This song and video is extremely personal to me. As a child I was physically and mentally abused. Which caused me to become extremely depressed and suicidal. I always thought that I was the problem, that I must of done something so wrong to deserve that type of abuse from a person who was supposed to love me and didn’t see any other way out. It’s the reason I started wearing makeup because I thought if I looked like a different person ,I would become a different person. A person that stands up for themselves. I somehow made it out alive and so grateful everyday that I did. If you or anyone else that you know is going through something similar please make a stand or be a friend because you could save a life. -Remington Leith

@sol_x724

4 жыл бұрын

Remington, I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but I'm really excited for the song, I can already feel that it's going to make me cry

@choke4574

4 жыл бұрын

so proud of you all and super excited for the new era X❤️🖤

@blackjaadoo6381

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so proud of you! Happy that you got this all through but also very sorry that you had to go through that:c. Love you x

@darlarae516

4 жыл бұрын

Im thankful you came through the other side of it all and are here still.

@kayabvb7115

4 жыл бұрын

I’m so proud of you and I can relate. Love you ❤️

“too lazy for suicide i just watch the days pass hoping to die” the definition of my life

@mindedchaos

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@elledriver6099

3 жыл бұрын

So we have the same

@stup1d.k1dd83

3 жыл бұрын

Same here

@kyliemcgrath6968

3 жыл бұрын

😂💀💀 i mean… i guess, yeah.

@Krolot-um5dg

3 жыл бұрын

same

When a song is so deep they give you a help line

@easternoodles7058

Жыл бұрын

They do this on so many good songs yet they literally put you on hold 😭

@RaurXDberry

Жыл бұрын

​@@easternoodles7058 oof...

@elskaalfhollr4743

Жыл бұрын

I came today because I knew it was there

@dontcallmeblanca3594

Жыл бұрын

fr that was not there when i first found this song

@unicorn_xxx3424

Жыл бұрын

fr

It hits hard when you think you hear your parents fighting again but you then realise it's just the music video

@dontcallmeblanca3594

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry to hear that

@braincellium

Жыл бұрын

hope the situation with your parents is better, or at least you're moving out

@piggycorn4219

11 ай бұрын

@keroseme Fuck i feel that

@Werewolf914

11 ай бұрын

When I was younger and my Parents were having one of their fights I'd either go hide with my Sisters or if they weren't home I'd shut myself in the coat closet and cover my ears, after they got divorced and my Mom married my Stepdad they'd rarely fight but when they did it was the same thing I'd run and hide in a Closet and cover my ears until the screaming stopped or put in headphones and turn the volume up, still to this day I'm 26 and I hear yelling or arguing from anyone it's like a Switch and I'll just try to find someplace to hide out until it stops. I've had many attempts in my life and I've gotten to the point where I'm just passively Suicidal I don't want to die I just don't want to live in pain and fear anymore and at times it feels like there's only one option

@level710stoner

9 ай бұрын

Had me looking over my shoulder and tensing up and I'm not even at home.

"too lazy for a suicide" hits very differently when you actually used this exact wording to describe your situation SO many times

@usernamegsw4997

3 жыл бұрын

Life is so hard sometimes. We now it, you have to ve harder. You have our support, we will fight together

@Deeznutsin

3 жыл бұрын

This was felt from me

@happyterrors5726

3 жыл бұрын

the EXACT words

@szariq02

2 жыл бұрын

Or too scared

@mariuchiha7377

2 жыл бұрын

So you just waiting for death

“My life don’t mean that much to me so I live it for you” it’s just so honest and true for people who deal with suicidal thoughts and depression

@BigSaba

3 жыл бұрын

It sure as hell applys to me. Probably because I am depressed and suicidal

@alltimefalloutatthechemica2106

3 жыл бұрын

Yeah its like 100% true

@micah9206

3 жыл бұрын

lmao the main reason I'm alive is because I promised my friend we'd stay alive together

@Luca-yv8bo

3 жыл бұрын

So many times, over my fathers gun, I was thinking how little my life mean to me and had to say to myself, that "I can´t leave my pets alone...". Now I am saying over my gun "I can´t leave my husband with our cats and mortgage alone, he won´t be able to handle it". But in same time another voice is telling "Just do it, he will be better without you. You lost your job. You can´t have a baby, but he can and he wants one so badly, but he can never toss you away, so it is yout duty to set him free".

@sarahsalsa2461

3 жыл бұрын

That line hit me deep.

damn he sang through heart and we can feel it in his voice

@cortexoftheego4568

18 күн бұрын

based on real experience after all

in may of 2020, i was more depressed than i’d ever been. someone i had considered to be my friend had done something truly terrible to me and i felt alone. i felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone because of that on top of being under quarantine. the week i found palaye royale i had spent hours crying and begging for my life to end. i found palaye by chance, this video came up and i found a new community. one that made me realize i wasn’t alone. the album came out and i had something to look to for joy and for a moment to forget what was going on in my life. i’ve heard people say before that a band had saved their lives and i never thought i would say that, but this song and this album and this band did save my life. over a year later i am still so proud of you guys and all you have done and will continue to do. thank you🖤❤️

@Aria_0_

3 жыл бұрын

The quarantine fucked my inner world. I felt you🙌

@syko747void3

2 жыл бұрын

you speak for many of us 💖

@mrkruubs

2 жыл бұрын

👍

@ericrizza

2 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing. People do care even if they don't show it. I feel for you. Idk u but u would be missed if u weren't here. Life is precious and as such should be cherished. Keep ya head up, there's always dark before u can see the light. Stay alive.

@syko747void3

2 жыл бұрын

@@teodoraplop1196 thank u kind friend

This band deserves the world and nothing less I swear

@lilvixenywy

4 жыл бұрын

the world is a terrible place.

