every day i fantasize about shifting into a warped reality where everything is like a dream, and i am alone. nothing to worry about nothing to feel. this music is the closest i get to feeling like i can accomplish that.

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

i hope your ok :(( i’m glad my playlist has helped you!

@yang9214

2 жыл бұрын

ME 2!

@cosmicsofty

2 жыл бұрын

@@steepedpossum in my case i have the same fantasy, but i would not regret to abandon everything just to live in a open place where you don't have to worry about much, things are simple and we just have to be alive.. (i would regret if my plushie isn't there!) And yea, i'm not fine, planing to study psicology to help myself and help others.

@emoji7397

2 жыл бұрын

Same

@ragnarok1xd342

2 жыл бұрын

use LSD and hongos use drugsss mateee

I dont want to be dead. But sometimes I want to stop existing. I just wanna go where the soul rest before been born.

@idk_whyi

Жыл бұрын

mmm same :/

@fuckinnferno

11 ай бұрын

Yeah some days are so boring it's better just to skip em

@fuckinnferno

11 ай бұрын

@@helloeverybody_ kinda relatable

@user-tp8qn8ql2l

6 ай бұрын

I just wish that things were more... vivid? Like, I know what I should do, what path I can follow, what I can do, and what choices I have. I do not know what options I have to even choose something, I do not live, I just... follow the routine and hope for the best. I hate how I live, I am tired of how I am living, and I want it all to be more visible.

@zlumi428

5 ай бұрын

I ask God to keep me alive still 'cause I yet need to go to Bryant Park's winter village this year and have lots of fun there.😅🎉

Image triggered me because I live in a trailer with my parents and sibling. I don't even have an actual room. My parents sacrificed half of the kitchen to give me a room. After 2019 ended everything became worse , like the world lost it's mind. Grew up in a trailer , pretty much I can't go outside to play. I just stay inside , a cat would mostly be my only best friend I can count on . I just brush my teeth , use the bathroom, take a bath sometimes , eat or don't eat, lay with the cat , and sleep all day or night. Nothing special unless it is something like a birthday or going somewhere like the grocery store or like that. I am grateful that I will be going to a concert with my dad to see our favorite. I hug my mom everytime I get the chance for no reason and the same for my dad. Me and my sibling at least to play something with each other. I like to draw or sketch , I don't really see the difference anyways. Struggling with depression and I have done some things i wish I could share but it's very personal. If you want details about the cat I love, I'll tell you. The cat is a boy . He is a chocolate point Siamese , he is sweet and he is very loud and talkative. He loves being brushed if it's my special hairbrush. He tries to spend quality time with everyone. Also he is scared of new people. Just wanted to vent a bit. Ik there will be those people that think they are funny because they made fun of someone's life . Bye.

@tim_the_traveler

Жыл бұрын

Sounds like a real nice cat, the best boi. And honestly, I can partly relate to how you are feeling, I'm a young adult who's living in some random corner of my uncles living room, burly walled off, with little privacy, I been feeling more detached from my own family, since I feel like I can't be my true self in front of them. I also like to draw and other art stuff. but adult life had been murdering my motivation and hopes. I feel a weird blur of who in my family I should trust more, all who are my old family I feel would never accept what I really am, where as my uncles side which is new in relative I feel much closer to, hell I basically see my older brother who I'm basically have to live with as the reason why I'm so distant with people as I fear they'll be as dickish as he is. But threw out this bumby road we call life, all we can really do is see where this road takes us, In my case, I hope to save up money to move out to my own place to finally have the peace to do my own things, and I'm sure you have your own hopes. just keep moving, and in time, you'll find your peace too. Sorry for the random rant and vent stranger, hope your doing well.

@Joy-kj9fw

Жыл бұрын

do you wanna be friends?

@tim_the_traveler

Жыл бұрын

@@Joy-kj9fw at this point, we all can be friends in this community of vibe music lovers.

@Joy-kj9fw

Жыл бұрын

@@tim_the_traveler haha ur right

@OrganicTrash

Жыл бұрын

nobody, you nor the cat, should live in a place that small.

finally a playlist that isnt just viral tiktok sounds

@chaosdweller

Жыл бұрын

🤔

@chaosdweller

Жыл бұрын

Hahaha hey do I know you?

@user13

Жыл бұрын

the reason is why i dislike this popular tiktok "cores" is there's alot of misfit genres inside of this new defenition. Even by the vibe this genres are almost always mean everything and nothing at the same time.

@Theonlysanevalentinofan

6 ай бұрын

*bro* *bababooie* *pluh*

@PeelyMcPeel

2 ай бұрын

@@Theonlysanevalentinofan bababooie died like 3 years ago

I feel like a walking corpse, everyday feels so dull and ugly. I take my medication, it keeps my emotions under control, and I let the horrible emptiness well up inside me again. I feel like I’m slowly losing my humanity, becoming a shell of a person. I want to disappear, to not exist. I’m so tired, yet I drag myself through the day. I want to sleep forever.

@Deni-sj5cc

Жыл бұрын

you need the internet taken from you now! I bet you haven't even finished highschool acting like this in a comment section, seek help, this aint no safe space

@arandomcatheehee

Жыл бұрын

@@Deni-sj5cc I’m actually in college lol

@arandomcatheehee

Жыл бұрын

@@Deni-sj5cc I’m actually in college lol

@hedghik7730

Жыл бұрын

Same. Yesterday i've set my time to 8:00 to wake up. I don't know why i did that because usually i wake up at 8:45 but okay. When i woke up i felt like in dream. Everything wasn't real. I can't descrive this in another words.. This day was like a dream. I mean i didn't feel like this was real. And this playlist is just describing this xd

@zeghetti595

Жыл бұрын

Join the army

I love these kinds of playlists, but my brain always makes me read comments and seeing what all of you people post about your life is honestly hearbreaking. I hope that anyone who sees this has a good life and makes it past any problems they are going through.

@the.seagull.35

9 ай бұрын

💔 yeah. It can be for sure. I've been spending a lot of time on these lately. The weight of pain and sadness out there in the world is so heavy. So many people suffering and crying out and not being heard. Not being helped 💔 I can't keep doing this alone. sometimes I genuinely don't know what to do or say. I don't know where to go from here. I don't know if I can bear the weight by myself. I know God is here but I'm so weak. I know I have to keep going. Even in total isolation and loneliness and rejection and sorrow and shame and guilt and humiliation and fear and dread and heartbreak. Being hated and despised and attacked by enemies I don't deserve and enemies I do deserve. Trying to roll a boulder up a hill. sometimes it all just comes crashing back down on you. You just kind of break apart and collapse under it. I can't do this alone. God please. 💔😔

@bungus2012

4 ай бұрын

Staying positive here is the key to solutions

@ChuyaNakahara-sy5jd

2 ай бұрын

I love you, buddy.

the vibes of this remind me of when I used to sleep in a literal closet when my parents were fighting because it was too loud

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

I’m really sorry :( i hope it’s getting better for you and i send my full love and support to you

