This song is for those longing to find love, for those who have never experienced relationships, those who fill the void by reading romance books and watching movies and series just to feel something. Hopefully one day we'll experience love instead of daydreaming about it.

@olayorijuoluwatimileyin5157

Жыл бұрын

Sure One day 😘😊

@RosyBrownOwO

Жыл бұрын

No need to call me out lol 😅

@jesona_

Жыл бұрын

One day 🥲

@m3zzym009

Жыл бұрын

I'm 30 and I've never been in a relationship 😔 Maybe one day ay ?

@drmblu

Жыл бұрын

Why did you call me out like this?!

This song makes me feel like I'm reaching for something I can't obtain.

@aimannurra1503

Жыл бұрын

😢

@hhhh.h954

Жыл бұрын

Wow

@mandielayne9941

Жыл бұрын

I felt this way for a long time… and now every time I listen to this song, my heart starts racing as I picture his smile… Married. Divorced. And now finally brave enough to take a chance at true happiness and real love…

@amaniashery7762

Жыл бұрын

I fell in love with people who don't love me,people who loves me I don't have dat love for them

@ashesfer409

Жыл бұрын

Love I can't obtain...

This song feels like having a crush, and feeling all romantic, then remembering that they will probably never love you because no one ever does and fearing how long it might take to get your movie scene.

@-mila-840

Жыл бұрын

exactly what I was thinking. Love this song 😊

@bethanyzamora1146

Жыл бұрын

pain. agony, even.

@DayDayTurner-nm2yj

10 ай бұрын

Wow best comment

@Aids28

10 ай бұрын

Help me fr 💀

@catchcourtcourt

9 ай бұрын

I danced with my crush in his apartment. He kissed me and it hurt even more to leave. Crushes still hurt when you’re in your 40s, sadly.

This is about that pure love that you feel only once in your entire lifetime

@alosando88

Жыл бұрын

A year ago I was so hurt. Now, I’ve found the love I’ve looked for my entire life. He’s my entire life. God brought me him. Don’t give up.

@besidju5901

Ай бұрын

Hes the one who showed me how to love. Who actually wanted me. He tells me everyday how much I mean to him. He will hug me and tell me "I can't believe just a few months ago I didn't know you existed. Then you showed up and your the love of my life and everything I wanted"

The first time I heard this song I immediately teared up, it felt like my heart felt lonely and lost, wondering why I did...I looked up the lyrics of it, and now it just makes sense and it hits hard when she sings "and you don't exist". I always had this guy in my dreams ever since I was a little girl, it is as if I am living a life in my dream world with this guy that grew up along as I grew up, we have spent lots of memories together and I love him so much, it's been 3-4 years now that I haven't seen him (I can't recall how long now) I just want to keep sleeping, hoping I'd dream of him again and spend time with him. It is unsure that he exists but I feel that somewhere somehow he does, I'll forever long to belong with him. He'll always be a piece of me that I hold dearly. He'll always have my heart and I hope someday we'll find each other. No one will ever replace him...

@Ghost-fh3lg

Жыл бұрын

🤔

@Briitttneey

Жыл бұрын

This is so innocent 😭

@kkcc7441

Жыл бұрын

Dont make me cryy 😭😭love will find u. Promise ❤

@nkusifrederic4182

Жыл бұрын

You're not alone. I daydream someone like that and hoping I will meet her. One day. So my heart can settle in calm and real love. So hopefully, we'll get what we want one day. All we need is patience.

@haliewelsh3014

Жыл бұрын

Awe you just made me cry even more then this song does. Your explanation feels so relatable… yearning to be loved by someone who isn’t real… an image you made of the perfect someone.. 🥺

"but you don't exist" Me crushing on movie characters be like 😭😭😭

@ajayzkates

Күн бұрын

😭

Finally a good song on the radio. Brings me back to high school Colbie Caillat times.

@christina4012

Жыл бұрын

Aww I loved her music 😭

@MrMjthe3rd

Жыл бұрын

“Can you count me in?”

