Healing From My Old Wounds - Muthoni Gitau

Unresolved trauma festers like a flesh-eating bacteria on a wound. The longer it stays unattended to, the deeper it eats into the soul of the host. Muthoni Gitau, an African content creator and DIY queen knows this all too well. After a traumatic violation, Muthoni thought she could suppress the pain and for years, sought ways to numb it with alcohol. This only led to more pain. A caring friend and a therapist have helped her begin dealing with the layers of pain. Now she doesn’t need to hide behind red lipstick. In this candid and courageous story, we are encouraged to feel and deal with our pain to heal.
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  • @willykasafi1563
    @willykasafi15632 жыл бұрын

    One thing I will teach my kids is the fact that they can come home no matter what happened they can come home.

  • @misskarun2548

    @misskarun2548

    2 жыл бұрын

    this am almost 30's and this is something my dad says to date

  • @faithonyimbo5171

    @faithonyimbo5171

    2 жыл бұрын

    My mum almost sings this.... Whatever happens, come back home, your mother is still alive.

  • @dianaigoko4871

    @dianaigoko4871

    2 жыл бұрын

    Same here

  • @nellymisiko9720

    @nellymisiko9720

    2 жыл бұрын

    My mum made sure of this to date you can go home whenever 'it's your home' she would say

  • @wambuibobo4821

    @wambuibobo4821

    Жыл бұрын

    My daughter came back to me home @32years. She's mine and this is her home

  • @phoebe5103
    @phoebe51032 жыл бұрын

    The friend who watched and said/did nothing is as bad as the predator. You can't convince me otherwise.

  • @TheKingiscoming-Repent
    @TheKingiscoming-Repent2 жыл бұрын

    There is one who heals, there is one who can remove you from a dark hole, there is one who can turn your life around. No hope can be lost with Him around and in you. His name is Jesus. He did it for me, He can do it for you🤗

  • @KMStar-hk1gc

    @KMStar-hk1gc

    2 жыл бұрын

    Very true.Only Christ can do it.

  • @christinenyarangi3286

    @christinenyarangi3286

    Жыл бұрын

    Why didn't he prevent the dark hole from happening in the first place, I wonder🤔?

  • @GingerNalotesha
    @GingerNalotesha2 жыл бұрын

    The fact that I relate😭 I pray that we all heal one day❤️

  • @shirleyn.8563

    @shirleyn.8563

    2 жыл бұрын

    ♥️♥️♥️♥️Hugs

  • @naimawalendo5341

    @naimawalendo5341

    2 жыл бұрын

    Me too..Hugs ♥️

  • @cynthiaatieno2486

    @cynthiaatieno2486

    2 жыл бұрын

    ❤ love and light to you

  • @dollyo4663

    @dollyo4663

    2 жыл бұрын

    Hugs

  • @Muthonie

    @Muthonie

    2 жыл бұрын

    We will dear. We are ❤️

  • @kagendokaecha9080
    @kagendokaecha90802 жыл бұрын

    I've been around muthoni and she's such a sweet soul, you wouldn't be able to tell the trauma she's gone through. I really wanted to hug you watching this, you are warrior baby girl, sending you lots of love

  • @nthenya3712
    @nthenya37122 жыл бұрын

    This evokes such strong feelings for many of us who've gone through something similar. I really doubt the 14% figure is accurate, many many women never report sexual abuse and rape to anyone. Ask women around you and without a doubt, they all have a story. Muthoni is an amazing storyteller, and I pray she'll truly find healing. Thank you so much for sharing.

  • @cathythuo8606

    @cathythuo8606

    2 жыл бұрын

    #Nthenya I totally agree with you. A good number of us still dont have the courage to open up because of the shame and blame that comes with it.

  • @maureenjagona8138

    @maureenjagona8138

    2 жыл бұрын

    Very true

  • @leobrown7527

    @leobrown7527

    2 жыл бұрын

    14%is a 1/3 of what is reported.There is no support in the country so people prefer to keep it to themselves.Remember there is what they call intimate partner sexual violence.That is considered rape even if it is your boyfriend or spouse.

  • @micente4028

    @micente4028

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@diana-pn2hu a majority of the cases are unreported. 14% is probably lower.

  • @tabitha2670
    @tabitha26702 жыл бұрын

    I believe there are so many Muthoni's out here but we cant get the courage to express ourselves like this.

  • @MetaPhysical369
    @MetaPhysical3692 жыл бұрын

    This broke my heart.. We African are so cruel towards our children. What happened to this talented creative young lady had happened because she was so afraid of her father! 💔 Sometimes, we trust friends more than our famlies! which is wrong. Our families should be our support system, not our suppressors.

