God bless that the starbucks girl didn't shame you for ordering a "medium" instead of a "grande" like they do at my Starbucks! Always delighted to see you post. You're so insightful and inspiring. A true champion of the recovery community.

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Hahahaha I do not get their language. It's a medium. The middle of the 3 sizes. Haha

@lindsaywilliams3774

5 жыл бұрын

Recovery.Chii where have you been?! Are you okay?

F*** yeah Meg! I've followed you from the beginning of your KZread account and this is beyond awesome to watch. This is such an amazing video to highlight how far you've come in your recovery. So good to see you saying 'Screw you!' to anorexia. You're absolutely killing it girl xx

Oh & I really love, that you're showing a bit more of your day to day life in your vlogs! It makes you even more relateable! 😍

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Elisabeth Schumann awww good. It just means they take longer to make, so I won’t be able to do it all the time 😂 but when I’m off work I can xx

You are such an inspiration and really helping me. Thank you for sharing your head thoughts! I found can be SO hard to extract what is the disordered thought and what is 'normal brain' thought, as for ages they were so entwined, it took me donkeys years to separate the two and then recognise them for what they were. Oh and I can completely empathise about how hard it can be to revisit places due to all of the memories it sets off. I couldn't go somewhere 8 years for that reason. You did stirlingly - I hope with all of the conflicting thoughts and perhaps sadness it conjured up you still enjoyed yourself and the foods you tried. I have found your self-pep talks really helpful as I have started to apply them to myself! Your inner light shines through these videos - anorexia is weird, as an outsider seeing your intelligence and beauty in and out it hard to believe anorexia took hold (or that you have the same thoughts/feelings as myself!!). But then I suppose that is the strange nature of it (do you think some are biologically predisposed?!) You are still so slim, keep going :)

I'm proud of you! So many challenges in just one day, and you did amazing! I wish I could visit NYC one day

I’ve got in the habit of watching one of your videos before meal times/ after. I have found they give me more strength rationalising thoughts 💭 Keep going, you are amazing!

Great vlog Thank you for being so honest about tearing yourself to your fear foods and sharing it with us!! It is admirable

I am so proud of you. You helping me to change my life. Thanks.

Cannot tell you how much this video resonated. I hit my lowest point in New York (lived for 9 years, in a relationship for 8 of them). My job is still based there...I have a trip booked for the end of October and you have completely inspired me to enjoy every moment of it and say yes to all of the things I previously said NO to.

You are awesome! I can't tell how much your videos are helping me to recover! You are my superhero! Please keep goin' and thank u sooooo much!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

💛💛💛

Literally everything you say in your videos is what is in my head all the time. Thank you for being brave enough to tell the truth about what this shit is really like for us -- you help me feel so much less crazy and alone. :)

@Meeshhhh

5 жыл бұрын

Shana Jane same it’s so crazy

I can’t even explain how much your videos are helping me! I’m so glad I found your channel and have gotten so much support and help from you! I’m not usually very active here in the comment section but I just wanted to say that I’m so thankfull for you making these videos and it has been lovely watching these and getting to know the beautifull and strong person making these videos! I’m only 14 but I’ve struggled with orthorexia and anorexia for a few years and am recently going through some what of a relapse and your videos give me hope. It’s crazy to think that you’re twice my age and have still been able to help me so much!❤️ also I just got back from a trip to New York yesterday so it’s crazy to see you there in all the places I just visited. I also watched tons of your videos on that trip whenever ed was trying to ruin the trip with restrictions and you really helped! thank you for being you and hope you have a great time💕

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

That's so good, if they're helpful keep watching them. I used to find videos especially helpful during meal times. I hope you enjoyed NY - it's so much better than EDs

Very, very, very proud of you sweet Megsy!