@88srt

Жыл бұрын

Brother/Sister! May God Bless You! GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU!!! He is King and Loves You!!! Repent and Give Your Life Towards Him! Make Him As Your Lord And Savior Because HE IS KING AND LOVES YOU UNCONDITIONALLY BROTHERS AND SISTERS IN CHRIST !!! Beside You And Lives in You! May The Lord's Face Shine Upon You And Give You Peace! AMEN! Above All, GOD!!! God Bless 💯

@diplodocus6969

Жыл бұрын

@@88srt as a native american who grew up on the rez I am going to to troll a religious person harder in the name of u strange goblin religious person

@88srt

Жыл бұрын

@@diplodocus6969 Just Trying To Spread The Word Brother/Sister. At the end of time, everyone is gonna get judged for their actions. There is Still Time To repent and change Your Life By Accepting Him As Your Lord And Savior and Recognize that He Died On The Cross For Your Sins. May God Bless You🙏🏼✝️

@urmumsbaps

Жыл бұрын

@@88srt god is a straight BITCH fam fuck god in his whole omnipotent asshole bro straight FUCK that nigga

Every day is the same. Adulthood promised freedom Fresh into it, but I'm afraid nothing has changed I'm still under their control They keep their grip on me tight They do everything they can to keep my dependent on them I've realized too late how isolated my life is They want to keep me close but the tighter they pull, the further I wanna run away They make me feel bad for wanting anything different, "Life doesn't work that way" Why do I owe them for my existence? For living such a terrible life? Now I really do feel trapped within my own home. My own life. The same one I've come to want to let go of so bad but I'm too much of a coward to do so. It's become an inescapable cycle; their words against mine. It's tiring. I'm tired. So tired And at the end of the day, I'm left to wonder if anything will ever change

@ephemeral1052

2 жыл бұрын

This is me (as well)

@domotoro3552

2 жыл бұрын

i get that youre trying to help and thats good of you to do but the solution is not a new hobby

@domotoro3552

2 жыл бұрын

i get that youre trying to help and thats good of you to do but the solution is not a new hobby

@Urmom28120

2 жыл бұрын

I just hope you will be okay and someday bad things happening to you are going to end. I understand you and my life is very similar yours. :( Just keep in head that someday this hell will be over. (Btw sorry for my bad English)

@erida1963

Жыл бұрын

same shit bro. I finally moved from my parents, but you know, I didn’t get better. I still do not know what I want, it is difficult for me to make independent decisions. every day I hate myself. No energy for other things. Just home, work, home, work. Each day is similar to the previous one. I have no friends, no one close to whom I can talk heart to heart. I don't want anything from life. Suicide seems like the ideal solution, but I can't decide on it because of the fear of becoming disabled, it's too serious a decision. So I just go with the flow. I can’t go to a psychotherapist because I will be left without a job because of the diagnosis that I will be given, most likely depression. Btw I work as a nurse and once almost lost my job due to one referral to a psychiatrist.. Life is unfair. Some people get the easy way out and enjoy living every day. And someone needs to spend half a lifetime to achieve this. I just hope each of us will come to this peace and harmony with ourselves as soon as possible. All the best!

I’ve always heard that social media is the reason why most of our generation is depressed. I guess that may be true for some people, but for me, music and social media is the only way I am distracted from my own thoughts.

@blinkth3dog

Жыл бұрын

grow up and deal with your thoughts

@Mana_Sun

11 ай бұрын

Better kill time then kill oneself

@INOKOSTARX

10 ай бұрын

@@blinkth3dog. It doesn’t work that way sir, sorry to break it to you

@blinkth3dog

10 ай бұрын

@@INOKOSTARX actually it quite literally does. facing one's fears and thoughts rather than hiding from them 24/7 is the only way to overcome them, and grow as a person.

@INOKOSTARX

10 ай бұрын

@@blinkth3dog Oh you meant fear, man I thought you meant like mental illness and severe stuff like that

This playlist really hit hard. Everyday is really just the same, wake up, go to school, feel like shit, come home, do homework, lay in bed and repeat. I feel like a ghost, everyone walks through me, no one sees me, I dont care about myself or anyone anymore. I get tired and tired everyday and only want to dream, I want to stare at the stars and dream, dream about a better world where struggle doesn't exist, worries dont exist and I can actually get through the day without feeling like a damn ghost or insect. I hate everyone I meet and I distance myself from people. I just want to lay under the stars and dream with my cat next to me..I just want to feel okay.

@the.seagull.35

9 ай бұрын

💔 do you have friends at school? Anyone at home who loves you and you love them? Aside from your cat haha. Where do you go when you need support?

@sophiacontreras9555

9 ай бұрын

Well I only have one friend and she barely even makes time for me. Im starting to think she doesn't care. I dont go to my family members for help because they'll just say Im a kid and Im just faking it or its just a phase. I dont like them.

@the.seagull.35

9 ай бұрын

@@sophiacontreras9555 i see... sorry to hear that ☹ I still do have the same question. If you don't go to family or friends for support where do you go?

@Wrenchii

6 ай бұрын

Same thing. But everyone is piece of shit around me. My parents treat me like I'm not here.

@Froggycolouring

6 ай бұрын

Me too, but my cat died recently Sometimes I still see him though just sitting outside the window, yet I know its not him because he’s gone :( I used to have a friend but since I moved to a new place I have no friends except for one girl but she’s really annoying and only ever talks about makeup or some other beauty related thing and hello kitty merchandise, idk why she’s even my friend to be honest And the thing about not caring about anything anymore is so true, I used to be so obsessed over grades and I wouldn’t do anything that was a risk like eating food off the floor because it might have germs, but now I realize my grades are worthless anyways and I’ll just pick the food up off the floor and eat it(as long i its in my own house) lol I wonder when I’m done with school will something change, but I doubt it will(actually I doubt that I’ll ever make it to when I’m done with school)

This playlist is oddly comforting. Like, in a bittersweet sense.

@Durka2010

6 ай бұрын

yeah same.....

i remember the apartment i used to live in as a kid was built around the 1970s, during which the ussr occupied my country, and the whole neighborhood was like that. old but not rotting, every building and floor built during a different time. the grey scratchy carpeted floor of my bedroom was coming up but not broken, so i would move it like waves. i could always tell when the buildings were built, every singe one had a different vibe and style. the easiest were the occupation times' ones. there was a giant skyscaper office building across the street but it was made of greyish brown stone with small windows, it always seemed empty. to its side was a parking lot i liked to run around in, to its front was a lake that was made out of a bomb crater. we lived on a hill, behind the office was a park that was heavily wooded. i only went there a few times, since my family liked to stay inside,it had a fun naturepark themed playground. recently they built a modern apartment building next to the office. i went to my grandmas house often, it was built over 100 years ago, before our occupation and its was like a time capsule. i slept with my grandma, next to me on the wall was a painting of my relative, only son of the previous occupant of the room, he was taken to a camp and never came back. his "grave" has the same photo as the painting. then i found the internet and wih it the bright and modern world of american television, it was nothing like my world. now i cant speak my mother tounge as well as english, i feel shameful. they fixed the office building recently, its a warm grey now. and the old buildings that were doing okay are now almost rotting or like brand new. there was a new apartment being built in an empty plot near my old home where i used to build snowmen. i live with my grandma now and the house has been filled with items from the current time, the room with the painting is completly mine now, messy, dusty,cluttered and nothing like when i slept here as a kid. i see him every day, he hangs next to my baby photo,looking at me.

