I am so very sorry. I lost my mother 30 years ago to pancreatic cancer. It was 5 weeks from diagnosis to death. Losing a mother is a very profound loss. May your grief be short and bearable, and may your memories bring you joy. Blessed Be. ❤

I’m truly sorry for your loss, I also lost my mom 5 years ago, Leuchemia, it sucks, the impotence, the pain, but eventually you learn how to live with it

@tammyorr721

6 ай бұрын

Y'all might want to think about getting palliative care even if you dont want to do hospice. It's symptom management along with fighting the cancer. So kind of a combination.

My mom died about 3 weeks ago from lung cancer at the age of 66. Dying is one thing, but dying from cancer is cruel. From diagnosis to her death she only had 2 and a half months left. The last day when she was conscious, I couldn't even have a coherent conversation with her because she was so confused. It's devastating. All that said, I feel for you and hope you are okay. A lot of your descriptions are similar to what I experienced. Cancer is shit and we should put everything we can into science and progress to beat it.

@ginnye2268

2 ай бұрын

Thank you for the profound gift of your story. It was familiar to me because my husband died over a year’s time from a glioblastoma brain tumor. Although he died decades ago, our experience paralleled yours. The frustration of the inadequate (& sometimes cruel) healthcare, the lack of information (also no google then), the way the disease escalated- making us lurch constantly from hope to despair. Virginia Eskridge, Pittsburgh, PA

I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for being brave enough to get in front of a camera and let us know. You're a lovely person. Take all the time you need, we'll be here when you're ready

@balorprice

8 ай бұрын

Only just getting to the end of the video now and just have to say, your advice is absolutely spot on. Being able to offer specific things to people who are grieving, so they don't have to organise help, that's the best. And yes, taking time off from the 24/7 grieving so you can grind on Baldur's Gate, the GUILT you get if there isn't anyone to tell you that's okay.

I didn't know that you had reappeared on the platform. When I did, I was presented with this news. I am sorry for your loss. May your mother rest in peace.

Sorry for your loss. I have to admit not many weeks after watching this vid. I went through the experience of watching my Dad die over 24 days. The anticipatory grief and the stress of that is brutal. It has been one month and I feel like the shock is slowly starting to fade. But what I'd like to say is Thank you for sharing your experience. Trying to find those few silver linings was something to focus on and made some parts of an awful experience at least meaningful and special.

Thank you so much for your thoughts precious...my little sister has now entered her final hours (glioblastoma), just lost my Mumma 6 weeks ago (brain aneurysm from Warfarin), your soothing words and beautiful calming voice have been so soothing for me 💕 Blessed be 💜💕💜🙏

I watched and listened to the end. I know I'm not there in the room in the room but I felt like I needed to be there for you to have someone to talk to.

Sorry for your loss❤ I lost my 34 year old son to cancer. It was extremely painful, we did have some special moments and a spiritual moment that was extremely special. I too was diagnosed with breast cancer 8 months after he passed. Cancer sucks!! Thank you for sharing your story I can truly relate.

I'm so sorry for your loss. My Gran had skin cancer earlier this year, though she underwent operations unfortunately it seems they were not enough as we recently found out it has spread to her brain. There is nothing to be done, but hopefully make her happy for the time she has left, in much the same way that you seem to have done with your mum.

Sincere condolences. I lost my mother earlier this month to cancer that spread to her spine. She had been in and out of the hospital for a few weeks and just kept getting worse. I saw it coming a mile away but it doesn't help. It feels so weird just looking back to September and remembering her being ambulatory and energetic, to October when she was bedridden and barely coherent. I remember her telling me she was ready to go when I was visiting one night, and she was gone three days later. This stuff happens way faster than you can possibly imagine. I'm sorry you also had to go through all this agony. I'm fortunate enough to have a lot of good people looking out for me, and they've made it so much more bearable. I hope I can provide some small comfort by sending good vibes over the internet.

I'm sorry for your loss. I've been through something similar or been close to it. My whole family is left, and my wife has none of her family except for extended family. Last was her father who had lymphoma, and it was a multiple-month process. My wife is a specialist nurse so she knows way too much about what could or will happen. I spent multiple months taking care of the family and not speaking with my wife because she was so exhausted from talking with the extended family and explaining and handling their fears and feelings so she had no energy to talk to me. Sometimes, people need you to do stuff without asking or talking because handling others could be a burden.

