• Subscribe for the dating diaries!! (coming to youtube in May 2024) • instagram: @aliviadandrea • glow up discord community: discord.gg/UBgj5vBd • GOODBYE GLOW UP DIARIES. THIS MARKS THE END OF AN ERA. I HAVE HEALED AND IM CLOSING THIS CHAPTER OF MY LIFE. ❤Grateful for the growth and support!❤ *SIDE NOTE: just to be clear - being a social media creator was NOT the main reason for my issues.

@kamalkhadtare7067

3 ай бұрын

ur so amazing 😊😊😊

@Ink_and_fable

3 ай бұрын

Alivia, never knew you were going through this... I was always inspired by you.. Know that we love you no matter what.

@kamilahismail5953

3 ай бұрын

I’m interested in the final Q&A sharingggggg

@Kbenhamu

3 ай бұрын

Yayy!! You’re finally back!! I’d love a Q and A if it won’t be triggering or hard for you ❤

@nandini6578

3 ай бұрын

you go girl!!! we love you no mtter what..

''Only my skinny self deserves to have pretty clothes'' that hit me so hard

@Kimbleeyy

2 ай бұрын

Damn, same

@carolynshiloh

2 ай бұрын

That’s how I used to think, it’s sad to look back and remember how low one’s confidence/self esteem was

@Mozzarella-and-Tomato

2 ай бұрын

*metaphysically reaching back in time and giving my younger self a hug*😭

@alexafire8171

2 ай бұрын

Same...also restricting myself from activities because I believe I'm not pretty enough for them. 🥹

@lislainy1553

2 ай бұрын

Jesus loves you ❤

This is the true “glow up”. Loving yourself.

@_nob0dy_297

3 ай бұрын

Fr ❤

@ze_wanderer

3 ай бұрын

THIS!

@u.802

3 ай бұрын

yes yes yes 💘

@user-xs7uo6tl1o

3 ай бұрын

Exactly - most people’s „glow ups“ are just GROW UPS. THIS is working on yourself facing your insecurities trying and trying perseverance 🙌🏻

@reneenunez4627

3 ай бұрын

I pray you find Jesus! Delete social media! You are perfect the way you are! The world will dare you apart! Come to the Father our Lord Jesus Christ will help you find that inner peace!!

"When the external validation feels too good, theres usually another side to it." Word.

“Self-acceptance is a daily practice.” Love this sentiment. Thank You for sharing!

the moment you said "ok try to say something nice to yourself" with you being suddenly silent was so heartbreaking. It makes me cry a lot

@missrockets777

Ай бұрын

❤❤❤❤

@Bianca-xw3pp

Ай бұрын

I felt it in my soul.

@Jesuslovesyou0316

Ай бұрын

God loves you so! John 3:16✝️

@Jesuslovesyou0316

Ай бұрын

@@Bianca-xw3pp God loves you so! John 3:16✝️

@amiraKae

25 күн бұрын

same

"Your happiness does not have to make sense to other people." This is such a good quote. I love it.

@blwlmnswg

3 ай бұрын

on point ☑️

@user-od8jo5he2u

3 ай бұрын

facts, i'm gonna remember this one

@user-xy9iu5bb3l

2 ай бұрын

Facts

@sirsnek6562

2 ай бұрын

Taliban:

@TheLily97232

2 ай бұрын

I hate quotes usually but this one is one Ill carry with myself

My goodness, I found you pretty throughout the whole video. It’s crazy how self-sabotage distorts our image of ourselves. I’m so glad that you fought your way out of the self-hate cycle, you deserve to feel happy. Thank you for sharing such a raw, emotional story. You are so loved 🩷

This documentary shows the reality of the struggles that teenagers to young adults have to face. It feels like the perfect body is thrown at you in all directions, making you feel like you can never live up to those standards. We should all accept each other because frankly, we only live once and that one time matters the most. Glowing up is one of those things that everyone fantasizes about at some point in their life, it feels like the more you try to fix, the more you see yourself more darkly and negatively, like a never ending cycle of self-hatred. But there is a light at the end of any tunnel, no matter how long or dark, there will always be a light to seek.

It’s so hard to watch such a beautiful girl cry because she doesn’t feel beautiful

@piadurcissangwa8354

Ай бұрын

Rightttttttttt

@Fisches

Ай бұрын

This!

@rez6818

26 күн бұрын

I got tears because she can’t see her beauty but I don’t blame her. Beauty standards are hard to reach

@jiyabidwe

20 күн бұрын

I know right. The whole while I was like "are u crazy you are so beautiful" while exactly knowing how she felt

it’s the fact that you really did document your entire “glow up” journey and didn’t even realize it. you documented girlhood, and how it feels to come to terms with who you are and how you deserve to be treated. this was so empowering. alivia, we were girls together. and now? we are women. ❤

@graceosullivan1367

3 ай бұрын

The sweetest comment ❤ I love this. I'm 23 and feel similarly.

@hearts4melisa

3 ай бұрын

this comment made me tear up as I first watched her stuff when I was 12, and now I'm almost 18. Wow

@jbkawaiiholic

3 ай бұрын

That comment made me cry too❤ indeed, we were girls and now we’re women. I had an experience not long ago that made me realize it. I did a old school « pyjama/sleepover party » with my friends and while we did crafty girly things, we also talked about deeper subjects and depression, body image, health issues (that might also be my group of friends but we all either dealed with hormonal issues like pcos, pmdd, thyroid issues, or mental health problems like anxiety, depression, etc, and were all kind of trying to accept it and figure out how to heal and deal with it). It was kind of liberating to talk about theses things so freely and experience that we weren’t alone in our struggles. We were kind of all trying to heal from stuff, love and accept ourselves. It felt literally that way: we used to be girls and now we were women and were all supporting each other and dealing with our bodies and lives changing and the transition into being « true » adults.

@HiFiveSive

3 ай бұрын

Such a beautiful comment, cryingggg😭❤

@kunaihanaki2914

3 ай бұрын

what a beautiful comment

i was born with a bump on my nose. when i was a kid i didnt care about it at all but when i grew up and got into high school and saw others were obsessed with being pretty, eventually i started to feel insecure more and more about myself. "only my skinny self deserves pretty clothes" hit me hard because i also avoid buying clothes, makeup products AND MEETING PEOPLE and basically living. because like only the version of me who has got a nose job and is pretty deserves these stuff. im 15 now and im glad ive come across this video now because i dont want to waste my teen years anymore. thank you alivia.

@koshanjade2627

17 күн бұрын

hi! im a 24 year old woman w a big nose w a bump and 15 year old me wouldnt believe it but its one of my favorite things about myself now. its crazy how much were influenced by the people around us

@Alice-ov3pu

13 күн бұрын

hi! im a 20 year old girl who used to have a beak for a nose but got a nose job! and i still love bith noses either way, but honestly i love myself a little more now.

