We also covered a video on SIgns You're Not a Bad Person, It's Your Trauma here: kzread.info/dash/bejne/fmVt1NGgp9XUnZM.html Be sure to watch it if you haven't.

@shadowkingblaze

Жыл бұрын

May ask you something why is life hard and miserable to my life i im in pain, suffered,fear, is this my question and help me achieve my dream and thank you🥺

@hj-zr3gx

Жыл бұрын

can you make a video on how to impress my crush in primary school

@CL0NEM

Жыл бұрын

my man coped too hard and got copium

@aprilraine8889

Жыл бұрын

Would you guys be able to do a video on Pre-Verbal trauma? Or fit it in some place? I watch these videos as they come up to better identify what I am feeling because I don’t really have the words to describe them. My therapist seems to think this is a good idea so I figured Pre-Verbal might be a subject you would be interested in making a video on because it’s hard to acknowledge a trauma that you can’t really describe.

@sid-

Жыл бұрын

Could you please give solutions to 0:52 abuse/exploitation coping mechanism

I just had a "That explains why I have mental health issues" moment

@Human_01

Жыл бұрын

____________ "Evil" is the anthesis to the virtue 'humanity'. ____________ _To intelligent readers (who do 'not’ have a ‘pathological disregard for rationality and reality')..._ I recommend researching 'narcissitic personality disorder' (NPD) / 'cluster-B'; and know that they are the 'root of all evil' (especially 'ESFJ/ESTJ-narcissits'; Myers-Briggs reference, look it up)! European 'ESFJ' are the worst personality type, and they are responsible for inventing 'racism' and colonization! It is in their neuro-psychology!! They are extremely 'manipulative' and often use 'looking pretty' to distract others from the witch's mind-games / mind-rape, e.g. gaslighting, playing the victim or damsel in distress, creating 'flying-monkeys', and paying others to attack (or at times kill) someone for them. When caught, ESFJ will use their minions as scapegoats. European ESFJ are notorious for this especially in a racist context, e.g. Elliott Till. Amber Heard's brain-formation is that of the ESFJ neuro-personality type (but with cluster-B). This is absolute! Due to practice, ESFJ are natural actors and manipulators. They practice in front of a mirror at a young age, usually late at night (akin to "ritual"). When they "socialise", they are screening and recruiting new (disposable) pawns. This makes their manipulative reach far and wide. This is their natural function and life cycle. Cluster-B only worsens ESFJ's manipulative, predatory-psychology. Undesirable neuro-personality types (ESFJ, ESFP/ISFP), and cluster-b often defend them, ignoring logic, truth and reality - these are general symptoms of their disorder/neuro-psychology. ISFP (and ESFP) are the most complicit, narcissitic-enablers. ISFP also tend to be 'oblivious-codependants' (look up the definition). SUMMARY: Evil personality: ESFJ (ALL), ESTJ (cluster-b) [Secretly] Evil and narcissit-friendly gunts/flying-monkey: ISFP (ALL), ESFP (ALL). ☝️ALL of them are secretly emotionally-disturbed and covert-narcissists (unless they've worked on themselves), hence their need to create conflict (and at other people's expense, truly evil). Spread the word! Thank you. ___________ #Save_Soil

@misscornicat

Жыл бұрын

Same bestie :D

@haebi_

Жыл бұрын

@@misscornicat yooooo :DDD

@gada18ani14

Жыл бұрын

Welcome to the team dear (I hope you’ll leave it soon) I had this moment first time I saw a video from this channel, do seek help if you can and don’t be like me

@chira_1824

Жыл бұрын

Exactly the same, well I was quite sure that I had at least one but in the end I found out I almost have all of the ones listed…yay

"Trauma is personal, it does not disappear if it is not validated. When it is ignored or invalidated, the silent screams continue internally, heard only by the one held captive. When someone enters the pain and hears the screams, healing can begin." - Danielle Bernock

@svenskatomat

Жыл бұрын

I hear it, I just refuse to heal.

@yourstrength1314

Жыл бұрын

Damn…

@tumultuousv

Жыл бұрын

@@svenskatomat why.

@svenskatomat

Жыл бұрын

@@tumultuousv Because I am a man.

@6drk6mrc6

Жыл бұрын

@@svenskatomat Is this irony?

I watched this video thinking to myself, "Eh, it's you overreacting again." Then I got to the shame one. I watched it half focusing. Then I suddenly felt something very, very familiar about what was said. The timidness. The self-hatred. The perfectionism. It all came together. Made me realise something.

@Shadowisurdoom

3 ай бұрын

same, sadly

@calicocamaroon

2 ай бұрын

Omg i was going through the exact same emotions haha

@aliifahbianca5504

Ай бұрын

Same here. Being told as a child that you're overacting when you're just being A CHILD is traumatizing. Now I can't really feel too happy and can't express myself very well.

@leonindustries4706

Ай бұрын

Same here

@antmess9789

Ай бұрын

I was given that treatment in the 2nd grade to the degree where I became suicidal. Do not take it lightly. It took my mother and me 15 years to finally undo the damage the evil teacher inflicted on me in 8 months.

Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.

@Jennifer-bw7ku

Жыл бұрын

Psychedelics definitely have potential to deal with mental health issues such as anxiety and depression, I would like to give them a try but haven't found any legit grower to get it.

@Jennifer-bw7ku

Жыл бұрын

@michealharris3221Is he on instagram?

@AnjeloValeriano

Жыл бұрын

The Trips I've been having have really helped me a lot,I finally feel in control of my emotions and my future and things that used to be mundane to me now seem incredible and full of nuance on top of that I'm way less driven by my ego and I have alot more empathy as well

@APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU

Жыл бұрын

Shrooms was the best trip I had. It was an amazing experience.

@pandapuffzee8255

Жыл бұрын

I am so happy for you! I hope the best for you and yours.

clicked on this video a little too fast...

@kookiest544

Жыл бұрын

Righttt 😅

@MisfitMaya

Жыл бұрын

I mean I don’t think I have trauma but still lol😂

@spencer__634

Жыл бұрын

Lmao same

@asiaroderick3006

Жыл бұрын

Same

@rangerbrandon8610

Жыл бұрын

Yea, same

1. Abuse: Mistrust, suspicious. 2. Abandonment: Bad self worth, negative view of others, keep people at emotional distance. 3. Emotional neglect/deprivation: inability to ask for help. 4. Shame: not feeling good enough, timid, overly apologetic, hypersensitive, overachieving, perfectionist, self critical. 5. Dependence/overprotected: underdevelop sense of self, fragile ego, self doubt, hidden insecurities, tend to be victim of emotionally co-dependent relationship. 6. Approval/recognition-seeking: self worth dependent on external, people pleasers, push overs, unsatisfactory of relationships. 7. Emotional Inhibition: suppression, avoidance, denial to deal with problems, emotional outburst, anger management problems, difficulty communicating their feeling. It’s funny I have all of them..

@Wishing_Star777

Жыл бұрын

Me too

@amateruss

Жыл бұрын

Deng, the one who made you should stop making babies.

@GundAme412

Жыл бұрын

I want to like but it's already 69, btw i have them all too ... I just broke up becuz of those reason, im on the way of healing and fixing myself, good point is u already realized your symptoms, so let's change ourself now shall we ?

@Nennai

Жыл бұрын

Insert "I'm in this and I don't like it" meme here... Everything was spot on...

