Been there mate, I had psychosis in the late 80's from overuse of amphetamine...that's how I ended up taking heroin and becoming an addict. Then the crack came to town in the late 90's...I'm glad I survived it all and I am clean now...prayers for Heidi. Thanks Billy 🙏🙏🙏

@jazztheglass6139

4 ай бұрын

People underestimate the psychosis due to doing too much Billy. Doing a bit more, then a bit more, then a bit more can be easy to fall into. When you look back, you realise what a episode it was. Had a pal once who only got about 10 hrs sleep, little cat naps in 14 days

@Spiderdan-59

4 ай бұрын

You doing fantastic keep at it brother 💯👏👏

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

​@@jazztheglass6139when my grandad died I stayed up for two weeks with about the same phet was the worst cos U not giving your body the fuel it needs by not eating and not sleeping Which is why you're brain shuts down and you end up with phsychosis and the alcohol that's the worst it's a killer I have lost over 50 ppl who come off the swag and start drinking and it don't take long before they are glowing in the dark cos there so yellow and there liver and pancreas shut down and there bringing up bile and claret but they carry on drinking , I also lost my sister through drink at the age of 43 and the last time I saw her I had a massive argument with her so now I still carry guilt. R I P Karen Parkinson.🙏🙏🌹🌹💙💙💯.

@Rossboy2112

4 ай бұрын

It’s horrible especially drug induced especially speed it’s like having schizophrenia not nice at all ❤

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

@@Rossboy2112 I wouldn't have that horrible stuff given can't believe I was mad on the stuff and stay up for days at a time, bluuurrr I can smell it cooking. Jesus why did we do it.💙🤢🤢🤢.

Suicide is horrendous. My brother killed himself the end of January this year. The resources and help aren't there as they should be. Glad she ended up getting the help.

@pjg_77

4 ай бұрын

Sorry to hear about your brother 🙏🏻

@Rossboy2112

4 ай бұрын

❤❤❤

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

Wow 😲 so it's still raw hope you're brother has found peace, 💙🙏.

@chickendipper92

4 ай бұрын

I haven't even processed it. Thanks fella. Just literally existing at the minute everyday going by. @@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

@dingdong3482

4 ай бұрын

Thats really upset me hope you be ok pal xxxxx

Yep Billy identify there mate 3 times I tried it in pyschosis but for God looking over me I am still here 🙏🏻

Brave lady big respect from Scotland

This is a very very brave young lady, to be able to tell people that isn't associated with mental heath clinicians, I suffer from PTSD from my time in the balkans conflict in 92, my last posting, ive been through the class A drug scene (opiate addiction) for 7 years , been clean 11 now, been on various drugs for mental health , the thing opiate addiction did for me was kill the pain at the time, it was after I got clean that the addiction showed itself to me, as my mind got clean it got worse because there was nothing to suppress the recurring thoughts 😢💯

@saraprva4172

4 ай бұрын

Respect to you bro. You were in Balkans in 92? Think we spoke here before ? I was very young in 92 in Mostar but I believe you were in Bosnia, maybe Croatia? If it was you, hello again - If not I'm sorry you saw the darkest period of our history, it affected us all but my oldest brother more than most & what he suffered changed a happy-go-lucky guy I worshipped into troubled addict - didn't realise at first how young foreign soldiers like you became damaged by what you saw, I'm so sorry, I wish you peace pozdrav iz Splita 🇬🇧 🇭🇷 🇧🇦 🇽🇰 🇷🇸 🇺🇦 🇷🇺

@Spiderdan-59

4 ай бұрын

@@saraprva4172 thank you for replying back, I really did go through it after I became a civilian once more, it probably wasn't me you spoke to before but man no meed to be sorry your good, I have major problems trying to come to terms with the things WE had to do ourselves, out there it was a different story to like Iraq or Afghanistan, the balkans was something that no man/woman soldier or not a soldier should ever have to witness, wishing you and your brother all the best my friend, hope we talk again sometime when I'm having a good day, well talk more, there's not many people who I can talk to about this mate apart from my councillor

@Spiderdan-59

4 ай бұрын

@@saraprva4172 at first when I arrived in the balkans we landed at split international airport, we were sent to protect the hospital from attack, but we came under sniper fire, and the protection was then pushed outwards to the surrounding countryside, as things progressed we did eventually end up in Pristina Bosnia, very very rough time serving in the whole of the balkans at the time anyway, not yo long ago I was hearing things were on the verges of blowing up over there again, I for one hope that doesn't happen, no human man or woman should ever have to witness things like that ever, I have spoken with someone before I think actually it could have been me and you 👍

@Spiderdan-59

4 ай бұрын

@@saraprva4172 you know I think I have spoken to you about this in the past 💯❤️‍🩹

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

​@@saraprva4172what a beautiful thing to say I wish you love and peace I remember the war in the Balkans and it was horrible to see Ppl lives ruined God bless you and your family and I hope you're brother does find peace.💙🙏🌹🙏.

