Hi Sarah, and others of the Rose System. I just want to say that your continued faith in God is inspiring. I was convicted and moved to tears to hear you continue to praise him after all you've been through. I have anxiety and trauma surrounding my childhood church so I confess my current relationship with God, though I'm still a Christian, is still not one that's trusting enough to hand over the wheel of my life as much as I should. But your testimony is powerful and again inspiring that you always praise God. From your Sister in Christ, may He always show you His boundless Mercy and Grace.

@TheRoseSystem

19 күн бұрын

Hi! Thank you so much! Church can be a very hard thing and praising God can be difficult too. We have found that recording 1-3 things a day to be grateful for has helped us keep our eyes on the small things he provides. From there, it gets easier to see the big things too We will be praying for you, dear sister

Wow... I have so many things I want to say, but need to run to lifegroup. I will watch again later and share more then. In the meantime, thanks so much for your updated story, it helps me with mine 💕

@leisha4917

18 күн бұрын

Sooo, this feels similar to my journey of acceptance, which I've had to walk more of in the last month. I think I may have commented on one of your videos a year or so ago saying that I'd integrated/fully fused, but that's ended up not being the case. I too didn't know about my others(alters) for many years, and my mental health seriously deteriorated in 2018 but it wasn't until 2022 that I found out about four of them and found it hard but they were it. By the end of the year I had an experience which I thought was full integration! Then in 2023, I met a few more, and this year I've met still more. The more I've met, the more my story of my past has been ripped apart with new information. In the last month, one came out who said she was there at the original split and I wasn't all there was nor the "primary one", which was super hard to accept. I loved the thought that everyone could just merge into me... but that's not the case. I'm aware of approx 15 now, although a few have merged/integrated over time so don't have all 15 here at present. It's been so hard for me to process all of it and to accept that my journey isn't over. I can relate a little to the amnesia thing too, as I used to think I remembered everything but others proved I didn't. They get to choose what I remember and when. Overall, knowing how hard it's been for me to accept a system which is still relatively small, I can only imagine how hard it's been for you. But it's been encouraging hearing your updated story of the process, and realising that the different stages of mine are not unique to me. So, thank you again for sharing. It really does make me feel less alone and not crazy. I love you sharing how you hold onto God. I've struggled with where He is and has been in my life, especially since there were Christian people involved in what happened to me. It's only been in the last month that I realised maybe God has been faithful to me through giving me DID (or something like it, I don't have an official diagnosis atm) so that I survived and have some level of function now. I would have liked Him to intervene and stop what happened, or get me out of it, but DID is still something. I could have got into worse situations or not be here anymore if I was just one, so He is faithful in helping me cope with/by it. I've been comforted lately by the verse from Ecclesiastes that says "God has made everything beautiful in its time". Sometimes I've really doubted something good is coming due to more others and more memories surfacing, and therefore causing more difficult days of lower function for me. But I realised that verse talks about time. Clearly there is a time coming when I and my story will be made beautiful. I hope and pray you all will see this in time too. That one day we can look back and see the good. I'm so sorry for you all... the high alter count and polyfragmentation sounds unbelievably hard. You're doing amazingly well to be able to talk about it and focus on God and love. But the hard days are totally understandable and okay too. I really pray that you get all the support you need to keep moving forward. And I pray that someone (your therapist, friends, or one of your inner team) can help make the current trauma stop. That you break free from it. I'm so upset that whatever it is is still going on and that's totally not okay. I'm not always up for watching all your videos, depending on what I'm going through myself at the time, but I think of you all and watch and pray when I can. I'm so glad you're still here. The world is better for you all being in it. Much love xxxx And definitely feel free to chat with me.

First of all, we're so sorry for what you had to go through. What a fascinating and important video to have out here. You definitely gave us a lot to think about in our own, ongoing, journey with dissociative disorders. Thank you for that.

@TheRoseSystem

19 күн бұрын

Thank you so much!

gods having alters essentially cease to exist is always so sad, i struggle with like how do you even name such a person, if you never had a chance to meet them and dont know what their like and cant ask them if they'd like it or not. :(

Just starting the video now - wondering what you use to create your talking avatars? Thanks!

@TheRoseSystem

19 күн бұрын

Hi! We talk about how we set up our avatars in this video. Thank you so much for your comment! kzread.info/dash/bejne/fIJ7taeNfJaalNY.html

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@TheRoseSystem

19 күн бұрын

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