Pulling Myself Out Of A Depressive Episode

this is a bit of a different and more important video, showing something i don’t usually share too much of: depression.
i found this footage today and began editing it, not realising how much my bad mental state showed, i thought it was just another vlog trying tp be productive. i'd actually fallen into a pretty deep depressive episode during this time, a lot worse than this video shows.
until now i had forgotten how severely exams affected my mental health as i've been caught up in finishing my a-levels and starting my gap year. but it's nice to reflect, to watch this back and realise how far i've come and how much i did stuggle getting through exam season 🙌🏻
depression affects around 1 in 6 adults in the UK, meaning around 17% of the population (as of 2021) have suffered from depression.
it is so so important to catch episodes in thgeir early stages and speak up, get the help and support you need, and let yourself rest 🎗️ it is EXHAUSTING having to fight your brain, and although it may feel like you’re doing nothing, or you feel down for no reason, remember it is a disorder, it is out of your control, and you are not to blame for not feeling okay. it's draining trying to fight your thoughts and do simple things when depression makes everything seem so much more difficult - it is okay to rest!
you deserve help, you deserve support, and you deserve that from yourself too 💖
UK mental health helplines - www.mind.org.uk/information-s...
International mental health helplines - www.helpguide.org/find-help.htm
remember, you are NEVER alone and there is always somewhere either in person, or online, where you can find support or advice from people going through similar things ❤️
- TIMESTAMPS✨
00:00 - intro
00:32 - i’m in a rut
01:02 - plan of action
02:25 - shoulder injury
02:53 - yoga
03:12 - getting ready & dressed
03:43 - re-doing my crystal corner
04:16 - sims 4
04:46 - planning
05:04 - art products
05:51 - college revision
07:38 - editing for youtube
08:13 - more art
09:15 - tidying
09:37 - my pets
09:52 - making more art products
10:46 - getting ready for bed
11:04 - next day
11:34 - why there are no tics in this video
12:30 - outro
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Tourette's syndrome is a neurological condition and disability which causes involuntary movements called tics. I use my platforms on social media such as TikTok, KZread and Instagram to advocate and raise awareness for the condition and show what it is like living with a disability as a teen in school.
My name is Zara Beth (zeezee25 on tiktok) and I post videos about tics, tic disorders and what its like to be a teen living with Tourette's syndrome, Functional Neurological Disorder (FND) and a seizure disorder (NEAD/NES).
I show what its like having tics and Tourettes in class and in school and college, vlog, and I also bake, do other challenges and answer all your questions in Q and A videos.
I am also an ambulatory wheelchair user so I show what life looks like using various mobility aids and how needs change from day to day!
I am also a musician! My newest release is my first single (original song) called "She's Mine" which is now available on all streaming services - I sing and play piano, guitar, ukulele and I write, produce, mix and master all my own songs and content myself!

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  • @ultraviolet540
    @ultraviolet54010 ай бұрын

    Being able to pull yourself out of a dark place takes unimaginable courage & strength, you’re such an inspiration to us all, you’re absolutely amazing!!

  • @DirkVomEck
    @DirkVomEck10 ай бұрын

    Forcing yourself to smile is such a simple but underated method to trick your body into feeling better. Very important video, thanks for sharing!

  • @holly50575

    @holly50575

    10 ай бұрын

    Putting on a smile is something I discovered years ago to stop intrusive, negative, depressing thoughts. 😊🤣🤪👵🏻

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    #fakeittilyoumakeit

  • @JOZZY265
    @JOZZY265Ай бұрын

    It’s so hard to pull yourself out of depression but I have overcome it! All I do is say to myself like “ you matter ! You’re pretty! You’re unique and you’re powerful “ ! And I finally feel myself and I don’t have to hide!!

  • @rocketgirlygirl8658
    @rocketgirlygirl865810 ай бұрын

    This came at the perfect time, I needed the motivation to get out of my bed and clean my room.

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    you've got this!!

