Ykwim - 0:01 Rhinestone eyes - 4:21 Nice boys - 8:29 Six forty seven - 12:07 Can't Handle Change - 14:30 Fallen down - 18:35 Jealous - 21:43

@swagito4851

2 жыл бұрын

meow

@nothing.2219

2 жыл бұрын

@@swagito4851 what?

@nothing.2219

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks bestie

@nagito7047

2 жыл бұрын

The last one

@catpudding7647

2 жыл бұрын

Love you

POV: you caused your self the most pain out of everyone

@gabebunnyy

2 жыл бұрын

It's painful dude 😔

@sas-zh3ou

2 жыл бұрын

could not agree with you more

@duda-ub5qq

2 жыл бұрын

pov: this is not a pov

@kazuhaluvscara

2 жыл бұрын

this lol I regret leaving my friends, now I have nothing to look forward to. but at the same time, I don't wanna get more attached.

@mylietea4324

2 жыл бұрын

Now That's deep.... :(

POV: it's not your fault, but you always blame yourself.

@shomonaislam1194

2 жыл бұрын

this hits me hard.

@boboloisa

2 жыл бұрын

.

@splatteredwithink

2 жыл бұрын

this hit me hard. i always think it’s my fault even if it isn’t..

@shomonaislam1194

2 жыл бұрын

@@splatteredwithink yes exactly, and no reassuring ever helps me. its annoying sometimes.

@connerbarnhart1902

2 жыл бұрын

a very good friend She would always say good morning to me and good night she would always hug me every day she was so nice and kind we were talk nonstop for hours it was so sweet She was truly a angel. She ran away and she… ( she’s gone ) I think you can put the pieces together on what happen next. I keep going to her profile and reading our conversations I miss her so much If I didn’t know where to go I would always go to her and she would always immediately answer me but now she’s gone (I have never felt so lost in my life) and i always felt like it was my fault

I always try to escape that feeling of "its your fault its your fault you ruined the whole world" When its really my fault after all

@livyy_ln4

2 жыл бұрын

i feel ya..

@luvingwonyi_

2 жыл бұрын

I feel you ...

@My_dumbass2215

Жыл бұрын

Yeah…

@haruu_123

Ай бұрын

I have some thing similar to that, “your the worst person if you don’t save/help the whole world” I think you didn’t ruin anything:) you seem like a great person! I’m sorry u feel like thay

When the realization hits you, and you now know that all of this is actually happening because of you. It's all your fault, and the guilt is slowly yet surely draining everything out of you.

@chiara666

2 жыл бұрын

I feel that comment... I blame about my behavior every day... I dont know how to fix my errors.

it hurts more when it really was your fault. guilt is the worst feeling

@lucabernardi5319

2 жыл бұрын

I have guilt of that time that i kissed my ex best friend... she was everything to me and now i lost her because of that fricking kiss

@danielmurray3871

2 жыл бұрын

@@frieda5817 Probably don’t encourage kissing someone without their consent.

@hateif9368

2 жыл бұрын

I live with guilt for just being born but when I actually let my bad side get the best of me I had more and more guilt I cant escape

@RatMangoOse

2 жыл бұрын

Idk but I have guilt for hurting people I love… I have anger issues and i would always take out my pain on somebody else..😅

@kao.6795

2 жыл бұрын

ong i deadass fucked up my relationship with 2 of my friends and did something unforgivable to me and other people.

That moment when you laugh while crying cuz you don't even know what to do anymore

@deniseedrea9459

2 жыл бұрын

Basically me, now everyone just thinks Im crazy

@youdontkmow_me

2 жыл бұрын

i just cried and cried as laughing at the same time that shit scared me i’m am not the same person i was and knowing that scared me bc now i have no impulse control

@unicornpee225

2 жыл бұрын

yeah

@mynameisntemma167

2 жыл бұрын

why'd u call me out :(

@user-yx2kb2lg3g

2 жыл бұрын

this is what i've been doing for god knows for how long

its hard when they say “you can tell me” “I wont judge” and once you tell them they yell at you so you have to push your feelings deep down because you feel that no one cares.

@celestialbunny

2 жыл бұрын

Or you tell them and they don't judge but push your feelings aside like you don't matter, making you ask what was the point in telling them in the first place.

@mistakemadeinparadise9548

2 жыл бұрын

Me too.

@terri777

2 жыл бұрын

EXACTLY LIKE CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP AND LISTEN!!!??? LIKE BRUH YOU CAN ATLEAST PRETEND THAT YOU UNDERSTAND

@imnothingbutfloorsirmaam6124

Жыл бұрын

Or my case when they say they did "care" and you could guess they find your feelings annoying and started ghosted you so you stood there like 🕴

Normally, I start fights with my friends a lot. It’s usually over stupid things, but when everyone turns on me and blames me, it still hurts. Whenever I mess up on one thing everyone gets mad at me. This playlist I honestly find perfect for me

automatically being blamed is actually so frustrating. especially when no one hears you out. having to admit something you haven't actually done, just because "you need to take responsibility," it makes me so mad, yet i end up crying my eyes out in my room.

@darleneann3579

2 жыл бұрын

I felt that, there was this ex, we’ll call him R, he would leave and then come back after like a year and this time, his best friend accused me of saying a racial slur I couldnt of said because I wasnt there with him, and he cut me off cause of it, and my mom never listens to me and I swear its one of the worst feelings ever

@BPtaojiu

2 жыл бұрын

Lol yeah Cryin rn

@RattyAt

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah... My parents do that to me a lot. Fussing at me for things I never did, never letting me have the chance to explain myself, it sucks. It makes me just wanna scream at them then run away...

@kusuosaiki8966

2 жыл бұрын

@@darleneann3579 im so sorry, you deserve someone better who will actually listen to you. Remember never feel guilt or bad for something that you have never done 🌸

@Minghui8170

2 жыл бұрын

Ditto

It’s like trying to explain you’re not okay to someone who just won’t understand

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

Damn felt that I hope ur okay and take care

@gamingtragedy2916

2 жыл бұрын

Basically my mom

@jamiepaston2538

2 жыл бұрын

@@gamingtragedy2916 Parents in general

@mjysm

2 жыл бұрын

My mom

@karla-jf5mv

2 жыл бұрын

parents.