@icantfindagoodusername

13 күн бұрын

@@koshanjade2627 nose bumps are pretty

@arioctober

10 күн бұрын

My nose isnt hooked, its upturned, but on the larger side. I relate so much to your comment. I mostly struggled with this in elementary and middle school because thats when i got the most hate for it. I was bullied relentlessly for just about everything but my nose was targeted a lot. My fifth grade crush called me "penis nose"... Seriously. It broke me. And as i got older they just kept coming up with new things to drag me down like my fucking arm hair of all things. But you know what? It was the first thing my life partner ever complimented me on. Now I know it had really nothing to do with me or how i looked. They were insecure themselves. They got a thrill from making other people feel bad. I was an easy target because im autistic and very sensitive. Most of those people probably regret their actions now and i forgive them. The ones who don't? They have a spiritual malady and i hope some day they overcome it. Being shallow and cruel never amounts to anything truly good and meaningful. Love and connectedness is truly the most valuable thing in life and you'll have a hard time buying that with money. People who truly value you will love you regardless of what you look like and they will love your face and body because thats your face and body. May you find true peace and prosperity 💓

@hrxghs

8 күн бұрын

@@arioctober your comment simply made my day. i love you and thank you:((

This is your glow up ! The strength and compassion and love to post this video, that is your glow-up. You are not your body you are your mind. People will judge you and make you feel bad about yourself because of their own lack of self-esteem. This video touched me to my core, you are an inspiration.

such a minor detail, but leaving in usernames was 10/10.

@hey_wolf

2 ай бұрын

Fr

@KittyCat260

2 ай бұрын

Name 👏🏻 and 👏🏻 shame 👏🏻

@lislainy1553

2 ай бұрын

Jesus loves youu ❤

@lislainy1553

2 ай бұрын

@@hey_wolfJesus loves you 💞😊🫶🏽

@lislainy1553

2 ай бұрын

@@KittyCat260Jesus loves youu ❤

what hurts the most is that you were always beautiful. the issue is confidence and people telling the internet that the only way to be happy is have a perfect figure and face and hair is so harmful

@olinafan4459

3 ай бұрын

a beautiful soul is all that matters

@joy-uk9qd

3 ай бұрын

exactlyyy

@doodleramen9461

3 ай бұрын

literally I always thought she was so beautiful

@pateksky1890

3 ай бұрын

But I also feel like beauty is the very thing that we as a society are too attached to. I feel like it's not about whether we were always beautiful or not simply because beauty is subjective and humans change. Our worth and confidence is just attached to beauty.

@doodleramen9461

3 ай бұрын

​@@pateksky1890 I 100% agree. This is rlly well put 💗

I used to watch you since i was 14, I'm 17yrs old now and i need to thank you for this, your entire channel, over the years you've changed my naïve concept of " glowing up " that my younger self used to obsess over , and made me realise how complicated the problem this concept holds, it's not just about improving appearance, it's about realising that actuall self love is a deep rooted issue that can take even years to be reached, not the weight lost or the perfect skin or the perfect appearance is the solution to anything, that's not how you get to happiness it's all an allusion or a temporary solution with a good feeling for a while. you sitting with yourself and your feelings and emotions and fears and facing them and also yourself, understanding your psychological state and why you are what you, why you want the things you want and are they really the solution ? it's a chaotic journey and mentally painful but so beautiful and reflects how real growth plus maturity happens with teenagers who are self conscious, and continues to develop, you have managed to save allot of time for younger generations who are trying to reach this state of mind without having to go though the same pattern and feeling lost or not knowing what to do or where to start before actually figuring things out for themselves, i hope you understand how valuable and important your content is, thank you Alivia.

I cried the whole way through this. Really appreciate you posting this

when she said her auntie always said “once she lost weight, she’s going to look so gorgeous’ hits so much because all through my teenage years , people have said that to me.

@justinmasefield

3 ай бұрын

it's so hurtful hey. My mum likes to tell me that once I loose weight I will be so handsome that everyone will want to hang with me. Words hurt so much. I hope you are doing okay

@rebeccablankenship4710

3 ай бұрын

I’m so sorry to both of you. You’re beautiful and worthy of love no matter what. ❤

@Ireenne

2 ай бұрын

I think that in general people look better when they are in a healthy weight. Even if hurts, to hear it, it is real. That doesn't mean that your body have to be in a "perfect" shape. Just, try to be healthier. Sleep better, drink water, don't wear clothes that make you feel frumpy, do some exercise (doesn't have to be extreme) and most importantly, wear clothes that fit you, no matter your size.

@oliviajayward

2 ай бұрын

@@Ireenne that’s so true, as I’ve got older I’ve learnt to dress myself and try and keep myself healthier and my appearance has made me feel confident in myself. I’ve learnt the hardest way to accept myself (especially how I’m autistic as well) and I’m able to give myself breaks when I need it.

@denisebacher5040

2 ай бұрын

@@rebeccablankenship4710 I agree so very much! Olivia and Justin are beautiful, and worthy of love, just as they are! And is too bad that the people in their lives that are supposed to love and accept them for who they are have not. I went through that my whole Life until I turned 53. That’s how long it took my mother to compliment me. And even it was because she was sort of pushed into it by her current husband. I NEVER measured up in her eyes. And that is why, with my daughters, and even my stepchildren, I praise them nearly for everything. I told them how beautiful or handsome they are no matter what weight they’re at, I tell them how very smart and intelligent I think they are and I applaud their achievements at everything they do. Because everybody deserves to have cheerleaders on the side, cheering them on to greatness. Even if it’s that greatness is just achieving what they consider their best. Because their best is not everybody else’s version of best.

I think this is the first time I've ever seen someone on KZread actually share that rawness and that reality of self-loathing. The bit where you were struggling to think of something nice to say about yourself hit hard. I'm so glad you've found a place of self-acceptance and I hope that you keep it forever.

@Faithivations

14 күн бұрын

God loves you! Repent and believe that Jesus paid the price for our sins! He can give you so much love, joy and peace!💕

I just randomly found you through the algorithm and girl..... you are f**ing beautiful. Honestly. Inside out. And congrats for reaching as far as you reached. I too struggle and have ALWAYS struggled with weight, I also developed T2 Diabetes due to a severe mental breakdown and a sht job, lost my relationship and I no longer have the energy. BUT I am proud of how far I too have come and admire people like you. Keep going. it is the least we can do to honor Mother Nature and what she has given us

What a powerful and honest journey. Everyone out there has had moments like this. It takes courage to share the true, hard journey.

Praise Yeshua! Thank you for sharing this, I hope I work on it more. Everyone has felt this way in one way or another, we can grow and learn together

@WandasWorld

22 күн бұрын

wow

@Faithivations

14 күн бұрын

God loves you! Repent and believe that Jesus paid the price for our sins! He can give you so much love, joy and peace!💕

@youratwinklingstar5644

13 күн бұрын

@@Faithivations I am a believer of Yeshua HaMashiach! He is AWESOME and SO SO good to me!

@diamondsukha1312

12 күн бұрын

i love that you use His name :)

@Faithivations

12 күн бұрын

@@youratwinklingstar5644 yesss!!

Love that your “physical glow up” wasn’t the end of it. Your true glow up came from learning to love and accept yourself and fulfill your self worth from the inside. Not any superficial goals that came from insecurity. This was the perfect ending to a raw and heartfelt journey.

