My Testimony | From 17 Years an Atheist to New Age to Jesus

I never really understood the power of a testimony until I started sharing mine with others. I don't really think mine is all that special, but God has put this on my heart to share so that others who may have similar experiences can relate and feel encouraged. Also for those who may know me personally that don't know how this came about, whether they knew me before my walk or after, thanks for checking this out. This video is anything but perfect (it's got some missing video and it's lengthy), but as a recovering perfectionist, I give myself the grace to put it out there regardless of everything that tried to stop me from doing so.
[And no wonder, for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. 2 Corinthians 11:14]
By no means am I making fun of or wanting to make myself seem better than those who are currently stuck in their disbelief of God or for those who are still refusing or skeptical to accept Jesus. I'm just someone who was awoken to the deception of the enemy in so many aspects of this world and wants to warn others too, especially those who are either deeply in or just diving into the New Age spirituality that's becoming mainstream these days. I know people who have been in it for a while, make their living off of these practices, or are just starting to get into it. I can see and feel the desperation for meaning and purpose emanating from them, just like I once had, and I just want you to know that nothing will ever fill you the same way Jesus does. And again, this is coming from someone who was stubbornly anti-religion and anti-god to the core.
Looking back, it's hard to believe that I spent more years of my life hating myself and wanting to die and end my life every single day, to now loving life and all it has to offer. All of the glory goes to God for this though, he's the wonderful author of my story. You're not alone in your struggles and you are so deeply loved just as you are. Don't ever let anyone make you believe you have to deserve love. God gives you his love freely, willingly, and unconditionally-no strings attached. The hard part of course is to believe it after you've been hurt so much by man.
[Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. 1 John 4:7-8]
Thank you for taking the time to read and watch this :)

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  • @chemforumlachimie6754
    @chemforumlachimie67542 ай бұрын

    This is a very beautiful testimony! God bless you!

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    2 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it! ❤️ May God bless you as well

  • @carladee8983
    @carladee89834 ай бұрын

    "Life doesn't get easier, but it gets easier to handle." Amen! May our Good Shepherd bless you and continue to guide and protect you on your journey with Him. Thank you for sharing your testimony 🩷

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    4 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for watching it! :D

  • @Sophie-P
    @Sophie-PКүн бұрын

    God bless you! SO glad you're a sister in Christ! I've only been a christian for basically a year coming up in August 2024. Truly, there's hope for us all. I was saved after hopping from atheism to Buddhism and then new age stuff too. Praying for my husband now too. (If anyone is particularly inclined his name is Lewis, please pray for us and Gods hand in our lives) Hopefully God will help him see the Light.

  • @kelseypeterson9656
    @kelseypeterson96562 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing--there are aspects of our stories that are soooo similar. Wow. Definitely spent a lot of time on Gaia tv. Had lots of attacks from little demons and sleep paralysis and visitations from ETs. Beginning my journey on letting Jesus into my heart. Whenever I had visitations when I called on Jesus they would go away and a very bright white light would appear.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    2 ай бұрын

    It's so interesting how some of us end up taking a similar path! I remember being fascinated by people's stories of visitations. Now that i know what i know, it's pretty freaky. Im glad you've found Jesus 😊 Thanks for taking the time to watch

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    Amen, the name of Jesus is power...and being a child in Christ surely is the best kind of life, even though the roads in life are a rollercoaster ride, yet with Jesus He keeps us in His embrace and there is no better place than His embrace. Glory to Jesus forevermore. Amen.

  • @linzzz519
    @linzzz5194 ай бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your testimony! Praise the Lord for His good work in your life! I’m a nature lover, too. The Creator has made extraordinary art in the world! I mostly explore on the central coast of California and in southern Utah. I’ve had the pleasure of visiting Canada a couple times as well… it’s so beautiful.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    4 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it! I've been to So Cal, so I've seen a bit of the coast there. I've driven through Utah before and I wish I would have stopped to explore more of it. Hopefully I can some day :D

  • @rockyroadranch72
    @rockyroadranch725 ай бұрын

    So glad God pulled you out of your depression. That's a hard one. God bless.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    5 ай бұрын

    It really was! I couldn't have done it without Him. Thank you for taking the time to watch

  • @ml10102
    @ml101024 күн бұрын

    😃Life gets easier because He is handling all things if we allow Him to and say YES to Him. Thank you for sharing your story! I pray that your life experience is not in vain. That you will continue to allow God to use all the good and bad things in your life to bring others to JESUS! Super proud of you! See you on the streets of Heaven...one day

  • @paulmadsen51
    @paulmadsen51Ай бұрын

    Loved this video!!! Your new age experience sounds incredibly similar to mine. Glad you found your way to Jesus too! God bless!