Megan, I just want to say thank you. Your videos are amazing and so helpful for me. Going trough recovery is obviously not easy, but watching your videos and seeing that those feelings that I have are normales, it helps me going further and not letting my ED having the power on me. I can’t wait every week to watch it and I always learn something new or feel like I’m on the right track. I can’t say how many times I repeat “opposite action” out loud or in my mind, and that thing your said about dog breeds helps me accepting the way my body looks like and the fact that I can’t change it. You’re me idol!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Yessss good for you, it's such a good little expression isn't it. Lots of love xxx

love this and your channel, I can totally agree with you in the sense that id miss out on life because all I was bothered about was getting through the day hitting targets! love your channel also xx

Megsy, I am so proud of you! As a recovering anorexic, I can honestly say you are a huge source of inspiration! Sending lots of love and happy recovery wished your way, girl!!❤️

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Andrea Capllonch lots of love back hunni 🤗

So nice to see you are having fun in New York! You are doing so well with that bagle and all the challenges that you did!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks matey x

Yay love your uploads ❤️

I watched your old videos and i just think: oh God.. totally relate. I just end my uni, get master's degree and.. realised how much I missed because of anorexia during this uni years.. like You mentioned - find excuses to not go to lunch etc.. good for You, your progress is amazing 🤗 keep going 💃

Ohh can completely relate darling, I also got really sick in Shanghai away from home and regret about what I've missed, so sad. Now we are on the track.We are facing a life full of opportunities, we know what we want! Lets go for it! Well done, I'm also having an ice cream tonite, It's been ages! Iuju!

Wow! Look at you.. living a normal life and enjoy normal things people enjoy in life like an ice cream and a cocktail with friends! Megsy you are amazing to have challenged yourself the way you did and it looks like you aced it! Good job! you are an inspiration!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Busybee 💛

I'm so proud of you, Megsy! Such an inspiration to me, amongst countless others. Keep fighting!

@meganomalley3215

5 жыл бұрын

And if you ever find yourself in South Bend, Indiana, U.S.A (highly unlikely, as there is nothing here to sneeze about outside of Notre Dame lol), hit a girl up. I'd love to meet you.

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Megan O'Malley well if I ever am o shall let you know 😘

Love how you did so many things on your own! I don’t do things alone too often (especially go to bars alone) because social anxiety lol but it’s funny when I do, I always meet people like you did and it’s super fun!

This is such an enjoyable video on so many levels. I went to college in nyc and was deep into the ED. I miss that city a lot . I still can’t go back there tho. Thanks for the video💛

NYC is my favorite place! So glad you are doing well! 💖

you're so inspiring wow! I'm going on holiday soon and this video really helped me see the kind of experience I want to have. You're so brave for doing all of that on your own

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

LifeWithV great, I made another video about going on holiday too, that might be helpful 😘 have fun!

Proud of you for "facing" the bagel, amazing! :D

New York is my favourite place in the world and ironically I was on a holiday there from Dubai when I started my diet that lead to it all. I am so proud of you.

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

It's mine too! It's weird looking back on places with strong ED ties isnt it. Emotional!

Wow!! what an adventure Meg, I feel so proud for you. You challenged and conquered your fears and thoughts in such an awe-inspiring manner. The joy in your eyes was evident. Thank you for taking us on a tour of New York, I've never been.. I want to go now though haha :D

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Caroline O Keeffe omg if you can ever then go. Such a cool city!

So lovely to see you outside of your normal "world". Never been to New York, thank you for the insight.

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Hope you get to go one day, I love it there!

I must go back to New York. I went in 1996 and was sick with a heavy cold and it rained for 3 days! Thank you for showing us a bit of NYC. Also, that you are NOW able to enjoy the food in NYC. Part of my hobby is wandering around the supermarkets here and looking at all the food on display. It is rather sad really and I did the same in Rhodes when on holiday. Don't worry. I'm in a much better place than I was, but I'm still focused on food and starring at food related shops when out in public. I adore bagels and have the multi grain ones here with peanut butter and a banana each weekend. I'm so envious of you! Take good care and enjoy yourself. Ax

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

So sad to look back on isn't it, keep going. It'll keep getting better with time and practice xxx

AMAZING video. This is so well edited. And you are so relatable. 💓 you!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Joelina456 awww thanks hun x

I think this is my favorite vlog you’ve done! I really enjoyed seeing you out and about! Looks like a really fun day! So glad you won your challenges! Give yourself a pat on the back!!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Kimberly Early thanks, I’ll make them every now & then. Just takes so much longer for me to make, but when I have time I will 😘😘

@kimberlyearly8918

5 жыл бұрын

Megsy Recovery Can’t imagine how long editing is! Thanks for putting vlogs out!

