“The two most important days of your life are the day you were born and the day you find out why.” - Mark Twain

@johnbeechy

4 ай бұрын

mark was from a different time when men were men and whoa-kens did not get much respect. R E S P E C T, that is what some singers mean. // myop beyond the day of birth, the next important day is finding out what Class a person is from. then if that person does not want to stay in their Class, they can read or marry Up, or marry downward. not too many families, americans too, allowed their daughters to marry downward. working hard does not add up to much in gross wages, as the Shareholder Class takes in the massive profits. Profits never ever go into the GDP as per the formula taught in Grade 10. // God Bless and Thank you for at least crediting the person u are using words from. // to paraphrase Martin Sheen's character from the movie 'wall street' (part one). 'its yourself you gotta be proud of, huckleberry' // or 'if u can keep your head about u while others doubt you', said by dennis hopper from the movie 'apocalypse now' yaba, daba, do. fred flintstone // myop the first time i cheated death, as well as each of the 3 times since, i felt like it was the most important day (night) of my life. after having read a Ouija Board Report, that contained information from 18 months in advance of the Report's date, I felt my most important dates were already known to me, but had yet to occur. it was like what happens to Paul A (of the Dune story). Paul would dream, while awake too, of things and events that were to come to pass. Once Paul lost his ability to see the future, he goes to drink the water of life. why? because once any one gets the Sight, they will want it back upon losing it. Life does not end when the dreams no longer come. rather, and most likely, the Life's pending events have been deemed Classified (by the universe, as well as by the soul and by God), so the person can live out their life (experience the events) without going insane (knowing all and then trying to change the known future (not possible) to no avail. once the decision is made, the future told, there is no other available to make, or see. losing Faith in one's own abilities to handle the challenges thrown toward oneself is the most daring fate. once a body loses faith in itself, then there is not much the body can do but await fate. // i being a star trek fan do not believe in the 'no win scenario, even in death'. IF u see the Face, then u know death is near. the Face will appear upon any item, a pipe, a cloud, a mirror, or even on a TV set screen (turned off). Not all see the Face before their ending. or they never had a choice and had to end without an escape route. // good luck and when u Purge, Purge and be well

@user-mi1eb7iu1p

4 ай бұрын

It's because our mom's wanted to have us.... that's why we're here....

@johnbeechy

4 ай бұрын

@@user-mi1eb7iu1p myop using the word 'because' implies another reason than a 'want to have offspring'. It is due to our mother's want for offspring. // the use of the word (mom's) implies a mom's asset. when u use the (') that means the previous word owns a thing/item/feeling. for example. My mom's anger toward me made me question why she had me to begin with. But in 1968 abortion was a coat hanger away, not a visit to a Dr's office. Post birth, my mother (not mom) lost her jobs and ever since (until her death) she held that loss against me. I never questioned God 'why i was here'. I went thru the same old problems of moving around from one home to another, all the while remaining in school. so after i finished, even University, then later college too, and some online and distance education courses, i realized My Purpose. it had not a thing to do with my mother's lack of decision to abort. It was clear to me as was the answers stated by Col. Jessep in 'a Few Good Men'. I serve a Higher Purpose. to find the mistakes of others, before they are charged with a violation of the 9th C. or worse. myop serve more than just being a slave to the Shareholder Class. do not overbreed, making new slaves for the same Shareholder Class would be a dumb white repeating move. remember, ever since reagan pushed for free trade with mexico, before mexicans made any thing more than Tourism, jobs have left usa for outside nations. so find sum coins. buy up shares and move into that Shareholder Class. leave 'mother' behind, Norman Bates. March is a Purge month. so Purge and be well. Clean Prep is a good Purging tool. it will help clean out your intestines in less than 2 hours. as said in the movie 'Beverly Hills Cops (part 1). 'the avg middle aged man may have as much as 2 lbs of undigested meat in their bowels' paraphrasing of course. // FD: my mom was a Secretary to President of Woodbine Racetrack. she slept with the son of that president, over a May 2-4 weekend, and i arrived on Ground Hog day. // my sperm dad would move to the new england area, leaving my mom without a Job 3:14 and me stuck with a life to live out. I may have had 17 prior lifetimes and was even at Jerusalem in 1099 AD, but this life time has included so many interesting technological feats. I still rather have a Ouija Board report, a weather report and a science report over all the nonsense coming out of the Republican party. LOL // question. did your mom tell u to fly overseas and look for the iraqs' wmds? did your mom demand u fly overseas and look for the bin laden? if she did either of those two, and knew she would get the payout on your death, well. that be the evidence not to trust your mother with any decisions about Your Future. // God Bless and may u find an escape plan worthy of your sitrep. as Jim Morrison suggested, 'n Body gets out of (life) here alive'.