@bn353

4 жыл бұрын

Barbara Petrov no, ppl is..... but not all of them

@killingmesoftlywithhissong5744

4 жыл бұрын

AGREED

@Punkwashed_Bleach

4 жыл бұрын

The world and then some

@birdbird1829

4 жыл бұрын

Universe**

You'll Be Fine: "Cause mama say don't go" Lonely: "I'm sorry, mom, I've got to go" :'(

@martinmitrenga7454

4 жыл бұрын

Carter Atwell you are “on your own” just count in how meny songs is this prase

@wildmoonchild8210

4 жыл бұрын

awww :(

Lyrics ❤️ So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home My life don't mean that much to me So I'm living for you Yeah, I'm living for you And you can't stand the sight of me So what's the point of this Fucked up catastrophe? I'm waiting for my time to start As I waste it As I waste it I pop the pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home Daydreaming of my funeral Like who would show, bet no one would go Hey dad, would you show up for me now? Just to bury your little boy in the ground You broke my heart when you left me Was just waiting Was just waiting I pop these pills to waste some time As I'm faded As I'm faded This shit messes with my head The only home I know is my bed Too lazy for a suicide I just watch the days pass hoping to die So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home So sick and tired of being alone So long, farewell, I'm on my own I'm sorry mom, I've got to go I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave I call my home I dug this grave!

@lenita2197

2 жыл бұрын

Thaaaanks

I get depressed but I never get suicidal. But I just want to say that whoever else is struggling out there, just know that you're not alone. We're in this together. P.s. I love Palaye Royale so much!

@EricaVanHelsing

Жыл бұрын

Same. Thanks. I am failing a life deciding exam repeatedly. But still i try every year with new energy by convincing myself.

@cortexoftheego4568

18 күн бұрын

yeah, alone together

"The only home I know it's my bed" That lyric, THAT LYRIC, summarize perfectly what it's like to have deppression or anxiety. When you are sourrounded of shit, of a sadness so deep that touches your soul, the only thing that comforts you it's your room, your stuff, and above all, your bed.

@WinedandDined27

3 жыл бұрын

that is a lyric, not a verse, but yes. that is something that a lot of people who experience depression feel. no doubt.

@thealistormy4928

3 жыл бұрын

That is so true I have depression and I've been through a lot of shit in my life.. and all that makes me happy is my bed and my music so yeah

@ceeceea.6143

2 жыл бұрын

Asking Alexandria-" Alone In A Room" feeling depressed & anxiety ugh. I know how that feels..

@jout738

2 жыл бұрын

Yes im only comfortable in my room or late evening in my house kitchen, because in thoese places I can be alone relaxing without nobody stalking me.

@user-et6vx6ri5h

2 жыл бұрын

the sun prevented me in bed, and I covered myself with a blanket. Long time in bed

The shoveling is actually a metaphor for Remington unearthing all of our deeply buried childhood trauma

@candyninja2722

4 жыл бұрын

Γεια..! Επιτέλους μία ελληνίδα που ακούει palaye royale

@Kate-si9zy

4 жыл бұрын

@@candyninja2722 γειαα :) Τους αγαπώ απλά🖤😍

@crazyechelon3

4 жыл бұрын

Let's build an army! Λέω palaye royale και είναι όλοι με μια έκφραση του τύπου "who??"

@Kate-si9zy

4 жыл бұрын

@@crazyechelon3 Ακριβώς.. το ίδιο με Black Veil Brides, MCR, Motionless in White, SWS κλπ Ας μη μιλήσω για BMTH που όλοι τους ξέρουν ως Pop 😬

@crazyechelon3

4 жыл бұрын

Πόσο σε νιώθω δε μπορείς να φανταστείς...the pretty reckless, crown the empire, icon for hire, get scared, sixx:a.m κανένας

“Suicide is so selfish” The selfish thing is that you want the person in pain to keep living that pain

@timerman52

Жыл бұрын

They don't want you to keep living in the pain, they want you to fight the pain and eventually get out of misery because they care about you and don't want to lose you.

@bethereorbesquare3416

Жыл бұрын

very much agree... the person is asking for help in silent yet they just turned a blind eye but then would call it selfish..

@estherchen1115

6 ай бұрын

Yeah they just want you to live so they don’t have to suffering from the lose. That’s extremely selfish when they can’t even feel and care your pain, and force you to live and fight alone

@darkarcane5101

6 ай бұрын

​@@timerman52Most suicide aren't actually from a planned death. These are impulsive actions from being somewhat overwhelmed and triggered by a small spark. These people turns a blind eye to the signs till it's too late.

@babystomper3099

5 ай бұрын

It is the most selfish act one can do and ur a piece of shit if u do it. There are a few exceptions but for the crybabies who are just depressed and mentally pathetic ppl no excuses for that shit

Anybody in 2024 ??

@emeraldkin3831

2 ай бұрын

Bro it's only 4 years old so of course people are still here 10/10

@god_of_shadows7447

Ай бұрын

Yep me

@user-io5gs2hx9h

20 күн бұрын

I’m trying sd.

@lydiabreuer7450

12 күн бұрын

THEREEE!

@710Reefer

Күн бұрын

OFC

"My life don’t mean that much to me , So I’m living for you" this song hits way too close... I'm living because I don't want her to suffer, I'm literally going to college just cause she wants me to

@welpimametalhead6018

4 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry☹️

@katherinehoneycutt6251

4 жыл бұрын

I'm sorry, and also same

@lauraday6853

4 жыл бұрын

Same...

