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LANY - if this is the last time

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lyrics
hey mom i know we're getting old
and the lines on our hands have changed
but you still look at me the same
hey mom guess what you're really tough
and i know you did all you could
just to make sure my life was good
sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice
sorry for the nights when i made the wrong choice
life is flying by and it's hitting me now
i hope it's not but
if this is the last time please come close
i love you with all my heart you know
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
then let's do the things we always do
like go to the mall and buy some shoes
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
hey dad what's up miss you so much
yea the shade of your hair has changed
but i look up to you the same
taught me how to fish taught me how to ride a bike t
aught me how to love how to treat a woman right
life is flying by and it's hitting me now
i hope it's not but
if this is the last time please come close
i love you with all my heart you know
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
then let's do the things we always do
like go for a drive or watch the news
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
hey you sit back don't go so fast
if this is the last time please come close
i love you with all my heart you know
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
so let's do the things we always do
or maybe we try something brand new
i don't wanna cry i'm bad at goodbye
if this is the last time
Music video by LANY performing if this is the last time. © 2020 Side Street Entertainment LLC, under exclusive licence to Universal Music Operations Limited
#LANY #mamasboy

Пікірлер: 6 600

  • @sidthesloth9094
    @sidthesloth90944 жыл бұрын

    dear person reading this, i hope your parents live to be over 100. thanks so much for all the likes! I hope you are all staying safe, take care of yourself x

  • @emiliojay10

    @emiliojay10

    4 жыл бұрын

    :( my is in Heaven already

  • @mariloucredo6513

    @mariloucredo6513

    4 жыл бұрын

    I never got the chance to meet them. But I hope they are ok. They abandoned me.

  • @sarasam6392

    @sarasam6392

    4 жыл бұрын

    Amen and more

  • @Raven-pv5ey

    @Raven-pv5ey

    4 жыл бұрын

    😊your as well :)

  • @mark-kd6ti

    @mark-kd6ti

    4 жыл бұрын

    𝑆𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢....

  • @nurin9569
    @nurin95694 жыл бұрын

    Let's be honest, this song is much better than any break up songs.

  • @galea64

    @galea64

    4 жыл бұрын

    Tamara II yah its better than hurting for someone who does not deserve it

  • @andrewgarong

    @andrewgarong

    4 жыл бұрын

    Truly 💓

  • @restymadriaga4682

    @restymadriaga4682

    4 жыл бұрын

    So true! 💔

  • @alrownie7655

    @alrownie7655

    4 жыл бұрын

    yeah, it did hit me more than a break up song would...

  • @ashleyashleyyy5042

    @ashleyashleyyy5042

    4 жыл бұрын

    Indeed

  • @alexisramirez9128
    @alexisramirez91283 жыл бұрын

    13 years ago I still remember my dad saying "Don't worry I'll come back home" while being rushed in the hospital and never did. I love u so much dad.

  • @kibbyarumpac7620

    @kibbyarumpac7620

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sry men🥺

  • @kibbyarumpac7620

    @kibbyarumpac7620

    3 жыл бұрын

    Sry for your lose

  • @alllyannaallen6065

    @alllyannaallen6065

    3 жыл бұрын

    Dang. Sorry for your loss.

  • @tyronehayato1910

    @tyronehayato1910

    3 жыл бұрын

    my dad said this too

  • @danafulk7178

    @danafulk7178

    3 жыл бұрын

    Oh I know same happened to me.. never got to tell him good bye!

  • @hellboy_un_ramaboysdontcry
    @hellboy_un_ramaboysdontcry3 жыл бұрын

    This is enough to make a grown man cry

  • @vprexyz7940

    @vprexyz7940

    2 жыл бұрын

    It is

  • @sentientbottleofglue6272

    @sentientbottleofglue6272

    2 жыл бұрын

    And that's alright...

  • @clarice8604
    @clarice86044 жыл бұрын

    "Love your parents: We are so busy growing up, we often forget they are also growing old."

  • @rjbruzo2746

    @rjbruzo2746

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah Right.

  • @karrin2002

    @karrin2002

    4 жыл бұрын

    Lol I'm the clingiest child. They don't have to worry

  • @michala539

    @michala539

    4 жыл бұрын

    😭😭

  • @travisc8598

    @travisc8598

    4 жыл бұрын

    Very well said

  • @marychhakchhuak2819

    @marychhakchhuak2819

    3 жыл бұрын

    💙

  • @aisyahh.1469
    @aisyahh.14694 жыл бұрын

    The proud look in their parents eyes brought me to tears. We’re all proud of you, LANY.

  • @mariatheresafloresca4166

    @mariatheresafloresca4166

    4 жыл бұрын

    Cause they’ve made lany and its amazing people 🤪🙃🥰

  • @Klaharnchaiya

    @Klaharnchaiya

    4 жыл бұрын

    Ayyy Malaysian 🇲🇾🇲🇾✊🏼

  • @siomai6109

    @siomai6109

    4 жыл бұрын

    Congrats you are now the top comment for this Music video!

  • @keb300

    @keb300

    4 жыл бұрын

    🤍💙🤍

  • @yeytyotu3476

    @yeytyotu3476

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@Klaharnchaiya bangga nampak 😂

  • @peterpiper0002
    @peterpiper00023 жыл бұрын

    I’m not the crying type but holy shit this got me, and both of my parents are alive, Such an underrated song

  • @LM-yx9hp

    @LM-yx9hp

    3 жыл бұрын

    I get so emotional when I hear this song. My parents are alive and I'm turning 29 this year. They don't know that I have nightmares that wake me up crying and out of breath when I dream of them passing away.

  • @greatsteel_4288

    @greatsteel_4288

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same bro!!!

  • @justinh75

    @justinh75

    2 жыл бұрын

    Couldn't agree more.

  • @decoding_the_truth33

    @decoding_the_truth33

    5 ай бұрын

    same here, live each day like it’s last an make the most of it each an everyday.

