You’re not alone. Some really intense things happened to me at the beginning of the year - I was fired from my job, and a couple weeks later I needed an emergency surgery and had to get one of my ovaries removed. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder last year. These events were NOT good for my mental health, to say the least. But I’ve been putting one foot in front of the other as best I can, even if I sometimes take steps back. My heart goes out to you. You are not alone and we will be ok! ❤

@mentalhealthwithalana

11 ай бұрын

I'm sorry you had to go through all that! I hope you are doing ok now sending love to you 💗 ❤️

@TheInformerAllyCurtis

11 ай бұрын

Idea: The old religious figures/Greek attempt to give mental and physical diseases through black magic and the medical community. They are schizophrenia. They are narcissism. The old religious/Greek figures have put people in genders of bodies that are not their own with an evil purpose. This is why trans people exist. And surgery is a basic human right. They are also responsible for detransitioners existing. They abuse on gender and sexuality and control in these areas to attempt to confuse and change souls from who they are. The old religious/Greek figures are all controlling our bodies and are the voices. They are getting in our bodies to rape, murder and speak thoughts that are not our own. They have long term evil intentions and a very long past to cover up. Religion has been used against the human population and the fear of hell for a long-term purpose of keeping us controllable. This is beyond full body/mind control they can do magic style. The old religious/Greek figures are arranging the marriages/relationships of the populace without consent. The psychic rapes are from old religious/Greek figures not a human person. It’s not kundalini as well. Twin flame is very dangerous. People from above are attempting to pair you up as they did previously. It’s a fate based system where everything is chosen for you on birth. That life is just planned and it actually is by the old religious/Greek figures to be honest. But truly if you think about extreme poverty and acid attacks you’d have to see life is not fated. It’s a mess. The universe couldn’t know you at 0. I would never try to take the idea of love or potential of love from someone. It's the idea it was created on birth your lover and it's very fate based. The world and you was done the day you were born. And it can be used against you the idea of a match up that is chosen in advance of you becoming you by the universe (but is the old religious figures). And that things are set in stone and you don’t choose your partner. It sets you up to not see abuse and to accept any treatment because they are the one. It’s so dangerous. You have a forever someone who will have to work to remain your forever just like you will but it’s not set in stone and no one knows who it is besides you. You just will have a lover. And it’s the religious and Greek figures trying to control people to get together. By forcing souls to be with one another without consent through manipulation and control. Trying to get in the idea that the universe knows your partner or yourself better than you. Trying to plant signs of something that is not. They do this with all sorts of topics. They are the one touching you and talking to you. Evil Cupids. Evil People. We all will win though. And people will know that control exists. Who is truly at fault. And love will be found. If you want it. And there is unlimited food/drink in heaven. I wish you all the best. 😅😮😢…😂❤🎉❤🎉❤🎉🎉❤

@jhern083

11 ай бұрын

Don't just sit on the first diagnosis,especially if your medication regimen isn't giving you good effects. Make sure to work closely with a good therapist who listens and take that knowledge with you to psychiatrist appointments so you can advocate for yourself effectively.

@AnnSmajstrla

11 ай бұрын

@@jhern083 thank you ❤️ I’ve been working with a psychiatrist to find meds that work for me. He suggested I do DBT, so now I’m trying to find a therapist to facilitate that. It’s a journey.

Really proud of you for being able to articulate and publish these statements. We need to be more open about these experiences. You must be kind to the debility and yourself through this suffering and transitional psychological state. You're still you and you still matter. Hold on, we're still here.

Alana, fellow bi-polar here, sleep to me is vital, when i don't get enough sleep, everything loses context, energy bleeds out, life rhythms, like breathing, moving seems to un-balance. so when i lay down to sleep i practice a breathing awareness exercise, in Vipassana Meditation it's one part of a twofold meditation technique. but the first part, called Anapana, can be practiced on its own for relaxing, or to sleep. to try it, lie down don't try to control the breathing, Anapana is not a breathing exercise, it's an exercise in awareness, you just feel the breath as it enters & leaves your nose, the attention will wander here & there, u don't fight it u just gently return ur awareness back to feeling your breath as it's coming in and going out of ur nostrils, ur not forcing or controlling anything, just steering your attention back to feeling the air entering cool & leaving warm, feeling just what's there... it's not so easy at first, u might want to control the breath, but eventually it becomes effortless attention, there is no mantra or word to repeat, no counting of breaths, no religion or all religion or one religion, doesn't matter when you're just breathing. to anyone this helps, pass it on, i'm only repeating (paraphrased) what i studied in a book but have practiced off & on for decades. book, from 1970s, The Art of Living Vipassana Meditation as taught by S.N.Goenka .. author William Hart. it is such a gem of a book, no wasted words, pass it on 🙏💜🕯️🌱🐾👣🌿🌎🕊️

800 milligrams of seroquel is a huge amount. I'm especially sensitive to seroquel, 300 milligrams made me quite messed up. I took 25 mg for sleep for awhile but quit because I had trouble getting up. I don't think you've lost yourself entirely. Family is good to show you that you are there no matter how fragmented.