Pov: It's not your fault but you have to pretend it is so nobody else gets in trouble.

@leilani203

2 жыл бұрын

its not so that nobody gets in trouble, its more like punishing yourself for the things you’ve done..

Pov: you are having a meltdown in the middle of the night because you think everything is your fault and everything is because of you.

Its funny how even when you have a pretty good family, nice friends, a house, food, and so many other great things and still feel like everyone hates you. I know its all just my brain, its all my fault how I take everything I have for granted. I don't know why I'm like this.

@aussiecowboah8825

2 жыл бұрын

I understand, I’m the same.

@id10cyy

2 жыл бұрын

Same, but I have no friends that are nice except for family friends and cousins.

@bloop.6772

2 жыл бұрын

finally someone that's like me I used to be really talkative but since everyone didn't listen or interrupted me I became quiet and I have like different groups of friends and none of them listen.

@jennamarie4009

2 жыл бұрын

i feel this way too. no one understands.

@lilly22332

2 жыл бұрын

I understand that so much like I feel like no likes me

“Frick you my child is completely fine” No their not they’re listing to POV playlists

@irisalberto15

2 жыл бұрын

Its not funny it was my fault i wish i died and not him he was so young...

@mcdonalds5732

2 жыл бұрын

@@irisalberto15 idk what happened but don’t blame yourself it’s ok he will be forever with you

@Lisa-cz9lj

2 жыл бұрын

HAHAHAH true but these povs are not povs

@mr_melon2192

2 жыл бұрын

@@irisalberto15 [D O N ' T B L A M E Y O U R S E L F. . . . . . . ]

@flowey1145

2 жыл бұрын

This.

"Your too young to be depressed!" "Bruh, such an attention seeker." "Oop, well you know sometimes it is what it is,okay? anyway-" "Nothing happened to you that didn't happen to me yet. Stop faking." "Hahah! You're depressed? What a joke! Loser!" "Yes I left you for that that person. So what? "just because you are young, doesn't mean you don't have feelings, a heart, a soul and a life to live. You shouldn't listen to them and be yourself!" -my mind. Lol, If it was that easy haha. I wish I could vent but I have too much to say...and I cant.

@akira6838

2 жыл бұрын

i feel the same way! i really want to vent to someone but i feel as if it'll be better to keep it to myself. i really hope you feel better soon!

@somerandomdude9t.r.oleader786

2 жыл бұрын

nothing is too much!!! vent to me!!!!!!!! I swear, i'll read the whole thing!

@angrypomeraniantrainer618

2 жыл бұрын

Especially when they pull out the “emo” card

@j.a.d.a1457

2 жыл бұрын

I can't say anything really except sorry

@Xx_Yun4_xX

2 жыл бұрын

@@angrypomeraniantrainer618 exactly bro- everything is emo nowadays istg-

12:07 .. this song is just ... what my head feels like at all times. so melancholy but so so sweet to stay in. so much better than the real world, but it hurts. its so sad there but its so nice.

@KonTuBatons

2 жыл бұрын

yes :)

@hannahgriffith4498

2 жыл бұрын

on another note- same last name :) but, hope you get your happiness :)

@akio9701

2 жыл бұрын

its so.. free i closed my eyes and instantly forgot where or what i was doing...

I like reading the comments, being able to read everyone's story and how we all ended up on this playlist

@snow5648

2 жыл бұрын

Im high asf and the picture looked cool...

@w33b70

2 жыл бұрын

i got one

@w33b70

2 жыл бұрын

so i have friends like very good friends and they are also go to my school but they sometimes hurt me and dont realise it, but sometimes i get really broken and don’t really feel in the mood so i just lay down in my bed staring at the ceiling and overthink, “what if i hurt them?” “what if i lose them and never get them back?” “what if they were lying the whole time?” it just gets me sad honestly 😕

@w33b70

2 жыл бұрын

sorry if it was boring 😣

@v4ghar

2 жыл бұрын

We have the same pfp

Pov: they always made you think it was your fault so you blame yourself for everything.

@TheTrashyRatsPodcast

2 жыл бұрын

yup.

@mars4894

2 жыл бұрын

wait so it wasnt my fault

@ban9693

2 жыл бұрын

i dont even know what is and isnt my fault anymore... at this point im convinced that I deserved to be hurt by them because i hurt them myself too

@akxiraz

2 жыл бұрын

Yep..

@Olejr15

2 жыл бұрын

True. That's all I've got to say.

This playlist sounds like slowly realizing you are in a toxic friendship with your closest friend and you dont know how to let go because you still love them.

The fact that this makes me wanna cry...I find that so amazing. I haven't been able to cry for about 5 months now... For some reason, it just speaks to me and I like that

@Arxsaa

2 жыл бұрын

Time to let it out then. You've been real strong. Really strong. Hope you win your battle.

As someone who is actually is the problem, this shit hits different. I regret being so mean for so long, I’ve been so horrible to the people I love and I’m trying to get better

@jazzy9781

2 жыл бұрын

I'm glad you're trying to be better, you can do this. I'm proud of you

@kaeliriley6908

2 жыл бұрын

Same, I’m sick of not caring and being THAT person. Let’s grow together.

@xingqiuakadreamelfsalt7279

2 жыл бұрын

Same, I hate it. I hate what I did.

@una9906

2 жыл бұрын

hey! to you and everyone in the replies, realizing your mistakes is the first step toward improvement. there’s a huge difference between beating yourself up and reflecting on your actions. keep going, i know you’ve got this ♡

@larko2717

2 жыл бұрын

At least your admitted it, most people won’t do that. You’re already one step closer. :)

The playlist sounds like being gaslit by someone into thinking you’re doing to them what they’re, in reality, doing to you.

@arandomfireant4132

2 жыл бұрын

yeah it really does, my mom gaslit me into thinking that i was the one gaslighting her.

@atsutsufuro916

2 жыл бұрын

when you deeply relate to this comment : *d a m.*

@000ddlyy5

2 жыл бұрын

@husna /una I deeply *deeply* relate to this comment... I was g4sl!t for 4-5 years maybe more., I've wasted so much of my life )=

@dyseise

2 жыл бұрын

ouchie, this comment got me good

@Hocuspocs_vlogs

2 жыл бұрын

Whats gaslit?