I’m so proud of you. I will always be for here for you. Thank you for having a heart of gold. You are an inspiration to me and to a lot people! I love you. ❤

@shaneturner9336

2 ай бұрын

You two are my FAVORITE KZreadrs Jay !

Cris. The wonderful thing about life that it is always changing. You can always go back to school. I went back at 54 for my bachelors. It will not help me financially but was so foretelling! Follow dreams. You will have the courage!

Noooooo don’t quit ! You and Jay are how I get my daily Florida fix .

My mom, who passed almost 9 years ago, was a librarian/media specialist for 30+ years and loved every second of it. The ability to help people specifically with something your passionate about it is a gift worth cherishing. I could easily see you thriving in that role. Isn't there a library in Orange County that specifically has a lot of Disney history stored in it as well, that might be the perfect mix of your passions? -Jess

@slave_violet_jewelry

4 ай бұрын

Cris needs to go back to school. Become a Librarian. KZread comes with negativity and she does not need that. An education is something she can count on.

You’re not alone Cris. Therapy will be good for you. Sharing your concerns helps you and us, who deal with issues of our own. I suffer from extreme Anxiety at times and was extremely shy as a young girl. It was hard but I got through it. You are a great person Cris🌹

I completely understand. I never knew what job I wanted to do. I only wanted to work in haunted houses!!! Now, after my job has physically worn out my body, I have to figure out what to do now. I have been watching you for the last 2 years through 2 back surgeries and living vicariously through y'all in KZread! Love you and Tampa Jay! Take care of yourself ❤❤❤.

@johnbeechy

4 ай бұрын

i am curious. what Job did u perform to the ending of your back being able? if u wanted to work a haunted house, u could just Ouija Board a grave yard, bring the Board home and haunt your house with that Kind of ease. I do not recommend u use your own house as a haunted house. go look for a worn down building, with out living residents, then Ouija Board that house. // u know a Ouija Board can report as far as 18 months in advance, with accuracy. so be aware of the dead, for they can, if they wish to, help the living. one report saved my life, although the dead soul (that was there) probably did not want me to escape their Planned ending 4 me. little did they know whom i am (from a prior lifetime). God Bless and remember, 'work out your back and legs'.

@jenniferjones-edwards9729

4 ай бұрын

The USPS wore out my body!😂 I use to work in haunted houses with the JayCees in our town. We used a real haunted house for years. Then a warehouse, then the woods, then the next town over had their own building! Now, there are no more JayCees in either town. The rest of us aged out. Anyway, we had a blast every Halloween!

Very relatable topics Cris. The struggle is real. Wishing you lots of positive vibes in your mental health journey. 🤍🌷

This is the Mrs. I find my most peace of who I am when I watch Joyce Meyer. She is like no other and just listening to what she has to say helps me understand what I need to do with the precious life we are given, pray on it, even if religion is not what you think you are looking for, and listen to what you hear when you pray to Him😊❤

Chris, your vlogging is a wonderful creative outlet for you. Remember to be kind to yourself and explore other passions if you feel drawn to them. Life can be challenging, especially with anxiety-I've struggled with it too. But look at all the good things in your life: your family, Tampa Jay, and the supportive community that loves what you do.

You and Tampa j are my top favorite KZreadrs to watch and yall help me Moore than yall will ever know keep up the good work

You can’t be somebody for someone else until you take care of yourself, you are taking the right steps 👍🏻 Tampa Jay is a blessing in your life 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🥰❤️❤️❤️ You both need each other so much!!!!

I absolutely related to this video, Cris. Even at 67 years old, I share the bulk of the feelings you expressed. I still wonder where my place is, my purpose. I’ve done so many different things in terms of interests, activities and jobs, and never stayed with one thing. The point you made about being better, I think that’s what it all boils down to . As far as I can see, you are miles ahead, and don’t realize it mostly because you are so hard on yourself. All the best to you , Cris.

