loving like an existentialist
this is loving like an existentialist. i hope you like it.
written by me
animated by maddy vian ( / maddyology )
music by tom rosenthal (tomrosenthal.co.uk)
filmed by ciaran o'brien ( / ciaranobrien )
edited by me
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there are many theories as to how we came to be
(i’m not sure which one i believe).
did we appear as dually flickering lights
above a hazy skyline?
fluttering, distant,
choking on stifling fog:
first solitary decades of life
as a lukewarm utterance into the vacuum,
whispering, “oh, what is this emptiness?”
haggard gesturing suggesting
half is not missing, but whole
and someday, when beacons collide,
not coincidence, but prophecy,
wrenching claims of meant-to-be
the sparks erupt in ultraviolet chaos,
volcanic, raging,
a mighty wallop of colour and sound,
a shattering cry of belonging
splitting time itself.
i don’t think so.
i don’t think i was born to love anyone
except myself, and even that,
some days, i’m not sure is true.
i don’t think our initials are carved
into anything immortal,
let alone battered into the very cosmos;
the air didn't lock into place upon our arrival,
awaiting the moment our silhouettes
would one day fill the empty space.
i could fall in love with a melody,
let crawl through my body
(or a train ride, or alabaster sheets;
there are chemicals that do these things to me),
i could grow fond of many things
but how particular my fondness of you
how fervent, how violent, how gentle
i think we're just moths
riding on the backs of giants
and i wasn't drawn to you
because our wings are both blue
but because they're the same colour
as everyone else’s
and you were willing to listen to
why that scared me
we’re not star-crossed
but we can still wrap ourselves in the seams
of a quilted universe that we did not stitch;
bathe in the glow of a sun
that does not shine for us;
run atop an earth that
does not feel our hurried footsteps
as they thump,
thump
thump
how lucky we are
to have nothing expected of us.
quickly-all the time we will ever know
is tapping her toes on the doorstep
and i do not want to keep her waiting
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i want this read at my wedding holy fuck an update (4 years later): ive found the person i want to read it to :)
@eleanortaylor4768
7 жыл бұрын
beautiful. harmonic. candid. hopeful. inspirational. signature. peaceful. alive. thanks.
@elakazoglu8582
7 жыл бұрын
i was just thinking that, too, as i watched it
@artistryunicorn928
2 жыл бұрын
Did you read it to them? :O
@zcxzcx321
Жыл бұрын
awwwwwwww best of luck to you both
@MagnificoFrey
Жыл бұрын
That’s amazing :)
I'm sobbing and I'm not too sure why. I can't wait to explore my head and this video to find out
@gisellerisu
7 жыл бұрын
I am SOBBING 2 DODS
@mirandawatson99
7 жыл бұрын
DODIEE SOB WITH ME
@sarahcarnal9208
7 жыл бұрын
doDIE
@anaghaananth7280
7 жыл бұрын
doddleoddle DODIE OMG
@DatKan
7 жыл бұрын
i can explain. Well, its mainly because of the message being portrayed, but the color scheme and the art, plus the black and white setup of her, while she's looking very upset, and her voice tone. It all amplifies the vibes that youre getting, especially when the colors have a sudden change of color and movement from 1:36 - 2:10 . I'd have to say, this is a greatly executed masterpiece. This gave me a huge amount of feels.
"And I wasn't drawn to you because our wings are both blue but because they're the same colour as everyone else's and you were willing to listen to why that scared me." Awe. That was probably one of the most beautiful and inspirational things that you have ever said. Thank you, Sav. You and your channel are beloved. *HUG*
@mariakennedy465
7 жыл бұрын
That was exactly the line that stood out to me too
@emilyhess323
7 жыл бұрын
Best line and quote I've ever heard
@jaqueline5846
7 жыл бұрын
or, *that have ever been said. :)
@valeriacoz5841
7 жыл бұрын
i don't get it, what did she mean by that?
@robashton8606
7 жыл бұрын
+Valeria Cox Realising the ephemeral nature of human existence can be unnerving. Finding someone that cares enough to empathize really helps.
'i could grow fond of many things, but how particular my fondness of you' - this is beautiful.
something very hypnotic about this
@xoxo-pc8lc
7 жыл бұрын
I very much agree, jack
@CultureDriven
7 жыл бұрын
Her voice has a really hypnotic aesthetic and cadence to it. I feel you dawg.
