I have ASPD and NPD: pathological envy

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  • @ilyagrishin9622
    @ilyagrishin96229 күн бұрын

    I saw a beautiful smile on a thumbnail and then realized that the frame was taken exactly from the moment where she talks about satisfaction from tearing someone down

  • @integrity4life194

    @integrity4life194

    8 күн бұрын

    good observation ! - this already tells allot about the nature of pathological narcissism and the little mind-games narcissists like to play !

  • @TVHEAD69-247

    @TVHEAD69-247

    6 күн бұрын

    Bro I’m cackling

  • @elroy-kq7we
    @elroy-kq7we8 күн бұрын

    Of all the seven deadly sins, envy is the only one that can never be fun.

  • @FroggyFrog9000
    @FroggyFrog90009 күн бұрын

    great definitions of envy and jellousy - I couldnt grasp the difference until now. Great content, great insights, Im learning.

  • @alliem.182
    @alliem.1829 күн бұрын

    This kind of content is extremely helpful, thank you. My sister has NPD (we're no contact), and she spent every waking moment of my childhood trying to destroy any sense of self worth I possessed. It didn't help that I was much more attractive than she was (just genetics, I didn't wear makeup or do anything at all to improve my appearance, because that would make her behavior even worse). I was younger than her and spent most of my time simply trying to avoid her. But it seemed like she genuinely enjoyed destroying me. I've spent much of my adulthood trying to understand this from her perspective, but there's no way she would ever be honest. Question: how would you react if another narcissist kept targeting you out of envy? Would you see it as 'normal' behavior, because you assume everyone else feels the same way, or would you feel entitled to a level of safety from this type of behavior?

  • @PrincessMultiracial

    @PrincessMultiracial

    9 күн бұрын

    This. Your second paragraph nails it. It’s one thing to justify her logic when it comes to her but would she also justify it if someone else pulled up and did the same things to her? Would she also view it as that person getting “justice” against her and be okay with that just like she views it as justice when she does it to other people?

  • @alliem.182

    @alliem.182

    9 күн бұрын

    @@PrincessMultiracial Yeah, I'm really curious if she has noticed the same kind of envious behavior pointed towards her and how she would internalize it. Like, "oh, I expected this because everyone sucks, and it justifies the way I treat other people", or "I didn't expect this / don't deserve this so I'm going to destroy them". I doubt she's representative of everyone with NPD but it would be interesting. Personally, I expect the worst treatment from everyone but I escape whenever I am targeted.

  • @lenakataeva7525

    @lenakataeva7525

    8 күн бұрын

    I think she (or person with npd) would be angry when other person would try to destroy them out of envy or else. She just said that she believes that she deserves everything she wants. And the other person taking it away would piss her off

  • @PrincessMultiracial

    @PrincessMultiracial

    8 күн бұрын

    @@lenakataeva7525 Right, so her logic and justifications are right out the window. And she says she doesn’t understand this as “entitlement” but if you think you can do something and someone else shouldn’t, that’s entitlement

  • @lenakataeva7525

    @lenakataeva7525

    8 күн бұрын

    @@PrincessMultiracial well that's why it's a pathological envy I guess. She (or person with npd) can be self aware about it being wrong and not acting on it (destroying someone) but it wouldn't feel like that to them. And it doesn't matter the reverse situation

  • @sunnyday3539
    @sunnyday35399 күн бұрын

    Interesting video. I have noticed that some people possess a sort of seething mean-spiritedness, which you only come to realize after you’ve known them for a while. And it comes as a surprise because they seemed like nice people in the early days of knowing them. I have wondered why they have this dark aspect of their personality, especially when they appear to have a pretty good life and good fortune in life. And yet, underneath the happy go lucky facade, they are chronic malcontents. Now I wonder if it stems from chronic envy such as you describe.

  • @OneofMany-yt5sl

    @OneofMany-yt5sl

    8 күн бұрын

    I know someone just like that. Chronic envy of others, has a nice life, a stable career, money in the bank, never says they are fortunate to have had the blessings they have.

  • @MargaretAwakeAwacked
    @MargaretAwakeAwacked9 күн бұрын

    I have a BPD, but I feel envy so often, it's so anxiety for me, also I devalue, mock,l says-OK, but...And told about mistakes of people,weak points, I can support, but second, l make hurt, l says, OOO , you can do it better, I take information about people, and dump it out the chat, I am kidding, and I feel myself satisfaction, when do it, because I am sick, I have no resources, I feel myself so weak, and I hate fuscing people, who have healthy, who can leave, can smile and louthing....they are not understand it, howe more they have. Sorry, I am from Russia, I don't know English well, but I like mr Sam Vacnin, and may be I am not BPD, thank you for your channel, your are so brave to talk about this feelings and your disorder.

  • @itsmarthai
    @itsmarthai9 күн бұрын

    I appreciate your videos so much, thanks for the honesty and perspectives

  • @ceciliacordon770
    @ceciliacordon7709 күн бұрын

    Hey, how did you become so aware/ metacognitive? I struggle with some of these issues and I want to get better. Is there a specific type of therapy you are doing or something?