@NanoB1802

3 ай бұрын

🔥

@origamiempress6774

3 ай бұрын

🔥🔥🔥

@southlightsbare

3 ай бұрын

самооценки не бывает

@Ninialzh

3 ай бұрын

The end of the video she looks so happy and glowing literally I really hope people realize just how serious this is ❤

@gangstaberry2496

3 ай бұрын

This is the first mature comment I have seen!! When you learn to accept yourself, you are truly strong ❤

I never really followed your glow up journey, but I remember occasionally seeing your videos on my youtube feed or on social media etc. I just watched this video, and I just wanna say I'm really proud of you! It seemed like hell of a process to go through, but I'm so happy you are doing much better now and actually thriving. I wish all the best for your future

people are just your mirror, you were treating yourself so badly, that's what you saw outside, now you're treating yourself differently, people have to project the same thing, I've never seen you before, but I watched this video, some people love to just fake crying and show themselves as a victim so get attention, but you were all authentic, I just wanna say, I wish all the blessings to you, you deserve to be more than happy, thank you for sharing this video, much love ❤

@miriamb2367

6 күн бұрын

That's some dangerous BS. You are telling me people who are emotionally abusive just mirror us? Get the heck outta here.

Girl this was a beautiful, raw, honest deep dive into depression, eating disorders and wanting people to accept you. I can’t overstate how validated I feel watching this. Thank you

@samanthamakhafola3014

2 ай бұрын

Same

@222hello

Ай бұрын

Right? Like she was actually pretty and she's still pretty but also her personality

@DebiCakes95

Ай бұрын

I felt like I was watching a video about me

“Your happiness does not have to make sense to other people.” Such an incredible mindset. The truth.

@Joyce-uw3rv

3 ай бұрын

I AGREE 💯! ❤❤❤

what a beautiful ending to your journey. You were filming the true glow up journey without realising that the true goal is not the physical but the mental glow up..! So authentic and relatable for everyone who went through the same shit.

You are amazing. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Thank you for being so raw when so many struggle to do so in a world that has become so obsessed with projecting a perfect version of themselves to others. Each and every one of us struggles with insecurities and that is what makes us human. We are only trying our best and sometimes that is difficult but us continuing to show up everyday in whatever shape or form IS self-love. That is growth and that is strength

her journey is literally every woman's life.. this is how much insecurity we carry, I have had the same thoughts as her constantly even if we try to deny it Deep down we have felt the same thing as her. andddd there is absolutely NOTHING NOTHING wrong with this beautiful woman

@pwetty4r4

3 ай бұрын

Not all women....but I get your point

@kateosborn9904

3 ай бұрын

I thought it was just me who carries these insecurities on a daily. The uncontrollable amount of negative thoughts that can consume my brain.... I am at a point to where I believe that this is 'not normal' or 'no longer okay with me.' You are exactly right with 'her journey is literally every woman's life.' ..... I had no idea. Again, I thought it was just me.

@rhiannondavies4741

3 ай бұрын

It's so sad because her body looked fine at every stage but I remember thinking the exact same things as her when I was these ages. And now I look back at the photos and I was beautiful. It was all in my head. And I was a teenager when Facebook first came out so we can't blame social media, it's our society as a whole that's to blame.

@ThisIsGoogle

3 ай бұрын

What does losing weight have to with being a woman?

@zzyzxzzyzx

3 ай бұрын

*some women. I've never struggled with body image. But it's still a major issue for a lot of people - men and women - and that does need to change fs

Alivia, you are a gift to this world. Your vulnerability, storytelling and these real and raw human emotions…it’s so beautiful so pure. Thank you for your perspective and continuous light ✨💫

@aliviadandrea

3 ай бұрын

Thank u Natalie 🥹🩵

@bcbeasters

3 ай бұрын

"It was easy to be kind to myself when I was my ideal standard." ~ The line that should be the biggest takeaway from this video. Translation: "ideal standard" means YOUR comfort level. If you're comfortable, your mind is at ease. Life is very adaptable because things are constantly changing, as time continuously moves forward things will continuously change. It's important that your comfort level is adaptable through acquired wisdom from your life experience... to keep your mind at ease. 😉 And yes, I hijacked the current top comment! 😋

@HumbleChilduk

3 ай бұрын

@@aliviadandreahonestly, your vulnerability to post all those videos in your lowest of LOWS. YOU, my friend, are more powerful than you’ll ever know. The sheer falseness of beauty that gets presented daily by how we should look and be was literally cut in half when you focused on what TRULY matters. When you spoke about wanted to be happy when you were a child… that spoke deeply to my soul. We are so much more than this body which is slowly dying, but our souls.. they live on. We need to make our spirits happy and never place them in the hands of people who could have the potential to destroy us. Thank you for sharing this journey with us, your message will touch MANY. I thank God for you. Special indeed.

@crystalhoward1895

3 ай бұрын

Amen!! You are beautiful inside and out girl I can relate soo much

@oliviastar3812

3 ай бұрын

Your story so perfectly illustrates & narrates what is wrong within the entertainment industry. You've shown the angst that so many celebrities (especially women) go/are going through. In this new generation of KZread and Instagram 15-min-celebrity fame where the net has widened and more and more wannabes are lured into it, there are even MORE casualties. It's all fools' gold. I really admire your open narration of what you've been going through. I hope and pray on your seeking journey that you also come to realise the TRUE answer is not to seek to be your own best friend but to seek God, through Jesus Christ and realise the true satisfaction of knowing Him and the peace and REAL friendship he has for you. He really is the BEST of the BEST friends you could ever hope for or realise. He created you, me, all of us and wants us to seek Him and know him for ourselves. He says "Come to me, all you who labour and are heavy laden and I will give you rest" That's the peace you need and crave. I pray you find Him - He promises that you will if you seek him with your whole heart. Also check out the story in the bible about Jesus and the woman of Samaria. I hope and pray you do, and report back on that. God bless you Alivia. @@aliviadandrea

I'm about half way through this video. I really hope this ends positively. You are worth so much more than what others think you should look like. I understand the pressure you and others put on you. Everyone wants to be accepted. I am proud of you for changing your mindset! Lots of healing and love to you!!

I'm SOOOO excited for dating diaries can't wait to see even more of how much you've come

something I learned recently is that you can be stunning and someone will still come along and say you're ugly just to knock you down.

@FromtheeyesofShaun

2 ай бұрын

I realize now i went thru this alot in my life and it really left a wound. But the truth is most times Ppl are better looking then they even see and ppl get mad at that and try to distort ones self worth.

@Sunny_456

2 ай бұрын

That someone can be your entire family just because you look like a family member they don't like ... not even because you ARE ugly 😢😂

@StreamB

2 ай бұрын

But that means the opposite is true as well. You can be looking terrible in your own eyes, and someone will come along and think you're amazingly beautiful

@caitlincalsbeek6874

2 ай бұрын

​@@StreamB it's almost like beauty is subjective and the entire point of this video is to love yourself regardless of what you look like because it doesn't really matter, and people who make it matter won't ever love you anyway.

@tweakypoppy

2 ай бұрын

Beauty is subjective. I've seen a particular celebrity described as "hot af." To me she isn't, not even close.

It's so crazy how much she's actually glowing now that she loves herself. It's like a total different person. This is so astonishing to see

@linxlatham47

3 ай бұрын

truly

@luhole

3 ай бұрын

It’s nuts. I was going to say the same - actually glowing with the self acceptance and happiness.

