I’m using this as my release tonight. I’m so lost. I was doing so well a couple months ago, but now, now the pain is coming back. I’m trying so hard to fight it but it’s so hard. I go to college, go home, work, eat, sleep and do it all again and with that i put on a mask that I’m strong and happy and know who I am. But I don’t. I don’t have the slightest clue who I am. I’m so numb and can’t cry but at the same time want to scream in pain. It’s so hard, because nobody will ever understand my situation ever. I’m giving my body to a guy who doesn’t even think twice about me just to feel something because it feels nice being wanted even if it’s just for my body. Ugh I don’t know. Goodnight