I have really bad anger issues and O.C.D. and I can't help it. Everybody blames me for things. I yell at them and then go in my room to cry myself to sleep. They yell at me for being so "weird" and "sensitive" but they just don't understand. I wish my family was more understanding. :/

This feels like laying on the ground, with the maximum volume, closing my eyes, and pretending my problems don't exist, doesn't make it any better, but still less bad than fighting them. I think I have so many problems right now that I won't be able to solve them, and having to pass through all of this by myself just hurts more than I can handle.

my parents aren't home you know what that means! Being able to actually cry and not just let tears stream down my face at night in silence wishing for comfort but knowing that they wont help if they could

@lankyboi5853

2 жыл бұрын

I can relate

@dontbotherme4943

2 жыл бұрын

Sometimes i just want to knock at their door at night and speak out how i feel, when i’ve been crying the whole night but i know i get nothing back and what i will get is more disappointed.

@munsutonhoshi1573

2 жыл бұрын

I wish to you the best of strenght, since getting all the anger, sadness and Just broken hopes get out in an river made of tears is pure strenght. You are doing great letting your feelings out, dont give up Just yet of feeling those things, It helps to remind you that you still breathing and fighting. From an fighter to another, keep up and be yourself!

@salmalaamari2604

2 жыл бұрын

I've never related more..I'm sorry you have to do that it sucks but being finally able to cry out loud is kind of a good feeling at the end

@j.a.d.a1457

2 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry. I feel so stupid cuz i can't help But i also feel the same way.

Everything that comes out of most of my family "Its your fault"

@vuosku

2 жыл бұрын

fr T.T

@0cap688

2 жыл бұрын

@@vuosku ikkkk

@cindy-js3zc

2 жыл бұрын

yes :')

@ur_dawgwater

2 жыл бұрын

sus

@preminger3296

2 жыл бұрын

My parents yelled at me 3 times today for not watching our dogs while they were out and all i was doing is cleaning my room lime i was supposed to but i got blamed for when they went to the bathroom in the house twice and when one of thwm tore something up and my mom blamed me for not watching them

bruh,i feel this almost every time my friends vent to me. Like "its your fault they hurt themselves", "You didn't help them", "you cant even properly talk to them. This all your fault". I wish i didn't have this shit feeling stuck to me every day.

I've always had a good family [I think] and supportive friends but I always end up hurting them. I know what I'm doing is wrong and is causing them pain but I can never seem to stop even when my mind is saying otherwise. I say Im sorry to those I've mistreated but honestly, I don't feel sorry. It's not as if Im emotionless, I've just never been able to feel actually sorry for what I've done.

I was always alone, so having friends now feels a little overbearing and I need a break. that's it. just a days break. but they never understand and get mad over every little thing i do. i care for them i really do, i just don't know how to show it. it feels one-sided. it's like i was made to never have friends. every single one comes and goes and it always ends because of me.

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

Believe me not but I had 13+ friends back then. We we're a group. There's this two bitches who hate me and they made up a plan and backstabbed me by spreading fake rumors. That year was basically a hot mess. I couldn't sleep, eat or basically do anything. I felt so overwhelmed and anxious I still do all the time. I got kicked out of the group and there was this girl who was my one and only hope to live. She left the group and became friends with me. Then, we were inseparable. Last year, we found another girl. We became friends with her and now the three of us are still friends till now. It's not ur fault, love. U just need time to think. You'll find the right person soon. Dw it takes time.

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

And yk not even gonna lie but I really think ur better off without them. Like as an example if I tell my friends I need a break from social media and things they always understand. They comfort me if I feel bad and I do the same too. However, having friends like that might lead you to a dangerous path of life. It'll cause u even more anxiety and depression. I hope u find new ppl ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

@7empest611

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 im so glad to hear you found your people after all that happened !! im pretty sure i have found my person already, but i still get unsure since im pretty gullible. hope you’re doing wayy better now than before !!

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

@@7empest611 I am doing great and I hope you're okay. If you wanna vent, u can dm me on discord ry#6386

@atsutsufuro916

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 AWHhhH **ugly sobbing**

tbf, is it even a pov anymore? i cant even tell if I'm a victim or painting a picture to be the victim anymore, its so blurry i cant tell the lines anymore and it gives me a headache. i don't know if I'm the reason people around me suck or its just the people around me, i cant tell if im depressed or just wanting to be, i cant tell anything anymore and its fucking with me. i want to stay in my room and never come out because then its me and my thoughts, I don't have to deal with people telling me what I am and arent, who to be and who not to be, and blaming me.

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

I'm not really good with words. However, we all are the victim including you. The ppl who hurt us in any way possible are happy now. Why? Bc they don't hv anything else to do. Somehow, one day things will get better and ppl who hurt us would regret hurting us. I'm sorry. Take care

@robin-ew6hi

2 жыл бұрын

I related to every word I think-

@peehead7381

2 жыл бұрын

yup

@namtiddiesupremecy7150

2 жыл бұрын

The way I relate to you...

@omoriboykinnie9819

2 жыл бұрын

damn.

when he started playing nice boys i was so happy because i know all the lyrics, i love the temporex songs. this playlist helped me a lot, thank you.

I have to go to school tomorrow but I can't sleep because of insomnia and this playlist matching my messed up life is something to help me get through the night

this feels like laying in bed and spiraling in your thoughts, thinking about all that thing's you've done to hurt people and make them leave you. is this a self-callout? yes. I know it's my fault, never thought it wasn't, i'm not a nice person and i never claimed to ever be one.

@kaeliriley6908

2 жыл бұрын

Me too, but it feels odd when all your actions finally, successfully drive everyone away. Like… what now? I’m finally the villain in everyone’s story, so, now you’re alone.

@user-tq3pf3nf3f

2 жыл бұрын

never claimed to be one but always wanted to be a little kind.

@pp-rw7rm

2 жыл бұрын

this is so funny

It hurts. It really does. Im so sick of trying to face my Problems, but being so overwhelmed that i try to egnore them. But they just keep getting worse. Its getting to the point where i feel like im to lazy or not doing anything. Im sick of my family telling me im doing a "piss-poor" job at everything i do. God, as the oldest, i feel like an experiment. Like i was tested new things and methods on. God damnit. Its all going downhill and i dont know how to stop it.