  • @aliejaeresmas2524
    @aliejaeresmas25243 жыл бұрын

    It makes me wanna cry especially at the "hey dad" part because I'm a papa's girl I feel so heartbroken now that my father have a new family :(

  • @BibaontheWay90

    @BibaontheWay90

    3 жыл бұрын

    but you are still part of his family , I hope all the best to you

  • @princesschryztelle4314

    @princesschryztelle4314

    2 жыл бұрын

    We are the same my dad has a child now and my mom has a boyfriend and I'm staying with my mom and I'm the only child with the both of them but I guess not for my dad anymore since I'm having a sibling now

  • @raphidienb.lagrimasjr.1960
    @raphidienb.lagrimasjr.19604 жыл бұрын

    I'm crying everytime I listen to this... "sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice"

  • @kerznerbryan

    @kerznerbryan

    4 жыл бұрын

    me too.

  • @sorah3986

    @sorah3986

    4 жыл бұрын

    same here, last couple days I have fights with my mom, when I'm listened and wanna sing this verse, I can't hold it

  • @blue6943

    @blue6943

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@sorah3986 SAMEEE!!!

  • @dizzya6387

    @dizzya6387

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me too Especially this lyrics

  • @Pa_ru215

    @Pa_ru215

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me too 😥

  • @M.A.13219
    @M.A.132194 жыл бұрын

    This is every one of us when quarter life crisis hits hard and the time we will able to realize things maturely

  • @ZEYRU335

    @ZEYRU335

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes.

  • @erickapeoples9900
    @erickapeoples99003 жыл бұрын

    This hits different when you have lost a parent

  • @DearTech
    @DearTech3 жыл бұрын

    I don't know what I felt after reading this comment section but there are tears in my eyes. Maybe coz I can't imagine myself in that situation, I might not be able to hold up like how you guys are doin after losing the closest, warmest, and most loved person of your life. God bless you guys, your parents must be proud of you for whatever you doin and they are always watching you.

  • @Tim1534

    @Tim1534

    2 жыл бұрын

    Yea.. These comments got me 😭 I no longer have either of my parents... And I just came across this song... Definitely cherish the moments to those lucky to have their parents still around

  • @latiefamuhammad1393

    @latiefamuhammad1393

    9 ай бұрын

    I lost my son on 12 August 2023. He sent me this song last year February as we were very close. It brings me solace, yet so bittersweet. I listen to it on days when missing him becomes so unbearable and appreciate the fact that he was always grateful fir tge sacrifices I made as a single parent.

  • @squishyric9927
    @squishyric99274 жыл бұрын

    This hits hard when you are in a broken family and your mom is the only one who raised you.

  • @cali2147

    @cali2147

    4 жыл бұрын

    yes

  • @chriselbontilao4528

    @chriselbontilao4528

    4 жыл бұрын

    👍😪😪

  • @kevinberiso3233

    @kevinberiso3233

    4 жыл бұрын

    Sending virtual hugs po sa inyo

  • @huntersizemore6517

    @huntersizemore6517

    4 жыл бұрын

    Truth

  • @fourthwap

    @fourthwap

    4 жыл бұрын

    ikr :>

  • @AshillaSikado
    @AshillaSikado4 жыл бұрын

    holding my tears at the "hey dad..." part. my dad passed away 10 years ago. i miss him so much🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 too bad i didn't get the chance to see his hair shades change😭 thank u so much for an amazing song LANY.

  • @antawirya8947

    @antawirya8947

    4 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry

  • @ayurahmadhanti6304

    @ayurahmadhanti6304

    4 жыл бұрын

    Kak Shilla 🥺

  • @amandaardhy

    @amandaardhy

    4 жыл бұрын

    kak ashilaaa😢😢♥️♥️

  • @b-ditajulianmiguelv.9893

    @b-ditajulianmiguelv.9893

    4 жыл бұрын

    Never met my dad🙃

  • @sandysye6876

    @sandysye6876

    4 жыл бұрын

    me too

  • @frozenporcupine
    @frozenporcupine3 жыл бұрын

    My mom: why are you crying? Me: nothing, my eyes were just sweating.

  • @lordoflazybones8623
    @lordoflazybones8623 Жыл бұрын

    Man I thought this was some song about romance and breakup but this is absolutely masterpiece... it's sad to think that we are all getting older and never knew when our time will run out someday

  • @franzfranz2472
    @franzfranz24723 жыл бұрын

    The saddest part of my life is seeing my parents growing old.

  • @ma.victoriavargas4268

    @ma.victoriavargas4268

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'll never get to see my father grow old. He was 49 when he died.

  • @sheshe9678

    @sheshe9678

    3 жыл бұрын

    Bruh you are blessed enough to have chance to see and watch your parents growing old. My mama died last January 1, 2021. She was only 59. I will never get the chance to see her aging :(

  • @ssc4153

    @ssc4153

    3 жыл бұрын

    This isn't sad....we exchanged youth and beauty for wisdom and knowledge......not a bad pay off if you ask me. Aging and death are all part of the journey......many of us realize this and don't fight it but accept it and enjoy what's left of our journey......We need you young folks in our lives, you are the future!

  • @BibaontheWay90

    @BibaontheWay90

    3 жыл бұрын

    I couldn't agree more it is really sad

  • @julietxjulie

    @julietxjulie

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yes it truly is

  • @shnicky12
    @shnicky124 жыл бұрын

    One of the best music video by far. 0% Nudity 0% Cuss 0% Negativity 100% Love, Respect and Positivity Because of this song, it reminds us to love and cherish our parents while they are still breathing.

  • @johnathanmccarthy9739

    @johnathanmccarthy9739

    4 жыл бұрын

    I agree, this one's straight from the heart. Nothing else was in his head when he wrote this. Just pure feelings, moments, and memories.