@welpimametalhead6018

4 жыл бұрын

@@lauraday6853 we have the same last name

@panickingllama

4 жыл бұрын

Same and I'm sorry...

I can't stop thinking how Sebastian must have felt when he heard this song for the first time as a big sister and being the person who took care of my little sisters most of the time I can relate to him so much and I know he has been the father figure to both Remington and Emerson I can't even imagine how he must have felt when he heard what his little brother been through and imagine him dead.. shit I just teared up

@laylaaaaa1901

4 жыл бұрын

oh my god I didn't think of that... as a big sister yeah that thought wrecks me

@tintinelliot

4 жыл бұрын

I was just thinking like about both Emerson and Seb how they must have felt both for this song but also just them all growing up together.... my heart aches for them all.

@ginevrasmeriglio4241

4 жыл бұрын

In an interview Em said that Sebastian was a sort of father figure to them, so yeah... it must be very difficult to both of them listen to this song. I can also imagine that they went through the same type of abuse and that make my heart broke so much.

@astroscientist5349

4 жыл бұрын

@@tintinelliot yeah me too I focused on Em and Sebastian to see their reaction it broke my heart because I can relate to both em, sebatian and rem

@astroscientist5349

4 жыл бұрын

@@ginevrasmeriglio4241 I know I watched that interview Remington - not in that one just genera l- say it too that's the reason why I thought about Sebastian

As someone who recently turned 15 and has gone through so much physical and mental abuse from my parent, this song is really personal to me. Honestly if I was a character in movie, this would totally be my theme song. So thank you #PalayeRoyale for making this masterpiece

To all my friends listening to this song, the world is a better place with you in it. Dont give up! I wont even though its hard sometimes.

This Song perfectly shows emptiness, loneliness, sadness, it touches my heart

@The-EnderBee

4 жыл бұрын

Agreed

@alarmstation

4 жыл бұрын

Try hurt by nine inch nails, the creep factor of that song is fuckin haunting

@perfectoaragon7769

3 жыл бұрын

I agree completely... and yes. it perfectly expresses the state of this young persons mindfulness and not heartless, just less Heart and more Spirit. Beautifully done. 🤔🎶🎼🎶🕺🏃💥💃💃✊☝🤞🙏😎💞

@underdoggoethe8971

3 жыл бұрын

It touches mine as well.

@humbertolara6660

3 жыл бұрын

@@The-EnderBee ppappppppppñ♧♧

TW: Emotionally Abusive Father mention(just in case): Wow, I literally cried watching this. I just recently started going to therapy and my therapist made me realize that my father really was so emotionally abusive. Almost all of my anxiety and other issues is rooted in how he treated me, my older brother and my mom when I was young. The parents fighting hit so fucking close to home. I have such foggy memories that I can just barely of my parents fighting that still fuck me up. I never wanted to admit that what he did was abuse, even though it clearly was looking back. But I was a kid, and didn’t understand. And my father was emotionally abusive, a narcissist, and manipulative. He lied and said horrible shit about my mother and her side of the family to manipulate me, Even now, I can’t handle people fighting or loud noises because of him. Palaye Royale has been such a help for me and one of my biggest coping mechanisms, especially recently as my mental health has started deciding more. I met you guys last year in Baltimore and you were all so fucking sweet and amazing. So, thank you guys. So much.

@Noor-uo5tf

4 жыл бұрын

Im so proud of you for taking the steps going to therapy and admitting what hurts to you. You’re on the right path, love and there are many that relate to you. Much love, A soldier of The Royal Council

@blublublublublu7532

4 жыл бұрын

this. I've gone through not the same, but a very similar experience to what I understand you have. you aren't alone and now I don't feel so alone either. thank you for sharing your story it means a lot

@rachaelbuggy4837

4 жыл бұрын

Stay strong u are doing the best for you the royale council loves and adores you

@insomniac_rav

4 жыл бұрын

Im here for you. We dont deserve such parents

@matiassanchez7634

4 жыл бұрын

I think it's no often mentioned that one of the worse things about abuse is when the victim can't realise that they're being abused, even if it happens clearly in front of us, sometimes because it's about a person who you got along pretty well and you shared a lot of personal moments. That doesn't justify the fact that they treat you and make you feel like shit (at this point I'm sharing my experience), but you don't do nothing because you love that person in a way. In my case, time made me realise that a lot of my shit was because I was held down by that person, like I wouldn't meet anyone except for him because, according to him, no one was as important as him, therefore there was no point apparently. Now I can assure you by looking back, I actually hated him, but I didn't want to admit it. Now I'm in a much happier place in my life, even though it's hard for me to keep going, but I'm not looking forward to cease any time soon.

I think the most beautiful thing is when someone turns their pain into art or in what they are talented with Instead of suiciding. The inner wound of father abandonment goes deep into the soul.

This song hits me extremely deep from my entire childhood ever since I was born. I didn't really have a loving supporting family.

@crystalwoods65

6 ай бұрын

❤❤hang in there! i hope it gets better for you very soon.

@joaonagato9535

6 ай бұрын

Exactly why i prefer to create my family, full of people i choose to love I hope you already have yours too Brazilian hugs for you ❤🇧🇷 (and sorry for the bad english lol)

this song is so haunting. its not like their usual 'hard guitars, screaming lyrics' this song is hauntingly mellow with very dark undertones in the melody and lyrics edit: for anyone who might take this comment the wrong way, I meant it as it's a good change from what they usually do and its very well executed

@yelena.is.my.savior1547

4 жыл бұрын

I like the screaming and the guitars though this is beautiful aswell

@anarchyalien2279

4 жыл бұрын

I know, it's so different but they did it very well

@AikaKitsune

4 жыл бұрын

I like when bands try to do heavier music.. but the last time I heard a song like this was... Heavy by Linkin Park.