@Butterflywishes-rf9dt

5 ай бұрын

800 Seroquel is way too much - talk to Dr and reduce it....or try something else...sending u healing vibes❤

I appreciate you sharing your story. By sharing your story you're helping others understand that they are not alone. Thank you ! Also I understand mental health issues, I got OCD in 2000 from taking a hair loss medication and it never went away. I'm now 50 years old and I still deal with OCD and my life got turned upside down when I got the OCD and other neurological side effects. I appreciate you 🙏

You really are an inspiration for anyone that is struggling with mental health or has struggled with it. Thanks for sharing your experiences however challenging. Wishing you great fortitude and better mental health.

@mentalhealthwithalana

11 ай бұрын

Thank you so much!

I have mental illnesses myself add bipolar depression etc. people don’t know what it’s like unless they actually go through it themselves don’t judge people

If it helps, your videos helped me get diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type, I really hope you're doing okay love

I've never had a psychotic episode and it sounds absolutely terrifying. I almost cried as you described your experiences and I'm definitely not a woman given to sobbing out loud. I'm diagnosed with what I call "garden variety" depression and anxiety, which I'm now learning is partially explained by being raised in a fundamentalist religion while gay and now my recent autism diagnosis at age 53. I have done the self-harm, alcohol abuse and suicidal ideation over the years. With medication and psych visits, I'm a lot better and only get the suicidal thoughts when there's some other big stressor in my life. I would encourage you to just keep going. Easy to say, I know, but be patient with yourself. It's very likely that your health will improve as you age (you're in your early 20s, bad time for mental health) and you'll maybe feel a bit more control as you learn more about your illness and how symptoms present themselves in you. So long as you have people around you who care, you'll make it. I'm cheering for you. :)

God bless you honey 😘 Sending you heavenly white light to heal you and remove this monster that has taken over your body😘 Keep seeing that white light that is at the end of the tunnel by visualisation that you are back to your normal self xxx

You made perfect sense your gonna be okay just know that little part of you that wants to continue music will return anything you really want in your heart will be I would love to hear 🤟🏻

I just want you to know that you are absolutely amazing! You are so beautiful!

Your helping others by sharing....❤

I use 1/4 of beta blocker Propranolol for few months and it really helps. No more anxiety, ups and downs, just being myself. Medications do help, I might have weird thoughts but now I don't care for any illusions

I hope you'll find your passion and yourself. We're rooting for you and wish you well!

I just ran across your channel and watched your video. I really feel for what you're going through. But it sounds like maybe you can see the end of the tunnel. I'm on 3 meds for anxiety/depression, 1 for IBS, and one to help me sleep. It took going thru quite a few to find the right combination to at least help somewhat. I am rooting for u! Don't give up finding yourself, even a little each day! I am working on driving again or even leaving the house. But I don't feel anxious at home so.... it's working I think but I need courage I guess. I've had cystic acne for years and now it's kinda going away but u still feel like everyone is staring or trying not to look. But I sure hope it's on it's final round now. I sure do feel for everything you've gone thru & I look forward to updates! ❤

ALANA UR OK LOVE I PROMISE!!! ITS OK TO BE IN YOUR HEAD!!! EVEN IF IT SEEMS LIKE ITS ALL THE TIME!!! UR GET THROUGH ANYTHING IF U ALLOW URSELF!!! THAT GOES FOR MYSLEF and everyone!!! We are loved and we may not know why things matter or why it happening rn but that’s ok!! Sometimes just life itself is all we should need to be happy love everyone we are ok!!💙🙏🏾

Youll do well ❤

Hang in there 🙂

Ill like to know what a sensorybox it. Also been unwell for along time. Trying my best to get out of it

Good luck

How does bipolar dissorder be told apart from shizophrenia? I tried to read about it a lot, but I don't understand the difference beside the names. I really love to know. I'm very sorry that you have to experience this either way. Hope you will get better soon.