@zandermercury9308

Жыл бұрын

@@amateruss maybe they were an accident too like me :') i was the reason my parents married

This explains me more than my therapist could. I've asked her many times why I do things such as thinking the worst from people, and she didn't know why I did. Watching this video, I now know

@Alexzy39

Ай бұрын

Bruh what kind of therapist is that

@cranberry420

Ай бұрын

@@Alexzy39 Not a very good one-- I'm in the progress of getting a new one

@kenichewa

Ай бұрын

Some therapies are based on providing guidance for you to find the answers and do the changes. Maybe you could talk to her about it

Being cheated on definitely causes mistrust. The damage is so real, especially if it was more than once. I tend to keep everyone at arms length, ever ready for the inevitable knife in my back. That was spot on. Trying really hard to get past this.

Watching this video actually made me realize how much trauma I've gone through. Is it normal to just not realize something that happened to you was actually a bad thing and that's why you're messed up?

@thequeenofsnakes5225

Жыл бұрын

Yuuuuuuup

@spiritwalker6153

Жыл бұрын

You are not alone with the realization that you have suffered a great deal of trauma. I have as well though I might not have admitted it before.

@user-tp8ew1km9u

Жыл бұрын

I realized the same thing. I thought what I went through was normal and not worth talking about, and it turns out it completely traumatized me.

@serialvapist5807

Жыл бұрын

100% I never thought that an experience I went through was really that bad, but I also never tried really talking about. I've been in therapy and looking back on it, it feels like every action of my day was dictated by this thing I had been pushing down. I really just wish it hadn't taken 12 years to finally confront it.

@sluttymctits4496

Жыл бұрын

I tend to think this is a fairly normal reaction. If someone grows up with traumatic surroundings and experiences, to them, it may be normal. They may think everyone else deals with the same things. It's only when you get out in the world that you have the realization "Oh no, that's not normal." What we may see as just another occurrence, others who didn't experience it may see as horrific.

So that's why I always thought that asking for help was a sign of weakness, not for others, but to let anyone but yourself know “I can't do this alone” always felt me being a burden.

@darkstarmoonshadow8892

3 ай бұрын

I too hv a fear of asking my family for help or for anything at all. (My step dad says what do you want me to do about it. 😢)

@CluelessBubbleEater

3 ай бұрын

I feel the same way- and it’s not even as if I have a good reason. Some people are just like that ig

@omgpopitgamer96

2 ай бұрын

@@darkstarmoonshadow8892 how fucking horrible

@omgpopitgamer96

2 ай бұрын

love you

@ambassadorofbadtaste

Ай бұрын

Ironic how I cope with this by watching motivating videos about success being a very lonely road and generally just make myself working alone because if I want to achieve my dreams, I can rely only on myself. Somehow, that worked incredibly well

Emotional deprivation + approval / recognition-seeking were practically on spot for me, and I never realized that those were a thing until now :')

@michael0o0

10 ай бұрын

Same, I was surprised that it was an actual trauma. Good to know am not alone

I didn't think my childhood was traumatic, I thought i was living life to the max But I relate with every single one of these And the worst part is I don't even care anymore. Like I used to get a little sad when I'd watch a video like this and realize the extent of how broken I am.. and it would motivate me to get better, I'd suddenly feel the urge to find help and fix myself But I think that little shred of hope has finally slipped out of my grasp and I've completely given up

@_JVNG_

8 ай бұрын

It's okay!

@benpearson49

Ай бұрын

This is why self-diagnose doesn't work.

@juliaburkholder4213

Ай бұрын

I hope you're doing ok ❤ I know it's tough

@Kabiriii

Ай бұрын

You sound like me. Raised by a narcissist perhaps ?

The emotional inhibition was spot on. I’m 23 and my parents, or at least my mom, are just now realizing that how they raised me may have made me emotionally cold and inexpressive.

@VoiceOfTheEmperor

Жыл бұрын

Turn down the temperature around her. Be even colder to her until she freezes. She sounds like she deserves it.

@pamelapowell4463

Жыл бұрын

You can gain that back by walking in Christ ! It’s not understanding how put your foot in some one shoes not your fault do not blame yourself ! You can heal only one way! Jesus Christ

@Kirokill1

Жыл бұрын

I overcame this during university abroad by being kind to others. Eventually their compassion softened me.

@Fuxkitrey

Жыл бұрын

couldn’t agree more!

@idk8479

Жыл бұрын

23 here as well. Similar experiences, but they never realize or acknowledge what they have done.

Imagine your whole school career as a kid struggling with narcissistic abuse just to hear "you're not special for graduating, everyone has to do it" thanks dad

@vvincent1744

Жыл бұрын

you ARE special for doing it. congratulations! I'm in 7th grade and I've fallen in a deep depression and I'm failing all my classes, I really hope I get into a good highschool..

@marcoborga6304

Жыл бұрын

Well, sorry, but it's true, everyone graduates so it doesn't make you special as you're only be special if you're different

@tultur7182

Жыл бұрын

I can tell you for sure, from personal experience, not everybody graduates. Whatever situation may cause it people drop out all the time. And despite what seems to have been a not so great situation you apparently did graduate. It is one heck of an accomplishment. Well done.

@duckman2480

Жыл бұрын

Better than physical abuse

@themastermind66

Жыл бұрын

@@marcoborga6304 drop outs exist, way to go girl!!!!

A few of these speak to me. Friends have betrayed me and I feel numb to it. Emotional deprivation is big. My parents did that a lot. Never there for my emotional needs. My parents fight whenever they directly communicate. Mom criticises me on every single thing and it all makes me self conscious, and feel unworthy. I've been trying to stop being timid and people pleasing, which are habits I could break out of only after spending time at a hostel for academy. Away from my mother and in an environment where saying no was necessary. And yeah, my past consisted of approval recognition, though I realised it after I stopped getting the achievements that would help me get that approval. Overly self critical. Yeah, maybe I am that. Wondering if I can ever do anything good. I can't express my feelings easily either. Crying is hard, and I've gotten a few setbacks just recently and I'm... I don't know how to explain this. A little bit numb. A little hopeless. That's all.

This is so far one of the videos that I really relate to. My coping mechanisms before were all of this, they weren't as traumatizing as others might have experienced but experiencing all of those as a child really made me develop all of those coping mechanisms. However, over time I overcame most of them and in the process of accepting oneself. To anyone reading this, I hope you have a great day ahead of you.

having all 7 + already being socially stunted from autism has kept me isolated from the world for 2 decades and the loneliness is suffocating ty for making this very accurate video

@miraculous_posts1810

Жыл бұрын

I wanted to say the same thing (except I have adhd). It’s so much easier to be traumatised if ur neurodivergent but people don’t understand

@GoriCHAD

Жыл бұрын

hey man, thanks for sharing your condition, i have all 7 too and just learnt a little bit about autism, the symptoms are scarily accurate for me, been wondering since childhood what made me different compared to the other kids and turns out i most likely have autism too knowing i'm not alone with my condition made me feel better, hope you'll feel the same

@zvnholy3396

Жыл бұрын

I heard this is the austistic section? I have "only" 4 of these traumas, however being on the austistic scale aswell can certainly be overwhelming. Always being the odd one... Wish for all of us to find our places in the world.

@PyroWolfofEarth

Жыл бұрын

Yup I started crying. I've also experienced all 7 and am pretty sure I have autism and adhd, but haven't been diagnosed. But it definitely explains so much of my childhood and how I reacted to things.

@miraculous_posts1810

Жыл бұрын

@@zvnholy3396 especially if u didn’t realise what was wrong with you- the conditions themselves aren’t so bad- it’s how people fail u in the process

Rough, I use 6 out of 7 these coping methods. My childhood was fairly traumatic, abandoned and neglected at 5 then abused in all manors until I was 17. I never knew what love truly was until my wife gave birth to our daughter. I still cry when I hold her or put her down for bed because I don't ever want her to feel the way I did. No child deserves to be subjected to that. She's my world and I love her more with each passing day. I will move mountains and steal the stars for her

@bonkpolice7602

Жыл бұрын

Glad to hear you didn't let your past hold you down. Keep it up king, all for her👑

@2023savepalestine

Жыл бұрын

It must be hard for you especially as a father, I am glad you’re getting better and that now you have a wife and daughter all to yourself ❤️I am proud of you

@piek359

Жыл бұрын

This is so beautiful 🥺 God bless you for breaking the cycle

@Tshir-rr1bj

Жыл бұрын

I too have 6 out of 7, and its good too see that you can flourish despite your trauma, and that there is always hope, even if the way forward is long and difficult

@esyphillis101

Ай бұрын

You sir are blessed for being able to overcome your trauma enough to find a loving wife with whom you could start a family.