Cris, I can relate. I remember the uncomfortable conversation I had with my Father, and telling him that I had no clue what I wanted to major in or what I wanted to do with my Life. As a sidebar, my wife absolutely loved your Ulta video. I think you guys are kindred spirits! Keep fighting, keep healing and continue your great job.

Right there with you. I’m 35 and still have no idea what I’m doing/what I should be doing. Just quit my stressful corporate job in January and now desperately trying to figure out who I am and what I want. I’ve always struggled with my sense of self and feel quite lost in this world as well. You’re not alone!❤

Being someone who went through anxiety and panic attacks later in life, I can relate to an extent where you're coming from. There's nothing wrong with questioning ourselves in terms of what we want to do in life. It took me 35 years to narrow down what I wanted to do with my life. Even if you choose to go back to school and get your masters, you can still continue to do KZread on the side if you're passionate about it. Follow your heart.

Cris, I'm 56. I'll be 57 in June. I've thought lately " what is my purpose here?" I heard someone say that when you feel that way, you're in the middle of a spiritual breakthrough. That's how I'm looking at it. I completely understand how you feel. One thing that I try to tell myself is: No one can make you feel inferior without your permission. Hopefully this helps you. Love and light to you 💜

I was literally holding my breath until you said you’re staying on KZread! Thanks so much for your wonderful videos. You are one of my favorite KZreadrs! I know exactly how you feel about quitting, but i turn to God anytime i feel like giving up on something. He will help guide you, if you turn to Him too!

@slave_violet_jewelry

4 ай бұрын

I think she should follow her dreams and go back to school for her MBA and be a Librarian. She needs to find happiness.

I love your channel because you are real. Even at 60, I learn a lot from you. Do what makes you happy!

BBA - MLIS here. As a business major who is a librarian, doesn't matter what the undergrad was. As a content creator, I do what I want and like you, the goal is to make someone happy. Mental health is unfortunately not attended to in this country esp because of STIGMA. It's a darn shame. Good for you to put it out there in the universe that you want help. Good luck & much success👍🏻💪🏻

I have a bachelors in social work. Similar and my job in social work left me stressed and mentally drained. I had to leave. I got nationally certified in child development and now I teach 2's in a curriculum based preschool. I am so happy now. Follow your dreams. Seek fun and you will find joy. Just keep swimming.

Aww I just found your channel through Adam & Jay & hope you keep it! 😀🙏 I’m very hard on myself too so I understand where you’re coming from 🥰but speaking from the other side of it lol you’re doing great & you’re a wonderful, beautiful & talented person inside & out! 😊 I’m sure you’re very good at more than one thing & one thing doesn’t define us 😊 So I’m sure whatever you choose to do throughout your life that brings you joy & is a passion you’ll do great! 😀 A close friend of mine got her business degree out of high school & worked in the business world for 7yrs. & then at 30 she decided to switch gears & become a nurse! She went back to school for nursing & knocked it out of the park! 😀 She ended up working with me! 😀 And became an OR nurse for neurology. You would’ve thought she had been a nurse for years! And then recently at 40 she decided to become a realtor & has done well with that! 😀 So don’t feel like you have to settle on one thing. You can be great at many things! 😀🤗 Follow your heart & do what makes you happy 🥰

Getting counseling is a good thing. You've taken a brave step, and I am proud of you! 😊 Stand tall, beautiful gal❤ Thank you for sharing with us. Hugs 🤗

Love your honesty and I relate to you very much. Your videos do help me, so thank you for taking the time to make all the videos! It’s very brave to ask and to get help. Your mental health is very important. Thank you again for all you do and mostly take care of you. Much love and light ❤

Sending you love Cris, with whatever you decide. You know what’s best for you in the end ❤

This is so true for my experience as well. I didn’t know what to do and never chose just one passion. I don’t know how people stick with just one thing. Having multiple talents and interests keeps life interesting! I don’t know what I’m doing either, but I hope that the path will be made clear. Thank you for sharing such an authentic message Cris! You really shine in your videos and I am so glad that we have been able to be a part of your journey 🥰💗 Thank you for these insights 🙏🏻💕

Thank you for uploading this video at exactly the time I needed it! I've spent a long time feeling pretty lonely for the same reasons (although I realize now that I will never know what I want to be when I grow up LOL). Being a deep feeler means you have strength when others sometimes don't, but I confess it can be pretty gosh darn uncomfortable. Not everyone understands how it feels. Therapy has been a huge help to me over the years, so I am glad that you are going to try it. It will get a little worse, but on the other side you will feel so much better. I've spent a lifetime feeling just a little out of step with the world and it's a tough place to be for sure. Big virtual hugs to you!

