Our Stillbirth Story.

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Two weeks after losing our daughter, I'm ready to share a little bit of what happened and where we're headed. Thank you all for your love and support. We love you all so much.
Have you seen our last video?
• FIRST PREGNANCY UPDATE...
Saying goodbye to Brynn...
• In Memory of Our Littl...
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  • @katiechristian1001
    @katiechristian10014 жыл бұрын

    Who’s here watching after the twins were born? I knew god would bless Rachelle and Justin with more angels. They are such a beautiful family.

  • @Robbyswifey009

    @Robbyswifey009

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me!!! It's crazy to think thats the same day I went into labor..... And I found their video's while sitting in the same hospital that she delivered Brynn in.....

  • @andreapoole4778

    @andreapoole4778

    4 жыл бұрын

    Katie Christian me too! So happy for them!

  • @chrissybarton549

    @chrissybarton549

    4 жыл бұрын

    i am and bless this beautiful family i hope the best for them

  • @verbrugghezelda3808

    @verbrugghezelda3808

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me... sometimes I can't believe how far they've come xx

  • @lucymurphy1216

    @lucymurphy1216

    4 жыл бұрын

    Wait what happened? I just found this Chanel

  • @crystaljackson6276
    @crystaljackson62767 жыл бұрын

    something tells me she’s gonna have twins next. idk why, but God is gonna bless her so much.

  • @emradical4218

    @emradical4218

    7 жыл бұрын

    Crystal Jackson that would be a beautiful gift

  • @saraitrinko8442

    @saraitrinko8442

    7 жыл бұрын

    I'm so beyond sorry for everything you have been through I can't imagine it but I still feel so much compassion and empathy for you. I hope you are doing as well as you possibly can and I hope you are able to find peace and grow your family in the future

  • @courtney.22

    @courtney.22

    7 жыл бұрын

    Crystal Jackson Not a gift from God, but from Brynn 💜

  • @brooklyntompkins19

    @brooklyntompkins19

    7 жыл бұрын

    A good family friend of mine had gone through fertility with her husband and had 3 miscarriages and then was blessed with a healthy set of boy-girl twins!!

  • @RoyaltyBabe90

    @RoyaltyBabe90

    6 жыл бұрын

    Courtney Courteau uh. No. It would be from God love.

  • @weloveyou1234
    @weloveyou12344 жыл бұрын

    I wish i could tell you then, whats happening now! Beautiful Emma And your darling twin boys! You made it through and youre stronger than ever now!

  • @elizabethkoobs1060

    @elizabethkoobs1060

    2 жыл бұрын

    God is good!!!

  • @madyalvarez428
    @madyalvarez4282 жыл бұрын

    I’m watching this after she just had her fifth baby and I’m so happy for them 🥺💕

  • @Marissuh7
    @Marissuh72 жыл бұрын

    Who’s here after she found out she was pregnant naturally?! 🥰 God is so good!! It’s insane how far this family has come and more blessings to come! ❤️

  • @heidiholom8086

    @heidiholom8086

    2 жыл бұрын

    Me!!! I cried so hard when I saw the announcement video before I even watched it

  • @perfectpikelet1444

    @perfectpikelet1444

    2 жыл бұрын

    And precious wee Faye is here ❤️🙏❤️

  • @kathikamholz2100

    @kathikamholz2100

    Жыл бұрын

    Me

  • @Kenzieistired99
    @Kenzieistired994 жыл бұрын

    If only you knew what the future holds ❤️❤️❤️

  • @lss74

    @lss74

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yep 3 healthy kids ♥️❤♥️❤

  • @hirasyed9185

    @hirasyed9185

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@lss74 n a natural pregnancy now what a blessing

  • @AshleyLorenaAdkins
    @AshleyLorenaAdkins7 жыл бұрын

    I am crying with you. Thank you for being so raw and open. Brynn IS such a beautiful baby, and is blessed to have you and Justin as her parents! ❤️sending so much love to you guys!!!!

  • @lindafuentes9178

    @lindafuentes9178

    6 жыл бұрын

    Ashley Adkins, RN. that right

  • @christined8976
    @christined89764 жыл бұрын

    watching this after watching you learning you're having twins, my heart is bursting with joy for you both, I have watched you since this video and cannot wait to see Emma be a big sister to two little babies. God has truly blessed you even if it didn't seem like it during this awful time xx

  • @AmbyJeans

    @AmbyJeans

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same I just came from that video!

  • @Sunshine-kn6or

    @Sunshine-kn6or

    4 жыл бұрын

    Christine D I just posted the same thing!!! Woo Hoo

  • @sarakhan6479

    @sarakhan6479

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @E.Harris

    @E.Harris

    4 жыл бұрын

    Amen

  • @rosemariemckinley7326
    @rosemariemckinley73264 жыл бұрын

    12-25-92 my twin daughters were born sleeping. Stacey and Stella. Much love sweetie.

  • @TheSnyderWeb
    @TheSnyderWeb7 жыл бұрын

    There is someone special who is living a happy life up in heaven and waiting for the day, years from now, when she will be able to say "Welcome home, mommy".