⚡️Dear sweet lady. This video is the first of yours I have seen. I am very sorry for the loss of your mother. My youngest sibling has cancer and so does my brother-in-law. Sadly, illness and death come to us all - to some of us sooner than others. I am touched to my core and grateful to you beyond words for being so brave in the midst of your pain. Listening to you share the details of your experience will help everyone who is fortunate enough to watch this. Please know that you were an incredible daughter! (I am daughter and a mother of two grown men). There is no doubt in my mind that your mom’s transition was blessed as you said your blessings for her in you heart! I believe her soul felt fully free to cross over at that exact moment. May your higher power give you all the strength and courage you need in your journey ahead. God bless you and thank you ✨🙏🏽💖

I can understand what you are going through because my mother was diagnosed in April with anaplastic thyroid cancer and has a short time to live. It's been a horrible few months. Lots of encouragement, and a big hug.

10 years ago yesterday, I also lost my mother because leuchemia. She was 51 years old. Be strong and happy in your life, I'm sure that your mother would have wanted it that way.

@michellefrench6617

6 ай бұрын

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I can't even imagine the pain and struggle... this is one of my nightmare scenarios and one that's played in my head several times over. My deepest... deepest condolences.

I’m so sorry for your loss. The place your mother was at, sounds like my worst nightmare. I had worked in a nursing home, as part of my Psychiatric Technician training. After 3 months of working in this place, I vowed to never leave a family member in a place like this. I watched in horror as all the Nurses struggled with their patient loads. I understand that not everyone is built for nursing care, and it is so expensive to have care for our parents. It just breaks my heart at your poor Momma waiting an hour just to be toileted. I’m so glad you discharged her. What a disaster!

The poignancy of this video is beautiful, you’ve created a work of art that touched my soul just by sharing your experience. Thank you, may your mother rest easy 💛

I'm sorry for your loss, I hope your heart and soul will heal and the sun will shine again on your life, and may your mother rest in peace.

I'm so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine what you are going though! I can't speak for everyone, but I have a feeling I speak for a majority, but we are going to be here regardless. We will be here when you are ready, don't push yourself

I am sorry for your loss, but as someone going through something similar, thank you for sharing. It really made me feel less alone in my ordeal. Thank you.

So sorry for your loss. I remember meeting your mom a couple times in high school and thinking she was really cool. It's hard to believe she's gone - she always seemed so full of life. Also wow those pictures - she really didn't age for 10 years.

All my condolences. Coincidentally, you're posting, today, the day where I also lost my mother to breast cancer a decade ago. I was just 13 at the times. It felt unreal and unfair, I couldn't accept it. After two years of fighting, when the erratic talk came we knew it would be comming soon.. The last time I saw her, she couldn't formulate a single word. It was heartbreaking. I hope that you and your family stay close in this experience, and that you can talk about it with them, as it is liberating or as you have done by sharing it here. You're strong. Courage ❤️

My condolences, sorry to hear you've gone through this

I'm So Sorry for your Lost

How incredibly special that those were her last words to you❤ So sorry for your loss.

What a lovely mama🥹… I wish I had known her; I adore the thumbnail! Your mom seems like such a precious lady, may she be resting peacefully 🤍🩵🕊️.

I didn’t know you were uploading again, until I saw this. I’m truly, deeply sorry to hear this. That is awful and something I fear massively. I just want to say that you’re strong, funny, smart and a whole lot of other adjectives, and have been an inspiration to me over the years. Please take good care of yourself. I wish you all the best ❤️

You're such a lovely human just like your mom. She lives on within you forever ❤

I am very sorry for your loss. I've always enjoyed your videos. I hope the pain gets bearable when it can.

i'm trully sorry for your loss. The last year i lost my grandfather on surgery and i understand the pain behind all your scenario. Maybe the hardest thing to do after this is learning how to keep moving forward. Takes time, but is possible, and i know you have the strength for made it (i been watching your videos during this year). I hope you feel better.(and srry for any error in redaction, english isn't my first language)