  • @rafaelasantos9511

    @rafaelasantos9511

    3 жыл бұрын

    ehrtnb

  • @zux7594

    @zux7594

    3 жыл бұрын

    HAHAHAHAHAH POSITIVITY LOOK AT THE COLOR AND IMAGE

  • @shnicky12

    @shnicky12

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@zux7594 perhaps your life is full of negativity

  • @zux7594

    @zux7594

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@shnicky12 or perhaps your color blind

  • @thomassanders6934
    @thomassanders69343 жыл бұрын

    Holding back the tears for my dad. Its been almost 5 months since this damn virus took him from us. I miss you, pops

  • @elishavehonsky660
    @elishavehonsky6603 жыл бұрын

    I just sent the is song to my mother . This really hit me in the feels . My mother has always been there for me , even when I didn’t deserve her love , we used to hurt heads and now I’m a mother of three daughters , married and going to be 39. We all need our mothers . They never teach you in life how to say goodbye .. I don’t look forward to ever losing my mother .. 🙏🏽 Beautiful yet sad song ... ♥️

  • @krisztinagaspar01
    @krisztinagaspar014 жыл бұрын

    Who is the eternal fan of LANY?

  • @stephanieconcha2296

    @stephanieconcha2296

    4 жыл бұрын

    Krisztina Gáspár me!! Since 2015

  • @yandelayaguilar5051

    @yandelayaguilar5051

    4 жыл бұрын

    Stephanie Concha same here, I’ve always love them since 2015 and will continue loving LANY

  • @jethrogonzales1323

    @jethrogonzales1323

    4 жыл бұрын

    Helllowww

  • @valenciaaudrey1963

    @valenciaaudrey1963

    4 жыл бұрын

    also me

  • @julliamarieraylos6103

    @julliamarieraylos6103

    4 жыл бұрын

    Since 2015 🙏🏼❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @shanelepugay2624
    @shanelepugay26244 жыл бұрын

    This song talks to much for those kids who can't open this kind of feeling :(

  • @carlocaspis5469

    @carlocaspis5469

    4 жыл бұрын

    You're damn right

  • @neecs01

    @neecs01

    4 жыл бұрын

    You are right.

  • @nephi5223

    @nephi5223

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yep

  • @romeowalen

    @romeowalen

    4 жыл бұрын

    I cried the first time I heard this

  • @mariatheresafloresca4166

    @mariatheresafloresca4166

    4 жыл бұрын

    Some are good being silent even it is too much !

  • @LayalSJ1
    @LayalSJ13 жыл бұрын

    This had me bawling my eyes out. So full of emotions. The reality that our parents are getting older and older each day is so sad. We really have to be thankful for them and appreciate them every single day while we can ❤️

  • @d0ngk1e
    @d0ngk1e2 ай бұрын

    SOUNDS LIKE HEAVEN BUT HURTS LIKE HELL. 🥺

  • @janzdirk8
    @janzdirk84 жыл бұрын

    This song speaks everything that a broken family couldn’t. 😔

  • @notthestarfishpatrick

    @notthestarfishpatrick

    4 жыл бұрын

    :(

  • @bianx.jnlxx_

    @bianx.jnlxx_

    4 жыл бұрын

    🥺

  • @hugocompston1703
    @hugocompston17034 жыл бұрын

    I feel sorry for the people who haven’t discovered LANY yet. It’s just a secret shared between an elite group of people

  • @wallchrist4693

    @wallchrist4693

    4 жыл бұрын

    🤣Lmao

  • @kencruise4328

    @kencruise4328

    4 жыл бұрын

    👌🏼👌🏼👌🏼

  • @Pinkyminds

    @Pinkyminds

    4 жыл бұрын

    can’t deny

  • @swaritchauhan

    @swaritchauhan

    4 жыл бұрын

    Ohh yes dude!

  • @jasonliu1539

    @jasonliu1539

    4 жыл бұрын

    kzread.info/dash/bejne/ZJaDp7iCn63eqs4.html

  • @canigetahoyah
    @canigetahoyah Жыл бұрын

    I lost my mom very suddenly and unexpectedly this April. This song made me bawl. I never would have expected that day to be the last time I saw her. She was so young. I miss her every day

  • @ohyuen464

    @ohyuen464

    Жыл бұрын

    My condolences to you and your family. Stay strong 💪❤️

  • @camuscarlajeane.7293
    @camuscarlajeane.72933 жыл бұрын

    I miss my parents. Hoping they are happy seeing me doing well. I wish they can feel how much I love them.

  • @hanu209
    @hanu2094 жыл бұрын

    LANY IS SUCH A MOOD EVERYDAY

  • @jadecaitlin4117

    @jadecaitlin4117

    4 жыл бұрын

    yessur 🥺🥰

  • @jasonliu1539

    @jasonliu1539

    4 жыл бұрын

    kzread.info/dash/bejne/ZJaDp7iCn63eqs4.html

  • @ma.sophia6076
    @ma.sophia60764 жыл бұрын

    LANY is the best band in the world!

  • @angelgallardo6795

    @angelgallardo6795

    4 жыл бұрын

    amen ♡

  • @mrsoap6111

    @mrsoap6111

    4 жыл бұрын

    one of the best bands*

  • @angelgallardo6795

    @angelgallardo6795

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@mrsoap6111 no

  • @ahlrashid3079

    @ahlrashid3079

    4 жыл бұрын

    and that's the fact

  • @nurtihani859

    @nurtihani859

    4 жыл бұрын

    OMAIGODDDD YESSIIIRRRRRR

  • @rsantiagogarcia80
    @rsantiagogarcia803 жыл бұрын

    Just heard this randomly, my son passed away a year ago. This song was very comforting.

  • @jessd956

    @jessd956

    3 жыл бұрын

    I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine.

  • @cawcrow1418

    @cawcrow1418

    3 жыл бұрын

    My son left 3 years ago. I comforts me too

  • @Wkwkwkoh_nyx7319
    @Wkwkwkoh_nyx73193 жыл бұрын

    If you're reading this...Happy Mother's Day to all Mommas, you are all amazing! I love y'all 🖤

  • @m1santhr0pe
    @m1santhr0pe4 жыл бұрын

    "If this is the last time please come close" "somebody help, it's getting worse" Sounds like Malibu Nights. 😵

  • @virginiaperera9768

    @virginiaperera9768

    4 жыл бұрын

    It does tho!