@VidasG

2 ай бұрын

True... And her actual glow-up is visible in so many ways. She's smiling, she has that fire in her eyes, the words she speaks are so much wiser, she seems so much more fun to be around. And even her physical appearance: you can see that she allows herself to be pretty, to wear nice clothes, to experiment with makeup. I know the focus shouldn't be on the outside, but the difference is so huge it's hard to ignore. It seems as if she was punishing herself on purpose when she thought she was not enough (she didn't let herself wear nice clothes or hairstyles, she didn't post photos, didn't go out, when she clearly wanted to). I know the focus of this video is not the external appearance, but I think it's an important note to take for everyone who worries about it. What makes you externally beautiful is how you treat yourself, how you express yourself, it's wearing clothes you want to wear, posting photos you want to post, and generally doing what you want and not limiting yourself because you're not "perfect". If hoodies and messy buns make you feel free and comfortable, you are going to look much more beautiful in them than in fancy clothes that make you feel restrained and fake. If hoodies and messy buns make you feel icky and you prefer doing glam makeup and wearing dresses every day, then allow yourself to do just that. No matter how your skin or body looks, invest in your happiness and the external beauty will follow.

thank you for being so brave for sharing your vulnerability online. recently I have been struggling so much with my mental health because I haven't become my 'ideal self' yet. But your journey really motivates me to start loving myself unconditionally like a good friend instead of driven by outside validation only. WELCOME BACK TO KZread !!!!

I am so proud of you. Thank you for sharing your journey. It really made me feel less alone

The failures are the best and most authentic part of this series, so I hate that people made you feel bad for not "taking too long". That's literally life

@grace_jones

3 ай бұрын

Facts

@spacebar9733

3 ай бұрын

Fr !!

@luiiiandmovieee

3 ай бұрын

It's so dumb when ppl say it takes too long. They treat her journey like a book / movie / anything to buy. They forget it's her real life. It's such a toxic mindset to think change would happen fast and then everything is great all the time. That's only how it works in stories.

@TheBaumcm

2 ай бұрын

Change is hard and happens at varying rates. It is part of the negative aspect of announcing a desired change. Life is a journey with no schedule and no final destination, unless you know, the point at which you are no longer above ground. It’s all a journey and no one should be judged for how long it takes.

@tahinaschwegler8112

2 ай бұрын

I feel like those comments were probably people projecting. People that hadn’t even accomplished it themselves

I feel like part of the reason she was so hard on herself was the constant documenting and self reflection to the point of obsession. But I’m grateful some of it is documenting some things that so many people struggle with. Thank you for sharing your story, it made me feel less alone.

@mitalishinde6890

3 ай бұрын

Yeah you explained it well.

@chloevaillant9430

3 ай бұрын

I think no one can handle so much feed back, good or bad it's unhealthy to be judge by so many people we don't even know.

@sowhat1674

3 ай бұрын

​@chloevaillant9430 tbh, she should've kept her journey private if she wasn't mentally prepared for trolls on the Internet to tear her apart.

@chloevaillant9430

3 ай бұрын

​@@sowhat1674 Putting ourselves on the internet can't be a justification for online bullying. With that kind of reasonning you can make anyone guilty and deserving of any bad thing that happened to them. "Got into a car accident ? You should have know better and walk !"

@rain_reverb

3 ай бұрын

Same this side I suddenly lost weight without effort and it felt bad when I gain weight it feels bad It's all because of wanting to have an hour glass figure .. And glass skin like Korean And hair like them too It all feel worse I was once so uncomfortable with my skin body hair and light eye brows snd my big forehead Now I'm different much comfortable but still there are days when I wish I could go out without using brow pensil and hijab protects my forehead insecurity but now I'm doing better alhamdulillah it's all because of the beauty standard of social media and girls and guys becoming judgemental

Sending you so much love. I can't believe how strong you became during those years - it takes many people an entire lifetime to not succumb to the pressure others (especially family) put on us.

You're so brave for sharing it! Stay strong!

just a reminder that we need to be kinder with the things we say ! you truly never know what people are going through.

@taraleanne

3 ай бұрын

so true!!

@elsybabe5558

2 ай бұрын

Thiss. Most people don't realize how words can hurt

@sumonipuri3964

Ай бұрын

True

@mallarieluvsgirls

7 күн бұрын

absolutely. i was bullied horribly for my symptoms and illness and how it made me look when i had a 12 inch tumour in my stomach. they all made fun of me for being “lazy” (tired and in pain) and fat. all while i had cancer growing inside of me.

It takes real guts to be this transparent and vulnerable on the internet. The fact that you even made this video is a testament to how brave and resilient you truly are. Give yourself credit where its due and be proud of yourself. You've earned it ♥️

@reiarei

2 ай бұрын

I hope those giving the negative comments especially those in the fitness space see this and see what diet culture does to us all.

@nexenzy5825

2 ай бұрын

RARITY PFP

@purplechickaboo_89angela12

2 ай бұрын

Your so strong because this is how I feel and it's important to share, your worthy regardless of what others say.

@ritaree123

Ай бұрын

❤

this was what i needed. thank you

CHILLS. I really needed to hear your words. I have been struggling with my self-love and my weight for months now and it's got to the point when I just feel ashamed of myself all the time. You have made me realise that this is where all my issues stem from and it's time for me to focus on that and that alone. Thank you so much for sharing Alivia, you may be unaware of quite how powerful this video is!

@_swesters_

2 күн бұрын

First step is to view your weight as a part of a body that pumps blood and gives you life every day rather than an endless struggle. Acceptance of my body as it wanted to be made me feel alive again. Good luck on your journey.

I don’t understand why people even bullied Alivia… she’s one of the most realest person out here, showing her vulnerability, and showing how progress is never linear, and permanent… you’re always going to have your ups and downs no matter what, it’s all about perspective and pushing yourself up when you fall down, and time and time again, Alivia has shown this reality to everyone publicly that a lot of people typically hide or sugar coat. Also Alivia, your narration is beautiful and poetic, and everything you create is a work of art. I love your content and I’m sorry you struggled with depression and hate online. I’m glad you are doing better and I hope you continue to thrive 🫰🏻🙏🏻

@vibhasuresh

3 ай бұрын

that is so true

@zentaurus71

3 ай бұрын

Because so many are afraid to face their own weakness and prefer to let it out on others who represent what they would love to be

@ashantiemily1067

3 ай бұрын

she never deserved to be bullied but a lot of her content was harmful to be honest

@Loualltheway

3 ай бұрын

I feel Like she is bullying herself the most 😞

@GirlLovesFairytale

3 ай бұрын

I do agree that the bullying is terrible but you see Abby (dietist) in the video too and here reaction is very good and true. And the contest was very very very harmful, not only too herself but also too other people. I'm half way through this video but I really hope she sees this at the end. The trend glow up is already harmful.

This broke my heart. I did not know about your glow up diaries, I found this video by accident, but the footage of you crying in your car hit too close to home. I just wanted to hug your past self and tell you that everything is going to be ok, and then realized that maybe I wanted to say it to my past self as well. You look so happy in the most recent footage, and I hope everything turns out great for you. Thank you for sharing your most vulnerable self with us

@lilyy.777

2 ай бұрын

You're so truee we never hug our inner child n just run forward to chase external validation

@wiserwad

2 ай бұрын

😂q

YOURE SO REAL FOR THIS !

