My Journey Through Depersonalization & Derealization

Hey everyone! So glad you’re here. Today I’m going to talk about my personal journey through DPDR. I experienced severe DPDR symptoms every day for 2 months before I was able to get the help I needed. The people I got help from taught me not to fear my DPDR symptoms, but rather to allow it and accept this is what I’m going through. The work I put in did not make the symptoms go away all at once, but bit by bit, I slowly was able to overcome it and I’d like to share this story with you!
This video is intended to be for education purposes, not diagnosing. You should work with physician to seek a medical diagnosis.
Book Recommendations:
At Last A Life by Paul David
Feeling Unreal: Depersonalization Disorder and the Loss of the Self by Daphne Simeon and Jeffrey Abugel
Anxiety-Related:
Hope and Help for your Nerves by Dr. Claire Weekes
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About me: After working so hard in my recovery process and watching others recover too, I became inspired that anxiety recovery truly is possible. I focused hard on my personal journey and made great strides towards relieving my level of anxiety. In hopes to help others, I now share many of my personal tips with my social media followers on a daily basis.
Disclaimer: I love taking you along my journey of anxiety recovery, but I am not a licensed doctor or mental health professional. I am an accredited life coach and do not intend to give medical advice of any sort. I have struggled for many years with anxiety which significantly got worse after a panic attack while driving in early 2020. I was diagnosed with GAD and PD at that time. I use this platform to share things which I have learned in my journey so far and tips which worked for me. You should consult a physician about your own recovery process.
If you are in crisis please contact the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at: suicidepreventionlifeline.org/​ or 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or your local emergency services.
-Alexia, Not So Secret Diary of Anxiety
Educator, Mentor, ICF Accredited Coach

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  • @hellbig9959
    @hellbig99593 жыл бұрын

    DPDR was the scarys thing i've been gone through and glady found a way out if it!

  • @jenntheavenger

    @jenntheavenger

    3 жыл бұрын

    How were you able to let the DPDR go?

  • @hellbig9959

    @hellbig9959

    3 жыл бұрын

    Baisicly it is important to accept the situation as it is and not strongly focusing to the symptoms. What also helped on my way to heal the DRDP was: Sport (enduarnce or/and weight sport), Meditation (body scan meditation helped me alot, also meditations with affirmartions to accept what is), Yoga or Tai Chi/ Qi Gong, Acupuncture or/ and Shiatsu-massage, surounding yourself with lovley people/ friends. Also important is to reduce or better to quit drinking: Coffee, Energy Drinks, Cola, Fanta, Sprite and all other things who include sugar and coffein. That´s all things which boosts the DPDR. CBD Oil helped for DPDP and supplements like Magnesium Citrat, Vitamin B12 and Omega 3. That´s the main facts for some level. When somebody needs help or have any questions, feel free to ask me on instagram, name "hellbigx" :)

  • @tannerbrandon5211

    @tannerbrandon5211

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@hellbig9959 did you recover?

  • @hellbig9959

    @hellbig9959

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@tannerbrandon5211 yes i did.

  • @lisas.881

    @lisas.881

    3 жыл бұрын

    Did you also experience head pressure/ear pressure?

  • @yummypasta92
    @yummypasta922 жыл бұрын

    I love how you talk about DPDR as a brain function that tries to protect you, and it's nothing to fear - the compassion you build for your own mechanism is so important. I think this can be said with a lot of our other negative emotions as well and the way we scold ourselves for feeling or responding a certain way. A lot of what the brain does is a defence mechanism and ultimately it comes from love for life and existence. If we demonise it and feel more threatened and separated from our own mind, it responds in such a way to protect itself even more and exhausts itself. On the other hand if you approach it with a compassionate heart your brain feels less threatened and it won't feel the need to trigger DPDR. So an open, healthy and compassionate perspective is so important. This stuff can be talked about in terms of chemical imbalances for sure but a lot of what helps is psychological work, which totally makes sense because psychological work literally changes your brain directly. "Oh she needs more help, let me produce more fog!" Was very funny. 😂 It seems like you've found a very good DPDR therapist and I'm glad.

  • @JSkitt
    @JSkitt2 жыл бұрын

    One thing i learned is you might experience this when your going through a significant change in life even tho you may not realize it, especially when accompanied with existential thoughts, my best bet is dont think about it, were all gonna get through this

  • @babiiluv7931

    @babiiluv7931

    Жыл бұрын

    You right. I went through it as a result of panic attack then existential thoughts flood gates came in 😢…it happen last year. It been getting better some days with thoughts 😊

  • @garrygrewal4321

    @garrygrewal4321

    Жыл бұрын

    @@babiiluv7931 i was watching some videos about simulation and suddenly a thought came in my mind that what if it's all just a dream ? What if all these people are just my imagination and I'm stuck in my own imagination and i can't believe how there are 8 billion people just like me all breathing I'm going through hell right now can you please help with it if you can ?

  • @babiiluv7931

    @babiiluv7931

    Жыл бұрын

    @@garrygrewal4321 hey! The only thing I can suggest is do not watch no more of those videos period. As painful or scary as it is you need to walk outside around other humans (exposure to the mind show it there is nothing to fear). All of this is anxiety. ALL OF IT. Think of the times where you were not afraid or thought like this. You must replace that thought or realization with something more stimulating. Puzzle, book, video games. My thing was my realization of me EXISTING. Which in the beginning messed me UP to the core. Scared me so bad. The intensity in the body and airy feeling in the mind was unbearable. Now I still feel like this BUT it’s not intense no more. The power of the realization is dying down day by day. All this started last year for me. I can send you some videos to help you with this very thing too.

