Goodnight Dad I Love You / wishing / 1 hour

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  • @Mentallyunstable0_o
    @Mentallyunstable0_o4 ай бұрын

    I’m 12, just lost my dad 2 days ago. I hate the fact that most of the time I can’t even cry. This song weirdly gives me comfort when I need to zone out. I miss you pa

  • @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    3 ай бұрын

    Are you okay bukko? Im here for you

  • @iceceam123

    @iceceam123

    2 ай бұрын

    i didnt cry when my dad passed too

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    hey, I'm so sorry for your loss. i hope your father is in a better place and that you and your family are coping through such rough time, someone's passing can be hard to get through, and I'm terribly sorry for you, please take care of yourself during this time

  • @Hazbin_hyperfixation

    @Hazbin_hyperfixation

    27 күн бұрын

    you alright?

  • @v01d68
    @v01d689 ай бұрын

    Deep down I think I'm still that little boy trying to impress his father so that he'd love him.

  • @danieljuarez8910

    @danieljuarez8910

    9 ай бұрын

    real

  • @jevilstail

    @jevilstail

    8 ай бұрын

    girl..😭

  • @skywalker6076

    @skywalker6076

    6 ай бұрын

    Realist of reals

  • @jamesmchan999

    @jamesmchan999

    6 ай бұрын

    Real.

  • @yarely-cd5uv

    @yarely-cd5uv

    6 ай бұрын

    aw stop this hits hard

  • @Stephanie_583
    @Stephanie_58311 ай бұрын

    Crying my eyes out rn

  • @user-fz7xb4zo7j

    @user-fz7xb4zo7j

    10 ай бұрын

    How are you doing?

  • @HxlllxwPxxintS2

    @HxlllxwPxxintS2

    10 ай бұрын

    Lol

  • @ikickblackbabys297

    @ikickblackbabys297

    10 ай бұрын

    Real

  • @spectre47r9

    @spectre47r9

    9 ай бұрын

    @@user-fz7xb4zo7jhorrible I wanna end it I just wanna forget everything

  • @spectre47r9

    @spectre47r9

    9 ай бұрын

    @@user-fz7xb4zo7jI wanna feel something

  • @roodickens3936
    @roodickens39367 ай бұрын

    I don't have a dad, but when I listen to this song, I imagine I do and I'm wishing him goodnight.

  • @lordzyaD

    @lordzyaD

    4 ай бұрын

    Im sorry for you bro i wish i had dad too 😞

  • @Dirol06

    @Dirol06

    2 ай бұрын

    🥺

  • @Key-hc6ul

    @Key-hc6ul

    Ай бұрын

    You had one. Maybe he is not with you, but you still loving him. I think that makes him life inside you, and I think that's beautiful.

  • @andromeda5550
    @andromeda55503 ай бұрын

    i miss you dad its been 8 years i miss you and the laughter you gave me i miss the little trips you used to take us down the road, I would do anything to have another chat with you or just to say good night i would r.i.p

  • @maxissad5823
    @maxissad58238 ай бұрын

    im sorry dad you dont know who i am anymore i dont know who i am either it wasnt supposed to be like this i know you believed in me i know you are disappointed theres so much left unsaid so much i have to tell you but i cant so i’ll sleep it away goodnight dad i love you

  • @Disciplin
    @Disciplin5 ай бұрын

    Sometimes I make up little stories so I can forget that my life isnt a fairy tail and that I will die unhappy and unfulfilled some day

  • @leoniebeck5013
    @leoniebeck501310 ай бұрын

    The fact I went from „daddy’s girl“ to „daddy issues“ is sad

  • @er1rin16

    @er1rin16

    9 ай бұрын

    fr

  • @wherethebeesat
    @wherethebeesat10 ай бұрын

    I love this song but the title always makes me cry

  • @---ke3lg
    @---ke3lg6 ай бұрын

    Haven't lost my dad We see each other every week He's a cool guy ! Luv u dad even tho I never say it haha

  • @Chickentendersworld

    @Chickentendersworld

    2 ай бұрын

    Your really lucky you have a dad, I miss mines

  • @Se0kga
    @Se0kga6 ай бұрын

    This is how some of us feel on a daily basis. Not the feeling, but the noise itself. I have a father. I don't tell him goodnight. He didn't try to be better until I left. He doesn't get any credit. Life is odd. Paradoxical even. But it'll get better. Just don't prematurely end it because you feel like a burden. You're far from a burden. You are worth it.

  • @user-re2vj5jd5q

    @user-re2vj5jd5q

    6 ай бұрын

    hey man thanks. I was feeling a bit down today. Your words made me feel better.