@lovelyleovirgo2718

Жыл бұрын

🙌🏾

@skylarsaysstuff

Жыл бұрын

Ahh I miss her music so much

@jamirasingss6518

Жыл бұрын

That’s why i love it so much!!!!

I can’t stop listening to this

@portiamadayag1651

Жыл бұрын

DUDE SAMEEEE

@Reikihealinglifestyle

Жыл бұрын

Same here cant get enough 😍 🤍🖤

This song perfectly describes me. And so I've been crying for the past 15 or so minutes while listening to this in repeat.

@rebeccaweikert7654

Жыл бұрын

You doing okay now, bud?

@theinvisiblegirl6440

11 ай бұрын

There are still times when I just imagine someone there, but I still carry on with life. I don't know if the emptiness I feel would ever be filled, but maybe if that illusion became real, then I'd be fine. For now, I'm doing okay, thanks for asking😊

@senakara3846

8 ай бұрын

Hi i hope you are ok

@topbottomswitch

6 ай бұрын

ah.. i feel the same. i never had any friends or anything, so i relate to this so much because.. i have imaginary friends and gf.. so lonely..

Yes the song is for those longing to find love and maybe those who have never been in real relationships but it's also here for those have been in fake relationships.. for those that have given their all to someone just for them to turn around and spit in your face and act like you are nothing all along.. whoever you are, I hope you heal one day and find someone that treats you the way you deserve.. I hope for myself as well

Shout out to all my homies that are in love with fictional characters 😭

@arianplayz7482

29 күн бұрын

it hurts when u realize the character isn't real

@ajayzkates

Күн бұрын

😭

I know everyone has their own take on this song like being written for people who long for this feeling but it resonates with me in a way of loving someone you used to know but grew apart from. When you have to grieve the person you fell in love with in the beginning but they changed. Loving the person they pretended to be…

@sennastippel8357

10 ай бұрын

I did think the same thing.. that it is also for when you had a relationship that was so "perfect" like the song, that ended up so toxic and painful and you realize it never existed for real.. with this song you really feel the grief of it

@sickleesweet1229

10 ай бұрын

It definitely smacks of loss to me. Maybe even literal death if not metaphorical from the change in the relationship/realizing you've been fooled or manipulated.

@DAVEandmuffins

5 ай бұрын

Damn why'd you have to go there lol. JK. Went though this; sucks. Never going back to the way things were and have to move forward, but what once brought unbridled joy and happiness now, I'm haunted by my dreams when it's of them. Kinda funny how that works right? 😅 Like to sometimes think, that's the remnants of them still with me before we grew apart. Like a secret place that we visit every now and then, where we only matter. Such a bittersweet something that took place once upon a time.

@user-is2do9kw7z

4 ай бұрын

Before I read any comments, I thought it described a journey of a relationship when they were together and then in the end the relationship it’s over, they drive you home, can’t recall the last time you were kissed and it hits you in the car the end of the movie

This song is literally the feeling of loving someone you can no longer have but you can never unlove them and they will always be the start of your movie

Loving a fictional character

@Butterpugggo

2 ай бұрын

that would be me.

@winthinzarhtike7575

Ай бұрын

Fr

@arianplayz7482

29 күн бұрын

it hurts the most when u realize that character isn't real

i’m absolutely in love with this song. it is so bittersweet and fragile. and it definitely has the power to break my heart longing for this. but God has a plan for every one of us. and if it is His Will for us to find that special someone one day, we will, we just have to wait for and trust in His timing. but if it is not, we’ll be more than okay. He will take care of us. He will prepare us for that life, and we have to pray for contentment in being single. it may hurt, but God has His reasons, and they are good. He never withholds one good thing. if He withholds this, it’s because He is protecting us from something, or has something so much better in store. whether you’re waiting for love or not, try to appreciate all the blessings God has put in your life. it is not wrong to daydream about love. but don’t let it overtake your life, to where you’re at the point of depression or you miss all the other beautiful people and blessings around you. i love you, and am holding your hand through whatever you’re going through. but most importantly, Jesus loves you, and HE IS FOR YOU.