This video is a special keeper. I'll be sending it to a very large number of people. It will be source material for a letter I'm writing to leaders of the community I grew up in. This is such vital and fundamental information to know about being a human, it ought to be taught in grade school.

I think I might relate to almost every one of these, and really explains a lot of things I do. Before watching this I felt like I was a tiny bit of an attention seeker, I denied it for a while because I don't go around trying to get attention and it's morally wrong to me, it turns out it seems like I just want people to see my success and when I'm not in the right head space just need someone to see the signs and ask me how I'm doing, I'm a very emotional person so even just someone asking me how I'm doing can have me drowning in tears, kind of tears of joy because there's someone actually there, and also tears of pain trying to explain what's going on. I found this channel about a week ago and it has actually helped me with some things I'm struggling with mentally, I'm genuinely really thankful for the person who made this channel, as it explains so much about mental health, and it helps you know that you're not alone and there will always be someone that's there to listen and to help you.

Shame and unworthiness is so spot on. I always say sorry for everything, I overthink everything and lash out on the littlest problems that are usually my fault, and when I do something right, even perfectly right, I just sit there and can't appreciate that I did it

@chimitrey08

Жыл бұрын

❤️

@brittnieparker9606

Жыл бұрын

Mee too. You are not alone

@solonada9602

Жыл бұрын

These same truths also bind in my life today. As, for example, whenever I perform something correctly or even if I do it better compared to the average man, I just cannot enable myself whatsoever to spend even the briefest moment to applaud and appreciate my performance. No, not at all. That whatever I do I manage to succeed in, I never in return pay respect to myself nor do I think that what I did was adequate enough at all; and instead, I continue to dwell on my firmly consolidated notion that it is impossible for me upon this Earth to accomplish anything that actually merits earnest praise and reverence from people. And if it happens that someone makes an attempt in reassuring me, I then prepare myself to artfully dodge and evade that person's ointment.

@brittnieparker9606

Жыл бұрын

@@solonada9602 I feel the same way. But we need to learn to be a friend to ourselves. We wouldn't treat someone else that way. It's like self loathing in a way. Well you can squirm all you want but YOU ARE WORTHY. YOU ARE ENOUGH. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE OKAY ALL THE TIME. Make small strides to be a better friend to yourself. You deserve to be happy. I have to remind myself that I should be proud even if I just got out of bed. Even if I didn't get out the bed that is also ok. Be kind to your childhood traumatized self.

@GengUpinIpin

Жыл бұрын

Speaking of the least important problems... The hell is littlest?

In my humble opinion, this channel is hands down one of the absolute most important channels that has ever existed on KZread. I’ve learned so much because of it and have had to face so much within because of the videos shared. Almost every time new content comes out it feels like I’m staring at a mirror 😅 …and yeah, at first, no.. for a long time it sucked. I didn’t like my reflection staring back at me. But it got better! I know that the willingness to get uncomfortable and face my traumas honestly and with an open heart has made me stronger, and able to heal old wounds I sometimes never knew even existed. I love this channel so much. Good luck to you and your journey towards inner peace, healing, self-awareness, and authenticity. Take care 😎🤙🏽☮️💟☯️ Oh! And numbers 1-4… I really felt those 😤

@vinhtangthe3218

Жыл бұрын

totally agree

@Reiiven

Жыл бұрын

So true, and I’m glad you’re doing better

@richardoliver8174

Жыл бұрын

Good for you. I feel you when you said you didn’t like your reflection. Good luck on your journey.

@beepusboop8678

Жыл бұрын

I unfortunately related to all of them...

@desperado.1001

Жыл бұрын

@@Reiiven Thank you!!

I can't believe I still cry when watching your videos. Your videos always make me feel sane. Thank you for spreading mental health awareness. ❤

I've never been able to watch one of these videos all the way threw but this voice is just so comforting

It sucks when you actually don’t know that its trauma. You start questioning and analyzing everything. It keeps you awake at night wondering what and where it went wrong. Everyday life seems harder when you’re busy picking apart every details and situations just so that you won’t get hurt again.

@winston-churchill

Жыл бұрын

Thought it was just me....

@ikhlasulamaliyah8207

Жыл бұрын

Oml im not alone...

I came from a family which had domestic violence, narcissism, negativity, taunt. I was sexually molested. Very obviously I cannot trust anyone. My traumatic emotions never got vented out properly. In my adulthood I had actually wasted so much time because I would ponder over those things for years and do nothing productive. And say it is fated. Comparing myself to others used to make me feel even worse. I could see everyone doing better than me. My juniors my peers everyone. I had no emotional control, I would start crying anywhere. But now I have developed a lot.

@iyinoluwaowoeye1076

Жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry to hear u I got some narcissistic parent and a sibling but it can’t compare to what u went through I’m privileged to have little violence in my family but I want u to know that life isn’t a race and everyone has their own pace so take the time u have and rise

@suckyourdeadnan4805

Жыл бұрын

I’m sorry too hear you had too go through that must of been awful

@ljstrez1916

Жыл бұрын

I’m so, so sorry you went through that. I experienced a similar childhood and healing from it is so difficult. Sending hugs ❤️

@lukyG8

Жыл бұрын

Would you mind sharing how you developed? What you said is exactly me..I want to get better tooT^T

@marilynschmidt6400

Жыл бұрын

@@lukyG8 usually starts with your parents and how they were raised.

Videos like this are why I like this channel. Adults often have behaviors and habits they can't understand, and don't remember how same began. It's very helpful to have behavioral pointers available so I at least have a direction in which to look.

Mark, thank you. Thank you for this uplifting message. Keep doing what you’re doing , you got many people looking up at you . Your awesome this helped a lot ❤

Emotional neglect, shame, and unworthiness. Yup. Love that tag-team of "If I can't do it myself, without help, then I'm worth nothing good and it is better if I don't give my input, because I am not the one going through their situation, so how would I know better?"

Man, as much as it pains me to say this, you were pretty spot on. The emotional neglect one, the shame one and the emotional inhibition one were like a retelling of my life and trouble with my mom.

@laceyloops

7 ай бұрын

I love my mum but i'm seeing a trend here... Mums can really mess people up. A few hours ago I was just thinking to myself, I think I expect my mother to love me in ways she cannot. I think we have extremely high expectations of how our mothers shiuld love us. Sad to say they keep disappointing us. I think this is why mu.s can be so traumatizing. Lemme just throw it out there because I need to remember this myself... Only God can give me the kind of love I need...

@mariejosephineraja9028

3 ай бұрын

I guess it's a common thing if our mums are always working and we only see them for a few hours before they sleep. Or they run off and help people while their own children are sometimes caught in the dumpster fire of our minds and they are drowning in it.

I have this and I am learning with pride of fighting through the downs and unknown. I wasn't even aware of these behaviors. I hope this video helps so many people and there family and friends understand ❤️

I ticked a couple of these boxes. Thank you for helping me find a reason why I act the way I act sometimes and that I need some help to move forward. More than grateful also that you didn’t suggest an external website to sign up to. That actually means a lot.

Never judge another person because you don’t know what they could be going through and why they act the way they do.