Lovely Lady experiencing Psychosis is very upsetting and traumatice for the person . Good luck lass.

Hi Billy, Thanks for your vid and a huge thank you to Heidi. Wow!. What a powerful message that Heidi has!. She has really experienced the depths of despair and trauma. Without doubt she's an extremely brave and courageous woman!. Look at her now!. The spirit in her eyes 👀, the warm genuine smile 😊. She's had to be completely honest and face up to herself to get to be the brave, courageous and Powerful lady that she no doubt is today!. This lady can and no doubt does help and inspire so many others to seek help and support and begin the difficult process of reshaping and rebuilding their lives. I wish her all the best on her continued life's journey. Thankyou Heidi, and thanks again Billy. John. 🤔👍😃

What a lovely person thanks for sharing best of luck Heidi

Sounds like a lovely girlfriend,well done on your journey,hope you've binned the girl for good 🙏

nice young lady its mad the demons we can have and nobody can see best of luck for the future

Ive had psychosis a few times one of the times in 2019 i was found dead addiction is no joke respect billy and this lass

Such a positive & brave young lady & her smile is infectious 👏😀 Wish her happiness & peace 😘🙋‍♀️

Keep going Heidi. Been there, remember kept hearing opera church music like I was at a funeral, kept checking my CDs wandering where the musics coming from. Later realised later in recovery it was in my head from years of drinking kestrel super. Thanks for the video. Keep going in the program 🙏🙏

All the luck in the world going forward Heidi, thanks again Billy for all you do and for all your videos 💙🇬🇧

I’ve lost 2 very good friends through mental illness and suiside. Thank you for “bringing it to the table” and talking about it. Reaching out and talking is so important. Thank you for all of your work. Loving your channel mate! 👍

I think your lovely sober stay strong kiddo you have loads going on really focus on the acting movin forward ❤

Trips tend to warp reality even many years later.Well done Heidi sounds like you've come through a stronger person. Went through similar myself its a long road but i think you have the strength to leave the ale behind when your ready girl,

Fair play to Heidi for being honest. Good luck to her for the future. Another cracking vlog Bill. 👌

I was diagnosed with depression at the age of twelve and began smoking cannabis to self medicate (looking back), and just weeks before my 16th birthday l became very psychotic and believed l was a member of pink Floyd it lasted for weeks and l had to be injected with very high doses of anti psychotic drugs such as stelazine haloperidol and chlorpromazine which eventually brought me back down to sanity. I spent my birthday in a police cell up all night singing DSOTM at the top of my lungs..

Matter of fact conversation that is the hallmark of the traumatised and recovering. No pretense, no BS - and what everyone under those shadows needs to hear. Drop the shame folks - not what you've done or what's happened to you - it's where you are today that matters. So many souls lost because we don't normalise are normal reactions to what happens in our lives. Talk, stay well and be kind - especially to yourself 🙏 Nice one Billy 👍

Life is a battle lovely girl stay strong 👊

I definitely know what she’s talking about as that’s me right now no psychosis but definitely at the lowest point again previously tried to take my life and every time it should have happened but it’s not worked so that’s something I’m worried about getting to I’m a ex addict too heroin for 20yrs on and off but since I’ve stopped taking it in 2010 my life has changed so much but I have struggled with depression and anxiety for since happy days are a high but the lows are very low thanks for sharing this Billy much ❤

Good on you Heidi for speaking up! Remember when you were going through it my old tombola friend...keep fighting the demons and winning the battle pretty lady x

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

❤ 10,000 likes ❤

Good luck Heidi on your journey bless💖

Brilliant Billy an respect to that girl keep ur head up an always stay true to urself an always look forward not back stay well stay safe 👍🏻 🙏