I couldn't see the process of coming back home to yourself better than this. Thank you❤

This proves that social media’s definition of “glowing up” is just making you feel worse about yourself. Beauty standards and lifestyle trends can be so disgusting and really impact people’s lives. Alivia I am so proud of you that you’ve overcome this. Keep on going girl. ❤️

@anniea1234

2 ай бұрын

that is so true honestly to the point now that it’s sad

this online community is/was so incredibly toxic. how bizarre that they made you feel like you let them down for not achieving certain goals in a certain time. there was never a problem with the way you looked, people just have fun making spectacles out of others' lives. It's so good to see that you're in a much better place and I truly hope that you find peace and happiness!

@khosmamundi

2 ай бұрын

Exactly

@hadnoideahow

2 ай бұрын

I have to notice that the community is all US people. Not saying that unrealistic beauty standards don't exist everywhere, but the US takes it to a whole other level.

@sLAyZY760

2 ай бұрын

also prolly projecting. sadge

@amylouise3044

2 ай бұрын

You ever heard of South Korea? 🤣🤣🤣 They literally gift _teenagers _*_plastic surgery (most common one being double eyelid surgery​)_* for their sweet sixteen. The US isn't the best but GOD south-east asia takes it to a wholeeee another level. @@hadnoideahow

@missbimbeaux

2 ай бұрын

@@hadnoideahow and ur 100% RIGHT, i havent experienced it in other countries

It's a strange situation where being overweight often goes unnoticed by those around you, yet at the same time, you feel constantly watched.

I LITERALLY FREAKING LOVE YOU, KEEP GOING!! REMEMBER THAT YOU’RE LOVED, THE LOVE OVERCOMES THE HATE. WE LOVE YOU AND SUPPORT YOU, NOBODY IS PERFECT!

Sobbing my eyes out. "I don't wanna waste money on myself as I am right now. I'll wait until I'm smaller." That really hit so close to home. This video helped me so much. ❤ Thank you.

@isabellapenoth7661

3 ай бұрын

Omg yes!!!

@celedhion

3 ай бұрын

For me, I would buy clothes that are a couple sizes too small just to force myself into motivation. I would say stuff like "If I restrict and exercise enough, I'll fit into these in a couple months." I could have bought myself something nice in my size, but I bought clothes as a punishment instead.

@samarias100

3 ай бұрын

same that´s exactly how i feel rn

@juiccyonion8484

3 ай бұрын

That was really eye-opening. I have been thinking that way and I didn't even realize how hurtful that sounds. Like, I deserve nice clothes and nice things no matter how I look, I don't have to wait until I'm "perfect" (that day will never come)

@hattyhide7544

3 ай бұрын

This was such an amazing insight! It spoke to me in a way I didn’t know I needed.

Damn girl, this may be one of the most important content to see for our generation. Our obsession with “succes” and “perfection” and “escaping the matrix” has lead to us not being able to tell illusion for reality anymore; forgetting to live in the PRESENT. To me that was the biggest change I saw in you throughout this video. It pained me to see a girl who was so tormented about the imaginary "what should be" of the future while also restrained in shackles by the perceived failure of your past. You didn't seem alive, just coping. Then, you became a person who was present, alive, grateful, and accordingly, your existence excudes positivity; the kind of energy that truly inspires people, that draws people to you. In the end, the present is all we have and accepting ourself today to then grow from healthy motivation of LOVE, for ourselves and our surroundings, instead of fear and pain is the biggest favor we can do for our future self. And it's also the biggest F** you to a world trying to profit of our insecurities and fear. Thank you SO much for being so raw and filling this journey, your story telling and editing is incredible. You have a special talent and your mission in this world is to share your view on this world. Thank you!

@meikusakabe4167

2 ай бұрын

no it's not

@gwgwgwgwgwgw121

2 ай бұрын

@@meikusakabe4167 you feel better now?

@jjswigger8591

2 ай бұрын

ur generation is a fuckin mess and will never be normal lmao

@jjswigger8591

2 ай бұрын

shes literallt a product of dogshit from social media, she should be telling you how to be different not more like this dogshit persona

@CheetahJona

2 ай бұрын

So true. I needed to hear this now more than anything

You have SUCH a beautiful voice! I love hearing you talk (even about hard things), it's so peaceful :)

girl I'm so proud of you and looking at your happy face making me soooo happy

the part of this that is so bizarre to me is that throughout this entire journey you were always beautiful. the genuine hatred you had for yourself is so unreal to me because i don’t understand how someone this beautiful inside and out could see themselves as anything less than perfect. so proud of you girl, this is so raw and special. a true authentic masterpiece.

@beckykaminsky4304

2 ай бұрын

Agreed!

@gardeningforburnout

2 ай бұрын

Yesssss 🎉 She is a major babe!

@amandarachelle9234

2 ай бұрын

So so so this ❤

@Chloe__________xx

2 ай бұрын

Exactly and the bravery of putting it all online for us to connect is more than most people do. Being relatable in struggles most of us face is the true content we connect to.

@moonlightauras1

Ай бұрын

The thing you eventually learn when you're on the other side of an experience like this is that it was never you. It was never about how you looked or about how you thought you looked, it's about the way society values and upholds certain aesthetics that most people can't live up to. And in striving for those aesthetics we end up losing who we truly are and are not able to see ourselves as beautiful and lovable.

life isn't about glowing up, it's about growing up. you are growing and learning and becoming so much better and so much more than just a number on a scale. dude so inspiring that you posted this video and that you are willing to be vulnerable with yourself online, when you know that people can be so mean here. i'm really grateful for this video.

@alipadevi5101

3 ай бұрын

Me too

@esterkowalczyk6121

3 ай бұрын

👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

@FatemeLife

3 ай бұрын

life isn't about glowing up, it's about growing up, wow

@iamawesomeprods

3 ай бұрын

I agree! I personally “glowed up” because I grew up, I am unrecognizable to the people who used to know me because I changed my mindset about myself and now radiate confidence, it’s so much more than how you look.

@lowkeymichii

3 ай бұрын

same@@iamawesomeprods

THIS IS SO SO POWERFUL AND RELATABLE. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR THIS.

As a 16 year old girl, I want to say thank you. This video truly opened my eyes on struggles that people are going through and it's a reminder to always be kind and loving. Of course everybody struggles with things differently, but we really need to be there for each other and not only support unconditionally, but show empathy and be understanding. This is such an important documentary and thank you again for being courageous, posting it and sharing a strong message. 💛

@yesic7196

19 күн бұрын

I wish my family could hear you say this. You're right. Thank you also 💛

@YasAdele90

9 күн бұрын

What a well rounded rational and polite response for a 16 yo. Nice One ❤

questioning why you wanted to be accepted was so heart breaking to see. All humans want to be accepted we're social creatures. we love connecting and being safe with each other. everybody deserves acceptance

@M0RPHOBIA

Ай бұрын

Exactly!!!

@M0RPHOBIA

Ай бұрын

Connection is like our basic survival need!