@savbrown
7 жыл бұрын
give me aaalllll your moonneeyyyy (ty jack x)
@kellskat3868
6 жыл бұрын
extremely
@lillymirembe4474
Жыл бұрын
@@savbrown I'm five years late but I just finished this video My head is reeling from how well it challenged the common depiction of love and how it embodied my questioning of why it should be held to such significance as a questionable necessity
The earth may not feel your footsteps but my heart felt your words.
@itsnotlila
7 жыл бұрын
shit :o
@victordanielcatalan1808
6 жыл бұрын
But a true existentialist will tell you that your heart does not feel anything of these words, it cannot. Your mind is the heart you think you speak of, it has always been that way.
@1viva
5 жыл бұрын
:-O...how beautifully said. ♥♥
@lunalightspoetry
4 жыл бұрын
I absolutely love how absolutely speachless this video and your words leave me
@itsmepearly607
Жыл бұрын
@@victordanielcatalan1808I want to understand this deeper😢
"i was not drawn to you because our wings are both blue but because they are the same colour as everyone else’s and you were willing to listen to why that scared me" *starts crying* THIS IS ART.
it's funny how words can leave you speechless
@tamaracole
7 жыл бұрын
Ironic, right?
@fcayhr
7 жыл бұрын
aha izzy, i totally agree
@kurumipanda8034
6 жыл бұрын
that's normal
this is so beautiful i might cry
@annatstan
7 жыл бұрын
I just cried
@anothercrazyenglishman3494
7 жыл бұрын
do keyboards get waterdamage from tears?
@lily_lxndr
7 жыл бұрын
i saw this screened at buffer festival twice and cried both times tbh
@LaMasLatinaaa
7 жыл бұрын
WHATTTT? Are you serious? that's such a big deal, I'm so proud of her!
@tamaracole
7 жыл бұрын
let´s cry together!
I will forever admire your skill to carve meaning through your poetry. This is by far one of your best pieces.
@nikolinapopovic5864
7 жыл бұрын
TheAEROShows I agree so much 😍
@savbrown
7 жыл бұрын
thank you so much!
@truleu
7 жыл бұрын
It hits me so deeply, I just can't finish my days without watching this video again and again. Very well done Sav. I love your work and your brain.
@sunheart123
7 жыл бұрын
But existentialism argues there is no real meaning :O
"i don't think i was born to love anyone except myself... but even that, somedays i'm not sure is true" MY FAVORITE FUCKING LINE! U ARE SUCH A GODDAMN GIFT TO THE WORLD SAV! i told this to arden when we first saw this at the screening but now i must tell YOU! keep being a gem! i appreciate u so much! x
@ThisisKaila
6 жыл бұрын
Meghan Hughes yesssss
@CrazycruxGaming
3 жыл бұрын
this line hurts so much
'Bathe in the glow of a sun, that does not shine for us' this line is so beautiful and so is this video wow Savannah you've made me fall in love all over again 😌💓
@lilsterr
7 жыл бұрын
Adela Setara it's just so eye opening and very beautifully written :,)
@amberleighrose4789
7 жыл бұрын
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this is the perfect combination of music poetry and visual art.... you amazed me today... this was an unexpected and soul melting birthday gift thank you.
@mssavannah1167
7 жыл бұрын
Happy birthday!
@emanuelrodriguez8013
7 жыл бұрын
Thanks!
@janinek5258
7 жыл бұрын
happy birthday! I agree with you 100%
@amberleighrose4789
7 жыл бұрын
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I admit it. This made me cry. But in a happy/hopeful way? Like for me this poem means that even though there is no such thing as destiny or a perfect match, even though the universe doesn't care about my existence and doesn't continue to exist because of me or any one else for that matter, i can still try to enjoy my time on this planet, in this life. I should enjoy all the time that i have because a human life is short, compared to time as a whole. This kind of puts the pressure off of my shoulders to do what is expected of me, because there is no meaning of life, there is only things I can do to make my own life meaningful to myself.
