бұрын

Damn bru@@redtopat

Seeing all the comments about different types of situations, and realizing I’m not alone in this world when I say I feel depressed and tired of trying real hard to reach my goals, I don’t a girlfriend a family or even a place to live, I feel like I left everyone down everyone who believed in me, this song makes me think about every oportunity that I had in my life, everyone who believes in me, it’s not that bad compared with others but it’s bad… but in all of this, this music calms me down makes me feel in my own world relaxing for a moment, thank you for this master piece

@G.0.A.T100

Ай бұрын

No one’s ever alone in this world, there’s always someone for you, whether they’re there next to you, maybe in your phone, perhaps in another country so you just haven’t met them yet or it’s you. You’ll always have you, remember that. Having yourself isn’t something to be ashamed of, we’ll have to find ourselves sooner or later. Embrace you!

My life is very bad, and every day I make mistakes and feel sad when I do mistake, but I everyday repent to God. I don't want God to hit me, I just want the devil in my head to leave me, if the demon go away on head, i can reback my life from sad to happy, how ever this is why reason you should don't give up.

@rxosymusic

2 ай бұрын

When you make a mistake, think about how it could've gone differently. If you are at home, do something to take your mind off things. Life is short, so make the most of it. Which ever god you believe in, Allah, Jesus, crap even Zeus, they all love you.

@milhito832

Ай бұрын

God loves you

“Staying up at night in your car as we watched the traffic lights turn green, red, and yellow…talking and then staying in silence…I want that again…to just be in your presence.”

@_bellona_792

18 күн бұрын

🫂🖤 i used to have the privilege of playing monopoly with mine heheh, the board we used is still under my bed, our game is still paused, money still divided, properties still owned, just in-case they come back. :') but what was most important, like ur comment also states, is just that precious time together, those moments of silence & just enjoying eachother's company.

thinking about a time when I was in my car late at night crying over my ex. we were together for 3 years. he broke up with me. I cried so much. I was this close to giving up. I had my head on the steering wheel. someone knocked on my window. I raised my head up and saw a man. he asked me if I was good. I said “yeah” but I was confused. he walked away and never looked back. it felt like it was an angel.

i’m so in love with you. i wish i could take off your pain and your suffering cause you don’t deserve that. when you laugh my heart smiles back, i love your smile, damn it’s so pretty. i think that i love you, but i don’t think you will love me back.

I dont know why im even commentin' on this. Its 4:34am where im at and idk. I met this girl on the 13th of February and ive been speechless since we met. Shes amazin', honestly out of this world. The past few yrs ive been evolvin' into someone who i wanna be at the sametime havent had a relationship since 2019 and been enjoyin' the eyecandies that have been poppin' up here & there. But with her, i feel complete. There's just a lingerin' feelin' of selfdoubt that shes gonna walk away before anythin' gets real serious. Its honestly quite dreadful because she & i, it straight up feels like we met already before although we never did until the 13th. I just dont wanna lose her already. Like im finally genuinely happy...

@Grxwrd

2 ай бұрын

W bro

@linguinitini

2 ай бұрын

Find Jesus bro if you and her both put your faith in him and center your relationship around him. It will be stronger than anything. Jesus has always been there for u bro he loves you and just wants relationship. God bless you and your journey man 🙏

@BozaKnocks-og4vh

2 ай бұрын

Good for u man but I'm not like that

@InfiniteButtholeJesus

2 ай бұрын

Did you tell her how you felt? Please do - if you havent already. Send her a paragraph of your genuine feelings. I swear to god something great could happen - or at least youll know how she feels about you, too.

So depressing... I love it!

@rxosymusic

2 ай бұрын

😭 This is so odd compared to the rest of the comments

@istosh3n

2 ай бұрын

​@@rxosymusicYour track makes me wanna to go in singular space and dream a lot

I feel like an absolute failure......

@shone4939

2 күн бұрын

You may seem as a failure because you can't live up to others wants or expectations, they have probably drained your energy too much. That means that you are very strong and valuable person, but you have to learn to shut those drainers out of your life. I don't know who you are, neither do you, but I just felt in this moment that I should reply to your comment. Hope you are doing good man. God loves you.

