not sure if anyone commented this yet but the song essentially shows appreciation to her brother finneas, who is the man sitting beside her, and has been her co-writer and producer since the beginning of her career. the lyrics 'I had a dream I got everything I wanted' references a dream billie had in which she jumped off the golden gate bridge and her loved ones in the dream were unfazed, glad she was gone (a thought of hers that we see recurring in her documentary too, where she gets frustrated and emotional over the fact that her friends and loved ones at home 'stop missing' her when she goes on tour and feels as though they stop caring for her when she leaves). after waking from this nightmare, her brother, her supporter since day 1, consoles her; 'as long as I'm here no one can hurt you', 'they don't deserve you'.. etc. the music video is also packed with metaphors and symbolism, most of which you picked up on. underrated and incredibly talented, finneas also has a lot of heartbreaking songs that would make for good reactions. 'I lost a friend', 'only a lifetime', 'love is pain' and 'break my heart again' make me emotional every time I hear them. also to note that both finneas and billie are very pro-therapy and encourage people to seek help if they have the means, which I think is a very important message to convey to their audiences.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Excellent take, very well said and thanks for taking the time to put this in the comments! I love that! Pro therapy😁😁

@wendyhodges7172

2 жыл бұрын

Yes Finneas has some incredible songs. I love his voice so much too.

12:55 there is a saying I love that goes "insulting someone is like throwing a rock into the ocean. You never know how deep they'll sink" and that's such a powerful saying to me

@delanya7738

4 ай бұрын

I was trying to find the saying, do you mind telling me where its from?

This song is about a dream Billie had where she killed herself (“stepped off the Golden [Gate Bridge]”) & nobody cared or noticed. They called her “weak”, instead of helping. Billie wakes from the dream to find her brother & partner in music Finneas next to her & he comforts her - “as long as I’m here no-one can hurt you [...] they don’t deserve you”. This song is dedicated to their relationship & how Finneas is her constant friend, protector & emotional support person. Its quite a wholesome song really. Thanks for the great reaction, love Billie Eilish & your interpretations

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Very well said jesse! Thanks for this and thanks for watching 😊👍

Do more Billie Eilish please. Another good one is "I Don't Wanna Be You Anymore"! Lot's of great music from her!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list)!😊👍

@Luisitoantonio_

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial plz do the Colors Show version.

@_Try_-me

2 жыл бұрын

Billie Eilish Master piece

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

Жыл бұрын

@@LIncolnZolondek no more Google doc…Thursdays we have a request livestream 👍

@pravarkapoor1

Жыл бұрын

I love how you added spaces here 😂

I realise this is months late lol. She was feeling suicidal when she originally wrote the first (unreleased) version of this. "Everything I wanted" = death. It was literally all she wanted at the time. I don't know if she made any attempts, but she was certainly self-harming regularly, particularly after she read things that trolls posted about her ("If they knew what they said would go straight to my head"). The version you are watching is the second version after she recovered, and she added the chorus. Her family used to take it in turns to stay with her overnight when she was feeling particularly suicidal. The chorus is from her brother's viewpoint, and is a summary of the many long conversations that he used to have with her in the middle of the night when she feeling at her worst (note that the chorus is the only time he sings harmony in this song). This song is her way of thanking her brother for helping her get through it. She likes to leave her songs open to interpretation as much as possible, deliberately introducing ambiguity. "Listen before I go" is very intense, pretty much her suicide note, without any glimmer of hope. I can't listen to it when I'm feeling vulnerable in that way, whereas this track always has the underlying redemption of the chorus.

@Dextelite_Youtube

3 ай бұрын

Such a heart breaking story, in both of those songs. 😖

When I hear this song I cry. It reminds me of my friend who took his life in high school. I think about him every single day still, miss him so much it hurts.

@edubble5003

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for your loss, I've delta with those thoughts for 10 years now can't imagine how u feel 💚

This song kicked my depression in the teeth, it's awake now but hey, now is the time to truly face it, fight it and grow. It's a demon that can be used for strength training, just gotta face it, name it and tell that darkness, nah man!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Well said!😊👍

@notmrchunk5412

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial hey man can you do “Already Dead” by juice wrld?