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    Ай бұрын

    Thanks for taking the time to watch!

  • @nancygorman
    @nancygorman16 күн бұрын

    Glory to God ❤

  • @jeannedeshazer-ellsworth9995
    @jeannedeshazer-ellsworth99952 күн бұрын

    Thanks for sharing your testimony. Your joy is obvious. Peace is in Christ.

  • @JennMena82
    @JennMena826 ай бұрын

    What a beautiful testimony 🙌🏼💖 God is so good!

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    6 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it, Jenn. I appreciate you 🥰

  • @lsnymodel
    @lsnymodel3 ай бұрын

    Amen sister! Thank you for your beautiful testimony. Hallelujah to our Risen King Jesus!

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    3 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it 🙏

  • @kaykwanu
    @kaykwanu6 ай бұрын

    I am so happy for you. You seems to be at peace and have so much that the people in the world are yearning for, and you cannot loose it. Amen.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    6 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much, I appreciate you watching 🙏

  • @user-wk1ie5sj8f

    @user-wk1ie5sj8f

    5 ай бұрын

    Amen sister in christ 🙏🙏🙏​@kuroPOLAROID

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, oh how His name rings so beautifully and directly rings to Heaven' door and Jesus answers and says welcome Home.

  • @csmoviles
    @csmovilesАй бұрын

    Praise the LORD, oh my soul, oh-oh my soul❤🥰😍❤❤❤. Our GOD is an awesome GOD❤❤❤❤

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    Ай бұрын

    Amen 🙌

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    Not to question but am curious and many profess God, though sadly many leave out whom God gave to be the Mediator between mankind and The Creator. There is only one God and Jesus is the true God and all whom call upon God and want to know Him must go through Jesus, even though Jesus is the same God; The Creator. God established for Himself that His creation comes to Him through what He gave to be The Way, The Truth and The Life; being Jesus Christ The one and only Saviour and God. Anyhow, please try to not take this the wrong way, am just curious to whom you call God.

  • @mscavsfan
    @mscavsfan5 ай бұрын

    This was such a joy to listen to. God bless you!!

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    5 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much! I appreciate you taking the time to listen

  • @christisgod71320
    @christisgod713205 ай бұрын

    I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty. Revelation 1:8 KJV

  • @Crow_ma_boae
    @Crow_ma_boaeАй бұрын

    I love you maam! Much love ❤❤❤

  • @Davoanderson93
    @Davoanderson935 ай бұрын

    Matty mullins also good music! 👍😁🙏. "memphis may fire"

  • @wandasewell
    @wandasewell3 күн бұрын

    So glad you shared all Jesus our LORD did for you. Never tire of sharing and enjoying Him. Get to know His Word very well! Maybe you'd like to check into Shalom Bible College and Seminary in West Des Moines, Iowa for a degree. That's where I got a couple of my degrees from. God Bless.

  • @abutrikahbest8611
    @abutrikahbest86115 ай бұрын

  • @willdansbury8479
    @willdansbury84794 ай бұрын

    I am delighted you found your way back to Christ. I went thru a similar journey but eventually found myself back to Catholicism as that's where I found the fullness of the faith. May I ask which protestant denomination you were baptized in and why you believe catholicism to be lacking? Thanks, and may God bless & protect you, my sister in Christ! Will (Cornwall, Ontario)

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    4 ай бұрын

    Thank you so much for taking the time to watch it! I wouldn't say I ascribe to a particular denomination right now, but the church I go to happens to be Pentecostal. I don't believe in (and also get freaked out) by speaking in tongues though. It's one thing that doesn't sit right with me. I have been feeling a pull towards Orthodox/Catholicism though, not going to lie. I think because it seems as if the Catholic church has been infiltrated by the enemy, as well as the conflicting things in scripture (e.g. idol worship/icon worship, calling priests "father", praying to Mary, the ritualistic nature of the mass) that still have me not convinced it's the right path. I'm beginning to understand the history of the church and how it's basically where it all started, but I still have a lot of questions about things. I've been praying about it though because I'm starting to see more protestants going back that way. I know God will help fill in those gaps for me though. I'm open to growing in the faith, whichever direction that may take me :)