I'm so proud of you going on this trip & now living the life you actually want & enjoy! I can only imagine how hard this challenge was but you just did such an amazing job! Oh, how much I wish to be as far as you in my recovery but sadly I'm only at the very beginning of my journey

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Elisabeth Schumann well it’s taken me a year to get here!! Keep going 👊

Hi Meg, it's so good to see you're doing so well. I feel like I'm at a similar stage to you... I had severe anorexia as a teenager and had to be admitted to hospital and tube fed- after a few months I was then an outpatient and reintegrated to school etc. I did my A levels - did really well at uni etc but was never 'fully well'. By that I mean I did enough: I ate to be able to do activities etc, Ihad a boyfriend, did well in exams but food was always on my mind and by any means I never let myself just eat whatever I want. Over the past year I feel like I've made really good progress on that front and now eat so much more and intuitively. My mindset has completely changed (although my weight is still low unfortunately - but I have just been diagnosed with severe hyperthyroidism which is when you have a super fast metabolism). I'm on meds for that now but just really want the weight to come on. Anyway, after that preamble I just wondered if you had any thoughts on the media's portrayal of 'clean eating'. The reason I ask is because, although I'm doing so much better I'm still affected by trends such as this and although I know it's B**lS**t it still bothers me! X

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Lucy Kingsland no, luckily clean eatings never appealed to me 😂 & it’s one of those things I now avoid learning anything about because I don’t need another obsession. I eat all sorts of junk food & it’s fine so I don’t want to start thinking it’s not & avoiding it. By the way, get your weight up. That’s been the biggest help for me in shifting my mindsets!

@lucykingsland1

5 жыл бұрын

Agreed :) and it's also very hard to get your weight up without eating 'junk food'. Personally, I eat some form of dessert every day just because I want to #life'stooshort

I am so proud and envious of you! It might be because I am having a very challenging ED day but my goodness. I want to be able to do everything you're doing! A massive well done for doing all of this! Thank you for sharing this. There are times in the video you can really tell that you are uncomfortable but you carried on. How did you feel afterwards? I would have been so exhausted taking on *that* many challenges in a day! :)

So funny that I was in New York having the exact same challenge filled weekend when you were! I did so many things with my boyfriend I never thought I could do, but it was SO difficult. I've been struggling in the past week with urges to compensate for it, but I'm trying my hardest to resist. Thanks for sharing your experience!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

madelineroxyay yeh it’s still hard for me too, but you’ve got to do it anyway & it will get easier 😘😘 hope you had fun chick x

I admire your strength and motivation!

Some of my favorite foods...bagels and ice cream!! They looked soo good. My bf and I are thinking of moving to nyc so this was fun to watch

MEG❤️SY this was SENSATIONAL, SO SPECIAL & at the same time I felt your emotions. You are Heavenly sent to us 🙏🏻 💫We don’t just want to exist in this world, We deserve to truly live & reach our full potential 💫 😊 How blessed are we to have Meg 🤝😘😘 Keep making Beautiful Memories & keep fighting Gorgeous!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

rita conte awww thanks so much matey. I won’t be able to make them this interesting all the time but it was fun to make whilst I had time 😘

Love to see you in action!!!!

It’s definitely about not acting on the thoughts, or even better actively acting opposite to them! Kept going lovely xx

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Charlie yesssss you’re so right!!! 👊

love this xx

I was at a party yesterday and someone mistook me for someone else. I admit I sort of said that yes I gained weight. I stopped dieting. The person was sort of embarrassed and I said it’s ok. I’ve gained weight. I knew it might be coming and I was prepared for comments. I’m not sure what to do to present it differently or to acknowledge in public to people that I’ve gained weight. If you know what I mean. It’s like, I don’t want to go back to restriction and rules. I just want to enjoy life. Great you went back to NYC. Thanks for sharing your story.