  • @Cofactor2

    @Cofactor2

    4 ай бұрын

    Thanks

  • @glizzkhalifa

    @glizzkhalifa

    20 күн бұрын

    I just want to feel worth it. I never have

  • @Kaito1417
    @Kaito14177 ай бұрын

    Same loop continues everyday wake up regretting what i did yesterday. i never be so alone and isolated

  • @asparagus200

    @asparagus200

    7 ай бұрын

    when you find a way out let me know. I wish you well.

  • @ozzylepunknown551

    @ozzylepunknown551

    2 ай бұрын

    @@asparagus200 If there ever was a time when someone knew EVERYTHING - then surely they would also know what the RIGHT THING TO DO is. So learn, keep learning so that one day someone may do the right thing.

  • @vm-rd8qz

    @vm-rd8qz

    Ай бұрын

    Ive been alone for 1.5 years. At firsr it felt like you cant go through anymore, felt like you are being driven insane by your own mind. After a while you start getting comfortable with yourself and dont require socializing much anymore. You are satisfied by yourself and are complete with yourself. You dont mind losing anyone except your family if you have any at all. Not to say its a very healthy mindset but it is what it is.

  • @user-ur1uh5cx8p
    @user-ur1uh5cx8p6 ай бұрын

    every single time i heat this song i know that my dad is in louisiana working so he could buy me stuff, but i dont even listen to anyone i dont do my work in school im failing, but i love the fact that he is still out there working his life out for me.

  • @leoanderson4340
    @leoanderson43406 ай бұрын

    Goodnight Dad, i love you. I know your watching me be a dad now. 1:49

  • @Luxury.
    @Luxury.9 ай бұрын

    I’m sorry to anyone here, life is shitty, hope it gets better for everyone here 🫶🏼 Stay strong, you can make it through this :)

  • @mahdireza7332

    @mahdireza7332

    7 ай бұрын

    damn you knew

  • @yarely-cd5uv

    @yarely-cd5uv

    6 ай бұрын

    @@mahdireza7332you dont say “damn you knew” you thank them for hoping for you to make it through this.

  • @Entonz
    @Entonz6 ай бұрын

    i lost my dad when i was 9, i miss him so much, life is shitty without him. I miss you dad, i still love you❤️

  • @ors1n0___58
    @ors1n0___5810 ай бұрын

    I love my dad

  • @mitskisson

    @mitskisson

    9 ай бұрын

    this probably will sound cheesy as HELL but, please spend as much of your time as possible with your dad, if you’re comfortable doing so also give him as many hugs you can daily, and just tell him how much you appreciate and love him. my dad died almost a year ago and i just wish could go back in time and do that, even though my dad never did it for me and i guess it’d be safe to say he never cared about me being his child. but i still love and miss my dad, and i miss and grieve the dad i could’ve gotten. so yeah, please take care of your dad :) (apologies if this makes you uncomfortable btw, it’s not really meant as a vent but it could come off as one lmao)

  • @gentlejello

    @gentlejello

    9 ай бұрын

    @@mitskisson i hope you're healing well

  • @stanleypodlinski5384

    @stanleypodlinski5384

    8 ай бұрын

    @@mitskissontyu for this message

  • @CallSignDapper
    @CallSignDapper8 ай бұрын

    i miss being able to see my dad every day

  • @chief_PRO

    @chief_PRO

    4 ай бұрын

    real.

  • @Jay-zc6ry

    @Jay-zc6ry

    3 ай бұрын

    Real

  • @fen105
    @fen1053 ай бұрын

    It Will all be alright. Life is hard but God is always with u. At the end of your life you Will remember the fun times, the times with your loved once, and maybe these bad times that you have overcomed. God always has a plan for you and as long you still wake up every morning, he's plan is not finished yet. Stay positive even if it is so so hard. There are always people that have it worse. Never forget the things u have and Thank the Lord Jesus Christ for everything. Make the best from everything and never give up. That bed you are laying in right now, or that food you had today? Kids in wars would be more then gratefull.. so always Thank Jesus for the "normall things" in life. It is a weird world we are living in but make the most of it while it is light. Go spend time with your loved once, friends, family ect. One day they be gone and one day you will be gone. Nothing is forever exept the Love from God. Forgive everyone around you, even tho they hurt you. Always forgive Because Jesus forgave you for all your sins. Love everyone around you. Dont judge, dont hate. It wont make anyones life better. Amen, I love you. Always put all your faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and it will all be okay!! You’re so strong! Hope you have peace. ❤️✝️