My aunt killed herself a year ago, it didn’t really stick to me. I still have those moments when I can’t sleep and the memory of seeing her one last time . Talking about general life and our future down at belle isle. I know I can’t let this grief take over. I’m so sorry I couldn’t be there for you when you needed me. I hope nobody else has to live with the pain of losing someone you love to themselves.

@rxosymusic

2 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss. My grandpa died a few years back and it was so tough for all of us. When you are feeling especially down, watch your favorite show or something.

@Mangonade69420

2 ай бұрын

@@rxosymusic thanks for the support

Been talking to a girl for 4 months just to get rejected and played

@kata9674

2 ай бұрын

im sorry, may i asked what happend?

@Vexmp

2 ай бұрын

@@kata9674 I buyed flowers for her that day just to rejected because she said "Im not ready yet" and next day i saw her in the park with a guy holding hands, it hurts allot not only i destroyed our friendship but our family connections, ive been hitting the gym allot lately just to forget about what happened.

@prod.rolliebliss2895

2 ай бұрын

Bro, don't despair, you'll find the right girl. @@Vexmp

@Jur1t

Ай бұрын

She dosent deserve you , she dosent understand anything including love , and if you really just be sad over that you should know that she had no respect for you , or respect for her own self , and her mistakes shouldn’t bother you , your standards should be way higher , don’t do all that for someone who can’t do the bare minimum, and if she went after another man , there should be only disappointment and if she tries to get back , DONT let her in , don’t let her ruin your peace and your respect, don’t let her ruin and waste your days by being on your mind , where are the standards? You need someone that actually will know how to handle it , how to love you and care for you , and also communicate, but in this generation women r hard to find , the actual ones that want the same thing as you do.

The picture is so reminiscent of somewhere I’ve been. I’ve lived in it, and I wanna go back

Jesus Christ loves you all even at your darkest moments. Romans 5:8

@lenapiatek6275

19 күн бұрын

❤❤ love u and thanks

I know your past effected the way you love now. I know my past effects the way I love now. We have a little one on the way and I wasn’t ready, I still don’t know if I’m ready. We argue almost daily, we say things that hurt eachother almost daily. I wish we could restart our memory fresh and make new beginnings, but we can’t. I can promise I will love my child till my dying breath. I’ve been battling suicidal thoughts for the last decade and they’ve grown stronger and stronger. With the thought of having a kid while I feel like this guilts me and makes me feel selfish, but I can’t stop it. I’ve quit many drugs to better myself but never tried to treat myself better. I hope it gets better for the both of us for our child’s sake, I can’t love another women the same, I never will.

@riekoldraalten6150

2 ай бұрын

A kid teaches you how to become your own parent. In time, you'll start to adress your past self. You'll start to teach him morals, bounderies, but most of all, you'll raise him with all the love and compassion you longed for back then. Kids will inherently trigger you into what needs to be fixed about you. You can grind and overcome. Fight the fucking fight. Dive straight into lava. Burn. Break. Scream. Fucking grind! Or you can contemplate suicide and eventually try, maybe succeed. Death doesn't dissipate trauma. You're just gonna bring it along. Trust me. Grind.

Lowkey just wanna lay down somewhere far away in the woods and watch the sun fall down and feel somewhat at ease…

i like the image of the video and OF the music too

Divine judgment This is what you would feel if you weren't worthy of heaven

I recommend listening to this on a foggy dark morning, it’s so relaxing.

Sometimes I just feel so tired even when I’m asleep

Liminal space means not alone

@rxosymusic

2 ай бұрын

Definition: In Internet aesthetics, liminal spaces are empty or abandoned places that appear eerie, forlorn, and often surreal.

@heathermason8516yt

2 ай бұрын

@@rxosymusic thanks For definating

I just hate having to wake up and doing it all again…

my whole life changed in the matter of 3 months.. i’ve never thought ts would to me i never expected any of this to happen in my life.. i feel so alone.im so tired.

this reminds the amount of friends and loved ones ive almost lost to suicide. it breaks my heart hearing that suicide is more common nowadays, specifically in the younger generation 💔

i feel i want to die sometimes.

