Hugo's Depersonalization Recovery Story (after FOUR bouts!)

04:38 DPDR at 14
06:07 Psychiatrist: "This is Depersonalization"
08:37 2nd Bout of DPDR
09:44 3rd Bout of DPDR (Triggered by Weed)
15:30 4th Bout of DPDR
21:54 Using The DP Manual
23:45 "It's in the downs that the good things happen"
32:15 Hope is a big issue
34:32 Existential Thoughts
40:17 "Seeing people as robots"
41:50 "Does a cat feel like a human feels?"
44:30 Hugo's Lowest point in DPDR
46:23 Feeling exhausted all the time
50:23 How did DPDR recovery start?
56:50 The DP Manual
58:42 "You can't get back to Square One!"
1:00:10 Can you REALLY get back to normal?
1:07:23 Advice for DPDR Sufferers
Hugo's band 'Too Many Suns':
Spotify: shorturl.at/cfrQZ
Insta: / too.many.suns
Bandcamp: toomanysuns.bandcamp.com/
Hugo is 33 years old. Over the last 20 years he struggled through 4 separate episodes of Depersonalization. Fortunately, Hugo has since made a complete recovery. And he's with us today to talk about his experience with and recovery from DPDR.
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Disclaimer: Please note that the medical information contained within this video is not intended as a substitute for consultation with a professional physician and is not a recommendation of specific therapies.

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  • @Dpmanual
    @Dpmanual5 ай бұрын

    ⚡ Start YOUR 💯 recovery from DPDR today! 👉🏼 www.dpmanual.com/purchase/

  • @rubes0nroids153

    @rubes0nroids153

    5 ай бұрын

    I have bought your DP Manuel today, and I felt so much relief and strength that I am going to overcome this. I have a question about one of your statements of not to do research and look at forum for short term comfort. Am I supposed to feel that way about program to recovery. Thanks for your help

  • @user-rt6dq1bg8l
    @user-rt6dq1bg8l5 ай бұрын

    Listen everybody I am a 11 year old boy I suffered for chronic DPDR for months and months I was so stress that I didn’t even feel like my self all you guys need to do is prayer and prayer This stress will make you feel weird or not really their you need to prayer and prayer ask god for help ask him to be healed you guys have not overcome this because you have not asked asked god and believe in him You have not got because you have not asked this will go away it’s temporary I believe in you keep pushing and have a good mindset it will take time but you will get over it amen

  • @titanoboa333
    @titanoboa3335 ай бұрын

    hands down one of the best guests you had until now

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Glad you enjoyed the interview! 😊

  • @user-im9xh1em1k
    @user-im9xh1em1k2 ай бұрын

    Great video!

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    2 ай бұрын

    Glad you enjoyed it! 😊👍

  • @jayb9717
    @jayb97173 ай бұрын

    I want to say thank you to Hugo for sharing his story, as I could relate heavily to his experiences. The endless thinking about consciousness and thoughts, pondering how strange it is to have thoughts, examining thought processes constantly, being afraid of the sky and the human appearance, the high anxiety, the ups and downs...It made me feel less alone in this. Dp really make you feel like your perception of yourself and/or the environment is altered forever and it's nice to hear about people who got over all this.

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    3 ай бұрын

    Thanks for your comment and I'm delighted that you found the video so helpful 😊

  • @PurpleGlobe
    @PurpleGlobe5 ай бұрын

    THis one is great. Very relatable. I'm in my third 'bout' right now... but maybe starting to come out of it

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    So glad you enjoyed it! 😊

  • @toomanysuns6613

    @toomanysuns6613

    5 ай бұрын

    great

  • @georgelee95
    @georgelee955 ай бұрын

    Spot on this one, Shaun! Our zoom call a month or so ago really reassured me with the existential thoughts. I still play it most days, and this has helped too! That is assuming you and Hugo aren’t in-fact figments of my imagination though 😅 All the best mate and hope to do one of these in a wee while if I recover fully!