  • @jordantoomey9525

    @jordantoomey9525

    4 жыл бұрын

    actressbrookesingleton well this made me cry harder than I expected

  • @ellieanneauthor

    @ellieanneauthor

    4 жыл бұрын

    My eyes filled up with tears reading this ❤️

  • @carinabauerdorf290

    @carinabauerdorf290

    3 жыл бұрын

    😭😭😍

  • @crystalp1019
    @crystalp10197 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry that you have had to experience such loss. I too lost babies at 23 weeks and am also an angel momma. Having to leave the hospital and leave your baby behind is one of the worst things in the world. Then having to arrange a funeral. Healing if you can even call it that takes a long long time. My angels were born on 11/26/15. Some days it stings as much as the day it happened. You somehow find a way to continue as impossible as it may sound. Take time to take care of yourself and your husband. Take time to be in your feelings. Cry when needed. And do not let anyone rush your grieving. Thinking of you and your family.

  • @yvonnebannon7623

    @yvonnebannon7623

    7 жыл бұрын

    So very sorry. God bless you both. RIP lil baby.

  • @Melinaofficial
    @Melinaofficial7 жыл бұрын

    I live in Canada, and we are lucky enough that autopsies and any medical care are covered. And it saddens me so much to see parents like you and your husband go through something so painful and sad, and not even have the chance to try and find out what happened through an autopsy without having to spend so much money. It is unthinkable for me, it just does not add up. I cannot even imagine what you both are going through, and I just want to send a little love to you from where I am. I really hope you both are granted with another little one soon enough that will ease your hearts, and your sweet Brynn will be watching over her, like she is already watching over you two, I truly believe that. xxxx

  • @Melinaofficial

    @Melinaofficial

    7 жыл бұрын

    PS: I wrote a song that you can find on iTunes/Apple Music/Spotify titled "Hope"... if it can help you, that would mean the world to me. Here is the link: itunes.apple.com/ca/album/ml-ep/id1207501414?l=fr

  • @GtribeChronicles
    @GtribeChronicles7 жыл бұрын

    my heart breaks for you. I experienced a stillbirth with our first daughter also. I was 36 weeks pregnant. Nothing compares to that pain. Going out and trying to find your new normal is so difficult, it feels like at every turn there is a reminder. Give yourself grace, and take it slow. There is no "normal" way to grieve. We lost our daughter 7 years ago. Since then we have had 3 healthy pregnancy, the first 2 are boys and the most recent was another daughter who was actually born on March 7th, the 7th year anniversary of loosing our firstborn daughter. Don't loose hope. praying for you guys!

  • @luisablanca990

    @luisablanca990

    7 жыл бұрын

    Hannah Bishop that's incredible, that your daughter was born on your first daughters 7th year anniversary, she was sending you a sign from above x❤️❤️

  • @geetee1100

    @geetee1100

    5 жыл бұрын

    Sad too

  • @aspiringfawn
    @aspiringfawn7 жыл бұрын

    No need to apologize for getting emotional. I can't even fathom how difficult this situation must be. I'm at a loss for words and am crying with you. 😔

  • @TimandCeleste
    @TimandCeleste7 жыл бұрын

    I couldn't help but cry with you while watching this.. Your strength is so admirable. I just wish I could reach through the screen to give you the biggest hug 💖 We've been thinking of you both, as well as your beautiful Brynn, daily. Just so sorry you've had to endure such a devastating loss.. Sending all our love & support, always xxx

  • @bethlouden971
    @bethlouden9713 жыл бұрын

    I found your channel several years ago after the loss of my granddaughter. I'm still a loyal viewer and its amazing to see how far you've come. I just wanted to go back and watch this again.

  • @tiffanylittle8572
    @tiffanylittle85727 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm also a fellow angel mommy. Our stories are very similar. Unless they have been through it, no one truly understands that moment when you are pushing out your child and you're having this internal battle with yourself because part of you is so excited to "meet" your child but the other part of you knows that when they are born it's all over...and you're not ready for it to be over. :(. I think my milk coming in was the worst reminder for me...then my 6 week postpartum check up bc all the other women had babies or pregnant bellies...I tried to just focus on that rainbow. Shopping helped me. I would buy things for our rainbow baby. I just kept praying. I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this now. I remember feeling so frustrated and hopeless...I felt like it was never going to happen for me (and really mad that I had to start all over again bc I was already half way thru my pregnancy). I can tell you tho, as soon as you get your miracle and they put her in your arms...joy returns. My rainbow (Knox) is 17 months old. I stumbled across your vlog tonight on accident but I'm glad I did. Keep your faith...your rainbow is coming :)

  • @alexandraboky4916

    @alexandraboky4916

    7 жыл бұрын

    Tiffany Little your story truly touched me. Congratulations on your rainbow. May your child bring you all the happiness in the world. I cannot even wrap my mind around the pain you must have gone through but know that my heart goes out to you. Xox

  • @Emily-yy3cl

    @Emily-yy3cl

    7 жыл бұрын

    Tiffany Little no

  • @tiffanylittle8572

    @tiffanylittle8572

    7 жыл бұрын

    Alexandra Boky thank you

  • @matthewrodriguez2798

    @matthewrodriguez2798

    7 жыл бұрын

    Tiffany Little that was so beautiful

  • @elizabethkoobs1060

    @elizabethkoobs1060

    2 жыл бұрын

    Bless you for sharing this, Tiffany Little. I'm so glad you got your rainbow baby!🌈👶💙