@craftingzoe

4 ай бұрын

I know that feeling very well as well

Bobby again. I also want to say thank you for being open and honest. I also have a hard time finding friends. I also used to feel alone until you said that you struggled with the same things. Thank you again

Hi sweetie, I think it happens to a lot of us when we are unsure about what we really want to do in life, I am too a true believer that things happen for a reason, I truly do wish the best for you that you find what you want to do. I think you are such a a lovely person and love your KZread channel. I've never known what route I wannto go, a while I did go back to collage and at a time it was going ok but then I became ill and found out I had a rare brain condition that was effecting my health in general so I had to quit adult collage , as of now I'm still unsure but in the mean time KZread has helped me so much and it's something I love doing. Wishing you all the best and sending you hugs x

Thanks for this cris I needed this message rite now ❤ god bless

Thank you for being so vulnerable with your viewers. Your courageous vulnerability can have a real impact on others. Thank you for inviting us into your life, you are not alone in how you are feeling.

I commed you for being so honest. You are such a good person, hang in there, you will get through this!❤

Mornin Cris!! You do what's best for you. Always love your videos! Hope you don't quit, we will miss you!! Stay strong!!!!

You are so open and kind. Whatever you wish, may it come true!💫✨

Wishing you the best with everything you are going through. You are a great person. I enjoy all your vids especially the spooky haunted houses.

Great advice, Cris. And u are not alone. Just keep swimming!

You are a true inspiration to me. I relate to your videos so much. I think you're amazing and I look forward to watching. You are a great person (as far as I have seen over the past couple of years). I hope you find your true passion. Your happiness is the number one priority.

I relate to you as being a sensitive person and picking up on others feelings and being a deeply feeling person. A lot of people with ADHD/ ADD, (myself) tend to internalize a lot of thoughts and are extra critical of themselves. I grew up struggling in school and always being a shy person until I got to know you. I understand those struggles. Thankfully I’m on medication for my ADD and it helps so much. I’ve considered therapy as well just to talk things out. I think like many have said, you can only go up from here. It sounds like you’re listening to yourself and your wants and needs. You’re on the right track and I hope after a while, the thought of therapy no longer makes you nervous but brings you a sense of peace and calm, something to look forward to. If you’re open to sharing, I’d love to know if you found it helpful and if it made you feel better. Not to share anything personal, but if it was a good experience overall. I look forward to future videos. ❤ I hope you get a little R&R soon. 😌

Hey Cris, your videos make me happy, and I believe we all want you to be happy!

Cris the girl you are a wonderful person everyone is different you brighten up our life's with your vlogs you have a fantastic finance Tampa Jay is amazing you are a great couple we all need help at some time in our lives and its difficult for many people to do what you do and share hope you get back on the right path asap. sending you love and support x

I think therapy will help so much. We all need help sometimes to figure things out and be at peace with ourselves. Sending you positive thoughts and prayers ❤

Cris I want to thank you for the fun I have had watching your web shows and adventures. I haven't figured it out either, 2 college degrees, and keep going through company layoffs. You are my fun while I sit here job hunting online. Yes, not getting rich. Be happy, live life, enjoy Tampa Jay, your pup and stay healthy.

Girl! You rock! I relate to you on so many levels. The more you share the more I see it. My family, when I was growing up, and I went on so many camping trips. Started in a tent and the evolved into various types of campers. As we grew, so did the campers. Memories for life! We also had many trips by car traveling to hotels with my grandma. And? So many trips to friends’ mountain cabins. And so many trips along the ocean. Good times. There is more I can relate to, but won’t waste your time. Just keep doing what is best for you! Loving you sharing your journey. You are brave. You bring me to tears. And you and Tampa Jay are perfect for each other and you have a sweet relationship. Rooting for you! ❤🎉

Good for you! Making an announcement about getting help! We all need help, either a friend, a boyfriend or soon to be spouse, or a professional. But admitting you need help thats the first step girl. Younalways make me smile. Your human, your flawed...we all are. No is perfect. Cris you are loved, and no matter what, you do you!