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    The best thing any christian can do for self is to leave religion behind and go directly to the source which is God Himself through Jesus Christ. Mankind had created for itself doctrines that God did not give but the enemy satan brought by his whispering lies, that man would listen and fall, thus being corrupted by his cunning lies. Not here to judge religions, for only God is rightfully The Judge...am here to simply state that churches have gone astray from what God gave for the church to be and thus churches are an organization instead of being the house of God that children of God could come and have fellowship. Now is the time to break away from man-made ways and solely call upon Jesus for Him to be the way maker that the path would be as He intended it to be and all glory being His alone. 🤍

  • @Davoanderson93
    @Davoanderson935 ай бұрын

    By the way if u still listen to any metal stuff by chance you should check out a band called "for today" there a christian band i knew these dudes long ago ironically and it was before i ever even had a relationship with God. God is good and works in amazing ways!! 🙏☝️

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    5 ай бұрын

    Thank you for the recommendation! I'll definitely check them out :D

  • @Davoanderson93

    @Davoanderson93

    5 ай бұрын

    @@kuroPOLAROID AMEN!! 😁👍

  • @willdansbury8479

    @willdansbury8479

    4 ай бұрын

    Just to add some.. Zao Norma Jean The Chariot

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    4 ай бұрын

    @@willdansbury8479 I appreciate you coming to add more recs lol

  • @John_Lete
    @John_Lete27 күн бұрын

    Through all the years, from birth and up to date Jesus our God has been holding you in His embrace, even though the years away from knowing Him were allowed to take place yet surely Jesus was reaching out to you from a young age to know Him, though He does not push anyone upon Himself but patiently nudges His own towards Him throughout life. Jesus surely knows His own from before each child of His is born and surely He knows the lifespan of all and with His own whom He knows will choose Him at some point in life before passing, so God has His embrace throughout life and patiently waits for the moment when His own choose Him. As it took place with you, since the moment you chose Him, He has been talking to you, even though it is not audible, His Spirit voice surely speaks and the spirit inside His own hear Him even though the mind does not fully understand. At a point in walking with Christ, His voice becomes familiar, even though it still is not heard audibly. Being born again in Christ, that is where Jesus' Holy Spirit makes a home inside the believer and with time His Spirit voice becomes familiar and Jesus tidys the home He makes inside His own whom are born again. The growing God surely does but for each child of His, each one is at a different place of being grown, so the best thing we can do for ourselves is to not compare ourselves with other believers and their walk with Christ. Walking with Jesus is a lifelong process and so each one He individually works on as He knows is good for us, yet He works on establishing His truth about His saving grace. His saving grace salvation gift can never be earned and first and foremost Jesus works on us to know so and not be caught up in the lies that are taking place in religions that are across the world. As it seems to be, that you already know there are thousands of religions in the world, but the truth of God is that He is not about being in a religion. God did not create us to be in religion but to have a one on one relationship with Him and this is not for having salvation, because salvation is His gift and not one person is able to earn the way to Heaven. Christ offers salvation for free and this is critical for believers to understand and be grounded on His foundation of truth, which is His saving grace foundation. Grace can never be earned. It even goes for us between one another...whom would want to pay someone for them to have grace upon the one needing grace? Same applies to love, to have someone whom loves another simply because of love, that is true love. Paying for love is obsured, it is offensive and same applies to us towards God, He does not want for us to try to pay Him or work for His love, which is the same thing as for salvation, surely God does not want for anyone to try and work or pay for salvation, which is impossible to do anyway and no one will ever enter Heaven by doing such. Entering Heaven is solely a gift and can never be earned. Now as for walking with our Saviour, of course it is good to walk with God, though to walk with Him by His Spirit of truth; His Holy Spirit being the mender of our hearts along the way and it has nothing to do with having the key to Heaven, for the key to Heaven is His gift. Religions have done so much damage and all religions fall short of the glory of God. A believer should never be binded to a religion, even though it may sound good yet behind the scenes religions infiltrate the mind along the way and the doctrines of man become prominent. Does not mean to not have fellowship with church goers but being a babe in Christ, it is best to remember that Christ is our fellowship and He leads the way to having fellowship with brethren in Him. Nameing self as a religion is not what God wants for His sons and daughters, though there are millions and even billions of christians that do such and overall many end up having division umongs one another, and for what, when God gave us His simple command to love Him and our neighbor, yet the division that takes place because of man-made doctrines through religion has done so much damage to christians. The foundation of Christ was and is all about His grace and being children of His whom look not unto the commandments of the law that He gave in past times but to look to Hin for His great commandment which was stated above. The Ten commandments are whom God is and not only those ten because there are hundreds of levitical commandments that He once gave to mankind but it does not mean mankind is to do them, which would be impossible even if mankind tried. Let alone just ten commandments mankind could not do. God gave His commandments for showing us whom He is and what we could not do. It is why God came down as Jesus, even though He was born of Mary, Jesus was, is and always will be God. It is why Jesus claimed the title as God, because He was and is God. Jesus left His God state in Heaven when He came down to be born of Mary, thus He took on the form of a baby, to be born like one of us, yet proving He could be sinless and the ultimate goal for Him doing such was and is to save mankind by His grace for mankind. See how dangerous religions are, they distort the truth of God and make it all about their doctrines which every religion has made for itself its own man- made way to Heaven, even though many religions use the Bible, yet they distort the Word of God to fit their own man-made doctrines. Satan is the one that has whispered lies to man, that it would do what is taking place across the world and God is allowing it for His greater plans of victory will show the whole world, from begining of time until the last person born, that God is God and the only God and once satan is put in his place and destroyed at the end, all of God' children will know He is The Alpha and Omega...even though many know now, yet when all is said and done, His creation will forevermore know that God is forevermore on The Throne. Never again will such take place as it did with Adam and Eve in the Garden of Eden. What the angel of light did, which we now know as the satan the devil, it will never again happen because forevermore the story of what took place will forever be know in Paradise. Anyhow, went on a bit but I hope this makes sense and overall may Jesus our Lord be the way maker for you along the way and surely He will. Be patient for God to mend the heart and mind as He knows is good...not that you are not already...meanwhile do not get yourself into religion by taking on the lable of mankind, stick to Jesus our God and surely He will make the way in all things and overall all the glory being His alone. Blessings be upon you and yours and His wisdom fill you daily according to His will and for His glory. Amen.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    27 күн бұрын