  • @lss74
    @lss744 жыл бұрын

    It's April 2020 and they have a toddler Emma and newborn twin boys. Bless them all xxx

  • @feliciaboggs6120
    @feliciaboggs61205 жыл бұрын

    Don’t you dare apologize for being upset when you talk about your lost babygirl. One day, you’ll all be together again. You’re so strong ❤️

  • @sierrabussell8444
    @sierrabussell84445 жыл бұрын

    Watching this video breaks my heart all over again. I’m so glad that Emma is here. Seeing the light come back into your eyes with Emma has been nothing short of amazing. You guys deserve Emma so much. I love your family so much. Can’t wait to watch sweet Emma Brynn Grace grow up. I know she’ll grow up loving and knowing who her big sister Brynn is. ❤️

  • @Sophie-mb9rl
    @Sophie-mb9rl3 жыл бұрын

    Watching you here and watching your most recent videos you have come so far! Grief isn’t something that you can get over instantly. I’ve never been in your position and I couldn’t imagine the pain you all went through. I’m proud of how far you and Justin have come, 4 years later with 3 children and you both are literally the light in their eyes. They are so happy! You’re the best parents. Pain changes people, time doesn’t heal it just helps you to deal with pain. Brynn has two amazing parents. She would be so proud of you. Happy belated birthday Brynn x

  • @saruhhbear
    @saruhhbear4 жыл бұрын

    This video has been popping up in my suggestions for awhile and I've been avoiding it because I recently had a miscarriage in March and I worried it would be upsetting for me. But I'm glad I watched it. It's helpful hearing stories from others. I found out my baby had no heartbeat at an outside ultrasound center as well, at 19 weeks. I wanted to deliver the baby, but based on my situation I was advised to have a D&E which was done at 20 weeks. The miscarriage was the hardest thing I have ever been through and turned my world upside-down, but with time it has gotten better. I know I'm late on watching your video, but thanks for sharing your story! It's such a taboo and un-talked about topic, and more people need to share their experiences because it's no fun feeling so alone in the situation. Also, congrats on twins! ❤️

  • @imemily3020
    @imemily30205 жыл бұрын

    You are so strong for making this video. I’ve had 3, and 3 live births, all boys, and I’m currently nursing my 5 month old baby son who turned 5 months TODAY, at midnight last night basically, which means we where pregnant together with our baby girl, and baby boy! So we already have a special connection in that sense. So I just had to watch this. And because of this video my little baby boy Wiley has been having sleep regression stuff going on, and also I am a single Mom who has done it all alone, even my pregnancy and labor. So it’s JUST ME. And I needed a little “something” to just remind me of how special this baby is to me. So while watching this video and the one before this, I just picked him up and nursed him the whole time, and kissed his hands, to remind him how much I love him, and what a blessing each day I’m able to even nurse my baby is. Thank you honey, for sharing this story with us. And what a brave, AND HARD thing this must have been for you. I’m a brand new subscriber, so I am now trying to go back and see what I have missed, so forgive me, but I am damn PROUD of you. And you and Justin seem absolutely lovely. XO💕 Oh, and I just LOVE your Baby girls name. I’m Emma, too. 🙃🥰😍☺️

  • @mrsw7609
    @mrsw76097 жыл бұрын

    You are so incredibly strong, your daughter must be so proud of her mommy. I'm sure Brynn will handpick a brother or sister to send to you when you're ready to try again x

  • @mandyjackson6894

    @mandyjackson6894

    5 жыл бұрын

    She did. Beautiful baby sister Emma xxx

  • @Libz

    @Libz

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@mandyjackson6894 And now two little brothers, Reuben and Asher 😭😭❤

  • @mandyjackson6894

    @mandyjackson6894

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@Libz yes! 2 beautiful girls and 2 beautiful boys :)

  • @tarantino3849
    @tarantino38497 жыл бұрын

    RIP sweet baby girl. I'm so sorry for your loss. Your strength is so encouraging and sharing your experience is helping so many. Sending so much love.

  • @alleywatson7404
    @alleywatson74045 жыл бұрын

    Just recently found this channel, and watching this had me in tears...I’ve been there mama, I had two stillborn (36wks and 38.5 wks) and still the hardest thing I’ve ever been thru. Always praying for you! 💓

  • @amynmelchacon5727
    @amynmelchacon57277 жыл бұрын

    I just came across your blog, and I too am going through IVF. I could not do a fresh transfer in April because I was over stimuliated, but we are preparing for a frozen one in June. I too am blogging and writing about my experience. My husband and I have had a couple of miscarriages previously, and did regular feriltiy treatments years before. I understand your pain as I have lost my twins a while back. I am so sorry for your loss. It is never easy, but my advice is dont forget her, talk to people about you experience, and take it one day at a time. I still get emotional till this day, but know my babies are in a good place.

  • @xxCourtneyxxRAWR
    @xxCourtneyxxRAWR7 жыл бұрын

    New subscriber. I cried with you. I wanted to say something, but I know words cannot heal a broken heart. Honestly, I just want to sit with you and hug you. You're a strong beautiful woman and I know your daughter is just smiling down at you! I am praying hard for you and your family. May God bless you ❤️

  • @MaryAustinup
    @MaryAustinup7 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss. I've never suffered the loss of a child but I have suffered loss. Both of my parents passed away last summer. After the funerals, I went home and barely got out of bed for 2 months. I have busted out crying in public...most recently around Mother's Day. I was in Walmart and walked past the Mother's Day cards. It gets easier with time. All we can do is pray for God's grace and look to the future.

