This young man is super awesome! May God continue to bless you!

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Afro Samba Mama Thank you so much for watching. God Bless :)

@user-gz6gq3ux1z

6 ай бұрын

I'm thankful to Dr Ojeabulu for using his natural herbs to cure me and my partner from herpes virus now we are both cured completely. For more tips about this cure contact Dr Ojeabulu solution home on his channel

You are a brave man. I have a dear friend that got HIV from a blood transfusion. He is on medication and doing great! He met a nice woman 2 years ago and the got married and the adopted a child. I have never seen him so happy. I am glade to be his friend and enjoy watching him continue to work hard taking his medication and loving his wife and child. This experience has helped me to be a better person and really know the true meaning of love

@fadiabusharnb8671

5 жыл бұрын

He didn’t get on pep ?

@feediamond2317

4 жыл бұрын

How??? Don't they test the blood

Many ppl don't want to know their status because they'll literally die of depression as soon as the doctor tell them.

@spacecowboy534

4 жыл бұрын

that’s a blatant fucking lie, stupid

Thank you for the beautiful comments everyone ! :D HIV affects us all in one way or another and I'm simply daring my story so the world knows that hiv is still around and doesn't discriminate. This can happen to anyone so please use protection and get tested, empower yourself. Greetings to all from sunny California:)

@daliahmnazi971

9 жыл бұрын

+JB007 It's him today tommorow might be you...be careful what you say

@sosweet12345678

7 жыл бұрын

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@africa2204

7 жыл бұрын

PozitiveHope I don't think it was a girl that give you the virus...

@PozitiveHope

7 жыл бұрын

Your more than welcome to believe whatever you'd like Sasha. I'm the one living with the virus and that knows my past. Whatever you choose to think is up to you. Best regards

@5000NATE

7 жыл бұрын

PozitiveHope just want to tell you I love you and I appreciate you putting your story thank you very much you're grateful and you're a good man I'm sorry that happened to you same thing happened to me I had my heartbroken when I was 19 never really recovered

Thanks for sharing, Josh! May you have a long and happy life filled with love! All the best! Good luck!

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your kind words and for watching my video. Have an awesome rest of the week!!

If you are negative or positive of H.I.V , you are handsome and awesome person I like you,GBU

I really appreciate you sharing your story. You are awesome. And don't let anyone tell you other wise ! ❤️

So strong - stay that way, brother. God bless.

God love you brother, Keep that head high proud of you man! From bony Scotland.

Thanks for sharing man,praying for your good health!

I really hope everything keep going okay. I am 15 and HIV and AIDS has always been something I am deathly affraid of, and your story really helps me and a lot of other people i'm sure either fight this or prevent it so I just want to say that you and God bless you.

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Danson Francis Thanks for watching Danson. HIV is a scary thing however their are various forms to protect yourself wether it be condoms, PrEP, or TaSP. Being educated about the virus is the best thing, this is a preventable virus. The fact you are 15 years old and so engaged in your sexual health is a really good sign. Keep up the good work, God bless my friend, hope you are having a great start to the week.

@user-zy9yg2eu5t

4 жыл бұрын

It's fairly easy to avoid...

@romanmekonnen3400

3 жыл бұрын

15....how you got it

I'm sorry this happened to u watching this video making me cry cause I know how it feels thank i for sharing your story 💯 I hope everything gets better for u 💚💚

this is the most real video

You remain inspiring and are an excellent broadcaster. Keep on keeping on! We've got you and most importantly, you've got this too.

Wow, I can't believe that someone can be so real! May God Bless you !

Amazing, informative, courageous and open video. Thank you for posting. I hope you stay healthy.

You are a very strong man! I wish you the best in life. Lots of love💟

What an awesome guy! Now there's a guy with the kind of character that I would marry in a heart beat. I love people that are honest and have guts. Hugs and kisses to Josh.

Hi Joshua, I appreciate your truth behind your post. Continue to motivate others to get checked for HIV and recognize that challenges from life changes may occur but don't let it impact your way of life. Great job!

you are a brave man for Sharing your story not too many people would. I thought for almost a year after having unprotected sex with a woman I met that I might have contracted the virus, but just the thought of getting tested and getting a positive result really really scared me but I finally got a blood test and It came back negative and i am so thankful to god and have vowed to never put my in unnecessary risk again. thanks again and best of luck to you sir.