@ully6885

2 жыл бұрын

@@notmrchunk5412 he did that one i guess 😊

@mellanapa

2 жыл бұрын

@hunted by ghosts +1! AND my 13 months of severe insomnia is getting better thanks Billie and Finneas. I can finally get some rest, because for the first time in 10+ years someone else describing their anxiety, fear and pain actually helps me! Usually when someone try to explain their feelings I listen and try to understand, but it always makes me feel even worse and ugly inside, since I'm always, always, always "worse" in everybody else's eyes. And I'm so tired of this Olympics in traumas, depressions, anxiety; the fucking NUMBER of different diagnoses! And all I want is some sleep, someone who just sees me for me and not my mental health, comforting music and literature, and maybe this channel and fellow commentators like you. 🖤

Hope everyone enjoys the reaction tonight!! And thank you for supporting “Reaction Therapy”😁😁😁

@teamvortexwolf3842

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Mr. Stevens for the awesome content😁

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

@@teamvortexwolf3842 thank you for watching!😊👍

@Ammut6

2 жыл бұрын

Here's a few songs I think would fit well in a reaction video Eminem - Headlights ICP - In My Room or Truly Alone Flaw - Final Cry, You've Changed, Whole

@haleyraab4712

2 жыл бұрын

Jelly Roll is another great artist you should check out sometime :)

She started directing her own videos a couple years ago. She purposely leave some blank screen at the end so KZread ads don’t cover the end of her videos. And the song is about a dream Billie had where she jumped of the Golden Gate (Thought I could fly, so I stepped off the Golden). She and her brother are super close and he’s her person who is always there for her. That was him in the video. They write all their music together.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for all of this insight!😊👍

I’m probably bias because I requested the song, but this is the best reaction you’ve done. You picked out all the best lyrics to comment on. Thank you again for doing this!!!!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank YOU charlotte for requesting this! You sure do know how to pick quality music! Can’t wait for more Billie!😊👍

Thank you for reacting to this. It's a tough song. I think it's a good representation of how fame and critics can really hurt people. It was amazing seeing Billie and Finneas perform this in person. She will always have her brother there to support her!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

I didn’t realize her brother performed with her? And you’re saying they did that at the show you just went to? Too cool! Thanks for this story😊👍

@slumberlisa

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial, he plays guitar, keyboard, sings backup. A very talented family! They also did a beautiful duet with both playing guitar. ❤️

@kristineteall368

2 жыл бұрын

@@slumberlisa was this at the concert? I don't think I've ever seen them both playing together before, but I'd love to see it!

@slumberlisa

2 жыл бұрын

@@kristineteall368, yes! It was Billie, Phineas, and the drummer the whole time. If you have a chance to see the concert, I highly recommend it. It was amazing!

if you’re thinking of doing more billie eilish, i recommend “listen before i go” or “your power”. they are both very emotional songs.

The boy in the video with her is her brother Finneas, he also makes music himself separately but they always make all their music together whether its the beat, vocals, or lyrics

It’s so cool to see these reactions. Music helps so many people, especially in my generation with their problems. For me Juice WRLD has helped me a lot and people said his music was like therapy for the youth. It’s so awesome to see what an actual therapist thinks about what these artists are saying. Thank you!!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you again!!!!😁

@yourjustthebest1706

11 ай бұрын

this guy has no clue what he is talking about. cheap , very cheap, major fraud

BILLIE EILISH '6.18.18'

Just discovered this channel because I love reactions to Billie and I must say, you're so good at this. I'm hooked. Thank you so much 💕

Thank you for reacting to this! This song was on repeat at the peak of my depression. It kinda fueled my sadness but it also helped me get through it as well. You’re insight on the song is amazing.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much Amelia! That means a lot and I’m glad you enjoyed it. Hopefully more Billie coming soon!!😁😁

I don’t wanna be you anymore is a really good one by Billie!

i really love how ur music taste has grown, and there is a lot of good music reaction channels out there, but u are unmatched love how u break down the lyrics, love what u are doing PS. this is my favourite youtube channel at the moment

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

This comment made my day!!!!! Thank you sooooooo much😊👍

You are such a good reactor! You always seem to be able to recognize brothers, family, situations. Its inspiring!