My heart goes out to you and your family 💙 I’m so sorry for your loss; try to stay strong and try not to forget how she would want you to live a happy life. I’m 29 and my mother passed away when I was 23 after a 7 year battle with b-cell lymphoma brain cancer, she had gone into remission for some time before having a second growth and had passed soon after. My mom was my best friend; she loved animals and was always trying to be there for others. I try to do these things for others and other things in my life to keep her alive even though she is gone. No one deserves this and I’m sorry you’ve had to witness and endure such a tragedy. 💛⭐️💪

@bobbieanncraigie4671

Ай бұрын

Thankyou for sharing your story

So sorry for your loss. Lost my father this year due to cancer, diagnosed Sept, doing ok, then one week took a turn for the worse and passed away two weeks later. Such a shock as I was expecting surgery and recovery, such a heartbreak to sit by this side knowing there is nothing left to do, but to wait for the disease to take over. Loss of a parent hits so hard, and nothing seems to matter anymore since I will not be able to share it with my dad in the future, wishing both of us strength to get through the grief.

Hey Anne words cant describe the things that i want to express in sympathy. The strength for you to speak openly and holding onto every last memories you had is unbelievable, i was just randomly browsing about things that i wanna do as a career in my life cause im lost in life then suddenly i found your previous video then led me to this. Please take the time to fully heal yourself and go through all this experience. Sending hugs and a bunch of condolences! You had been a stronghold throughout this saddened story. Take care and be well

To be honest, I don’t even know what content you usually put up, but I must’ve liked it because I subscribed. I am about 40 minutes into your recollection and pretty much just weeping. Thank you so much for sharing this personal story I think it will help a lot of people ❤

I've watched the video from start to end, cried a lot during some parts. I can relate to you on many levels, my father is also dying from cancer. I'm also a game developer and recently lost motivation to work due to the emotional and physical stress. I hope you continue to make videos.

Last time I watched your videos was years ago which was about Unity tutorials. I had a lot of appreciation towards your content so I subscribed. Now after all these years I see this video. I have been there 14 years ago. My mother died of thyroid cancer. It was also awful. Sorry for your loss and wishing you good luck for the rest of your journey

Hey. Always was a fan. Will pray for you and your family. Take care.

Following you from your first videos. I bring you my condolences to you.

So sorry for your loss. Best wishes to you.

Sorry for your loss. Wishing nothing but the best for you

I am glad I happened onto this video. I am also glad that you were able to get there with your mother during this time. I took care of both my parents when they were dying. I am grateful I was able to be there. Your mom was a great mother to you and it is shown by your tender care. I still miss my mom and she passed about 8 years ago. I still suddenly think I should call her and then I recall she is gone. I miss her. Take care.

Hi, I just saw your video explaining game enghines and I came to your channel to check out your new videos. I am really for your loss. I hope you are doing better and healing. Take care.

So sorry for your loss. The loss of a loved one is really heart renching and can be painful to bare. I lost my dear dad and my cousin to cancer and watching them gradually deteriorate from their original self to cancer ridden self is the most painful part for me. I miss them dearly..

i feel you. i lost my girlfriend 10yrs ago and still struggle sometimes from it. experiences like this not always heal and sometimes not everything can be turned into something happy again, since you cannot turn back time. things changed and cannot be relived or redone ever again. loss is strange. we all should know it is our fate, however most of us just push it away their whole life not thinking about it. how is ignoring it "sane" . would'nt it be better to be a little more "prepared" instead? i wish you peace and comport! i hope you can find happiness, again.

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please stay strong.

I'm really sorry for your loss and would love to help in any way... Well i guess a complete stranger from the internet can't help besides saying that i'm really sorry to hear that. I can't imagine how you and out family and friends feel :( Huge thankyou for telling and a lot of love for you and your whole family and friends

@kugelimgesicht88

8 ай бұрын

The pictures made me cry. At least there are a loving and loved animals :3

I listened to the whole thing earlier this morning. My mother died in October on Friday the 13th. Your experience and mine are not the same because I was not nearly as close to my mother as you seemed to be from listening to your two hour story. It really just makes me fear for my dad for when his time comes. This may sound macabre but I thought it was really peaceful sounding how you got to see them take the last breath. I'm sure there was far more going on to make it not as serene as it sounds. I would just find it extremely relieving if I got to see my dad take his last breath because of how much he means to me and how I think the world will be a lesser place when he finally passes on.