  • @rocketgirlygirl8658

    @rocketgirlygirl8658

    10 ай бұрын

    @@Zara_Beth this video was the push i needed! i finally got my room clean and i’m doing better 💛💛

  • @mariaandresfernandez5456
    @mariaandresfernandez545610 ай бұрын

    Zara! Im sorry you have to go through that. You are not alone, i have anxiety so i kind of understand mental illness, but we are here to support you even if it is in the distance ❤

  • @manosij00roy
    @manosij00roy10 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for this. I'm alone away from my family and love trying to get my life settled in a foreign country. Have been in depression since last two years. I feel you.

  • @Lisizasa_No
    @Lisizasa_No10 ай бұрын

    Thank you for this video. I have depression and anxiety, I only take pills without any psychotherapy. And It helped me. But several days ago I started to think about death. This video inspired me to do something like playing the piano, drawing or doing sports to feel better. Thank you, Zara

  • @JoRdYnUrFaV
    @JoRdYnUrFaV10 ай бұрын

    Hi zara! I hope you get better!you inspire people so much!We have helped me with my tics! Always remember that you are great and amazing!❤❤

  • @ryebread4369
    @ryebread436910 ай бұрын

    ZARA!! You can keep the extra wax from your candles! Just pour hot water in the jar. It'll all melts and float to the top! The process smells nice too! If you have a wax warmer then you can keep using your favorite smells!!

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    thanks for the tip!!❤

  • @ryebread4369

    @ryebread4369

    10 ай бұрын

    @@Zara_Beth the hot water makes the glue holding the wick soft too! Easy way to clean them and and reuse the containers! And thank you for the pin. I'm a disabled witch and you are an inspiration!

  • @scollycatrapumba
    @scollycatrapumba3 ай бұрын

    This is the first video I've seen from you and even tho it's a little old I felt compelled to comment that I love your vibe and you look/sound like such a sweet person. I truly hope you've been doing better now but I'm very proud of you for being able to pull yourself out of these episodes 🫶

  • @alecxxy
    @alecxxy10 ай бұрын

    Im so happy for you. Im glad that you can do this bc its really hard for me. I dont have depression but i do have adhd and it makes it hard for me do stuff :(

  • @ElyzaEllit
    @ElyzaEllit10 ай бұрын

    I hope you'll get better ! Remember that your always a great and amazing person!

  • @gabriellavarga8742
    @gabriellavarga874210 ай бұрын

    Hi Zara! This video came at the right time. I have mental health issues, I can relate in some way. Nowadays my mood is a bit down, also try to be productive (and sometimes think I am), so this video gave more motivation. Thank you.

  • @Qu1nette
    @Qu1nette10 ай бұрын

    Really proud of your Zarah for pulling yourself out a depressive episode something many people struggle to do and super inspiring! Can’t wait for the new shop launch

  • @GhostFirl_66
    @GhostFirl_669 ай бұрын

    Wow. This is amazing. Literally, I feel so hopeless at times, I just lay in my bed and don’t do a single thing. You are such a colourful person. I for one have no idea how you got this many things done at one go. The amount of things you for done in this video would take me a week in my life unfortunately :(

  • @atksamurai8774
    @atksamurai87749 ай бұрын

    These videos are so peaceful and enjoyable thanks for the vid! ❤

  • @DSdarksparrow
    @DSdarksparrow8 ай бұрын

    This vid really helped me, I have OCD and sometimes I get in such sad ruts and didn't know how to get out of the. Thank you so much for making this video!

