Thanks for the channel shoutout!! I was misdiagnosed with depression and went into mania with psychosis due to antidepressants and likely other triggers (weed and trauma mostly). It’s so common. I had no known family history of bipolar, not that my dr asked.

Hypomanic states are NOT fun. Before meds I used to buy lots of weird things, like barbie dolls and nail polishes and lot of others. Later I was like: Why I did that? That was just so weird. And I wasted a lot of money on these weird dolls and stuff and I was obsessed with them. And after that I felt shame. NOT fun

@BipolarPerson

10 ай бұрын

omg I was obsessed with giving out nail polishes! And these wierd kids animal beanies. So similar!!! The shame sucks so bad. People will never understand that part.

I love your channel. I understand the part anout not being the persons fault and i do believe that it is part of the illness not to take meds. What i cant get over is someone in delusions or phycosis is the rage calling police and lying because the person is angry. It is not the fault of the sick person but how can u expect people to put themselves in harms way when they could go to prison. Thank u and i realky want ro understand

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

I do understand, my husband had to get a restraining order against me and we are still currently legally separated for financial reasons. I accused my husband of beating me to the cops. They told him to get a restraining order or next time they would arrested him because I kept calling the cops. I don't really remember much of that. But I do know that was what I believed at the time. That was my reality, where I believed he had a secret family with someone else. But the legal separation is still there Because if I go manic I could put us in debt. I shouldn't because I am on medication but we just need to be careful. You absolutely cannot be in a situation that is only going to harm you. Maybe someday she will get help and things will change they did for me and my husband but he is really patient.

I do feel less alone ❤

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety at 16, recurring depressions at 18 and borderline personality disorder at 20 before I ended up with bipolar at the age of 30. I got the diagnosis bipolar type 2 but it changed after a hypomania morphed into mania with psychotic features, so now I'm a type 1 soon to be 40 🙃

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

It's amazing how badly psych doctors screw up knowing the implications of wrong meds could literally kill you. I'm glad they are gaing more knowledge about the illness..

@kimberlymiller655

Жыл бұрын

It can be so confusing

I can so relate. I found out I had Bipolar after taking Zoloft which resulted in a manic episode. I wish I took meds much sooner, my life would have been so different in good ways. It took many years to get the diagnosis, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and also suffered from panic disorder and agoraphobia, and the misdiagnosis made my illness go from bad to worse, then along came an amazing psychiatrist saved my life after I lost my unborn baby, along with medication, and understanding people. I would not be alive if it were not for her and my medication. I still struggle, having to tweek meds every few months sometimes even weeks. I rapid cycle, which makes life hard. I could not finish a Diploma I was doing because i got so ill, and I thought I was getting better, and I cycled again, nearly taking my life in the process. I.get so hurt when uninformed people tell me its the medication doing it, I must stop my medicatio. Little do they know it saved my life. I don't wish Bipolar on anyone. It is an ongoing struggle, and I have been wripped to pieces emotionally and psychologically for being dramatic, over sensitive, emotion etc. I could not control it. I felt so flawed and wrong. I was a complete mess. Now I'm a bit of a milder mess. I so wish people understood. I was even fired from a job before for having bipolar. Not for my symptoms, bit for purely having it. I was depressed, always late, couldn’t wake up etc. I explained that I was ill. My boss told me she is.going to have to let me go because her ex has bipolar and she doesn't want that around her. I felt like such a nothing. I have the kindest most loving heart, but often am treated as defective. Now i run an animal shelter with 30 dogs in my home. They were the only ones who never judged me or hurt me, and they saved me as much as I saved them from the abusive humans in this world. Thank you for your channel and all you heartfelt videos, i feel less alone, and you are almost tangible in your authenticity. I so appreciate you.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Zoloft makes so many people go manic!!! Your former boss is the sick one. That is pure ignorance. 😡 You are so much better than her! Thank you. ❤️

@judithlight1111

9 ай бұрын

❤much love to ya

What I cannot understand is how BD1 and schizophrenia are different but so closely related or seem to be similar.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

They say schitzophrenia is a thought disorder and bipolar is a mood disorder. They say one difference is that people with schitzophrenia experience more hearing voices and paranoia where people with bipolar usually have more grandiose delusions. But many of us have paranoia too. They really are so similar, so much more than they are different.

Glad to listen to another video .... had undiagnosed bipolar minor symptoms and character traits for most of my life (all nighters were normal ) and then at the age of 50 ssr'is sent me to the hospital.... thankfully I'm diagnosed type 1 mixed states and rapid cycling.... doing better no relapses and November will be three years ... Some day I want to talk to other artists and musicians about mania and the creative process / and make a documentary (I'm a pro photographer/ videographer ) and I'd like to put my creativity to good use ... Peace !

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Vampr is app and a great place to connect with orher artists. It sounds like a cool documentary!

@cybercab

Жыл бұрын

That sounds like me. I'm 51 and was only diagnosed at 49. Now I'm a musician and filmmaker in Nashville. It seems so common in this field.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

I mean "Black Mirror" I think a mental illness is necessary to create that magic!

I decided to go off my meds so it’s been 7 months. I can think and work again but am constantly working to keep everything under control. Good times.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

Oh no, why did you stop them?

@cybercab

Жыл бұрын

@@BipolarPerson I felt like a zombie and couldn't think. I also had a lot of rage and was miserable. That life is not worth living. It took 3 months to get off Q and it's the worst thing I've ever experienced. I'm trying to live healthfully, exercise and keep a weekly therapist. I've tried 19 meds and I'm just done. I don't know what else to do. The options are dwindling.

@BipolarPerson

Жыл бұрын

@@cybercab Man, I'm sorry that's a horrible experience. I have been on 14 or 15. In 2016 I was in full psychosis walking through a parking garage, I blacked out while walking and all of the sudden fell to the ground and felt a car driving right over me. I had 7 broken ribs, a brain stem injury that affects my eye, a broken arm, and a lacerated spleen. I was unaware I was delusional and believed the doctors and nurses were actors so I refused surgery, they thought I would die bc if the spleen ruptured I would bleed out internally so they kept me in ICU for four days 9 days in hospital. I know it sucks, I've been there! Please try a different doctor they are so different in what they prescribe and there are so many medications. I promise you when you get the right meds life changes and happiness is no longer a dream or episode of hypomania. It sounds like your lifestyle can help a lot but I hope you reconsider. ❤️ Please be careful and have an emergency plan. (pre-recorded message whatever).