Live recording from Ruby Lissi. Video by Sonnendeck
Lyrics:
As I was cleaning out the corners
of the place where I live
Sorting my thoughts, and clearing the mail
I found some feelings that I buried
under paper and plans
I'd hidden it well, you barely could tell
I just don't go there anymore
That room is off bounds
'cause when I peek behind that door
it all comes crashing out:
the hopes that I had
the punch in the gut
being measured and weighed
and found not enough
It never did fade
but I learned how
to keep that door closed
You did the talking, you did worksheets
all the best laid plans - follow the steps, and wait for the win
But time passes, and at one point, it's just been too long
So you tell your brain that you moved on
and you don't go there anymore
You keep that door closed
'cause you've seen it all before
you know what hurts the most
the warmth and the trust
someone who was sure
held on through the waves
'till they wanted more
It never quite fades
so you pick it up
and put it back in that drawer