At the time she wrote this, "everything Billie wanted" was to die. However, in her dream (which actually happened, btw) committing suicide turned into a "nightmare," not because she regretted dying, but because nobody noticed her jump off the Golden Gate Bridge, ("Thought I could fly, so I jumped off the golden..." ) and nobody cared. Billie is now largely over her suicidal thoughts. Just to complete the loop, though, I would love to see you react to her singing her suicide note live at age 17 in "Listen Before I Go." It is simply stunning. Here: kzread.info/dash/bejne/e5lmuthrlKeXcso.html

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Wow! Intense story, thanks for all the feedback😊👍

this man explaining these songs that i listen to have gotten to the point of me thinking differently about life, thank you tom :) I didn't know i needed this but I DID!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much Dylan, I’m glad you enjoyed it😊👍

@yourjustthebest1706

11 ай бұрын

what a charlatan

I was waiting for the day you reacted to this song and it came way sooner than I expected. Absolutely wonderful. Your perspective and ability to articulate it so well is captivating. Thanks for another great reaction!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for watching and for the nice comment! I like reacting to what the entire spectrum of subscribers want, this was fun!😊👍

@yourjustthebest1706

11 ай бұрын

please stop this charlatan; let him do metallica.

You should react to "your power" . I'm so proud because this song deserves so much respect and attention,this song is such a Masterpiece. and billie sings about a very very important topic that should be talked about more.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Interesting!!👍😊

@stellameg1

2 жыл бұрын

It is so good! It is honestly one of my favorites! I have requested it a few times! Haha! It has helped me so much to come to terms with being groomed by my teacher. It is just so well done!

I almost suggested this one!!! So glad to see you discuss it.

Thank you for your reaction and analysis! Coincidentally, looking for new Billie Eilish stuff this evening, the channel I clicked on (right now) is DASDING [March 29, 2019] "Billie Eilish- Why she was so embarrassed she could cry" and after the interviewer shares with Billie how some of her videos are scary for people, at 5'13" she asks Billie, "I bet there are some things that you are personally scared of" and Billie shares, "yes, the OCEAN" and "water freaks me out dude" - she was conquering her fear of water in the "Happier Than Ever" music video, swimming under water to come up on the roof top. It was a coincidence that I saw this after watching your reaction!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Wow! What a great story! Thanks so much for sharing this, it helps me know her more now😊👍

I’m 49 and I’m here for more Billie Eilish please. Really enjoying your perspective on these!

I think i just got a free therapy watching this. I already know what the song means but listening to you explaining about things hits me so different, thank you for reacting to this

not sure if anyone else has said it but that is her brother he’s an insane producer he’s won grammys and everything but she’s super close to him and he produces a lot of her songs.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

😊👍

A lot of her songs and videos are definitely open to interpretation, and a lot of them do tend to be a bit darker. I think the thing that has always terrified me the most about this video is that the only way out is to open the windows, but that's not a guaranteed escape. Whatever they do to get out is going to be HARD, and there's no way to guarantee an escape. The ending for "Happier than Ever" never felt ambiguous to me. I saw the water as representative of her emotions, not the relationship, so her standing in the rain and jumping in the water at the end was her accepting and feeling her emotions. Hard to do, not necessarily pretty, but ultimately positive. If you'd like a more upbeat, positive song from her, check out "My Future," or possibly "Therefore I Am." I think "Therefore I am" is more fun and upbeat, but maybe less deep in interpretation.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Awesome! Thanks so much for the perspective!😊🤔

Your work ethic is unmatched Mr. Stevens! Another great reaction

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you very much! I try hard👍😊

I love your content so much. You are so much more than a reaction channel there is so much depth to your videos.

Everytime I listen to this song, I tend to cry 'cause I remember of my sister, I love her so much. And seeing their's siblings relationship, makes me relate so much with mine's.

you should react to i dont wanna be you anymore or a really emotinal one from billie eillish is listen before i go ..that one makes me cry every time

Yaaay another Billie reaction 💚 loved this.. Over 70k now 🥳

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Over 70k..unreal!!! Thanks for watching 😊👍

This song is about her having a lucid dream about her jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge and feeling like nobody cared, soon waking up her brother was there to comfort her saying things as “they don’t deserve you” or “I wish you could see who you truly are”.

the scene when she goes into the sea is basically saying that even if you don’t think people care you’ll bring the ones who love you with you and that’s where her brother comes in !