  • @nataliewantscookies
    @nataliewantscookies9 күн бұрын

    Delta, your self awareness and candidness is amazing!!! I have high regards for you.

  • @Mylastday666
    @Mylastday6669 күн бұрын

    My mom has this BADDDDDDDDDD, torturing people bad. I have it also but not as bad as my mom but I have done the same stuff. My mom is to blame for my aspd and npd

  • @alliem.182
    @alliem.1829 күн бұрын

    If you want to be purely objective, the problem is a logistics issue. Humans can achieve remarkable things if they're genuinely willing to work together. Our society is so complex and requires a lot of people working in good faith. If everyone were to embrace 'the dark side' you'd have to say goodbye to infrastructure, grocery stores, electricity, etc. I've always wondered if sociopathy and sadism were adaptive traits for when sh*t hits the fan. When there's a famine, y'all are the ones surviving. There's definitely an upside to having sociopathy and NPD when you have to fight for resources, and having god-awful parents might be enough of a marker to trigger that switch.

  • @alliem.182

    @alliem.182

    7 күн бұрын

    @@elroy-kq7we Yes! It's absolutely a short-term vs. long-term kind of thinking. People who hurt people often end up dying alone. But short-term, it can be beneficial. Then again, in an environment with scarcity, the long-term isn't really an important factor in decision making. Scarcity linked to antisocial personality disorders... Now I'm really curious if there's any research on it. It makes sense to me. A lot of people complain that narcissism is rampant among boomers, which I get, but when boomers talk about their childhoods it sounds absolutely hellish. I wouldn't be surprised if much of the silent generation had problems with sociopathy and narcissism, simply because they went through the depression and the dust bowl. Obviously I'm speaking from an American perspective, but I suppose a similar timeline happened in most western countries. Then you've got the other side of the coin, where millenials are really screwing over gen alpha by abdicating any responsibility of teaching boundaries or empathy. It will be interesting to see what kinds of world events unfold over the decades when gen alpha becomes prominent.

  • @LivingFreeTv123
    @LivingFreeTv1239 күн бұрын

    Facinating.

  • @phoebetaptiklis5122
    @phoebetaptiklis51229 күн бұрын

    Thank you so much for your honesty and authenticity Delta 😄

  • @affentat8723
    @affentat87238 күн бұрын

    Can you talk more about the things that you personally think are owed to you? I'm really interested because usually people say things like 'life doesn't owe you anything', I'd like to hear your perspective.

  • @kuibeiguahua
    @kuibeiguahua9 күн бұрын

    Awwww thanks for sharing your inner world!!! Does Buddhism have any effect on those thought patterns (if you ever dabbled), or your behaviours? Would it be just an extra mask? I know the question is a bit silly, I just had a way easier time in life in general when I could (SOMETIMES) spot my attachments and try to unroot them. Sorry to hear there was rough in your life, it ain't easy you are strong!

  • @arbor-sq4jk
    @arbor-sq4jk8 күн бұрын

    i wasnt beeing ableist i was admiring you....psychopaths are predatory parasites..we are who we are

  • @sp3g56
    @sp3g568 күн бұрын

    What kind of things did you envy and destroy people because of?

  • @blousug
    @blousug9 күн бұрын

    This may seem like an off beat question, but are you very creative and perhaps romanticize the things that you want but do not have to make them even more appealing?

  • @CallMeNevermore
    @CallMeNevermore6 күн бұрын

    1:01 I‘ve watched all your videos and so far this is the only time I‘ve seen an inconsistency in your flat affect. Joyous, but for the wrong reasons.

  • @Poodle_Gun
    @Poodle_Gun9 күн бұрын

    A lot of people you probably hurt are more disabled than you. If you were able to take advantage of someone, they weren't the top dogs. If you attacked someone stronger than you, you would be dead. Disabled means weaker. Weaker means losing. Life wants you to learn how to lose right now. I have a disability too. Losing isn't as bad all that. If you learn how to do it well, you'll be ahead of 99% of your peers. It's a gift. A lot of people become really great after they lose everything. Any great military leader. You can learn pain like Alfred the Great, Ghengus Khan, and Papillion, or you can be fat little Dudley Dursley forever, up to you.

  • @integrity4life194
    @integrity4life1948 күн бұрын

    Hey Delta !, how about jealousy and the idea of losing your partner to somone else ?🤔 - like then.....someone else "has something" that you don't have (anymore) !?

  • @dammitdelta

    @dammitdelta

    7 күн бұрын

    @@integrity4life194 I’ve never felt threatened by anyone else in terms of my partner. I trust her and am secure in my relationship. I’m extremely protective of her but not in a jealous sense.