@SweetCherryLovex3

Ай бұрын

such a beautiful soul ❤

@maddiie4737

21 күн бұрын

exactly, it is instinctual for us to crave acceptance. 75,000 years ago if your community didn't accept you, you were quite literally left to die 😅

@Faithivations

14 күн бұрын

God loves you! Repent and believe that Jesus paid the price for our sins! He can give you so much love, joy and peace!💕

Seriously Thankyou so much to show us your journey of actually glowing up. That "only my thinner self deserves pretty clothes! “ i do this a lot too and every time i go online shopping i always ends up buying oversized clothes cause i tell myself that the tons of pretty clothes i kept on my wishlist is only to be bought when i get slimmer cause if i buy them now and wear them, its only gonna make me uncomfortable. I freaking needed to see this so much. Thank you so much again. And if i ever feel not enough i will come again to this video. Even tho its for 100 more times until i accept myself i will watch this video everytime. 💌

you’re one of the most inspiring people i’ve ever seen, thank you for the wonderful video, i’m so proud of you❤️

Your ability to organize your thoughts and feelings is quite remarkable. You have a real talent for film making

@athiraj3908

3 ай бұрын

Oh yes true statement,this journey is inspiring apart from that she is very aware of her thoughts and feelings.and communication is perfect.whole framing of this film so profound that makes you curious to watch till the end.I agree the fact that she is talented in film making ❤ too

@goldenrain87

3 ай бұрын

Agreed

@aliviadandrea

3 ай бұрын

thank u so much🤍

@Yourbae_33

3 ай бұрын

@@aliviadandrea omg hii u inspire me

To be honest, i think this is the most realistic and human thing ever, to keep falling down and getting discouraged struggling to keep up and get back up again. Usually on social media , we'll see someone start a diet vlog and then they lose all the weight or get fit and then everythings perfect lol. But this video really highlights the process some of us actually go through ❤ Alivia well done , we're all so proud of u 🫂

@SianYu1

3 ай бұрын

Exactly! People will complain and say it's triggering etc. but the reality is this is what it's like for a lot of us. I'm glad that there's an influencer who actually shows the harsh side of 'glowing up' and not what's deemed as pollitically correct. This girl is the real deal.

you did very well girl i’m really proud of you

what a beautiful soul you are. i'm so happy for you

People can be so cruel... Full gown adults still can be like a middle school bully. Your raw authentic vulnerability is beautiful and an honor to witness. You are courageous to show yourself. I would love to have a friend like you

@DraconiInfernalus

6 күн бұрын

adults are just kids in an adults body

i can't believe it's been 6 years... i started at 15 and now i'm 21

@yonder07

3 ай бұрын

Samee!! I started at around 15 too! Currently I'm 21 haha! ❤

@willow1698

3 ай бұрын

And what have you done with your life in that time?

@s00ki.e

3 ай бұрын

Same !

@nn-23

3 ай бұрын

@@willow1698 why that question? Are you expecting them to come tell you what they have done in their life between the ages of 15 & 21. Let's do you one better, what are you @willow1698 doing with your life?

@mssydthekid10

3 ай бұрын

@@nn-23I was about to clap back too lol. I thought Willow was just being rude to the og commenter, but I think she was actually being defensive for Alivia bc the og commenter's comment seemed like it could be negative. Now I'm wondering if it was actually negative, saying Alivia took forever to finish, or if they were just saying how crazy it is they followed her for that long

This is by far the realest thing I've seen on the internet. God knows how much i needed this...Thanks to u❤️

i am so proud of you, hugs to you

Wow, in the last clip at the end, you look like a totally different person. And I'm not saying you physically look different but it's like something is radiating from within and shining through. You really have glowed up.

@peachby5917

3 ай бұрын

You can start to see it from her eyes and smiles when she starts accepting herself, it was like the love for herself made her eyes physically sparkle and smile radiate warmth. And it made her more beautiful than any specific weight could ever (i hope the last part makes sense)

@miabellaperez3367

3 ай бұрын

Wdym by “something is radiating and shining from within” cuz she already fully loved herself in the clips before in the mall when she was at a heavier weight, so I think u may be biased and are actually referring to her physical appearance cuz why would u only refer to the last clip.

@hermoinegrangerful

3 ай бұрын

really happy for her. she looks like a new person in the last clip. is it the eyes?

@amethia34300

3 ай бұрын

What 😂 ? Or maybe it's because this clip was the one that was the most focused on her face and the longest ?? + she seemed excited about her new project?? Stop trying to see bad things everywhere

@miabellaperez3367

3 ай бұрын

@@amethia34300 If anything the clip in the mall was more focused on her face and a lot longer... so maybe not. And if it's bc she is excited ab her new project than that "radiating" and "shining" "something" is an emotion called excitement which is not equivalent to a "glow up" i.e. loving yourself. I'm just pointing out that you may be biased and only called her "glowed up" in the non-physical sense when ONLY referring to and putting emphasis on the clip where she was externally "glowed up" and say she looks like a complete different person but then deny and disacknowledge that it has anything to do with her physical "glow up". Do u see what I'm getting at? I'm not even trying to see bad things, but I'm not sugarcoating either, I notice things and I'll say it how it is.

people are so used to “glow up with me in a day” videos which are absolutely not attainable in the long term that real glow up videos like yours bore them. this is what a real glow up looks like, you have to come to terms with your insecurities and struggles to really glow up from within. i honestly feel not so alone whenever i watch your videos, they show the reality and are actually relatable

@se-lene

3 ай бұрын

I noticed that these people who make vids on "glow up in a day" are always the pretty ones with no issues and sometimes rich as well, so glowing up to them is getting facial treatments, new haircut and hair colour, nails done, skincare with lots of products etc. Where everything looks pretty and aesthetically pleasing.

@Nothereforit174

3 ай бұрын

@@se-leneglow up was never meant to be anything beyond shallow. It’s your fault and hers for trying to make it more. That’s the issue with these trends. Y’all will see how it originated and then add a bunch of extra meaning to it to insist it have some deeper reason and It just doesn’t work like that all the time because it’s the internet and someone’s a fun trend is just a fun trend.

@Nothereforit174

3 ай бұрын

Whats a real glow up lol? They were never about emotions and intellect. Some of you just made it that because you can’t stand addressing issues on your Own without internet guidance nor can you allow for trivial trends. Everything must be greater than it actually is even to your own detriment

@chelleaina5579

3 ай бұрын

“glow up from within” that sums it all up I love that so much if you treat yourself like garbage and work on your outer appearance alone you’re just a garbage bag with a gucci belt🤷🏽‍♀️ the real work is within

@chelleaina5579

3 ай бұрын

@@Nothereforit174 your opening sentence should be framed!! people have been using something so shallow as a guiding tool for their whole life of course it’s not going to be sufficient :( just wish people knew the better alternative than the weekly inconsistent self hate driven glow ups

i appreciate you so much for sharing your story. people really do not understand how hard it is the struggle with your self image. it just feels like a never ending cycle of un happiness, like you can't find anything about yourself that you can stand to look at. once you come to the realization that we are all different for a reason, we only live for ourselves and that we are all beautiful in our own way; everything changes.

Thank you so much for this. Possibly the only real, raw, authentic and totally beautifully vulnerable thing I have ever seen across the internet. I relate to everything in this video!! YOU ARE AMAZING xxx

That part where she said “say something nice about yourself” and just cried…. That hit home 😢 I hope she finds inner peace

@AA-iy4gm

3 ай бұрын

It looks like towards the end that she has a healthier view of herself and the external world, I do wish that she or anyone in a similar situation doesn't dismiss negativity from their parents in form of their unhealthy comments because sometimes parents do have expectations that are not in the best interest of their kid but in the interest of looking good as a family unit to the outside world and that is not okay, parents should be more supportive and loving.

@shreksmistress

3 ай бұрын

I felt it to my core

@Rosa-kd2cl

2 ай бұрын

Honestly I’ve been in the same position too many times. When you constantly criticize yourself, it’s almost impossible to compliment yourself...