  • @EZZIBOI

    @EZZIBOI

    4 жыл бұрын

    Lolol..i legit made a mix of the two..it sounds fire

  • @neontyler6663

    @neontyler6663

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yeah I noticed it too

  • @manias16

    @manias16

    4 жыл бұрын

    Didn't noticed that before but you're right

  • @maureenkhristinecalanog3356

    @maureenkhristinecalanog3356

    4 жыл бұрын

    Malibu Nights' sister hahaahaha

  • @kuroneko6617
    @kuroneko66174 жыл бұрын

    Many people don't seem to realize how much they have until they start living without it.

  • @helenaliam8580

    @helenaliam8580

    4 жыл бұрын

    preach !

  • @LeNoir2411

    @LeNoir2411

    4 жыл бұрын

    well i realized how much I've been missing when i met my best friend's family

  • @deeya370
    @deeya3702 жыл бұрын

    When you have to live with the fact that you’re without them for the rest of your life. Last times you never knew

  • @amandaallison4888
    @amandaallison48883 жыл бұрын

    My dad has stage 4 pancreatic cancer and my mom has had epilepsy all her life. This song brings me to reality of losing them. So when I take care of them I will never take it for granted. Love your parents everyday cause one day they may not be there when you need them the most.

  • @ajayifunmix369

    @ajayifunmix369

    3 жыл бұрын

    Such is life in this satan system of things but guess what! God has given us the opportunity to be free from death and to see our loved ones whom we have lost in death....that assurance keeps my hope high...you are not alone

  • @zailacaringalzamora736
    @zailacaringalzamora7364 жыл бұрын

    Am I the only one who's watching this while crying and in the same time smiling?haha. LANY is the only band who can drive our emotions like roller coaster.

  • @lany1359

    @lany1359

    4 жыл бұрын

    I feel like they are the only ones that can make you feel the way like makes you feel they are the only ones to pinpoint every emotion

  • @johnirvinfabul

    @johnirvinfabul

    4 жыл бұрын

    Rollercoaster of emotions in just one freakin' song. Damn, I hate crying :'(

  • @michaelbutalid1832

    @michaelbutalid1832

    4 жыл бұрын

    Agree with you ❤️ hits different vibe

  • @zailacaringalzamora736

    @zailacaringalzamora736

    4 жыл бұрын

    Theee besssstttt

  • @nikkaabigail1344

    @nikkaabigail1344

    4 жыл бұрын

    🤧😭🖐️

  • @stellas_little_safe_art3963
    @stellas_little_safe_art39634 жыл бұрын

    People who’s parents are still together should be grateful bc not everyone gets that opportunity ik I didn’t OMG thank y’all for 1.7k likes

  • @matkogagro43

    @matkogagro43

    4 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong!

  • @infoseputarbali2023

    @infoseputarbali2023

    4 жыл бұрын

    Stay strong! :)

  • @hajin5781

    @hajin5781

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same :(( But we'll be alright, Stay strong

  • @goodvibesmusic8305

    @goodvibesmusic8305

    4 жыл бұрын

    Perfect Lyric video that will fir your mood here👇🏻 kzread.info/dash/bejne/fGR3p7NpgJmcl6Q.html

  • @MyLalala9

    @MyLalala9

    4 жыл бұрын

    On the same note though, some people's parents shouldn't be together and. In some cases you're better off with them seperated

  • @gershomcoloma5928
    @gershomcoloma59283 ай бұрын

    My Mom passed away 2020, this was a year too late. It still hurts. Happy Mother's Day to all Mom's/Single Dad's out there. Kids, always cherish your parents 😊

  • @buckeyescratcher6130
    @buckeyescratcher613015 күн бұрын

    My dad passed at 43 when I was 14. My mom is still alive, well and young at heart at 72 but I know someday that day will come. Cherish every minute you get with your parents

  • @alexavasquez8832
    @alexavasquez88324 жыл бұрын

    “Hold dear to your parents - for it is a scary and confusing world without them.” 🥺❤️

  • @alliyahjannaaveria5412

    @alliyahjannaaveria5412

    4 жыл бұрын

    :

  • @monkeydgoulen1432

    @monkeydgoulen1432

    4 жыл бұрын

    Idk how I'll live on if i was to lose one or both my parents.... Just thinking them gone made me cry already

  • @aljemd.2291

    @aljemd.2291

    4 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️

  • @cosmos9227

    @cosmos9227

    4 жыл бұрын

    Song like this kzread.info/dash/bejne/gpaOydWlkrGnkpM.html 💞😍😎

  • @here4bts521

    @here4bts521

    4 жыл бұрын

    Word!!

  • @purvi1848
    @purvi18484 жыл бұрын

    EXTREMELY UNDERRATED ARTIST AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE MY MIND

  • @marciellaguatlo10

    @marciellaguatlo10

    4 жыл бұрын

    So heartfelt! 😞😞 The lyrics is the best to describ the fear of losing aomeone you love. My friends from Joe and the Anchor made a cover for the song. You can check their cover out here, kzread.info/dash/bejne/e4ab2Y-BmaarlNo.html

  • @BecauseofBangtan

    @BecauseofBangtan

    4 жыл бұрын

    Yessssssssssss

  • @angelabarra9666
    @angelabarra96663 жыл бұрын

    find opportunity to say “i love you” to our parents while they’re still here. life is short ❤️

  • @leoncitatwins
    @leoncitatwins3 жыл бұрын

    Two months ago my mom left to a better place, I wish I could have that chance of the last time. I still have hope to see her in heaven.

  • @dyeraldincortalla7041
    @dyeraldincortalla70413 жыл бұрын

    I wish my parents could hear this. This song speaks out the words I can't say to them in person :)

  • @hayato4349

    @hayato4349

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm feel the same 😞 But There is no more chance even to say goodbye

  • @ssc4153

    @ssc4153

    3 жыл бұрын

    Then do what my son did. He had me sit down at the computer and had this video ready to go. He said mom, I want you to hear this. It reminds me of you and dad......go for it....and good luck!

  • @paultaramarshall5077

    @paultaramarshall5077

    3 жыл бұрын

    Pal show them this song man .

  • @kittywiskerskiki3859

    @kittywiskerskiki3859

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ain't that the truth. My parents are up in heaven. And I wish every day. That I. Could see them both again. This song is. Very amazing

  • @jillvasquez1010

    @jillvasquez1010

    3 жыл бұрын

    Find a way to say it, even if it takes writing a letter, they need to hear it and you need to say it for your own personal wellbeing. There is no worse regret than the things you didn't say, trust me, I know.