  • @janetmuthoni6919

    @janetmuthoni6919

    2 жыл бұрын

    You can't really blame the parent coz do they really know what they're doing? Given what they've been through n maybe what they're still going through to provide for you. Sometimes life becomes overwhelming n we lose it

  • @micente4028

    @micente4028

    2 жыл бұрын

    @@janetmuthoni6919 I don’t think that blaming but stating a truth that is unfortunate. The parents may not know what they are doing but that doesn’t negate the fact that had they been supportive, the probability of such things happening could be lower.

  • @TheYANGpodcast
    @TheYANGpodcast2 жыл бұрын

    The two dislikes are from the friend and the predator....

  • @waihiga124
    @waihiga1242 жыл бұрын

    SEXUAL VIOLENCE AGAINST WOMEN IS PERPETRATED BY MEN WHO ARE NOT WORTH THE HONOR OF BEING CALLED REAL MEN. PERIOD. Hugs Muthoni. May healing find you.

  • @shirleentilya1240
    @shirleentilya12402 жыл бұрын

    This beautiful soul is extremely brave to share her story. Muthoni, your scars will be your stones to build a higher platform to share your journey. Well done for narrating through the tears. You are beautiful both in and out & this is not how your story ends. God bless.

  • @nancyndichu8088
    @nancyndichu80882 жыл бұрын

    at some point I could not hold back my tears..I wish you well Muthoni as you go through therapy. Be sure that by sharing this it has encouraged or given someone somewhere hope. You are strong Muthoni!

  • @mercymickey4889
    @mercymickey48892 жыл бұрын

    May we all get an Alex in our lives. Hugs♥️

  • @maryannewambui2646
    @maryannewambui2646 Жыл бұрын

    😥I believe children should be able to come home anytime regardless of their circumstances.

  • @wanjikugitau1065
    @wanjikugitau10652 жыл бұрын

    Felt like going to give her a hug 🥺.You are so brave and beautiful . Sending lots of love to you and anyone else going through hard times.

  • @rebhoney6803
    @rebhoney68032 жыл бұрын

    I was balancing tears throughout this video. I'm so sorry about this experience Muthoni. May you indeed receive your healing. It shall be well

  • @alisonlyezire9951
    @alisonlyezire99512 жыл бұрын

    Please provide tissues for the speakers, they shouldn't have to wipe their tears away with their hands.

  • @salimakibathi2862
    @salimakibathi28622 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for your story..you are such a strong lady and just been able to talk about your trauma makes you a hero because some of us don't even have the courage to talk about our own traumas. May you receive healing

  • @faithwanjiru7393
    @faithwanjiru73932 жыл бұрын

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️ sending hugs baby girl.Am sure therapy will work for you girl and thank you for being courageous to talk about it, you may not realize it but you have actually healed someone in a way.I love engage talk so much ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️😩😩

  • @sadeykamochu
    @sadeykamochu2 жыл бұрын

    This is so raw and deep. I couldn't understand the depth of it until she broke down. Muthoni this is so brave of you to share. Sending love to every woman who has had to go through this❤

  • @jedidahakinyi9681
    @jedidahakinyi96812 жыл бұрын

    Oh, Muthoni! I am so sorry for your pain and everything you've been through. I love your work. You are a beautiful person. May you heal from this. Much love

  • @nicolewanjiru8132
    @nicolewanjiru81322 жыл бұрын

    You're a strong lady. God bless you

  • @NoelCynthiaMusicLoveLight
    @NoelCynthiaMusicLoveLight2 жыл бұрын

    Thankyou so much for sharing your story, Muthoni. Yours is a story of pain and courage. Your fighting spirit is an inspiration! This lady is amazing, strong and worthy of every good thing that life has to give.

  • @Ichbinthee_dali
    @Ichbinthee_dali2 жыл бұрын

    You just never know someone’s struggle and story. Much love and respect for sharing your story and wish you every little bit of healing

  • @esthernjoroge9221
    @esthernjoroge92212 жыл бұрын

    My heart goes out to you for bearing your vulnerability. In addition to the SA (sexual assault), my takeout is to provide a safety net for our kids to never ever doubt that their safety comes before anything (be it rules, opinions, sanctions etc). Wish you well as you progress in your healing journey.

  • @felixruto8028
    @felixruto80282 жыл бұрын

    Powerful... The fact that you are able to talk about it helps you heal... Keep making progress, you are a beautiful soul

  • @nidahmutheu4309
    @nidahmutheu43092 жыл бұрын

    Muthoni, you are beautiful and authentic. thank you for sharing so deeply about what happened to you. May you find healing. May God comfort you and bring you total healing.