@sabrinajoanne6788
7 жыл бұрын
Lisa Pauli thanks for putting into words what I wanted to say, I just couldn't find the right words for it
@lisapauli3640
7 жыл бұрын
Sabrina Kroll you're welcome I guess. Savannah's Videos always make me want to interpret everything she says for myself and I have this urge to comment on her videos all the time.
i love this. you hear a lot about fate or destiny or "the one" as these magical things but theres something even more magical about chance. something incredible about stumbling into the life of someone you love knowing that you just as easily could have missed them.
(also there was a video that Savannah made ages ago now and I remember I left a not v nice comment, I can't remember exactly what I said but it was something douchey about how her drastic change in content seemed like a try-hard at being pretentious but actually I think it's more that I have zero originality or creative thought or talent and what I thought was 'pretentious' was actually just someone with all of those things turning her channel into something that would showcase it better. even though Savannah definitely hadn't even seen or remembered that comment I want to say sorry about it anyway. it was a dick move and I was a dumb idiot who didn't know what she was talking about)
@savbrown
7 жыл бұрын
ha! i've gotten many of those comments and although i admittedly don't remember your specific one, i appreciate this. thank you so much for your kind words, i'm glad you liked the poem!!!
@lisavankradenburg9451
7 жыл бұрын
You're 100% an older version of Grace vanderwaal
@mickysauce1747
7 жыл бұрын
Lisa Van Kradenburg why jut because she has a fringe and some rhyming words
wow i feel so alone. sav you are my favorite artist.
@CherryyBombs
7 жыл бұрын
hi. i fell sort of alone too. want to talk
@mssavannah1167
7 жыл бұрын
Im open
@p.5008
7 жыл бұрын
im here if you want to talk.
@nadialauren9510
7 жыл бұрын
thanks y'all for being so kind, offering to talk. I meant "alone" in that enlightening existential way?? I'm fine though, ignore me :)
@mssavannah1167
7 жыл бұрын
Alright, just know we are here
I never ever comment on videos but I just wanted to say that I haven't been inspired to write or create anything in months and this inspired me so much. Not quite sure why. I am sitting with a pen in my hand right now and I'll probably be up all night. Thank you!
@annikaclark2873
7 жыл бұрын
Agnes Boman I feel the same. It lovely when someone's art can do that to you. Great work, Sav.
@criistinafl
7 жыл бұрын
Adela Setara, I absolutely loved reading this
This entire video is a patchwork of so many beautiful people's ideas and creations and it all knits together so enchantingly I just LOVE
what a gift. thank you sav.
@pageturner242
7 жыл бұрын
yes?
@amberleighrose4789
7 жыл бұрын
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You have bewitched me.
@sehraessamina7461
3 жыл бұрын
body and soul
I'm happy you exist
It's been 11 months and I still find this utterly mesmerizing. Simply beautiful. Edit: 5 years. Still come back to this fairly regularly. Love from Spain
Few youtubers are like this, few people. Yes for you work of art, your very own and existentialist.
"how fervent, how violent, how gentle" absolutely in love with the juxtaposition of this
I don't just love this. it moved me, it created something in places I didn't know anything could ever grow. I adore this and I'll keep it inside my heart. thank you Sav. thank you so much.
I think this is what I've had on my mind but my tongue didn't know how to say it. I've been growing ever distant from my old perspectives of.. waiting for the magic? Idk. All the heavy pressures I & my exes have put on ourselves have been so ridiculous. My love can be authentic & beautiful without needing gears to interlock. & now that I've got a clearer view, I think/believe the next time I find someone, I can go into a relationship more ready for.. everything. Thanks for making this, Sav! ❤ Big 👍's up to Maddy, Tom, & Ciaran!
The very moment you said 'the sparks erupt', my phone vibrated really intensely because of a perfectly timed message from my really good friend. Coincidence? I think not. because there is no such thing. thank you Savannah for this knowledge!
This was genuinely beautiful, the words are beautiful, the animation is beautiful. This was just incredible. Thank you
"I wasn't drawn to you because our wings are both blue but because they are the same color as everyone else's and you were willing to listen to why that scared me." I love this so much. Thank you.
no but seriously you have no idea how beautiful this poem is this is by far the best thing you've ever written
this was so beautiful and heartfelt. it resonates with me as seems almost selfish to believe that love brings the ideal match together when really ideal matches can be made with many, given the right circumstances. in a world of 7+ billion people, it would seem hard to find just one true love.