  • @aimeejane_writings
    @aimeejane_writings10 ай бұрын

    Oh my gosh thank you, Zara. I’m also depressed at the moment and it’s really tough. I’ve been in it for a month. I’m here for you xx

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    you're not alone ❤ it will pass again!! xx

  • @michelle7480
    @michelle748010 ай бұрын

    Bless ya Zara, so sorry u have had to go through some bad times, u will only become stronger for it though. I love ur Crystal corner and yes crystals really do help they are from the earth and have the earth's energy in them, you can recharge them by putting them in the light of a full moon. I always carry a piece of Citrine in my purse and a piece of Peridot. Take good care of urself, u are an amazing young woman, stay strong, love and light x💞x

  • @BlueBanana.
    @BlueBanana.10 ай бұрын

    Take a break, do something you like! Take a nice hot bath, eat some food, have a nap, read a book, knit, do what you enjoy! Make sure to listen to your body while doing thoose things, too! It’s not nice to feel sick, mentally or physically but I’m sure you can do this! Edit: I really like making my own custom bookmarks with pens! Yk thoose little bits of cardboard you can find in camomile tea boxes? I collect them and use them as bookmarks because it’s the perfect size!

  • @cziegle3794
    @cziegle379410 ай бұрын

    Yay third comment and top 12 likes. Love this channel. Best to you and your family. Thanks for posting these videos.

  • @thehoundhedgehoghippie7346
    @thehoundhedgehoghippie734610 ай бұрын

    You’re video are always so valuable and helpful ❤❤

  • @highmater
    @highmater10 ай бұрын

    Ive been in a rut too so I was following along with you during this video and it did make me feel a bit better.

  • @Hehhgfeervrvvcegrtbtb
    @Hehhgfeervrvvcegrtbtb10 ай бұрын

    I’m so sorry you had so go through that hope you are better now low your vids

  • @user-rw2tk3ty2v
    @user-rw2tk3ty2v10 ай бұрын

    Zara you are very brave sharing and the way you cope is so inspiring( sorry if i have some mistakes english is not my first) sending you hugs, keep going.you are wonderfull❣

  • @Ryan_Friend
    @Ryan_Friend10 ай бұрын

    Your not alone ❤❤❤ u got this!!!

  • @starjeandingo
    @starjeandingo10 ай бұрын

    im watching this when it came out which is a sunday and my parents are divorced so on sundays i have to move to either my mums or my dads house and then i get really depressed and this made me relize im not alone! love u zara! ❤ and you shoukd definitely make some sims content!!

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    split parents are definitely difficult, it's exhausting moving from one place to another - i still find this difficult soemtimes and i've done it for 17 years! 🙈 it will get easier though ❤

  • @starjeandingo

    @starjeandingo

    10 ай бұрын

    @@Zara_Beth Thank you zara for taking time to read this ily sm!! ❤️

  • @timothycolander4297
    @timothycolander42978 ай бұрын

    Zara, don’t be depressed. You are such a strong, amazing woman!!!

  • @justinnar7130
    @justinnar713010 ай бұрын

    Want to take a second to tell you you’re beautiful, and thank you for your work educating people about Tourette’s! You’re an amazing ambassador for the very misunderstood condition! Keep rocking girl!!

  • @diarymental7
    @diarymental710 ай бұрын

    thank you for how much you educate

  • @yaghyajeetbakshi1207
    @yaghyajeetbakshi120710 ай бұрын

    Hoping for a better day that brings a smile ☺All the best wishes 😊

  • @dandy.des.embrumes
    @dandy.des.embrumes6 ай бұрын

    Thank you, this is very helpful. I am stuck in a sort of depressive episode. I am going to do a bit of uni work !

  • @Qu1nette
    @Qu1nette10 ай бұрын

    I’ll watch later Zarah when I have time too!

  • @FrostNapCat
    @FrostNapCat9 ай бұрын

    I have depression and I feel like I could cry at any moment for no apparent reason. Either it's because of nostalgic or if I imagine the funeral of someone who's still alive. 8 months ago I was at the funeral of my grandpa who died at age of 89 and I couldn't hold back to cry.

