I really needed to hear this video. I realize I’ve been listening to condemnation, and focusing on trying to fix myself. I can’t stand how self aware I am sometimes because I feel like I see everything wrong with myself. I recently had to let go of a certain KZreadr who I watched for many many years because of the bursts of feelings I would get to change because of the hard core messages about holiness and living right and what’s about to come in these end times but it never brought about true change in my life, not that what this person was speaking was false in any way, and not that the person speaking is supposed to make me change, I know I have to put things into practice to help myself but dare I say, I felt like the videos were coming from a place of fierce rebuke, doing right or hell, and it was just too much for my heart because I don’t even know Gods love is, and it wasn’t just that, it was the fear that I would often times feel and this condemnation and religious spirit. I knew I had to stop watching when I feared leaving the channel because I felt as though this person is the only one having the truth of holiness. I would make myself listen to the messages to somehow prove to God that I could handle the truth and even prove to other Christian’s that I’m on board and I’m on the narrow path, it was to get approval to earn love on both sides. I was always scared to hear stuff about Gods grace because I felt like I would take advantage of God, especially since I’ve backslidden against Him so badly and kept going back to the same sins to the point where my heart did darken. I’m seeing things in a new light now.

@josephb.4640

6 ай бұрын

Please be careful that your heart doesn’t darken, as it may become more difficult for you to recognize the inherent need for God that we all have. However, God is ALWAYS willing to restore you no matter how far you’ve fallen. I can testimony to that; I’d be in a much MUCH worse spot without His grace. He is more than willing to restore your heart, your mind, and your spirit if you ask Him in faith. “And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” - Ezekiel‬ ‭36‬:‭26‬ ‭ESV‬‬ God doesn’t give up on you. He leaves the 99 to find the 1. The only way we can truly be moral anyways is by focusing more on serving others rather than on ourselves and our own failures. The motivator for our repentance is a healthy fear/respect for the LORD, but it’s also God’s grace. His love is meant to stir us up to repentance, not a sense of terror. I’d highly recommend watching the depression video from the Christian YT channel “Inspiring Philosophy.” He tackles this very topic from a Biblical perspective and it changed my life. Praying for you, sibling in Christ! 🙏❤️

@Project32HMT32

6 ай бұрын

Everything that you said in this comment is exactly how I've been feeling for a long time. What really stuck out to me is when you mentioned that you had to stop listening to certain KZreadrs, and felt like you were doing something wrong by leaving them. And also being afraid to hear about God's grace because you felt like you were taking advantage of God. This has been an ongoing battle for me for such a long time. On one hand, I want to trust God when He says that He is good and loves me. That I can depend on Him for everything, because I am a created being who was made to depend on Him. If God Himself says that's how things are, then who am I to doubt? But at the same time, I don't want to run the risk of becoming someone who treats God like a vending machine. I don't know how to find the balance between being fully dependent on God, but also not just treating Him like He only exists to bless me. I keep going back and forth between fully resting in the fact that I'm His child and am allowed to be dependent on Him, and then feeling like I'm taking too much or "overindulging" in His goodness? I'm glad to see a comment I could see so much of myself in, and I'm glad this video helped you. I'll be praying for you :)

@nigelreid186

6 ай бұрын

Father thank you for your love even though we might not feel it. Please empower us to do good out of love for You and a revelation of our identity in You rather than from a place of fear of bad things happening and insecurity of our state with you and your plan for the future. In Jesus name God bless you

@amandaweldon9022

6 ай бұрын

@hiyori2846 You are not alone. I feel the same way and I also relate to everything you said. Watching KZread was also a struggle for me because I would always purposely watch videos that would scare me or toughen me up to prove to God that I do not believe in a watered down Gospel or that I do not cherry pick the Bible. I resonate so much with EVERYTHING you said. You are not alone 🙏🏾

@ryanquin2290

6 ай бұрын

I totally know where you're coming from.

When you like Mark’s video before you watch because you know it’s gonna be good. Love how we got to see his personality open up over the years 😁

this video is an answer to prayer. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

@chloewikstrom6429

6 ай бұрын

SAME! So good! Wow I love God and this ministry and all of you and myself so much 🥹❤️

When I was 16 I learned about the power of Grace and I received so much freedom not only from my sin battles, but from the obsessive compulsive battles I faced every day. As I moved forward in my faith I allowed myself to think that I needed to be “harder” on my self. That the grace that I thought I received when I was younger was too “sloppy”. This shift caused me to be so much less healthy emotionally, spiritually, and physically. So much of my healing has been going back to these foundations and growing from them afresh. Thank you for leading the way for me!