Loved watching this at Buffer Festival so much I had to come back and watch it again! ❤️ beautiful as always!
This is the beautiful part of KZread I've always been meaning to get lost in. Thank you.
Wow. This was so beautiful: the animation, the words, the music and the editing. It was all stunning.
I'm so in love with this one, sav. It's so outstanding, and melancholy and yet there are so many hidden metaphors.
i come back to this every other month. still in love with it.
This poetry gets a top-ranking spot on my list of all-time favorite poems. This is up there with works from famous and renowned poets.
this made me cry. I've been following your channel and your growth through the years and my, what a beautiful wordsmith you are.
This is the purest thing I've ever listened to
@chaosdweller
Жыл бұрын
That's how I feel about comedy from random unknown people on YT haha.
4 years later but i'm still in love with this poem
@joeymalope
2 жыл бұрын
Same here I still listen to this on repeat
@chaosdweller
Жыл бұрын
I like.
the message, the voice, the graphics, the soft background music, her long bangs, every little peice of this video is perfection and flawless
never get tired of watching this. it just makes me feel so many emotions. i remember when i first watched this, my heart almost exploded because of how beautiful the poem is.
This is some tear wrenching stuff like it's so good and if nothing really matters this is the one thing I'd make sure does omfg
I knew I shouldn't have started watching your videos at 4 in the morning. Now I'm crying like a baby. This is beautiful and I thank you for making this, seriously.
This is one of the most beautifully written poems I heard. There's truly something different about her poems but she inspires me and makes me feel all the feeling I didn't even know I could emote. The words to the tone of her voice make your heart hurt and your brain just gets lost in a completely different world.
The poem left me speechless. Savannah Brown's words touched my heart. She explains the world through her eyes. The way she sees life. "I don't think I was born to love anyone except myself, and even that some days, I'm not sure is true" With this quote, Savannah depicts that loving oneself should be above the love we give to other people. On the other hand, she is not entirely convinced of that either. We are suppose to value ourselves, however there's times where we lose ourselves, and we start to rely on someone else to love us back. As she ventures through existentialism, she highlights how we are the only ones in the earth. "how lucky we have nothing expected of us" This can correlate to existentialism to how it all depends on us. There's no superior being to stop ourselves from expectations. Savannah Brown's poem spoke to me and gave me a different perspective to life.
how lucky are we to share the same time on this world with you. love ya girl
something special here
@BobbyKakouris
7 жыл бұрын
Right here at this very point in the universe, this very page on the internet... this one point. Here. Art. Beauty. Philosophy. Poetry. Music. Love. I am in awe of the magic of art. I am in awe
@amberleighrose4789
7 жыл бұрын
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just discovered your work the other day and currently voraciously going through your back catalogue and somehow every video i watch is better than the next. absolutely beautiful poem and the animation compliments it so well
i'm still not over this. i keep coming back to it and it's just as good each time, v well done to everyone involved and i hope you get to do more stuff like this in the future sav!
This is so different yet so beautiful.
I keep comming back to this poem. It gives me so much hope. Thank you.
it's so beautiful so hear words woven into a new combination that you haven't heard before. just when i think life is boring, repeating itself on and on, and that originality it dead, i hear a phrase that's completely new and pure and just so raw in its entirety. a sentence that hasn't been overused and torn apart. thank you.
The way you speak, the things you write, the way you put visual art into your videos with poetry. It's just all so amazing. Well amazing is an understatement but i just love it so much.
This is an experience I want to relive for the first time.
this is breathtaking, i am in awe ahhh i love this so much
this is one of my favorite videos and poems of the year. Simply inspirational
I first came across your youtube page awhile back (maybe a year ago), and since then, I've continued to appreciate the subjects you approach and the things you put so elegantly into words. I'm a writer, but poetry eludes me. Frankly, it scares me. However, I love this so much because it strikes this ideology that I've been feeling strongly these past few years, and for you to be able to make something beautiful and hopeful out of the existential dread-- it's admirable and amazing.