@sarahshields5964

4 жыл бұрын

I loved the melody and it’s amazing

@iremimert4856

4 жыл бұрын

@@AikaKitsune Oh Gosh! Don't speak like that... They have each other and they are brothers. None of them would do such thing. Oww horrifying. Still sad for Chester :(

People who don't know them: "Palaye Royale are satanists" Me: "Ah, yes, they've got songs about gun violence and abuse awareness. Totally satanic." Palaye Royale saves lives. I just wanna reiterate.

@chloethepooh123

4 жыл бұрын

Totally agree, also awesome pfp!! Full metal Alchemist is awesome!

@CmmnWrldDmntn

4 жыл бұрын

@@chloethepooh123 Thanks! Glad you like it.

@SackTheBaggins

4 жыл бұрын

Just found their music today, been binge listing since. I'm so confused. Who the hell thinks they are satanists? Kinda dark, but definitely not satanic.

@CmmnWrldDmntn

4 жыл бұрын

@@SackTheBaggins some people in twitter do. Btw, welcome to the royal council :)

@SackTheBaggins

4 жыл бұрын

@@CmmnWrldDmntn huh, mind boggling they would think that. Thanks for the welcome :)

Песня: О Боже, я хочу умереть Ютуб: предлагает номер горячей линии Я: просто тащусь с этого парня и этой песни)

@user-unlckshmf

Жыл бұрын

Наслаждаться этой песней уже что-то да говорит ✌️

@CineraryFairy

Жыл бұрын

@@user-unlckshmf вы сейчас пытаетесь сказать, что эта песня нравится только суицидникам? Интересно, выходит, что фильмы про маньяков смотрят только маньяки, а нормальные люди предпочитают сопли с сахаром? Ай, как однобоко. П.с Ромео и Джульетта - тоже про суицид, если что. Но нравится абсолютно всем

@user-ng2fu7ju7q

Жыл бұрын

@@CineraryFairy Ромео и Джульетта была всегда была про любовь,про какой там суицид....по такой логике-в любом фильме чел умирает от собственной руки-фильм про суицид...браво!

@annadoranni_gamedev

Жыл бұрын

Реальность: номера горячих линий не работают и только для вида (по крайней мере в моей постсовковой стране)

@user-ng2fu7ju7q

Жыл бұрын

@cypherpunk 01 без негатива,но я даже не понял на какой вопрос ответил неизвестный мне шизоид

These guys are so underrated!!! My daughter introduced them to me. Awesome band!

"Hey dad would you show up for me now, just to bury your little boy in the ground"

@breepietkiewicz3274

4 жыл бұрын

Lindsey Cline that line hits so hard

@alexistackman7590

4 жыл бұрын

It really does hit hard...

@vadim_voron

4 жыл бұрын

It is sad to know how much families destroys future lives of their children even not noticing it. I had the same situation and I know what is like to be on a place of this litlle boy (1:51). You just sitting there, hearing angry screams, trying to hold on and eventually becoming absolutely indifferent to everything and everyone around you.

@stainjamin

4 жыл бұрын

@@vadim_voron yea that part made me panic a bit because i thought it was coming from irl

@offkeyanthem173

4 жыл бұрын

that line always fucking hurts

3:09 The dude did a "death" gesture with his drumstick... The tiny details

@evs6749

3 жыл бұрын

wow

@victoriapereira_zzz

3 жыл бұрын

yes, I also noticed and found their attention to that incredible

@Xx_Karmen_xX

3 жыл бұрын

Oh, yeah, I saw that. I just didn't pay attention to it. 😂

@connordechart

3 жыл бұрын

that was badass af idk why tho

@alex-jo8bc

3 жыл бұрын

he aslo did it two more times afterwarsd

This song should've been more viral it truly opens peoples minds to be kind to everyone no matter what 😞

это очень хорошо..нет... ЭТО ИДЕАЛЬНО! Сама музыкальная композиция очень хороша я уж не говоря про посыл и смысл. Она пробивает до мурашек сколько бы раз это не слушал. Видно что песня действительно сделана с душой.

@nukotalemontree

5 ай бұрын

Это ты еще Татьяну Буланову не слушал

*Smashing Pumpkins:* "Farewell and Goodnight" *My Chemical Romance:* "So long and Goodnight" *Palaye Royale:* "So long, farewell" MCR was heavily inspired by Smashing Pumpkins. Palaye Royale was heavily inspired by MCR. I'm not saying this is an intentional reference, but the pattern is beautiful.

@asofiasantamaria4723

4 жыл бұрын

I would like to give I a like, But I'm scared of breaking that perfect 200

@WatchMeSayStuff

4 жыл бұрын

A lot of their earlier music is like a mashup of MCR and Buckcherry but they're starting to deviate into a more unique sound and I love it.

@charlotteg4017

4 жыл бұрын

I want to like this comment but it has 599 likes xD

@extendoduck

4 жыл бұрын

So long, farewell... AUF WIEDERSEHEN GOODBYEEEE

@brooklynnlaurick1859

4 жыл бұрын

@@extendoduck LMAO STOP I KEEP THINKING THE SAME THING

this song hits way too close to home. while i’m not abused, i’m still depressed as shit. i’m sorry Remington had to go through all that.

@zsaz4453

4 жыл бұрын

We all do somehow i guess. " to lazy for a suicide' thats my last 10 years. And i have some pills on my table right now ...No joke. And i dont get even high anymore. Wasted.

