Hey guys,
Welcome back to my channel. This video is part one of my first major manic episode that started in January 2017.
MANIA.I never knew what it was.....I had honestly never heard of a manic episode??
It's a wild roller coaster ride. If you’re manic- some parts of it are SUPER fun. I felt invincible. I was goofy- I'm actually a pretty funny person- I know how to make people laugh. But most people didn't think my jokes or the things that would come out of my mouth were funny.....My friend Jaime and I would talk on the phone every morning. She lives in Texas and she would call me pretty much everyday- because Lord knew I would be awake....she admits now that she knew something was "off" with me, but she didn't know what it was....To this day- to lighten the situation I sometimes joke about the crazy shit I said and did. It makes me feel better.When you're manic- You feel happy and on a natural high. It’s such a relief to feel this way after a severe depression where you feel the complete opposite- like absolute shit. When I was manic- my filter disappeared. I had a lot of "word vomit." I remember that I would often say the first comment that would pop into my head in any given situation. I remember being told that I was offending everyone around me all the time. But to me I thought I was just being honest and telling it how it was......My manic episode started in January of 2017 once the Lexapro kicked in. By that point it was too late until I got the correct diagnosis and proper medication for my system. The real Megan was GONE. I didn't start taking the medication I'm on now (which is working great) until June 10 of 2017. That's a long fucking time to be completely "off your rocker."I got the correct diagnosis at the end of April 2017- I got put on a medication for bipolar (Latuda) in the hospital. This drug made me irritated, angry, and still very manic. (The genetic testing I recently did revealed that drug is horrific for my brain as well). A few weeks after I was released from the hospital my doc took me off the Latuda- she could see I was having a bad reaction. Stay tuned for part 2.
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