@Wheatallergy

2 жыл бұрын

Get the rest you need and keep going when you're ready. It's all we can do.

@Wheatallergy

2 жыл бұрын

Some verses that really help me are Romans 8:18-30. Maybe they can help you too?

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

Dw everything's going to be alright ik this is what everyone says but ik sorry I'm not good with words

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

Take care

@addie918

2 жыл бұрын

im so sorry, but i dont know if this will help, but i thought problems said pokemon

I had a dream about him and it really triggered me. I can't even begin to describe how afraid I was, all I remember was freaking out when anyone got near me and just completely destroying myself

Reminds me of the time when i do evertything that could do for a friend, listening to every of their vents, every single outbursts and their tears. But they were never there when i'm at my low. Always dismissed my own feelings as selfishnes, crushed into a ball and thew it in the abyss of my soul. Took me years of that to realize what a fool i was. We talked. They apologized, but i still leave. Somewhere in my mind i couldn't accept it. Just a 'sorry' and promises can't take back the devastation i felt over time. The emotional wreck. ...Still, i missed the happy moments when i truely laughed beside them. Now everything is becoming something i have to destroy with my own hands. I can't keep dwelling on the past. But i don't have the will to do so. The memories are standing there. In the corner of my mind. "It's still fun to remember. I can forget it whenever i want." ... i'm such a dumbass.

I’m sorry :/ I’m trying to be a better person... it’s hard when you’ve been surrounded by toxic people all your life and you’ve had this anger stuck inside and all you can do is take it out on others the way people took it out on you... I swear I’m trying tho...

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

Dw everything's gonna be fine if u want someone to talk I'm here

@bro_bladez

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 as thank you... and I’m okay i have people to talk to but thanks for caring

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

@@bro_bladez anytime bestie

@bro_bladez

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 :)

@yusssh2731

2 жыл бұрын

felt this way to much

hearing these comments make me feel less alone in my shitty behavior. i feel like such a terrible person and that no one gets what I'm going through. I'm trying so hard to get better. its just so difficult

@akira6838

2 жыл бұрын

hey! I know you commented this 2 months ago, but I want to say that you will never be alone! you'll do great in life, I'm sure of it. I know its very hard for some people and thats why I'm making this comment! I hope you're feeling better, sooner or later

@celestialbunny

2 жыл бұрын

Sorta same.

i could've had it all. she was so nice to me and loved me and forgived me so many times despite everything. yet i never wanted to change or get better. i was always letting her down shamelessly. in various ways. she was always there for me and i was never there for her. i cant face her after everything. i just hope wherever she is that shes happy. i deserve and accept all of this pain because i chose this path. i truly disgust myself.

Reminds me of a "friend" who kept making me miss lunch because she didnt want to be in the bathroom alone and refused to use it if someone was there. She knew I relied on lunch to feed me until 10pm cause of a sport I played at the time had practice directly after school but was nearly an hour drive away. Had dinner late and would pack a granola bar for just incase I got dizzy while practicing. When I finally got pissed that I was doing worse in the sport because of being shaky, I just told her: "I'm going to grab something to eat real quick, I'll be right back" She apparently heard me quote "cuss her out and threaten her life" She filed a report against me and after getting interrogated by three school officials in a small room and then having several people call me a bully and a bitch, etc etc, I ended up starting to believe them. I really thought for a year that I had a weird anger issue and that I had blacked out and was mean to my friend. That is until she told me that she was jealous that I was in a competitive sport and playing in state tournaments so she wanted to try and get me kicked from the sport..... I had quit that sport both because I wanted to focus on my school and because I was scared that I had an anger issue and would end up lashing out at someone.... I'm still pisses at past me for believing that. Thing is, the sport was fencing and my fencing club wasn't at all associated with my school nor did they care if I had good grades, they were concerned about my mental health and if someone needed help with homework one of the coaches would help tutor them. I can't fence anymore because I developed spinal issues or I would go and continue pursuing that sport.

i'm seeing so many stories, vents, so much pain in the comments. i hate to see how hurt everyone is, even at such a young age. but it's also some what comforting to have people that understand. i still wish no one understood though, no one should suffer such things.

@user-tq3pf3nf3f

2 жыл бұрын

i love u

@themi1kman

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-tq3pf3nf3f i love u too

@user-tq3pf3nf3f

2 жыл бұрын

@Sea_dragonplayz same it makes me feel better about myself

@themi1kman

2 жыл бұрын

@_s5xn3s woah there bucko

@wiktoriaturzynska549

2 жыл бұрын

"people that understand" this sentence hit too hard, but it's true. I would like people around who understand, and not just try to pretend to understand

“It’s your fault!” That’s what my mother said to me when I had suicidal thoughts. I had suicidal thoughts at 10, actually attempted at 11 and asked for help when I was 12. In return for getting the courage to ask for help I get told by my (Emotional and physical) abusive Mother that ‘it’s my fault.’ I’m now 16 and those words will forever haunt me and keep me awake.

@mango_rat_1435

2 жыл бұрын

I am getting chills. First off, tell your mom I say piss off, even if it just in your head. Send her some bad energy for me :) Also, I hope you are doing better, or find ways to feel better. It is not your fault. It is hard to be kind to yourself, I know that for sure! (Idk how helpful this will be btw) But imagine you are a friend, who has done nothing, how could you blame them? Be your own best friend. I am so sorry that you had to go through so much. It is not your fault that you had/have suicidal thoughts. It will never be your fault. Also, have you ever thought about reaching out to a help line? Maybe a suicide hotline, or one that can get you away from your mother. Some people just weren't meant to have children. But you *do* deserve a good mom. I do know that. Maybe you can find a good friend who will let you crash at their place for a while? Anyways, I hope this somewhat helped... ~A 12 year old who doesn't even know what is going on with their emotions anymore because yes

@Kenadieczer

2 жыл бұрын

@@mango_rat_1435 Don’t worry, the same night she said that, I packed up my school bag, called my father to meet me at a place and I just left. Never gone back to my mother’s house, I can’t even see my own siblings. I’ve ghosted my mother for a full year now, and I’m starting medication. I’ve gotten help and taking a lot of medication for my mental illness 😅. Still, Leaving my mother was the most life changing decision I’ve ever made. If I didn’t run away who knows if I would be alive or dead, caused by me or my mother. Till this day I’ve never felt more proud of my 12 year old self for doing it. You can’t improve yourself if you’re in the same abusive/toxic environment. Thank you for worrying about me, we need more people like you in the world! I wish nothing but happiness and luck for you.