Love this. It really got me thinking. Beautiful. I like the style of it visually too (those animations are on point).You're such an inspiration, Sav x
Honestly, I'm a little awestruck, this is magic.
oh the lighting on this kills me, then brings me back to life just so i can appreciate its beauty more!
'i could grow fond of many things but how particular my fondness of you' just lovely .
this is the most beautiful thing i've seen in a while
In love. Sav your voice is so calming. I can't wait for more poetry videos. this one was fantastic.
THIS IS BY FAR MY MOST FAVORITE VIDEO OF YOURS! IM CRYING
So beautiful. Existentialism is one of my favorite topics, and after seeing this, it has made me feel less alone.
all I can think is that more people need to see you, because this is INCREDIBLE.
This is so unbelievably beautiful, Savannah. You have so much talent.
this made me cry and Im not ashamed, but rather blissful to feel emotions after this constant stress that argues with the voices in my head that prevented me from feeling
this is the most beautiful thing i've seen in the past week. it's art and it resonates and speaks to me, and its not only identification, also aestheticism and putting it into words in such a beautiful way. wow!
a sav brown's school of life series would be amazing
Damn, this was so beautiful savs voice is so calming. I loved this video so much i loved the darkness and also the brightness of the video. Oh my did i love this
i love the way you put my thoughts into something clearer, more able to be understood (even for mysef) and as beautiful as this
The line that I felt that spoke the most to me was ,“how lucky we are to have nothing expected of us.”, because as a growing person we feel like the world around us wants us to have a certain role. However, our existence is being carved as we live our lives with the people and our soul. Another thing that she talked about was how we aren’t destined to love someone but the way we are might connect us to someone else. Existential is about the feeling and think of a human being, which she portrays here well.
I love this poem more and more every time I listen to it
i've been having a really intense existential crisis for a few weeks and this video completes my thoughts
I feel all warm and complete inside after watching this, even though I almost started to cry after your last sentence.. I don't even know why, I just know this is beautiful, thank you sav
I love how your work sucks me in, so at that time nothing else matters, like all I knew while I was watching this was your voice and the soft music in the background and I love how I clung onto every word searching for meaning yet they also hung in the air gorgeously, a beautiful story right on the surface. Loved this a lot as I love everything you produce and the animations were gorgeous too, never stop creating Sav!
You understand my way of thinking more than you'll ever know. Thank you
SAV please keep doing these kinda videos this is amazing!
gave me chills... i feel like theres a lot to think about in this video and i want to watch it a hundred times to understand, if not to simply hear your voice a hundred times more.
this has to be hands down one of the most incredible videos I've seen on youtube, bravo!
I loved the part about star crossed lovers :) x
This is so beautiful...I was having a terrible day and this definitely did something...not sure what but something.
this helped me put my own situation to paper. i haven't been able to start writing anything i've liked lately, but this inspired me so much. i just created a poem i never thought possible, so thank you. thank you for doing what you do and creating such beautiful things.
i like to watch this often, to which the line 'how lucky we are to have nothing expected of us' always puts it into perspective
this is so beautiful
@eviealice1018
7 жыл бұрын
idk how to explain how this made me feel, just so many things ah thank you sav
@eviealice1018
7 жыл бұрын
thank you, thank you, thank you
this is so beautiful and calming
@chaosdweller
Жыл бұрын
I know right.
This is so magical in it's honesty and beauty and rawness. You are a constant inspiration
this is the most beautiful poem i think i've ever heard. sav, you are incredible. thank you for this
this is so beautiful I'm gonna cry
Idk know of to explain it, but this elevated me? like it touches the soul. I love it! ^^
@cindyjimenez7337
7 жыл бұрын
and I don't mean "elevate" as in feeling powerful, but more like if I was floating and have this nice feeling in my heart.
i come back to this whenever i feel a little bit shit. it makes me feel so warm inside even though its not a particularly happy message. i love this i love this i love this
This is absolutely wondrous, you've been giving me so much inspiration to write more, thank you sav!
SAV THIS IS SO AMAZING
i love this so much and your voice is so soothing and this is like the 10th time im watching this???????
I cannot explain how beautiful I think this is but in attempt to put it to words as eloquently as you just did in this poem: it made me cry, which I rarely do.
This touched me so much, I feel like your words are always present in me but when you say them they become clear in my mid. That sounds weird, I love you.