Best wishes Josh and hope that you are doing well.

Hi I just subscribed to your youtube channel please keep us an update of your health. You gave inspiration to all regardless if someone is positive or not.

Wow blessings to you young man . I had septic shock when i was 4 . The doctor said I wouldn’t see the next day . But , here i am 14 years later . GOD IS GOOD 🙏🏽♥️

I’m sorry:( that’s extremely tough of you for sharing your story

Stay strong Josh! God bless you

May God bless u and continue to give u strength and courage to move on

You're a great guy keep that confidence ...God bless and good luck to you

have a blessed life..dude..this video was very ionformative

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

Thanks for viewing my video Manoj, hope you have a great rest of the week

Hey! Handsome 😍❤️ nice bumping into your blog , your looking cute .

hi Josh,thank u for sharing. my hubby and I get tested 2x a year.its done out of love and respect for both of us.we gone through alot for 15 yrs of marriage.i think u r very strong and u got good family.

thank you for this helpful documentary. i was wondering if you can also share stories about the symptoms you have gone through and how often they occur? god bless you.

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Anak Dukha I had swollen lymph nodes when initially diagnosed however after starting treatment those went away. As far as side effects with Atripla I had constant nausea, a buzzing in head, drunk like feeling all the time, grogginess, and just overall bad feeling. When I switched to Complera I found much relief but I still deal with chronic fatigue and slight rapid weight gain. In terms of the HIV itself I am completely healthy, numbers good, haven't had too many side effects from the virus itself. Most don't have side effects until it progresses to AIDS stage which luckily now days with effectiveness of treatment, doesn't ever have to happen. Big hugs hope you are having good start to the year

@TheSanuttan

4 жыл бұрын

@@PozitiveHope bro..how are you now.hope you are fine

Such a nice vudeo Thank you for sharing Stay strong...pls was your leg issue related to the HIV? What happened to your leg

Thank you for sharing and wishing u the best god bless you Joshua

Great testimony!!!! God bless and keep you!!!

I like what you had to say. I'm positive also. I'm doing well. thank you for your story.

@romannavarro1178

2 жыл бұрын

How did u get it

@kevindodgersguerra2927

Жыл бұрын

@@romannavarro1178 doesn't matter

This was great. Thank You

@PozitiveHope

9 жыл бұрын

Killda Lamb Your welcome Killda and I am glad you enjoyed it. We are all brothers and sisters in this fight together

May God bless this man

I'm sorry it took so long for me to get back to you. I had to get a new computer thank you for educating people on HIV, but I have to ask you a question. can a person with HIV when they die. their bodies are still warm. rigor Morris kicks n that's when our bodies turn cold. this is for nurses and healthcare workers. thank you

You're an inspiration

What l like about this guy is that he is not sugar coating anything

Dam man I know it's hard I hope u keep doing this I feel u

I just came across your video, the part of your video when your at your doctor appointment. I was sitting at the edge of my chair hoping for a negative result but moment when you said your doctor told you that you're HIV positive. I started crying and I just wanted to comfort you from that point forward. No one deserves a positive and I wouldn't wish this horrible disease on my worst enemy. Take care and thank you for sharing your story

You never told us if you infected your ex girlfriend or not? Did her results came out positive?

do you have any symptom before you take a blood test?

Stay strong man you're gonna live the whole life medicine and treatment are there and people die heart diseases, cancer , accidents so don't worry and take your medicines on time

You are awesome, God bless you always.

U seem like a nice guy , nice video you are very strong , respect .

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Mister Corleone Thanks Mister. I figure that instead of living a bitter rest of my life I can make something of my situation and use it as a tool to grow myself as well as help others along the way. Enjoy your weekend :)

@stevenabbott7926

8 жыл бұрын

+PozitiveHope exactly! That's the spirit :) thank you for sharing this video very brave of you , you to josh enjoy your weekend and take care of yourself .