  • @MilfsSlayer
    @MilfsSlayer7 ай бұрын

    Wish I could hug a depressed and mentally unstable person like me

  • @Kylxwxshxrelmao

    @Kylxwxshxrelmao

    3 ай бұрын

    I'd hug you if I could ❤

  • @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    3 ай бұрын

    I'll hug you

  • @orbismworldbuilding8428

    @orbismworldbuilding8428

    3 ай бұрын

    I'd also hug you I know what you mean, wanting to give the kind of compassion you need to someone in the same position

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    same I'll hug you with my might

  • @sadee_znuts
    @sadee_znuts8 ай бұрын

    i have never felt this alone

  • @alexcorrales878

    @alexcorrales878

    7 ай бұрын

    Are you okay

  • @sadee_znuts

    @sadee_znuts

    7 ай бұрын

    @@alexcorrales878 thanks alex

  • @ericdelatorre3417

    @ericdelatorre3417

    6 ай бұрын

    Even In a crowded room full of everyone you think and hope loves you..

  • @sadee_znuts

    @sadee_znuts

    5 ай бұрын

    @@ericdelatorre3417 my problem is, very literally, nobody would be in that room right now.

  • @ericdelatorre3417

    @ericdelatorre3417

    5 ай бұрын

    @@sadee_znuts we keep our heads up during these times🙏

  • @z0mbi3_4
    @z0mbi3_49 ай бұрын

    Every so often ill come back to this song only to cry to it on repeat because of the fact rhat i know my dad is going to die soon with him being older now but im no where near ready to let him go im still his daughter and i still need him im still his little girl that would ask him to buy me toys everytime we went to walmart hes still my dad no matter how old i get i hate knowinf im gonna be 15 soon and ill never ever be 5 again hes been my only sense of comfort with my own mom abandoning me ill feel so empty with my dad being gone and no relationship i ever have with a guy will ever make me feel better i love my dad so much Goodnight dad i love you

  • @ieatglitter828

    @ieatglitter828

    9 ай бұрын

    OH MY GOD THIS MADE ME CRY MAN WHAG THE FUCK

  • @ieatglitter828

    @ieatglitter828

    9 ай бұрын

    OH MY GOD THIS MADE ME CRY MAN WHAG THE FUCK

  • @z0mbi3_4

    @z0mbi3_4

    9 ай бұрын

    @@ieatglitter828 HELPP I WAS LITERALLT SOBBING LAST NIGHT HAHAHAH SORRYYY

  • @ieatglitter828

    @ieatglitter828

    9 ай бұрын

    @@z0mbi3_4 BRO IM SOBBING RIGHT NOW THIS + SONG IS BREAKINV MY HEART

  • @z0mbi3_4

    @z0mbi3_4

    9 ай бұрын

    @@ieatglitter828 SORRRYYYY LMAOAOO if i manage to feel bad again ill probably add to it HAHAHA

  • @rocknchill5177
    @rocknchill51778 ай бұрын

    If I knew that was the last time I’d hold her in my arms, embracing the love we had for eachother, I would’ve held her tighter, oh god please just let me kiss her 1 more time, 1 more hug, 1 more I love you, just let me hold her 1 more time…

  • @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    3 ай бұрын

    That ship has sailed brother, put your trust in The Lord. And move on

  • @rocknchill5177

    @rocknchill5177

    3 ай бұрын

    @@vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6 I’ve already done that since that day 5 months ago, thank you for your support though

  • @sunrozze
    @sunrozze7 ай бұрын

    Less than a week ago my dads funeral was held, He was born from the other side of europe where ive been brought up so I had to understand a language I havent spoken since I was 8. I could barely understand what the person who was speaking on my dads behalf was saying until I heard the words “He was kinder than he would’ve thought” and it broke me A month ago was my dads death and I was unable to accept the word death properly, I think its a joke to other people when you say you dont really understand their dead till your truly remind them, and not reminding them by just telling them “their dead” but as in their truly gone I was making jokes to my friends about his death as thats the most I could really do out of this situation but when I was told that one line at that funeral I cant stop thinking about this He was a fucker for alcohol he wasnt an alcoholic for all my life but all ive remembered him as is being one Yet somehow no matter how many times he broke and got angry with a bottle of vodka and was suppose to make me fear from him I never did. I still somehow smiled and felt safe in his arms and he was a good man he would do everything to me and he did give me everything I asked for Iremember the last week I saw him I asked him why he smoked, “it was something that was seen a cool and his friends were doing when he was 12”(eastern europe thats y their so underaged) I then asked him why he started drinking and he begged for me to never try it, he would quit, I know he would but hes ruined everything now and why would he build himself back up, thats what I’d do aswell He was the best, Thank you and Goodnight dad I love you

  • @local_therianbuddy

    @local_therianbuddy

    5 ай бұрын

    Sorry for your loss...