@gabrielcastillo429

2 жыл бұрын

Wow, this glimpse into your world was breathtaking. Thank you for sharing.

@-Homosapian-

2 жыл бұрын

I enjoyed reading this it's refreshing to see or hear people's childhood's or life right now thank you for sharing this. :)

@adalindaperez6308

2 жыл бұрын

this was like one of the best short stories i've ever read honestly, you could be a really good writer

@anbay771

Жыл бұрын

You like sovietwave?

@MelloBee_zzz

Жыл бұрын

@Kira Yoshikage Thank you for sharing that fascinating glimpse of your life to us. I enjoyed reading it. 😊

the background reminds me of all my years in small, bug infested trailers. where my single mother didn't work and could barley keep me and my other 3 siblings afloat. it makes me reflect how i managed to stay happy in those struggling times. i grew up fast. saw reality fast. my childhood was short, but sweet. i'm thankful for everything i have now. grateful for everything. 2018 was the last year my family lived in a trailer. my parents got back together and moved into a small house i still live in today. we used to make small income through 2018-2021, but recently our family is finally moving up to being the average middle class. i'm so grateful.

@pluto55242

4 ай бұрын

Same

@DoseOfRandom137

3 ай бұрын

I'm glad shit got better for you, hope you live a lovely, happy life, you deserve to.

@PeelyMcPeel

2 ай бұрын

middle class is not averge anymore 😭

I’m at the stage where I’ve already accepted all of my past traumatic experiences and overcame all that I used to struggle through. I normally get uncomfortable and negative feelings whenever I see something that’s labeled “traumacore,” because the last time I listened to something that was “traumacore,” I was actually going through things and it made me so uncomfortable I threw up. This playlist completely changed my mind, and I now have changed my perspective after giving this playlist a try. I initially did this to overcome my fear of these “traumacore” related things, like the images and the music associated with this genre. Since I’m already healed from my past, listening to this reminded me of the forbidden past that I try my best to suppress, but this time, I’m visiting my memories as an outsider, and somewhere along the way, I find something beautiful that wasn’t in the original memory, like a flower. Listening to this beautiful yet dark playlist helped me reminisce on these painful yet meaningful memories I had and tried my best to forget. Listening to this playlist let me feel safe and happy that I am no longer where I used to be, but also I could feel safe holding these memories without them ever hurting me again. I normally never leave comments at all, but this video specifically really gave me emotions I never knew I needed. So thank you for creating this.

@EmbrrCOOLANDAWESOME

Жыл бұрын

thanks for leaving this comment it really cheered me up and motivated me to practice guitar which i havent been able to do because of my negative feelings and stuff going on in my life... but reading your comment while listening to this music really gave me motivation to live, thank you so much and i hope youre doing better now ❤

@mydistantmemories

Жыл бұрын

@@EmbrrCOOLANDAWESOME sending much love to you

@mitiziaxx2421

Жыл бұрын

tysm for your comment. i'm glad you're doing well now, hope someday i can say this to myself

@focy1546

10 ай бұрын

i hope to be like you one day, i just recently got over a bad moment (lasted a few days) and I got distracted with other stuff, but im now only starting to focus on it which sucks.

@thejbo777

9 ай бұрын

How did you heal?

Being in a foster placement that was supposed to make you feel safe only to end up being just as bad as before but now with complete strangers and how I've always had to be my own adult. I wish I could be a child for once.

the time between 12-17 years of my life i lived in an 80s ussr building on the 10th floor, and sometimes i would open up the window and wonder if its better to step forward and fall as my brother did i had thick curtains that completely blocked the light, and i would lay in bed in this dark room all day

This is how every day has felt after the start of 2020. It's so common now, everyones either bitter or numb, its so rare to see genuine happiness come from anyone, when years ago it felt like everyone was much better than now. Even the way the world looks now, it feels so washed, like all the colors are mundane, seems like everyone is carrying immense trauma and tragedies tied to their lives. I never was the type of person to lose hope in the world, nothing could really sway that. But now, ive lost a lot of hope. Ill cherish what little i have left for as long as i can.

@Dan-43283

3 ай бұрын

So true, but I’m glad we still have some positive things

I wish a day of no stress will come . for me , for you , for us. All of us. Im sleepy everyday. I cant sleep anymore.

@superrupee

Жыл бұрын

I'm tired, I'm so goddamn tired, I wonder if I never wake up, then I'll be done with this pain

@icyyrxses3331

Жыл бұрын

@@superrupeesame im tired of trying i just give up

@aKyVa_u3_uKeu

6 ай бұрын

@superrupee same! Im just sleeping everytime. My brother sleeps everytime because all night he is somewhere with friends, and i because i wanna sleep 24/7 :P

honestly i feel so stuck and alone to the point i dont understand why im trying at all.. despite what goes on in my life i always keep feeling the same way no matter what. whenever i wake up there's this urge to just lay and do nothing but cry and it just becomes so dreadful to the point i realize how much tired i am of trying. whenever i think of these thoughts i wonder where everything went wrong. i miss how my life used to be of no worries and no expectation on being someone successful. now im always contemplating whether im choosing the right path. so many problems and i dont have any answers for them im not prepared for the future at all and i feel like im gonna explode any second

@gayhater7840

2 жыл бұрын

Stop traumadumping in the youtube comments section I don't care. Just be happy or something loser

@phant0m811

2 жыл бұрын

@@gayhater7840 what a troll. This person had the courage and bravery to reach out to others in this comment section, about feelings they probbably felt like they couldn't talk to anyone about. You should try to be more empathtic to others situations. It seemed like the OP was in a difficult life situation from the way they wrote. Please try to be more kind.

@phant0m811

2 жыл бұрын

@@gayhater7840 oh and btw thats a prety horrible user name, you should change it 🙂

@pish_majorseventh

2 жыл бұрын

@@gayhater7840 yikes. not needed, keep it to yourself.

@zeghetti595

Жыл бұрын

Join the Army

Does anyone else listen to playlists like these and imagine their lives as a psychological horror rpg about mental illness? No? Just me? Okay-

@stup1dl0ve43

Жыл бұрын

me too :)

@pencilonpaper1026

Жыл бұрын

all the time man

@piperhfj

Жыл бұрын

(tw for derealization) nothing is real here so i get it ig. eventually, one day well all wake up and take off a vr headset and move on with our lives, even still on some worldwide server when you think you escaped.

@emmab.2239

Жыл бұрын

I do this all the time except I suffer from mental illness I have been diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd, gender dysphoria, adhd, borderline Asperger’s I have nvr ending replays of my trauma from my life it feels like a nvr ending spiral, a labyrinth

@QueenRoss

Жыл бұрын

new fantasy thanks dude

We're gonna make it. We're all gonna make it

@user-rd3ee1ez8e

8 ай бұрын

i hope. i hope.