@unrecognized2068

2 ай бұрын

We all eventually gonna die some day, i think life is too short and we should feel alive during that short time. Are you depressed

Convinced I needed to hear this 🥲

am i broken or depressed because lately these are the only sounds i relate too

@plantdemon2137

2 ай бұрын

Sadness is something that can linger. It'll never leaves but waits for other things to leave you. Happiness is not eternal and it stalks you deep down. Perhaps this feeling is something familiar, something comforting, and that's why you keep returning to it. In a confusing world, you're searching for something familiar, and the feeling this song brings you, it's that comfort.

The music is sad on the one hand, but very comfortable on the other. I love listening to such works when communicating with a guy, it's very atmospheric! We both really like it.

I tried offing myself 3 times two years ago. First time I was going to bed snd grabbed a tie from my brother’s dresser drawer. I started choking the fuck out of my self but tho I was pretty depressed I stopped and I was like “not yet”. Then another time I was in the shower and tied the shower hose around my neck. Twice. And then I went to bed one night, well I didn’t even really sleep. I just pulled out a journal and started writing things I needed to change. Things I could change. Things I would change if time stopped and I had enough time. Things I would make time for. 3 years later here I am. Am I doing better? Yes. Am I doing great? Hell no. History repeats itself but we learn from our mistakes and we react differently when we’re more knowledgeable. It will get better for all of you I promise. It may not be perfect, but it’ll be better.

I’ve had 2 best friends commit suicide this year. We were the perfect trio of friends at our school who always had humor. One day we all were in a room at our school and we all decided to just let out our actual feelings of having masked emotions all three of us me being the worst of three. After that day we eventually gave up on masking our emotions and we just barely did anything and from that day on there was no turning back. Then one day it happened 1 of my best friends took he’s own life…after the day he committed suicide me and my other best friend were just a duo now but we both became gradually more depressed by he’s death. Another day my other best friend took he’s life making me into a solo and now I have no friends at all.

@KaylenaTerrell

Ай бұрын

I am so so sorry, may God be with them. I hope your okay i know thats alot to go thorough especially if all 3 of you guys were really close freinds . I really do hope you get better and your health is good pls be safe and know that God loves you even in your darkest moments or even if u don’t believe in God at all he still loved you and cares about you he has a plan for your life dont give up now ❤️

This song is the peace described only by nature, only demonstrated by the absence of human kind. This song is when we all come together, no matter race, ethnicity, or religion. When we all just… connect… not as some “bonding” moment you have with your uncle. But connection on an entire incomprehensible level, connection so deep everyone feels it, that feeling you get when everyone bands together as humans not knowing if what we are doing will succeed, and not knowing if this is our end.

2000’s? no. happiness? Yes

So we are all have to live a hard time, or it supposed to be hard times, for when the good timed become we can feel the value of them, (the calm wind never make a great pilot) +(sorry far my bad english)

I reckted and destroyed my own life when i was littel, now, im destroyed and too young to be a man

real real

sometimes i think if i end up with my life, it'll stop hurt.

@Ariiii73

3 ай бұрын

Hey Don’t say that , i dont really know you , but you are important if you still here its because you are going to make beautiful things, in the future your joy will be greater than your sadness, never seen your smile but i know that it is Beautiful and that it light up life , you are important , loved , and amazing keep going you are going to be happy ❤

@Koeex

3 ай бұрын

@@Ariiii73 you're a good person dude, keep doing it, it's the right thing:) and thank you for that words, that really made me smile

Anyone here just for the relaxation?

@sviffi

13 күн бұрын

Me😄

@goregirl.

12 күн бұрын

Some people here to vent or jst to relax

I used to play rugby back in 2019 with a good old teammate. We used to train together and all and it was good memories for us. Later in February (maybe the start I reckon) she killed herself. Life is crazy and the emotions of a human mind goes beyond anything else that you could imagine. Suffering alone is yet another struggle of some people’s everyday life. I’ve struggled alone and I’ll say it’s scary. It’s absolutely terrifying struggling alone. Because no one is there to distract your thoughts, you’re alone with these thoughts, you’re by yourself and you don’t know what you could do to yourself. That’s what I was terrified of. My dear teammate may have thought she struggled alone but I wish she knew Jesus was also holding onto her.