  • @garrygrewal4321

    @garrygrewal4321

    Жыл бұрын

    @@babiiluv7931 in my case i think that this whole world is fake and I'm the only real one here and when i think about it i feel lonely and depressed,however i go to play football daily which kinda resfreshes my mind but once I'm back home this feeling starts to take over again i just want to convince my mind that this whole world is real and their are people just like me who are 100% real, if you can send me some videos about it then please help me with it. I'll be thankful to you forever for that. ✌

  • @babiiluv7931

    @babiiluv7931

    Жыл бұрын

    @@garrygrewal4321 okay are you on Reddit?

  • @window__licker
    @window__licker2 жыл бұрын

    This sounds so familiar, like it's me who's talking.. 😅 It's been a good 6 months since I started to understand this thing and why just allowing it to be part of you until it detaches is the real way out of it. I'm starting to feel normal again for longer and longer. Not consistently but I'm at a point where it doesn't matter. I've been able to accept this to the point where I'm used to this being my life. Seeing it detach just makes me relieved that all this progress is finally paying off. To anyone feeling stuck: let go. Stop worrying about this and just let it be your life for the moment. Let yourself feel sad and angry about it. Just let it all out. That's what your body and mind needs to recover. :)

  • @xroshamariex

    @xroshamariex

    2 жыл бұрын

    thankyou so much for this. the only thing i currently keep struggling with is that i’ll have constant internal mental battles with myself throughout the day because i’ll be feeling normal again and then all of a sudden i’m like, what if i don’t feel normal ever again? and i start freaking myself out. i don’t really know how to make it stop, but if i can control these thoughts i think i’ll be able to get rid of this quite quickly too

  • @micol5725

    @micol5725

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@xroshamariex I'm feeling the same you're not alone, also when I wake up in the morning I feel so disoriented and I start to panic.

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@micol5725 same

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    it gets out of hand fast, like I start thinking about dying and maybe what happens after death. Can anyone help with this

  • @micol5725

    @micol5725

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@themaincharacter420 don’t worry when the anxiety will calm down you will realize what happened to you, that, you entered in a vortex of anxiety that makes you ask questions of which normally you don't give a damn. You try to solve existence with a reasoning rational……. it is impossible (but normally I assure you that we don't give a damn) and the Fact that you didn’t find a satisfactory answer to you puts even more anxiety. But remember that you feel anxious because you are anxious, not because you can't find answers. Anyone can ask those questions but not being anxious Because they change the subject of reasoning. You, on the other hand, obsess about it I know that it’s hard because I’m on the same boat but try to not to focus on those thoughts they are just the product of your anxious brain. Think that it is just temporary and soon it will pass. Sorry for my English (:

  • @deepcoolclear
    @deepcoolclear2 жыл бұрын

    It makes you feel like you’re watching your own life doing everything - you know you’re doing things, tasks, etc but you feel like you’re observer even though you’re doing it. It makes you feel like you’re going crazy and it definitely not a nice feeling. I pray for everyone going though it as you’re very brave.

  • @Ludicrousgixxer

    @Ludicrousgixxer

    Жыл бұрын

    Hope you’re doing better, i caught it somewhat early it’s only been 2 weeks for me, i hope you are living better

  • @DsDs-lk9gz

    @DsDs-lk9gz

    Жыл бұрын

    Do u get pressure behind ur eyes and hard to focus and feel like brain dead?

  • @taohiker1
    @taohiker12 жыл бұрын

    Meditation and chakra healing. This brought me out of having it for over 11 years. These two things will bring down your anxieties/fears and help you find the answers that are within you.

  • @melissaquintero7201

    @melissaquintero7201

    Жыл бұрын

    Taylor Wick how long did it take for you to see a difference?

  • @masnwrdl0511
    @masnwrdl0511 Жыл бұрын

    I've had this before and it's so fucking scary. It's also very dangerous since you think everything is worthless or not real. I'm genuinely surprised how this disorder isn't talked about much. It deserves more attention, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Awful.

  • @pitchdark2024

    @pitchdark2024

    Ай бұрын

    the de-realization trip is seeing the world as a soul, as what we all are, spirits, the brain function leaves that makes us human. All it is gone we view the world as the energy that we are controlling our bodies. For some reason even god, aliens or coincidence, our mind have been flooded with daily chemicals that stop you seeing this truth and clouds everyone heads everyday. Until you get this trip which takes away the blockers. Very overwhelming

  • @DennyNFT
    @DennyNFT3 жыл бұрын

    I’ve had this on and off since I was 7. I’m 24 now. It affects my memory and Is usually accompanied by existential thoughts and feelings that I might be dead. My big triggers are lack of sleep & caffeine, Even thinking about it triggers it for me.

  • @jocelyndoyle3041

    @jocelyndoyle3041

    3 жыл бұрын

    Omg same, I’m 14 and I’ve had it every day now on and off and all the time and I feel like everyone is fake, I’m fake just it’s horrible

  • @MiguelLopez-cj9bz

    @MiguelLopez-cj9bz

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jocelyndoyle3041 it’s a stress response dr Clair weeks is the Woman who broke the cycle look her up

  • @sydneiherndon4941

    @sydneiherndon4941

    3 жыл бұрын

    it’s a traumatic coping mechanism or intense stress response to protect you. because your brain might know or think that it’s too much to handle. i also experienced this when i was seven and realized that i’m a highly sensitive person and i suffered from emotional neglect. pushing trauma or even emotions away will cause some sort of response in your body. definitely look into high sensitivity , i’ve noticed ppl that suffer for dpdr have intense nervous systems and there’s definitely ways to understand and get through it. :)

  • @Totallyme.3

    @Totallyme.3

    3 жыл бұрын

    I've had dpdr for 3 years now and I also have memory issues , existential thoughts and feelings of unreality. It definitely sucks but I'm on my way to recovery

  • @1MNUTZ

    @1MNUTZ

    2 жыл бұрын

    It has something to do with the serotenergic system. It usually comes from panic attacks but stems from ocd anxiety depression all disorders that stem from poor serotonin

  • @cedricouma7338
    @cedricouma73382 жыл бұрын

    I got no breaks this thing is like my new normal 😭

  • @boopinmysnoot5093

    @boopinmysnoot5093

    6 ай бұрын

    Me too. How are you now? Have you healed?