  • @integrity4life194

    @integrity4life194

    7 күн бұрын

    @@dammitdeltaappreciate your answer !👍 - so I'd interpret that your nracissism makes you think that you can control something that you actually can't !? - how would you ever be able "to trust someone" if you actually know too well that people lie, cheat, deceive and look for their own advantage - as this is exactly what you do !? - I wonder how this concept works on your mind.....or let's put it the other way around: so you do think that no one is ever gonna leave you for somone else because you are more beautiful, sexy, attractive and the best partner ever ?🤔.....I am not "judgemental" - I only want to understand how this works for a narcissist......thanks for contributing......

  • @AmandaSmith-we8hs
    @AmandaSmith-we8hs8 күн бұрын

    Jesus said treat others like you would want to be treated. You don't want to get into other people's shoes.

  • @user-dn5bi4si5w
    @user-dn5bi4si5w3 сағат бұрын

    Pfffffft.

  • @blitzes3177
    @blitzes31778 күн бұрын

    Not to be rude, but I can see why your partner thinks you skip over your sense of entitlement when it comes to self improvement, as you admit that you do think you’re owed everything you want out of life, and that it should be given to you. Obviously this is conjecture but I don’t think that the things in your life that you currently value like your girlfriend or your cats are things that were simply given to you. These things must be earned and maintained, which is what you seem to be doing quite well at the moment. You have them because you are putting in the effort. You most likely value earning things more that just wanting to simply have them.

  • @PrincessMultiracial

    @PrincessMultiracial

    8 күн бұрын

    @@blitzes3177 to be honest her wife is the one providing for her, and she likely is also the one taking care of the cats. This girl is just chillin.

  • @dammitdelta

    @dammitdelta

    7 күн бұрын

    @@PrincessMultiracial I wouldn’t consider being severely chronically ill to the point of being on federal disability to be “just chillin.” I’d rather be able to provide for myself. My partner did provide for me while I was going through the process of getting on disability, and I have helped her in the past (prior to getting sick). That’s what people who love each other do, help each other in a time of need. Now we have shared financial responsibility and household responsibilities. She does more than I do only because she’s physically able and I’m not. It’s difficult for me to ask for help, but I’m grateful for her help. As for the cats, I care for them while she is at work and the rest of the time we share responsibilities for their care. She’s been helping me out more as of lately, but it’s because I’m getting progressively more sick. It’s the first time in my life I’ve had a non-parasitic relationship.

  • @PrincessMultiracial

    @PrincessMultiracial

    6 күн бұрын

    @@dammitdelta thank you for your clarification and reply

  • @ileanaprofeanu7626
    @ileanaprofeanu76266 күн бұрын

    What you say in this video is not justifiable in the sense that you don't bring any justification. If you were to discuss about all this with someone strong on philosophy and morality I am sure you will see at the end why. Psychology can bring you only this far. There are also classical treaties and pieces of literature ("Crime and punishment") on this very subject

  • @mermaid78
    @mermaid789 күн бұрын

    Do the narcissists devalue God for the disorder they have???

  • @dammitdelta

    @dammitdelta

    7 күн бұрын

    @@mermaid78 I don’t believe in God.

  • @alisiademi
    @alisiademi9 күн бұрын

    In my research most diagnosed labels are really trauma symptoms (see book The Body Keeps the Score), so I would personally guess this would be the same. I think it's great that you're honest, and I think that a lot of people think these ways and just aren't aware or honest about it. I'm an advocate for magic 🍄 trips for trauma healing.

  • @FroggyFrog9000

    @FroggyFrog9000

    9 күн бұрын

    u r naive: theres no cure for sociopathy.

  • @PrincessMultiracial

    @PrincessMultiracial

    8 күн бұрын

    @@FroggyFrog9000 Right. She was already predispositioned to be wired this way. Many people experience trauma and hardships (think third world countries) but don’t come out of it being sociopaths and narcissists. Neurodivergence (in her case ASPD, NPD, and she also said she had DID in another video) correlates with other health issues (she previously said she has anorexia nervosa, currently is “disabled” probably from a chronic illness).

  • @Ashley-ln1ps
    @Ashley-ln1ps9 күн бұрын

    can't you take care of Putin. the world needs you, Ukraine needs you.

  • @siobhan9197

    @siobhan9197

    9 күн бұрын

    That's a weird comment.

  • @MargaretAwakeAwacked

    @MargaretAwakeAwacked

    9 күн бұрын

    What?)))Be sure,that mr Putin take much care about himself)))And what about your disorders?honey?

  • @user-km6qz6vc1c

    @user-km6qz6vc1c

    8 күн бұрын

    Putin is good.

  • @svp3rn0v47

    @svp3rn0v47

    8 күн бұрын

    I’m just going to replicate the former: That’s a weird comment.

  • @Ashley-ln1ps

    @Ashley-ln1ps

    7 күн бұрын

    @@user-km6qz6vc1c he is a baby killer. bombed a children's hospital in Kyiv. ur unhinged

  • @jandenijs7337
    @jandenijs73379 күн бұрын

    pretty horrible