  • @kathymatheson6543

    @kathymatheson6543

    7 жыл бұрын

    I came across your vlog and am crying with you. I'm so sorry for your loss and pray for God's peace and comfort for both you and your husband.

  • @racheallewis2316
    @racheallewis23167 жыл бұрын

    I am standing with every person that has prayed for you in the name of Christ that y'all have a beautiful healthy baby as soon as y'all are ready and that your family will grow even after that. In the name of Jesus Christ I pray Amen!

  • @janehuston765

    @janehuston765

    7 жыл бұрын

    Amen!!!

  • @valerierichardson4417

    @valerierichardson4417

    7 жыл бұрын

    Amen!!!

  • @Emily-yy3cl

    @Emily-yy3cl

    7 жыл бұрын

    Racheal Lewis y

  • @Lissyann

    @Lissyann

    7 жыл бұрын

    Amen 🙏🏽

  • @georgianewton6821

    @georgianewton6821

    7 жыл бұрын

    Racheal Lewis amen🙏🏽🙏🏽

  • @maddierojowski6330
    @maddierojowski63305 жыл бұрын

    Watching this while Emma is 2 months old. Still breaks my heart every time I watch it. Watching the life come back into your eyes after so much heartbreak and sadness is the best thing in the world. I love the Swannies so much and I can’t wait for your family to grow even more 💕💕

  • @mariarenteria8472
    @mariarenteria84724 жыл бұрын

    I came back to this today. Because this was the first video I ever watched. My heart is filled with joy and love!! To see you become such an amazing mama to Emma!! And your twin bows oh my!!! God is so good!!! You are amazing. & wish you the best babygirl!!! 🤍

  • @taylorblinco7640
    @taylorblinco76407 жыл бұрын

    I'm crying watching this:( I had a miscarriage with my first baby and it was extremely hard, I know how hard this is on you and just know you have lots of supports here for you! She's so blessed to have you both of her parents! You both will be in my prayers!💕

  • @leonacourse520
    @leonacourse5202 жыл бұрын

    My daughters first baby had no heartbeat as well and we were all devastated! It's a difficult to go through! God Bless you and your husband!

  • @charlotteannroth
    @charlotteannroth6 жыл бұрын

    I'm so proud of you for sharing your story. You're so brave. Stillborns aren't talked about enough in this society and all the grieving is done behind closed doors. Thank you for sharing.

  • @hannahmae3993
    @hannahmae39934 жыл бұрын

    This was just recommended now 2 years later she had a beautiful baby girl and 2 healthy twin boys ❤️😍 #ripbryn

  • @brittanysimmons5358
    @brittanysimmons53582 жыл бұрын

    I know that I’m years late, but thank you for sharing your story. I just lost my daughter at 20 1/2 weeks (3 weeks ago) and I admire the strength you showed here as I have been completely devastated. It really helps to see someone remain so positive at what is inarguably one of the hardest moments anyone can go through. I’m happy to see that you’ve been blessed with more children and wish you and your husband the best. ❤️

  • @gin611

    @gin611

    2 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry ❤️

  • @heidiholom8086

    @heidiholom8086

    2 жыл бұрын

    So sorry!

  • @chileanxox
    @chileanxox7 жыл бұрын

    My heart ached for you as I watched you tell your story. I too have experienced that moment when you look at the screen and don't see a heart beat. Hearing you talk about it took me back to that moment and the moments that followed. I've been able to move on and find hope again, but it still pains me to think of that time. I hope that you have been able to find some measure of peace after such a difficult experience.

  • @leilei6576
    @leilei65766 жыл бұрын

    In tears hearing your story! I’m currently 23 weeks pregnant with our first little baby, and I just can’t begin to fathom what you’ve been through. A baby is the biggest miracle God gives, and a loss of that baby is just heartbreaking. While watching this I kept thinking how easily this could have been me & how thankful I am to be pregnant. So sweet that my little baby kept giving me little kicks throughout this video! ♥️ It is so amazing the connection we have with someone we’ve never met, but that’s a mother’s love- so perfect & all consuming! The overwhelming love we have for our baby is just a fraction of the love God has for us! What an amazing thought! 🙌🏼

  • @keirajones5062
    @keirajones50622 жыл бұрын

    Your recent video of finding out you were pregnant with your fifth baby naturally just came up for me, I am watching this feeling so sad for your loss but so excited for future you. My best friend's baby was stillborn at 41+4 weeks, Jan 2020, I went to the hospital that day to be with her and hold baby, and the pain and heartbreak I saw in my friend and her husband I wouldn't wish on anybody.

  • @martaferreira8112
    @martaferreira81123 жыл бұрын

    This was the first video that I watched of this family. You look so happier now with your amazing and growing family. Since this video I always watch every single one and it's such a blessing to see your baby's grow and how amazing this family is.

  • @debbieostrowski5462
    @debbieostrowski54627 жыл бұрын

    So sorry for your loss. Don' t need to say sorry for your feelings, Cry if you need to you've been through so much. Hugs too you.