I appreciate your positive approach towards your condition... I admire you for the great strength you have.. God bless you....Bro,if you don't mind can I ask your x gf status?Hope you don mind it...

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+syed adil Karim Thanks for watching Syed. My ex girlfriend is negative to my current knowledge however I can not be sure if she is simply hiding her status or is really negative. I've moved on past the point of knowing who and have focused more on what I can do now that I am in the position I am in. Advocacy is a major part of my life now. Have a great week !

You should love yourself, I know how you feel really, stay healthy and learn more.

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

Hello thanks for watching and I do love myself very much :) HIV has been a journey of learning however it's been a blessing in disguise as well. It's all in the attitude put into it. Have a blessed holiday season

Please update soon. I want to know more, thanks

You have life to live just like everyone keep the faith ....

*Interesting, Not a lot of straight guys come on youtube and talk about how they got the disease*

@Mr.Majestic77

4 жыл бұрын

Mendy Peters I seen a blog on the internet witch this guy set the record straight and stated that he is actually bi-sexual.

@TheIllegalalienfool

4 жыл бұрын

@@Mr.Majestic77 Oh really ok

@calvinklein6903

4 жыл бұрын

@@Mr.Majestic77 I got you bro. Here's the link you were talking about: hiveonline.org/bisexuality/

@TheIllegalalienfool

4 жыл бұрын

@Kimberly Marshall He is bisexual Not straight

@superiorts7232

4 жыл бұрын

@@TheIllegalalienfool yeah and his dAmn sexual preference and behavior was actually extremely unfair to the women he put at risk.

Thank you so much for sharing. You have my nephew's name.

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Jessecraft1954 :D Thanks for watching :)

Did you have unprotected bedroom fun in the Brothels too?

Damn

you mention in a comment you had swollen lymph nodes where exactly where they located?

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Mayte Garcia Thanks for watching Mayte and I hope all is well. My swollen lymph nodes were in back of neck

Did you get any symptom after those unprotected sex? like fever, flu, sore throat..etc ? And it has been years now, do you realize any change? any symptom? From your facebook, I've seen you gain some weight

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Ffws Sdd Hey thanks for watching. The only symptom I got when initially diagnosed was some swollen lymph nodes but that went down after starting treatment. I actually used to be much skinnier however have had some rapid weight gain due to switch of medication. I made this video when I was on Atripla and had the opposite effect with a lot of lost weight, now I am in a different position with the weight gain. The meds react differently with everyone but overall I have been very fortunate with Complera and have not experienced too many side effects. I'd much rather deal with rapid weight gain than the side effects I was going through with Atripla when I made this video :/ . Hope you are having a great day friend, take care :)

Is it true people with hiv will never find true love and single forever?

Salute you bro wish you the best

I'm very proud of you

In a 2017 article you said that you broke up with your gf, and spent the next 5 months having sex with men and women to stop you feeling bad, and it was after this you received your HIV status. I think this video is a little misleading, that you came out as Bi Sexual in an article in 2017. Why have you not updated this video?

@romannavarro1178

2 жыл бұрын

He was bi sexual?

@zigggystardustt

2 жыл бұрын

@@romannavarro1178 he's bisexual I just read the article he's speaking of about in this comment.

How the hell could they just not call you with your positive results??? That is so dangerous and irresponsible of them, you could have infected someone else in the meantime

@joshuamiddleton5973

9 жыл бұрын

holly They legally cannot give someone a positive HIV result over the phone, it has to be done in person. My doctor had just received paperwork informing of diagnosis and instead of having to call me in for a separate appointment he saw I was already going to be seeing my specialist within a day or so and left it to him to tell me. I would have preferred to have been prepared going in with the mindset of getting HIV results and not caught off guard but I can't turn back the hands of time. Regardless the important part is I knew my status very early on compared to many other cases and was able to take the proper steps to grieve, start treatment, and push forward. Thanks for writing and hope you are having a great week :)