@13ritneyanne

Жыл бұрын

Exactly!

@oniemployee3437

Жыл бұрын

We'll always judge because judging you for ourselves and our peers is a good way categorise you. You're a stranger so we need all the information we can get, surface or otherwise. That's why it's important to recognize these coping mechanisms and break them. Don't be sorry for yourself, be better.

@YTjdgrj

Жыл бұрын

People abuse others because they went through trauma and had a bad coping mechanism. Hurt people hurt, doesn't mean it's ok nor they should be free of judgement.

@FroppyFroggy

Жыл бұрын

As someone with trauma I completely disagree. If someone is being a d-ck, regardless of their trauma, they are open for judgement and to be called out. In fact it's better to set them straight then to encourage unhealthy and horrible behaviour. I myself have been judged harshly yet none of it was inaccurate. I would also like to add on that it stopped me from becoming more abusive than I already was. You people are not helping them, you are leading to their destruction. They say "The abused becomes the abuser if the abused does no heal" And you can not heal if people keep telling you, you are fine.

@ninshu412

Жыл бұрын

@@FroppyFroggy I agree. My ex used to say the most toxic stuff to me. So, I let it go for about 2 months before I started to give her the same type of treatment. She was a lying, cheating, manipulating, gaslighting, narcissist who still till this day can not take accountability. Now as she tells it, she's a "traumatized victim" even tho she was the abuser. Crazy how disgusting and unaccountable people can be. Just push it onto somebody else because accepting the fact you're a piece of shit is a hard pill to swallow. But she had no issue swallowing other things lol.

3:32 My grades I was always told that I was smart and and such a good kid and the fact that my intelligence was always highlighted. As I got older being seen as the smart kid was a burden. One A wasn’t enough. Anything less than a b was a fail. Craving academic validation constantly and if I don’t get it… I’m a failure. Self harm as a punishment for not being good enough. Being perfect got harder and harder as time grew on. As more expectations piled up. As I watched my best friend get straight A’s, do all these things with her life, get all the awards at school and just… Be *perfect* I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and numb days where I couldn’t feel. Was tired and couldn’t get out of bed. Thankyou for putting this in too.

@onyx0715

Жыл бұрын

Same here, whenever i would see someone get celebrated for getting an A or high achievent award while i got only a A or B honor roll it would hurt and i would hurt myself over it

@rowansprague4076

Жыл бұрын

squib the libbalib. we are one you will be okay skriiiiiiiiiipip

@ihearttails

Жыл бұрын

I am what you would consider "book smart" I would make A(s) and B(s) but my mom never taught me how to be efficient as an adult (I didn't learn how to do laundry until my early 20s because I was too "stupid" to learn) my mom would say. "You used to be so smart in school; what happened to you?"

@foxylady5

Жыл бұрын

same, I used to get the perfect scores even tho I was never the best one in school, there was always someone who was better than me, I would be 2nd or 3rd person in competitions. I didn't have a problem with that, I didn't want to be the best. I wanted to be normal, average. but my mom always wanted me to be the best, the 1st. I used to cry because of her in my elementary and middle school years, cuz she was pushing me to work harder. but now I'm older and I'm in the 3rd year of high school. I have my own opinions and my own lifestyle. like I always have been, I don't care about my grades, my mom is still pushing me to study harder even tho she kinda gave up on it. I'm glad that I found what I want at a (kinda) young age. because if I didn't adopt to this carefree lifestyle and did what my parents asked of me, I'm sure I would be depressed, tired and unhealthy. I remember when I was studying for high school entrance exam, I was too stressed out that there were acnes on my face (I was also in my puberty) I wasn't even eating much fast food, I am not the type to eat too much unhealthy food (I'm thankful for my parents for that, they raised me with mostly healthy food ). but I was like depressed because a teen in their puberty must be happy, healthy, free to grow into a good person with a healthy lifestyle. but in my country the school system is so fcked up they literally want us to be the best in everything to get into a great high school or college, and if you don't graduate from a good college then you'll be unemployed. so that's why I was studying hardly but now I just don't care and I realized how happy I am by not forcing myself to do something I clearly don't want to. and my skin is so clean because I'm not stressing myself. I have my free time to myself, I can learn a new language (I'm a linguistic person, so it's one of my favourite hobbies) , I can improve my drawing skills, I can listen to music, improve my singing skills, I can watch a documentary, I can go out and observe nature, I can learn new hobbies like sewing, etc. so what I'm trying to say is academic success is not something everybody can achieve. and you don't have to force yourself. you can be good at other things, you just have to find what you're good at and do things you enjoy. I don't know if you'll agree with me, that's just my opinion and that's the way I can be happy, but if academic success is what makes you happy even tho there is not an exact outcome of what will happen in the future or if you'll be successful... that's okay too! just wanted to share my thoughts... have a good day

@swankytable84

Жыл бұрын

Same. Anything below a B or a C meant that I was a failure. I recently ended up back in a depression spiral and my grades tanked because of it. I was failing over half of my classes and was leaning on taking summer school to pass them, but I just couldn't be bothered. They wouldn't have been good enough. Just like me.

Thank you for the video, looks like whatever was wrong with me got fixed somewhere along the line of becoming an adult. Your video helped me see that I have no more lingering trauma from my childhood.

Thank you for being apart of my journey of recovery

Alright. I grew up street status. A broken home pushed me out there at about 13 and I started rolling with a crew. Starving in the street with randos, was way better than starving at home with abuse and violence. Our fam in the street protected each other, kept each other fed, made our money, and we made a fam of our own, as dysfunctional as we were. A lot of those dudes are dead now. I turn 40 in a week. Some years ago I went to therapy. Finally. I learned that I developed an avoidant attachment style. Seems I always thought emotions were a luxury, and would compromise my well being. Had to be tough, at all times or I’d be a liability not only to my self, but everyone else around me. People come and go, some want to hurt yah, some care for no one but themselves, some of them would dead kill yah if you got too close. To this day I’m real big on trust and it takes me a long while of knowing somebody before I do. The way I grew up greatly impacted my personality even after I became an adult and found security and stability afterward. I also used anger as a defense mechanism, since being sad or scared made me feel week and vulnerable. It’s been difficult becoming well adjusted and emotionally mature, but if I can do it y’all can too. It’s a long road, but the secret to getting ahead, is to get started. Also thanks psych to go. Y’all are fascinating and do great work.

The dependency is a HUGE one for me... I’ve been insanely coddled my whole life and still am... it’s nearly impossible for me to mentally grow up... I’ve been trying for years... and I’m still nowhere near independent... I can relate to a couple others as well but that one’s #1...

@dee23gaming

Жыл бұрын

I have this too, and it angers me so much, but my parents don't acknowledge it.

@daffodil815

Жыл бұрын

BRO SAME..

@exosproudmamabear558

Жыл бұрын

I had depression for all my puberty and adult life so my mother did almost everything for me now I cant seem to get out of this bubble since my depression and anxiety make everything worse. I have been trying but every time I get into a new depression it just regresses to start. It is pretty annoying to start over every freaking year

@sparkstudies1675

Жыл бұрын

Hey, it's okay, you all will make it. It's not too late to learn One day at a time and have patience with yourself. Believe in your abilities :) Coming from the same place, so I know what it's like.

@ivytheraven

Жыл бұрын

Same too!!

The most traumatic situation for me was being betrayed by my friends when I was young, and feeling that my parents were not there to support me.

Thank you for making these. I now feel like continuing with my journey is the best decision I can make for myself. ❤

Unfortunately, I have all the above mentioned coping mechanisms. Thankyou Psych2Go for making this video. Earlier it was only my speculations about my abusive behaviour but now I can try to change it constructively.