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Thanks George, delighted to hear you're doing so well, and definitely, would love to feature your story on the channel when you've fully recovered! 😊

  • @gabrielsantuche8183

    @gabrielsantuche8183

    4 ай бұрын

    Não. Não somos fruto de sua imaginação. Somos reais por incrível que pareça 😂

  • @georgebuckley8564
    @georgebuckley85645 ай бұрын

    Hey Shaun, I purchased your manual mid lockdown in 2020, and it saved me from spiralling many times which I am ever so grateful for! It’s weird, to this day, none of the symptoms affect me anymore however, there is one thing which scares me when my anxiety is high and that is the hyper sensitivity & focus on being able to move my body, and if one day I will lose this ability. I believe this can be common, but I can’t shake it!

  • @georgelee95

    @georgelee95

    5 ай бұрын

    Been having similar thoughts recently mate. You certainly won’t be able to lose the ability to move through worry. I’ve been freaking out how strange it is that we’re able see/speak/think, and that I may also lose the ability to do these things. It’s ultimately just high anxiety like you say; our nervous system perceiving totally normal things as a threat.

  • @marissadepaulo2032

    @marissadepaulo2032

    3 ай бұрын

    i’m hyper fixated on moving my body as well… if you have any tips for me i’d be so great full

  • @carolinamuller1822
    @carolinamuller18225 ай бұрын

    The fact that I spent lots of minutes thinking about how attractive hugo is makes me think that I'm actually really, really better hahah it gets better guys ❤

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    I'm sure Hugo will be delighted to hear that! 😊❤

  • @toomanysuns6613

    @toomanysuns6613

    5 ай бұрын

    @@Dpmanual not my gf though

  • @carolinamuller1822

    @carolinamuller1822

    5 ай бұрын

    @@toomanysuns6613 hahahah Sorry hugo's gf!!!

  • @mars__4
    @mars__45 ай бұрын

    I have dpdr for about a year now , I don't care about dpdr anymore. I just go on with my life. I feel I will recover in a few years.. I still panic sometimes. But I've learned to live with it.

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Don't worry, it doesn't matter what caused it, how long it’s lasted, or whether it’s been 24/7 or episodic, you can always switch DPDR off completely by stopping the anxiety that's causing it 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/how-long-does-depersonalization-last/

  • @rubes0nroids153
    @rubes0nroids1535 ай бұрын

    I have bought your DP Manuel today, and I felt so much relief and strength that I am going to overcome this. I have a question about one of your statements of not to do research and look at forum for short term comfort. Am I supposed to feel that way about your program to recovery. Thanks for your help

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    I answer this in the 3rd video that came with your download, ‘What To Expect During Recovery’, at about the 5.00 mark 😊

  • @thebigboy621
    @thebigboy6215 ай бұрын

    É bom saber que não estamos sozinhos também sou português e tenho problemas com ansiedade e dpr

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Very glad it was helpful 😊

  • @vvesrodrigues

    @vvesrodrigues

    5 ай бұрын

    também vivo com isso ,tamo junto 😂

  • @carolinamuller1822

    @carolinamuller1822

    5 ай бұрын

    Brasileira aqui, tmjjjj já deu tudo certo

  • @toomanysuns6613

    @toomanysuns6613

    5 ай бұрын

    força

  • @thebigboy621

    @thebigboy621

    5 ай бұрын

    Obrigado a todos e ao too many suns que já vou seguir no instagram

  • @Bosanska19Ljepotica
    @Bosanska19Ljepotica5 ай бұрын

    It would be nice if you made a video with an overview of what healing can look like Maybe something visualized to understand it better Should we watch recovery videos in healing process or not?

  • @georgelee95

    @georgelee95

    5 ай бұрын

    I think Shaun may have already done a video covering what you can expect in recovery, but truthfully the goal is to get to a place where you don’t care about a timeline, as you’re not giving DP the attention it’s craving. I know this sounds backwards but trust me, true recovery happens when you’re not counting the days or weeks and purely tolerating the symptoms. I’d say recovery stories on this channel are really useful imo whilst healing. Just stay off the forums, completely.