@VictrolaJazz

9 жыл бұрын

+Hollyxo A friend worked 13 years for UT/SW Medical School in Dallas in a part that did tests for high risk people, first for gay men only, then for anyone. The test was free, but it took a week for the results to come back. Counseling sessions were generally 15 minutes and a negative was over and done with quickly. However, positive results were scheduled for the end of the day because they never knew how the patient would react and had to leave the session open-ended. As this person described, they inevitably broke down and cried, sometimes for two hours before they could regain their composure and be sent on their way. One day a session was in progress and they heard a commotion outside--it was the recipient of a positive result going bonkers, storming up and down the hall, screaming obscenities. One time my friend accidentally stuck himself with a needle after a test--the only time because he was ultra cautious, but he was having trouble finding a vein in the arm of an obese woman--he had to be tested but came back negative as was she. He finally had enough and resigned and went to work in Parkland Hospital's childrens' asthma section.

You are AMAZING!!!!!

Are you still in San Diego?

Why isnt he posting more videos

Hi i just learned i have hiv+ im on meds how are you doing now two years after this video?

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Brian Clark Hey Brian thanks for watching. I am doing well at the moment and am happy with my life. I've become more involved in advocacy and regularly blog for a couple of HIV websites. I'm also diving more into blogging and making videos so stay tuned. But health wise I am alright, I've had my ups and downs. Since being diagnosed I've survived a blood clot and some more flare ups in my leg. Other than that things are going well, I thank God for every day I have on earth. I'm still on meds but now I take complera and am working on getting my private pilots license at the moment :). The sky is truly the limit with HIV, anything is possible.

@cbrian555

8 жыл бұрын

Thanks for that i needed some encouragement im just coming to trems with it so i just want to stay in a positive attitude and have a better out look on life

@sosweet12345678

7 жыл бұрын

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@janeemartin7561

5 жыл бұрын

What are the side effects of the medications?

@user-zy9yg2eu5t

4 жыл бұрын

@@janeemartin7561 less chance of getting AIDS is the main side effect....

Be strong.. ❤❤❤❤❤❤

LOVE U!!! 😇😘😍

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Ken Butler Thank you Ken :)

You're beautiful and blessed💙 What happened to your ex? Did she test positive too?

@MannyReport

5 жыл бұрын

Am assuming she did.. Since he didn't talk about it anymore

How does getting tested help you not get HIV. I don't get it. Best thing to do is be abstinent. Better to be abstinent and not have HIV than to sleep around and risk getting HIV and other stds. Nobody says you should have sex.

Hello mate, thank you for your story, Did your spanish ex girl friend come out negative?

@PozitiveHope

9 жыл бұрын

WASHNEW I have been away from this channel for awhile but will soon start uploading videos again soon. My ex girlfriend and I have not been in contact therefore I am not 100 % sure if she came out negative or not however from what some in her family have told me, she did. She comes from a very traditional family though therefore even if she did come out positive I don't think she would have disclosed it to anyone. I hope she did and I wish her the best

@ffwssdd9745

8 жыл бұрын

+PozitiveHope If she is from a very traditional family, she will not cheat on you twice.

@continueprisoner

7 жыл бұрын

Ffws Sdd quite the opposite actually

What I don’t understand is why people use sex as a weapon or get back from a breakup? Sex isn’t that important..love yourself bc love from random people don’t exist and finding meaningful relationships tend to be fleeting

how long does it take for an hiv test result to come out? why didnt your doctor or clinic contact you straight away, they only told you a week later and only if you hadnt gone back! thats strange they should have called you.

@moneyguyfly6583

8 жыл бұрын

I know right?

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Evanthia Collins Great question, thanks for watching. Their are rapid tests that you can get the results within 20 minutes however a standard blood test sent to a lab can take a couple days to come back. They can't legally tell you a positive diagnosis over the phone therefore they have to set up an appointment and most likely since my primary care saw I was already scheduled to go in for appointment with my specialist (who would happen to be the perfect referral for my HIV diagnosis) then I think he thought it would be appropriate to be wait a couple extra days.