@mywifesboyfriend5558

4 ай бұрын

No. We will not. Nobody makes it out alive.

@urbzNspicez

4 ай бұрын

Yes correct

@dictionarypictionary9872

4 ай бұрын

Love conquers all

@eggynuts7735

2 ай бұрын

through what? O.o through what? O.o

Unironically, the playlists on your channel are a few of the best "Core"-Mixes I ever found!

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

thank you so much! i try my best :)

13:40 Undertale OST: 020 - Mysterious Place 20:41 OMORI OST - 001 Title 39:23 OMORI OST - 155 Treehouse - Here We Are, Together Again

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

thank you so much!!

@MrIG511

Жыл бұрын

The treehouse ost had always hit me like a truck dude...

@vunnixx7235

11 ай бұрын

​@@MrIG511I was suprised hearing omori on the playlist 0-0

@MrIG511

11 ай бұрын

@@vunnixx7235 same

@BeanethSoups

10 ай бұрын

@@vunnixx7235 i kinda wasnt. its fitting, omori is a game about trauma, its ost ending up on a traumacore playlist fits.

everyday is the same thing over and over again, but somehow worse. i can't sleep but when i do i can't get myself up. i don't go outside anymore because of the anxiety it gives me. i don't eat that much, and if i do i eat too much. i'm always weak and sick. i feel powerless to do anything to help my falling friendships. the one person that has always been there for me left me. i really don't have anything to live for. but, i'm still here. somehow i'm still alive, i don't know why, but i am.

@chaosdweller

Жыл бұрын

Everything I read and hear I already said.....why ? is this groundhog day? maybe having a photographic memory isn't such a good thing these days......

@N3rdZon3

Жыл бұрын

I know this emptiness .. I know you are not going to believe this but I still think I do. I wandered through through the darkness of the mind. I have suicide attempts behind me. Years of self harm and drug abuse. And I am going to be honest with with you. Those feelings will never be gone, 100% for ever. But there are still new things to feel, new things to experience. I understand if it doesn't feel like things change and if it feels like you are doomed to feel like you do but trust me, as long as you breathe there is more to feel, more to experience. If you decide that you can't take it and that waiting for that then it's up to you but trust me, there is always more out there. There are always more parhs worth to try. And who know, some might even be worth it

I might be going to a psych ward soon so the thought of this being the last thing I hear with my freedom is just a comforting thought

I'm using this comment as a time stamp of my life, seems like others have posted a lot of the same thing, so here's some of my story. (tw ofc: abuse/starvation, etc) I was a victim of child abuse as a kid. I had no normal childhood up until 2021 when I was a Junior in HS. 2019 was the last time I saw him, but 2019 was overshadowed by what had happened there. I was underweight af, where for my height and age I should have been around 120, I was 85-90, and lost weight so rapidly, my doctor had thought it was due to cancer or something really serious. It's because of my tendency to just not eat out of extreme anxiety and stress. My dad never checked on me, and I was too scared to leave my room to face him. This led to every 4 days that I was with him, I would eat little to nothing, take no showers (as my bedroom was an office converted to be a bedroom and had no bathroom of its own), and essentially left rot on my bed in my room, looking for ways to escape. He was also awful. He was abusive verbally, mentally, and physically, with the last incident being watching in horror as he almost drowned one of my younger brothers in the lake after getting drunk (again). That was 2019. 2020 was just pain cause, y'know...2020. But now, as I get into the new year, my last semester of high school, I am unhappy. The one person that really truly gave me love, we broke up due to differences in what we wanted within the relationship. My mother is gone, constantly partying, and here I am again. Collecting dust. I just want to escape my life. Yelled at my entire life, I can't stand up for myself and no amount of therapy will ever fix me. I feel numb, alone, like an old statue collecting dust on a shelf. I go by every day remembering what had happened to me, when I was hit, screamed at. I don't know what to do with myself sometimes. I want to be loved by a partner, as I've missed out on the feeling of childhood love my entire life, except from when my mom was actually here at my house. I just want to be loved.

@J-Sonny

2 ай бұрын

i love you

in my words, trauma / ptsd is like having unwanted stains in ur brain u cant js wash out. as a person who has cptsd themself, ive self harmed so many times n even grown an unwanted addiction, im so tired

I take serotonin pills to numb everything down into a hazey grey feelings. My emotions aren't my own anymore, and I am fine with that. The soft dust that surrounds my mind comforts me like a warm blanket, even if it isn't something I can manifest by myself. The pills help a lot but sometimes I wonder if the happiness is real or fake

@chaosdweller

Жыл бұрын

Haha, the more I think about yer comment the funnier it gets .... LMAO !

@user-rd3ee1ez8e

8 ай бұрын

i wish i had the right to take pills like that. make everything seem like a fuzzy dream, i wish...

i have been living in a state of constant derealization/depersonalization since 2018. i've been told it will get better or that it will go away, but it hasn't gotten any better for 6 years now. that is nearly a third of my life i have lived like this. i do not trust people's intentions, i am told by countless medical professionals that i am fine. i am exhausted of living this way. i have been off work for almost a year now trying to tackle this issue, and nothing is working. im turning 21 in 8 months, i just want a normal life like everyone else is living right now as i watch. this is comforting, thank you for making this playlist. maybe in a couple months ill look back on this comment and everything will finally be okay.

@Dan-43283

3 ай бұрын

Same for me, i have had derealization since 2019 but what is most important is that you don’t stop trying. Just know that there is always someone that cares about you and wants you to get better. I care, and I hope you get better. I wish you the best of luck

@AccDeleted1

3 ай бұрын

In 2020 I smoked 3 blunts one night and my life was like that for 2 years after. Hop it gets better.

Please never delete this

"How long will I stay like this?" Nobody knows...

i dont know why, but second song instantly reminded me back when i had around 2 months of "no sleep". a good way to describe how my experience was is basically, everyday was a copy with slight changes to it. i'd be up all night, and id eventually fall asleep during the day. sometimes i wouldnt sleep for 48 hours. but i would always eventually fall asleep. i didnt really think much of it either. plus, i was going through the dreadful "summer depression" too, so that didn't really help. throughout that time, i didnt talk to my friends at all. or at least, i tried to. i talked to them, all the time, they just never responded. anyway, just wanted to share that random story. have a good rest of your time scrolling stranger /pos

BROO THIS IS THE B E S T TRAUMACORE PLAYLIST IVE EVER LISTENED TO

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

Aww thank you I try my best :))

i've finally made it to a point where things are safe. I have a stable income, I have a boyfriend that cares about me and wants to support me, I have an apartment that I've signed the lease on. Despite the pain, the hardship, the world being against me despite making me the way I am in the first place.... I'm at a point where life is mine for the taking. So why do I feel so lost? Why do I feel so numb? This is a new dawn, a turning point, my life is finally worth living. Why can't I step up and live it?