  • @domsolcani8075
    @domsolcani80756 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story, it's so difficult to go through this all alone but knowing that there's so many women and stories helps with the healing process. I miscarried exactly a month after you did at 12 weeks and it was the most traumatic and saddest thing I've ever been through. It's been almost three months and I'm still struggling. Thinking of you, sending all my love and hoping you will get to hold your rainbow baby girl soon! ❤️

  • @Amandeeda
    @Amandeeda7 жыл бұрын

    Losing a baby never stops hurting and I'm so sorry. You are so so so sooo strong and I know she is so proud of her mommy's strength. I am just blown away with your strength! Lots of hugs from a navy spouse who recently lost a baby as well. I was not as far as you, and I am again so blown away by your strength.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @tiffanygonzales936
    @tiffanygonzales9367 жыл бұрын

    Your daughter was so lucky to have y'all as parents. You're going to give her future siblings such wonderful lives!

  • @puertoricanmamiish
    @puertoricanmamiish7 жыл бұрын

    My heart is broken for you and Justin I am crying for the both of you . I am 15 weeks pregnant and can't imagine what your feeling. I pray you get that beautiful baby on earth.

  • @bree_babyy6255
    @bree_babyy62556 жыл бұрын

    This video just popped up on my feed and I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Everything happens for a reason, sometimes we don’t know why because it doesn’t make any sense but know your baby is with God and is truly loved. I know you just had your baby and I’m so eternally grateful and happy for you and Justin. You deserve so much happiness and I’m extremely grateful to be able to watch your videos and watch your family grow. ❤️

  • @mollyrinker4079
    @mollyrinker40794 жыл бұрын

    wow not to take away from any of the raw feelings in this video and precious Brynn but to see your 3 children now is so incredible. you have four beautiful children, 3 on earth and 1 in Heaven. I feel so blessed to see the growth of your family. thank you for sharing your amazing journey.

  • @eliraqui
    @eliraqui7 жыл бұрын

    I share your pain, I had my baby girl Rubi also stillborn on May 9, 2017 just a few days before yours and everything you said I felt and now is been two months and I'm starting to smile again. I pray to God for your rainbow baby and as well for mine

  • @janellehoward9808
    @janellehoward98086 жыл бұрын

    Oh my gosh this video popped up after I watched your birth story! I'm so happy you have your little miracle baby Emma now ❤️ so crazy how much things can change in such a short period of time. Could not be happier for you guys!

  • @elliewame5902
    @elliewame59027 жыл бұрын

    I am so very sorry for your loss - i some how stumbled across your video and I have just completely balled my eyes out throughout this whole video and your others. I pray for peace and pure healing for you and Justin and that your next miracle will come along with the beautiful spirit of Brynn. It takes 2 really strong people to go through something like this and I can see how thankful you guys are. I can't wait to watch more of your journey ❤️

  • @9rachellynn
    @9rachellynn6 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry you know the loss of a child. The story of the birth of your daughter is beautiful and you will always keep those precious moments with her close to your heart. I lost my first born son Lucas in April 2017 after a short week with him in the NICU. He was born with a genetic disorder we had no idea we were carriers for. Seeing you cry just brought back all those feelings. I hurt for you. I know all to well how it feels to have your world shattered. You said you’re hopeful, that is the best way to put it. I think the only thing that has gotten me this far is hope, staying hopeful. Thank you for sharing your daughters story ❤️

  • @sasha1505
    @sasha15057 жыл бұрын

    It is always darkest before the dawn. You are both wonderful people and I am wishing you strength and peace in this tough time. Don't lose hope for the future, you will get your earth baby soon. xo

  • @Ashiepoomay

    @Ashiepoomay

    4 жыл бұрын

    This comment just made me tear up. Im watching this on the day of the twins birth vlog.

  • @BeautyGurl011
    @BeautyGurl0115 жыл бұрын

    emma is now almost one, and you may never see this comment as this video is from a long time ago, but you just seem so much more full of joy now rachelle and i am so happy for you. i can just see the light that emma has brought back to you, and being a momma suits you so well.

  • @yilantang3432
    @yilantang34326 жыл бұрын

    You are so strong and just think in less than a week you will have your little miracle baby Emma in your hands. Brynn will always be watching and protecting her wonderful parents and her little sister from above. Sending all love and support.

  • @kristinxox
    @kristinxox7 жыл бұрын

    I just randomly came across this video.... my heart goes out to you and your husband. May 17th 2015 I went through having to give birth to a stillborn baby girl. It's the worst thing in the entire world. I have a little boy who is now 8 so I know the joy you get after giving birth and to have to go through labor and all that and not be able to have that baby in your arms and see/kiss/hold/hug her every day for the rest of your life is terrible. There will forever be a part of your heart that is broken. I pray that you guys get the chance to get pregnant again and have a healthy baby. I now have another little girl who just was born may 20th of this year ... just a little over 2 years later... and not that anyone could ever replace the daughter I lost 2 years ago but having gone through an entire pregnancy with no problems and now having a healthy perfect baby has definitely helped. I feel like the baby I lost sent her to me and it's like having a piece of her with me always. Time 100% helps but I really truly hope you guys have all the best luck in your journey forward. You forever have a beautiful angel looking over you guys 💕

  • @maaikek9143
    @maaikek91434 жыл бұрын

    Im here rewatching this video! It’s so incredible sad that you didn’t get to raise your beautiful girl! Im so sorry this happened to you guys. Its beautiful that you are so happy right now, with your sweet girl emma. I wish you all the happines you can get. I love u

  • @makenziesmith9244
    @makenziesmith92444 жыл бұрын

    My heart just hurts watching this. Prayers your way even though I’m watching this two years later.