  • @Mase-yw8mk

    @Mase-yw8mk

    18 күн бұрын

    im so sorry

  • @Hannah-ug8gw
    @Hannah-ug8gw9 ай бұрын

    something inside of me is wrong.

  • @danieljuarez8910

    @danieljuarez8910

    9 ай бұрын

    im dead inside

  • @CallSignDapper

    @CallSignDapper

    8 ай бұрын

    i think for me it might be taco bell

  • @the.creature._

    @the.creature._

    6 ай бұрын

    I know how that feels. One day you will either fix it or learn to live with it. Youve got this, if you believe it or not. Goodluck.

  • @NatNpt

    @NatNpt

    5 ай бұрын

    Tysm​@@the.creature._

  • @the.creature._

    @the.creature._

    5 ай бұрын

    @@NatNpt for about 10 seconds i thought you were calling me autistic and then i remembered what 'tysm' actually meant (Yes, i am autistic) but youre welcome bud :))

  • @lordzyaD
    @lordzyaD4 ай бұрын

    I know dad you won’t see this but, I love you

  • @lafonteynm
    @lafonteynm4 ай бұрын

    i wish i was able to love my dad

  • @Araonzei
    @Araonzei3 ай бұрын

    I lost my dad. Hes still alive but hes rotted to the core. We can never return to the innocence of a simple goodnight and I think that will haunt me for the rest of my days. The man I have become will never exist to him. Only the shell of a scared child. I wish I could still share the sentiment of the title but I cant so instead to everyone else, especially anyone who needs to hear it. I'm proud of you. You're here today. Even though its tough you're here. Im so so proud of you. Make sure to have a snack, drink a little water, it'll be okay. Make sure to get plenty cozy tonight so you'll have good dreams. Goodnight. I love you.

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    I'm really sorry to know that, but even if he's still alive please try to spend as much time as possible!! make a memory before he passes away at some point, even though he's just rotting to the core, just let him know that you'll always love him regardless of anything at all

  • @Araonzei

    @Araonzei

    Ай бұрын

    @@onedyingstar While I deeply appreciate the sentiment he is unfortunately serving a sentence related to pedophillic crimes. Which is personally not something ai can forgive as well as other things he has out both me and my sister through. I simply grieve the loss of innocence that used to exist in our relationship.

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    wait wait whaaaa?? he's charged for pedophilia?? why, what did he do?

  • @michelinternet3362
    @michelinternet33628 ай бұрын

    My dad is with the angels

  • @leoanderson4340

    @leoanderson4340

    6 ай бұрын

    Mine too❤🙏🏽

  • @Jay-zc6ry

    @Jay-zc6ry

    3 ай бұрын

    Shit mine too

  • @user-kq7sw9go4l
    @user-kq7sw9go4l8 ай бұрын

    I always crave affection from my dad but always push him away when he tries for some reason I dont want him to hug me or touch me

  • @zukan-

    @zukan-

    8 ай бұрын

    same

  • @z6ppa325

    @z6ppa325

    7 ай бұрын

    real

  • @user-vh6nx9th2k

    @user-vh6nx9th2k

    6 ай бұрын

    It is caused because perhaps when you were little he did not pay attention to you and what you wanted most was his affection. You felt and experienced rejection from him and now that he tries to give you affection you feel uncomfortable since it is new for you to have his affection and attention.

  • @Ballad-pr9ds

    @Ballad-pr9ds

    2 ай бұрын

    I pushed my dad out of my life completely. He wasn't a good person, not a good dad. I still just wish he was. I craved the small moments when he was my dad. nothing can replace that feeling. nothing felt like it.

  • @DigitallyMental
    @DigitallyMental10 ай бұрын

    Know ik why im crying abt the title. Bc i miss it when my dad kisses me goodnight

  • @AizenTheShark
    @AizenTheShark7 ай бұрын

    Had never made my dad proud (aswell as everyone i know.), even though i tried my best.

  • @vxasa
    @vxasa10 ай бұрын

    Thank you, I have a new song loop I can overthink and finally fall asleep too every night

  • @Wsgggg29
    @Wsgggg297 ай бұрын

    Haven’t seen my in almost 3 and a half years due to unfortunate circumstances. I miss him so much 😞

  • @ieatglitter828
    @ieatglitter8289 ай бұрын

    i don't know what i would do without my dad

  • @smilingisnofear
    @smilingisnofear5 ай бұрын

    The song played in a random playlist i was listening to and it reminds me of ofc my dad lol I find it really comforting I love my dad so much. I appreciate him snd everything he has done. I love my dad. I want him to know that but whenever i try i always get choked up and cant speak so im planning to write and make something for him !! I hope he gets a good nights rest.