  • @emilyferguson2164
    @emilyferguson21642 жыл бұрын

    I had recently developed DP/DR due to a panic attack of a traumatic incident that occurred. It’s been about a month and I can very much tell you the reason I have started getting back to my life is by accepting this is just my brain protecting me, I am okay and I will recover. I accept that symptoms around me, but I don’t let them scare me into a corner like they did the first two weeks of this. I wouldn’t eat or sleep. Ended up in the ER. I was afraid to do anything even play video games which is something I enjoy a lot. But I pushed through, I went to get help, got put on an antidepressant for my anxiety as I already had anxiety before the incident. I am now a month into the medication as well and that also helped me too! My biggest advice is to face your fear!!!! Go out with friends, do things your body is afraid to do. Because once you realize that you will be okay, then you will slowly (gradually) come out of how you feel. I am still recovering, mostly now I just have a tough time sleeping, but i am doing so much better!

  • @ME-jf7ho

    @ME-jf7ho

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hi Emily can I get in touch with you?

  • @xroshamariex

    @xroshamariex

    2 жыл бұрын

    this gives me so much hope! thankyou for sharing

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    Your comment gave me hope! Tysm for sharing this :D

  • @lailawilson4023

    @lailawilson4023

    Жыл бұрын

    @@themaincharacter420 how are u now

  • @lailawilson4023

    @lailawilson4023

    Жыл бұрын

    @@xroshamariex how are u now

  • @caleighbocrie577
    @caleighbocrie5772 жыл бұрын

    Whenever I have a conversation with others about mental health, I always bring up something Ram Das talked about. He said that when other people do hurtful things, to see them as simply phenomena. That we give power to something when we personalize it (think that this hurtful thing was because of who we are as people) so, we only further the initial pain to become more drawn out and powerful. Well, I thought to myself about this and I thought about mental illness. Mental illness is simply phenomena. It’s an illness that happened to happen to us. It’s not who we are though. The more we view our mental illness as who we are, the more power we give the illness, which only makes the mental illness more difficult to manage. And if we only try to fight the mental illness and see it as evil, then the mental illness will win the fight. It knows you inside and out, so how do we lessen its sting and eventually release it? If we notice the feelings, sensations, and thoughts and say to them, “You exist,” then that allows us to stop giving it power by fearing it and stops us from trying to suppress or fight it. It’s not easy, and I haven’t been cured or anything, but I can become more comfortable with my anxiety, paranoia, depression, disassociation, etc. When I successfully practice this, I, instead of feeling my mental illness constantly stabbing my entirety, it feels more like a rock in my shoe or a rash I can’t itch. Hope this helps someone as it has helped me :)

  • @sara-tg9ds
    @sara-tg9ds3 жыл бұрын

    thank you queen 💓 this makes me feel a lot better

  • @nicole-br6hx
    @nicole-br6hx2 жыл бұрын

    this gives me so much hope!!! thank you for this❤️❤️❤️

  • @yoan4152
    @yoan41522 жыл бұрын

    I found my de-realization feeling was an inner dis-enlightenment. A lac of light & electrical FLOW inside my brain and blood. Breathing continuously, longer and deeper (as Wim Hof breathing) brings back that FLOW, enlightening sens of presence again.

  • @douglashaggerty5463
    @douglashaggerty54632 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for walking through these videos. I’ve experienced this. Been dealing with it and speaking with people/watching videos (yours included) have helped so much. You explain it so well and that really helps put things in order.

  • @stevemajic2958
    @stevemajic29582 жыл бұрын

    Thank You so very very much for sharing and for being so genuinely open and honest. It is comforting to find people like you that comprehend this experience and can share it with those of us who know this experience. You come across as such a beautiful person which is a genuine, sincere compliment to you!

  • @SarahHarmonyKeys
    @SarahHarmonyKeys3 жыл бұрын

    So helpful❤️❤️ thank you for normalizing this

  • @JarSac1
    @JarSac16 ай бұрын

    I really appreciate this video. I’ve been dealing with this for months and you describe exactly how it feels.

  • @savannahbabana4290
    @savannahbabana42903 жыл бұрын

    Your videos are making a difference in my partner’s life, I’m here to learn to try to help them, hopefully I can try to calm them down

  • @cassandramacedo9422
    @cassandramacedo94223 жыл бұрын

    I think the consistency is the part I've been missing lately, some days I am very hopeful, and other days I am not so I'm interested to try and incorporate this now

  • @nicolejacobsoncovers
    @nicolejacobsoncovers3 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for these videos 🙏🙂

  • @ok.iguess.4660
    @ok.iguess.4660 Жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for giving me hope, I felt like it was just going to get worse so thank you

  • @sarahmartins88
    @sarahmartins883 жыл бұрын

    I used to get it every single day when I had no clue about it now that I did my research and watched your videos i feel much better and experience it a lil less. The thing that's happening now is I'm experiencing more of depersonalization when ever I look at myself in the mirror and pictures of me, I try to keep calm and tell myself that God has chosen this body for you be grateful of it and take care of it and I try to kinda distract myself after that so I really don't know what to do because that also starts to cause me derealization if i keep on thinking about it Ps.my sister first suggested me your vid on Instagram and that's when I did my research god bless her and u🥺❤️

  • @tonyk8633

    @tonyk8633

    3 жыл бұрын

    Awwwww much love your way my friend.