All of Billie's mv end in the black screen because she doesn't want the end of her songs to be cut off by KZread ads so she leaves time for the ad to play so it doesn't interfere with the song.

I really love her brother Finneas too. Some songs that are from him which I recommend are: 'Love is pain', 'Break my heart again'. Another one from Billie; "I love you'. And maybe you can react to Tom Odell some time with for example: 'Heal', 'Monsters', 'Another love'.

Great reaction! I just became a fan of Billie. I love the relationship she has with her brother 💞

I really love ur channel n ur take on all the diff music... I found u through a TOP reaction n have been really enjoying going through all of the music!!!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Bridgette! That’s very nice of you to say?😊👍 can’t wait for the next TOP reaction!😁😁😁

@bridgettewilliams6543

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial me too!!

You should react to Silent Lover or Take Me Back by FC Star. He’s a lesser known artist but he’s rlly good

Billie was a teenager when her popularity skyrocketed and became overwhelmed. The chorus is her big brother telling her I am here for you. The text in the beginning is her appreciating her brother's support!

The guy in the video is her brother btw

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

👍

Ooooo this was a really cool reaction, thank you so much for uploading :))

just binged watched all your videos lol, TwentyonePilots and Billie are my all time favorite, they've helped me threw a lot of hard times

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks so much cece! That’s so nice of you!😊👍

Lund~Low is a rollercoaster of emotions

Billie has always been very forthcoming about her struggle with depression and how it's affected her life. She's also been very pro-therapy throughout, and therapy versus medication or self-medicating. Family means everything to her and her brother. You can really see her struggle through her music and you can tell when she starts getting better, her depression improves, and she gains her confidence. She's so much stronger these days, and it's amazing to see.

I waited for that! 🖤

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Glad you got it! Hope you liked it!!??😊👍

if you have an extra 3 hours you should watch her documentary! It's fascinating.

I. LOVE. THIS. CHANNEL. Someone who society see's as a normal functioning adult actually vibing to our music. this channel is going places.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

These comments made my day! Thank you for saying this😊👍

I cried seeing this song live. It hits a little too close to home

I always cry with this song 🖤

my fav billie eilish song💚

I agree with one of your earlier suppositions, that Billie’s burgeoning fame coupled with the crappy relationship she sings about later in Happier Than Ever, are akin to being underwater and overwhelmed. The bright side is that Billie recognizes that her older brother, Finneas, will always be there to help her through the ocean of emotions. To me, pushing on the gas pedal is a good thing. It symbolizes moving forward. Instead of sitting there, drowning under the crush of water, she and her brother will hold hands and drive through it together. Just found your channel. I’m enjoying your insight. Thanks.

Notice also on this how the street lights go by in time with the music. Nice little detail.

This song was a dream Billie had, her brother Finneas was there for her as he always has been. Billie has a lot of criticism during her career. You did Finneas song “ I lost a friend “

Love your reactions to Billie!!!

Good job Sharlet! This is my fav song from Billie :D

This is my favourite song

@phetrusrodrigues8710

2 жыл бұрын

Please do Idontwannabeyouanymore next (by Billie eilish)

U could react to listen before i go its rly sad song about suicide

I need to go buy a lottery ticket or something! I subscribed to yout channel yesterday and was looking for if you had reacted to this and obviously couldn't find it AND now you've done it! What the heck😱😂

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

No way! That’s very cool! I hope you liked it!!!???😊👍and thanks so much for subscribing !!!

@PunkRockBitch90

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial loved it! 😍

How I interpreted the song is the Billie was suicidal and had dreams where she killed her self and that was everything she wanted, but her brother would tell her that’s she loved and she can learn to love herself, and how he wishes he could change how she feels about herself

6:08 I think she made it clear in the first lines " I had a dream I got everything I wanted ( I think she means death here ) Not what you'd think And if I'm being honest It might've been a nightmare To anyone who might care " and she makes it clear that it would be worse for anyone who might care about her

Thank you for acknowledging that some people are mostly alone. I haven't seen any other therapist say that, and it needs to be said. The optimistic "you are never alone if you reach out" trope is a lie for so many people who do reach out and find nothing. I know you didn't mean it that simply, but it is true for so many.

so wholesome

Yesssss more billie

Amazing reaction. She leaves the black screen at the end of her videos so that the ads for other videos don't cover the end of the song.