@SemiOfficialPickle

Жыл бұрын

shi u good bro

@reemalxo

Жыл бұрын

Me too

That last one hit so close to home I almost teared up. Like if that section of the video lasted any longer I might’ve cracked. And for anyone feeling the same way, I promise you there are ways to be helped. I’ve been seeing a counselor for the past 5+ years and while that aspect of me is still present, it is significantly easier to manage.

@misspat7555

3 ай бұрын

You talk like tears are a bad thing. They’re just our bodies’ way of attempting to recover from severe stress. Bullies don’t like them because they want to be able to inflict pain with no personal consequences, including feeling bad themselves. 😭

Wow.. Watching this made me realize I've been through a lot of trauma and I'm still learning to get through all of it granted it's not easy and almost all of these are things I've went through or are still currently experiencing.. All of them except approval or recognition-seeking.. I seriously need help and thank God I'm getting that help.

I'm sobbing because this is way to accurate, My feelings are through the roof, and I've never felt this way before

"Until we are able to make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate." Wow! These are the words I never knew I was looking for until now. That's precisely how I have felt (and still feel) about my own life journey and all the effort I still put into it. I definitely relate with at least 3+ of the triggers explained in the video, but I think I have achieved a lot so far. I have come a long way since the point in time when I told to myself "I've had enough", and there's still a lot to do. But I notice, every now and then, that many other people have never truly begun their own journey yet. I hope everyone finds the time and strength to do it. We don't have to be at the mercy of "fate".

@sparkstudies1675

Жыл бұрын

Realising you have a journey to make is one of the hardest parts. It seems never done, haha

@budogacha

Жыл бұрын

The quote is by Carl Jung.psych2 go should reveal the source of their research.please look up Jung to help you on your journey

I was about 9 when I refused to ever show/talk about my emotions because I knew they were a weakness that would be used against me later. And I was about 12 when I realized people only want us around when we're useful. This video is so on point it's quite scary.

@kojack635

Жыл бұрын

Sad but true. People don't want to be around you unless you have something to offer.

@user-pd9ju5dk5s

Жыл бұрын

Nobody really loves you for who you truly are. They just like what you can provide for them.

@angelicasysnila5476

Жыл бұрын

It's sad that we had to discover something so brutal. I don't know why people dont understand that relationships are more important than getting benefits from people around you cuz those benefits isn't gonna give you a fortune. In the end, it's your hardwork that's gonna give you whatever you want. So you just destroyed a sweet moment you could be having with people around you, by only thinking about taking benefits out of them. Like my friends only thought about how they could steal or take my money, instead of thinking about making good memories with me. That money they took/stole from me did nothing to get them far in life. But only few intelligent beings think like this. Others are just stupid, they won't get this thing.

@truthoverlies6434

Жыл бұрын

Oh man, you're so victimized. Here's your victim badge of honor 🏳‍🌈

@user-pd9ju5dk5s

Жыл бұрын

@@truthoverlies6434 Wow, you're such a macho tough guy. Bet you also sit five ft away from dudes bc you're not gay, right? 🤣

I bothe hate and love this channel. Because it shows all my flaws, but also shows me why my flaws are there to begin with. Thank you.

This video just solidifies that all I went through makes me slowly cope with my mental health terribly. Its been years and I still havent learned how to cope healthily or open up properly without spilling everyhing in one go

If I may. I've experienced a lot of trauma the kind of trauma that makes you hate the entire human race, and I've found my pain has at times taken complete control of me, but Jung's concept of the Shadow and his focus on the subconscious has helped me. What I did that helped me, was personifying and separating the part of me that was hurting... I asked her name and she told me Dragon and it felt right, and because that's what she looked like that's how she acted. Like a monster that wanted nothing more than isolation or destruction. I spoke to her like a friend, like she wasn't me, and through this dialogue we've... Improved. It's not perfect but it's gotten better. Over the years I've realized while she may be a dragon on the outside, while I may be someone filled and surrounded by pain and hate that, inside she's much more like a mouse, small and weak and terrified of a world that hates mice. Just... Felt if it helped me i should share it.

@ord3r781

Жыл бұрын

I’m glad that ended up helping you! I’ve tried something similar in the past but could never get past the mindset of “Those voices are from me”

@gaegurijuin

Жыл бұрын

This is definitely helpful, thank you for sharing! I'm also interested in learning about Jung's work, so this makes me more curious to learn about it and how it works. I hope you continue to explore and accept all the different parts of your mind and keep making progress :)

@BibleNutter

Жыл бұрын

Interesting. I just talk to myself and pace. 😅

@Seek_Grass

Жыл бұрын

I started this process as well way back ago, and all I ended up was naming my demons lol. I don't know if it was better before but I don't feel anything changed other than me materializing him in thought and perhaps being able to argue in thought.

@sigacious

Жыл бұрын

you said it perfectly. thank you.

To be honest, all of these apply to me. Although I'm in therapy. Life is just a bundle of struggles but you can always find ways to undo the knots in our worlds

It’s really interesting how much trauma one can accumulate when being exposed to polar opposite environments throughout developing years. My parents were young and split before I was born so I grew up being tossed between parents and family members constantly. My mother was/is very overprotective because of the extensive abuse she suffered as a child and wanting to shield me from that. On the opposite end of the spectrum, my part-time father was completely hands off whenever he had me, and like the friends he hung out with, left myself and other children vulnerable to abuse from older children that had already been abused due to their parents’ extensive neglect. I have both been spoiled and neglected. I feel entitled to nothing, for many years even my own mental health and happiness. By separating myself from family, I’ve finally discovered who I am now and who I want to become. I love this channel for how much it educates me about myself, especially when the people in our lives are not capable of validating our feelings, let alone traumas.

Your videos helped me understand a lot of why I'm a very strange individual to be around. I've had a lot done to me over time and I couldn't figure out why I rather be alone or around family only

I’m lucky. I grew up in a single parent. We were heading down the emotional inhibition route but she corrected her ways in time and I grew up relatively healthy. I lucked out. She passed away last year and miss her terribly. She was a good mom.

I’ve had some theories about things for sure, but this definitely clears things up. Thank you, Psych2Go

@drehdang7209

Жыл бұрын

Totally agree with yah! 💯

@oterysrhaegan645

Жыл бұрын

I also agree, unfortunately all of these are applicable or have been at one point or another.

i was going into the video thinking i was maybe gonna highlight some things i went through in life which i did, what i did not expect however, is learning a cause of trauma to my SO, atleast in more detail than what i could gather on my own, coming from my own behavior. thank you for giving words to things i couldnt put any words on.

That sprout looking out the window at the stars almost made me cry. Growing up, the sky and stars were like great friends that filled an emotional gap that was sorely lacking (heck, I looked up at the sky so much it made me have a lucid dream once.) I reconized the emotional baggage a bit ago, I just didn't know what to do. I thought the answer was in myself... predictably. I also likely have the dependant emotional baggage, but ironically the other, more powerful emotional baggage (emotional deprivation) skewed this in the complete opposite direction. To be fair to my parents, all my life I've had autism, which they didn't know how to deal with, but that didn't mitigate the hours I spent raging or crying (often triggered by little things, or seemingly nothing) because of the emotional deprivation baggage. I also think the shame unworthiness baggage came in because of public school teachers paired with autism... So I guess all my life I've been doing a juggling act. I've been trying to figure this out for so long, thanks for bringing it to light.

I could totally relate to emotional inhibition, often being told not to get upset by my parents and other authority figures. Invalidated for my emotions was part of my life, growing up, and still is, in my family. That is why I sometimes have outbursts and act out of character. I've even developed other personalities and am a dissociative system. I was called "cry baby" while still a child. My psychological trauma really fudged me up!