  • @kaylaumana3917
    @kaylaumana39172 жыл бұрын

    You give me hope

  • @Charlie-gb9or
    @Charlie-gb9or Жыл бұрын

    Your story is amazing. Thank you for sharing

  • @marioschristodoulides8932
    @marioschristodoulides8932 Жыл бұрын

    I ve been suffering from dp/dr for years, everyone says its your brains reaction to protect you from overwhelming sensations of fear and anxiety. I know what it is, I read all the books she mentioned and 3 more. I still have it and I don’t know how it will ever go away. Realising what it is doesn’t seem to help me recover from it

  • @guineapigtalks
    @guineapigtalks2 жыл бұрын

    I just found you today from the driving anxiety video. I hope you are doing well. You made some great vids ❤️

  • @ncoltt492
    @ncoltt4929 ай бұрын

    Hi Alexia, I wanted to tell you that your face looks exactly like that of a person who was defeated but who got back up and won all his victories in a row. I can never thank you enough for all these videos, advice, but above all understanding. You deserve everything, you deserve a lot. And like you, me too and all the people who suffer from these cursed disorder.

  • @jenntheavenger
    @jenntheavenger3 жыл бұрын

    Did you have any visual symptoms? My DPDR has some crazy visual symptoms, sometimes my eyes dilate and things gets blurry or hard to focus on but it comes and goes 🙃 also floaters which at times can be hard to accept 😔

  • @mrc.p8423

    @mrc.p8423

    3 жыл бұрын

    Definitely

  • @marinamanoilov

    @marinamanoilov

    3 жыл бұрын

    same 👋

  • @alise6025

    @alise6025

    3 жыл бұрын

    yes

  • @jessicadodge1148

    @jessicadodge1148

    3 жыл бұрын

    Me too!

  • @bdeleon522

    @bdeleon522

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same.

  • @SkiitZ
    @SkiitZ3 жыл бұрын

    I feel like this is what I have but I don’t know how to explain it properly but feeling like i’m agreeing with everything you say. Whatever it is, it’s beyond scary for me and I need help asap. I’m 24 and had this for as long as I can remember but I need it to leave!’

  • @moechu7637
    @moechu76373 жыл бұрын

    ty for telling how long u actually had it for , coz others always say its irrelevant, but it is relevant to someone who is actually in the thick of it & trying like he'll to recover , been 2+ yrs , but i just let it b , & forge ahead , can't stop any longer .. ty 👍🙏

  • @nicole.asmr.

    @nicole.asmr.

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yup it definitely is relevant, I’ve had it for about three years now but slowly as I started to accept it I have gotten a few of those breaks from it so that’s great :)

  • @tonyk8633

    @tonyk8633

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@nicole.asmr. hi Nicole! I’ve had derealization for 1 year now and I hate every minute of it always feeling like I’m dreaming and nothing is real but nothing makes it go away so there’s really nothing I can do. It does suck so much though feeling like nothing is real etc

  • @Lyrical_Dawns
    @Lyrical_Dawns Жыл бұрын

    I am having this now it is not nice every day glad you got better x

  • @beyonceknowles9381
    @beyonceknowles93813 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much for this 🙏. You made me feel like I’m not alone in this & that someday my DPDR will go away😊. Thank you for normalising this symptom of anxiety 🙌 I honestly thought it was just me going crazy!

  • @prettyluh_amberbanks7094

    @prettyluh_amberbanks7094

    2 жыл бұрын

    Did uu recover

  • @beyonceknowles9381

    @beyonceknowles9381

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@prettyluh_amberbanks7094 hey! I still get occasional waves of DPDR on a daily basis, but I personally found that when you do hobbies (ie swimming, going on walks, socialising) it takes your mind off all the anxious thoughts. I wrote this comment when I was stuck in lockdown, so now that restrictions have eased I feel much happier. Take care xx

  • @garrygrewal4321

    @garrygrewal4321

    Жыл бұрын

    @@beyonceknowles9381 what about now,did it go away or you still dealing with it ?

  • @trizzyroze9340
    @trizzyroze93403 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story. You give me so much hope!

  • @breyonnabillups150

    @breyonnabillups150

    3 жыл бұрын

    how are you feeling now

  • @lifestylemoon5431
    @lifestylemoon54313 жыл бұрын

    Hi✌🏻 DP and DR both have the same symptoms. or similar. For me it started after a nightly panic attack. Since then, of course, I was very scared and then googled a lot. This is the biggest mistake 😅 When you stop fighting and relax, it becomes less and goes away completely. Everything is fueled by fear🤷🏼‍♂️. Sorry for my english. im from Germany😊

  • @MartyByrdeIntern

    @MartyByrdeIntern

    2 жыл бұрын

    are u recovered now?

  • @kelvinlopez4792

    @kelvinlopez4792

    2 жыл бұрын

    How it take you

  • @lifestylemoon5431

    @lifestylemoon5431

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@MartyByrdeIntern yes, 95%🚀

  • @lifestylemoon5431

    @lifestylemoon5431

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@kelvinlopez4792 im fine, thanks. And you?

  • @kelvinlopez4792

    @kelvinlopez4792

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@lifestylemoon5431 that’s good doing better have you heard of dr Claire weeks she’s help me a lot !!