  • @bobaqawaii
    @bobaqawaii6 ай бұрын

    for some reason this song kinda shows a deep meaning to me, but except the dad part(love my dad obv) to me this song is like showing nostalgia through childhood,played with toys, played on my ps3, watched my favorite shows back then, had fun on roblox during 2016-2017, gone outside & went happily shopping with my family. but it also showed that i made other ppl yell at me,cried,mad at me & gave them karma without even intending to. rn its december 23 2023, this year got really worst for me(possibly for anyone i know) & yet i still get blamed for anything. ig no matter where i exist its still always gonna be my fault. it really sucks being like this(especially being the reason karma exists around other ppl & other places) i didn’t mean to hurt nor annoy other people.i wanted to fit in with society. but i still messed up really bad, im sorry for existing :(

  • @bobaqawaii

    @bobaqawaii

    6 ай бұрын

    geez 2023 has been nothing but shitty lately, hoping next year would turn out okay for once. but at the same time i doubt it.

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    we're not even half way through 2024, keep your chin up. i know you'll be fine

  • @ilovehardstyle995
    @ilovehardstyle9956 ай бұрын

    every fucking time i see OR listen to a song like this. it makes me regret everything i have done with my father. i never say i love you to him. i never even show it. im too scared to tell him how much i truely love him. it would be too awkward. i still have my dad. i am greatful for it. - cried here while writing 😂😂 sometimes i may be mad at my father. but deep down i truely love him. even with my mom. i love them both. i just dont want them to be gone. i hope that day never comes.

  • @dragonx01
    @dragonx013 ай бұрын

    im sorry mom and dad im sorry for being sad im sorry for having such high expectations im sorry for forgetting everything im sorry for being lonely im sorry for not coming out of my room much im sorry for lying im sorry for raising my voice im sorry for insulting you im sorry for being such a bad child goodnight mom and dad i love you

  • @ybicker4045
    @ybicker40458 ай бұрын

    I'm sorry if I did something to you, I hope you find someone better, I love you.

  • @ASTERSTEETH
    @ASTERSTEETH10 ай бұрын

    i be so happy then this song comes on. When i hear it i feel so much fucking weight. The same weight I felt in freshman year. its horrible but the feeling is comforting to me.

  • @sreynitpheun8299
    @sreynitpheun82997 ай бұрын

    just want to say that this song put me to sleep every time I overthink, something about it just makes me feel at ease the moment I hear it.

  • @EvDOTTT
    @EvDOTTT7 ай бұрын

    Hey folks, if anyone ever needs anyone to talk to, get something of there chest or just wants a conversation with a stranger let me know, life can be very hard a lonely but try keep that head up, keep doing you brothers and sister❤️

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    no cuz i have been cheering people up and i always forget about myself, there are times when i overthink my life and my existence to the point that i can't even look in the mirror, i stopped crying regarding anything whatsoever and i literally hate that, i hate myself i can't cry anymore, i can't feel anything inside of me, but that sense of misery and regret, i have always been wrong, wrong about everything, i apologized to family for who i am, i apologized to my friends because i know they deserve someone better than i am, i apologized to everyone out there because i have never acted normal, i can never be the normal, smart, pretty girl they could ask for, im so fucking embarrassing and violent i can't even comprehend, i think people might be better off without me, who knows?

  • @EvDOTTT

    @EvDOTTT

    29 күн бұрын

    @@onedyingstar hey man, how have you been past few weeks? Im sorry to heat what your going through and im Sorry you feel like that it isnt the best of situations to be in, im like you i always prioritise others happiness before mines so i know how you feel so your not alone with your feelings, you seem a very caring person and there is not alot of people like you out there, hope your doing okay

  • @winter22oz.81
    @winter22oz.819 ай бұрын

    I hope everything will be okay

  • @zukan-

    @zukan-

    9 ай бұрын

    it will be in the end

  • @iheartkats
    @iheartkats6 ай бұрын

    i know we weren't related by blood, but u were the only dad that ever loved me. i'm sorry i wasn't enough for u to stay.

  • @zahirzee1
    @zahirzee15 ай бұрын

    i never thought i can cry this much.

  • @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    3 ай бұрын

    Me neither stranger

  • @babuschka535
    @babuschka5358 ай бұрын

    im gonna make you proud papa. i swear

  • @angelboy77777
    @angelboy777778 ай бұрын

    I've never felt good about myself

  • @zukan-

    @zukan-

    8 ай бұрын

    You okay?

  • @Whitedudethugginit

    @Whitedudethugginit

    6 ай бұрын

    same bro

  • @clearlynotkitty
    @clearlynotkitty10 ай бұрын

    its getting progressivly worse,all the things i found enjoyement in are starting to not make me feel anything,i keep losing interest in everything,if this goes on for too long my life might just get so depressing ill straight on lay on the bed for hours without doing anything. My life is getting more repetetive with each day and im really starting to wonder if anything can even put me out of this misery anymore,what is even happening with me? why do i have so much fucking mental problems? depression,anixiety,hallucination,paranoia,and possible memory loss. Im feeling awfull.