The last one kinda got me😅 I was crying over a game because the cashier forgot to ring it up and my dad told me to stop and said to stop crying over stupid stuff.The thing is I was young so I took that as stop crying completely. Now I’m struggling with crying for no reason at random times and the only time I feel happy is when I’m with the people I love other than that I’m in a hole of sadness if something’s not occupying me

@friendlybread3056

Жыл бұрын

Sameee! Well, different reason ofc, like I’m pretty sensitive, so I don’t like to cry because when I get embarrassed, and it takes a toll on me 😓

@firestar023

Жыл бұрын

Reason for me was i was often in the house when my mom started yelling at my sister for crying. I never had to deal with it directly, because i became practically emotionless around my mother. I’d put on so many masks, and when i decided to try and forgive her, she almost dissowned my sister while i was in the exact same room. I can not show certain emotions atound her, without fear of getting yelled at. So i just block them off, sadness included. Some people are able to drag those blocked emotions out of me, but thats a very short list.

@MisfitMaya

Жыл бұрын

@@firestar023 dang

@Wanderer24

Жыл бұрын

Dude, you said you're in a hole of sadness when you're not around other people. How do you get out? I've been falling into some unhealthy habits because I feel... something I don't even know. All I know is that something in me is breaking and it's causing a lot of problems. I need help more than I want to believe. If you just want to talk about what you have I'm sure I would love to be a part of that. Maybe talking to someone will help me too

@MisfitMaya

Жыл бұрын

@@Wanderer24 sure we can talk in the yt comments if you we ever need someone to vent too if that’s ok with you😁

I now realize I need help.. thank you. I really did needed this so I was aware before it was to late and live with it for the rest of my life thanks for everything again

This has been a great help for me. There is someone I like, but I can tell she is incredibly guarded much like I am. I'm hoping that one day she can open up.

Emotional deprivation all the way. My family was there physically but emotionally removed from me. I was an unplanned child and never fit in with my own family. My coping mechanism was to retreat into the world of the mind, where I felt safe and self-confident. Now I am 49 and trying to learn how to open up and to feel love and passion and personal warmth and all the other hot emotions. I went far too far into my own mind, to the point where I have been crippled by depression and Avoidant Personality Syndrome for my entire adult life. #failuretolaunch

@truthoverlies6434

Жыл бұрын

Your actual problem is you've lived too comfortable a life. Nothing ever forced you out of your comfort zone. This "trauma" s* and depression isn't the issue. The issue is life is too easy for you, and because of that you've never been forced to adapt.

@Iistener

Жыл бұрын

"Going too far into the retreat of your mind". Reading that really resonated with me, I feel like I spend most my days in my mind thinking more so than interacting with the world.

@TheComedyGeek

Жыл бұрын

@@Iistener And that's fine in small doses, but when you start to lose touch with reality, it is time for some sense work.

@Apples765

Жыл бұрын

​@@truthoverlies6434 literally stfu

unfortunately, i relate to all of them, i'm an extremely traumatized person in every single way, i've been abused emotionally, physically and sexually, i end up being a broken mess of feelings and it's really hard to keep myself together at all times, i've grown up with people screaming at me left and right, and i couldn't take it anymore. Now i'm in a much better spot, i have developed multiple skills extensively that helped me overcome a lot of stuff, but my traumas still play a huge role on me, and it's easy to tell, and i'm extremely overanalytical of people around me, so i can see if they're false friends, or if they're influencing me in a bad way, using me, etc. It's honestly sad how inconsiderate of others people act sometimes, they don't understand how easy it is to traumatize someone only with words, and compromise them for basically the rest of their life, now i have a supportive group of friends, but i still can't get through the thought of them only doing it out of pity, not because they genuinely think of me as a friend, it's such a huge bubble of insecurities. And all the way, my self-worth has been dropping like an elevator, and it's been extremely inconsistent, and i can't trust myself to do stuff, i overcriticize myself and try to find the smallest thing to blame myself with, and it happens everytime.

@MaRin34lyf

Жыл бұрын

It seems like you’ve really had a rough go of it. It’s fantastic that you are aware of the ways you cope with your trauma and why you have the trauma in the first place, I imagine that would make it easier to recognize negative patterns which can be very helpful. I agree with you, it is really frustrating just how many people can traumatize others without a second thought. It makes me feel very sad. The world would be so much more pleasant if everyone was kind. I see you and I am glad that you are still here being an empathetic person in the overwhelming world we live in.

@alessiazuppardi8849

Жыл бұрын

Thankyou for sharing your story, I hope you’ll feel better and can deal with the trauma eventually at ur own pace! :) it’s really crazy how accurate these videos are…

@Bxrben_Dr1p

Жыл бұрын

omg that must be so horrible i feel bad for you arkyia, i hope you are now in a better mind-space then you were back when you were abused.

@vishvaasvardaan

Жыл бұрын

I've also went through the same during my childhood. I did know about the underlying issues but I didn't know that there was documented list of traumas and I ended up having them all. I guess now I'll be better able to differentiate

I hate how much I can relate ro these, But in glad I recognize that, and that this video was made. I had no idea Trauma could have such an impact on me, even after so many years

I cried twice, first from the feelings this brought up in me by calling me out, but then I cried with happiness at the cute animations and thought that things can be ok 😊

"Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone." - Fred Rogers

@tessa63627

Жыл бұрын

one of the greats

Damn, the fact that I can relate to Abandonment, Emotional Deprivation, Shame, and Incompetence is just showing me how much I need help. Even though I have gotten a bit better at showing and telling my emotions it really is a learning curve for sure.

@ash_cashh420

2 ай бұрын

I feel this too I struggle so hard with expressing how I’m feeling cuz I’m worried I’ll hurt the persons feelings

i know i have a lot of trauma. but this video kind of explaining how you cope with different kinds of trauma makes sense. i'm incredibly codependent on people and i always have been but i'm also emotionally distant and cold from most people. i'm terrified of being abandoned so when i get attstched to someone it gets really agressive. i cling onto them like my life depends on it and because of that i'm too emotionally reliant on them and that pushes them away and makes them leave. i always say my problems don't matter because i feel if i do i'll start to believe it and stop caring about it. i've hurt a lot of people because of how i react and i've never realized it

Emotional deprivation can have many faces. I was 30 years old when I realized that because throughout my whole childhood and teen years my mother's whole attention and emotional support were directed towards my very ill father, it made me overly self-reliant and engraved a deep feeling of loneliness in me. I wasn't feeling directly hurt by her actions, because I also was worried about my father, but as a result I involuntarily learned that others' emotions are more important than mine.

"approval recognition seeking" is so hard to understand that it's traumatic. I refused to acknowledge I had trauma and trauma responses up until just a few months ago because I didn't think it was anything serious. And it's not as serious as many other traumas, but it can still seriously mess you up. It leads you to think you're worthless without your status, and when you start declining due to trauma depression and anxiety, that false belief about yourself really makes everything so much worse. I'm glad people are starting to recognize it. Thanks for adding it

As someone who suffers of chronic emotional abandonment, a bad sense of self-worth, negative view of others, keeping others at a distance, relying only on myself and the inability to ask for help are all very accurate. This vid is a very well done and simple way of explaining it to others, good job 🥰

@Monicalia

Жыл бұрын

are you me? You literally described me to a T. It sucks. Sometimes I feel like a bad person, but I just know it's my coping mechanisms because I'm so afraid of being hurt again.

@amihere383

Жыл бұрын

Literally me. It's good to know i'm not alone in this. I mean it's sad, I wouldn't wish this on anyone, but you get what I mean.

@ayuwoki453

Жыл бұрын

It is what it is, the world isn't gonna change for us so we can't change how we are if we're not to be backstabbed again.

Now it all makes sense... ...my own trauma and coping mechanisms... ...and my parent's trauma and coping mechanisms. Thank you for creating this video.