  • @rosiefear8012
    @rosiefear80123 жыл бұрын

    Thanks so much for sharing this video. I FULLY relate to how you feel. ’ve had chronic dpdr for 8 months now, I had dbt therapy where we did a lot of mindfulness, it defiantly made me more aware of my self and my thoughts, and feel more in control. But it wasn’t until about 2 months ago where I saw a video on KZread that said to just pretend it isn’t there that it started to go away more. I was doing better. Then I started drinking again with friends and now after about a month of that, I’m starting to get worse again. It’s so exhausting not being able to be a normal 20 year old, without facing the consequences. Also going to uni in September and not sure how I’m going to cope if the dpdr is still strong. Xx

  • @maresal7248

    @maresal7248

    2 жыл бұрын

    3 months passed since you left your comment, how are you doing now man?

  • @lj4449
    @lj44492 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for the tips! You’re awesome 😎💪🏋️‍♂️🤩🥳

  • @gletongoliath675
    @gletongoliath6752 жыл бұрын

    I call it "THERE", because that how it feels every single time I get depersonalized. It`s a VERY scary experience.

  • @user-tw9nj3pu9m
    @user-tw9nj3pu9m11 ай бұрын

    This is my second time it comes back 😢please make more videos about this horrible situation

  • @mirzzz7487
    @mirzzz74873 жыл бұрын

    I have the feeling that Im not alive or something, or that Im trapped inside my head, is this also a symptom and does it make sense? I used to have severe panic attacks with heart palpitations, sweaty hands, nervous feeling etc. These stopped and now Transformed in DPDR I guess. Fucking anxiety always finding a way to fuck my life.

  • @nicolejacobsoncovers

    @nicolejacobsoncovers

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes sounds like anxiety and that can cause it

  • @singsavmusic

    @singsavmusic

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same🥺

  • @mel6650

    @mel6650

    2 жыл бұрын

    That’s literally happening to me rn, I completely feel you 🥺

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    Anxiety is really scary bud, but you can do it! There is a light at the end of this dark tunnel!

  • @edetesther114

    @edetesther114

    Жыл бұрын

    I feel so relieved knowing that someone atleast knows how I feel. Cuz trying to explain this feels like I’m crazy. I did feel the cold sweating, panic attacks and all that, but just like yours they stopped and transformed to DPDR. Ever since then I feel like I’m not living. I wish I can get it to stop quickly.

  • @moseskangeja3009
    @moseskangeja3009 Жыл бұрын

    Crazy how I been feeling like this for a 1 year and 3 month and how I never told nobody cause they wouldn't understand .Crazy how I feel out of body ol the time Crazy stuff and yet I continue to live life and watch it pass by . 2 ppl I know have died during all this happening . Couldn't cry could even give condolences to the family cause I felt numb I did but didn't feel like it came from me

  • @sheidi_ec6134
    @sheidi_ec61342 жыл бұрын

    These things would happen to me badly when I smoked weed. I strongly believe weed worsened my anxiety too.

  • @singsavmusic

    @singsavmusic

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same and i have a massive phobia of weed now😒

  • @xroshamariex

    @xroshamariex

    2 жыл бұрын

    no same a month has passed and i’m literally trying to get better. i’m a lot better now but like i’ll have moments where it feels like it’s never gonna get better regardless of all the progress i’ve made cause i feel trapped on this dpdr

  • @shanna___

    @shanna___

    Жыл бұрын

    Same here! It’s what started this whole thing for me, was a traumatic weed experience 12 years ago!! 😢

  • @___JasminaR___________________
    @___JasminaR___________________ Жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much i hade it for three months now. Gosh terrifying

  • @shanna___
    @shanna___ Жыл бұрын

    Hi! I just found your channel after looking up anxiety while driving (which I’ve had the last like 10 years off and on - mainly DPDR anxiety) and I have to say I love your videos! They’re so refreshing and helpful! I wanted to ask you what you think triggered your DPDR to begin with? I had a bad MJ experience happen to me at the end of 2010 and it seems like my DPDR and panic attacks started ever since that traumatic event! So just curious what you think brought yours on?

  • @PRAMILAVESH
    @PRAMILAVESH Жыл бұрын

    hey beautiful souls, i am dealing with this but trust me just try to avoid this feeling and get busy with reality it will go away slowly❤

  • @angelspence2565

    @angelspence2565

    9 ай бұрын

    Literally I had it for about 2 years tho but I’m definitely looking forward to understanding myself more

  • @LRose.
    @LRose.3 жыл бұрын

    I thought I was going crazy or going into psychosis I thought I would never go back to normal 😭

  • @ratatouillewitbaguette6108

    @ratatouillewitbaguette6108

    3 жыл бұрын

    literally me rn but luckily i have a really good therapist and have hope it will get better i thought i was schizophrenic

  • @nicolejacobsoncovers

    @nicolejacobsoncovers

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yeah same here. Worst experience of my life

  • @oasis3583

    @oasis3583

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yeah same mine was drug induced so thought I was in a drug induced psychosis

  • @laurenbaldwin6068

    @laurenbaldwin6068

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@nicolejacobsoncovers hey did u get rid of ur dpdr

  • @laurenbaldwin6068

    @laurenbaldwin6068

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@nicolejacobsoncovers hi did u recover

  • @carlicek6166
    @carlicek61662 жыл бұрын

    Thank you so much you are ani angel

  • @normalotus1071
    @normalotus10712 жыл бұрын

    Thank you

  • @savannahbabana4290
    @savannahbabana42903 жыл бұрын

    Can you make a video on long term and in the moment strategies to get through dpr

  • @saqibgoraya751
    @saqibgoraya7512 жыл бұрын

    Love u sooo much.

  • @trillest_arii
    @trillest_arii Жыл бұрын

    hope i can find my way out of it.

  • @reyaalexistv164
    @reyaalexistv1642 жыл бұрын

    When you said you saw a specialist & that helped a lot did you go to a therapist ?? Some other kind of therapist or psychiatrist?? … I talked about this to my therapist when I finally found out what it was & she was very confused.. so I feel alone as if no one can help me. No one around me understands it. & I don’t know who to go to..