@Mr.Majestic77

5 жыл бұрын

PozitiveHope Being infected from an HIV positive female to HIV negative male is medium to low risk. While a female to male is possible it is harder to contract the virilus. As of 2018, a 4th Generation HIV 1 & 2 duo/combo Anitibidy test (has a 95% accuracy in 30 days after possible exposure) along with a HIV 1 RNA QL TMA (99% accuracy after 30 days). Both test will be a blood draw taken to a laboratory for processing (not a rapid test). The 4th generation HIV 1/2 Antibody is far better than the 3rd generation. Along with the 4th generation an HIV1 RNA QL TMA (early detection test) will be given just to be conclusive. The HIV1 RNA looks for the actual HIV DNA in your system and has pretty much replaced the Western Blot.

@SALONSOCIALMAROMAS

5 жыл бұрын

@@Mr.Majestic77 hiv positive women have irregular bleeding during periods also viral load increases with time, condoms are the best option.

Out of all the searching I've done you are the only guy that I've seen that is straight with hiv like myself, I contracted it and gonerhea at the same time in 2019.... wow are misfortune is astronomical

@Pravinphadnis0

5 ай бұрын

how did you contract HIV??

@natemoody2587

5 ай бұрын

Vaginal sex with a female

thank you

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+marcus8902 Thank you for watching

Thank you.

Hi. Are you still here?

God bless you ❤️

Kano there are no specific symptoms for hiv. Two weeks is not enough time to show up positive. You need to get tested 3 months after incident and then 6 months after it to confirm2. It takes time for the body to build antibodies in the system against hiv which is what the tests check for. If both of those are negative than your fine, if positive result they do a western blot just to confirm which checks for hiv proteins and after that one comes back only then is a diagnosis confirmed. It's going to take more time so in another 10 weeks get tested again. 97% of people will show up positive in this time, in the event you are one of the few 3 % just to be on the safe side go again after 6 months ok. Use protection , this virus is possible to live with but not something I want anyone else to have to go through. Much Love from Southern cali

@Mr.Majestic77

5 жыл бұрын

As of 2018, a 4th Generation HIV 1 & 2 duo/combo Anitibidy test (has a 95% accuracy in 30 days after possible exposure and 99.7% accurate after 90 days) along with a HIV 1 RNA QL TMA (99.7% accuracy after 30 days). Both test will be a blood draw taken to a laboratory for processing (not a rapid test). The 4th generation HIV 1 & 2 Antibody test is far better than the previous HIV 3rd generation test, which required retesting at 90 days. The 4th generation duo HIV 1 & 2 Antibody test along with an HIV 1 RNA QL TMA (early detection test) will be given to be conclusive that you are HIV negative. The HIV 1 RNA looks for the actual HIV DNA in your system and has pretty much replaced the Western Blot.

@Mr.Majestic77

4 жыл бұрын

PozitiveHope just seen this video. The 4th Generation HIV1 & HIV2 combination test is 97.999% accurate at 30 days. Hospitals will also do an HIV1 RNA test. This RNA test is 99.999% accurate after about 10-14 days.

20 days after intercourse and I have dry cough, discomfort when swallowing food, little cold sores on lips every day in different spots, pain in muscles, pimples after shaving even though never had this problem, do I have HIV? I am waiting for day 30 after intercourse to get tested

@le.7644

3 жыл бұрын

Don't wait

@le.7644

3 жыл бұрын

Just go get tested

@learnlaw1363

3 жыл бұрын

@@le.7644 but what about window period?

@romannavarro1178

2 жыл бұрын

@@learnlaw1363 what happened

@zigggystardustt

2 жыл бұрын

Sounds like herpes are you ok?

Your strong. I won’t live with hiv

No offense but why would your ex's aunt shriek at you? She also made the decision to live promiscuous. It's just crazy

@afrochick9142

6 жыл бұрын

I wouldn't say having sex with your boyfriend is promiscuous. He was promiscuous from being in the brothels and seeking female companionship with prostitutes. He brought the virus home to there bed potentially. We don't know if she contracted it.

@lindzexposure9347

6 жыл бұрын

Nichole Sanders he said she cheated on him, first.

People who are worrying that they might have HIV and had never got tested..You guys Need to get tested right away. Thats the only way to get rid of your worries and fear. Me myself I was also terrified that I might have Virus. For almost 7 years I was living in fear that I might have. and then finally after that I forced myself getting tested. Facing my fear. and the result its negative . Jesus christ I was living in fear for fucking 7 years for nothing. So you guys must get tested and dont waste time 😉.and if it happen to be youre positve .. be glad you got tested so you could take the medication right away.