  • @clarajianu
    @clarajianu4 жыл бұрын

    Paul: breathes The whole Philippines: 😢😢😢

  • @ericaangeles9839

    @ericaangeles9839

    4 жыл бұрын

    So heartfelt! 🥺 My friends @ Joe & The Anchor made a soulful cover/music video of it. It's amazing! You might wanna check it out and it would be awesome if you let them know your thoughts. Thanks, fam 💜🌹kzread.info/dash/bejne/e4ab2Y-BmaarlNo.html

  • @ririschannelx

    @ririschannelx

    4 жыл бұрын

    Why do they have so many Filipino fans???

  • @clarajianu

    @clarajianu

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@ririschannelx who knows??

  • @owogamingguy

    @owogamingguy

    4 жыл бұрын

    LOL

  • @sandHaniTizer04
    @sandHaniTizer044 ай бұрын

    came her from beomgyu's weverse playlist this is an amazing song...made my eyes blurry. I love my mom and dad so much, it hurts to be away from home. I hope I can spend so much more time with them and create beautiful memories

  • @efmoon2518
    @efmoon25184 ай бұрын

    I'm here for Beomgyu, but this touches my heart for my parents.

  • @DayJones
    @DayJones4 жыл бұрын

    This one is for the moms and dads out there, Rest In Peace to the mother’s and fathers up above.

  • @coupers6709
    @coupers67094 жыл бұрын

    auto change mood ko kapag narinig ko to🥺 kayo rin ba? 👇

  • @desmond9019

    @desmond9019

    4 жыл бұрын

    ulol

  • @b-ditajulianmiguelv.9893

    @b-ditajulianmiguelv.9893

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@desmond9019 utas

  • @revoltin85

    @revoltin85

    4 жыл бұрын

    ok kayo

  • @xersusss

    @xersusss

    4 жыл бұрын

    sobrang auto mood change tong kantang to

  • @paulorocks666

    @paulorocks666

    4 жыл бұрын

    mama mo change mood

  • @erickamaes08
    @erickamaes086 ай бұрын

    I'm living away from my parents and I kept telling myself that it's fine but this song made me realize just how much I miss them and my siblings. I just wanna run back to their arms and cry my heart out. LANY gives us all this wonderful feelings in every song. Thank you so much for the beautiful music and the experience we all dive in. Truly, you're the best. ❤

  • @khaungkachin7436
    @khaungkachin74364 ай бұрын

    The most beautiful song in the world 😢

  • @paolomiasco7614
    @paolomiasco76144 жыл бұрын

    This song hits hard not gonna lie. My mom is getting old I wish I could give everything that she deserves before her last time.

  • @DonnyJ
    @DonnyJ4 жыл бұрын

    I wish more artists had the heart to write songs like this. About their families and what they mean to them. Hopefully we're all turning a page here. Gotta big up Lany for this song. You've been a constant inspiration!

  • @Gaann7497
    @Gaann7497 Жыл бұрын

    We often fought for many arguments, because our thoughts are really different, but mom, I really love you, so much

  • @Aletodorito
    @Aletodorito3 жыл бұрын

    this song has come on the radio many times. I Live with my grandma due to my mom passing away when i was 12 months old from cancer.. And My dad is a unstable druggy. She Adopted me when i was 9. We always cry when this comes on the radio. My Grandma says its because it makes her think about what she could've done to make her son better (my dad), she felt like she messed up on so much raising him, and she wished she could redo it, thats why shes such a amazing grandma to me.. She New she messed up and wanted to do better with me when she adopted me. Thank you LANY, this is on my list of songs that are following me to my grave. Its special to me, it truly is.

  • @aliasalsabilla6274
    @aliasalsabilla62744 жыл бұрын

    “hey dad...” part hits me so hard because i lost my dad 16 years ago, so unexpectedly, when i was 4. and since that day, i always think about “the last time” with people so that i can be more grateful for someone’s presence in my life. cried immediately whenever i heard this song because i know i didn’t get the chance to see his hair shades changes. this song really reminds me of him and makes me miss him even more. thanks LANY💜

  • @kerznerbryan

    @kerznerbryan

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me I lost my dad 22 years and counting. It makes me miss him even more too.

  • @Ghost-qi3md

    @Ghost-qi3md

    4 жыл бұрын

    Lost him 4 year ago, cried immediately when i heard this song, now i'm scared to play it outside haha. Wish you all the best!

  • @mgfsantiago

    @mgfsantiago

    4 жыл бұрын

    Feels!!!!

  • @kjjviii1735

    @kjjviii1735

    4 жыл бұрын

    I lost mine 93 years ago

  • @boypandhesal6027

    @boypandhesal6027

    4 жыл бұрын

    I lost my papa last year and it kills me everyday

  • @ellamaynolasco5379
    @ellamaynolasco53794 жыл бұрын

    "Taught me how to love, how to treat a woman right"- LANY 2020

  • @3Equis
    @3Equis2 жыл бұрын

    I drove home twelve hours on Good Friday just so I could celebrate Easter 2022 with my family after years of not being able to. We went to a local diner that we've been frequenting for many years. This song played and I just treasured that low key moment with them. They likely didn't notice that internally I was both grateful and tormented. "We don't know the value of a moment until it's just a memory."

  • @Trent_Brooks1990
    @Trent_Brooks19903 жыл бұрын

    Lost my dad in 2014, still miss him 😢

  • @wheels8856
    @wheels88563 жыл бұрын

    I lost my mom last year to cancer and my dad this year to a heart attack, so to say this song broke me is an understatement.

  • @iffypatel

    @iffypatel

    3 жыл бұрын

    May Almighty give you patience and courage to handle the losses

  • @trumpgirl9291

    @trumpgirl9291

    3 жыл бұрын

    Bless your heart. I pray for peace to find you🙏🏻

  • @vegasawol3070

    @vegasawol3070

    3 жыл бұрын

    Broken indeed. I feel your pain. I also know we should count our blessings that we had people to care about us and that we cared enough for this song to affect us so much.