You have my 100 % support whatever decisions you make. You’re not alone, I too have anxiety. Good to take care of yourself. It’s a joy watching your content, you and Tampa are my most favorites on YT. Love and Hugs to you and Jay ❤️❤️

I feel you, I'm one of those souls that doesn't have a game plan. But I'm thankful for your vlogs, they give me a window to the outside world and events that I'm not able to explore. I feel you will find your way and you also have a great support. You have my support and I'm sure support from other viewer's!

Thanks to you I'm going to restart my channel. I was feeling down on myself for awhile. But hearing you speak tonight it ment a lot to me. You go girl!

Cris, I love your videos. Keep going with them but don't stress about them. Your mental health is first. I wish you the best.

You are an amazing person for being so honest thank you for being You !

Thank you for this video & for speaking up and to us empaths.

Your on the right Track! I experience mental struggles as well! 🙏one day at a time 🙏💕🙏💕and you always make me smile, thank you for that 🤗

Chris, you seem like such a a genuine, sweet person. You and Jay are such a cute couple and anything you want to do, do it. Good Luck with whatever you end up doing. And I am in my mid 40s and I still regret not going into the medical field. I feel like I'd be happier helping people. Thanks for sharing.

Hey Cris. Loved this video and all your videos. In the end you just need to do what you feel you need to but just know your videos are awesome and I think we all would miss them so hope you decide to keep going but either way I hope you have a good day.

Hi Cris. We all struggle with the same thoughts you have. I have to say you really shine in the video subjects you are most passionate about; plants, clothing, decorating and your metaphysical interests. Go with the things you love and share those.😊 I am 68, I went back to school and got my associate degree in health science at age 40 . Worked in that field for only a few years, then did some other jobs for a few years. Started my own business in 2010 and loved it. Finally closed it in 2019. Then I got my health insurance license in 2021. I think I finally found what I love, combo of sales and helping people. It took me a lot of years to get to this point. But I've had some great jobs and fun in the interim. We all feel like we're just floating through life at times. The best job is anything that you can do what you love and you're passionate about 😊 It's all OK ☺️

Thank you for this video...I have often felt the way you expressed in this video...Help to see I'm not the only one... We love your videos and all the hard work and effort you put into sharing them with us. If you stop making videos we will be miss you... but you have to do what is best for you and makes you happy.. You are a sweet, wonderful person and deserve all the happiness in the world..wish you the best in all things.

Just finished watching this one. I went to therapy for a little over a year to help work through my anxiety. It really helped me and I hope you find it useful. I never went to college but I did take a nutrition program and got a certificate that I felt like "I never used" for awhile. But any time you spend learning is beneficial whether you end up using your knowledge professionally. Took me awhile to accept that. Keep learning Cris, about yourself and the world. ❤

Your videos are amazing cause you are super relatable thank you for that 😊

Be true to yourself. Let Jay know how you feel, and what you want to do. Let him be there for you as you are always there for him. God bless you both.

@johnbeechy

4 ай бұрын

Hamlet. i really did not like Shakespeare// God Bless witch craft means, ask for what u want and not for what do not want.

What a genuine video. Follow your heart. Beautiful campus.

Incredibly powerful video, Cris. We are so incredibly proud of you; it takes a lot to admit when you know you can't do it on your own anymore and you need to speak with someone. Our channel's "motto" from the beginning has been "what's your why?" with our hope of helping people understand why we do what we do, and hopefully help them figure that out for themselves as well. Life is a journey and because we're life-long learners, I don't believe our "why" is ever set it stone. I definitely think that it has the ability to change. We're brought into certain areas of our lives in certain times for a specific purpose (and sometimes that's to reach specific people) and then for some, that never changes, while for others that may only be a season and then they feel called to something else. You have an incredible ability to empathize with people and to speak to everyone on a level where they feel comfortable and can relate to you; not to mention, you have an audience size where you're truly able to make a difference. So, while you might be your own biggest critic, just know that you are doing an amazing job and are helping a LOT of people- Zach

I remember being in my 30s and having such a midlife crisis type of feeling. Uncertain of where I’m going and contemplating my life choices. Don’t worry, that passes. Life is what happens when you’re busy making plans. What we think was the master plan is usually not what happens and even if it did, we wouldn’t be happy with that. Try not to white knuckle it so much. Relax, take a breath, and ride this crazy roller coaster out. Some parts are rough, but a lot of it is amazing! Even more amazing than if we had tried to plan it out.