  • @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    @vrvl-H37luCJIo0T6

    3 ай бұрын

    Your life is a game, the choice is yours brother

  • @lilposetm8361
    @lilposetm836110 ай бұрын

    im dying rn

  • @user-fz7xb4zo7j

    @user-fz7xb4zo7j

    10 ай бұрын

    How are you doing?

  • @KaiserKai009
    @KaiserKai0095 ай бұрын

    i'm sitting here being in one of the most lonely times of my life listening to this song. i wish i could be more happier..

  • @grettyspaghetti
    @grettyspaghetti4 ай бұрын

    I do truly wish my dad a goodnight and i do love him. I hope he can heal from whatever messed him up that made him mess my own life up.

  • @iblameben
    @iblameben7 ай бұрын

    this is the most alone ie ever felt, I miss her so much to the point it hurts my chest at I feel the bile in the back of my throat, she was everything to me but on some random day she decided she wasn't good enough for me and left me, if only she knew how much I suffered for her if only

  • @Sonicnutballs89
    @Sonicnutballs896 ай бұрын

    I love laying on my bed and this song playing on my earphone and im staring at the ceiling at 3 am crying my eyes out wondering why im always the kid in the corner, the kid that doesn't get pick when the teacher tell us to pick a partner for a project, the kid who cant look into someone's eye while having a conversation, the kid who's just trying to make their parents proud, the kid who just wanted to feel "alive", the "second choice". Im sorry mother that i didn't turn out the way you wanted me to Im sorry dad for being the worst kid to the best father Im sorry to all of my "friend" that i am the loud and annoying kid when all i wanted was to be heard because i've been ignored for years because i need the validation and approval of others, to feel accepted and/or “good enough". Why cant no one "sees/heard" me. All i ever wanted was to have a normal teenage year like my friends does but instead i am just rotting in my room everyday and seeing my friends hanging out and having the time of their life as i scroll through their stories. (why didn't they invite me?) Im having a hard time getting out of my bed and i barely eat, sometimes I even only eat once or don't eat at all in a day. I've tried to get better but when i did get better i just feel like i don't deserve it because i spent so much time being depressed that i dont know who i am without it. Im so lonely it feels like i was destined to walk this earth alone. i saw the stars tonight. i wondered how long it would take for me to become one of them. im not really sure what i am let alone who i am anymore. quite frankly im just tired. man i am fucking exhausted. i stopped looking for help. and people stopped searching for me. i don't know what else to do because no matter how hard i try i always end up back at the beginning. maybe its my mindset. but i highly doubt that. i am just fucking drained. theres not much left for me here anymore. i really just dont know. and the thing is i spend so much time looking for an answer to a question that doesnt even have one. i just want to go. the highs are so high but the lows are too low. everything is out of my control. why is everything so uncontrollable. theres so much anger and sadness its getting to be unbearable. i keep trying to look for a reason to stay but i just keep standing at dead ends. i keep giving up everything. i cant do it anymore. i keep throwing everything away like its nothing because it could be something. all of this is my fault. i just cant keep doing this. its so repetitive. im such a fuck up. over and over again. its so consistent. what do i even want anymore. im so tired. is time even an option anymore. because i can throw that away too. i want to leave. im read to go. i saw the stars tonight. i know how long it will take for me to become one of them now. i feel so much guilt and resentment towards myself. i didn't say anything. I blamed myself for everything, how could i let myself endure that? i felt so powerless and weak, no matter how many times i shower i feel unclean. i feel sickly, i feel so much anger towards myself.

  • @Sonicnutballs89

    @Sonicnutballs89

    6 ай бұрын

    Womp womp

  • @user-re2vj5jd5q

    @user-re2vj5jd5q

    6 ай бұрын

    it's okay. It'll turn out okay. You're the man of your own world. If you want to be heard I'm waiting for you here. I always will be. You're not a disappointment, you don't realize the great things you did because societally most people don't speak out positively but you're great person. You make people's days you just don't know it.

  • @nina-go7ws
    @nina-go7ws6 ай бұрын

    i wonder when the last time that i said goodnight to my dad was… i was too young then to remember it now

  • @artisticanxiety6399
    @artisticanxiety63992 ай бұрын

    I wish my dad was still alive. So badly. I'd give anything to hug him again. Anything. Why does it hurt this badly still when it's been 10 years

  • @kat2748
    @kat274811 күн бұрын

    I recently lost my dad. everytime i see this title i bawl my eyes out i wish i could say good night dad or good morning more than anything now its hurts so bad.