  • @danle8636

    @danle8636

    3 жыл бұрын

    you're never alone bro, stay strong

  • @laurieyakubowski3597

    @laurieyakubowski3597

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your losses Brent...

  • @kuura37
    @kuura373 жыл бұрын

    this made me think how one day my parents won't be here anymore and I'll have to survive life on my own.. they are not that old yet, but that day will come and I'm so scared

  • @jerrysmotovlog6491

    @jerrysmotovlog6491

    3 жыл бұрын

    same here

  • @analiese4512

    @analiese4512

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yea same I always am scared I don't know what I would do without them especially my dad and stepmom

  • @pokeboi984

    @pokeboi984

    3 жыл бұрын

    Yeah same. It’s gonna be really hard. That’s why I’m grateful for every day I have with them. I can’t help but feel like I’m gonna say: “I thought we had more time.” However, after seeing my parents lose their folks, I know that we’re gonna be alright :)

  • @natashamubweka6904

    @natashamubweka6904

    3 жыл бұрын

    Me too 😥

  • @crystallau3295

    @crystallau3295

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @maayscancisio8925
    @maayscancisio89253 жыл бұрын

    I'm tearing up whenever I listen to this.

  • @jayskretny5512
    @jayskretny55123 жыл бұрын

    I love my mom and dad more than anything. Wish I could repay them for everything they've done for me. As a son seeing my dad grow old and fragile breaks my heart. But he will always be 10 feet tall and bulletproof in my eyes. I love you Mom and Pops...

  • @felidiaz5159
    @felidiaz51594 жыл бұрын

    i really need an acoustic version of this song, i cried a lot the first time i listened to this song thinking about my parents

  • @gabbicosmo8775

    @gabbicosmo8775

    4 жыл бұрын

    AGREED

  • @grootiie4787

    @grootiie4787

    4 жыл бұрын

    YESSSS

  • @gemalapermata

    @gemalapermata

    4 жыл бұрын

    That acoustic version will hit me harder

  • @freddyantou9619

    @freddyantou9619

    4 жыл бұрын

    me too

  • @vaniafernandes
    @vaniafernandes4 жыл бұрын

    The way this HITS 🥺

  • @user-ig9yk8dp9y

    @user-ig9yk8dp9y

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi Vania, I hope you get past whatever it is your reminiscing about and feel great.

  • @gabbicosmo8775

    @gabbicosmo8775

    4 жыл бұрын

    GIRL FELT THAT

  • @jadeshernowitz
    @jadeshernowitz3 жыл бұрын

    My dad died when I was 15, my mom raised me, I love her so much

  • @az_growss
    @az_growss3 жыл бұрын

    I miss my mama💔 I miss her touch I miss her sound I miss the smell of her hair...I'm scared to lose the memories of her. Always love your mama because from one day to the next they can be taken from you.

  • @basukhangembam5478
    @basukhangembam54784 жыл бұрын

    Question: Why do small artists always made the best songs?

  • @trolll12355

    @trolll12355

    4 жыл бұрын

    because they put in a lot of effort and gets better everytime

  • @akaliotp6766

    @akaliotp6766

    4 жыл бұрын

    because theyre not small at all?

  • @mitchtatsuoka9976

    @mitchtatsuoka9976

    4 жыл бұрын

    Bec they are not POP. As usual.

  • @magicalp0wers788

    @magicalp0wers788

    3 жыл бұрын

    EXACTLY

  • @clouds_oof9270

    @clouds_oof9270

    3 жыл бұрын

    Ya

  • @alexandervalverde
    @alexandervalverde4 жыл бұрын

    “I dont wanna cry” but I was crying before listen to that

  • @nurulainidamayanti1294

    @nurulainidamayanti1294

    4 жыл бұрын

    Me too

  • @yambaoandrealouissea.4120

    @yambaoandrealouissea.4120

    3 жыл бұрын

    sameee, my tears burst and i can't even hold it :((

  • @eend.4727
    @eend.47273 жыл бұрын

    I cry 😭 so hard listening to this song. I really miss my mom and dad💔

  • @donnaferrell6917
    @donnaferrell69173 жыл бұрын

    I hear this song in my son's voice! I cried almost immediately. What a gifted artist.

  • @mira4260
    @mira42604 жыл бұрын

    I bet I'm gonna remember this song randomly in 7 years and see all the "who's here 2027 comments "

  • @alexvillanueva5801

    @alexvillanueva5801

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same hahah

  • @jirecke.sabanyao166

    @jirecke.sabanyao166

    3 жыл бұрын

    Same

  • @kennethmercado4669
    @kennethmercado46694 жыл бұрын

    To everyone who's reading this, I hope your mother may live hundred years❣

  • @russelnarciso2705
    @russelnarciso27053 жыл бұрын

    My mom passed away last July, and I'm bad at goodbye so I cried so much. I miss you so much mom 🖤💔

  • @pennydavis7782
    @pennydavis77823 жыл бұрын

    As a mother of three children who have found their own way into the world - this song spoke to me. I could see moments of their lives like pictures. And of course, I cried sitting in traffic. I had to pull off the road. Thank you for giving me a song that actually has something to say - and something to think about.

  • @sadboimakesmusic
    @sadboimakesmusic4 жыл бұрын

    LANY: "I don't wanna cry" Me: *cries uncontrollably* Ps. I did a small cover of this beautiful song and I would love some feedback

  • @Jen-wz9kn
    @Jen-wz9kn4 жыл бұрын

    “Hey Dad, whats up? Miss you so much” This line hits me so hard, my Dad died 7 years ago and today I discovered that I am having a baby 💙 Tatay magkaka-apo na po kayo 💙💙

  • @marjorievillafranca4139

    @marjorievillafranca4139

    4 жыл бұрын

    omg😭😭😭😭😭

  • @xaviergonzales6537

    @xaviergonzales6537

    4 жыл бұрын

    i’m crying.

  • @the_gibsterr

    @the_gibsterr

    4 жыл бұрын

    this is so bittersweet.. the sorrow of losing a loved one and the hope of a new life to come...