I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

love you x

made me happy to see YOU happy, it just proves recovery really does put a smile back on your face!! little question: did part of your ed brain feel that because you were doing a lot of walking/cycling, it wasn’t so bad to eat so much?? because that’s what mine did!!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Not really, I'd spent the whole week sat on my arse at work and I ate SO much food there!

@angelicginge

5 жыл бұрын

Megsy Recovery that makes me even happier - you really are amazing!! thank you so much for being my guide to recovery xx

I ve taken step to challenge myself month ago to start eating dinner roll every day around 1 pm. So I do these every day for now on and not feeling that much guilt, but I still try to compensate with healthier carb version lunch or dinner. Do I still challenge myself althought it feel comfortable or should I change this for like croisant,pizza slice sth. similar? I also feel like if I eat to much pastry then I wont get all the nutrition thaht I need to recover ( I ve also lost my period, and I am underweight). I love watching your video!!

The Starbucks Queen

Ah, yummy! New York bagels. My father is from Brooklyn and when he first moved to Seattle in the late 60's he was appalled at the bagels there. (They have improved but still aren't quite up to NYC par.) Have you ever seen the movie When Harry Met Sally? Sometimes, when I am tempted to specify my order I tell myself I don't want to be a Sally (you have to have seen the movie to get the reference.) Thanks for being an inspiration!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Sarah Mockingbird I don’t get the film reference I’m afraid. But my NY colleagues said exactly the same things about the bagels 😂

Ample Hills is SO GOOD! Ooey Gooey Butter Cake is awesome!

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Adam Waddington OMG best ice cream ever!?

I lived in NYC from 2007-2010, but was incredibly ill the whole time. I can probably tell you more about the supermarkets I frequented than anything else.🙄

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Such a shame isn't it, looking back. EDs steal so much!

Hi Meg! I really appreciate your effort, I do admire you!! Can I ask you how long did it take to relapse when you were in New York?

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Viviana Morgese about 3 months, scary how quickly things can get bad!!

Yey!!!

I'm so glad you got to enjoy my hometown. NYC always welcomes you and please come back at anytime. :)So you're working in Dubai now? How's it living there?

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Kim Lau yeh in Dubai now, it’s very glamorous & expensive 😂

P.S. have you read Body Positive Power by Megan Jayne Crabbe? I'm listening to it on audible now and I love it so much

you're such fun girl.

Aw this was so great inspired to kick ass some demons haha x your right about the fear i think ignore that voice. What did u enjoy most and what was the hardest part? X

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Emily bell loads of the food was hard because I remembered restricting before so it was breaking a habit. Most enjoyed seeing my friends 💛

Loved the video 😍do u still work? What do you do?

Voted for you in the best media awards :)

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Amy McLellan awww thanks darling!

I adore ice cream. However, I'd have it in a cup and not a cone - that is the ED saying you can't have a cone and must have the ice cream in a plastic cup!

"Have the thoughts, feel the fear, do it anyway!" -megsy 😍😘

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

kelsealaurel 💪

I love your top! Where is it from?

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Topshop x

@elisabeth7738

5 жыл бұрын

Thanks for asking! Here's another stripes-loving girl 😍

Omg I live in nyc I wish I was able to meet you

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Brittany Leigh hopefully will be back one day! For longer

wow you achieved some big things ...pat yourself on the back.👍

I feel you are still obsessed with food thoughts as is per normal in recovery (all the all about food you dont want to miss out on) recovery is when food becomes a non issue

@megsyrecovery191

5 жыл бұрын

Dawny K agree. Sadly food is still probably my money dominant thought, getting less so, but still very important in my day. I’m sure a normal response for a body coming out of starvation though

@its_msk

5 жыл бұрын

@@megsyrecovery191 yes which is why I said per normal. Tje hal would ultimately be to get to a place where food is not a constant thought. Seemingly impossible for a lot of those in recovery or fully active disordered eating