  • @Gibson-md9yi
    @Gibson-md9yi2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for the video did u have visual snow as well and 2d vision

  • @lauraagudelo3090
    @lauraagudelo3090 Жыл бұрын

    Anyone knows why it only happens when I’m about to start my period?😭😭 I’m okay the whole month but it starts days before my period and then it goes away

  • @atlasthenorwegiancat

    @atlasthenorwegiancat

    Жыл бұрын

    Omg I’m the same ! Mostly around my cycle

  • @patrickobrien4453
    @patrickobrien44532 жыл бұрын

    Hi, I have Major Depressive Disorder along with DP/DR I have had all of these for around 8 years now. What would you recommend?

  • @laurenbaldwin6068
    @laurenbaldwin60683 жыл бұрын

    Heyy could you help me please iv got depersonalization through vestibular disorder, regardless will this depersonalization go away or not im soo sick 3months 24/7

  • @cedricouma7338
    @cedricouma73382 жыл бұрын

    I don't feel like am making any progress for 3 months now and nothing new is happening please guide me through this much appreciation

  • @KarolB244
    @KarolB2449 ай бұрын

    3 months with this and i feel like im loosing my mind. I even ended up in the psychiatric hospital for it which did nothing to help me. I also tired a ton of medications with little relief

  • @butterflys6642
    @butterflys66422 жыл бұрын

    This was the scariest experience I ever almost had heart attack

  • @ExoticJade
    @ExoticJade Жыл бұрын

    My name is Joey I’m 14 years old I’m from Canada I’m going through this right now and I felt my first happy feeling since 6 days ago it started ❤️

  • @garrygrewal4321

    @garrygrewal4321

    Жыл бұрын

    Hey my name is garry and I'm from india and 15 This also started about 4 days ago for me when i was watching videos about simulation and suddenly a thought came in my mind that what if it's just a dream and all these people i know are just my imagination and I'm stuck inside my own imagination,i can't just explain it but I'm going through hell rn I'll just say keep going bro we'll make it together 💪

  • @youngmidoriya4552

    @youngmidoriya4552

    Жыл бұрын

    @@garrygrewal4321 you scared yourself. You'll be okay, I'm 15 and this started 14 days ago for me.

  • @moonprevalus8313

    @moonprevalus8313

    5 ай бұрын

    @@garrygrewal4321 How are you now?

  • @pratikshakhadka3612
    @pratikshakhadka3612 Жыл бұрын

    I feel shadow watching me everyday changing so many faces who i know in my family and making me more illusions on who i really is its really hard i shouldnt move i should move back to complete this phase and i dont know how shoukd i complete from back

  • @SourceHD
    @SourceHD2 жыл бұрын

    What do u feel about psychadelics for healing of this?

  • @LotteLattes
    @LotteLattes3 жыл бұрын

    I dont even know if i have these i just dont feel like myself i dont recognize my voice like i know im talking but it doesn't feel like me or sound like meand it always seems like i cant recognize my mother like i know its my mom and i know i love her but i cant fully recognize her face as my mom. Its so scary i dont want to wake up and not recognize my mom entirely. I have been having extreme anxiety, depression and insomnia. And if i lose the one person who truly supports me i dont think i can go on

  • @micaelaperez9794

    @micaelaperez9794

    2 жыл бұрын

    I’m going through the same Exact thing as you. I feel so alone and i’m trying to find someone to walk this Through with but i can’t find anybody. I feel like i’m going through this alone. Idk what to do at this point i’m just fed up.

  • @notofthisworld5267
    @notofthisworld5267 Жыл бұрын

    Mine is also like a fog. A layer of film over my eyes. Tinnitus and head pressure.

  • @lia2360
    @lia23603 жыл бұрын

    Can you do a Video how to accept dp ?

  • @DavidVonR
    @DavidVonR3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so glad you recovered! DPDR sucks, but it's temporary and harmless.

  • @ceciliadelacruz2358

    @ceciliadelacruz2358

    3 жыл бұрын

    Did you experience it? If you did, how long did it last for you because some people have had this for many years and that is terrifying. I actually think that’s the reason why I’m still experiencing it because I keep putting that thought in my head that this is going to last forever.

  • @mackenzie5677

    @mackenzie5677

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@ceciliadelacruz2358 watching this video is a sign that you will be okay. those people who suffer with it for so many years are the ones who refused help or were unaware of how to accept

  • @nicolejacobsoncovers

    @nicolejacobsoncovers

    3 жыл бұрын

    Thank the Lord because I thought this was permanent

  • @DavidVonR

    @DavidVonR

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@nicolejacobsoncovers It's not. It'll go away with time.

  • @ME-jf7ho

    @ME-jf7ho

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@DavidVonR can I get in touch?

  • @carinav.2581
    @carinav.25812 жыл бұрын

    I don‘t know if i have that or brain fog. I don’t want to diagnose myself, but I’ve had the symptoms for a year. And no doctor wants to help. Some say I’m young, I can’t have anything. Others say I’m still in puberty even though I’m 20… I don‘t know what to do. My quality of life is so bad. Sometimes the symptoms are so severe that I get scared that I don’t even come home. I can’t focus on anything. My parents don’t support me at all. They just say you’re so young and constantly exhausted or that I’m just making it up. I hate this feeling. Can someone help me? I still try to study and work every day. But I can’t take it anymore.