  • @njokikiama2790
    @njokikiama27902 жыл бұрын

    Amazing, strong girl you've turnout to be...😍 God bless you as you take the wonderful path of healing you have chosen🙏🏽

  • @WanjiruWaithaka
    @WanjiruWaithaka2 жыл бұрын

    This hit me really hard. Love and light Muthoni. Thank God for friends like Alex.

  • @Vonnie_Mwangi
    @Vonnie_Mwangi2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you Muthoni for sharing your story. Very inspirational.

  • @muthoniek
    @muthoniek2 жыл бұрын

    Watched this with baited breath, you're courageous Muthoni!!!! I admire your humble nature, the best lies ahead of you. And may God bless you with truthful friends!!!! 🙏🏾

  • @Mugs7
    @Mugs72 жыл бұрын

    You are a strong woman. I am so sorry Muthoni. May the Lord heal your scars and lift you up. Thank you for sharing. 🙏🏽

  • @kuikaranja
    @kuikaranja2 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story, Muthoni. Sending you love, good vibes, and healing!

  • @graceshrew9033
    @graceshrew90332 жыл бұрын

    Hugs Muthoni... You are awesome and courageous for sharing your most vulnerable place in life. May you continue discovering yourself and truly enjoy life...

  • @Miyu-cy7es
    @Miyu-cy7es2 жыл бұрын

    Wow! Friends save lives! And really the red lipstick looks really good on you. Quickest healing, kudos for sharing your story 👏

  • @janeg4547
    @janeg45472 жыл бұрын

    Muthoni, you have a great future. Do not let whatever has happened to you stop you. May it propell you to your greatest heights in life. You are a winner.

  • @slysly5723
    @slysly57232 жыл бұрын

    Ooh Muthoni.. I shed tears along with you.. Sending you some Hugs.. Keep healing Muthoni.. Trust the Process. You are Beautiful.. Intelligent eloquent Woman. ❤️

  • @e.cheruto8509
    @e.cheruto85092 жыл бұрын

    Muthoni you are beautiful, your work is beautiful and I am so sorry for what happened to you. Healing is a journey.

  • @annalisekathomi2336
    @annalisekathomi23362 жыл бұрын

    Im so proud of her May God comfort her and heal her to full recovery and to grow beyond her wildest dreams

  • @gracewairimu6530
    @gracewairimu65302 жыл бұрын

    May your healing be permanent and may you be stronger to overcome anything that might try to remind you of your pains.

  • @eddahwachuka1066
    @eddahwachuka10662 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story Muthoni. May you get healing in all ways and may your story touch many lives. You are phenomenal woman full of love, life and colour. Hugs hugs hugs

  • @charitysafehaven
    @charitysafehaven2 жыл бұрын

    I really teared up listening to Muthoni's story. It's not okay to judge someone when you don't know the story behind the person. Praying for you to find healing and to continue being that voice of encouragement to women (esp the young) who can listen and resonate with.

  • @carolinewamuyu6222
    @carolinewamuyu62222 жыл бұрын

    I've always seen your strength @Muthoni, even here, so much of it. Beautiful girl.

  • @Shee_Wainaina
    @Shee_Wainaina2 жыл бұрын

    Super proud of you Muthoni. Mega hugs and you are doing great towards your healing. Sending love

  • @wangarimwangi7395
    @wangarimwangi73952 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story with us.

  • @charleskimanimuchora5234
    @charleskimanimuchora52342 жыл бұрын

    love and light.Thank you for the courage to share this.

  • @JK-uv3ck
    @JK-uv3ck2 жыл бұрын

    You are beautiful, thanks for sharing, May God continually strengthen. Thanks for never giving up

  • @catherineakinyi5630
    @catherineakinyi56302 жыл бұрын

    You are an amazing young woman. Believe in yourself. Much love and respect to you 💝

  • @dianafaith1085
    @dianafaith10852 жыл бұрын

    Thank you for sharing your story Muthoni.Love and healing🤍

  • @suzanmaepe9778
    @suzanmaepe97782 жыл бұрын

    Muthoni, thank you for sharing your stuff. So many alcoholics and drug addicts will tell you that they drink to numb the pain. Sexual assault is so traumatic, i can definitely relate.