*Great video lad 💫🌟 AWE LOVE HER BLESS HER*

Well done Heidi, keep up the great work ❤

Great vid Billy all the best Heidi 👍

Well done Girl, much love ❤❤xx😊

My mrs had a psychotic breakdown just after our daughter was born at first it was just flashes but as time went on she went full blown toys in the atic and was sectioned after trying to stab me,she thought I'd hurt the kids and had a new family .she's ok now after treatment like

Heidi you such a brave lady whos quite clearly gifted in so many forms but let that cunning ,powerful and baffling demon take you to the gates of insanity which every addict who i know personally in every type of background whos a functioning alcoholic who has tried to control it has never won that fight including one of my parents went from being a millionaire self made to ending up homeless with just a bin bag then a 7 year stint in the big house for being in hold up coz alcohol led them their and loosing their sanity coz they thought nothings happned yet as they say and that feeling as an addict of impending doom is very dark and when theirs no hope people lose the will to live but their is a way out and the 12 step programme shows us there is a way out and fully recover with a support network and lead a happy life ,alcohol is ruthless in every form if your an alcoholic which is a progressive disease,please get help as you seem like a lovely girl and dont waste your life heidi,take care

It's a individual war our mental health battles. I believe the medical profession should start treating people as individuals instead of lumping everyone together. That is a cop out by this profession. A one time vocation that has become, disillusioned dejected, incompetent, lazy, cynical, greedy and uncaring. This all has a impact of the people who the swore to help with their code of practice. Most od this is down to a broken system a runaway train. I believe that a re-evaluation of government departments in all EU countries especially health and wellbeing, housing. To start the ball rolling. 👊☘️

Good 2 see she's on the road 2 recovery😊

I feel like this people’s own fault doing drugs you are at risk of getting psychosis

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

This is a common perception and it’s ok. Some people are not aware, some people think they can control it and some people it eases their symptoms of their illness. No one wakes up and says today I want to be an addict. Those who are in throws who I know hate it and hate themselves because of it. ❤

Brilliant podcast

such a shame what shes been through,shes a nice looking woman too,hope she turns it all round

She looks really lovely & hopefully her horrible past is gone & she has found a way to go forward with those who really care. But, those who are swinging both ways as they say can put severe strain on relationships. & even your own life & can cause trouble & heartache & even anger & jealously. So, those who are in that predicament. I strongly suggest make a choice of which side of the coin it could help reduce MAYBE!!! the trouble between you & others involved in your personal life.

Your looking well bab fair play

What a nice girl , all the best to her from Kev ov Wolves.....

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Thank you ❤

Keep goin girl 🙏💪🏼❤️

_"Many are the afflictions of the righteous..."_ Psalm 34:19.

@onedayagogo

4 ай бұрын

for spiritual protection, read: Psalm 91

Nice one Billy ❤

Billy u are a good man

1:22 like coke an speed an trips an ya no,copious amounts of weed, ya no🎶💥lol

My uncle used to work for GM in detroit after immagrating ,sorry about spelling cant find me bins but he ws very good at his job as a rep and had the speal and turned his humble beginnings from speak funnly enough bill into a good lifestyle and his couple of liveners with his dinner turned to a bottle of scotch and blackouts so he stayed sober for 30 years into his 60's so he could be very sucessful at his job and then picked up the bottle to enjoy his retirement and within a year was dead of active alcoholism,really sad and its the family who are left behind

Stay off that drink👍

Good luck Heidi 👍

Hello Billy lad I'm heading to the motherland of scallyland soon be good to meet up with you and our judder us two's r absolute Legends was from Kenny now a soft southern softie lol nr bouremouth I live in ferndown and used to run this place but 51 now more videos of u and ur joe the best lad ever and judder had 😊

I only took LSD twice but since then I have had nightmares every night and wake up still in the nightmare and it doesn't go away until about 1pm when I get a shower and a coffee and normality returns

I hung myself with phsyco sis, I drove my merc head on into another car because of phsyco sis. It’s a mad thing to describe but it’s the most real and horrific form of paranoia and delusions you could dream of