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    In terms of an overview of what healing can look like, read this, I think you'll find it helpful: www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/ 😊 And in terms of watching the recovery videos, I think it depends on where you are in your recovery process. If you're just finding out what DPDR is, they can be a great explainer and reminder that you can and will recover. If you're closer towards recovery and have understood and internalized what the condition is (and that you don't need to be afraid of it!), you could probably refer to them less and less. In general what I'd suggest is that you can use them as positive reinforcement, but you should be aiming to use them less and less in time (I explain this process at length in The DP Manual). And what you always want to avoid is going down KZread / Google research rabbitholes. Hope that helps! 😊

  • @user-cm1qb6ed9u
    @user-cm1qb6ed9u4 ай бұрын

    I am afraid of being alone and me creating everyone in my own mind and im alone scares the shit out of me

  • @op2053
    @op20535 ай бұрын

    Hey Shaun I hope ur doing well. Just bought ur book. I wanted to tell you about my experience on how I got it the first time and what about it made it cure itself and I'd apply it again as Ive been having it for almost I year now. Please help me understand how it went away the first time. Here is my story I'll condense it as much as possible First time I got it was back in 2022 Oct. There was world cup volunteer going on and I had to prepare for it and didn't have time to look into this condition. The volunteer work started mid Nov and I remember I still had depersonalization the training day before the volunteer work day started. How I know that? Because I was the only one there who kept asking the same question 50+ times and couldn't at all process the info while everyone else understood it right from the start. I am the type to understand things fairly quickly but I couldn't. My Job was only for 15 days which consisted of me: - Standing 10 hrs outside helping people from time to time with ticket issues - Guiding them to their entrances And once the volunteer was over I went on with my life Symptom free. How was it possible?

  • @freeviebee

    @freeviebee

    4 ай бұрын

    I guess you got well distracted 😊 this stops the loop of constant fear and checking in with yourself because you are distracted with questions and todos and bam 💥 DPDR gone?! 😊

  • @radoi4o94
    @radoi4o945 ай бұрын

    I suffer from this hell for one year and your videos help me to not go insane at all....this is the most terrible thing i have expirienced in mi life because i think i have schizofrrnia but nobody doctor agreed with it ...they told me is only anxiety... but i fell like dream,i forget things i think i will crahs my car i will start to scream at people ...but nothing happens...this is awfulll...please help me..... a dont know what to do ...i know this think is here to protext my soul and its conplete natural respod to stress but i cant work i cant train i cant do anaything because i am total not adecvate

  • @Halloffamemagic

    @Halloffamemagic

    5 ай бұрын

    You will be fine it will fade

  • @georgelee95

    @georgelee95

    5 ай бұрын

    It’s not going to happen overnight, and you might wrestle with it for a bit longer, but there comes a time where you realise you CAN’T think your way out of this. It’s impossible. You WILL get out of this but you have to start proving this to your mind, and that means getting back to training/work/things you used to enjoy. It will feel so uncomfortable at first, but I promise you, this is the only way out. You have to physically prove to your brain there’s no threat through exposure and distraction. We’ve all been through it or are going through it and we will come out of the other side. I promise you, it’s high anxiety/stress response. There’s a rational explanation for every single thing you’ve mentioned in your comment. The memory, dream-state, feeling like you’ll crash your car. I’ve been there, we all have. You’re fine and I promise you’ll come back to this comment one day and wonder what was I even worrying about.

  • @Halloffamemagic

    @Halloffamemagic

    5 ай бұрын

    @@georgelee95 can’t agree more, I’m at the 90% recovery phase and I can tell as from someone who’s going though it, it gets better you need to be PATIENT with your mind and body ignore all the comments of people that have had it for years that’s NOT YOU!!

  • @georgelee95

    @georgelee95

    5 ай бұрын

    @@Halloffamemagic Great stuff man. Well done, that’s brilliant. The people who’ve had it for years are either unaware of what they have or not fully understood recovery yet. There’s no magic pill. It’s a habitual self-checking obsession. No pill can cure it. There’s also a sense with some of wallowing in their pity, especially on the forums. I think having a glass-half full mindset in life is so important, but in terms of DP, it’s absolutely crucial. DP can dictate your life, but only if you let it. Keep smashing it pal.

  • @Hailey-um3eb
    @Hailey-um3eb4 ай бұрын

    Hi Shaun, is it common with DPDR that suddenly your first person POV seems unnatural? And almost being able to just see feels like a weird sensation?