@Webster020

4 жыл бұрын

I used to get hit a lot by my father, and since he didn’t have a job, he was able to always do it when my mother wasn’t home, and therefore get away with it, (I’m an only child). I didn’t tell anyone until I was 14, because he told me, that it wasn’t abuse but instead just discipline and that it was my own fault for being disobedient. I also got bullied a lot by this group of girls in school, who claimed that they were just my friends, even though they called me names, locked me into a locker and told everyone else lies about me, when I told my father, he said that I was just a coward for not standing up for myself. When I finally told everything to a psychiatrist after a long battle with anorexia, she confronted my parents. My father said that I was just a filthy liar, and nearly no one believed me after that. So this song also hits right at home with me.

@carmen_495

4 жыл бұрын

@@Webster020 🤗🤗

@zsaz4453

4 жыл бұрын

storys like that, from alot if people i know, and mine at the top...god gives a fuck or Nietzsche us right idk idk.imo.

@zsaz4453

4 жыл бұрын

@Tercy Dabady i did alot bad shit i guess i deserve it

This song hits every box how I often feel. It is also a certified banger that goes on repeat.

This song really does keep me going. It hits on a lot of things in my life that I feel have shaped me into this person I hate. If I could restart, I would in a heartbeat.

I think the most haunting lyric is “I’m sorry mom I’ve got to go” I can’t tell you how many ‘notes’ I wrote starting like that as a teenager

remington, this is a masterpiece. as someone who has gone through a similar experience, i thank you so much for making a song about it, it feels like im less alone with this. so glad that you were able to make it through to today

Few months ago i tried so hard to run away from my demons. But thanks to this song. They hugged me again. 🥀

No matter how much my life changes, I'll always end up here.

im so sorry you were treated the way you were when you were younger, we can’t change the past but you’re changing the future- some people take their abuse and turn into bad people that hurt others. you’re such a unique individual, and chose to stay true to yourself which in turn inspired so many others in the process. this song is so raw and emotional and i’m sure it hit so personally with many members of the royal council. by simply being yourself, you’ve helped so many helpless people including myself through the same struggle. i’m so, so proud of you for sticking to being yourself and even prouder that you were strong enough to still be here with us today. you’re a gift to the world, remington. please never forget that because we royal council will always be here to support who you are.

Did anyone else notice the name of the field that he is digging his grave in is called "soldier field"? They call their fans soldiers of the royal council. "I dug this grave I call my home." WE are his home.😭

@mfburrito

2 жыл бұрын

this is such a cute thing. i love them too much.

@ninthoperamusic1431

2 жыл бұрын

Omg

@LauraRushing

4 ай бұрын

😤

@user-ee5py4tu1i

4 ай бұрын

Wow this is very interesting. Hello from Russia, I love you all

I’m just lonely and depressed so I relate to this.

"Too lazy for a suicide,passing days hoping to die"this.

@Uchiha...Itachi

2 жыл бұрын

Little jumbled but same thing

As someone who's still struggling with childhood trauma, this hits me right in the core. I feel the lyrics and I feel for Remington. But also for Sebastian and Emerson. Don't really know what to say, but I feel this song and it's definitely one of my favourites now. Thanks to this band for being so open and honest through their music.

@MidnightAngel2.o

4 жыл бұрын

Yes indeed. Its one of my favorites as well.

@idontevenknowwhatishouldfu8965

4 жыл бұрын

Yes me too

@remingtonsvampire9400

4 жыл бұрын

I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, I know how hard that is!! But believe me, you are such a strong person and you deserve the best in life! ❤

I LOVE YOU MY PIRATE, VAMPIRE, AND GENTLEMAN

"the only home i know is my bed" nailed it for me right there.

I have BPD this hits so hard (ha of course it would) but in my episodes when I’m trying to cope, before (undeading myself) how I’d miss all their music

If you've been this low before, you know this song hits different and swings to your gut like a baseball bat. I love it.

@fariza01

4 жыл бұрын

I feel you

@amberthacker3922

4 жыл бұрын

Yep sure does. Been there many times

@offtopic6364

4 жыл бұрын

It really does

@strawberryfairydust6932

4 жыл бұрын

This song is hitting me like a freight train I relate too hard to this and it’s kind of scary.

@syls5692

4 жыл бұрын

Strawberry Fairydust it brings back memories I wish to forget. But I’m glad it does cause if I forget them I might repeat them.

Literally the best band in the world .X

@stonedinvalhalla

4 жыл бұрын

Royalcouncil. trash.x wrong

@Ismail33313

4 жыл бұрын

Not the best but still cool

@greekrockwell

4 жыл бұрын

twenty one pilots

@giveitup0996

4 жыл бұрын

@@greekrockwell They are a lot closer

at 1:50 I legit paused the video so fast, and my head _jerked_ toward my door because I thought it was my parents' voices...

That tune in the end made me cry.

This song is the only ad I haven’t ever skipped it’s such a good song

@dwellingdreams3866

4 жыл бұрын

Reagan Gaynor right I was listening to some punk rock and this ad poped up I immediately went to the song very catchy gonna buy every album now great music thank you KZread

@heini9008

4 жыл бұрын

Same

@OhCapitainIAmSinking

4 жыл бұрын

This song was an ad, before I watched The Ghost Inside's "Aftermath" video.

@FrankIerosAddamsApple

4 жыл бұрын

When I got this as an add I literally almost cried,I love this song

@jamie2167

4 жыл бұрын

This was an ad??? Damn KZread Australia got some catching up to do

It's 5:46am for me now, the sing premieres at 6am - the things I do for love

@tnsmara9982

4 жыл бұрын

Same here!

@Moon-zp2on

4 жыл бұрын

same but I actually woke up because of my cat and then opened youtube... couldn’t be happier of this coincidence

It's amazing when you are clicking on random videos and land on one that hits deep af. Needed this.