@N3rdZon3

Жыл бұрын

I think I can relate to your feeling. I've been doing so good. I've been caring for my girlfriend and her struggles and that has been giving me so much strength. Life has never been this good. My mental health has never been this good since I was a little child. But there are still those days. Days where the darkness comes back. The emptiness. But I remind myself that depression is a diagnosis for life and that's okay. It will be there, it will come back some days. And that's okay. It doesn't mean we aren't doing better. Those days are just part of it. We will make it through. We need to be patient with ourselves. Keep running. We can do it and we will make it to a point where all the hours we spent in darkness be worth it. It's part of being alive and it's our story to tell. One day we will just see it as part of our hero's journey. It's fine to feel like this. It's part of the person we are. But it's not all that is out there. There is more. AndAnd every point we score in the game of life, every month we collect and every memorie we make was worth being there for it. It's fine. We will understand that one day

This playlist is comforting really, it is as if no one has ever accepted your traumas but then there is this playlist manifesting itself like an entity to show its existence on one way to defend you and on the other way to bring you awareness and leave you in the end.

I love the setting idea, the trailer park just adds on how common mental illness is on the lower class. Our parents could not provide medication for us, due to the financial drought.

@thanksforreadindmyunusuall3346

11 ай бұрын

Alot of the mental problems come from the financial drought, the lack of proper mental health the arguments the easy access to drugs and alcohol to mask the real problems, ect.

@punktic

11 ай бұрын

yup

Omori is the only piece of media I’ve ever, ever seen that made the trauma feel understood. It means so much because of that tbh. So you can imagine my surprise when I hear those damn first piano notes from the main theme here 😭💖

@MrIG511

Жыл бұрын

Omori was one of the few video games to make me shed tears. What a masterpiece that game was, wish I could experience it for the first time again.

@silli_clownmaeda1914

10 ай бұрын

SO REAL. I didn't ever really cry but I just really understand the game and relate to it. Idk how anyone could honestly hate any of the characters tbh they are all so amazing.

man i wish i could go to therapy without feeling like ppl are worrying about me all the time. i don't want them to be worried about me, i just want some answers, to talk to a professional, who i can tell anything without feeling like a burden. but instead here i am, avoiding thinking about it. tysm for the great video though, love that you put songs from OMORI ost in there

@jeffpork5181

Жыл бұрын

we should start a discord server

@thesilly11409

Жыл бұрын

@@jeffpork5181 if you can find enough ppl who wanna be in one, sure :)

@user-rd3ee1ez8e

8 ай бұрын

i wish i could go to therapy without telling my parents and looking suspicious at the same time

@deviousraul

4 ай бұрын

​@@thesilly11409 are you guys still down for the discord server?

Man this stuff is so calming yet depersonaling, I love it.

in November 2022 i was stuck in an abusive psyche ward. they never permitted me to sleep or rest (i have chronic pain), they gave me food poisoning and forced me to clean up my own vomit, they let me get SA‘d, they drugged me up with things neither me nor my mother had let them, and i walked out of there in a daze. everything was fuzzy and a few weeks later i developed PTSD and started to have nightmares, flashbacks, and separation anxiety from it. i feel like im never going to return to my normal self ever again. that week ruined my life and i dont think i can recover from it. i wish i could just go back. im stuck. i dont know how to get out of this. it feels like every day im going to wake up back in that ‚hospital‘ and suffer for eternity. they wont let me die because they arent done with me i dont want to go back

@jeffpork5181

Жыл бұрын

Slowly but surely you'll get there.

For some reason in my twenties I started to dissociate more and zone out, It's strange

having ptsd that progresses every year and i basically see a threat in every person, every corner of my own room.. this playlist seems accurate and helpful

I have 99% caught cancer and now life is meaningless, I don't understand why my dad still wants me to do the ton of homework I usually do, things are just weird. He don't understand that I'm like almost all of you, fed up and wishing to stop existing as I look at the buildings outside my home. The world is so much better when we are alone relieving the stress to become happy and then getting back at doing something we like, might be a job or a hobby or anything and just being happier.

I kinda feel like something bad happened to me in my childhood but I can’t figure out what it was. Because a lot of bad things happened, not just one thing. But I can’t figure out which one actually did something to me. My parents fought when I was younger, I grew up Poor, didn’t have any friends, got bullied to hell and back but it just doesn’t feel right. I dont know how to explain it. Kinda feels like none of those things should have really bothered me, because people have been through the same and are fine, but I look back and feel so alone. My entire childhood was a fog of being absolutely alone and it’s hard to remember things that were good.

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

My parents fought too when I was a very young kid, and then more fighting in different houses once they divorced. That can really mess with you as a kid. Picture a small child in the room as his mom and dad are furiously shouting at each other, screaming and crying, attacking each other, maybe even physically. That child would feel so powerless, scared and alone. His own parents, the ones who were supposed to protect him and care for him, are the very source of the danger and terror he's in. Even if they never lay a finger directly on that little child, the damage is already done in his mind. I've just been realizing this about myself too... it actually explains a lot about the person I am. But I don't blame my parents. Its ok. Because I know in my case at least, God is using it for good. Its made me sympathetic to people and I can talk to them because I understand them. I understand you too. ❤ You're not alone and this isn't your fault. It makes sense what you're going through. Even if it leads you down bad pathways in life, remember that God gave Jesus to die for your sins, and forgive you once and for all. So you can never outrun God's love for you. It's been there with you since the day you were born. You can trust Jesus... he loves you a lot. He's the only one who can truly save you. ❤ I hope something in this comment helped you understand things better 🙏

Everyday i see people around me living their lives, they do normal everyday thing that seem very easy to them, like going to work, meeting deadlines, networking, working hard, exercising hard, socializing, going on trips, helping others. And i just feel myself falling deeper into the chasm that separates me from everuone else, because i just cant muster the courage or energy to do basic tasks, they all seem so heavy and dangerous to me. I just wanna have the courage to do the things i need to do and the courage to do the things i want to do and to make my dreams come true, without feeling like i have to protect myself from all of it, without feeling like im gonna die if i cant accomplish them

@Dan-43283

3 ай бұрын

It may seem like it’s easy for them nowadays, but when you get to know people more, truth reveals that it’s not always the case. I always thought my friend was the best at socializing it seemed so easy for them, but in reality, it is as difficult for them as it is for me. You have the ability to reach your dreams, that’s what makes you special. Remember that it takes steps before you reach it, and if you don’t accomplish it the first try, you’re always given several chances

I love that the comment section collectively decided that this is the place to talk Not being sarcastic with that, just noticing how melancholy and anger is more often than not the emotions that people connect and bond over Not everyone can relate to being happy with themselves or their lives, but they certainly can relate to, at one point or another, if not currently, hating what they've gone through. So with that being said I've consistently cried every night/every other night for the past few nights. I'm so scared. I'm scared of what could happen in the future, I'm scared of what could happen to me and my relationships if I don't meet the standards and expectations that others have put in place, I'm scared that I could potentially die if I don't figure out how to think or work or act in the world that has been so rigged against someone like me. I don't just want to be not so tired anymore. I don't want to exist.