@mango_rat_1435

2 жыл бұрын

@@Kenadieczer Aw I am so glad! Best thing to wake up to :) A very nice start to my day. good luck to you too :D

@botaobiscuit7739

2 жыл бұрын

Same. My mom was verbally abusive and was scream stuff like " you're a rat!" After I trusted her enough to tell her I was self harming and depressed. She also did it infront the bus stop so everyone heard, which was super embarrassing. Just know that I hope you get better and I care about you. :)

@117.73

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry, you don't know how sorry I am. You are very special and valuable, you will never be alone and I love you very much! after a storm the rainbow comes out.

I fell like we're all just a sad teenager who thinks our sadness is fake and we just want to be trendy . But really if you felt sad there's nothing fake about it . I hope y'all okey 💛

Pov: You feel like something is wrong with you. *Is it bad I searched this pov playlist up.*

@livyy_ln4

2 жыл бұрын

nah it's not bad, you just need a playlist for yourself, and somebody else needs it too yk? it's not bad don't worry, i feel the same way tho.

it’s always my fault. even when i don’t mean for it to be. even if i try my hardest to be perfect i fuck up.

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

U are perfect, darling. U very much are. It's the world and the ppl in it that are sick. Dw it's gonna be okay

@karmicfiles

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 thank you so much💕💕 i haven’t heard anyone tell me that it’s gonna be okay in a while and it warms my heart i really appreciate it

just came out of the mental hospital, one thing i missed was music, and this is exactly bringing back memories why i ended up in that hospital in the first place, its good to cry at, thanks for the playlist

@thebigfudanshi1985

2 жыл бұрын

what happened man? If you'd like to say

@3ea3ea

2 жыл бұрын

I missed music too when I went to one :( This playlist relates to hospital nights for me because all I could do after a certain time at night, was sit in my room and do nothing… it was lonely. Just remember, your not alone in this and that there are people who you can talk too

i feel numb as hell, i can’t even cry anymore

Flashbacks to when my little brother would annoy the shit out of me, hit me, pull my hair ect, so i push him away and he would yeet himself on the floor and cry so that my parents would punish me instead of him :)

I've been through so many toxic ppl that im forcing myself to mature so much at the age 13 and realise how fucked the world really is. I've built such an image of being right and wise that everytime I made a mistake and hurt someone it messes with me so much. I'm trying to not be like those toxic people, I swear I'm trying my best. Please forgive me.

@P3R0X1D33

2 жыл бұрын

Permission to put this in my personality's essay ?😟

@rubyreddington2169

2 жыл бұрын

This is exactly how i feel. When i make a minor mistake or i hurt someone i breakdown. I don't know why but i think it's because i was treated like an adult from a young age and it kinda messed me up. Even things that are not my fault i still feel like it is. Sometimes i even get flashbacks at stuff i did and it messes with me. I know it's hard and i'm sorry you have to go through this pain. But, just know you are not alone and there are many other people that feel this way.

@victoranxty89

2 жыл бұрын

The same thing happened to me, living with my aunt for 1 year in her house and without Internet I noticed how I behaved at home with my mother and my brothers. Now that I'm 15, I try not to cause trouble

@celestialbunny

2 жыл бұрын

Same and when you unintentionally hurt someone, like what is going on right now 4 me, it hurts so much. I didn't mean to do that. :(

sometimes all I wish for is just a friend that I can talk to when I feel sad, that’s it

@imthatshygirl5245

Жыл бұрын

@@VerchiBaloch just saw ur comment omg of course

POV: you think it's your fault for what happened when you had barely anything too do with it but you always feel like your too blame and should be held accountable for your actions

just remember, you don't need to be surrounded by toxic people. there's always better people who would be happy to be friends with you

"if you reject me imma Kms" "If you break up with me imma Kms" "If you ever leave imma Kms" "Nobody loves me" "You're the only person that cares about me" "You love me don't you?" I never even wanted to be with you..

@user-ks5bf5pr4s

2 жыл бұрын

i always do that .....im sorry :(

@lovvesickrose5593

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-ks5bf5pr4s please stop…don’t ever do that to people it’s seriously crushing and it’s not okay whatsoever

@korecores

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-ks5bf5pr4s go get help. thats literally manipulation.

@friggincats5982

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-ks5bf5pr4s that’s messed up. Literally go get help. That’s so fucking traumatizing.

@d0.min1c6

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-ks5bf5pr4s are you serious? why would you think that’s okay to say to someone? even it’s a joke, literally don’t joke about that pls.

I'm not mad anymore, I'm not sad anymore, I'm just empty, it's all gone. I'll never be who I was, I got hurt to bad, that person is long gone. Maybe it is my fault, maybe they were right, maybe I'm just some worthless mistake that no one loves, but until I know for sure I'll just drown myself in the music, in the blood....

@daisyy3662

2 жыл бұрын

please, my dear, don’t hurt yourself. there is no point in doing so, as it will make everything worse. if you want to be happy again, you have to want it. you have to keep trying and not let others drain you entirely. i promise, it always gets better, nothing lasts forever

growing up learning how to keep all my emotions bottled up because if it spills, it'll just end up I was wrong for me to voice out what I'm feeling instead of letting it out because everyone would all blame it on me

im so sick and tired of hearing "your to young to be tired" or "your to young to be depressed" and "your to young to know what pain feels like"

@EmbeReii

2 жыл бұрын

same

@livyy_ln4

2 жыл бұрын

same.

ty for 24 views

@annabelle.0

2 жыл бұрын

I think you have a little more

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

@@annabelle.0 I DO AND IM SURPRISED NGL-

@annabelle.0

2 жыл бұрын

@@dex5078 i would be aswell

@qsukas

2 жыл бұрын

CONGRATS ON 48K VIEWS !!!

@dex5078

2 жыл бұрын

@@qsukas ty

I'm tired of hurting everyone I love. Good people come into my life, and I always mess it up without meaning to. I know I'm toxic, and I'm working on it with my all, but I know I'm never going to be the good person I wish I could be. I just wish I could make it better, to balance the scale, to pay back the world for the harm I've caused.

