Thank you so much, this video hit me like a wave. I've been questioning for the past year/few months and I was always doubting myself because I didn't fit in the narratives of all the transmen I watched on youtube. It feels surreal how similar my thoughts and experiences are to yours. This really means a lot to me and I feel like I can move forward in my questioning experience without doubting myself that my narrative isn't 'trans enough'.

Dude... That's me!! My story is identical to yours. I can not believe there's someone with the same thoughts and even the same age as me. I'm so glad I found your video. Thanks for sharing with us. PS: Excuse my bad english.

I'm so glad to have found someone's story that I can relate to. This gives me hope.

Haha wow. I was worrying on and off (still am sometimes) about if I am truly trans or not because I never even really thought of gender as a kid. until puberty hit, where I felt extreme anxiety and depression without knowing why. And only recently figuring out what it could possibly be. It's more confusing when you don't fit that "trans narrative" I was beginning to worry because I thought I was the only one going through that process. Thank you for sharing ^-^

While watching the video i kept repeating in my mind: yes, that's how i feel, that sounds like me...and then i read the comments and saw so many guys relating to your story. All this made me feel a lot better! Thank you for sharing

thank you for posting this, i relate so much and it's great to know I'm not alone.

I was prepared to do the same re: lying to health professionals but luckily my Union covers transitions. It's incredible how closely our narratives align.

exactly. i used to feel that because i didn't fit into the traditional trans narrative that this wasn't my path and i wasn't allowed to desire elements of transition for myself. but since realizing that there's such a thing as the NON-TRADITIONAL trans narrative i feel so happy to be able to express these parts of myself. and i feel confident and sexy too! yay for us! :) thanks for making this vid!

THANK YOU for posting this. I identify a lot with your story (:

Thank you so much for your perspective, greatly appreciated here. ~M

Wow. This is exactly what I'm going through : starting to transition (socially) while being plagued with doubts. I've been looking at a LOT of videos on possible regrets about transitioning, or trans doubts, etc. And this video is the ONLY one I found yet that doesn't basically say "I'm trans because I know I'm trans and there is pretty much nothing else to it". I have my first psychiatrist appointment in 6 days, and I'll try to be honest with him, I hope it doesn't hinder my process.

Wow, thank you so much for sharing. I'm genderqueer, for lack of a better definition, and one of the things I struggle with the most is feeling like I don't fit in even with the trans community. Thank you.

You have no idea how much I relate to this. I'm currently still trying to figure some things out about myself but I completely relate to the whole thing about seeing myself as "genderless" as a kid and being very envious towards the boys once puberty hit. Like you said, I usually just went along with social standards for girls to make people happy but I never felt comfortable doing it.

i get a lot of people doubting me because i was very girly until i came out as trans, i identify with a lot of what you have to say and i'm glad you came out and explained about the trans narrative. this video has been very helpful.

Thank you so much for posting this video. I've always known that not all trans* experiences are the same, but yours is the first one I see that is practically the same as mine. I'm going to a psychologist in a few days and I was thinking about lying too because I was incredibly scared, but this video has helped me a lot, so I decided to just be honest and hope she understands. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

thank you for this video! I can really relate to everything you're saying.

Holy fuck, when you talk about yourself as I kid, it's like you're reciting my memories. The part about the wishing, and praying to the magician that you would wake up the next morning, RIGHT with yourself. Seriously, I'm an atheist and I compromised my morals and prayed, "Please God, I will be THE most hardcore Christian you've ever met if you do this for me!" Opposed to you, however, the day I found out what the word "transgender" meant "I Can See Clearly Now" began playing in my head ;)

thank you so much you have no idea how this has helped me i thought i was crazy for feeling like i do did everything i did fit how i thought i had to your amazing

Thank YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! non of the 'stories' I've seen/heard/read so far fitted my own like this one does (the way you experienced you childhood and Identity-evolution). oh....and I allmost chocked on some food at the beginning of your vid....LOL, guess I'm not the only one who feels that, because I don't have childhood memories that fit the typical "I knew when I was 5"-story, I need to (just in case) 'handle' therapists that way to get what I want ^.^ (shame on me)

I relate to this quite well, though i never really had any dysphoric moments, like i really don't mind what i have below or whats on my chest, i couldn't care less as long as i am seen as female, but like.. that last minute REALLY spoke to me about the waiting to see the contrast thing, i have A LOT of doubts about my gender if i am trans or not (Why I'm watching this) and yeah i feel the same that I'm kind of steady where I'm at but still very uncomfortable, and hoping HRT will clear it up hmm

@muzzlemuzzleme ....omg, haha, I actually added that last part?...I can't believe I said(typed) that out loud... wow, I'm feeling extremely bold right now! ...okay... thats a lie... I'm feeling embarrassed, my face has the color and shine of a Savannah-sunset and I think I just branded a permanent palm-print on my face. But besides thát, I'm feeling bold as hell! ^.^

thank you for making this video! i think i am similar in a lot of ways... i've been trying to figure out my gender for a long time now. its difficult because i don't HATE my body and i sort of identify with aspects of both the male and female genders, but i still think i would be more comfortable if i were perceived as a boy... aah idk xD

Thanks :)

You look charming and handsome... Love your hair lol

I'm trans too I luv robert Downey jr n U look like bubba from mamas family:) thanks for ur trans story

cool vid bro :) I'm trans too just started a youtube vlog

Do you like boys or girls? :)

what an awesome vid do they get any cuter than u??

this honestly sounds exactly like me. ive always felt a little different but never necessarily confused about my gender, just kind of ignorant about gender in general, and always neutral in the way i dressed and acted. i knew i fit in more with the boys and wanted to be like them, but i still identified as a girl enough, and tried to fit in as one. i feel so much better after watching this video, whereas before i was also extremely worried that i didnt fit the traditional trans* narrative.

kzread.info/dash/bejne/nKNns8OvZsaypLw.html you just described what EVERY Child goes through at puberty and how male/female never was an issue before because of innocence but changed as we felt 'SHAME' And that manifested in you having a warped disconnected view.