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    4 ай бұрын

    Don’t worry Hailey, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

  • @monishekar2906
    @monishekar29065 ай бұрын

    Hi first a fall thankyou for the vedio it helped alot .....i had dpdr in 2020 that time i was like ... can't even name it ....i was like what the hell was this ....such a dark days .then .somehow i came across this channel ...helped me alot to understand this is wat this is .and all ...and .. gradually as like mention in the vecio it went ...even now if i think about the thoughts that came into my mind in that time it gives me a big laugh ...but right now iam in a stage where my mornings are starting with rechecking with the reality ...i even forget the symptoms of dpdr ...just wanna check whether it is dpdr or ocd (because i have one ) just the rechecking ...if i do the rechecking it is all feeling connected as like before but still ...im doing it back then it was i can't able to do anything at all that was very dark .....but right now im sure im not in that place ...but for the past ten days it feels like not being normal , constant rechecking getting panic like "those days are back " or like "it never went you were just busy thats y you didn't notice it ,it will never go "and all its giving me anxiety ...kinda confused is this is dpdr r ocd ...or just anxiety .... because the symptoms are not like that time ...i can walk ,talk, eat really well connected to the shows which i watch everyday but along with this thoughts of "not normal "one day is good next day is bad that constant continuous obsessed rechecking it feels like i got this one day the next its giving me panic dono its just a thought or am really feeling it ..confused ...this page give me relief before ...hoping it will give it again .

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Hi there, remember that constant checking is a common symptom with DPDR and all anxiety-based conditions. I know it can be frustrating but it will fade away and stop as your recovery continues: www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

  • @monishekar2906

    @monishekar2906

    5 ай бұрын

    Thankyou ✳️

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    @@monishekar2906 Happy to help 😊

  • @user-rk2zq2me7h
    @user-rk2zq2me7h5 ай бұрын

    Good evening Shaun…is it normal that OCD thoughts at some day can be more frightening and exhausting and at some days you care less about them?

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Hi, thanks for your comment 😊 Remember that ultimately, DPDR / OCD thoughts etc are just symptoms of anxiety so when the symptoms vary, it's just your anxiety levels going up and down, and certain situations / environments can change them. I know it might seem difficult to believe but you actually have complete control over it 😊 Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website, starting with this one: www.dpmanual.com/about/depersonalization-definition-what-is-it/

  • @BenedettaCarrieri-ml1ti
    @BenedettaCarrieri-ml1ti5 ай бұрын

    Ciao. Se ci fossero sottotitoli in italiano sarebbe fantastico. Grazie

  • @simseven4967

    @simseven4967

    5 ай бұрын

    Ciao Benedetta, penso che si puo cambiare su youtube opzioni di traduzione

  • @spadethebarber8696
    @spadethebarber86965 ай бұрын

    What's the last symptom of dpdr to go away? I feel like I’m so close to recovery but this staring through the eyes feeling never leaves.

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    There's no specific order to the reduction / stopping of symptoms, but don't worry, they will all fade away and stop as your recovery continues 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/what-does-depersonalization-recovery-feel-like/

  • @tlee62
    @tlee623 ай бұрын

    Coming up on 4 years with this bout , I feel I just get on with my life, been overseas twice and run our own business, BUT I do check up to see if its still around…quite often’ -is that whats keeping it here?

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    3 ай бұрын

    Yes, obsessive checking is what ultimately fuels DPDR, and all anxiety-based conditions. Head over to my website at www.dpmanual.com, there’s tons of info and tips on DPDR recovery there 😊And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR.

  • @tlee62

    @tlee62

    3 ай бұрын

    @@Dpmanual thanks for that reply Shaun. I think I’ll get thru this without a medical pro, thanks again

  • @sharkishablackson7512
    @sharkishablackson75125 ай бұрын

    I’ve watched you since 3 years, today marks the day I’m actually done. I’m trying to relief myself and make my parents believe that I have this but they just can’t listen. They’re closed minded and aren’t understanding me when I say that I need to talk to a therapist and I can’t do it anymore. I’m just so ready to die, I’ve looked on the brighter side and everytime I think it’s getting better it gets worse when I express myself to them. That’s why I stay quit.