@chiara666

2 жыл бұрын

Same, for my behaviors I blame myself a lot. I dont know how to fix all the problems I've created in the past... I hope you're doing well

this playlist made my dayyyy whattttt it has all of my fav songs n when i feel rlly tired this j hits diff xx

pov: you always do your best but life keeps kicking you down, still you hang on that little spark of hope that life CAN be better

People are so quick to blame you when you turn into this heartless, merciless person but don't care when you were hurt constantly because of them. Yes, I act distant and never ask you to hang out with me or ask your opinion. What did you expect when you embarrassed me and acted like I didn't mean anything to you? Now you don't mean anything to me and if you ever wonder why things turned out like this, look at the mirror. Stop badmouthing me around other people, no one believes you anyways.

@daisyy3662

2 жыл бұрын

story of my fucking life. no one ever questions why people do the bad things they do, and that’s why mistakes turn people into “bad people”. throwing blame into someone’s face won’t fix a problem, it’ll only make someone feel awful, which is deserved at times, but shouldn’t last for eternity. i just wish people understood

@av7388

2 жыл бұрын

@b u k e t t @daisyy i'm so sorry that's happening to you both, but i'm really proud of you for cutting off those toxic people! that's the best thing you can do. i hope some true, better friends find their way into your life (or you already have some people in your life that are real friends,) because you're very smart and deserve that closure.

it's amazing how a single playlist can bring together so many people with problems. well i'm here too so it's alright.

this is just beautiful, i feel everything at the same time, it hurts and i cry so much. thank you, i love u

“Nothing I do is ever good, nothing I do is ever good enough”

It’s so frustrating having to deal with what’s going on outside and inside at the same time. Real relationships, your inner stability, it’s all so difficult to balance. It’s exhausting how much effort life takes. What really is the point? There isn’t one.

I'm trying, I really am, its just that the anger pent up inside of me has made me a horrible person. I love you sm.

Fallen down hits so fucking hard. We often put so much blame on ourselves and to those around us that we forget that everyones pov is different. You don't get to judge people over stuff you don't understand because we're all living in our own worlds and things aren't always as they seem. And for all the hurt and confused kids in the comments, don't be too optimistic, because life isn't perfect; and don't be too pessimistic, because just when you feel like the world has turned its back on you, things will eventually turn up.

I was looking for videos to calm me down, and this was working. Then can’t handle change came on. Hit me like a bullet train. :) good playlist tho 💜

POV:Your parents always blame you for everything and just abandon you when you do something wrong.

Every day I try to be a support for every person I love with all my heart, but sometimes I feel that I need a little tenderness. Unfortunately, I am afraid to ask for it because I always want to show that I am strong and helpful for everyone and I am afraid that when I ask for this concern my strong character will be destroyed. It may sound quite strange but I'm afraid to ask for help, even if I really need it I rather deal with it alone than bother someone else. That is why I cry myself to sleep every night to feel better. Who ever read this Thank you for taking your time in reading how I feel. Love you all ❤️☺️

@ell7940

2 жыл бұрын

honestly, you sound like a swag person, and i encourage you to let the other person that you love know this. a good relationship - platonic or not - is based on openess

playlist like this make me cry all the time but i really enjoy them

I love this playlist it just explains me

Yknow, I’m not sure if I have bad parents or if I’m just making it all up in my head. I’m not sure if my anxiety, depression, bad thoughts are real or just something I ‘want’. But even if all those things are fake, I don’t think I’ll ever forget the time my mom called me insane because I was failing classes. I’ve asked, they don’t remember. It was 2019, late fall/early winter. I’m not sure if they thought I would forget bc of my memory problems. It hurts. It’s been 2 years. Am I insane? I promise I’m trying. Please don’t be mad.

@mango_rat_1435

2 жыл бұрын

:( I feel the same thing, are my emotions real? What is going on anymore... but honestly it is ok to fail your classes. Just try to pay attention, maybe learn a bit. But take care of yourself. Find some good friends, find a good hobby, surround yourself with good people, but out the toxic people (or try to), but most of all, know that I am so proud of you. For trying, for getting through this mess called life. I wish you the best :)

@winterjones4804

2 жыл бұрын

@Sae-Byeok I know, but it hurts a lot more coming from my parents

@winterjones4804

2 жыл бұрын

@Sae-Byeok thank you

@winterjones4804

2 жыл бұрын

@@mango_rat_1435 thank you

Dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day, because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society build up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy live. But in fact that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this than please never forget to breath and smile. Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs. Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. I love you and send you hugs. You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you. YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN. I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN. YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN. You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUGH YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO. It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you trough my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :) All I want for you is to stay and feel alive. Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. I need you here with me :). Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone asked you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it. And in case no one told you today, I am so proud of you. I hope you will remember my words- becho :) Until tomorrow, my friend :)

@korekiyoshinguji2026

2 жыл бұрын

Youre suh a beautiful soul,thank you soooooo much for putting so much effort in you comment.remember that i love you,have a wonderul day/night/afternoon

@salmalaamari2604

2 жыл бұрын

My eyes got so blurry from crying over this- thank you so so much this message meant a lot to me you're such an amazing person for this thank you again❤

@jerrythecherry8733

2 жыл бұрын

@@salmalaamari2604 me too man goodnight or good morning it's 1:22 am and happy Halloween have fun and if you can't I'm sorry let's try to make the most of today it's Halloween🎃

@kylieandjohnnyoapplespicy

2 жыл бұрын

Tears rolled down my face as I read this in the dark. Im honestly having a horrible day and this helped a lot. Though we are complete strangers, I hope you are very happy right now and wish you a happy life. You, and every other amazing person deserve happiness! You helped me during hard times. Thank you, I hope I will find you again one day :)

@milescarter3322

2 жыл бұрын

Tomorrow will be a new day. Thank you.