Dear Hapicat Since I watched your video ony big screen TV. I found your video ony phone So I could send you my heartfelt condolences. What you went through taking care of your Mom. Her tragic final weeks. What I found so refreshing. Was how honest you were on everything you experienced. No powder puffing over what is graphic and so painful. In honor of your dear mother. She raised one tough, strong woman. Thank-you & your partner for being there for her. As a person with cancer. I've experienced how people can wirhdraw and abandon you. I get it! It:s scary as hell and people just. Want to run. Happi. by sharing your experience about your Mom. Your helping others supporting a loved one. What really touched me was your ( make do ) spiritual send off. How you described how your Moms spirit was poof just gone. You know shes in a better place now. No pain no cancer. Bless your heart dear! Being a lover of horses. I'll look for those with your spicey mare! ❤❤🙏🙏

I’m sorry for your loss. I just found game engine video. I didn’t watch this video but will in the future. Thank you for your for helping me understand game engine a bit better and hope you’re doing well.

I know it does not help and I am one of many to say this, but I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You didn't deserve to go through this. Your mum didn't deserve to go through this. She sounds like an absolutely amazing person

Thank you for sharing your story

So, It took me a lot of time to completely watch and understand whole video. It had a really big feedback in my soul. Thank you for it. ( i started to watch it when it was just posted) You've been through a nightmare I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. But every nightmare sometimes ends. and you starting to look at this as nightmare, that left in other world, so i hope you will too. I think, that way is much easier to go through loss. Death is awful. For both, who dies and who losses. But would be our life so interesting if we live in world without it? The only thing, i can do, because i am on opposite site of earth, is just say, that i am really sorry about your loss. And i hope. No, i know, that your mother was a great human. Because only great human can grow up a daughter, that will be interested in so many things, that will help so many people (as somebody wrote in comments on some of your videos) by sharing her skills on youtube. but loss it is not a reason to stop. Its perfect time to slow down, renew your great memories, and go with new powers I really hope, that telling this story made you feel better. not long time ago I lost my grandfather... We were close, but not so. when he was in the mind, i was too young to get his exp, to understand his tips.... but last 2 years, when i grew up, he had a Dimentia. Dimentia is a very long goodbye.... even thought about his death can switch me from calm to confusing. I am really scared, what will be when i lost people who i communicate with like every day or every week.... (P.S. If anyone want to talk, and be heard, you can find my contact on my github. my github is in links in my profile head.) (P.P.S. Sorry for my english)

My condolences. May your mom RIP

Thank you for the advice about what to say to a grieving person... "tell them you will listen to any sad story they have" I have had a couple of hospital adventures with my brother and my son and basically learned to be a nurse assistant cuz they dont move fast enough or see the urgency when needed.... It is good to know about these type of facilities and their lack of care for end of life or critical care patients. Be Well too 🥰 and thank you for sharing...

I've heard similar hospital/senior home stories from my family, where the caretakers are borderline abusive because the patient physically cannot vocalize about how they are being treated. Broken ass system.

For what it's worth, bad times bring people that matter to us closer. And it helps to focus on that at times.Take Care Anne.

Thank you so much for your perspective.

So sorry for your loss

Sending you hugs and strength sorry for your lost.

I am Sorry for your terrible loss, but to cope up i just like to say u that, if u loose ur most loved ones then it shouldn't be a source of sadness to u just becuz she isnt near u physically but must be a source of joy, happiness, inspiration, wisdom and at last great memories. Love from India 💟

You are absolutely beautiful inside and out. Your mother loves you so very much. My sincere condolences 💐

I'm sorry 😔 I hope you've been healing these last few months.

So sorry for the loss of your mother. I have a very close relative who had a glioblastoma gr 4 removed last august. His MRIs have been clear. He had radiation and chemo 1st then is now on chemo Temodar main. It’s a wait n see. He starts getting dizzy and shaky and we immediately worry that his tumors is growing back.. You just have to do what you need to do the best you can do. I hope you are doing ok now.