Hi Alana, my sister is hospitalised for 5 weeks now under the mental health act with depression psychosis but her symptoms sound exactly like yours, auditory hallucinations and desusions, she became anaorexic and attempted suicide. Its all absolutely horrific as you know very well. She is not responding to her anti psychotic so the hospital has suggested Electro Conversion Therapy which sounds terrifying. Do you have any expérience of this treatment? I hope you are much recovered.

@mentalhealthwithalana

2 ай бұрын

I'm so sorry 😞 that is so hard for your sister and your family. I have never had ECT but I think it's a good option if nothing else is working and it's a crisis situation. It sounds scary but there is a lot of evidence suggesting it's effective and it's come a long way. Definitely not like you see in the movies! I hope your sister can find some peace and that treatment works soon. I'd love it if you would keep me updated. Sending prayers your way. Feel free to instagram message me. 💕

@Bombabingbong66

2 ай бұрын

@mentalhealthwithalana Alana, thank you for replying so quickly...I hope you are very much recovered or at the very least...not having the viscéral symptoms...I Hate to use the words "hallucinations" and "delusions" its so demeaning for beautiful intelligent souls like you and my sister and all people with mental health problems. I am going to join à Zoom meeting tomorrow, our parents are deceased. Because of watching your vidéo last evening I was able to speak to my sister by phone today to discuss auditory hallucinations and suicide and also if she found me to be a threat to her....in a psychosis as she believed that she was under surveillance by helicopters and in hospital she thinks she is in a détention centre. I spoke honestly today to ask how I can help tomorrow in the meeting knowing she probably has psychosis about me too....all she said is that she doesn't want Electric Shock therapy. She is 58 years old. I want the unit to give her time.... she has never had any mental illness before. I send YOU Love, I watched your video this morning, you are so beautiful, talented, intelligent and kind to share your journey. Thank you so much. 💕💐💕💐💕💐💕💐

Hope all is well. Haven't heard from you in a while

Are you okay?

Whats TMS? plesse do a video will ...it help? ......what you go through its a nigjtmare.......it can debilitated you ........yes the experience can really cause PSTD and debilitating........ how ate you now?

@mentalhealthwithalana

4 ай бұрын

Hi yes it's on my list to make!! Will be a video coming soon

I am pleased you had a better day. I will be praying for you. A lot in life makes no sense as we only see the here and now. I read once that life is a bit like a tapestry, on the back it looks like a real mess and makes no sense, but the other side is beautiful. We only see the back. God sees the front and what is being created. It sucks to have to go through life, but often we get to find out the reason why some things happen. When I am doing really badly I think of Acts 3. The man had been at the temple gates for years, and Jesus never healed him. But after Jesus had gone he was healed through Peter and all the people in the temple saw what happened. That man had been ill for years for that one moment.

@mritchie85

11 ай бұрын

Amen, thanks for sharing that

I just speaking from my experience the more I’ve tried to speak to god I’ve noticed things feeling easier to handle I’ve never been super spiritual but at a point I felt like no human could understand my confusion only the maker watever that is could I feel like if you understand a bit about the battle we don’t see if you believe in a god their is most certainly a evil trying to destroy us I believe that a lot of mental battles we face are deeper than our brain js ❤you are loved by so many please stay with us we are here for the journey 🙏cast your burdens on god he will not let you down he wants only the best I use to be very anti god but I’ve seen too many coincidences to stay blind your not crazy at all just overwhelmed that’s okay I’m having to start again myself 29 no job lost my wife never had a car ect watching myself grow old and have nothing to continue other than the faith in myself I know I have a lot to give the world that I don’t show I ready for the change tbh only way now is up

@mentalhealthwithalana

11 ай бұрын

I'm a Christian too so I totally understand you, thanks for commenting. My relationship with Jeus means a lot to me

@TYCOLAUGH

11 ай бұрын

@@mentalhealthwithalana 🤟🏻 you are an awesome person

Neuroplasticity. Don’t forget. You have the power!!! Those medications messed me up. Got off of them and feel more level than I’ve ever felt in my life. It takes work but it’s possible! I was diagnosed with the same stuff around the same age and spent 14 yrs on meds that made me have those disorders. They lifted once I stopped the meds

@Butterflywishes-rf9dt

5 ай бұрын

Can u tell me how you got off them? - Benzo are so addicted....- please help - appreciate it ❤

At least you can talk normally im not able to

Your story is truly impactful, and I appreciate you sharing it here. I discuss mental health on my channel too, so if you're ever interested, feel free to check it out.

ilana u are so sweet very cuteable do have a boyfrend? u are awazing