your videos are all great! I enjoy all of them! What you said in the last part of your video was perfect! as long as your a good person and your happy with the way your life is and what your doing right now that’s all that matters! you don’t have to have a big title or career to be happy you just have to be happy being you and doing what you love most and living your best life how ever you want to live it. and i’m so happy your not quiting utube 😊❤

I'm 47 and have no idea what I want to be when I grow up. I have horrible anxiety issues. I take meds for it. I'm proud of you for getting help! It's ok to get help! ❤❤

I personally think you’re doing a great job. But this personal video is definitely relatable as I feel most people question what they are doing and if they are good enough. You’re not alone in your journey. It definitely doesn’t matter what you do as long as you’re happy doing it. This is called life and there is so many ups and downs.

I’m soooo very proud of you. I have family members that is dealing with mental issues. I’ve been a subscriber for almost two years. I’m 71 And again I must tell you how very proud of you. I think you’re making the right decision. Your future will be on the way up. ❤😊

You are a kind and brave person and we want the best for you. Do what brings you joy and happiness- the world needs more of that. You're going to make a difference in the world no matter what- you're just that kind of person. Take care of YOU - whether that is going back to school or staying on KZread- or both- you've GOT this. Hugs!

Good for you Cris!! Everyone can benefit from therapy. Nothing wrong with that at all. I think it’s great, big step for you. Good☘️

Wonderful video. It really struck a chord with me. I appreciate your honesty. You’re clearly an intelligent, thoughtful human being. Life is inherently difficult for most people, and I shall continue rooting for you.

Thank you so much for this video You are a very special person ❤️

Hope you're ok I'm on anti depression things in England,you bring a smile to people's lives and so does Tampa jay I've been through the same crap or whatever you call it hope your ok ❤

You need to do what you love. I will say I used to work in a library and if I ever could go back to school it would be to become a librarian! It was such a great job. Good luck in whatever you decide to do in your future.

You are amazing Cris. Don’t give up on KZread. I enjoy watching you. 💯 👍 🤠

Gurl same. crossroads. its ok to be not ok. Love you and all your content. big hugs dont give up

Thank you Cris for sharing. You’re not alone with your feelings. I have a daughter 27 that feels the same way and she just called me last week to tell me she was going back to school to get her masters just as well. I myself can relate with being different, so thank you for reminding us it’s okay to be different. Many Blessings to you! ❤

Love you girl. You do what servers you. ❤

Prayers. ❤❤❤❤

I totally understand the struggle. That’s why I try to just only aim to do one KZread video per month. Do what is best for you - we’ll be here!

Great Video! I think this video can help people with their own struggles.

Cris I think we all feel this going through life. Just remember its the trip and not the destination. Just try to make the most of your life that you can and try to find enjoyment and joy in the simplest things. In the end, that is all that really counts. I have found that my thinking has changed every 10 years of my life. Now that I am retired, I look back and see that many of the things I thought were so important were not really that important. You have heard it before I am sure, but, life is short. You will not believe how quick it went by when you are my age. Just enjoy yourself, enjoy Jay, and live life..... You don't need to be a social butterfly either. Not required.... Just having Jay, your family, and a real friend is better than knowing a ton of people.... Keep up the good work. I really liked your College and good luck with your therapy. I think I could use some of that too and really think we all could.....

It’s so amazing you can back to your college.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. 🤗

Thank you for sharing this with us Cris. I am too trying to figure my life out too. I just hit 20 years of the military and I am ready to move on. The military has taken way too much of my time. And I want some of it back. I too think I need to have therapy as well. Lately I have felt a lot of anxiety for what’s ahead. I love watching you and Tampa Jay’s videos. Keep it up forever subscriber.

We are with you Cris whatever you decide.❤

Always go after your passion. If you don't have a passion for it, it's not for you. And if you have to force something that definitely means it's not for you.