@maryt4416

Жыл бұрын

Amen

@abbyawesome417

Жыл бұрын

I love this.

@naomiatkinson6398

Жыл бұрын

You worded this so perfectly

@bee2745

Жыл бұрын

You have no idea how much I needed to be reminded of this

@rekiu1314

Жыл бұрын

It was part of his plan to kill my mother ?

The lyrics is amazing but the melody and instruments really caught me off guard. I felt like I was melting. So so good

@benp3485

Жыл бұрын

I just heard it yesterday, and it made me cry. Now trying to learn how to sing it. It's like the perfect marriage of being sad and happy at the same time, so surreal this song

I love hearing her sing over the phone when we’re both not talking at the moment and this song reminds me of her so much. She’s the sun that rises and makes the flowers bloom.

@jillianelise5

2 ай бұрын

Way to make us cry 🥹

@Youmi-os2cf

Ай бұрын

Aw that's so sweet

For me, that beautiful feeling of love is absolution perfection... and are both unattainable.

Loving a fictional character is painful and that line "that you don't exist I don't recall the last time I was kissed ".

I deeply miss someone, I miss the touch, the voice, the kisses, and good mornings....but no one is here, I never have anyone to miss. Am I just missing the soulmate I haven't found or am I just lonely?

@mahinnur3047

Жыл бұрын

Well I was just like you but one day I found love....but then I realized I was lonely. And he is a good guy but we are just not a match for each other and it hurts, we are still together because we love each other. But it's not worth it to me tbh. I just wish I hadn't let those feelings take over me So all I can say is it could be both or just one ...idk anything about you otherwise I could tell more specifically . But whatever that might be don't let it take over you. Learn to love yourself. Find things you love and your passion, make friends, appreciate good people around you. Make healthy standard for yourself learn to live without a partner , learn to stay happy and confident most importantly. Don't try to find love If you're a teenager, let yourself mature .

@hezalgrey.7386

Жыл бұрын

I thought I'm the only one who felt like this. but dw I'm sure there's someone out there for you who's feeling same as you, just wait for that perfect timing till then don't forget to give all the love to yourself. ❤

Yknow what's the saddest part is? That i (we) relate to this song

This song makes me happy and sad at the same time😂😭

@Coughs_up_nails

Жыл бұрын

Same bruh

I love this, it makes me feel all soft and I know it sounds weird, but this is the perfect song for my current season as a happy single person who knows when it happens, I will love being in love with someone again someday. All these bittersweet songs hold a special place in my heart and this is a new favorite for me. Thank you so much!

An extremely beautiful and yet melancholic song...

this is the first song i’ve ever listened to that made the back of my head tingle and my goosebumps pop, this song is so good

And off I go to add this to my hopeless romantic playlist so I can daydream about some guy who will sweep me off my feet who I can fulfill my cliche movie moments with so when I’m in the car driving or staring out a window or something it feels like I’m actually there only to be brought back and realize I’m just fooling myself

@Nau-ds8yg

Жыл бұрын

I need a hopeless romantic playlist now❤ 😅, would love to hear examples of what's on yours for inspo 😊

Music truly is for translation. This song makes me think about how beautiful the beginning of a relationship feels until it later progresses then you later realized you just made somone out to be better than they really ever were.

Best plot twist I've heard in a song

Played this song for my friend at his grave he passed in 2020 we were friends for 7 years we had a child together few months before he passed .. after all this time I still feel the same .. couldn’t stop crying hearing this and I hope he liked this song I played for him … connection was out of this world see u next lifetime babe

@edithenonbinarysquirrel

2 ай бұрын

I don't know you but I want to give you a big warm hug. I wish you and your child the best 💗💗🫂

@_SOLOKE

2 ай бұрын

@@edithenonbinarysquirrel thank you ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

@_SOLOKE

2 ай бұрын

@@edithenonbinarysquirrel he passed march 18 I forgot I wrote this comment … it was the last time I visited him that was my closure I don’t think I’ll ever visit his grave again

@edithenonbinarysquirrel

2 ай бұрын

@_SOLOKE I understand sorry if I made you uncomfortable I didn't meant to, I admired you because I kinda was in such situation before and I still can't find the courage to go on.