@danmark24

2 ай бұрын

@@Lee-1 I get tested every 4-6 months and still negative, coz I always use condom

Bless you

God bless

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+Marcel Thank You :) God bless you as well

Cool guy

@PozitiveHope

8 жыл бұрын

+vincentfigueroa19 Nothing cool about having HIV however by sharing my story and putting a face to this virus it hopefully will make a difference in someone's life. Hope you are having a great day :) Take care

Are you Canadian? You don't seem American.

#courage

God bless u

Good sleep should be there with medication no matter what....good good sleep in night tats it....nothing much than that for one hiv patient..really....

Rip 🙏

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Doctor adule you are a life saver on KZread. thank you for saving me and my husband ❤️ totally and permanently from HIV virus

Ninties or longer for YOU!!!

I appreciate the story of this video and I gave it a like. But I have to say that it is actually quite idiotic of people to have their HIV tested multiple times after having multiple unprotected sexual activities! I have read quite a few stories of HIV Positive patients that have had themselves tested multiple times most of the times they came out negative until finally one day they get a positive result. This in my mind is absolutely pathetic! It demonstrates that these people have not learnt from any of their mistakes and persisted to continue with their old risky habits. Why not bloody take your lessons and stop all together? Like many HIV+ people say that it's not worth risking your life for a 15 minute excitement and then have yourself fighting your entire life with HIV medications just to suppress it, along with all the stigma and social discrimination that comes with it! It baffles me to read these stories where people say they have had unprotected sex and then go for a check-up in their hope that they'll luckily turn out to be negative each time. What's the point of that? You're not learning from your mistakes. The damage will have already been done by the time you know it and there is no rewind button to your life. Better stay safe than feel sorry for the rest of your entire life!

He went to Mexico to find someone to understand what he is going through..... Sure

@TheIllegalalienfool

5 жыл бұрын

And ? What is your point ?

Check out Branden Mikal Dudek's channel my son made videos when he was going through what you're going through he is also a lung cancer survivor wish you the best I hope you are healthy peace love and happiness to you always you have alert lot of courage making these videos you will help a lot of people God bless you keep up the good work your video made me cry

🥰😙😙😙🥰🥰

This was your fault for having unprotected sex. How many times do sex educators need to tell people such a simple concept? Guess people do learn best the hard way. Oh to God people, you realize its a sin to have sex unmarried?

@kyoki86

4 жыл бұрын

Yea with men he is bi sexual he left that part out

@joshua50101

4 жыл бұрын

@@kyoki86 he never mentions it, you are, making it up

@kyoki86

4 жыл бұрын

@@joshua50101 there is a web blog with him coming to grips with being gay someone on this post pointed it out and sure enough it is him. So no he got hiv from being bi sexual and reckless. I dunno why gay ppl try so hard to make it seem str8 ppl are getting it just as much as them through regular sex it's not happening.

@joshua50101

4 жыл бұрын

@@kyoki86 you can get hiv through heterosexual sex as well. It depends mainly on the kind of practice (oral, vaginal or anal) and viral load. I bet you wouldn't have sex with a hiv + girl if you knew in advance she got a skyrocketted viral load? You wouldn't even dare have a 5 minutes quicky not even with a condom on a. Convince me otherwise. 🤣

@kyoki86

4 жыл бұрын

@@joshua50101 doesn't matter the chance of getting hiv from a woman via vaginal sex is so low it's not even worth fearing something like 1 and 3 thousand chance. So I'm gonna wear protection regardless but if I didn't care and I did it's still highly unlikely I get hiv even if I had sex with her a 100 times in 1 day unprotected so I need not worry. But you gay ppl have lots to worry about as you are the main ones catching it via sex. You guys are more at risk high risk in fact just look up hiv stories on KZread 99% of them are gay or bi ppl that tells you a lot.

HIV is no longer a death sentence anymore!..the hardest part of this virus is the stigma 😣