  • @anjelineokoth38
    @anjelineokoth382 жыл бұрын

    sex predators are all over...and sometimes they hide as people who offer to help us at our darkest times. fear and shame makes us hide within these experiences changing the course of of our ambitions, goals, and self worth ..i am so sorry you went through this...I wish you recovery in resolving the unresolved traumas that impede your personal growth and development

  • @Bosses_Roses
    @Bosses_Roses2 жыл бұрын

    story of my life..thank you for being brave enough to say it loud

  • @lilianwaringa4544
    @lilianwaringa45442 жыл бұрын

    Hugs darling, you are victorious. I wish you every beautiful blessing that life has to offer. You are beautiful, talented and powerful ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @Shesh452
    @Shesh4522 жыл бұрын

    What a story! More strength baby girl. Keep going. You are a star🌸

  • @jowyobado33
    @jowyobado332 жыл бұрын

    Muthoni,you are in control ! Sending you love,light and healing ❤.

  • @cathythuo8606
    @cathythuo86062 жыл бұрын

    This is so heartbreaking Muthoni. Am so sorry you had to go through all this. I still can't fathom how your 'friend' would be ok with this happening to you. You are a star and no one can dim your light sweetheart!

  • @planetmediatv2900
    @planetmediatv29002 жыл бұрын

    You are strong and the fact that you are able to share your story proves that..Thank you for sharing you story I am sure it will encourage other victims to speak out to their close circles and continue working on you✔

  • @REGINA686970
    @REGINA6869702 жыл бұрын

    I am so sorry Muthoni for the pain you had to endure. I pray that you get to heal all the crevices where pain seeped into and stayed. I pray that pain leaves once and for all. I pray that your heart is open again for love, for joy and happiness. You did such a brave thing sharing the pain, keep walking it gets better as you walk.

  • @khamisaisha739
    @khamisaisha7392 жыл бұрын

    Love and light Muthoni. You are strong ❤

  • @harrietbosibori
    @harrietbosibori2 жыл бұрын

    Hugs,...love and light to you!

  • @JessicaAfricaOfficialke
    @JessicaAfricaOfficialke2 жыл бұрын

    You are beautiful, courageous and very eloquent. Sorry for what had happened. Friends can be your foes. all shall be well. cant wait to listen to your poetry.

  • @angelam4136
    @angelam41362 жыл бұрын

    Crying along with you and wishing you continued healing. Considering that this was something you've always tried to numb yourself to, you were so strong to share this story!

  • @vallburetti7824
    @vallburetti78242 жыл бұрын

    Such a strong and an eloquent lady!! So sorry for what you've gone through❤️

  • @zamcheller
    @zamcheller2 жыл бұрын

    It takes courage to share , you are brave and beautiful May all the experience the red zones transform you to a more stronger and caring woman . Hugs dada 🤗💋💄

  • @idawairimu7093
    @idawairimu70932 жыл бұрын

    Thanks for sharing.. This is what our children are facing in the world... May God protect them..

  • @judithnasimiyu97
    @judithnasimiyu972 жыл бұрын

    You are strong and an inspiration.

  • @marymutua5620
    @marymutua56202 жыл бұрын

    I am glad step by step you are finding healing

  • @alirahama6312
    @alirahama63122 жыл бұрын

    Keep healing those wounds,keep forgiving every day,and one day you will wear your scars with pride. Don't worry,better days are coming,If I got through it,baby girl you too will do!.

  • @sistersshenanigans
    @sistersshenanigans2 жыл бұрын

    Pole, speaking about it is a step towards healing.

  • @wanguimacharia5964
    @wanguimacharia59642 жыл бұрын

    Oh no Muthoni 😢😢😢😢 Hugs, love and light. May you find healing a day at a time 💜

  • @stellambuthiamallya4158
    @stellambuthiamallya41582 жыл бұрын

    You are a beautiful, authentic and very eloquent. Sending you the best wishes

  • @nzisamusila8920
    @nzisamusila89202 жыл бұрын

    hugs dada you are one strong soul to fall and rise again over and over even when struggling with it

  • @ritaenon2878
    @ritaenon28782 жыл бұрын

    Wow... More power to you.

  • @wairimutororey6614
    @wairimutororey66142 жыл бұрын

    a powerful and inspiring queen

  • @Akadi2023
    @Akadi20232 жыл бұрын

    Authentically spoken. I'd love to listen / Read to your poetry.

  • @florencenjoki3663
    @florencenjoki36632 жыл бұрын

    Oh Muthoni thank you for sharing. This just had me in full tears. I almost wanted the mama bear in me to jump and hug you all through.... I don't know the right words but sharing this...thank you❤ this will change lives

  • @Kapotokarei2023
    @Kapotokarei20232 жыл бұрын

    So inspirational 💕💕💕

  • @mercymsezeni838
    @mercymsezeni8382 жыл бұрын

    😭😭😭 How the friend sold her. This is heart-breaking. How men encourage evil is despicable. Praying for you. I can't believe how the other friend made you doubt. I just wish your parents were supportive.