  • @levischmitt4698

    @levischmitt4698

    5 ай бұрын

    You cannot be done but it's not time to be done. You've got this even though it's extremely hard. I know exactly how you feel. Please keep pushing forward you don't need anyone to believe that you have this. You can overcome this you are fearfully and wonderfully made

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Hi there -- Firstly, if you are experiencing any thoughts of self-harm, please do speak to a medical professional as soon as possible. Secondly, please make sure that you’re speaking to your parents about what’s happening. It’s very important that they know what’s going on. I know DPDR can be frightening but remember that it's just your body and brain's natural response to stress and anxiety. It's not permanent and it can't hurt you. You can and will recover. Make sure to read through all the info and articles on my website at www.dpmanual.com And if you would like to speak to a medical professional please don't hesitate to do so. I would recommend finding an anxiety specialist if possible as they will likely be more familiar with DPDR. For qualified therapists who specialize in DPDR you could speak to: Paul Molyneux -- thedpguidancecentre.co.uk/ Emma at the Life Clinic: www.thelifeclinic.info/

  • @Veritas.0004

    @Veritas.0004

    5 ай бұрын

    Hey I'm here to talk. Feel free to put your social media and I'll reach out.

  • @nvb455
    @nvb4555 ай бұрын

    Another case of derealisation. Can we please have someone who has more of the cognitive issues? I love recovery stories but they are all the same type symptoms…existential thoughts, nothing feels real, anxiety… cab you pls upload something for us people who have the dp side of dpdr?!

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Read this, I think you'll find it helpful 😊 www.dpmanual.com/articles/depersonalization-and-derealization-whats-the-difference/ And watch this too: kzread.info/dash/bejne/g61npqN_dKW_Y5M.html

  • @toomanysuns6613

    @toomanysuns6613

    5 ай бұрын

    I didn't have almost any derealization...

  • @joemac1671
    @joemac16715 ай бұрын

    Are there any people on the channel that dealth with severe emotional numbness? This is my most frustrating symptom

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

  • @xKizuke
    @xKizuke5 ай бұрын

    Hello Shaun why has no one ever mentioned interrupting your inner monologue and a blank mind?

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    People mention that all the time 😊 Read this carefully: www.dpmanual.com/articles/the-truth-about-blank-mind-syndrome/

  • @xKizuke

    @xKizuke

    5 ай бұрын

    @@Dpmanual I bought your Dp manual are you planning to make a video about that or something like that in future?

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    @@xKizuke I already did 😊 kzread.info/dash/bejne/mmupl5uNm7S6qLw.html

  • @ca7582

    @ca7582

    5 ай бұрын

    ​@@DpmanualNO WAAAAAY!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU SO MUCH 😢😢😢 It was a new experience for me, the other night. I was recovering, everything was going well and suddenly I felt my mind going blank followed by the most acute and intense fear I had ever felt. It was so acute that the pressure in the right side of my chest lasted like half a day. I thought a had experienced a nugget of pure fear, something completely new and uncharted in the seas of anxiety. I felt like that dog in Goya's painting, like the tide of my mind was swallowing myself whole, in a sort of implosion of my consciousness; time itself felt like going backwards. But nah, turned out it's a rather common symptom. BIG PHEW😂😂😂🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 Thank you Shaun, your channel and your interviews are being instrumental in my recovery. Today, in fact, I feel great. ❤ thanks so much. To anyone who is struggling, remember, keep it moving. It is just fear. It is not incurable, you can keep living. Start as soon as possible. It worked for me. Do not feed the fear by feedong the thoughts and/or not doing things. Nothing will happen, in fact the worst that can happen is what's actually happening: staying in fear. Much love to all❤❤

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    @@ca7582 So glad to hear the channel has been helpful ❤ Keep up the good work and enjoy your recovery! 😊

  • @lejlaselmanovic
    @lejlaselmanovic5 ай бұрын

    have you had the feeling that dear people won't recognize you and that you have a question whether they really know me

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    5 ай бұрын

    Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/

  • @burhanosman4655
    @burhanosman46552 ай бұрын

    I’m writing this comment like a dream, can someone helping me 😢

  • @Dpmanual

    @Dpmanual

    2 ай бұрын

    Don’t worry, feelings like that are super common with DPDR. I know they can be frustrating but they will fade away and stop as you recover 😊 www.dpmanual.com/about/do-i-have-depersonalization-disorder/