I love how related the video is. This gave me a sense of being understood. Thank you!

@Psych2go

Жыл бұрын

Thank you for your support! Glad to hear our video has helped you!

@lumihuta

Жыл бұрын

@@Psych2go ❤️

Emotional Deprivation was my armor in the military. Best not to get attached when everyone around you is disposable…. But it’s a kryptonite in the civilian world, where people and things not only can have permanence, but need to…

@Relco12

Жыл бұрын

Just learning this now in the military as well, I don’t think getting too attached with my division is very good for me

@sadia2395

Жыл бұрын

Cant begin to imagine how tough it would have been in the military and hence the need to develop detachment. For me its very applicable in civil life.Being emotionally abandoned by family has been a thing.Also, people move on once you arent working together.no call no texts.so yeah i dont get attached either and can never ask for help cz it was always denied whenever I outright asked ( even by family).I still thimk its a great way to be,do never depend on others.

@Onyx-qd9tl

Жыл бұрын

@@sadia2395 I think being careful who to attach to emotionally is important.. But not attaching to anyone is dangerous. Connection is typically the key. You won’t connect with everyone, nor do you have to. Sometimes people you feel you should be close to, like family or coworkers you spend most of your time with, isn’t as much of an option as we like. As terrible as it sounds, sometimes the social environment we’ve been dealt sucks… But life is defined by our relationships. No one sits on their deathbed wishing they’d gotten more hours in at work. Those who wish they had traveled more or experienced more, do so too loving friends, spouses, or family they are close to. Failing to connect with anyone, even by choice, is a deepening wound that will eventually bleed is to death. I learned this myself over years that were married by grey days and heart ache. But we’re not confined to the hand we’re are dealt. If it’s hard to reach out to others for help, so be it. Reach out because others out there need you too. Decide who to spend your time with carefully, but for those who seem worthy of affection, offer them yours. You may be surprised to find it is a two way street.

That last one hit WAY to close to home, to many of my family members do this to the young ones and then wonder why we NEVER tell them how we feel, what is bothering us, or let alone tell them anything about our day that even ever so SLIGHTLY gave us a bad day. It's always about them and the young ones don't know what Trauma or struggles is because we weren't born in their time. Um like hello old folks, trauma and @bμ$e EVOLVES!! All because its not like what YOU suffered in your past, doesn't make it different from the harm you inflict on your children by doing an evolved version of it! 🤦🏿💢💢💢

@angelangel6154

Жыл бұрын

🎯

@FiercelyNicki

Жыл бұрын

My parents are just like this and it makes my blood BOIL!!!

@vyke9417

Жыл бұрын

Nah youre just a crybaby😂

Why did mostly everything in this video hit so hard that i immediately thought of multiple memories that correlate with about half of them.

I don’t even think anything bad even happened to me, but a lot of these are how I act with people.

I feel the last one so much. I was raised by a really strict mother who used to beat/hit me very often. And I wasn’t allowed to show emotions either. For example, whenever I cried in front of my grandmother, she said in a very cold tone: “Don’t cry, it doesn’t help you” And those moments felt like my soul was ripped apart. I also weren’t allowed to be angry, cause that was considered as “disrespectful”. All this physical and mental abuse resulted in hating my mother so much that I wanted to kill her. And whenever she died, I wanted to dance on her grave. But as the years went on my mother became more calm and now I’ve forgiven her. But I tend to burst out of anger and it’s also very hard for me to stay calm/control emotions. And sometimes I just stare still randomly remembering traumatic events with tears in my eyes/running down my cheek.

@siriussslate6832

Жыл бұрын

It's okay, the best you can do is accept emotion as it comes and figure out what it needs. it's okay to go through emotions.

@etsubstantiam

Жыл бұрын

@@siriussslate6832 thank you, I appreciate it^^

@joylynch5204

Жыл бұрын

You are a very strong person to forgive your mother. Well done . I am sorry for the pain that she and your grandmother have caused.

@ivix9536

Жыл бұрын

Thanks for the story but no one cares

@bellaluce7088

Жыл бұрын

I think you probably helped heal someone today by being so honest about your experience and emotions. Thank you for sharing your story. I hope things continue to improve for you. ❤

Deprivation, definitely. Spent the first 16-18 years of my life (depending on how you count it) being told to "be quiet", "do something else", "go away", and eventually "go to your room". I was already my mother's little unwanted shame from day one since my father was a spineless coward who fled, and none of my family was exactly too shy to admit it besides my mother herself (though her actions spoke for her). Never really interacted with my family because anything that reminded them I exist got me trouble. Asking questions got me told to go away, real great for a curious 4 year old eager to learn. Laughing out loud at jokes and puns in shows got me yelled at and spanked during TV time when everyone else was interacting, so I stopped participating. I owned plenty of toys I wasn't allowed to play with because they were always too noisy for someone in one way or another way, and if I had too much fun with a videogame where they could see me I'd get yelled at for laughing or mocked for fidgiting instead. The abuse over laughing in general still has me self-conscious about watching anything "comedy" today as a 28 year old adult. It's also why I tend to keep something in my mouth, can't laugh with cheese-its or gum in my mouth. I've always been the fat ugly one, like objectively, and I understood that early on. Looking in a mirror always feels like a stranger is staring back at me, but what's a shut-away supposed to do about that? Crooked teeth with enormous k9s and a hint of underbite, a blubbery round face, a permanent rat's nest of hair, and lifelong pudge that started with being guilted by my grandmother for not eating enough of her cooking. So of course I never really had friends at school either, or much of a shot. The only person I really interacted with was my uncle, and only when he wanted feedback on his mod for Unreal Tournament, a game I clung to for the attention I craved until I got too good at it and he smashed his monitor... I have the replacement he had to buy. Why am I holding onto a 20 year old LCD monitor I have no use for, when all it does is remind me I'm not allowed to be "too good" at something? I don't know, maybe it's some kind of twisted self-hatred, maybe it's a spiteful trophy, or maybe I'm just a low-key hoarder. No amount of introspection has yet revealed why...

@BiggestMan69

10 ай бұрын

That's rough. I hope you find happiness.

@Ammarsafwan7

10 ай бұрын

Trauma can either destroy one or develop one into a monster

@laceyloops

7 ай бұрын

I love my mum but i'm seeing a trend here... Mums can really mess people up. A few hours ago I was just thinking to myself, I think I expect my mother to love me in ways she cannot. I think we have extremely high expectations of how our mothers should love us. Sad to say they keep disappointing us. I think this is why mums can be so traumatizing. Lemme just throw it out there because I need to remember this myself... Only God can give me the kind of love I need...

@betsymerrill923

7 ай бұрын

I sure can relate

@minnie21434

6 ай бұрын

Sending hugs and lots of love your way...I can relate a lot with feeling like the "fat ugly one"...I cope with food and video games because all my life I was prevented from going out of the house, spending time with friends at their houses or going for outings. My dad was the primary reason of my fuked up life, he didn't believe I could ever do anything by myself & still yells at me if I make a mistake always reminding me that I'm irresponsible and useless. Therapy has helped a lot, though I could use it more, I've come to accept my body because of it and have understood that even if nobody likes me (the way I look), the only thing that matters is that I'm happy with my body and that I take care of it as an act of self love. I hope you're able to escape your family members and find some friends that turn into your real family. I wish you nothing but warm hugs, happiness and cuddles from fluffy pets :D

Holy crap. Yes. I never thought that they would associate one with the other but that hit so close to the chest it's scary. Thinking you're reading my mind.

The abandonment one was spot on for me, especially when she said "you leave before you get left". That hit a bit too close to home

watching this video made me realize that ive gone through a lot of trauma and haven’t realized it was trauma. you guys said the coping mechanisms and definitions of emotional inhibition, shame/unworthiness, abandonment, and approval seeking and i said “oh.” thank you guys for these videos💗

Didn't think I would cry today knowing I have these problems myself, thanks for the video.