As a person that has an anxiety disorder and going under medical treatment, I really relate to this music right now. I feel very empty. But not necessarily in a bad way, or a good way. Medication doesn't make me feel happy about my life or myself. It doesn't make me feel anything at all. At least that's better than having panic attacks literally all night since years. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I feel like I just have two choices: this or my anxiety. And I choose this. I know it is melancholic, but it is also comforting in a way. Feels like home. Might be the fact that I've always had anxiety and depression since a teenager. But I also see that a lot of people also relate to this music, this environment, and aesthetic. I feel like I'm a tunnel just going through hoping to reach the light at the end, but it takes forever and sometimes I think it just might be an illusion. I wish I could live in a simulated world of dreams where this sadness, dullness, and sweet melancholy would just be my home. You know? Sweet sadness. We feel something aesthetically pleasing about melancholy and that's what I've always been. Anyway, I'll carry on with my adult life. My life is not bad in any way. I have a good-paying job and live without economical needs. I do have to work every day but I make more money than the average. I have a girlfriend who I love and loving parents and sisters. The only thing that prevents me from being happy is anxiety. It has taken so much from me and I've battled with it for so may years. But in the end I'm just tired. I'm very tired. I wish I was just a cloud.

I'm going through a PTSD case and sometimes it become stronger. Sometimes it's going away. Now it's here again and I fell down crying just because of a traumatic talk theme. Hiding and listening to this. Feeling like my breath slowly becoming better. I've always found such playlists calming. Thank you.

@Itz_Gumball

9 ай бұрын

Flippy, is that you? HAHA

stuck in an endless loop. i can't get out.

The image just says how i feel everyday

moral of the story: the more you try to get rid of depression, the harder it knocks on your door

wow, its kind of the first time i listened to a traumacore playlist that doesn't give me anxiety and calms me down, its nice.

Nothing changes. No matter how happy I am, no matter how they try to make up for it, they've done it. And nothing changes that.

The first song was actually very nostalgic and peaceful for me edit: all the songs are nostalgic and peaceful

this mix is more peaceful than the sleep i just woke up from

my stepfather probably gonna die on the war against my biological father, because the government ordered him to do this. i hate those fcking monsters, who destroyed both of my countries in this pointless war. i’m crying, feeling like i’ve died last autumn. and this is my hell.

2:00 -TW(su¡c¡de) You lay down on your bed looking at the celling, as mom and dads’ shouting sound echos in your head. You feel as yourself going weird, and after several months you couldn’t stand anymore. You head to the top of the building, and you see cars running past down the road. Now, you calm yourself down and try jumping down, but you just can’t. You feel yourself trying to fall down and return to your room both, and soon you accidentally fall down. You see the night road shining bright as you fall down quickly, and crash. You land on the road. Then, you hear police sirens and it becomes smaller and smaller... only darkness left. Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Soo this is the story I feel when I listen to this music wish you enjoyed it ;)

@sk_lxr2920

Жыл бұрын

sorry for bothering, can you add a trigger warning for suicide?

@Mg1jjang

Жыл бұрын

@@sk_lxr2920 im so sorry, just added it!

Music like this always puts me in a strange cerebral mood. Last time i got through a whole playlist from someone else i was balling my eyes out the last half uncontrollably. I was crying like a child. The first song on here hit me insanely hard no gonna lie.

I feel free and trapped at the same time 💀

@user-rd5rl9oo2o

2 жыл бұрын

Goofy ahh comment 💀

@mallory._lol

2 жыл бұрын

@@user-rd5rl9oo2o lmao

@2wml

Жыл бұрын

@@user-rd5rl9oo2o get out of here you literally have a goofy ahh pfp, you probably smell like a dead greasy rat

@theguybehindthescreeen124

7 ай бұрын

fr fr!!!!11!

He escuchado esta playlist varias veces, es increíble como te transporta a una tarde donde el tiempo fluye más lento y todo se obscurece lentamente, dejándote a solas con tus pensamientos. También se siente como si te hubieras quedado dormido jugando Stardew Valley y reproduciendo videos familiares viejos.

I’ve stopped taking my meds, thought it’d let me feel more…free..? But yet this somehow reminds me I’m not alone, it lets me think, it lets me cry. I’ve never really had anyone to cry to, or to count on. Nobody has ever understood me. And if they have, it was never fully.

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry 💔 If you want to vent you can always reach out to me. To be honest I would say to stay on the meds. But since its been a while since you got off them, you should call the Dr again before starting. Maybe they can recommend something else. ❤ God loves you. He knows you fully, so much more than you even know yourself. He understands you. Jesus gave his life on the cross for you... You can trust him. 🤝

@marshvif

6 ай бұрын

the mind is to be free

"It's been so long" hits especially hard. That was my dad's favorite fnaf song from back in the day.

reminds me when i kept sleeping to escape reality and accept something is happening

I don't want to trauma dump here because my mind doesn't go there when I listen to this. I'm just in a rough spot mentally right now with a lot on my plate, and playlists like this make me wish I could just escape for a bit, but without interrupting anything I have going on. Like, freezing time.

ODして記憶がふわふわしてる時にこれ聴くと自分がどこにいるか分からなくなって最高

@wolfywolves

Жыл бұрын

Are you ok?

@thegoldenblob69

11 ай бұрын

だいじょうぶ？

@spidergennady9899

9 ай бұрын

Are you okay?…

@user-id7ft7ch9n

6 ай бұрын

Are you ok?

Sé que todo está en inglés, aún así, no puedo evitar confesar mi fascinación por este tipo de Playlists. Es como si me atrajeran al punto de no poder parar, porque entre sueños, pesadillas y ansiedad estas melodías me permiten descansar. Descansar de los traumas que solo las paredes de un hogar conocen.

@MegaDalton-ml1vd

Жыл бұрын

No me esperaba encontrar a alguien que hable español en los comentarios! Hola haha!

@valzdelbosque

5 ай бұрын

Está chingona la neta

@zlumi428

5 ай бұрын

Oh😢 Espero todo vaya mejor para tí interiormente.😊

Ironic that I started finding all these traumacore playlists AFTER getting over my own trauma (mostly)

@beepopouyo7410

Жыл бұрын

Happy to hear that you made it. Keep going!