  • @personk5999
    @personk59993 жыл бұрын

    Please make another dpdr video

  • @Zerofocus570
    @Zerofocus5702 жыл бұрын

    Hello, i want to ask why does any kind of screens trigger my depersonalization? 🥴

  • @marinamanoilov
    @marinamanoilov3 жыл бұрын

    Oh gosh its so horrible i hope it will go away its so bad 😭 it feels like a dream and it makes me feel i might go crazy 😭

  • @tonyk8633

    @tonyk8633

    3 жыл бұрын

    Dude you have No idea. I’ve had it for 1 year now and I always feel like I’m dreaming and nothing ever feels fully real like everything looks exactly the same but it feels so cut off

  • @marinamanoilov

    @marinamanoilov

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@tonyk8633 I‘m actually getting better, you really have to stop watching Videos like this, and just do nothing about it and it will lift...

  • @laurenbaldwin6068

    @laurenbaldwin6068

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@marinamanoilov hi i have DPDR could u help me pls im fed up

  • @marinamanoilov

    @marinamanoilov

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@laurenbaldwin6068 Hey, i have it to, but dont worry to much about it... its not easy at all but try to focus on other stuff its just the anxiety nothing more, Trust me on that ☺️

  • @laurenbaldwin6068

    @laurenbaldwin6068

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@marinamanoilov will it completely go away fully where il return bak t normal?

  • @andoffthegreat3921
    @andoffthegreat39213 жыл бұрын

    bro how do you find someone who specializes in dpdr?

  • @mfrancisco_850
    @mfrancisco_8502 жыл бұрын

    never though someone like you could ever experience something like this because you look like you should not be anxious about anything.

  • @nsnsjsnhehsbhs5025
    @nsnsjsnhehsbhs50253 жыл бұрын

    Tnx for this I really agree on the acceptance is the key but it’s so hard

  • @tonyabigham5272
    @tonyabigham52726 ай бұрын

    I deal with this constantly I feel like I'm still asleep but I'm awake.

  • @SafwanKagzi
    @SafwanKagzi3 жыл бұрын

    Plz share your story from the start it will helpful for us plz Alexia

  • @zaynjavaddmaalikxo8940
    @zaynjavaddmaalikxo89403 жыл бұрын

    I have this and I hope it goes away soon

  • @ceciliadelacruz2358

    @ceciliadelacruz2358

    3 жыл бұрын

    How are you doing now?

  • @obaidmodz7057

    @obaidmodz7057

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@ceciliadelacruz2358 Hello shaun do i have depersonalisation or something else called weed intake basically i smoked weed one month ago and i was fine but then 5 days from now i just got high and from now everyday i get high out of no were and i feel like om talking randomly and when this first happend it was worse but i dont panick now and it gone abit better like i used to get shock in my body when i got high but i dont get shock now does that mean its fading thanks.

  • @laurenbaldwin6068

    @laurenbaldwin6068

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@obaidmodz7057 hi did ur dpdr go away

  • @Peacemakerblue
    @Peacemakerblue2 жыл бұрын

    I've had it for three years in January. I feel so trapped and just want get out of this now. I have no imagination anymore no memory. It's awful. It just feels like me and a room. And hanging out of my body

  • @ElizabethCastillo-jj8fk

    @ElizabethCastillo-jj8fk

    2 жыл бұрын

    I started to experience the same after I gave birth. At first it like someone drugged me then it will come in waves and is full blown and it has taken over life. I can’t sleep on my own like I feel like I don’t need to sleep my body is Not tired i have to take a sleeping pill and even then I can’t hardly sleep and when I sleep it feels like I never slept. My memory is gone everything is like a picture and i don’t know what to do

  • @anthonycollins3341

    @anthonycollins3341

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@ElizabethCastillo-jj8fk is it the same with food? Almost like hard to tell if you’re hungry, or if you feel hot/cold, or can’t tell if you need sleep

  • @ElizabethCastillo-jj8fk

    @ElizabethCastillo-jj8fk

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@anthonycollins3341 yes!! I’ve pretty much have lost my taste buds due to this condition 😐 when I eat it doesn’t seem like I ate or im sure if I’m full. I’m also having visions problems . What are your symptoms?

  • @MiguelLopez-cj9bz
    @MiguelLopez-cj9bz3 жыл бұрын

    Have u heard about dr Clair weeks?

  • @nataliebudhai6047
    @nataliebudhai60472 жыл бұрын

    Can you make a video about intrusive thoughts🥺

  • @petitenonette8
    @petitenonette8 Жыл бұрын

    how did you "alow it"?

  • @Afterthoughtzz
    @Afterthoughtzz2 жыл бұрын

    What exactly do you mean by when you practiced "Allowance" every day? What did you do?

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    She allowed it to happen

  • @dcreque66
    @dcreque662 жыл бұрын

    My son is dealing with this and the counseling aspect gets really expensive. Is there a way to deal with it on your own without a therapist? I am going to purchase both those books. It breaks my heart watching him go through this and I look back now and realize I was the same and struggled with this for many years. The anxiety is still there and Im trying to watch what I put in my body as in caffeine and sugar. The sugar part is a little harder.

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    I wish the best for you and your son :)

  • @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@themaincharacter420 Is it a common symptom to feel detached from words , languages and voices but still understanding them like now? Does that make sense? And do sounds in general sound too loud or too quiet? I also have a very weird perception on things because every smart conversation sounds stupid to me and every stupid conversation sounds more stupid if that makes sense (like my brain is trying to ignore every word and sentence that I read , write or hear) and Im feeling this way even right now. Is that a common Derealization symptom or a very specific symptom that is related to my experience?

  • @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@themaincharacter420 Im a 16 year old boy

  • @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    @user-rx5qe7iz5v

    2 жыл бұрын

    I wish everything amazing for your son!

  • @oussamasia2207
    @oussamasia2207 Жыл бұрын

    Did you have problems with vision like you see things a little dark or something

  • @rebekahb5275
    @rebekahb52752 жыл бұрын

    I’ve had this since 2017. Don’t know why

  • @mohasahi-xq4km
    @mohasahi-xq4km3 ай бұрын

    Are you taking antidepressants?