I feel like this video needs to be shown in every school and college. It's so powerful, and contains knowledge that every human being needs. Thank you for sharing this

@brandonhealy7158

3 ай бұрын

I wholeheartedly agree!

@fayolasaunders6342

3 ай бұрын

I agree this is very important and powerful.

@julezthealien2467

3 ай бұрын

100%

@chrissy138

Ай бұрын

Instead the mass of teenage girls watch wizardliz who push this toxic glow up culture

Alivia, thank you so much for being so vulnerable, raw and honest. Parents and adults don’t know how much their comments can truly affect our self worth and self image. I struggled a lot until my mid 30’s tying my self worth to a number on a scale. Yo yo dieting, crash dieting, punishing myself with exercise. Finally at 36, I’ve learned my true value that isn’t tied to my weight. Exercise isn’t a punishment anymore but is something that enriches my life and helps my mental health. I don’t restrict any food but mindfully eat everything in moderation. Thank you for sharing your journey because you’ve shared my journey too. ❤

Some parts of this video made me cry. This feeling of "never enough" is devastating, like no matter what you do you always lose to that negative self-talk in your head. I'm happy you've found inner peace. Thank you for this documentary, it's genuine ❤

At some point it just hit me that we're so not used to see real tears and emotion online, that for the first 10 minutes I felt like I was watching an actor portray emotions. I realized I was getting uncomfortable watching someone cry online because crying is usually acted so bad. When I was able to break the mental wall of actually seeing the person on the screen it no longer felt uncomfortable but I was able to feel with you. Thank you for your honest portrayal of emotions and your wise words in the end. I have to say, this was really touching to watch

@daena270

3 ай бұрын

This exactly this. The more I watched, the more I wanted to cry with her. This world is so cruel

@Senfree

3 ай бұрын

The thing is, people cry differently. Not everyone cries the same. I cry silently, mostly because I was punished for crying as a child. Some people cry like this, and I have before too, but it's not very common. And some people cry louder than this.

@lapanen_

3 ай бұрын

@@Senfree Agreed! I cry differently and it depends on how much it hurts. If I'm just feeling a bit down I just sob silently. It takes much more hardships to make me cry loud like she did in the video. It only made the message so much stronger to me. It was easier to recognize how hard this was on her and how horrible it must have been to make her cry as hard as she did :(

@Homodemon

3 ай бұрын

​@@Senfree I also cry silently, and I tense like crazy, like, stone hard tension. But I know that if I don't tense, nothing would stop me from just start screaming, not bawling or sobbing loudly, like, just outright screaming my lungs out like a child, like "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH" until my throat is a mess and I sink to the ground because I can't breathe. As an adult within society that's not acceptable to do. As an autistic adult though, I feel that that's the only way I would achieve catharsis from crying otherwise crying does nothing for me. I haven't experienced catharsis ever since I was a tiny child, self conscious about how my way of unwinding and making my brain compute and move on is often detrimental to others. Like, raw emotion really is not a template, we all blow off steam much differently to how media portrays it as this quiet tear filled sobbing and blubbering most of the time.

@Senfree

3 ай бұрын

@@Homodemon I'm also autistic. If I make sounds when I cry, sometimes it could be the wailing. But otherwise it's been more like a keening noise. Or some mixture of vocal stims in an attempt to self soothe. (I'm not sure how to explain it properly. It depends on what made me cry, I think. If I'm crying normally, or crying from a meltdown.) But I think I'd have to be in an empty house to do that. My house is never empty.

I think this is the problem with social media. It destroyed this girl’s perception of reality.

@supersonicskye

2 ай бұрын

I think social media does this to EVERYONE. I am rarely on social media now and my family gets offended when I don't associate with what's big news on FB or Twitter. I think social media is the root cause of a lot of depression in people today.

@Ohdeerohman

2 ай бұрын

What happened to her basically happened to me, the dopamine you get from going viral because of content you made centered around your appearance- it really does something to the brain. The comparing, obsessing about followers, always feeling not enough if you don’t get enough attention- it genuinely gave me an eating disorder. I feel like id be happier if I didnt have access to social media 24/7, the brainrot is real

@siouxgerowsays

2 ай бұрын

It happened long before social media. The first magazine subscription my mother got me was Young Miss...a monthly reminder of how to be a totally conforming girl in the late 1970s. It is how to keep this aspect of capitalism going. Fashion and cosmetics and self-help(!) and more depend on making you feel inferior, ugly and needing product. No one is ever good enough. Bravo to all who have opened their eyes.

@xingyuyaomt-bc6592

2 ай бұрын

@@supersonicskye I can't agree more.

@MokSy93

2 ай бұрын

exactly. it’s the social standards that kill people inside nowadays. You’ll always see someone better than you and you’ll get obsessed to become that yourself

this was so incredible to see, you are absolutely glowing now and it is amazing to see the love you’ve grown for your beautiful self 🩷

Love the ending💜

Growth is beautiful. Growth is powerful. So proud of you bb❤️❤️❤️

@archanaitagi2089

3 ай бұрын

OMG Zoe is here Only true struggler knows the struggle of others❤

@simplycaspar

3 ай бұрын

I love the friendship dynamic that you two share. ❤️

@rturcott4820

3 ай бұрын

I honestly am so blown away by this. She’s been through so much publicly. She’s so beautiful and sincere.

@bobsalamandre6417

3 ай бұрын

You at of all ppl should not be here commenting that

@badgerbee

3 ай бұрын

@@grill_lv Lmao

Getting off most social media legit saved my life. Comparison culture is really the thief of all joy. I don’t spend hours staring at myself in the mirror. I don’t take selfies more than 3-4 per month. I don’t post pictures of myself anymore. I make a conscious effort to be mindful of the media and content I consume. I’m not perfect, I still catch myself comparing myself to others sometimes but I am so so so much kinder to myself than I used to be about how I look and I spend so much more time worrying about how I feel and how I’m growing my mind and my love. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done but I’m so happy I did because I wouldn’t still be here today if I didn’t find the strength to do it

@xx-sc4zb

3 ай бұрын

i deleted all my social media apps, but i still have my accounts and sometimes i use the web versions to check stuff and because my fomo isn't entirely healed. Whenever i linger on them more than what it's needed i instantly notice how much it does affect me how i start comparing myself (my life, my body, my mind) to others, how i get nervous about other people's mindsets, and generally how much i feel worse after. It's terrible to think that before deleting them i did this to myself hours and hours each day, and i can't understand how i did it.