4:21 - Rhinestone eyes -lyrics for everyone who wants to sing along cuz ik its hard to hear them :) I'm a scary gargoyle on a tower That you made with plastic power Your rhinestone eyes are like factories far away When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep Drive on engines 'til they weep With future pixels in factories far away So call the mainland from the beach All parties now washed up in bleach The waves are rising for this time of year And nobody knows what to do with the heat Under sunshine pylons, we'll meet While rain is falling like rhinestones from the sky I got a feeling now my heart is frozen All the verses and the corrosion Have been after native in my soul I prayed on the unmovable Yeah, clinging to the atoms of rock Seasons, the adjustments Times have changed I can't see now, she said "taxi" Now that light is so I can take This storm brings strange loyalties and skies I'm a scary gargoyle on a tower That you made with plastic power Your rhinestone eyes are like factories far away Here we go again That's electric That's electric Helicopters fly over the beach Same time every day, same routine A clear target in the summer when skies are blue It's part of the noise when winter comes It reverberates in my lungs Nature's corrupted in factories far away Here we go again That's electric Your love's like rhinestones falling from the sky That's electric With future pixels in factories far away Here we go again That's electric Your love's like rhinestones falling from the sky That's electric With future pixels in factories far away Here we go again

Yeah it's my fault. But for so long I tried and tried and tried. I just can't anymore. You win.

( TW: transphobia, minor abuse, and religion ) ( this is kinda more so of a vent kinda thing ) i always blame myself for a lot of things, even when it's not my fault, this sick mentality has formed ever since i've grown up and i'm no longer my dad's "little girl", i've found myself not too long ago, i've talked to my dad about it and its always the same " you're going through a phase " " you'll grow out of it " it hurts so much, parents always say that they'll love you unconditionally until you start making decisions for yourself, finding yourself as you grow up, finding your identity and sexuality are all in that mix. i feel like ever since i've came out as trans, my dad seems more distant and he tells me that he won't respect me because of his religion, and he calls me a girl and deadnames me, it makes me feel like shit mom's the same way, i feel like the only person i can really talk to about my problems is my older brother, he understands me more than anyone, i don't see him a lot though anymore.. my dad kicked him out just because he found himself. about an hour later, he came upstairs to check on me, and acted like nothing happened.

@Arlcchin

2 жыл бұрын

Your dad isn’t a good person,at this point some people shouldn’t have kids at all,they are like “we will always be here for u no matter what and we will be here for u” lies,lies.From your situation we can see how parents are pieces of shit.Im so sorry you go thru this.You’re very pretty and great person don’t worry~❤️

@zer3826

2 жыл бұрын

Some advice, pack your stuff and leave. If you have anywhere you could go, then do it, cut off ties with them, go to your brother or go somewhere they don't know. You shouldn't have to live like that, if they lose you its their own fault, hope your okay and getting some help

I always blame myself, I'm tired of myself, thank you for this Playlist, it's gonna be my fav Playlist when I'm sad lol

these kind of playlist comfort me each day its basically like music is my best friend they understand me but when I say this kind of things like venting to people they would probably just laugh at me and thinking I'm just faking this things which I would because its not funny to just fake anxiety, etc.

today I accidently said something rude to a boy because of how dull my voice is and he started crying and one of my friends that I look up the most to told me I'm an insensitive person and horrible that I said what I did and my other friends didn't know how to comfort me so I sat there crying for the whole recess and I wrote him another sorry note and handed it to him and told him multiple times that he could sit with us if he'd like. I hate myself even more because I got mad and scratched my arm with a stick leaving a scar knowing it would only make things worse but I felt like I deserved it...why is it always me that does something stupid and it ends up like this-- I just wanna make them happy to make you happy..but I always fail

POV:you are sinking into guilt

it really is all my fault. i was bored with my life and decided i wanted to make it as dangerous and exciting as i could. next thing i know im sleeping with men who are way too old for me and i have multiple drug addictions. it was so fun and cool at first until the drugs stopped feeling as good and i didnt even know why i was getting high anymore. i was manipulated and abused by those men and i accepted it because they were giving me free snow. i forced myself to grow up way too fast. ive lost a fuckton of weight, i feel hollow, and i just dont recognize myself anymore. and it's all because of me.

@blaiseywaiseyriot

2 жыл бұрын

hey, it's been two months, you okay? just wanted to check up on you. hope ur well

@frisk3538

2 жыл бұрын

@@blaiseywaiseyriot yes, I’m okay :) I was having a meltdown when I wrote this but I’ve been clean for a few weeks now. I’m not involved with people like that anymore, just trying to recover. thanks for the comment I appreciate it

@maenastevenson

2 жыл бұрын

@@frisk3538 i’m happy to heart that because i was about to ask if you were good, take care and remember that you are loved

*"sometimes I really wish that my sadness is just a phase that Im going though."*

My parents had a huge fight because my dad wouldn't help pay bills. I went to comfort my mom and she kept telling me I was the reason why this family is falling apart. Ever since I've been constantly blamed for things. A few year later I started struggling with my anxiety I would have mini panic attacks whenever my parents or someone else blamed me for things even if it was a joke.

Of course, not everything's my fault. But to be treated as a joke, getting walked over for the fourth time because of a relationship...? It really messed me up. I just got out of a relationship with this shitty ex who always made his problems seem worse than they actually were, got upset because I was having bad days, constantly made me feel like I'm the one to blame because a situation got out of hand, ruined my self-esteem... I thought I lost him a few days ago because of his mental issues. Was having anxiety attacks for no reason because two days later, his sister texted me saying that he got back with his toxic ex. He didn't even talk to me or broke up with me, it was just- gone. I'm tired of constantly being taken as a joke that I genuinely don't care what happens to him at this point. Some arguments may have been my fault, but the fact that you're an ignorant, selfish human being is 100% your fault. I never want to have anything to do with that dipshit. Thanks for ruining my emotions, I genuinely can't trust anyone anymore. I don't believe people who say they love me anymore. Fuck you.

@venusliraa

2 жыл бұрын

i wish i can say something to make you feel better but im genuinely noy good with words. Then again im so sorry you had to deal with him.

@chemicallyCursed

2 жыл бұрын

I’m sorry for you, it really sucks when people you trusted turn out to be terrible, and take advantage of you because you forgive so easily

@siri6790

2 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for what he's done to you. You truly deserve better, and I hope that you get to heal and live the best life that you deserve. The relationship was not your fault if he left you that easily, it shows his character. (Which is an awful person) And it shows your character. (Which is a loving and passionate person who has there for him and stayed until he was the one who was selfish and left and hurt you.)