  • @Constancecranberry
    @Constancecranberry3 жыл бұрын

    Aside from accepting and acknowledging it what else did you do to actively get it under control?

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    Erm for me I just don't try to panic much about, and try to not be afraid by it and doing deep breaths. It calms me down a bit

  • @yaslanygamboa8061
    @yaslanygamboa80613 жыл бұрын

    Tienes canal en español? +

  • @dj.sobxrbe
    @dj.sobxrbe Жыл бұрын

    i personally only have DR but DP sounds terrifying. but cold showers seem to help for me

  • @anishrajcr7277
    @anishrajcr72773 жыл бұрын

    Mam have you take any medications

  • @mrsharrypotter143
    @mrsharrypotter1432 жыл бұрын

    iv had it for a year and a half now

  • @lunarlyssnoelle
    @lunarlyssnoelle3 жыл бұрын

    Were you able to function at all during those months? I REALLY struggle with communication and working during this...

  • @mirzzz7487

    @mirzzz7487

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same here. Its so hard to focus when u are constatly in an anxieus state. I have the feeling that im not alive or something or Im alive but trapped in the back of my head, does this make any sense with dpdr? I also have difficulty capturing what is going on around me. It makes it hard to talk and communicate as well.

  • @nicolejacobsoncovers

    @nicolejacobsoncovers

    3 жыл бұрын

    I can barely talk to my family it's hard to make eye contact

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@mirzzz7487 I guess brain is trying to put you in a room that you will be safe in when someone bad is happening

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    I struggle with eating and going outside a lotttt

  • @matoaopa5191
    @matoaopa5191 Жыл бұрын

    Just saw the video of someone death you will feel better

  • @johnnybrix5308
    @johnnybrix5308 Жыл бұрын

    I would like to ask whether your love romance is affected by this?

  • @ongxinchuan5703
    @ongxinchuan57032 жыл бұрын

    me too

  • @amberh9694
    @amberh96942 жыл бұрын

    In moments of clarity did your eyes still have a “veil” over them? I’m no longer having DP/DR thoughts 24/7 like before and I know I’m in recovery but I still have this “veil” “glass pane” or fog feeling over my eyes and I’ve only been without it for maybe an hour each day.

  • @amberh9694

    @amberh9694

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@eiram1560 things are finally looking up for me veil has lifted eyes still burn but I’m doing a lot better. I stopped worrying and writing all my feelings down and started living my life like before and it’s made a huge difference. I hope you get this too.

  • @anthonycollins3341

    @anthonycollins3341

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hey, do you mind explaining your symptoms? I hope you’re doing better!

  • @amberh9694

    @amberh9694

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@anthonycollins3341 my symptoms now are very mild compared to what I did have. I believe I’m recovering from DP/DR because moments of DP are completely gone now and I’m only experiencing DR every now and then. My symptom that caused me a lot of worry was my eyes. They felt as though there was a film over them like a barrier between me and everyone else, they burned, and felt strained or like the vessels under or behind my eyes were “swollen” I’m not sure how to describe it other than that. As of now the veil has been lifted and the straining pain, and instead of having DP/DR 24/7 like I was I’m now only experiencing some DR which is still very scary to me but I’m just so happy now that it’s not as often. I had many symptoms in the beginning and mostly experienced DP and some DR, besides the eyes I felt tingling sensations in my head and on the left side of my back going down, I felt dizzy, headaches, full feeling in my head that I can’t describe, I had tunnel vision and seen things like an old static TV for about a month it was the scariest thing ever, I had racing mind with weird thoughts. Basically the normal signs of DP/DR.

  • @amberh9694

    @amberh9694

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@anthonycollins3341 I thought all DP/DR thoughts went away and they did for awhile but lately I’ve had a lot of stress happening and now I’m experiencing some DR but I’ve been able to remain more calm than before about it. But it just seems scarier at times because I have so many great days in between so when a bad day comes up it seems twice as bad but I just remember to remain calm.

  • @themaincharacter420

    @themaincharacter420

    2 жыл бұрын

    It's exactly the same for me!

  • @Annasartstories
    @Annasartstories2 жыл бұрын

    I have had this for 7 years .. so that u say 8 months is a long time ….

  • @ghpeakfitness3813
    @ghpeakfitness38132 жыл бұрын

    Hahaha for me it's like, it was so bad at first but now it's kinda like, it's all fine going about my day, thoughts are good building scaffold, laughing joking...then, one though, Like who am I, or even thinking about my own face, and how do I know I'm in the right body, just something so dumb....but then my brains like, WEEEEEEE OFF THE CLIFF, BOY THIS GUY MUST REALLY LIVE HEART POUNDING ADRENALINE RUSHES THAT MAKE HIM FEEL LIKE HES DYING, WEEEEEEE then the whole world gets glassy and I feel like I'm dreaming, doubting the reality around me, which can be problematic when I'm 200 feet in the air building a scaffold

  • @CourtneySDawn
    @CourtneySDawn Жыл бұрын

    My dpdr was triggered by an anxiety attack that was from a video on people living in a “simulation” which I definitely don’t believe but it was still scary to think about. And then the anxiety it caused, causes DPDR which made the intial fear of not being real worse.. anyone else?

  • @AfghanFTW

    @AfghanFTW

    Жыл бұрын

    Hey im going through it too just accept it and embrace it and dont be scared of it

  • @i.mobiyna
    @i.mobiyna2 жыл бұрын

    💙

  • @pratikshakhadka3612
    @pratikshakhadka3612 Жыл бұрын

    I have dpdr of my own cousin sisters n family members and i also feel if going back towards them …. Uff