  • @_river_tics_
    @_river_tics_10 ай бұрын

    Hey, Zara! I think it’s just so wrong that the best and brightest people suffer from these things, but just know that we all support and love you and we’re here for you. Love you, glad you’re feeling better. 💛 ( P.S. thank you for helping me with the rut I’m currently desperately trying to get out of, this REALLY helped )

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    you can do this 💗

  • @wendyvroom9944
    @wendyvroom994410 ай бұрын

    You can wash candles, yes Just with water and wipe it down. I used to make candles so just plain water will work.

  • @TechDunk
    @TechDunk9 ай бұрын

    Thank you for the video :p

  • @sharnavincent3793
    @sharnavincent379310 ай бұрын

    I hope you get better soon

  • @kickstxr
    @kickstxr10 ай бұрын

    it’s okay

  • @ckblackwoodmusic
    @ckblackwoodmusic10 ай бұрын

    ND Power all day! Also, how nice it is to see comment guidelines for a change.... Generally, there's no sympathy nor empathy for us anywhere

  • @sophaloafbakes
    @sophaloafbakes7 ай бұрын

    omg i would love to see sims content!! that would be so fun!!

  • @malcolmgatenby6792
    @malcolmgatenby679210 ай бұрын

    Okilly dokilly is a frase and also there is a band called Okilly dokilly who are a ned flanders off the Simpsons themed band and they are very good. Hope you're doing well and great video 📹 as always 😀

  • @patrickcarney3949
    @patrickcarney39496 ай бұрын

    Do what you want. It's your life so do want it's you life.

  • @Hehhgfeervrvvcegrtbtb
    @Hehhgfeervrvvcegrtbtb10 ай бұрын

    Also i would love to have sims content I love watching people playing it

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    i'll keep that in mind!

  • @laurennoto1663
    @laurennoto166310 ай бұрын

    When I can't burn my candles anymore I put them on the stovetop on the lowest setting the one used to keep food warm

  • @QuontumGnosis
    @QuontumGnosis9 ай бұрын

    Always in my heart 😘Aloha my Orical

  • @tshegoblooms
    @tshegoblooms5 ай бұрын

  • @AnnieJones-em7kz
    @AnnieJones-em7kz10 ай бұрын

    Hi Zara I Love your hippy area. Totally love all the Crystals I truly believe you have an old soul. Love ya girl and love the new art work. God bless have a wonderful day ❤

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much!❤

  • @sagalaganva7585
    @sagalaganva758510 ай бұрын

    Everybody should Have a ✨witchy corner✨

  • @user-wl7hw2ot7p
    @user-wl7hw2ot7p10 ай бұрын

    Omg Zara, I didnt know you are a witch! You should definitely talk more about your spirituality (if you're confortable with it)! /pos

  • @martinvecino3307
    @martinvecino330710 ай бұрын

    Muchos critican pues no saben lo que es la depresión pero es algo con lo que ahí que luchar jamás te des por vencida y no pierdas tu hermosa sonrisa ok 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

  • @evanmbxx8897
    @evanmbxx889710 ай бұрын

    I wonder if maybe using can of compressed air on those candles might work.

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    ooh good idea!!

  • @helena4656
    @helena465610 ай бұрын

    I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE THE SIMS CONTENT im playing the sims right now

  • @omegellator
    @omegellator10 ай бұрын

    sims content yess

  • @lilexpomarker2825
    @lilexpomarker282510 ай бұрын

    SIMS

  • @mpselectrolab1067
    @mpselectrolab106710 ай бұрын

    Zara, I truly believe too much video game time really affects our health. It’s not bad, just need to balance it with more physical interactions. 🙂

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    i literally hadn’t played a video game in months when i filmed this… i struggle with mental illness and was deep into exam season 😅

  • @mpselectrolab1067

    @mpselectrolab1067

    10 ай бұрын

    @@Zara_Beth My misunderstanding. Hope you feel better.

  • @tawnyfog310
    @tawnyfog31010 ай бұрын

    oh my goshers please make sims content!!!!