  • @deb5520

    @deb5520

    4 жыл бұрын

    Congratssss 🤗🤗🤗. Sure ako sobrang excited na ng tatay mo :)

  • @Jen-wz9kn

    @Jen-wz9kn

    4 жыл бұрын

    Deb thank you soo much ❤️❤️❤️

  • @ricafortdanicaz.1708
    @ricafortdanicaz.17082 жыл бұрын

    Currently listening, because I miss my mom from heaven 😭😞❤️

  • @Rexmizo19
    @Rexmizo192 жыл бұрын

    Love you mom and I miss you dad, hope you watch us from heaven...

  • @josephcaoitan6400
    @josephcaoitan64003 жыл бұрын

    i always overthink about these things, and sometimes, i want to be gone first before my parents i cant live without them, i always cry everytime i think of them

  • @alisteins5172

    @alisteins5172

    3 жыл бұрын

    Me to your parents are everything you can never live without them just always look after them and always be there for them parents always comes first 💖

  • @jillvasquez1010

    @jillvasquez1010

    3 жыл бұрын

    One of the hardest things about losing my mom has been watching my grandmother suffer through the loss. Doesn't matter who goes first, it'll always be hard on the ones left behind.

  • @alisteins5172

    @alisteins5172

    3 жыл бұрын

    @@jillvasquez1010 so sorry 💖💔

  • @lindagant60

    @lindagant60

    3 жыл бұрын

    I lost my son 8 months ago so from a parents perspective, that’s the absolute worst. Our kids aren’t supposed to go first. Let them know you love them and be there.

  • @puddinpak

    @puddinpak

    3 жыл бұрын

    That would cause your parents unimaginable pain. Please don’t wish that upon them.

  • @musharraf1004
    @musharraf10044 жыл бұрын

    Why is he so underrated? First time listening to his songs Man he's so good

  • @shinegalvez7945

    @shinegalvez7945

    4 жыл бұрын

    Not *He but *Them LANY consists of three members, Paul Les And Jake 😁😉

  • @ChaChaaa

    @ChaChaaa

    4 жыл бұрын

    Uhm...they're not underrated.

  • @lanyfan3100

    @lanyfan3100

    4 жыл бұрын

    yea they're underrated but they have the biggest fandom in the philippines

  • @daniels7885

    @daniels7885

    4 жыл бұрын

    Misty Dawn they are very underrated. i’ve loved lany for years but they’re underrated because they’re still a small bad. that means they’re underrated

  • @musharraf1004

    @musharraf1004

    4 жыл бұрын

    @@shinegalvez7945 i'm sorry it's my first time knowing them😂

  • @casandram2390
    @casandram23903 жыл бұрын

    I love the sentiment of this song

  • @Yuki-lw7oc
    @Yuki-lw7oc3 жыл бұрын

    Kids are so busy with there devices they forget all about there parents so just remember they brought u up and they love you more then anything..💞💓💓💓💓❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @evelyncruz7832
    @evelyncruz78324 жыл бұрын

    Coming from a broken family, no emotional bond with my dad, no memories I can remember only the bad. But this made me cry because of my strong mother who deserves everything in the world. I thank my dad for the financial stability I have today.... but the emotional part I have nothing. No words. I love them both but this one goes out to my mom. Love you for being the strong person I can count on💜

  • @midnightgaming9299

    @midnightgaming9299

    4 жыл бұрын

    💔

  • @Victoria-nx4yc

    @Victoria-nx4yc

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same here love xxxx we got this ❤

  • @joesteves179

    @joesteves179

    4 жыл бұрын

    same her. but I can't relate to this song because I'm not close to my father and my mother has her own family.

  • @ichigo4597

    @ichigo4597

    4 жыл бұрын

    Same here, but I haven't met my father since birth.

  • @danielefrataa2684

    @danielefrataa2684

    4 жыл бұрын

    Be strongg !!

  • @3starz
    @3starz4 жыл бұрын

    *LYRICS* *[Verse 1]* Hey, mom, I know we're gettin' old And the lines on our hands have changed But you still look at me the same Hey, mom, guess what? You're really tough And I know you did all you could Just to make sure my life was good *[Pre-Chorus]* Sorry for the fights and the tone of my voice Sorry for the nights when I made the wrong choice Life is flyin' by and it's hittin' me now I hope it's not, but *[Chorus]* *If* *this* *is* *the* *last* *time* , please come close I love you with all my heart, you know I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time Then let's do the things we always do Like go to the mall and buy some shoes I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time *[Verse 2]* Hey, dad, what's up? Miss you so much Yeah, the shade of your hair has changed But I look up to you the same *[Pre-Chorus]* Taught me how to fish, taught me how to ride a bike Taught me how to love, how to treat a woman right Life is flyin' by and it's hittin' me now I hope it's not, but *[Chorus]* If this is the last time, please come close I love you with all my heart, you know I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time Then let's do the things we always do Like go for a drive or watch the news I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time *[Bridge]* Hey you, sit back Don't go so fast *[Chorus]* If this is the last time, please come close I love you with all my heart, you know I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time So let's do the things we always do Or maybe we try something brand new I don't wanna cry, I'm bad at goodbye If this is the last time *[Outro]* If this is the last time If this is the last time Oh, if this is the last time If this is the last time If this is the last time Oh, if this is the last time Thank You for reading. I made a lyric video of this awesome song of LANY, check it here: kzread.info/dash/bejne/ZIdhm89xqZSeYKQ.html

  • @patbaya7810
    @patbaya78103 жыл бұрын

    This song hit me so hard. I cried so bad. I have not given the respect they deserve. I was busy on a lot of things but I never realize that time is flying so fast and I never told them how much I love them.

  • @jaeplansxo7976
    @jaeplansxo79763 жыл бұрын

    Damn this hits hard I lost my grandmother in the beginning of December and she played the mother and father role for me and my brother until I was 8

  • @genesisramos5684
    @genesisramos56844 жыл бұрын

    People who dislike this are probably crying, full of tears in their eyes and they didn't be able to see the like button.