  • @Katystinks
    @Katystinks6 жыл бұрын

    My sister in law had the same thing happen to her and I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. You are so strong to share your story. I wish you and your family the happiest of lives.

  • @bellssxx3
    @bellssxx37 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry for your loss, I am crying with you. You are so strong to be able to share your story. My prayers are with you, Justin and Brynn. I am graduating soon to be a labor and delivery nurse and your story helped me to see how truly difficult it is to go through a still birth and I hope I can be there to support families that go through this. ❤️❤️

  • @juliebean2806
    @juliebean28067 жыл бұрын

    I am very sorry for your loss. I lost my son at 2 months old from SIDS. That was almost 16 years ago and I miss him all the time, but I am so grateful he was a part of my life, even for such a short time. Hold on to the happy memories. They are always in our hearts. Again, I am sorry and send you healing thoughts.

  • @elizabethkoobs1060
    @elizabethkoobs10602 жыл бұрын

    I'm a new subscriber, so this is four years later. I know your heart was completely broken after you lost you first daughter. You were so brave to share your story with the world. I also know that you have three beautiful children earthside now. God is so good. I also went through years of infertility(I will spare you the details.) I miscarried at 12wks with my first. Seems so much harder to lose the first baby because all I could think was that maybe that would be my only pregnancy. I did go on to have a singleton and a set of twins(with one fetus miscarried early in the pregnancy.) Dealing with infertility and then loss is the hardest thing I've ever experienced. My prayers were answered, in God's timing, and I was blessed to become a mother.💙

  • @BlaCkHearTed825
    @BlaCkHearTed8254 жыл бұрын

    My 4th child, 2nd daughter, was born sleeping 19 days ago at 20 weeks and 1 day. This video and all the heart warming comments are really getting me through this tough time. Thank you ❤

  • @karakerley4230
    @karakerley42307 жыл бұрын

    I am pregnant with my first child and I don't think I could have empathized to this degree until now. you are SO strong to be taking all this head on and discussing everything on your channel. I truly hope you go on to have a healthy pregnancy. no matter what you ARE a mother, and yes, HAVE a daughter. I'm sure she loved you just as much as you loved her. I'm also glad you and your husband are such comforts to one another. again- strong people :) I'm a new subscriber and look forward to seeing what your future holds

  • @kjbigsful
    @kjbigsful7 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry sweetheart. Sending prayers, love and comforting hugs.

  • @TheFlutterbyme
    @TheFlutterbyme6 жыл бұрын

    Baby Emma is almost here. Look how much changes in a year! Both of your girls are so lucky to have you as their mama.

  • @halliejay3811
    @halliejay38117 жыл бұрын

    As a new ftm and so many many problems during my pregnancy this absolutely broke my heart. You are so strong! Your baby girl will always be with you and even though she's grown her angel wings don't forget you will always be a mum and dad! She was loved and there is nothing you could have done. There is absolutely nothing wrong with not being okay, take the time you need to grief 💗 It's not going to get better, but it will get easier to cope. Talking helps. 💖💖

  • @ourbeautifulchaos7284
    @ourbeautifulchaos72847 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry you have to experience this pain. I lost my little boy at 18 weeks, it is by far the worst pain I have ever felt, no parent should ever have to feel the pain of losing their child. She is absolutely beautiful! Many prayers to you and your family.

  • @BSBSPSensGirl88
    @BSBSPSensGirl887 жыл бұрын

    I came across your channel today after watching an OKBaby video. You are so brave. I cannot imagine the nightmare you have experienced. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

  • @janehuston765

    @janehuston765

    7 жыл бұрын

    BSBSPSensGirl88 same! I am a Bug Buddy and am so glad I found this channel. I am now part of this family as well.

  • @RachelleandJustin

    @RachelleandJustin

    7 жыл бұрын

    Thank you girls so so much

  • @BSBSPSensGirl88

    @BSBSPSensGirl88

    7 жыл бұрын

    Jane Huston Cool! I am going to subscribe as well. I'm a relatively new you tube viewer and have been in a subscribing frenzy as of late! Haha.

  • @funbrandi449

    @funbrandi449

    7 жыл бұрын

    Just came across it last night! I don't have a child but am still obsessed with this couple and channel!!!! Praying my heart out their day will come soon. This couple is what being parents is about.

  • @breeaillestowe5584

    @breeaillestowe5584

    6 жыл бұрын

    BSBSPSensGirl88 That's so crazy, because I did too! Hello fellow bug buddy! Her strength and will is amazing. I am so happy that she has gotten blessed with another baby. I pray everything goes well for her.