@nadafadil5346

2 жыл бұрын

i understand exactly what you're feeling just by your words, nothing is your fault, the arguements aren't either if he did something that hurt you at that moment then it hurt you. there's no reasoning to not feel a certain way when something hurts you. you deserve way more than that and all the love in the world. and if you need to talk im here .

@abbbysomething

2 жыл бұрын

Your fucking right to feel that way. They did something shitty and that’s the outcome. You might get over it, you might not, only time will tell. Until then, work for you. Do things for you. Have idols and work up to that level. Be that bad boss bitch you ever wanted to be. Be you. Of-fucking-course you feel like you can’t trust someone because of what they did, they ruined that part of you, but what happens if you build up again? You are stronger because you know the signs of something bad. It’s a better situation then you might think. You learn from it, actually, in different ways. I actually do hope you get a lot fucking better bestie. Hope you can trust :) 😗✌️

I know I'm late to the party on this one but I just closed myself off from my closest friend so I don't end up hurting them more. I was really mean to them a few weeks ago and I've apologized to them several times and they said it was fine but I can only feel extremely high levels of guilt when I think about it. So I decided it was better if I just shut myself off from them for awhile at least until I'm in a better place. So yeah thats it, it really is my fault

@chimeragarden5622

2 жыл бұрын

You're so brave and strong :) I always make problems,overreact,and hurting people's heart... I know its all my faults... I want to take left but im not brave enough :) You're so strong :D i admire you, stranger :)

@maythesenoisess

2 жыл бұрын

The way this is me rn. I get what u mean. I do. You feel stuck. U debated whether or not to stay because you were scared whether or not you would be able to say the right thing at the right time and mess up what you have. You knew that leaving them would only hurt both of you but u figured it would be better than whatever mess you would make. You were stuck. And now it’s eating u up. Same.

@ashleyleene9810

2 жыл бұрын

I'm been experiencing something like this for some months now A friend living in a bad environment might kill themselves any moment and all I could do is watch as they suffered So much that I had enough and told a counselor just so they could do something at least helpful Instead it made them suffer more Unlike you sadly they didn't forgive me and hate me for the matter If they die now, I'm a murderer My hatred for myself grows more and more each day many people keep saying I'm "too nice" or I'm a good friend and I feel like I'm living a lie. I decided that If that friend dies intentionally I will die aswell because I cannot live knowing I indirectly killed someone by giving them more sufferings

@LilyCelebiFlipnote

2 жыл бұрын

@@ashleyleene9810 My friend did this to me in high school, told a counselor on me when I was suicidal and in a toxic home environment.... We eventually reunited after I mistrusted and hated them unjustly for a while and we are still friends now. It's not your fault -- it's the fault of those who made their toxic situation happen, and the mental health care system being sucky especially for children, with no confidentiality. They blame the parents so much. But you are nowhere close to a murderer. You are just one person with good intentions trying to keep your friend alive, like my friend did. I wish I could send this message to the past them, weirdly enough, even given we're still friends now.... "My parents and the system made me mistrust them. Made me suffer more. Not you."

i destroyed my friendship with the people i cared about most. idk what to do without them.

to the person reading this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to lose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginably painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain through your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you through all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe your heart has been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen to. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel. It's heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen to. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much. I write this because I want you to stay here with me. I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, you're mentally tired, but don't your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger than you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging then build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see other stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in their life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way then you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again. I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you then don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy. I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spent enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart then I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general then I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of. I accept you and support you. I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it with such sad music. I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there are a lot of unsaid things I want to tell you and my text is getting longer and longer, I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not a weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like it's your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years.

being told that crying “doesnt suit me” hurts. even when im told to ignore the people i am hurt by most. its not easy doing any of those things.

Music Playlist Title: POV, it's your fault. Yeah, it's all my fault that we ended up here. I shouldn't have been so open about it. I should have kept my feelings to myself and now I may be hurting the two people I love if they ever find out about each other. I've quite literally trapped myself and I don't know how to get out. I feel like I lead them on. I didn't want this. I don't want to hurt them. I just wanted them to be happy. It's all my fault, I feel extremely guilty and I deserve it. It should have never gone this far. But I can't really go back without hurting the other party, can I?

@makaylawagers5340

2 жыл бұрын

Honestly same bro

This playlist just wanna makes me burst into tears. Ive been holding back since 3years already. But if i cry, my parents will be like “OmG WhY dId YoU CrY?” When will they stop pretending to be nice when they are so manipulative and toxic deep inside. I cant even do what i want with them around. I just wanna be free. Have my freewill back..

this is one of my favorite playlists :))

Being a good person is just tiring now. I guess it's my fault because I'm being honest about my feelings. Apparently I had too good of an act.

Yes, it's all my fault. Even if I'm in a bad state now and it really hurts to be so alone, deep down i know that i actually deserve it. All the pain i've caused is now, ironically, on me and i know that there should be more, not to cleanse my karma or whatever shit, but just to do justice for all who i mistreated. it is my fault.

i hate what i did and when i realized what i had done it made me wanna disappear. i’m sorry to everyone i hurt.

@venuslikeyourgod6801

2 жыл бұрын

same :/

i love this playlist- sums my feelings up

this playlist is probably one of my favorites and its so underrated. Good Job and keep it up!

@dex5078

3 жыл бұрын

TYSM

You ever just know you've done so many f**ked things to other people but you didn't realize it was your fault until now that things ended that way or why you ended up like this the way you are now? Yeah, that's me. I've fallen into this hole, when my parents scold me for the questions I'm asked "just what are you doing at home?" I rephrase it every time to "what am I doing with my life?" Well, it was my fault I was toxic in the past, It was my fault for being a brat about not getting many things and asking for toys as a kid even knowing the situation my parents were in trying to raise me and my brother and then just using all the hard worked money and clothing I barely wore. I regret wasting my life away like that. But I can't regret not being toxic to those who were toxic to me. It's my fault for hurting others and for hurting me. Now here I am kinda wasting my life with a phase of being in love with fictional comforting characters, staying in my room, being lazy, always tired of everything, and still a b*tch.

I finally made a good friend group. They're a year above me, but still treated me like I was their friend. I really thought that'd last until I "started getting on their nerves." I really am on the verge of just stopping trying to make friends at this point. It took me weeks to even find the confidence to say the right thing to these people, then today they tell me that I'm getting annoying? It kinda sucks :/