If I being honest I don’t know what I’m going to do when I grow up that has been my biggest fear but my other biggest fear is dying before getting to experience me growing and living the rest of my life life is mysterious thing

Im honestly a little tired of living. It sometimes just suck

Just my type of music. Amazing…I strive to make such good music myself…

I'm so exhausted of living but I don't want to die, I want to continue through life. I suffer with deep loneliness and depression, and it kills me waking up everyday knowing that i'm never the first thing on someone's mind, i'm never the first choice. I have so much love to give, and I give everything into everyone around me, but nobody has done the same for me. I've lost everything I have, and I don't know where to go. I'm about to become homeless soon, and i'm so scared. I feel so guilty for asking for help. Everyone has their own lives, their own families, and I have nothing.

@milhito832

5 күн бұрын

Trust in God he loves you and made you for a purpose

@gab12zin

4 күн бұрын

i was feeling the same, until I had a encounter with jesus,my life completely changed, Jesus loves you and died for you on that cross, we sinned and did many bad things but yet he still forgives us and loves us, your not alone man, God cares about you, repent and give your life to Christ you will not regret it, God bless and I hope the best for you

I can‘t take it any Longer all girls that i loved cheated on me… 6 times

@kata9674

2 ай бұрын

i hope youll find someone who truly loves you

@Devin_.50

2 ай бұрын

@@kata9674 🫶🏼

He didn't text after 4 yrs but I still think about her

I’m only 13 but I’ve been going through sum shit and like my dad leaving my mom school draining me grades failing me I’ve just been taking late night walks by myself trying to improve my character development

i am just 18 and my hair loss affects me badly.. i feel terrible especially when i look on mirror. Sometimes it make me feel desperate.

Been fighting depression and i won... But at what cost

Nice ❤

I thought I would never lose her.. But I did.. She was the only shining light at the end of the tunnel.. And it's all my fault she's gone.. I hate myself for losing the only true best friend I had.. but atleast she's happier without me.. And soon.. no one has to deal with me.. 😂

💙

My grandpa on my dad side dont want nothing to do with me and my grandma on my mom side is crazy and doesn’t want anything to do with me its jus my mom and dad and sister but my sister is rude more times than not my other family member are passed away and ive never been in a relationship hardly the longest one ive been in was 1 day and i use to spend a lot of time with my grandma on my moms side and my grandpa on my dads side but they told me to never stay with them ever again i hate my self and every day it gets worse

my mother died in 2020 i don't feel anything though.. its like I'm.. empty? all i want is a moment to be able to grief but its like i cant.

@riekoldraalten6150

2 ай бұрын

Grief is personal. Yes, grief has stages that apply collectively, but what you experience(or not) is not to be judged, even by you, but being natural with.

@riekoldraalten6150

2 ай бұрын

And look at all the distractions fired upon us collectively, last 4 years. Crazy. That's a massieve load to be occupied with, not? Just be. Be silent. What has to be done and what has to be understood will present itself. It always does.

damn bro

I lost my cat....

@_bellona_792

Ай бұрын

🫂🖤

Will he come back samurai?

I Lost My Best Friend And She Was Someone I Could Talk To Abt Anything Now I Cant Talk To Anyone...

[prod.brosjammin] - (sunset in paradise)

Eu sinto falta disso

Guys your not alone, God cares about you, cares so much that he came in flesh and died for us in that cross, i had encounter with Jesus, was suffering with depression, had porn and masturbation addiction, i thought life had no purpose and i wanted to kill myself, but Christ saved me, my life changed, give your life to Him and repent, may the Lord bless you

Real real

Anyone know or have and idea Where this photo could have been taken

@sviffi

13 күн бұрын

Possibly somewhere

Real

🖤💙🖤

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

It’s weird how depression and stuff almost makes you feel a sense of calm in dark and what most other people would find eerie like music, images, places etc. I’ve had depression most of my adult life, I’m 28 now but was at my worst when I was about 19. I’d attempted suicide a few times, but could never truly go through with it. I used to go out on late night drives alone into the hillside and just cruise along backroads at 1am, felt like I was the only person in the world. Those drives are some of my happiest moments. This music, images like the one here, make me feel like I’m on those drives again. Peaceful.

@Mr.Death56

Ай бұрын

Hey, how are you now, are you happier? I hope your days are always happy and run smoothly, I also really enjoy going out on a motorbike + headset at night.