Would love more Billie reactions! I’d recommend My Future or Your Power.

This is honestly the first time Ibhave listened to any of her music and it was pretty good. Please do a reaction to MGKs "I Think I'm Ok" its an amazing song and right up your alley.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list…thanks so much! 😊👍

@justanotherveganonyoutube710

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial thanks for letting me know to do so. I just requested that song and one other one. Both would male great videos. They both have the artists depression show.

At 20 years of age now, she seems to be and says she is in a much better place now. Fame was thrust upon her at a much too early age. Please watch her concert on Disney + called Happier Than Ever, with the Los Angeles Symphony Orchestra and Children's Choir. Such beautiful and emotional music I have never heard before in my more than 50 years of listening to music.

This song is about her dream she rly had a dream she killed herself and no body cared and that when she wake up her brother was there to her telling her hes there for her

Billie her self have said in a interview that this song is made cuz one nigith she had a nighitmar (she have sleepperalitis idk how to spell it) and the nighitmar was where the was a news paper saing "the pop star billie eilish have finaly killed her self" and no one cared. It's also about how she loves her brother how is the guy you see in the video who have helped her soo MUCH like helped her out of killing her self (when she was 16 she tryed to kill her self by almost jumping out of a vindo but her familie stopped her) yes all her songs end like that. She loves to make her fans make her songs there oven songs and late her fans see the songs as thay whant too.

@Rabbel5520

2 жыл бұрын

It's spelled "Nightmare" and "Sleep paralysis" ❤

To me “if they knew what they said would go straight to my head what would they say instead” means being aware that some people walk on eggshells with the way they talk to you and hating that they know they have to be careful what they say because they know how broken i am and how i will go off the handle based on my overthought perception of what they say. For me sometimes i will overthink something someone says and attribute it to something completely unrelated in my life which can trigger a breakdown and all the person said was something harmless and that had nothing to do with what my brain immediately related it to. Sometimes its only part of what a person said to me too like my brain just goes other places and people dont know how to approach me because i may breakdown over something unrelated so if theyre not careful it could be something they say or their tone of voice that sets me off.

Can you do some reactions too halsey when you get the chance? Much love for your work and profession!

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you Mario! First request for Halsey! Put it on the Google doc form (link is in the description)😊👍

@mariodibenedetto2356

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial awesome did it! Thank you!

I think the reason it's on a cliffhanger is since she hasn't figured it out yet, she still lives in it, so she don't know if the car will continue going down or if she will find a way out...

Im sure someone said already but Billie and her bro Finneas are two sides of the same coin, he helps produce/write all the music, hes sorta the unsung hero of her stardom. They grew up extremely close and i personally think this song is her contemplating where she has ended up along with her bro, but he’s had a completely different experience. And the chorus “as long as im here, no one can hurt you” i always thought it was finneas reassuring her. Either way its easily one of Billies best songs! 💜

yes man that's her bro

You should listen to “male fantasy” or “not my responsibility”

i legit just found these vids of u reacting to Billie could u maybe do "No Time to Die", "Everybody Dies", "IloMilo", or "Lovely"? those r some of my comfort songs of hers :))

Her songs are amazing and many people relate to them

juice helped million of people and will continue to do that for years to come fr always a legend always real.

I'm really enjoying your videos! I'd like to suggest a song by Aesop Rock, called 9-5ers anthem. Keep up the great work, and thanks for this lovely content :)

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for watching! Put that song on the Google doc (Link in description)😊👍

Billie is Amazing ! Please react to " Listen Before I go " (studio version only) lyric video Also official video reaction to "When the partys over" (official video)

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

Put the request in the Google doc (link in the description) so we get it on the list). Thanks so much for watching!😊👍

She's wonderful and ofcourse no other song end this way. I promise

Not a big billy fan but this one of my favs

React to “dance witb the devil” of immortal technique; INSANE story!!

I think the video shows that it doesn't matter how hard life is, her brother is always with her, even in the lowers and darkers times.

You gotta check out “legends” by Juice Wrld

Pls react to "listen before i go" and "your power" of hers as well! Loved this reaction!

Welcome to another episode of the 🐐

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

😂😂 thanks so much!