Thank you for your vulnerability to open up and share on such a relatable topic about the human experience. Evolution and expansion are inevitable and we never have it all figured out. At any age. In the words of Abraham Hicks; “if it doesn’t light you up, it’s not your path.” I’m in the process of reinvention as well. Leaving behind a career of 20+ years and shedding identities that no longer serve me to allow joy to lead the way whether it makes sense or not. We’ve been told our whole life to make choices based on fear and lack disguised as practicality. But what is the point of our life if we are not having fun? We are not here to fix a broken world or to struggle. We are here to experience magic, joy, love and our true power. To following our bliss, Much love and heart hugs ❤❤

You're absolutely right. There is nothing wrong with taking your mental health seriously. I started on my mental health journey almost two years ago, after suffering alone for the majority of my life. I've been in therapy almost a year, and I am so thankful I took that leap and decided to try it. Best decision I ever made.

School just felt like a waste of time for me. Once I got out of that I was way happier. I learned to do what I liked and then I started to succeed.

Thanks for your brutal honesty! You are an inspiration to many in your honesty and willingness to share from your heart. First taking your physical health seriously and making a doctor's appointment and also your mental health seriously. I personally have found meaning in like by having a personal relationship with God. Great video and hang in there and keep up the great work!

Thank you Cris - I struggle with extreme anxiety as well as depression. I’ve always been jealous of folks that are able to live in the moment and not dwell on the “what ifs”. You are NOT alone. I’m 62 years old and have been through a lot of mental health challenges including a nervous breakdown many years ago. I’m here to say, things will get better. Therapy will be great! My wife and I think you are so cute and we LOVE your videos. Keep it up! 😘👍

With you going to therapy makes other people consider going that well help so many of us thank you for sharing and talking about it. YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!!❤❤❤

I hope Jay gives you a big tight hug everyday 😊

We are think we all go thru this at a certain age. I'm 50 and still don't know what I want to do with my life. I have 4 degrees because I keep going back to school. It's OK if you are not sure of your next step in life. Very few have it figured out. We all go thru this and as a woman we are our hardest critics! We love you and we are here for you!!!

I just wanted to say what a great video and what a beautiful soul you have what my grandmother used to call an old soul.. it's very refreshing to see someone as real intelligent and compassionate as you are .. I enjoy your videos thanks again real is hard to find in today's world and you are definitely real thanks again for your kind thoughtful and beautiful words and tell that fiancee of yours the Jeremy says what's up Mr Tampa Jay Man.. peace love and unicorn hugs to you both.!!!

Do what makes you happy. I'm 55 and I thought about changing my path many times but I stuck with my second career path. I have ended up in a job that I really like. I don't have to deal with the public and I'm currently working at home and that makes me happy. I hope you find your path. I do enjoy your vlog though.

Cris. Give yourself grace. Life is always changing as we grow. The amazing thing about it is you don’t have to keep doing the same thing. There are tons of people out there who do things other than what they went to school for. Keep your head up!

For the little I've known you, I know how much you enjoy doing the KZreads so I knew you weren't going to quit (I also know it isn't a possibility to not quit like you said in todays video or how it hasn't crossed your mind,) but I'm glad you started to realize that there needs to be a work/life/tube balance. You're important and you and your body deserve that rest and mental well being. You're being proactive and "nipping it in the bud," as they say. And I'm very proud of you for seeking out that help. It's such a taboo subject that needs to be talked about more. I also saw today's video and was nervous for you (as you were too,) but omg, yay for it going really well!!! You know you and Jay are always welcomed on our resort days over at the Wilderness Lodge if you need some R&R by the pool. Just reach out, I'm always around . And can't wait to see you soon. Oh! Not sure if this could be some encouragement but I have 5 librarian friends and they absolutely adore their jobs. It's the calm in this crazy world when you're able to help and connect others to such wonderful stories in books. I personally don't think it's too late but respect your mantra of "everything happens for a reason," but def search deep in your soul if you ever considering going back to school. Anyhow! Y'all enjoy your trip in MO! Been loving the pictures on the grams. 🖤💀👻

You are not alone in feeling lost. I am still trying to find my way since my wife died in August 2018.

Totally relatable…you never know who you’re helping when you put your thoughts and feelings out. I’m just incredibly happy that you’re not quitting vlogging anytime soon!🖤 Be kind to yourself my friend.

Cris, Im a few minutes into watching your video, and I can 💯 relate!!!

I quit being a production baker 2 months ago. Lost all my benefits, life insurance & a really great pay. I also lost the source of my physical ailments as I grow stronger from within. It was the best decision of my life. I look forward to moving forward. So will you.