[Intro] Chef J [Verse 1] I cross my T's and dilate my eyes I live with her in mind They say, "Livin' life is free," I'll have to deny 'Cause everyday I pay the price I wake up feelin' like last night was a wild car ride Welcome to the fast life I pop these, watch how the time flies Outer-space, black skies lookin' like sci-fi But that's only half of me That's only half of me, that's one side But don't be sad with me And don't feel bad for me, it's alright [Chorus] Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger, yeah Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger [Verse 2] Percocets, nicotine, red promethazine Good sex, fast cars, I'd crash anything That is a smoke screen, none of those things make me happy Sold my soul, now I can buy anything Sad but I'm not a bitch, don't try anything 'Cause I'll kill gladly, that's the only thing that make me happy Turn the frown off when the racks in Ain't no fentanyl up in my xans If I could end all of the withdrawals I would, but sadly, I can't Thinkin' back, it probably started with the Vyvanse Now I'm starin' at Oxycontin in my hand Rehab'll only ruin my plans On the bright side, I'm makin' progression I was takin' four, now I'm takin' one less 'Til I drop the codeine in the Sunkist Said, "Fuck it," grabbed the pint and poured the whole shit [Chorus] Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger, yeah Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger [Verse 3] I will give you advice, but I don’t condone it See I am a loner, I don’t know why They tell me that I should slow down on substance, but I don’t listen Cause if I go out it’s gon’ be flyin’ If I go out it’s gon’ be fine If I check out girl, you’ll be fine Will you think about me in the meantime? If I check out girl I’ll be fine If I OD girl I’ll be fine If I OD girl you’ll be fine Think about me in the meantime I feel my body shutting down I’m a ticking time-bomb That’s the type of shit that I’m on I feel my heart slowing down I’m a ticking time-bomb That’s the shit that I’m on Gotta say goodbye to my mom Sell my belongings, I won’t be here for too long Did too many wrongs, yeah Gotta say goodbye to my mom I been here too long, I’ve done too many wrongs Sell all my clothes If I die tonight, just know I ain’t sell my soul Walking towards the light, and I let it take control Oh no, steps to an over-dose Just another kid from the projects But I’m not no ordinary project kid I make you fit in for a casket Then I fall into the blackness As I blackout, in the darkness Drive the car, crash it, don’t park it Baby girl, don’t get me started Too many Xans, I feel retarded, huh Take my life is like taking out the garbage Like taking out the trash I know they wanna ah- Allow me to update my status Allow me to tell you I’m fine, when I’m lying Yeah yeah, I’m so insecure, I don’t have a cure I’m so insecure, I’m sick without of cure Will I be cool? I don’t know, no I’m not so sure I think I’ve crossed the line, I walk into the light The devil wants my life, he may get a piece tonight No sacrifice, I’m choosing sides Crisis, crosses, I’m exhausted, I know [?] Niggas that be double crossin’ Give a fuck about that though, I’m exhausted Poppin’ Mollies ‘till I OD, in a coffin Mama said these drugs gon’ kill me I’ll wait, I’ll wait Have a date with destiny I’m late, I’m late Yeah I know they love me But I hate, I hate, I hate, I hate I tell ‘em I may kill myself, and not with the knife, or the noose Just with the lean, pour a deuce Just with the Percs, more than two That’s how I feel, how ‘bout you? Not in my feels, not in the least I’m off the pills, I’m chasing thrills Bitch in my sheets, we barely met We on those xans, I love the sex I feel like yes, uh uh uh My brain is so gone I’m lost, I’m so gone Between the rock, and a hard place Hide the drugs, in the crawl-space In the rug, I don’t know where is the love? Someone tell me Where’s the love? Someone help me Where’s the love? She told her: “help me” Fall in love, told me: “help me” Fall in love, she told me: “help me” Let’s talk about drugs, I’m too attached I begged, i beg, for my heart back They told me that they can’t do that I [?] Move around too much, keep my bags packed Buy new clothes everywhere, spendin’ them racks If I spend it them I know imma make it back If I spend it, best believe that I’m gon’ make the shit back They watch me bleed, and watch me leave Don’t know what’s gotten into me My life’s so interesting I hide my insecurities with new clothes Double G, I put it on my wardrobe Keep it on me, if you want, we go to war, hoe Kobe Bryant in the fourth, Imma score, hoe, aye All I know is, count it up, count it Uh, all I know is cry it out, leave it, dry it out, keep it Vibe, I don’t wanna fuck, then it’s not my vibe She gon’ give me top, baby that’s my vibe Aye, that’s my vibe, bury me alive, kill all the drugs, social suicide I got money, now I’m walking to the bank, then I laugh yeah Please don’t touch my Fendi, Fendi You don’t worry about touching Raf Tell me in ad-, tell me in advanced, do you got a man? Do you fuck with drugs? Do you do the Xans? I been on the Percs, now I’m in a trance I was up in hell, devil trynna dance He don’t know me well, he still took a chance Had to sell my soul, did it for the bands Now I’m taking trips, talking ‘bout the ‘Shrooms Then I took a trip, talking ‘bout to France Just to buy some pants, Gucci on the bag, souvi’ on my ass Ion gotta sag, Revenge on my body, I do that a lot I get that for free, don’t look at the tags May drop a collab If you’re lost, my advice to you is not to fall for the same things that she does I don’t feel right, I don’t feel right I don’t even know if imma be fine I’ll be getting high in the meantime Up all night, sleep through the sunshine It’s a full moon tonight In the moon right? Fuck dancin’, die in the moonlight, yeah [Chorus] Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger, yeah Addictions remind me of the summer 'Mind you, I was younger Trying to kill my hunger

the guitar is so haunting i love it

Love this🔥

Rest in peace

does anyone have the 11:40 long beat?