Growing up, I was emotionally abused by my dad. I was yelled at by him at least 3-4 times a week for not doing things right or having bad grades. When the storm was over and I was completely shattered, he would see how awful I looked and say “Can I have a hug?” in order to diffuse the situation, which I would always agree to do because it meant that it would stop. I had a childhood filled with stress and I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression when I was 10. My mom would try her best to help by diverting my dad’s attention away from me, but that would just end up in a major argument and me hiding in the bathroom with a handheld game. To this day, I can’t stop apologizing for things that aren’t even worth apologizing for. I even apologize for things that I didn’t do. My friends also tell me to stop self deprecating, but I’ve been doing it for so long that I genuinely can’t even tell if I’m doing it or not. To top it all off, I can’t say anything good about myself without also bringing up a few flaws. In my mind, I’m not deserving of being able to brag about my strengths because it would be selfish to do so. I’m doing my best to work on myself, but there’s just some things that trauma pounds into your mind that takes more willpower to get over than cigarettes.

I have shown signs on more then one of these but have been working on my self. Becoming a better you is not easy and it takes a lot of work to make it work. Still at the end of the day it is worth it all as a better me has allowed me to become more and start to give back in the best way I can.

I resonated with the last one a bit too much. Throught middle school I'd have nervous breakdowns and couldn't stop crying because I was so stressed. I didn't know at the time but I had anxiety. Everyone around me made me think I was weak. They would tease by me calling me a cry baby when it really wasn't in my control. How is an 11 year old supposed to deal with anxiety?

@philrei2797

Жыл бұрын

F It means I Feel u :c And somehow can relate

@tallvinesbs1595

Жыл бұрын

I was in k12 an online school I had really bad school anxiety too. Ppl offered help but when I asked for help they told me if I needed help I wasn't paying attention enough or berated me for asking for help so I never asked for help again. Which made my anxiety and school worse with an F average in every single class and so much anxiety that to this day I get random panic attacks and go into obvious physical and mental panic thinking I still have overdue assignments and I'm 21 now. I already had PTSD due to being abandoned by my father and suffered nightmares which gave me insomnia and could never sleep at night which ofc added to it and yk constant comments from my mom telling me how she was a gifted student which never helped and then still didn't want to help me. Ik this turned into a rant but I just really hate school now.

@dragonwing0724

Жыл бұрын

@@tallvinesbs1595 I failed my online classes too. Thank goodness it was only 8th grade.

@luisafrias7737

Жыл бұрын

I'm sorry that happened to you. I also suffered from nervous breakdowns and panic attacks during middle and high school. Some days i felt like a ticking time bomb so i kept everyone at arms length afraid of exploding in tears or anger. I hope your doing better and that youre doing better with your anxiety.

@dragonwing0724

Жыл бұрын

@@luisafrias7737 the anxiety hasn't gone and I now have depression as well. But on the bright side I know I'll be stronger if I make it through.

Emotional inhibition is pretty spot on for me. I no longer really care what others say or thing but the imposter syndrome that comes with questioning my every feeling is crushing, and I struggle to display emotion or even understand what and why I’m feeling something.

I was dealt a bad hand growing up, an abusive father who often shouted at me for crying, a mother who over-sheltered me, a partner who cheated, and another that tried to ghost me. Being told that I’m the weird kid in class, and being stood up constantly. I have learned to.. adapt and overcome the coping mechanisms, but its hard. And I know it will continue to be hard. But.. its good to know I’m not alone on this journey of self growth. You can’t undo the past, but.. you can try to build yourself a better future

so you’re just gonna make an entire video about me huh.

@priiaroyale

3 ай бұрын

ikrr

@Olen_Lunastettu828

2 ай бұрын

Right?! As if we don’t feel called out enough 😂 ❤❤❤

@dontknowmyname4265

Ай бұрын

I know this is one year ago, but I agree so much. Like, I realized how many traumas I have.

@Isimpoverfictionalmen

28 күн бұрын

Yeah I really got called out

@acatinabox1405

9 күн бұрын

😭

All of them. Spot on, and so helpful. I never thought I'd find myself depicted so well with such a cute animated character. This is an amazing channel - thank you so much for the support you provide to so many. And the narrator's voice is something I could listen to for hours, just perfect.

@Momochi13

Жыл бұрын

I feel you

Who else agreed with last one because of this saying " keep crying and ill give you somthing to cry about " 😅

Number 4 is way to relatable, everything scares me and the smallest sign of anger or annoyance and I have a breakdown, apologizing and begging for forgiveness, holding onto it for so long. Doesn’t matter how long ago it was it’s still gonna be in there. And 7 also is relatable. I just don’t want to talk to anyone, I feel I shouldn’t and bottle it all up, isolate myself in my room, and just pretend my emotions aren’t real until I can’t deny it any longer

I really needed this today. I've matched with more 4 of these coping mechanisms, and consequently I became certain the damage that has been inflicted on me. This was very helpful to know, thank you. Seeing this videos and the comments makes me feel much better, I'm another one in the bunch of people who are similarly struggling so much mentally. Much much love and support for all of you out there!💘 let's hope we can overcome these soon.

@marilynschmidt6400

Жыл бұрын

Try changing your name to something positive. Take care🙏 😇 💜

I sadly can see my self in almost all of the things you mentioned and it makes sense for me because i usually don’t see a very regular pattern when my mental health is at a bad state I am usually all over the place so it’s even more challenging to catch up on some things early enough to not get dragged into deep Thank you so much for your content it really helps to see even a few things clearer for me or to be a little more aware of some of my reactions/feelings❤️

I can't relate to a few of these now that I'm older but I think a lot of people struggled with these when they where younger, or still do, I specifically struggled with anger issues and although I have gotten better it is defiantly a difficult thing to overcome you can do it, you just need time to heal and maybe to sperate yourself from whatever is causing you that anger (it could be an internal thing or external) because it's never for no reason but figuring out what is making you so angry and how to grow as a person is absolutely challenging just remember a change in perspective on yourself and people in your life is always good

This is how my mother felt and couldn’t help making people around her feel the same as she did. I don’t understand fully

The last one makes a lot of sense for me or others with autism. As a child my emotions were often disregarded because it was hard to understand me, now as an adult I tend to lean to outbursts. The first one was very relatable as well as someone whose dealt with a lot of untrustworthy people as I’ve aged. I don’t assume someone’s untrustworthy, but if they prove themselves to be then everything they do from that point on is an act of manipulation in my eyes

I've experienced a lot of these I reckon. For this particular trauma I'm gonna explain, it would be (fear of) abandonment, emotional inhibition, and another point: pessimism. A few years ago, the news of my classmate's s**cide broke out to me when I was hanging out with a friend. I never got over it, even when I was told to. Ever since that, I've been mostly pessimistic towards anything that may happen in my life. Expecting a lower grade. Expecting an argument or rude remark instead of kindness and empathy or a compliment. Expecting that everyone hates me instead of loving me. Like MJ's quote from Spider-Man: No Way Home, "expect disappointment and you'll never be disappointed." If I expect the worst, then I won't feel (as) hurt if it does come true. If I expect the worst, I'll be happier if it doesn't come true. This constant pattern of thinking... It does cause me so much anxiety, I'll admit. It's just one of the things that helped me cope.

@prapanthebachelorette6803

Жыл бұрын

Wait, we’re so alike in a way of dealing with things in life

Huh, I have a lot of these mechanisms…. That explains so much. Thank you.

i knew my past experiences messed me up a bit mentally but i always brushed off the fact it was probably trauma. this video made me realize i am in-fact traumatized 😔