  • @ikickblackbabys297
    @ikickblackbabys29710 ай бұрын

    Love this. Keep it up ❤( i hate myself )

  • @MilfsSlayer

    @MilfsSlayer

    7 ай бұрын

    Love you man as well as your nickname

  • @vilmuksxxs
    @vilmuksxxs7 ай бұрын

    You'll be okay. Maybe not tomorrow but one day

  • @novacil1217
    @novacil12176 ай бұрын

    i don't miss my dad. he was horrible. but i get the feeling this song is conveying.

  • @sylentthxg5823
    @sylentthxg58239 ай бұрын

    I don't know what I did to deserve this. Why did she leave? Why didn't she tell me the reason? We could always start over and things will be okay again. U loved me before, u can still love me again

  • @rocknchill5177

    @rocknchill5177

    8 ай бұрын

    I feel the same way pal, I did everything I could and gave her my everything and she still left, I loved her, why can’t I be loved

  • @nicksouth7109
    @nicksouth710910 ай бұрын

    I particularly hate my father he is a asshole but I’d never ever betray him like he betray me that’s just wrong but somehow this song still makes me cry I get I wanna kms and I hate myself but this song man

  • @zazou8459

    @zazou8459

    10 ай бұрын

    Real

  • @erayrecepsen7328
    @erayrecepsen73289 ай бұрын

    hey fam heads up u will win your fight against the demons. i know that it is hard to believe but it’s true

  • @Chickentendersworld
    @Chickentendersworld2 ай бұрын

    The title makes me think of my dad and how funny and sweet he was. I think of him in my lowest moments I miss him I wish he was back with me He was like a guardian angel, I miss him more than ever, I wish he was at the house Now he was really fun and cool he fixed things and took me to places, I miss you dad.

  • @felicjajmak8648
    @felicjajmak8648Ай бұрын

    I lost my dad in 2016, it's been so long since and I don't remember his voice and his look in my head is fading. I miss him so much every day, he was a great dad and husband to my mom, great friend of his and very hardworking man. My mom used to tell me that "the good people go to heaven early, so the bad people can stay here and suffer". I miss you dad, goodnight

  • @onedyingstar

    @onedyingstar

    Ай бұрын

    I'm so sorry for your loss.

  • @Lttlepuppy
    @Lttlepuppy4 күн бұрын

    I just imagine myself crying in his arms while this song plays, I hope one day I will be enough for you daddy I love you

  • @AliMohammad-nq6mg
    @AliMohammad-nq6mgАй бұрын

    I'll make you proud Father

  • @Imantgeo
    @Imantgeo3 ай бұрын

    I have suffered my whole life and have been hidden from the truth. But now I realized that somehow, I am not alone.

  • @ErnestoRamos-lv3pt
    @ErnestoRamos-lv3pt2 күн бұрын

    3 years ago i had a dad and he was always there to support me we had our up and downs but i love him so much he was also very sick threw out his whole life but he always became better i remember when we share the same bed every night he will tell me goodnight son i love you and i will says goodnight dad i love you too then one day he got sick but i didint think nothing much of it but later on he was getting worse but i knew he will just heal but it got much worse and one day in May 23 he passed away when i first heard the news i didjt know how to react i didint know what to do i wasnt ready for him to leave yet i was onlt 12 this wasnt supposed to happen and it brokee really bad and right now till this day i still think of him i want to be a good dad just like him i never made him proud which i regret and im gonna have to live with the rest of my life but i will always look up to him and for one last time goodnight dad i love you.

  • @galoshaistima
    @galoshaistima7 ай бұрын

    I wish that if I kms nobody would get sad I cant even cry anymore

  • @alannatheard
    @alannatheard9 ай бұрын

    soothing my mind honestly , i really do love your videos 🫶

  • @CartoonDiego757
    @CartoonDiego75721 күн бұрын

    It might be sad that I used to know that my dad got into a car accident along ago, he never gives up on himself, he has been working alone since 2017 suffering from damages in work.

  • @Sasha-wx7kv

    @Sasha-wx7kv

    16 күн бұрын

    :(

  • @vinny-oq2qy
    @vinny-oq2qy9 ай бұрын

    I wanna call my dad

  • @CupidAdam
    @CupidAdam10 ай бұрын

    Thank you.

  • @seanofthedead1514
    @seanofthedead15142 ай бұрын

    I looked up this song after hearing it on Spotify because it hit me so hard. My dad is out of state working and usually only gets to come home for a week or so every couple months. At my age I should be in a better place in life but between being legally blind and really struggling in school It's been hard. What I wouldn't give to be able to call him and tell him how much I love him without feeling like I've failed him after all hes done for me. Sorry I know KZread comments aren't the best place for that but travks loke this really have an effect on me.