The first time i heard this song and define the lyrics i cried because it is about relationship that you just imagine and it is not real. But hopefully Lizzy will create this kind of song vibe again i will hear it over and over again.

Yesterday I saw a guy I used to have a HUGE crush on who I haven't seen in months, and I felt absolutely nothing. And then I went to hang out with my current crush. And this song just kind of feels like how that felt. Feeling nothing for someone I used to be nearly in love with and then feeling so much for someone I only saw as a friend back then.

@ghoto_777

11 ай бұрын

Its crazy how theres no reconciliation, its like we’re robots

This song absolutely suits the theme of the book "The time traveler's wife" by Audrey Niffenegger. The main character's love was deeply but it was fragile, i would really recommend to read this then listen to the song Makes me sad for a whole week.

@animenerd4220

3 ай бұрын

I know you commented this 5 months ago but I was looking at the comments and saw this one and was actually shocked cuz I'm in the middle of reading this book right now😅

"But it's not real and you don't exist" damn it really hit me hard, as being obsessed with fictional character I really feel it.. 💔

@Vs_stuff_and_things

6 ай бұрын

same

my heart has created its own meaning of this song and its helping me a lot rn... context i dropped my partner off at the airport last night because we are long distance and watching him walk away was the hardest thing ive ever done

I heard this in the car several times while trying not to cry, I love this song so much and I can't explain it It's like trying to achieve a dream you know you'll never be able to yet you still try

I’m best friends with this girl and we hangout often, just today we were sitting in her car in a Taco Bell parking lot, we were listening to random ass stations on the radio and we stopped at one playing this song, it was the first time I had heard this song. I sat there and it was as if everything connected, she was on her phone talking about her friend, I was too busy staring at her to pay attention, I like her, I was on edge about it before but I know for sure now, I can’t stop listening to this song and remembering every detail of that moment, her hair, her eyes, her jawline, everything, I want her so badly. But I know it won’t work out. I know she won’t feel the same. But it’s fine, I’ll watch from afar as she falls in love with someone else, and I won’t regret it one bit knowing she’s happy

this is givin fictional characters in my dreams😂😂.

God this song hits so hard. It reminds me of my personal experiences. When it rains and I look out into the distance longing for someone to take me away. When I fall asleep at night and dream of love and genuinely feels so real only to wake up and realize it's not, for it to seem like I can't feel that in real life. When I think about it and tell myself not to be si caught up over a dream because it seems almost ridiculous and no one would understand. But I see now people do understand. I used to think that even if other people did share my struggles it wouldn't matter because it wouldn't solve my problems snd it doesn't but it makes my emotions feel more valid so it definitely does matter. I'm glad that modern day we can just look up songs on KZread and relate to them to make us feel better about ourselves or to read the comments and see people go through almost the exact same thing.

For me, this song remind me of my greatest love but also my greatest pain. I was so lost yet so free with him, hearing this gives me flashbacks on the days we would lay down hugging each other with nothing but bed sheets. It was chaos but it was also the plot twist of my life. But just like movies, it ended.

This hits different when you’ve never been loved

@Screechsmom

8 ай бұрын

No it doesn’t, because the song is about not being loved.

@lillysthoughts4402

8 ай бұрын

@@Screechsmom I don’t think you understood my comment

@Screechsmom

8 ай бұрын

Probably not

@Ryanbros

7 ай бұрын

​@Screechsmom it may not be it feels like it is and that is enough for me.