2:14 I think about this line every once in awhile and it hits me hard every time, would he even come to my funeral, he’s been gone so long I’m sure he already forgot I exist

I can already tell that this is going to wreck me Update: IT WRECKED ME

@check_karma8549

4 жыл бұрын

River Royale you okay?

@GonkVR

4 жыл бұрын

it’s been like a day chill

@nickyhoward

4 жыл бұрын

It wrecked me too 😭

@xxbittertwink

4 жыл бұрын

I'm dead as fuck! This is a big mood 😂

@overseasonedlamb5604

4 жыл бұрын

River Royale yungblud. And hopefully, you’re ok now

A piece of advice, if you can’t give a good future to your kids.. DON’T make them!

@whofarhan

3 жыл бұрын

i think following antinatalism is better

@lizsmith1796

3 жыл бұрын

I so can relate....my parents should have be the last 2 people on earth to ever have kids!!!! our father didn't want my sister or myself but wanted his son, our mother married my molester, then had my brother quit high school so he can financially support her, she allowed my underage sister to get married to a man that divorced her and left her nothing but the clothes on her back and their son!!!!

@lennytheghost4484

3 жыл бұрын

Sometimes parents wanna give a good future to them but society fucks them up and things out of their control

@mars63535

3 жыл бұрын

Wish my parents would have taken this advice

@sammm5463

3 жыл бұрын

@@lizsmith1796 bro wtf

Это было классно. Это идеально это даже не описать словами .

If I die today My whole life is summed up in this song But the biggest lie is that they say you are not alone. but We are all alone! Maybe some people are lucky that this feeling is not very clear to them

"Daydreaming of my funeral, like who would show, bet no one would go." this line hit me very hard cause this is what I would do every night before bed while I was extremely depressed while I also made plans on what would be the quickest way to go out. *Edit* I want the people who see this comment to know that it does get better. Life may fluctuate between good and bad but please hang on to the good memories and the reassurance that the good will come back. 2020 is a pain in the ass but hey, you made it this far so why not keep going. tell 2020 (or whatever you are facing) that it won't break you. You are strong and you are worth fighting for. Please believe me.

@kimifydesigns

3 жыл бұрын

Glad you are doing well. STAY STRONG! This world deserves you!

@stefanigirl7774

3 жыл бұрын

@@kimifydesigns Thank you so much for that! You have no idea how much that means to me. I am glad that you are in this world too and I hope you know you are appreciated. Stay strong friend.❤

@tekato6694

2 жыл бұрын

For this motivation you deserve to be in a better world than this. Keep it up :)

@stefanigirl7774

2 жыл бұрын

@@tekato6694 Thank you so much!! This means the world to me! Seriously. I hope life is treating you well and I hope you are staying strong!

@courtneymartinez7375

2 жыл бұрын

in freshman year of college my boyfriend text dumped me and blocked me on everything after I had known him since freshman year of high school and with him knowing he was my only support system I had. I was already somewhat depressed when he dumped me and afterwards it got like 40 times worse. i had never self harmed before this but I started doing it and even took like 20 ibuprofen tablets right before work after seeing him for the first and last time after the break up. my biggest thought I had at this time was knowing if I killed myself my body wouldn't be found until it started to smell because no one ever cared enough to talk to me, not even my roommate who's boyfriend and been verbally abusive to me for a while with her full knowledge. depression really sucks huh?

Anyone else completely freeze when the parents start yelling at each other? Just waiting for it to be over or escalate, you never know which it'll be...

@abigailschmieg9479

3 жыл бұрын

Same, I hate conflict and fighting. It made me uncomfortable

Never really listened to this band before till last year… he is very beautiful singer on how he views his life . So ppl do not really know till they see it for themselves or lived it. Please pray for the ones that don’t have anyone ❤️

It still hits home

i'm here before the premiere, (listening to floral & fading) with popcorn, tissues and dr pepper. i will edit after watching :-) edit: i'm sobbing so much i couldn't even move to get the tissues. i dont know what to say. this was amazing but also im crying so much

Remington is so incredibly beautiful that it’s hard to even think he’s real. But I’ve seen them in concert and I can confirm they’re all very real. I really related to this song... I think it’s the most heartbreaking song I’ve ever heard and I’m sorry to anyone going through tough times. ❤️

It's scary how much I can relate for this song, I'm trying to fight with my dark thoughts, but I don't know how to cope with it

I used to listen to this song when I was at my lowest. Now I came back here with new thoughts and new point of view on my life :)

@emooreo2919

2 ай бұрын

Congrats!

Seeing the evolution of this band is truly incredible. I'm so sorry u had to experience the trauma, but the way u express it is a damn masterpiece. This hit home

this hit real close to home. my dad was never verbally or physically abusive so I thought I had a good childhood until my parents divorced a few years ago and I realized how he is so manipulative and kinda brainwashed me when I was younger to be anxious, look down on people, and be homophobic. Kinda had to get to a breaking point and go to therapy before those things were fixed, specifically the anxiety one because I was always terrified of travelling and leaving home. thanks Remington, you truly mean the world to all of us❤️

@AikaKitsune

4 жыл бұрын

My parents divorced when I was 4. I feel u

@pinkeygurl

4 жыл бұрын

I didn't understand there were other types of abuse than physical until I was about 7 and had already endured a few years of mental/emotional abuse from my dad. When I was 22 or 23 I really started digging into my mental state and unearthed a bunch of side effects from dealing with that for a decade and a half. I still haven't spoken to a therapist but I have had some insane realizations. I totally understand looking back on what you think is a normal, even pretty good, childhood just to finally realize how fucked up you are and why.