  • @rocknchill5177
    @rocknchill51777 ай бұрын

    Can I just be loved?

  • @user-my7pc6qd7g
    @user-my7pc6qd7g11 ай бұрын

    ty bro

  • @91Putts
    @91Putts3 ай бұрын

    If you can find you innerchild and unlock him from the box like I did good god, life will be grand but it took 33 years of me trying. My dad I are dudes now, existing but he did the damage but he worked too. I cry from time to time but they are happy tears

  • @winstonsmith2391
    @winstonsmith23913 ай бұрын

    Hug your dad and tell him you love him. Even if things are not that great, one day he will be gone and you will no longer be able to tell him.

  • @calebhernandez706
    @calebhernandez7069 ай бұрын

    tired of life tired of relationships

  • @charleahenley1860
    @charleahenley1860Ай бұрын

    Though you have hurt me constantly, I still love you. You were my idol until you became violent. Though I am 13 I wish I never took your attitude, anger, and comparison. I know mom does horrible stuff too, meaning I can't run to anyone. The thought of just running away and wanting NOTHING to do with my family follows me constantly, it's like a weight sinking me deeper and deeper into thoughts. Dad, you can either change or rot in hell. Me and my little brother doesn't deserve this verbal and physical abuse anymore. But I care too much for you to confront you. I'm sorry dad.

  • @chubbysalvii
    @chubbysalvii4 ай бұрын

    i js wanna make my dad proud

  • @melancholyxxi
    @melancholyxxi3 ай бұрын

    Im so sorry dad.

  • @blvdvesselcatalyst
    @blvdvesselcatalyst6 ай бұрын

    i hate this feeling. i feel like i fucking died. i am crying a lot tonight

  • @playboijohhny2672
    @playboijohhny26728 ай бұрын

    Pray for all of yal. Keep your head up queens and kings

  • @prettygirl9052
    @prettygirl90529 ай бұрын

    Ty❤

  • @seifo2233
    @seifo22339 ай бұрын

    "sending hug"

  • @emptysquashbottle
    @emptysquashbottle4 ай бұрын

    I wish my dad stopped the abuse when he had the chance. I wish he didn't just stand there as i got pushed to the ground. I wish he did something. I wish he cared.

  • @eva4793
    @eva47932 ай бұрын

    lowkey miss my dad, had a stroke in 2020 when I was 10 and I visited him for the first time and I don't even recognize him

  • @EileenFreeman-if4rf
    @EileenFreeman-if4rfАй бұрын

    goodnight dad i love you.😊

  • @spectre47r9
    @spectre47r99 ай бұрын

    I just want something real

  • @ImCharlottelol
    @ImCharlottelol5 ай бұрын

    I never got a good dad, He horrifically abused me for my entire childhood after we got our own apartment.

  • @autooo7460
    @autooo7460Күн бұрын

    Haven’t lost my dad, not yet at least I see him a lot, but I know he has a quick fuse and he isn’t in the best mental state. I know any day could be his last, any breath he takes could be his finale one. I just wish he and my mom weren’t so sad and miserable, maybe I wouldn’t worry about losing them every time they get too upset. The reason for that is, my mom had another breakdown just a few days ago, they’re not frequent but they are occasional. She worries me. My dad worries me too, his temper has always been a problem. That’s what bothers me, when he has his little temper tantrums because he can’t accept the fact he’s divorced. Him and my mom are divorced, yet, they’ve chosen to hang out and stay friends. Apparently he can’t handle being alone. He always gets mad and takes it out on the people and things around him. I still love him though, he’s still not a horrible guy

  • @rafaelperez1809
    @rafaelperez18093 ай бұрын

    love u dad also is my trainig music always

  • @NathanScottH
    @NathanScottH6 ай бұрын

    i wish my dad took more interest in me when i was a kid

  • @Big-wins-for-life
    @Big-wins-for-life13 күн бұрын

    i love my father. Too bad he's far away.

  • @Wallim
    @WallimАй бұрын

    My dad is being kicked out currently by my mom, which is well deserved. But I think a part of me will always grieve for a dad I will never have. Physically and emotionally never there for me. I know that when I stare at the ring he gave me when I was young, that I’ll grieve over it as if someone died. I wish he could love me the same way I love him

  • @nyx8767
    @nyx87672 ай бұрын

    some of us can't ever stop howling

  • @Key-hc6ul
    @Key-hc6ulАй бұрын

    I love this song as much as my dad

  • @monsterman4412
    @monsterman441224 күн бұрын

    I wish he'd say he loves me