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

Wow 😲 m8 that's a bit rough, but something keeping you here my friend listen I know most ppl have been through shit stuff and it's how we handle it, I will be honest life really has been shit but I have never even thought about ending it yrs ago I never wanted to die but now not that I wanna die but now I don't care either way, it's like every day is a test and we get tested every day stuff may it be good or bad is constantly thrown at us but like they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and every day is a learning day and Man don't U learn cos especially in this day and age, usually ppl who you think are your best friends can sometimes turn out to be 8:02 the worst ones and the nicer U seem to be the worse ppl treat you, and if you suffer with mental health ppl will use that against you and use mental torture against you like a wolf in sheeps clothing, so you think what the fuckin point, but that can make you bitter and nobody wants to be bitter, especially if you are a positive person and you take every day as it comes, everyday a winner especially if you have been an addict, ppl get jealous of positivity cos they lead such sad lives they try to bring you down. But it like why should I change I am happy the way I am and I know it's not a competition but ppl that have never really had bad things happen are usually the wo wowys me type and U think really, or if you nice to someone and there like what they after, must want something, hidden agenda's and all that, when no I really am just a nice person and I just want to put a smile on somebody's face cos believe me I know what shit hands some ppl are dealt, but that's because U can't trust many ppl anymore especially strangers cos 99 percent of the time it's true.💙.

My wife (married 15 years) thought I was cheating, so she threw something at my head, then she got a knife and threatened me. I called the useless Merseyside police (as I was scared for the kids and for my life), but when they arrived, my psycho wife said that I had verbally threatened her. The mupit police actually arrested and charged me. Wife then called them a few hours later to admit she had lied, but police ignored her then charged anyway and refused bail. Obviously, the courts have common sense so later threw it out, but the moral of the story is that Merseyside Police will allow women to commit crimes (including assault and perjury/pervert course of justice), then the mupets will arrest innocent people (despite both my kids telling the police when they arrived that is was their mum threatening people). I feel sorry for the citizens of Merseyside, the place is like that due to a useless police force that cares nothing for justice. I had to move my family to another country due to the mental trauma I suffered over the police's actions. Long story, but I recommend anyone that became a victim of Merseyside police brutality or misconduct, to start a civil court procedure against them.

@job2447

4 ай бұрын

Still together ?

@fishyattacksAVFC

4 ай бұрын

Typical of the Merseyside police. They're all thick

@user-iu3rq5pl1u

4 ай бұрын

All police are the same, unless idiots robots, they hate the public

@user-iu3rq5pl1u

4 ай бұрын

Hope you're ok now, and not with her x

🤯

Wow....... #BeingSaneInInsanePlaces

Poor girl.

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

I know you mean well but the girl probably doesn't need pity, don't take this the wrong way cos I truly mean well.💙🙏💯.

What a lovely girl. Few and far between in today's day and age. I suffer from psychosis, PTSD, as well as other chronic illnesses.. every day is a constant battle.

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Sorry to hear. Thank you. I wish you all the best. ❤

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

​@@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223what a beautiful strong minded person God bless you. But when we're young back in the 70s and 80s we were just called naughty kids but then about the 90s they started coming out with letters, ADHD, PTSD and there's plenty of others, but hopefully you will finish that last chapter and get sober you seem such a lovely person strong and determined God bless you hope you get there I lost my sister at Forty three years old through alcohol it's a bad drug if they brought it out now it would definitely be class A . 🙏🙏💙.

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Sorry to hear that. Thank you for your nice words. ❤

@MichaelParkinson-wz1nh

4 ай бұрын

@@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223 Thanks 👍 and Good luck T U and yours, you got this girl, x . I'm looking out on Morecambe bay, ⛅ is out and everything is ok on the Bay. Don't let anyone or anything get U down ever again, true blue 💙.

Meetings would be great,disease we've got

Is Heidi from Birkenhead?

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Yes ❤

@fishyattacksAVFC

4 ай бұрын

@@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223 Did you go to the 6th Form College in Claughton?

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Yes ❤

@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223

4 ай бұрын

Why?

@fishyattacksAVFC

4 ай бұрын

@@heidirobinsonharmonizax3223 Because I thought I remembered you. Was it 1994 to 1996?

It as me 1st lesbiqn relationship av heard they can b high rate

Get an ADHD check it may answer some questions. Diagnosis can often lead to self improvement.

🙏Godbless you both! Warriors & Survivors of Addiction shining a light to help others overcome drowning in drug addiction! You show it Is Possible to Escape & live a Happy Healthy life Sober! 🤍👊👊🇦🇺