@sambalgoreng

3 ай бұрын

i am doing all the same things as you! i noticed early on that Instagram is such a bad world for me. i kept believing that what people choose to portray is their actual real lives, when its not. its not real. i constantly need to remind myself of that. I end up feeling this hatred towards them and myself because of Instagram. uninstalling the app itself has done so much for my mental health :")

@nadiahlee154

3 ай бұрын

Girl same. I've been doing the same for this past 3 years. I'm feeling great now. No Ig, no tiktok. But I still got my FB to check some stuff. Just my anime's community. Some funny videos. That's it. Nothing more. I don't post pics or post something about myself anymore. I don't follow anyone or add anyone. Just me and myself. 😂 This is the best decision I've made! No turning back. ❤

@andriannawalsh931

3 ай бұрын

@@nadiahlee154 hell yeah!! ❤️

@saltymituna6975

3 ай бұрын

y'all are talking about social media and it feels like i'm the only one who also feels very insecure and jealous of people i see in real life. it's... hard. i see how pretty they are and i want to hide. because i am ugly, because i think they will think that too... and i always think that if they're laughing, they're laughing at me. bullying did it's job, i suppose 🙂 it's just sad. i used to think there are no ugly people, because all people look like people after all, and here i am now... being my own number 1 bully. it could be an effect from being affected by social media of course, but i am just in general not very good looking to add on that. so yeah, fun little experiences of my everyday life :D

Gurl you are so pretty ❤❤ you dont need to a glow up, hope to see you happy and love yourself

I love this sm. I don't really struggle that bad with body image despite gaining and losing weight but this is such a genuine and raw documentation of her journey towards self-acceptance and self-love. I'm really happy that you finally gained that healthy mindset and found friends who support you no matter what. I wish you nothing but more happiness in life!

I turned 22 this year. I'm a VERY private person, I don't have an account on Instagram, facebook or anything. I keep my life very private and don't even share the best photos of mine. I keep them for myself. And I'm Extremely happy about myself, I care for myself, I love myself the most. I don't share my journey or struggles or anything for that matter with the public. There's no particular reason for it, It's just that I enjoy it this way, sharing the best moments with only the closed ones who really matter to me. And I know it takes a lot of guts to share all your vulnerabilities online, I just loved this video and I respect you from the bottom of my heart that you were brave enough to show the world all your insecurities and struggles. Can't appreciate you enough. I heartily wish you the best. Keep loving yourself, stay healthy, stay natural, don't let others define you. I would like to tell this to everyone here, There is enough room for everyone and there are no more boxes to fit you in anymore. You are unique in your own way, Just stay healthy and happy inside. Don't seek validation from people who aren't even valid, they don't add anything to your life. God Bless Everyone. I love you ❤

@curiouskittenn

3 ай бұрын

This comment is amazing, you are a wonderful person❤❤

@user-vt8ht2xm6b

3 ай бұрын

This is soooo me ❤

@JacquelynKay

3 ай бұрын

💯💯💯

@princesslamour4659

3 ай бұрын

Love this comment. I’m not on social media either. I love you for this thank you ❤️❤️❤️

@paigem7886

3 ай бұрын

Theres something about that. I got married and posted that and people were like WTF WHAT??? hahaha its power

I watched your glow up diaries deep in my eating disorder. watching this one year into recovery and I am crying for myself and for you, for how normal it felt to hate ourselves, for how I punished my body over and over and over for simply existing. recovery is hard but I am doing much better now I am allowing my body to take the shape that it is healthy at rather than focusing on the image of healthiness that is drilled into us.

@sylvi_frnd

3 ай бұрын

i watched her videos too, when i was struggling…now i‘m so much better and seeing this. seeing how my mindset has changed, too. it is amazing. And i am so happy for you that you are allowing yourself and your body to be happy and healthy. i‘m proud of you💞

@itsmeriii

3 ай бұрын

100%, glad u’re doing better now

ur so strong i understand the struggle much love

So much love for this struggle and this beautiful young woman.

“When we seek validation from others to feel worthy, we start to believe that our worthiness depends on their approval and acceptance” Wow!!!!

@RabiaMukasoro28

3 ай бұрын

Word💯💯💯💯

@themountainsandthesea4121

3 ай бұрын

​@@RabiaMukasoro28yes! You give them the power that should be yours alone. ❤/ it takes the focus off what matters/ what one truly desires/ wants/ the focus off of who truly loves you.

@leemadeline9771

2 ай бұрын

In which minute of video?

she'll always be more inspiring and relatable to me than other weight loss or glow-up stories. she "failed" and got back up several times, not for the sake of not giving up but actually did the necessary introspection to break the unhealthy cycles. she's not afraid to show the painful parts because she knows people need to see it. i remember always thinking how sad it was how hard she was on herself at her higher weights to the point of not even trying to dress nicely, i remember in her original glow-up video she called her "former" self weak-minded and stuff like that. so seeing her decide to basically love herself unconditionally was a relief. even if she hadn't ended up losing weight, that alone showed the biggest and most drastic development in her. you can't hate yourself into loving yourself. tough love is necessary sometimes but ultimately there is no roundabout for loving yourself and accepting yourself, you have to do this to move on with your life. alivia, i'm glad you found self-love.

@fireybutmostlyfriendly4299

3 ай бұрын

It is the gift of desperation. It is truly a gift. The joy is within the struggle.

@madhavimanisha5577

3 ай бұрын

In my opinion, universe will keep sending you these situations until you see the actual realities of life and make peace with the realities and learn the actual lesson....we all are learning...this same kinda situations happened with me in many aspects of my life until I finally see it and make peace with it🤍

@luiiiandmovieee

3 ай бұрын

"you can't hate yourself into loving yourself" is a very great and true sentence

this was so hard and heartbreaking to watch, sending you lots of love x

I’m so sorry you had to go through all of this- people are so sad and cruel. You sure came out on top! It’s wonderfully brave of you to share this. I know it will help others. ❤ respect

"Making peace with all versions of yourself"... So beautifully said and so important to hear.

@thickmint5875

4 күн бұрын

I've never liked any version of myself so no idea how I'm gonna pull this off, wish me luck lol

@bfenerli

4 күн бұрын

@thickmint5875 you've got this, good luck! Even if you didn't like those versions, making peace with them means accepting they had a reason for the way they were. Make peace, move onto the version of yourself you want to be today and tomorrow!

@thickmint5875

4 күн бұрын

@@bfenerli yeah you're right. There were always very real reasons. 🫣 Thank you for your encouragement.

"Your happiness doesn't have to make sense to other people" is something I needed to hear for so long 😭 I can't recall how many times I tore myself down and stopped doing things that I loved because other people couldn't understand it. The true glow-up is healing, and I hope one day I get to feel the same self-love and happiness that you have now. It feels so hard to imagine a world where I could love myself, but I know I've loved myself before, so it's possible. Thank you so much for sharing your journey and being vulnerable. It's hard and you're incredibly strong for sharing this with the world. Please know that you've found something truly beautiful!

@Riyasingh-epic

3 ай бұрын

you're beautiful mah girllll... I'm happy to know that you're gonna be changed for yourself and your inner self which is really amazing...love you and a big huggggggggggiessssss for you. please always stay happy no matter what...and accept yourself just the way you're. I want you to love yourself and accept yourself and always be happy and greatful for whatever you have

@desideriadreams5180

3 ай бұрын

❤️❤️❤️

@nina_ana333

3 ай бұрын

You will certainly get there 🤍🤍🤍

@chelleaina5579

3 ай бұрын

I was so hesitant to call the true glow up healing; healing is so much moreee than that omg it’s a deep treatment that oozes out so much beauty, love, contentment and peace that the shallow “glow up” term can’t even compare truly wish it for everyone that went through glow up culture

This is so relatable and heartbreaking. ❤

thank you so much for sharing this. it was so painful to watch it, but i really want to tell you that you're one of the bravest and strongest people i know. you went through all of this shit and found the way to love yourself and love the life you have. i think it also will help so many people who struggle with the same issues. again, thank you so much and may god bless you ♥ sending lots of love to you!