    I appreciate you taking the time to listen and share your comments with me. It was beautiful and I hope others get to see it too.

  • @merrylittlelife7674
    @merrylittlelife767416 күн бұрын

    Since you said you didn't know much growing up Catholic, have you ever thought about learning more about Catholicism?

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    15 күн бұрын

    Yes! I started reading the catechism of the catholic church and am considering making a return 🙂

  • @MasterSophiaChrist
    @MasterSophiaChrist3 ай бұрын

    24:00 wrong definition of reiki in your mind. It is how Jesus heals. Energetic transfer. Nothing wrong with that. The body is energy, the universe is energy, consciousness is energy. Or electricity if you wish. So nothing wrong with reiki at all. Something wrong with your perception and interpretation of things. Hope that helps.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    3 ай бұрын

    Reiki is the demonic counterfeit of the same healing Jesus does. As far as I'm aware, inviting spirit guides into the room for healing is the same thing as inviting demons. If the holy spirit is not present, it's not of God.

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    Can say for sure that reki is not of God...whereas the devil infiltrates the minds of lost souls to make them think that his ways are truth, when in fact the devil satan is all about cunning tricks and lies. Sadly many are tricked by the lies from satan and all the devil does is lie, even though he will use the Bible as a way to enter in the lives of lost souls, where the devil will use half truth from the Bible to make himself sound intelligent and as if he is bringing truth but he sneaks in his lies at the same time and the for folks that listens to what the devil gives, at some point the mind becomes fully corrupted because the devil is all about corrupting minds. Even though the devil has no real powers like God does, though the devil is very wise at how to be sneaky and sneak himself into the lives of people by his whispering lies. Now is the time to call upon Jesus and ask Him to open the mind that the heart would know His truth and His truth sets the heart and mind free from the cunning lies of the devil where his lies take no effect anymore. Call upon Jesus and see the comfort that comes from Him which is like no other comfort for He is the real Comforter. 🤍

  • @tarno_bejo_
    @tarno_bejo_6 ай бұрын

    Despite all the experiences you might have had. I would suggest you to learn other religions as well. So, you can compare. So, you aint gonna be in the situation like, when you thought that strawberry ice cream is the best. But you havent tried vanilla ice cream, banana ice cream, durian ice cream, or any other kind of ice cream. There are judaism, islam, hindu, etc. You can read tanakh (its slightly different than OT as i understand), quran, and vedas, etc. Cuz, i ve noticed so many atheists, specially from u.s. They kinda said, christianity is wrong, therefore every religion is false. Or even for the worst: then they disbelieved the existence of The Creator. Its like, they didnt see any other option. Its like, either you eat in the house or you die. When it should have been: if you cant have food at home, you can go out to find food and eat. But even tho you can eat ice cream in the house. I would still suggest you to go out explore the most popular ice cream out there. By then you can understand whether the ice cream you ate in the house was the best ice cream or, there is way better ice cream out there outside the house. Only you understand what i mean so far tho.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    6 ай бұрын