@jinxrogue742

4 жыл бұрын

I get not realizing how manipulative your dad was

This is a sad happy song.. love it

First listen end of 2023, loved this song at first seconds, don't know how come I had never heard this song before ❤

this hits me. as a severely closeted trans guy, hearing my parents insult me because of my wardrobe choices and my short hair, coupled with so many other issues in my life, i feel this. These lyrics are my exact thoughts "Too lazy for a suicide, I just watch the days pass hoping to die" "Daydreaming of my funeral. Like who would show bet no one would go" "The only home I know is my bed"

@blublublublublu7532

4 жыл бұрын

hello. i too am a trans boy, out but supremely fucked up in many ways, i don't know you but i love you and you aren't alone

@JaSoNfAn222

4 жыл бұрын

Don't worry about peoples views . You know who you are and it's up to you to show that to the world . People will always love you , and if people can't love you for you , who needs them . You will find your tribe and the people who really care . Best of luck with your Transition and any other issues your having . I don't know you but I Care . Be safe and let yourself be loved ♥️♥️♥️

@bearishhcreations802

4 жыл бұрын

Giuliana Trotta I UNDERSTAND AND I LOVE U

@flxlvr9210

4 жыл бұрын

I'm in the same situation :(

@georgia5214

4 жыл бұрын

you’re going to be ok and there’s so many people who love you and will accept you for you are. keep pushing through ❤️❤️❤️❤️

i’m not crying, i’m not crying i- i won’t say i have a similar experience but i do understand the feelings of rejection when your parents fight and you have no reason to think it’s not your fault. and it never has been our fault. i mean, not the kid’s fault. i can understand some of the things in here but i hate knowing that you’ve been through all that shit, but hey, you survived. so everyone can. sending emo love to everyone > 🖤

@ryleedun

4 жыл бұрын

Thank you for the emo love🖤

@noacoutellier7474

4 жыл бұрын

Rylee Dun you’re welcome!

@danivalonga5233

4 жыл бұрын

hey, thanks ❤️

This song has been out for three years?! That’s insane that it’s just now being recommend to everyone.

Funny how this is a universal feeling, in this moment we are not alone my virtual friends across the world. We are united by this song and our sadness. I wish I could do something more than wish you well. With love anonymous.

I love how this comment section is becoming a therapy session. I spread a lot of love for you guys, stay safe loves and remember that the Royal Council is there for you all.🖤🖤🖤

@Maria_D_

4 жыл бұрын

Royal Council?

@ginevrasmeriglio4241

4 жыл бұрын

Maria D always here for you honey

@spencer9580

4 жыл бұрын

@@Maria_D_ what fans of Palaye are called

@Maria_D_

4 жыл бұрын

@@spencer9580 oh cool

@Maria_D_

4 жыл бұрын

@@ginevrasmeriglio4241 thanks

"Look at him, he's a coward" Ohh boy, that one hit different. *PS: Although those words hit different, he was right. I was a coward. Without him, I wouldn't be the man I am today and I'm glad he is the way he is.*

@celestedichiaro4033

4 жыл бұрын

A "coward" boy who grew up He didn't take his life He didn't put other people down He created in a world of destruction He inspired those who lost hope He gave people a reason to smile He gave people a reason to laugh He gave people love and hope when they were alone He trusted people He helped make sure we don't leave That "coward" is no coward, he's a savior. He saved me at least. I wish I could thank him.

@gmikaleesangmibbvip

4 жыл бұрын

I do not get how a father can say this to his son.... He is a just a kid.... men can cry... and they should show their emotions... not just women....

@noemicrack

4 жыл бұрын

facts💀

@petikagrant4401

4 жыл бұрын

Fr mannn

@unluckywarriors75

4 жыл бұрын

My dad’s a lot like that to.. but Remi is so strong for making it through. It’s hard.

He just letting others know it's not just them that feels the fear of being alone. We all have this fear. It's pain. It's sad. It's anger. Why not let it be known. It is seen by the one above... so we ain't alone unless you live humanly... thoughts... Creator created these moments to feel alive. ❤❤❤

This is great song that finally feels right, existing but not living just watching everyday go by, nothing and nobody caring about you.

To anyone who relates to this song hard... I’m sorry. Free virtual mom hugs. Edited to add: Holy crap!! Thank you for all the likes!!! Free hugs for all! 🫂🫂🫂🫂

@WatchingCr33py

3 жыл бұрын

hug accepted

@shavawnirvine5419

3 жыл бұрын

Fucking hell, this almost made me burst out crying. This was the song I heard by them, and I was in such a horrible place. It just perfectly described my depression and feelings of rejection/isolation. So many of their other songs just describe depression so well, and so beautifully. I immediately fell in love, obsessed, and this song plus the rest of theirs severely helped me get through it.. and start to regain strength. 💕

@gelflingmama

3 жыл бұрын

@@shavawnirvine5419 art can be amazing therapy. I write when I’m struggling. It really helps. Sorry you were in such a rough spot, hope things are better now. Extra virtual mom hug for you.

@francescasambroia2045

3 жыл бұрын

when you said "MOM hugs", im crying AAAAAA thank you

@meredithgrubb7027

3 жыл бұрын

Thanku

im never gona get tired of remington in that dress

This whole video is a pure piece of art

I’m so sorry that you all feel this song a depth most others won’t be able to understand. You’re all loved. And to the artist: AMAZING JOB!!! 🙌🤘🙌

I feel this way on a personal level, my parents would scream and scream at eachother while I was crying and when I self harmed, my mom yelled at me saying I dont have anything to be sad about.

@MakotoKinoSailorJupiter2020

4 жыл бұрын

My dad shrugged off my depression and told me he didn’t have time to be depressed.