  • @natchinvlogs8907

    @natchinvlogs8907

    4 жыл бұрын

    their vision got too blur

  • @thelagamer6796

    @thelagamer6796

    4 жыл бұрын

    hay i know right

  • @aanchalroy9585
    @aanchalroy95853 жыл бұрын

    Please don't take ur parents for granted. They are also growing with time while we are busy for everything else. This song is a straight masterpiece.

  • @jenniwilliams3295

    @jenniwilliams3295

    3 жыл бұрын

    I'm one of those people I literally had never heard of them before he did the duet with Kelsea ballerini which was incredibly beautiful. And now I'm trying to catch up on all of their music

  • @markmccormick4461

    @markmccormick4461

    Жыл бұрын

    @@jenniwilliams3295 my mom passed away back in 2020 we had a close bond she was my best friend she was the most wonderful mom in the whole world she ran a Employee Agency for 42 years she was smart women

  • @traffic8829

    @traffic8829

    Жыл бұрын

    Agreed! Dont take anyone in your life that you love. I've lost two siblings, teo best friends and my dad who drank himself to death because he couldn't live with the pain. We had to put our dog down today, the pain hurts so much. I do my best to hold onto the amazing memories i had with all of them to find strength and to try and understand why I'm still here and they aren't. Tell them you love them and let the little things go as they are meaningless in life. ❤

  • @beverlywaters7210

    @beverlywaters7210

    Жыл бұрын

    ❤❤❤❤ love the song🎵 beautiful😍😘

  • @stephenhakimi2375

    @stephenhakimi2375

    10 ай бұрын

    @@markmccormick4461 I’m so sorry for your loss Mark

  • @ItsAriaFord
    @ItsAriaFord3 жыл бұрын

    This song hit home for me so hard, I’m a teen in high school and my dad’s recently been diagnosed with terminal cancer. I only have moments left with him and there’s so much more I need to say and do. I’m gonna send him this song because I don’t think I’ve ever told him what a good dad he’s been. But, he’s not even in his right mind at this point so I’m not sure if it’ll even be worth it...

  • @jayskretny5512

    @jayskretny5512

    3 жыл бұрын

    Tell him no matter what you think

  • @Almay20

    @Almay20

    Жыл бұрын

    How is your dad? ❤️‍🩹🥺

  • @vernonhartsr.3111

    @vernonhartsr.3111

    11 ай бұрын

    It’s worth it

  • @ItsAriaFord

    @ItsAriaFord

    11 ай бұрын

    @@jessetownsend4929 Thank you for your kind words

  • @ItsAriaFord

    @ItsAriaFord

    11 ай бұрын

    @@Almay20 He passed away a few years ago. I am so glad I sent him this song. It is important to tell your loved ones how you feel, but even if you can't every day, I can promise you that they probably already know it deep in their hearts. That is what he told me and one of the powerful things he taught me in his last few months.

  • @CryptoSeann
    @CryptoSeann Жыл бұрын

    Lany doesn't know how much litre of tears this video produced in 3mins. 😭

  • @badguyblaze
    @badguyblaze4 жыл бұрын

    To everyone who lost someone during this difficult period or to an Illness...Stay strong, God bless you 💚💛💙💌

  • @andkXD

    @andkXD

    4 жыл бұрын

    god bless you to

  • @dwightdeguzman4193

    @dwightdeguzman4193

    4 жыл бұрын

    God bless you too 😭

  • @lifedisaster3166
    @lifedisaster31664 жыл бұрын

    "You only have 3 minutes and 25 seconds to live" Me: *plays LANY's If this is the last time.

  • @matchew4325

    @matchew4325

    4 жыл бұрын

    A very nice decision indeed

  • @kimfloreta

    @kimfloreta

    4 жыл бұрын

    For sure, I'll be really emotional for the last minutes of my life.

  • @edgarbryanjupiol

    @edgarbryanjupiol

    4 жыл бұрын

    😭

  • @r.angela
    @r.angela3 жыл бұрын

    I'm still crying , i love this song😭

  • @KiwiPaulParkes
    @KiwiPaulParkes4 ай бұрын

    This is such the “parent song” that makes me sob just about every time I listen to it. I love my mom so much. Strongest damn woman I know.

  • @flxwercxrpse1871
    @flxwercxrpse18714 жыл бұрын

    When my depression got worse at age 14, i started to isolate myself and now im 21 and have no friends. I don’t mind i guess but sometimes i wish i had someone. Especially when something cool happens or i learn something fascinating i think, “i NEED TO TELL-“ and remember that i have no one to talk to. I love my family but we have nothing in common so i can’t talk to them about anything. In conclusion, i might be alone but i don’t always feel alone but when i do...it sucks. My brother died 2 years ago and we weren’t close either but during his last few months here, we started to talk a little but more. I started to feel like maybe we could be not only siblings but maybe friends too. We didn’t get the chance to obviously so i daydream about how it would’ve been. My imagination saves me.

  • @hannahbamusi6473

    @hannahbamusi6473

    4 жыл бұрын

    That sounds awful. I am sorry you have to go through this. Not sure if this is something you already doing but maybe consider therapy?..

  • @dadami8021

    @dadami8021

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hi..I guess we have something in common. if you mind we can talk thru fb @ Dominggo Conde....b&w prof. pic

  • @kyliedee6079

    @kyliedee6079

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hey I don't know if this comment will mean anything to you cos its from a stranger probably halfway across the world but I wish you love & light at this time. You're never alone. 🌻

  • @flxwercxrpse1871

    @flxwercxrpse1871

    4 жыл бұрын

    Hannah Bamusi i’ve had 3 therapists since i was 15 and now im gonna possibly get a 4th since my previous one is no longer going to work as one.

  • @flxwercxrpse1871

    @flxwercxrpse1871

    4 жыл бұрын

    Melanesian Pride thank you :) thats really sweet💛

  • @kerwindelatorrelumasag7909
    @kerwindelatorrelumasag79094 жыл бұрын

    After discovering LANY, I never stopped listening and following them

  • @Tokyooo666
    @Tokyooo6663 жыл бұрын

    Happy mother's day!! 🥺🥺🥺🥺

  • @jeanetteretuerto879
    @jeanetteretuerto8793 жыл бұрын

    😭😭 Miss them so much.. If only they know.. 😩