I never would have expected to find this song on TikTok of all places… I never knew I could relate to such a popular song… and just reading these comments, it makes me feel so less alone ❤

I'm addicted to this song. This lyrics, music just telling me and feels me it's me.. who you are talking to..

reminds me of my first real time i fell in love. we never started dating, but talked for a couple months, then he randomly stopped talking to me. broke my heart, plus seeing him everyday at school breaks me even more everyday. i feel like something could of came, but i guess i’ll never know. i miss you❤

@bellablackwood6038

Жыл бұрын

Girl, I dont know you but I totaly feel you. I had experience like you. We were just friends at university btw I am in tears while writing this to you anyway backing to the story. Like I said we were just friends at the beginning, but at the same time he like me and i ignore his feelings and kept beeing friends cause he wasnt my type (shame on me ) and after year I started to like him but I was afraid to tell how i feel to him. And then some situations occured we lost the connection. These happened five years ago . Now unfortunately he is engaged to someone else. All i can say is I lost my chance but you still have . So please talk to him

@iixoemmq

Жыл бұрын

@@bellablackwood6038 i’m so sorry, i hate that for you. i’ll try my best to get close to him again. again, so sorry you had that happen.❤️

@bellablackwood6038

Жыл бұрын

@@iixoemmq I am sending best wishes and prays for you 🥰 I hope you can be with him please let me know . Good luck 😇

@iixoemmq

Жыл бұрын

@@bellablackwood6038 i will, thank you😊

@iixoemmq

11 ай бұрын

@@bellablackwood6038 hey, i know it’s been a while, i just came back to this comment. me and him began talking again but decided to be just friends. ❤

2:26 Hurts like a stab on the heart 😢

This and Taylor Swift's "Gold Rush" are giving the same whimsy feel for mee~ ehehe

@inayaparveen4983

Жыл бұрын

OMG I love gold rush!!!

This song reminds me of the boy i used to see in my dreams. He was sauce a pure soul.I would recognize him in my dream like l've known him forever. We would hold hands and go on dates to places I've never been in life. But when i awake up I would forget his face. It's been two years i haven't seen him. I really miss him 😢

This song actually makes me cry, I’ve never experienced being loved or being in a relationship. Any time I have a crush it’s amazing I feel good when I think of them, but it only hurts in the end when I realize they don’t and never will like me. I always feel so lonely and lost inside, like I’m just an empty void waiting for affection and love. It also hurts worse that I’m “in love” with a fictional character.

Here I am: a 43-y.o. grown man in a happy relationship, crying every time at the plot twist of this song, just because I remember the feeling (and can't exclude the possibility of reliving it). Life and love can be crazy. Don't ever give up on your dreams, don't change who you are to become supposedly worthy of someone else's love, and never lose faith in finding happiness. The person you dream about may not be real, but someone just as good may be there for you. Just make sure you find happiness on your own first, so your significant other is an addition to it, not a prerequisite.

Brilliant beautiful song. Absolute masterpiece

For me I feel like this song is about being in love with a fictional character, or somebody in a tv show or movie, I have a huge crush on both Draco from Harry Potter and Dan Gheesling from Big Brother S10, I sometimes pretend I am with them or we’re doing cute things together, but in reality I’m just alone, and they don’t exist, neither do my comfort characters, and I am left in a world where I may never truly experience how it feels to have that kind of love that I want more than anything.😢