They took 2 years from me and I will never forgive them

@Lav3nd3rForest

Жыл бұрын

Same here. My innocence was taken by force

@120drops

7 ай бұрын

It's something extremely hard, but forgive them Not because they deserve forgiveness But because you deserve peace A good part of my childhood and pre-adolescence was hell, not even in my dreams I was free and I was treated like a slave, clown and also a punching bag Hate won't bring your life back I know it didn't bring mine back Vengeance is a fool's game, and it will play you good . . I won, despite everything And I hope that in the future I will be able to use my pain in order to no one feel the same

@aintnothingbutaheartbreak9052

7 ай бұрын

@@120drops Well things have changed a lot in the past year and I've moved on thanks for the comment I'm sorry you had to go through that

The song at 49:09 is ZERO»NOVA»BLOSSOM»___ by Machine Girl (when I was listening to it, it gave me HUGE Machine Girl vibes). Hope it helps! :D Edit: 00:28 gives me Instupendo vibes (might be wrong tho-)

@tiempo3386

Жыл бұрын

I love that song

the only two things keeping me alive rn are music and the silly little character I create in my mind

*It won't stay this way for long. I promise.*

I love that you put songs by TEMPOREX in here

you should be more popular!! you're great at finding good music, this is genuinely the first time I saw a playlist had all great songs

Everyone here has suffered so much from there experiences and are feeling this way yet here I am. I'm part of a middle-class family, able to live with much more then the bare minimum and what we need to survive and here I am enjoying myself a lot, but i just decided to screw my life up out of the blue with such a good life in my hands. Everyone here has gone through so many things that are much harsher than what i have, yet i still share the same sad feelings as them with no right to, i don't know why I'm like this

@Dan-43283

3 ай бұрын

We are humans after all and you shouldn’t feel this way. We all have screwed up one point, it doesn’t matter if you manage to work it through in the end. Because everyone deserves happiness

this really helps me because I had a hard life growing up. I used to live with my dad and he would hit me or touch me sometimes he tried to kill me once and I was only 13. my mom was trying her best on raising me and my brother who was autistic and had the violent side of it. I was 14 when I lost my best friend to offing himself and I watched him do it, I wished I could have saved him but when he jumped it was to late. down from that I had depression plus ptsd and anxiety. there is stuff I would like to say but I'm not very comfortable putting it on here. so yeah my little vent...have a nice night or day.

omg i was expecting school rooftop. i love it. it’s been hella foggy in the early mornings to afternoons and this morning i listened to it while walking in the fog. love it

This was a wake up call for me.I usually don't think about what's hurt me in the past and drown out all my negative thoughts with hyper pop and super cheery and fast paced songs.This playlist made me think about what made me this emotionally unstable and on top of all this trauma I still don't know my identity. I've lost my only friend who has been with me for all my life and I have nobody else to vent to or to just have to at least keep me somewhat stable.I can't vent to my siblings due to my parents having rules to prevent any negative talk of them to be spoken. My dad doesn't believe in mental health and both my parents are xenophobes which obviously makes it a lot harder to come out. Ive considered suicide multiple times. And all this is happening while I am only 11. Sorry for the vent.I just needed to get it out even if it's not all I feel because then this comment would be even longer.Goodbye.

@kainaris

9 ай бұрын

I'd say ask for help maybe explain your situation to a teacher or some other grown-up. No one should have to put up with parents who hate them just for who they are.

00:01 literally me everyday, i go to bed at 12:00 PM and i wake up at 6:30 AM feeling tired and feeling like shit wondering for how long i will be like this.

@gayhater7840

2 жыл бұрын

That';s a lot of sleep

@michaelp.6520

2 жыл бұрын

I recommend going to bed earlier, the body needs more sleep than people usually care to get :)

They say adulthood comes with freedom and I'm not quite there yet but what if I don't want to be free? What if I'm still just a anxious child inside what if I still wanna hide behind my parents? What if I want them to go to the store for me and use my money because I'm too scared to even speak? What if I don't want to party with people? To socialize, to call friends late night what if I still want to be sheltered? Because I've seen adult hood, as scary as it is, a child should never have to be their own parent, should never have to pretend to be mature because their own parent can't, Why can't i still be a kid for a little while longer? When he's finally showing himself to me, when he's finally deciding to speak up? And just wanting to enjoy himself? Why can't I just indulge in my childlike wonder and let myself cry a little longer?

@the.seagull.35

Жыл бұрын

Its ok ❤ You can be you. You don't have to worry. Jesus said that God will take care of his children, the same way he takes care of the birds and gives beauty to the flowers. Jesus gave his life to make that a reality for us. With our sins forgiven, we can become children of our heavenly Father. ❤ Don't be afraid or troubled... trust him, and run to him whenever you're afraid. God will shelter you and be your strong refuge. "But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you." Psalms 5:11 🙏

TW!! Times I was physically abus3d, thr3at3n3d, nearly d!ed and got SA’d follows me around and tonight I broke, hearing voices that tell me to hurt myself and that I am a bad person who is in the way + feeling transported to the places the trauma happened at the same time. Guess have been stressed for a bit. This playlist describes it, feeling “stuck”. I’m trying to challenge thoughts “I’m a bad person” and put responsibility where it belongs, on the abus3r and create safety, just safety feels so fragile and easily lost. Thank you for this playlist and for traumacore to help process trauma. Edit: the voices are gone and i’m feeling much more grounded and i’m confident i can cope ♡

you guys in the comments need a hug

let's go guys.. we can do this

@beepopouyo7410

Жыл бұрын

me and the boys on our way to beat trauma

@elifong7584

4 ай бұрын

Im waiting dollar to be 1 liras, its been too much years and i am still waiting...💀

Gotta say, this playlist is pretty good, traumacore surely is something else. I don't recognize every song that's in it but here are some that aren't titled in the description: 21:18 - Dead Weight - Jack Stauber (instrumental) 42:39 - Browser History - Graham Kartna Feel free to reply to my comment if you know any other untitled songs in the description, just to keep things organized...!

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

thank you so much!! i forgot most of the song names!! this playlist was used to help me cope with my trauma and that’s what i read up on trauma core was just music and art that helped people cope!! thank you for the untitled song titles!!

@Sechtera

2 жыл бұрын

@@steepedpossum No problem g, I'll also share the song names in the other playlists, just to help out a bit...! And honestly, trauma sucks hard so I hope you're doing well now.

@steepedpossum

2 жыл бұрын

@@Sechtera thank you!! i wish nothing but health and love for your future

@Sechtera

2 жыл бұрын

@@steepedpossum Why, thank you very much...! And of course, same goes for you!

The song that plays on 00:28 is called Safe, Now by Harris Cole. That part of the song starts at like 1:36 👍

It's been a long time since I've cried, thank you for this gift.

@chaosdweller

Жыл бұрын

Lol ! I'm sorry I'm laughing haha.

(TW SA,SH, TRAUMA) I LITERALLY CANNOT BREATH the tears the screaming the pain the betrayal the anger THEM. "just deal with it" they say.. All I ever do is deal with it. ALL I ever did when my brother died was deal with it. ALL I ever did when someone SA me was DEAL WITH IT. I HAVE NO ONE. So I am sorry that I am angry I'm just so tired I'm so hurt..I miss my best friend..I miss my brother I miss my old friends. If you think you can hurt me you thought wrong. I never fought back before. But this time..I will fight back..I don't know how much I can handle...I feel like I'm drowning but the thing is I cant swim and no one is there to help me up. So you know..I will pick myself up..but when I do...don't act like you cared..and please don't act like you were there. Because you wasn't. All you ever did was ignore me.. nothing feels real anymore, I am almost 15..I want to say I can do this..but I'm really scared I act tough but deep down I'm so afraid. I am so angry..I just want to start over..or better yet not exist. But I WILL NOT end it. I have fought for to much I have bled to much to give up now..