@thatrandomidiot1828

4 жыл бұрын

Same and when I actually got help from a school program thing, my therapist would come visit me and my mom would refuse to leave us alone and insisted that 'I was fine' and 'is this the last time?'

@skull9982

4 жыл бұрын

My mom would say the same thing to me aswell

@joshuamendoza1148

4 жыл бұрын

Listen to "Older" from Sasha Sloan

@idontevenknowwhatishouldfu8965

4 жыл бұрын

My parents did that too my mom drunk as hell my dad drunk too but not that much they scream at each other and I'm in the next corner thinking that I'm the problem

The way he stared at the mirror. That hit me. I started to cry.

too relatable tonight

This makes me remember all the shit I've been through and I'm still going through... Emotional Abuse is not fun kids. I hope y'all get better chances than I got. I'm still making the best of it I possibly can, but y'all please don't listen when your "Family" tells you to not say something because "It's a family thing other people don't have to know", that meat that there's a high chance other people ABSOLUTELY HAVE to know. Stay safe out there people. Free Parent Figure (as I've been told I'm a good one which is weird but okay) virtual hugs for y'all.

When instagram's ads have taste in music...

@theirishpotato6588

4 жыл бұрын

*ads*

@babyghost4990

4 жыл бұрын

@@theirishpotato6588 JAcKSePtIcEYe?

@theirishpotato6588

4 жыл бұрын

@@babyghost4990 nO

@whilimtaff

4 жыл бұрын

The Irish Potato 🥔 y then

@arantzamonge

4 жыл бұрын

fr

"Daydreaming about my funeral" Damn this one right in the feels

That's the song... I finally found the perfect song for my last days..

@PalayeRoyale

2 жыл бұрын

You are wonderful and loved.

@kyrak.4143

2 жыл бұрын

Are you OK?

the hotlines at the end broke my heart. that hit such a spot and i don't know why

@riah999

3 жыл бұрын

I feel the same way. Seeing the child abuse hotline number made me so sad.

@jw_nightshade

3 жыл бұрын

Because they care about their fans-

@Zapidalacz

3 жыл бұрын

just alone the fact they have to exist makes me tearful

I'm going to cry with this, less than one minute left Edit: I listened the song when it came out, I cried, now with the video, I can't stop crying

"To lazy for suicide" is how I feel, amazing song it reminds me that I am not the only one who feels this way ❤❤❤

This song has helped me a lot lately, I have been stuck in my head so much thinking about how I grew up in a home that was not a safe place. It made me realize that I used so much to help me forget everything feeling like I was alone watching my own life pass by me. It gave me the push I needed to get back up and try again because I am not alone going through this. Thank you for helping me be here today , thank you for saving me so I may help others with this

Remington's voice captures this so perfectly. It's raw, and intense, it feels like someone is describing the inside of my mind.

@tintinelliot

4 жыл бұрын

you put it into words!!! yes!

These boys saved my life. This song has been on repeat since it came out for me. I haven’t listened to any other music, only this song. I found out about these boys in July 2017. I was at such a low point in my life, I was going to end it. I was prepared and I was playing music loudly. It was on a Spotify radio and Too Many People came on. I stopped and listened. I cried and asked myself why I was doing this. Palaye Royale inspired me to not do it. I was self harming nearly everyday and it took me a while but in September that year I stopped for good. I haven’t self harmed now in 2 years and 6 months. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I was so close to meeting the boys when I was on a exchange trip to Madrid two days ago. These boys stopped me from doing what i now consider the unimaginable. This song is so beautiful and these lyrics hit close to home but they remind me of what I’ve overcome to be as happy as I am today. I love you boys with all my heart. My parents are grateful to you as well. They constantly tell me that they don’t know what changed in that July but they say you saved me and I agree with them. I owe you boys my life. I can’t believe I’m about to turn 18 in August when i never though I’d reach 16 let alone 17. I have your posters on my walls and your music in my heart. I love you boys and I can’t wait to meet you in the future to thank you in person and give you all hugs. I am truly grateful to you. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I am about to go to uni to start my dream career. You saved me and I love you xx

@PalayeRoyale

4 жыл бұрын

Kathrin Dick WOW. Thank you for your words and we apologize about not being able to get to play in Madrid for you and the wonderful Spanish fans due to coronavirus. We promise we will make the show extra special in September. You have a family with us and you are loved. x

@bn353

4 жыл бұрын

you're lucky💘hope the best for all of us🙏🏻

@kathrindick5237

4 жыл бұрын

Alex Lol Palaye Royale are amazing, I love them so much! Sending love

@parttime_kpopstan8061

3 жыл бұрын

This made me tear up, I'm so glad you're still here

@kathrindick5237

3 жыл бұрын

Rain Glow I didn’t mean to make you tear up! I’m so happy honestly. I’m glad I’m still here too, much love back bubba💗

I started crying because this song describes my life from the first to the last word

This song makes me happy "I'm sorry mom I got to go" hits hard when you don't have a mom anymore

I actually discovered Palaye Royale just yesterday, listened to one or two songs and today I watched some performances of Teenagers. But after this one, I think I absolutely fell for them. Awesome lyrics, awesome video, awesome sound, I felt that. Keep going, you're amazing!

@wildmoonchild8210

4 жыл бұрын

welcome to the royal council 💕

@emerson1471

4 жыл бұрын

Welcome!! :D

@sylvielam9565

4 жыл бұрын

I've been listening to Palaye Royale for almost two years now but they still and always surprise me💙

@rxwrxd409

4 жыл бұрын

Ive followed them on instagram for a while, but never listened to any of their music until today. Im like in love with their music now-

@jennbxxg

4 жыл бұрын

I just discovered the band and I can't stop crying because of this song.