If I were to make a video for this it would have to be centered around a balllroom dance, two lovers dancing happily like they have a million times before. But with each turn we see the girl gets sadder and sadder, her smile breaking slightly with every spin and her heart racing because shes scared that if she stops looking at him hes going to disappear forever. Then, still dancing she spun once again and this time she looks back hes gone, she continues to dance as though he was still - or perhaps never, there. Tears starting down her face feeling more lost and broken with every move but the dance becomes more intense, more heartbreaking as she holds up the shaky hand that was meant to brush the hand of her love. Then his hand will rise to hers, and the flashbacks will start, each will show the two dancing across life times, in Ancient Egypt, B.C, Renaissance, 20's, etc. All dancing the same dance. Towards the end we see the modern dancer get so upset she is almost angry, wanting to scream for her lost lover, while the others dance in harmony. She stops and collapses, we see a memory of her falling into his arms the same way, she cries, rises and begins running. Now, we have hope she might be running to him - hope that him disappearing earlier was just due to a break up and not what we all are dreading it is. As she runs we see each of her past selves running to him as well all beaming with smiles and light and she, our modern day woman runs to the top of a grassy cliff overlooking water and there he is, we see a memory of them together in that same spot, he turns, their eyes meet and they start running to eachother. She finally smiles again as shes about to be reunited with him. On the last beat of the song each of their past selves finally embrace, we see this happen consecutively until we reach the modern girl and as they finally reunite, he vanishes into her arms. She collapses for the last time, as she falls the scene changes and she is back on the ballroom dance floor, alone. If anyone steals this video idea... you lucky I dont have money.

@debosmitaghanti9816

Жыл бұрын

Lovely just lovely

@debosmitaghanti9816

Жыл бұрын

If someone tries to steal your idea I will personally come with pitchforks

@Belllean

Жыл бұрын

@@debosmitaghanti9816 together we unite!!!🤣 thanks friend🥰

@ayeshamalik5931

Жыл бұрын

oh my heart😔..its soo beautiful❤

0:10 is where I would start a contemporary dance

@ginabarrera6196

Жыл бұрын

0:18 -> 0:39 - 0:59

I remember I was kissed in my dreams several times, I remember them all but I wish I could recall how it felt

This is to all of you single people out there, from a taken girl who was once fantasizing just like you for the perfect person. They will come. Trust me. They will come. You may find someone and they end up not being the one. That happens, and that may discourage you into think that they will never come. Oh but they will, when you least expect it. You could meet someone new, or they could be someone that you've known for years. And it was only then that they came into your life as a, lover. It's different for everyone. The thing you need to remember though, is that there is no such thing as, "perfect love". For the longest of time, I had a crush on this boy who I met a while back. We were close, and we always shared PE class for every year that we attended school together. We both were amazing at sports and naturally, I thought it was perfect. When a dance was coming up, (I forgot the year haha) a little bit before I was getting my guts to finally tell him, I told my other friend. She ended up going to the dance with him. Was I sad though? Not at all😂 Because I met my current boyfriend at the dance❤ That's the thing about love. There is no perfect love because every relationship has its bumps and mountains. Perfect love is not a thing. But, love can be perfect. Perfect love is the "dream relationship" where you never have arguments and you always go on dates and just love one another. That isn't a thing😭The sooner you realize this is when you will probably find the one. However, love can feel perfect. "But what's the difference between perfect love, and having love that feels perfect?" Having love that feels perfect, is love that isn't perfect, but working through the inperfections with one another and accepting eachother for all the flaws that they have, large and little. And that is when you are able to go on cute dates all the time and always be inlove. When you accept this, and you prepare yourself to experience even the downs of love, is when you will find the one. ❤❤❤❤

@joanneingalltheingallfam-fy4iw

Жыл бұрын

thank you so much for this comment. It's good to know people like you are here on this world x idk u but I wish you the best in life ❤️ From someone stranger on the Internet

Hopefully one day i will have a place to call my home where my heart will belong and it will feel safe , nurtured and fulfilled where I don't have to show anything to anyone to prove my worth ,where I would be loved unconditionally without conditions ,where my soul would actually feel loved ,cared and valued for ,one day hopefully I'll have a place to call my own home .

@fqv.

Жыл бұрын

thank you so much. i really needed this right now and you made my day

@chubbypanda3398

Жыл бұрын

@@fqv. aww thank you for your sweet comment , whatever you are going thru hope you make past it and trust in god and believe in yourself and remember you are amazing ❤️❤️.

"and I don't want to leave but I have to go" ❤️🥰🎉

2:04 best part ❤

Why nobody mixes this up with the song "a thousand years"????