  • @mercileenngina2692
    @mercileenngina26922 жыл бұрын

    You are a strong person Muthoni. My wish for you is that you may continue to find happiness despite the trauma.

  • @Mbarie
    @Mbarie2 жыл бұрын

    I wish I could hug you🥺🥺 I'm so sorry for that terrible ordeal. I pray you continue healing daily

  • @thegodlyprincess_kenya
    @thegodlyprincess_kenya2 жыл бұрын

    I knew you were going through the most. I am sending you love and grace 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

  • @phyllismbugua4186
    @phyllismbugua41862 жыл бұрын

    So sorry Muthoni. May God protect you. You shall overcome. Sending hugs and 💘

  • @margaretkungu1281
    @margaretkungu12812 жыл бұрын

    Hugs mama.. It shall be well:-) Praying you find healing..

  • @iwonder_tk
    @iwonder_tk2 жыл бұрын

    I really resonate with the crashing at others and chasing independence. Moreover, Muthoni is truly strong. God bless you for sharing your story and may he guide you always.

  • @phyllisi.340
    @phyllisi.3402 жыл бұрын

    My heart goes out to you Muthoni. You are one of the most creative people I know! Your DIY KZread channel is super!👌. You are beautiful and have a long great life ahead of you. If the abuser is watching this 😡😡😡. And the said 'friend'..😡😡😡. How do you allow your friend to abuse your 'friend'?? Vengeance is the Lord's..Sending you love and hugs Muthoni 🤗🤗😘😘.

  • @bhekiobara1461
    @bhekiobara14612 жыл бұрын

    It was really bold of you to find the strength for this. I love you muthoni and I pray You find healing ❤❤

  • @gracenyaboke8483

    @gracenyaboke8483

    2 жыл бұрын

    I know.Her healing just started.

  • @magdalinemwangi4189
    @magdalinemwangi41892 жыл бұрын

    Pole sana, Muthoni for all the hurtful experiences. You have worked hard and you have been strong. May the Lord really do you well. You will be well.

  • @cheekbonesgoddess228
    @cheekbonesgoddess2282 жыл бұрын

    M glad you have let go of the person who hurt you...time heals everything lots of hugs Msoh🥰💝

  • @salnkiro3835
    @salnkiro3835 Жыл бұрын

    Proud of you Muthoni, you are a warrior, you are a fighter, you have conquered the worst. From now henceforth, consider yourself an overcomer because you are. Hugs baby girl, you are loved 💕

  • @ArthurKwaSky
    @ArthurKwaSky2 жыл бұрын

    This is deep, I can totally relate....

  • @hoorulain5527
    @hoorulain55272 жыл бұрын

    Pole sana.am feeling ur pain.and I wish fathers can be freinds with there daughters.and just be kind enough.

  • @elleakenya
    @elleakenya2 жыл бұрын

    All the best in your healing process

  • @dorothywambui6870
    @dorothywambui68702 жыл бұрын

    You are a strong and beautiful girl....dont let it draw you down!

  • @nursemaggie2321
    @nursemaggie23212 жыл бұрын

    Oh my goodness, what a young pure African lady! I felt the weight on my shoulders, thank God you are still here and the amount of details and attention you pay to your emotions will help you heal even better. My heart goes out to you in every loving way possible. Please pray too to your heavenly father through Jesus, tell him your challenges in your private chambers and HE certainly will comfort and support you

  • @ireneatieno8729
    @ireneatieno87292 жыл бұрын

    Heartbreaking. Self medicating is so common and so misunderstood. I am so sorry about all the issues you faced.

  • @maureenabondo7250
    @maureenabondo72502 жыл бұрын

    Healing and restoration to you 💝

  • @edithmbogoh4557
    @edithmbogoh45572 жыл бұрын

    The best Engage Talk of all time 😌

  • @felistusnyamusinyangena6925

    @felistusnyamusinyangena6925

    2 жыл бұрын

    Honestly this gal needs help that I can't explain

  • @andaliamaureen
    @andaliamaureen2 жыл бұрын

    Thankyou for sharing yourself with us Muthoni. I am so sorry you went through that. I am so sorry. Keep healing ❤️‍🩹

  • @KateOdundo
    @KateOdundo2 жыл бұрын

    Love and light

  • @roy254ify
    @roy254ify2 жыл бұрын

    Pole sana.

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