    Hey! So I did briefly mentioned that I explored other belief systems, I just didn't go into depth on that. I tried looking everywhere else to see what I liked better than Catholicism and I was really fond of Buddhism for a while. I didn't practice any of it though, but I definitely explored everything else before landing back on Christianity because I refused to believe it was the way. I definitely made sure I tried all the other flavors first 😂

  • @tarno_bejo_

    @tarno_bejo_

    6 ай бұрын

    @@kuroPOLAROID You have read tanakh and quran?

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    6 ай бұрын

    @@tarno_bejo_ I've read some excerpts of the Qur'an and pretty much know the premise of Muslim/Islam. None of it resonates with me, but I respect those who practice them. The other one, no.

  • @tarno_bejo_

    @tarno_bejo_

    6 ай бұрын

    @@kuroPOLAROID Well, i always suggest people to get to know religions/beliefs from the main books. Cuz, its rational to learn religions from the books, not people. We are learning the teaching of religion afterall. Not learning people. Like, if learned christianity from kkk. Then later i found out of what kkk has done to black people. I wouldnt go further from that moment. But as i mentioned prior, read the books like tanakh (you know that tanakh is different than OT, right?), quran, vedas, bhagavad gita, etc. Even, i would suggest to read other bibles as well (not sure of which bible you ve read. There are protestant bible, catholic, orthodox, etc. But you should have known it. Looking back on your background). You are smart. So, im sure you can handle of reading those whole books. Oh, now i know how i should have been using the transcript (of this vid) to navigate this over 40 min vid (i could watch 2 episodes of anime with that X-P ). I think, you have rather mentioned about "explored different things". Not religions perse. Just like your online friend back then. I hope i can help you see things differently again. But in my case, i hope you can see thing differently with the least bias. Some say, we can not escape from having bias. But we can try to have the least bias. Thats why i recc you to read the whole books (the main source without prejudice) of atleast the major religions/beliefs. Not just getting know it from of what people have told you.

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    6 ай бұрын

    @@tarno_bejo_ I agree. People have a tendency to misrepresent the belief systems they claim to follow, but it's because humans are humans and they're prone to fail. Thankfully God gives us so much grace when we fail him daily. Unfortunately there are a lot of religious people who won't extend such grace to others when they're imperfect and that ends up turning people off from practicing the faith. I would definitely love to be able to read those texts in full when I can get the chance. I'm still making my way through the entire bible. And yes, I have multiple versions and even the stuff that was taken out by King James himself.

  • @allanmichel1041
    @allanmichel1041Күн бұрын

    I hope you have forgiven your ex. If you don't, you run the risk of loosing the Lord's forgiveness.

  • @maloreyhenderson9101
    @maloreyhenderson9101Ай бұрын

    Lost me at the difference between christian and catholic. Ignorance. Catholics are christian. They are the original church, passed down to is through succession of the apostles via tradition, word of mouth and scripture, as the bible teaches. Catholics compiled the bible. What you are referring to are protestants, which is just a blanket term for the thousands of sects of Christians who came up with their own interpretation of the bible and therefore believe they have some special authority to be disobedient to the church. I

  • @kuroPOLAROID

    @kuroPOLAROID

    Ай бұрын

    Hey, you're right and I have been learning to know the difference. This testimony is definitely outdated for me now. I've been considering going back to Catholicism or Orthodoxy. I've started reading the Catechism to answer a lot of the questions and hesitations I've been having about it, and I can see how my view was ignorant. I wish that growing up catholic, I was told these things, but I wasn't.

  • @John_Lete

    @John_Lete

    27 күн бұрын

    May Jesus open the doors that He knows need to be opened and close the doors that need closing, that religion and it's man-made doctrines would be set aside...God does not approve of any religion and surely He did not give mankind religion. Lean on Jesus and He will reveal His truth and the heart and mind will be set in Him alone and not mankind at its lies through religions. All religions fall short of the glory of God and only The Alpha and Omega is the way maker of setting the mind and heart on His truth of whom He is and what He wants for His creation.