This reminds me of my escapism, I have two shows I watch that I desperately wish where real. I have dreams about them sometimes, and I think I, wake up and everything is how I want it to be, but I realize that nothing changed.

Omg i love this song it really is a vibe even when your not sad and crying over your ex or loved ones

Not this song making me remember a person from a movie that was my comfort character....

I cry hearing this song. I love a fictional character that alot of people probably knows(catnoir/adrien) I imagine fake scenarios with him everyday. Eventualy it became an everyday thing. Most of the time i imagine taht he is with me and he comforts me everytime im sad or hurt by my friends, family, or random starngers. Knowing he is not real hurts me so badly. I wish everyday so deeply that why couldnt i just be borned in a universe where miraculous was our world but i knew what happens next so i change everything and me and catnoir/adrien get to have a great dream life. This song exprecess everything im feeling all at once. Why did they have to make catnoir/adrien so cute. It just makes my life harder knowing someone i deeply love is not real💔💔

This song feels like writing a story about a love that you’re I’ll never get to experience

This song brings me so much emotion and it hits me really hard😭

Fictional husbandos be like

That last chorus is a gut punch.

This is how real melody feels like.... Who else is listening this in 2024

When I first heard this song, it made me cry, as it reminded me that all that I've ever wanted is a lover.

"but it's not real and you don't exist."

Edits always have the best songs.

I started sobbing, the "you don't exist" reminded me of all the book and video game characters I fell in love with but can never be with 💔

My grandma just passed away and this song brings me comfort but also makes me cry

I remember listening to this, whilst longing for my past love. It makes me emotional. In the best way. I feel empathy and tenderness for my loving parts, the suffering parts, the caring parts, the dissapointed parts, the confused parts, the hurting parts, the longing parts, the parts searching for the meaning in the midst of it all, the part that remember everything, burns from the memories of the past lover. The way I screamed, in the middle of the night, in a dark wintery frozen lake, I scream so hard, so painstakingly, hurtingly, desperately, hopelessly, lost, stuck in forever limbo of the bleeding heart and longing. Oh, dear me. I suffered. I suffered, so deeply, profoundly, in a way that I did not even know existed. It was my first real heartbreak. Pure heartbreak. Not the first breakup, but the first time feeling the cutting of the attachement to someone I held dear to my heart. Every day was a fight. I used to wake up feeling terrified of the day ahead, stopping to cry and scream and just break down countless times a day. So much toiler paper was used haha. I was crazy. It did not make any sense. I remember spending night in the bathroom floor, just because it felt more something, more suiting, more comforting than the bed. I don't know. Walking for hours, to exhaust my body, to allow myself to sleep; the only way to spend time was to cry or walk. Nothing made any sense. Heartbreak is a scary place to be at. I really thought I wouldn't survive it. That it would never end. That I would never find anyone again, that made my heart skip a beat. Then, here I am now. Writing this and remembering it fondly: "One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful." Listening to the Tommy Lefroy. The memories of her don't make me breakdown anymore. However, I don't remember her scent, voice, how her body felt, how we laughed, any of these things, not as vividly as I used. I am not sad anymore that our season will never come again, but I can look with fondness, smile and inner embrace. Whilst also feeling the regret of hurting her, the chaos, the psychological violenc, everything that was wrong, manipulative, overreacting, fights, jealousy, all of it, the nights spent sleeping embracing you. I've never slept that well, than when I held you in my arms. It felt so safe, like home, like everything was good in the world. Then I also fell in love with someone else. Not completly, but atleast partially. Now she is also gone. I almost went crazy for her, well, to be honest, I think I did go crazy for her, but we burnt quickly, and then flame just died. Now I feel this emptiness, which is not really sorrow, sadness, or hurt, but just something missing. Life is weird. I can say that I am not the same person I was two years ago. I have completely changed. I've grown less emotional, more mature, more calm, more realistic, even pessimistic, more aware, I've had glimpses of loving myself, I take more responsibility, I want good for myself, I've learned so much, I think more broadly and seriously about my role in the human race, I don't want to have short term chaotic in my life anymore (alcohol, jealous fits of rage with alcohol, weird situationships ruining everything, being restless and calling it being alive). I am so tired nowdays from everything I've been through. I've started to value becoming an adult, real adult, with the most utmost respect. Adoring teenagers and their culture, their small games, being cool, those are things I don't have energy to cary anymore. I still have the teenager inside of myself, but not in the leading role. Because I wan't minimize my suffering from stupid sources. Still learning. Now I know how damn much I still have growing up to do. Life is weird. So weird. Fleeting. Now are the days that I will miss with passion, years to come. Thank you blessing me with this life. It is all a mystery. Weirdest mystery. Glad to be alive. Glad to be alive. Let's see what more life has to offer.