Mark, thank you so much for what you do. Your videos have been a great help in my journey. Been a real struggle the past five years (ocd/panic attacks) . I am still learning to rest/trust in Gods love despite my short comings. I have a great hope for the future in Christ. I pray for everyone else struggling right now, never give up the hope found in Christ.

I think for me is actually having the journey mindset is what is a big thing. I had thoughts growing up about a trips, but not a journey. Donttt stoppppp believinggg.

Your videos have been giving me so much peace. Thank you for your vulnerability. The way religion teaches you to approach this condition can make it so much worse and I’m coming to realize that people aren’t one size fits all and God doesn’t belong in a box. Not constantly fighting and learning to rely on Gods love and grace in this season has lifted a lot of burden from me and I can be present with my family again. Thank you! God bless you.

I don’t understand why compassionate grace is so hard for me to give myself and others. I’m so use to listening to the voice of condemnation that I started condemning myself. It’s become a twisted habit in my mind that’s like an addiction. Please pray for me. I’m sick of hurting myself.

Even out of the ocd foundation. I just want to say Mark that me and my mom appreciate you.

Thanks, Pastor Dejesus. I appreciate your expression of God's love and grace in a practical way. ❤️

Some key words. 1. Relationship connection. 2. Journey. 3. Heart Transformation and. 4. TULA.❤

I thank God for you brother Mark... bless you and your family

I’ve fallen into some really self destructive patterns that have led to addictions that have really destroyed me. I’ve gotten addicted to the self punishment. It’s a really hard thing for me to overcome.

How I need this! Lord, help me to learn and absorb these life saving truths.

Thank you so much for this video! This is a game changer.

This is a great video, Mark. My only stronghold about this topic is getting passed what others say about me regarding my “sin” issues (anger, mood swings, outbursts, etc). And the need to “repent” of those things….

I need prayer. I try to love myself but I keep seeking validation from others and reassurance seeking. It causes an addiction and self-gaslighting. I need help! 😢 I figured out that I'm afraid of standing on God and His grace because I'm afraid of what other people think about God and not being believed or accepted socially.

It’s impossible to overcome sin with willpower. Sin is too strong for willpower. It can only be done with Grace.

Thanks!

This was very insightful.

This video was a blessing to me

Can you unpack compassionate grace and how to do that? I just found your channel and I am thankful for your insights and teaching. I had a narcissistic mother and a passive emotionally abusive father. I struggle with self-hate and condemnation.

@marktdejesus

6 ай бұрын

Keep watching. I talk about it all the time

@kanhdahar2

6 ай бұрын

Dear Mark, do you think there is a sin too heinous for God to forgive? @@marktdejesus

Wow. Self pitty spirals. I dont know how to show myself love. Poor me. I choose love. But dont know how...... 😢

This advice and this perspective brings a whole new meaning to seek first the kingdom and all this will be added to you

Awesome help! Thank you!

Thank you!😊

Hi 👋 May I have a question for online community and Q&A ? What can monthly or year member do? May I have ask any questions for mental emotional realationahip health ? Are you answer all member questions? Or answer someone’s questions? All of questions are public or private? By the way Thank you for your video It’s really help me to receive god love ❤️ help me out of working for god.

God bless u Its so edifying

Please do a video talking about SO-OCD and the route we can take on over coming that theme.

Waz up brother

Thank you Mark 🙂 Do you have any video on the subject on suffering on being single and failing to meet a believing spouse? Merry christmas ⭐️✨

Hello Mark. I like your content but i keep grappling with one question. You say we should make decisions based on love and not on fear, but in the Bible it says many times that we should fear the Lord. Sometimes i can’t stand to read the Bible because I feel like it shames and guilts me.

@alexandercousins2602

6 ай бұрын

fear doesn’t mean to cower and shake before god. Fear in the context of this verse means reverence and being in awe of the glory of god. In the case of love, the fact that he loves us unconditionally is awe inspiring :)

@simanahit1

6 ай бұрын

I also think that the fear of the Bible is not the pathological and unhealthy feeling that is meant. It rather means the respect and reverence for God, as in many more places it speaks of liberation from guilt, fear etc., like Perfect love casts out fear or the Romans 8 chapter that there is no any condemnation... etc.

But what if you’ve convinced yourself that God doesn’t love you?

I think you should change the title because I think many people will think that this is not christian content😂