  • @mrsevelync6900
    @mrsevelync69006 жыл бұрын

    This is heartbreaking 😔 but I’m glad to see that you’re pregnant again now and I pray that everything goes well ❤️🙏🏾 you’ll have a beautiful healthy baby 👶🏼

  • @KhrystynVanessa
    @KhrystynVanessa6 жыл бұрын

    Your story is really helping me...I lost my son June 10, 2017 at 20 weeks. My husband and I were devastated and I still struggle with him not being here with us but I know he is in heaven and is our angel watching over us. You and your husband are giving me hope because we also have been trying and have not been successful and I felt myself getting depressed all over again. I know exactly how you feel and it’s a rough situation to deal with but I thank you for your courage in sharing

  • @senecaromero4860
    @senecaromero48606 жыл бұрын

    I cried with you watching this. You are so strong and I'm so very sorry for what you went through. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @kimwatchesstuff
    @kimwatchesstuff7 жыл бұрын

    As a loss Mom, with a few words of wisdom, communicate with each other. Men and women grieve so much differently. If your husband seems quieter, or different, it's his way of grieving or coping. My biggest fear was that my husband and I would not get thru our loss. Yet nine years later...we are stronger than ever!

  • @smith33racing
    @smith33racing7 жыл бұрын

    Rachelle & Justin, your video popped up in my recommended videos and I just wanted to say I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl. My thoughts and prayers are with you both. 💕

  • @nellax0x
    @nellax0x7 жыл бұрын

    It's really awesome of you for being so open about your experience, I can only imagine how hard it must be to vlog stuff like this but you must be helping so many people. Sending love your way, you will make an amazing mom one day xoxo

  • @rmjames83
    @rmjames835 жыл бұрын

    Hang in there!!! I’m SO unbelievably sorry for your loss💕I know from experience that the pain of the loss of a beautiful Bub never goes away-but it does become less “raw” over time-but time is so individual-look after yourself, and each other-I’m thinking of you both-sending love, hugs & prayers

  • @erikar.7076
    @erikar.70767 жыл бұрын

    Im so sorry for your loss. I too am a fellow angel mommy. My first baby was stillborn at 26 weeks and like you was also a girl, I named her Brianna. You are definitely in my prayers and just know that god will bless you with another child or 2 or 3 ☺. 2 years after I lost my first baby god blessed me with my first son and 6 months after he was born i got pregnant with my second son. I now have a healthy 11 year old and 10 year old. Stay strong love! ❤❤❤

  • @sourskittlesaddict1

    @sourskittlesaddict1

    6 жыл бұрын

    Erika Rodriguez qq

  • @Ashley-zh3bp
    @Ashley-zh3bp7 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry guys. Don't let this stop you from trying again.

  • @jj9533
    @jj95334 жыл бұрын

    On my floor in tears for you. You are so brave. I am so sorry for your loss and the pain you've experienced. God, bless this family

  • @allo2agirl
    @allo2agirl7 жыл бұрын

    I just came a cross your channel and I saw this and I am so proud of your courage to be able to share this, and know you are lucky that you were able to hold your baby and she will be forever your daughter. Thank you for sharing as it takes so much courage for us to talk about what we have lost and I am praying for you to have healthy and many babies.

  • @mbwildlife
    @mbwildlife7 жыл бұрын

    Hi Rachelle sweetie, My heart hurts for you I can only imagine what you going through hugs to you and Justin, this is really just so sad I'm was wondering if you were going to try again, I feel so happy to hear that your not giving up your a real trouper! Please keep vlogging so we can follow your journey, Stay strong sweetie god loves you and he dose have a plan just have faith your going to have a baby keep that in your thoughts ok? You take care of your self and all of us are here for you we dont physically know each other but we are friends and we care very much, love from your viewer Marilyn...

  • @janicebarkmann
    @janicebarkmann7 жыл бұрын

    Your Momma must be so proud of you. You are very real girl. Bless you and know that I pray for you and your husband. xx

  • @MonsterFishies
    @MonsterFishies7 жыл бұрын

    I am so so so sorry for your loss. I cried throughout this whole video. You are a beautiful mother and when your next baby comes you will be the greatest gift to that child. 💜💜💜

  • @missb7910
    @missb79107 жыл бұрын

    Wow. As a new mum I couldn't even begin to fathom your pain. I am new to your channel and I pray and hope one day your tears will turn into laughter and you'll have happily squealing little children running around your house. I cried so hard and I honestly never comment on anything but this touched me so much. I admire your strength and positive outlook. Know that your beautiful little girl knows that she is loved and also that she will never be forgotten. Know that one day you WILL see your children grow and prosper and that you shall see their children too! I wish I could reach through the screen and hug you. Sending my love all the way from Germany. A thousand kisses

  • @wendyumphlett4115
    @wendyumphlett41157 жыл бұрын

    My heart breaks for you & your husband keeping you guys in prayer!

  • @christophermiller159
    @christophermiller1594 жыл бұрын

    This is my first time watching this couple and I found out that they lost this child which is so sad . But they had twins I’m so glad for you both. God has blessed you!!!

  • @angelaroberts4215
    @angelaroberts42157 жыл бұрын

    Oh sweet girl my heart is breaking for you. I just came across this video, watched and cried along with you. You have a new subscriber here X

  • @rainbowbaby196
    @rainbowbaby1967 жыл бұрын

    Dear Rachelle and Justin. I am so sorry for your loss. This broke my heart and I can only imagine how you are both feeling. How strong you are to be speaking to us and updating us. May strength, support and endless love surround you both.. I have lost 2 rainbow babies in the past but not as far along as you were, so my only advice would be don't give up hope, don't ever feel you can not speak, cry and morn with us. Sending you lots of hugs and kisses from Sydney, Australia 💋💋🙏🏻🌈💐

  • @ginagrace9819
    @ginagrace98197 жыл бұрын

    my heart goes out to you two. I'm so sorry for your loss.