Beautiful lyrics thank you for this masterpiece.❤

I love it sm

It’s not real coz you don’t exist anymore my Kedvesem. I’m all that remains of us- and I can’t believe it’s been 7 years you’ve been gone. To me that last smile is behind the closing of my eyelids and your love is in smiles I give! You made me battle through storms but I wouldn’t change a moment of the US that existed for a time on this earth! Wherever your soul is now- know I will one day find you and we will be whole again! 💛

Love this ❤️😭😭😭

I think it's a sad one , where you create memories inside your head , when your heart has almost accepted that your crush would reject you 🦋🍂

Right in the fucking feels, man.

This takes me back to the beginning of my relationship with my soon to be husband (it didn't feel real for the longest time)we been together for 4 years now and I wouldn't trade my love for him for anything ❤

I feel this song so much 😔 I wish something magical would happen and the person I like would tell me he loves me too 😢

When you're young and you innocently experience your very first love. The truest, sweetest love. I miss those days. As you get older love has different expectations. Kinda ruins it

@Ryanbros

7 ай бұрын

Well I'm happy that I will get to experience that soon

The one thing I never have. Love.

And now I'm crying again

I've realized up until recently as I matured, relationships do take a huge toll on your life. It's sad really. I have no other words, I'm sure yall understand. Relationships make it harder to get through life and the important things. And then having kids together on top of it? I don't understand why we csnr just all love and get along.

Go outside. Discover someone worth staying awake for. If you haven't found them yet, you just haven't met enough people.

I have a man in my dreams whos been there since childhood. I used to be very in love w him, and a part of my heart still loves this not- real person. But Ive moved on, with my husband. This song made my chest ache in memory.

I'm not crying you are *visibly sobbing*

This song is making me live through memories I've never even had.

Me and my fictional husband 😔👍

This song is so good it gives me the chills

maladaptive daydreaming + memory problems. sometimes its like having a ghost that nobody else sees.

When you fall in love with a fictional character

This song me think of my first love, I miss him so much, I sometimes live in old memories that we made and then I wake up and I’m back to reality as if all the lovely memories never happened…

her voice reminds me of Maria Mena... takes me back

@1-800-AUDIOS

7 ай бұрын

SO TRUE I LOVED HER

I hear this song totally different than many others based on comments, but that’s what is beautiful about music. We can all take our own experiences to pull meaning from this song that gives us some sense of release/relief. 😊❤️

I’m not crying

I really love this song it makes me feel better and relaxed ❤

What a fantastic beautiful song

This song hits soo hard. It reminds me of my own personal experiences. When it rains and I look out into the distance longing for someone to take me away. Or when I fall asleep at night dreaming of love but I wake up and realize that something like this will never happen to me because I just don’t deserve to be loved. I’ve been listening to this song on repeat fr the last 20 mins and I haven’t stopped crying. People tell me I’m too young cause I’m only 14 but all of my friends and my younger cousins have found their love and I just want that too. I feel like I’m not good or special enough. So I love reading romance novels and only watch romance movies so I can find some comfort and fill the void to hopefully feel something