@kittensparkle6514

2 жыл бұрын

i wish we could hug

@shelleywilders8375

2 жыл бұрын

@@kittensparkle6514 I wish we could hug too. thank you so much

@shelleywilders8375

2 жыл бұрын

@Astorfrid thanks man

That trailer photo unlocked memories that were so deeply imbedded into my brain. It’s good and bad memories. Memories where my grandpa would abuse my older brother(now an adult, at the time he was 8-10.) and constantly yell at us, but good memories where we would go outside most of the time and go play with the neighbor kids and get ice cream when the ice cream truck came around. It was so long ago that it feels like a fever dream.

I was promised to have a better life but I don't even feel like I'm living it I feel like I've never made a single decision in my life

im just gonna type out my feelings here since well everyone else is, i feel like a husk of a person. almost like I'm on auto-pilot. i constantly feel like everyone hates me and that i am unlovable and i have to blend in, i've thought about going to a therapist or talking to my doctor but ive just brushed it aside. i dont know what to do man, and im just too scared to tell my feelings to my crush so i probably think im gonna die alone

@deathsashtray847

4 ай бұрын

As a friend to a friend just wing it brother that's the only thing that you can do sometimes, being Undecisive sucks alot trust me I am very undecisive most of the time but you just got to go with the flow and wing it hope this does help good luck friend

How does this relax me and give me anxiety at the same time wtf-

@callmevio

2 жыл бұрын

This

@sarahjimin6671

Жыл бұрын

yeah?

@Wubbagubba

10 ай бұрын

ok

the photo really adds to the vibes of this playlist and its awesome :DD great job!!

@user-ms8ol9xr7h

Жыл бұрын

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Thank you for this playlist. I am currently feeling disoriented and upset due to, for some reason, remembering a traumatic situation. This is helping me keep calm ❤

Sometimes you hope you die in your sleep, and just *hope* you somehow wake up in another reality. Any other reality. Even if it’s one where you’re a villain or some side character. Anything would be better than being this fucking tired.

Damn I relate to this pic. I tried getting tested for chronic fatigue but got laughed out of the doctor's office.

I've never heard of traumacore until a few days ago when I went down a small rabbit hole of liminal spaces and I am so happy I found it... my depression has been almost worse than it's ever been

I don’t talk anymore irl:D

I feel as if nothing is happening. I also suffer from memory loss so I forget important details or information. For example: people’s name, or even others or my own birthday. I can only remember my family and my name. As moments pass without meeting them. My memories of them even existing also fade away, I feel like nothing is precious cause I’m afraid I’ll forget it and hurt the feelings of people I cherish. The only thing I will never forget is my love for drawing. I just wish I could remember, I wish I wouldn’t be so scared whenever something good happens to me because I’m scared I will just forget about it. I hope I won’t forget my loved ones too.

@isabellegirard4465

4 ай бұрын

Reading your comment i just realize that my memory loss comes from traumatic events that happened in my life and not because i just have anxiety. I always have this fear of not being able to trust my mind and now i can see that this might be more real that i thought

Tw for like everything!! I just, don't get it. They promised that self-care and therapy would make it better- so why hasn't it? Therapy weekly, trying to take care of yourself, trying to do your homework, talking with friends and family, that's what they said would make me *happy*. So why am I still depressed? Why do I need to wake up everyday, just to be more tired than the day before and waste my energy on getting dressed, eating, going to school, sitting in lessons, dealing with others- *talking* with others? It's pointless and I can't deal with this. I feel like a empty shell of the kid I used to be, and I know that's true because that is what my family has told me for years. "I wish you were a kid again, you were so much happier", "Stop acting like an adult, do your chores like a good kid", "don't wear that. I can see your scars" and "Where did my baby girl go, I never wanted a depressed tr4nny for a kid" I'm so done with it, I'm so done with living. Everytime I breath, I'm wasting oxygen and energy. Everytime I eat I'm wasting food that others could have eaten- not that I eat a lot anyway, and when I do I hurl it up, cause who will love some 'fatty' as my mom tells me, even though she weighs more than me. The weighing scales, the books, the photos- they are *everywhere* and I hate it. I just want it to stop, I'm not using my depression, self-harm and suicidal-ness to get out of doing things, I'm just tired. God, I have stacks of homework I need to get through I have for weeks now. I had an excuse- "A family member died"- but now I don't, it's been a week already. I'm gonna stay off tomorrow, and the next if I can. My mom's sick so I can use that as an excuse or something. School is so hard- why did I need to move- god I'm a fucking *child* and now I don't have my friends to see everyday. The school is shit, the people are shit, the teachers are shit, the work is shit and call me a bitch- but I fucking hate Mr Stevenson. God I wish he could die already. I wish I could just die already...

I wanna live, and i love life But not *that* life.

@idk_whyi

Жыл бұрын

mm same

@idk_whyi

Жыл бұрын

i wanna wake up but not in this universe

Waking up, remembering im ugly, and that ive been used multiple times by women ive loved, and that ive been left for not trying enough.. or for something about me i cant change. ive been overworked by my family and when i take a day to relax im lazy. and i should be "grateful that we let you live in this house." high expectations.. constant pressure of schoolwork and working on things outside and inside the house, making sure my animals are all fed, and also managing multiple friendships and relationships that im in. im trying to give up on dating, now that someone whom was used by her past boyfriends finally wanted for us to break up. i loved her a lot but i dont think i should try to stay with her. it wasnt a bad break up, she still likes me and is grateful for how i treated her, but she wants to just be friends. the main reason is because im a bit younger than her (not even 2 years younger dont worry.) even though i thought she overlooked it because of how hard i was trying. i dont want to just be her friend.. so ive stopped messaging her because ill just want to be with her if i keep talking to her. now.. my best friend, whos a female and is the one who set me up with my last girlfriend as they were friend, is helping me through the breakup. and.. im starting to get feelings for her. i know shes my best friend.. and shes also already in a relationship.. so its sadly never going to happen. ill harbor these feeling forever and never be able to tell her. the problem is i love both of them. my ex and my best friend. (ex is a bad word, ill just say.. D. her initial). i dont know what to do. im currently stuck in a place where dont know how to feel. i hate myself and my best friend is trying to help me.. but i still harbor immense feelings for D and my best friend. i cant decide what to do. i might try to rekindle the relationship between me and D but im unsure.. my best friend says its a 50/50 since she says that D is still sad about the break up and is unsure if it was the right thing to do when she was feeling a certain way.. but i dont think she'll take me back. D has suffered way more than me and has split parents, is also overworked, and has higher expectations from parents. i dont deserve her, and she deserves better than me. i want her to find someone better.. but i also just want to be with her. i might update this with news about things that happen.. im glad i can type this here since both of them (D and my best friend) dont use yt. thanks for reading and i already know the people who say "emo!" and "womp womp" are gonna flood my replies. bye.