  • @dianacockerill9479
    @dianacockerill94797 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry and sad for your loss to you and your family

  • @MsViv23
    @MsViv237 жыл бұрын

    I can only imagine how hard it must be going through this. My supervisor at work went through the same and I was mortified as I am pregnant and we always talked pregnancy talk. You are doing a wonderful job with coping (you and my supervisor) the fact that you are able to talk about it is MAJOR! You are stronger than you know and time will bring healing for you and hubby. Continue to stay encouraged and keep up that hope! *Sending long hugs that make you ugly cry it out* lol I look forward to you pressing forward on your journey!

  • @alpacawhisperer
    @alpacawhisperer4 жыл бұрын

    I'm currently looking into going to school to become an ultrasound tech and I always knew that as much good news as you tell people there's also going to be bad news and after watching this video it's made me realize that I have some mental growing to do and some strengthening to do before I go into that field of work. I'm really sensitive and easy to cry and I don't want to stress out a mother by delivering bad news in a bad way I know that was not your intention of this video but I just wanted to let you know that it made me think. I know that that wasn't your full intention with this video but I just want to thank you for being so raw and vulnerable and helping out other women that might be going through what you went through I'm watching your pregnancy Journey with baby number three right now and I just wanted to get to know you guys a little bit better so I came to this video to understand a little bit about your past

  • @sophristic6877
    @sophristic68777 жыл бұрын

    Brynn is such a beautiful name. It suits her ❤️ I'm so sorry for your loss. She will always be your first daughter ❤️ sending so much luck and love to you guys

  • @taylorsartori1770
    @taylorsartori17704 жыл бұрын

    Watching this right after you’ve had the twins and I just want to hug you. You are so incredibly strong and I wish I could tell the girl in this video all that is to come❤️

  • @Allyyyy555
    @Allyyyy5555 жыл бұрын

    I've been following you and justin on your journey through infertility for a few years now and I vividly remember this terrible time when it happened. I've cried thinking about your pain and suffering. It is so incredible that now you have Brynn's big sister and I'm so happy you finally have a baby girl to hold. You have been so patient and strong. You are incredible.

  • @melaniestyles2119
    @melaniestyles21195 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing 💜 I recently lost my baby girl Hannah, she was stillborn at 24 weeks. I hadn’t felt movement for a few days and had written it off as normal as I had an anterior placenta and thought she wasn’t old enough to distinguish a complete movement pattern. I got a Doppler to reassure myself and after not finding her heartbeat went to the emergency where they confirmed she’d passed. Delivering her and having to leave the hospital empty handed is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do... I have found a lot of comfort in finding similar stories. It’s hard knowing I’ll never have an answer as to why I lost her but it’s true that there is such an output of love from family and an amazing community of women who understand the pain and can offer support to one another 💜💜

  • @norag1223
    @norag12236 жыл бұрын

    My Mom had a miscarriage with her first baby 30+ years ago after she and my dad first got married and it absolutely devastated her. She said she’d always wanted children and that losing the baby left her with a grief so deep that she felt hollow. So I’m so incredibly sorry that you had to go through that, too. Miscarrying is something no woman should have to endure, and hearing your story just solidifies that belief. The funny thing is, my Mom says that she always felt like my older sister (her firstborn child) was the soul of the baby she lost- like God just put it into a new body & gave it back to her. She could never explain it, it was just something she felt deeply. And whether or not it’s the same case with you, Brynn will ALWAYS be watching over you and loving you and looking out for you. She’s your angel, and she’s your blessing. I hope and pray that you give birth to a healthy, happy little baby who will fill your heart to the brim with happiness. Just don’t lose hope, Rachelle, no matter what. I feel from the bottom of my heart that everything will turn out alright for you. I pray for you everyday! Sending you lots of love & light!

  • @ANM5437
    @ANM54377 жыл бұрын

    I'm so so sorry for your loss. My husband and I recently lost our first born baby boy on June 1 😥 his name is Hudson.

  • @RachelleandJustin

    @RachelleandJustin

    7 жыл бұрын

    SO sorry for your sweet baby boys passing. Praying you have healing!

  • @coradavis5467

    @coradavis5467

    6 жыл бұрын

    I can't imagine what losing a child is like considering I'm 16 years old and am still a virgin. I am praying for you.

  • @mrskaitimorris9836
    @mrskaitimorris98365 жыл бұрын

    You & Justin are so so strong. I am envious of how much you support each other & the love you have for each other. I’m so so sorry that you had to go through this, I know Brynn and the memories and pain still stay with you to this day and I wish that someone would be able to take away your pain. ❤️ Emma truly is a miracle and she is so beautiful. Sending you so much love during the holidays, I’m sure this time of year brings out a range of emotions. xx

  • @gabrielaceballos3789
    @gabrielaceballos37897 жыл бұрын

    I admire the way you talk about your daughter. You will always be her mommy and she will always be your daughter. I can't imagine what you're going through but you are a strong woman to talk about it. Sending much love your way