Charlotte is amazing for suggesting Billie.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

I agree!!😊👍

the man in the video is, in fact, her older brother- Finneas :) the song is meant to show apprecieation and love she has for Finneas, and that no matter what, they always will be there for each other. . By the way, great video, you should tottaly react to more of Billie Eilish! I recomend you songs: "my future", "Your Power", "idontwannabeyouanymore", "hostage" :)

It’s her brother, great brother sister duo I love them both so much

You should definetely check out some Elliott Smith, he captures sadness and just plain depression, longing, emotional dependence so beautifully

It was said that her brother (in the car) is her co-writer, and her producer, so she is with him constantly and he is her supporter. The symbolism then, is that she took him with her on this 'ride'... that she feels guilty for her darkness and how the fame has overtaken both of their lives. She's both grateful for him being there for her, and a little ashamed of how he's had to be 'under water' with her.

Ya gotta respect the ABSTRACT, right? For me, what this identifies with me, is: My dads death and everywhere in my life I’ve been since. He was the only person I ever truly had. He died at the same exact week I told him I was getting a divorce from a 14 year marriage with 2 small children. He was NOT OKAY with my decision at first. He was terrified for me and my kids. He died about a week later. My decision flipped the world upside down. -->> And I think subconsciously, I have been stuck for years, because I miss my dad so much that I think I might have wanted to go with him when he died, and I feel like no one on this planet gets me or loves me like he did, or ever will. All is true! BUT, the problem is, sure, when my life is on fire and exploding, I can lay with his ghost, BUT THAT ONLY MAKES ME DEAD TOO. I seem to have been trying pretty hard to flush my life down the toilet since he died. - It doesn’t make me any less dead, and it doesn’t make him any more alive. SO UNDER THE SEA I SHALL BE? Good psychology subject. Trust me. Took me over ten years to be able to figure out why on earth I would feel the need to start smoking again after having quit for nine year, RIGHT AS MY FATHER WAS DYING OF LUNG CANCER. 1000% illogical, irresponsible, and knowingly cruel to my own kids if it means them having to lose me early like I lost him early. You can’t let go if it’s all you ever had. HE KNEW I WAS SPECIAL. EVERYONE ELSE KNOWS I SUCK. Maybe when she says …”but when I wake up, I see you here with me.” Maybe it has to do with like (bear with me) like as if when someone was hammering my dads casket shut while i I was hugging it goodbye, my shoulder sleeve got nailed in with the wood as it was being lowered (…?) I’m almost over it. Except now my children are almost all grown up, my kitchen is still a mess, and I have no desire to ever get into a relationship again. I need my space while I glare out of windows and lose my car key’s repetitively. It was bad enough when my husband (x) would watch me and judge and critique my style of falling apart. Lol! It’s true. He did not deserve me. I was way too good for him, and to him. I would rather die alone than live with someone who doesn’t even like me. SO, maybe I’ll just hang out here on the mother-ship until I end up somewhere else, and hopefully my dad is there too. Sure, if I ended up having a crush on somebody and they felt the same way, GREAT, as long as they don’t touch my stuff, try to tell me what to do, or shake their head when I speak.

Today is a sad day for me 😔 I was following some news about a kid who fell down a 32 meters well and was stuck there for 4 days, rescue teams had to excavate a hole near the well cause they couldn't do it from above... Huge apparatus but when they got to the kid he didn't survive the injuries 😔...

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry to hear that, what a sad story😢

This is my fave song of her!!!

She singing particulars to make it universal, but you are trying to find her particular problem against a background of clients and knowledge about afflictions. Yes that will create unresolved issues. BTW, she did several interviews about this song and its significance. In the documentary about her life, her mother interrupts her while she's writing this very song and there's a parent-child exchange that I never thought I'd ever see.

@mira-vv5nq

2 жыл бұрын

i think you're talking about listen before i go here right?

@vp4744

2 жыл бұрын

@@mira-vv5nq Yes, you're right. I stand corrected. But both lyrics in question were about suicide, the topic we are circling around.

@ReactionTherapyOfficial

2 жыл бұрын

I need to see this documentary!!!!!😊👍

@vp4744

2 жыл бұрын

@@ReactionTherapyOfficial It's called "The World's a little blurry" and it was originally streamed on Apple TV+ but now may be available everywhere.