  • @Johnny._.joestar23
    @Johnny._.joestar2310 ай бұрын

    I Hope your really really really okay n don't worry everything i will be better (Otherwise nice french i think your better me while i'm french n just a little question how Can join your discord Sever ? ) Take really Care of you i know that you Can Do it gurl (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

  • @jadeblackanimals
    @jadeblackanimals10 ай бұрын

    Pls do some sims stuff

  • @St4rf1sh__
    @St4rf1sh__10 ай бұрын

    Hi, love your content. ❤ Did you get your tics at a certain age or were you pretty much born with them When did you get some of your other mental/chronic illnesses Would really help if u made a video about it ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤ ❤❤ ❤ ❤❤ ❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤ ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @TezraTanks
    @TezraTanks9 ай бұрын

    Is it just me or does one of her sims look like her?

  • @neryschallinor5215
    @neryschallinor521510 ай бұрын

    Get better

  • @rarepepe2572
    @rarepepe257210 ай бұрын

    0:20

  • @Jp090
    @Jp09010 ай бұрын

    Do sims content

  • @BellaT_56573
    @BellaT_5657310 ай бұрын

    if you are in us/va we can be best freinds

  • @erynharvey7303
    @erynharvey730310 ай бұрын

    Do you have a boyfriend

  • @akomzy8611
    @akomzy861110 ай бұрын

    Jesus is the only way, he loves you and always did. Those crystals dont bring anything good and wont help you but jesus can save you. Yoga cant help you only Jesus can, accept him and repent and believe in the gospel thank you.

  • @Zara_Beth

    @Zara_Beth

    10 ай бұрын

    i have crystals because they’re pretty, i like to look at them yoga DOES make you feel good. it’s good for your physical health, it’s exercise which scientifically boosts your mood

  • @BlueBanana.

    @BlueBanana.

    10 ай бұрын

    Jesus dosen’t fix everything, some people don’t believe he’s real so shut up.

  • @akomzy8611

    @akomzy8611

    10 ай бұрын

    @Zara_Beth interesting but yoga isn't biblical and I'm pretty sure it's a new age practise, but I'm not here to condemn or judge I'm just trying to tell u the love jesus has for u, I hope this isn't too personal but are u christian?

  • @gabriellavarga8742

    @gabriellavarga8742

    10 ай бұрын

    @@akomzy8611 Please, let her alone, it's her choice what is in her room and don't tell her what to do and what to believe in - it's none of your business. Show some respect instead of saying these things.

  • @Anastasia-ex6sv

    @Anastasia-ex6sv

    9 ай бұрын

    @@akomzy8611 Yoga is not a new age practice. It’s been done in India for many, many years. While for some it’s a spiritual practice, for others it’s a habit and lifestyle choice that helps with physical and mental health.

  • @joannewojcik.7631
    @joannewojcik.763110 ай бұрын

    Awwwwwwwww you're so young to be going through so many health conditions ❤️💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💝💞💖💖💞💖💞💖💖💞❤️❤️💝❤️💝💞💝❤️💝❤️💝❤️💝❤️💝❤️💝❤️💝❤️💝💝💞💝💞💞💝❤️💝💞💝❤️❤️ it's horrible feeling depressed. It's probably to do with turning 18 and knowing your childhood is behind you. I always feel terribly depressed after my Birthday, just the knowledge you're getting older, but especially on the 18rh when you're leaving your childhood behind. Awwwwwww I've had days spent in bed due to anxiety it's absolutely horrendous but yeah the best thing to do is to force yourself to get up and about. Really does work wonders X

  • @chivarosoemodikromo9345
    @chivarosoemodikromo934510 ай бұрын

    You're healing 🤍 Hopefully no more anxieties Self trust is a life process we all go through Training one's mind to be calm (reach enlightenment) The same as how a baby learns to walk and talk Every day is progress to be a better version of yourself

  • @GRCTECH7
    @GRCTECH710 ай бұрын

    🙏🏻❤

  • @afan4e.
    @afan4e.10 ай бұрын

    Sims content is good too.