I'm so sorry for your loss. 😢

I'm so sorry for your loss happie

Sending you lots and lots of love ❤

Sorry for your loss 😞

16 years ago I was home on leave it was late August and my Grandmother had a clean bill of health, had just stop smoking everything was looking good, by January she was ate up with cancer and was on so many painkillers she was basically in a coma. I was glad I was able to make it home to see her one last time but I wish I was stronger to have spent more time with her in those final days but it killed me to see her like that. But I was lucky, my Grandmother had a whole team of family members taking care of her, so none of her care fell on me. I'm glad that you could be there for your mother when she needed you the most. And take her last words and keep them in your heart because the one thing that doesn't die is a parent's love for their child.

I feel your pain, my father died of leukemia in May of this year. You slowly grow out of the sadness.

Sorry for your loss

I used to volunteer for hospice in Maryland. I understand that magical, spiritual process of dying. She honored you by passing through to the other side with you by her side.❤

So sorry for your loss. This is a scarry video. I have lymphoma and lately getting more swollen lymphs. What type of lymphoma did she have ? Surprised scans didn't pick it up.

I'm so sorry for your loss

I'm so sorry for your loss. Brain cancer is really horrible, and the signs aren't well known, and doctors have been known to downplay the possibility or ignore symptoms. Anybody who, or knows somebody who, suddenly starts getting chronic unexplained headaches, dizziness, eyesight issues, personality change - go and get a scan! The doctors may tell you it's probably nothing. That's fine. You're still getting the scan. Neurological symptoms like that are serious business, and whether it's a tumour or something else, it's important to get on it soon!

Sorry for your loss :(

I'm really sorry this is terrible, my mom died of cancer too some years ago. Hang in there!

I'm so sorry 😞 for your lost....

Sorry for your loss.

I am so, so sorry.

I'm so sorry for your loss :/

I'm sorry for your loss :(

I am very sorry for your loss.

My father died of prostate cancer back in April. I remember subbing to this channel years ago when I thought I was going to make it as an independent game developer. I lost interest in that dream shortly after and completely forgot your videos until recently. I am sorry for your loss.

Well we can all say we're sorry and everything else, but it won't change anything. Anyway, we're (at least me) here for you and support you anytime. Would like the cat to be happy again.

I express my condolences 🙁😔🙏✊

Hi, sad to hear, some days ago my father died of terminal cancer, what he was having wasn't a good life in the end, so know he is in peace. Even tho I sad is for the better

I'm sorry for your loss.

very sorry to hear the very sad news.

Sorry for your loss, and for whole terrible experience around it, because of the people who don't give a F...

I'm sorry for yours loss.

I’m scared. I’m terrified actually. My mom has Glioblastoma. She was doing well and suddenly she has started getting agitated and acting out of character. She has a new lesion that was seen on her most recent scan but just a couple of months ago it was looking good. She has an obtune that she needs to wear 18 hours a day and she’s not been wearing it as often and i recently moved closer to my job. She’s been getting bad headaches and I just lost my dad in January and my dog before that. I don’t know what to do. I am just rambling and sorry. I’m sorry for your loss and rambling. I’m sorry and scared

My mother had brain cancer too. Originally, it was lung cancer from smoking which had metastasized into her spinal cord up into her brain. She was only 47 years old. I was at her bed side for weeks until the day she succumbed. She took her last breath with her head on my lap while I gently stroked her face. The experience was brutal, but what came from the ordeal was my becoming an artist. It has now been thirty years since that time, and I have many works of art spanning photography, sculpture, painting and art videos. I pray you too will have a positive outcome from your mother's death. I pray God blesses you and your family.

It’s devastating to lose your mother especially you never get over it I will be in therapy the rest of my life and that’s okay.Cancer is just devastating my mom waited to long by the time I found out she was stage 4 I believe she knew but that’s what mothers do they try to protect their children through therapy I’m learning I have to let that anger go

im sorry hope you're doing fine

I wish you peace and serenity.

I'm sorry for your loss. My dad and my mother-in-law both died from cancer recently. They both had forms of lymphoma, which appeared at around the same time in both of them, March 2021. They both had trouble getting in to be diagnosed because of the pandemic. My mother-in-law didn't respond well to the chemo, and passed in January 2022. My dad responded well and was in remission at the end of 2021, and was good for about a year, you wouldn't know he had been sick. Then in February 2023 he started getting sick again, finally went to see the doctor and the cancer had returned with a vengeance, and he died in March 2023. The pictures of your mom in bed remind me a lot of my dad at the end.

I'm sorry that happend :(

My condolences

my condolences