Goodbyes (our last days of van life)
The end of our van life - yeah, i can't believe this is real lololol. Saying goodbye to the van was one of the hardest things I've ever done, but umm.... I do believe that our future is going to be so dang bright. Okay - see you guys soon enough :)
0:00 this video is a lot: you've been warned
00:58 map shenanigans
01:16 she didn't have a clue
01:56 the final day (what me? no, i'm not crying i swear)
03:54 there was a lot of this
04:19 alone & a chat about my van journey
05:44 and so it begins
08:54 dinner & the beginning of the end
10:58 now i'm crying
12:34 selling the van (it's gone)
13:44 the new owner ;)
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I'm Mariah Alice, and I live the "van life" with my dog, Finn. We've been on the road full time since June of 2020, and although our time on the road has been met with what feels like a zillion ups and downs, we've finally gotten to the point where living in a van feels like home. Sometimes we're alone in the woods, sometimes we're alone in a desert, sometimes we're chasing snow or thunderstorms, sometimes we're trying to see all 50 states, and sometimes we're making weekly videos here on KZread talking about our feelings, anxiety, loneliness, seasonal extreme sadness..... yeah. I don't know what I'm doing with my life. And that's okay. I think :)
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This video is a lot- you've been warned lolol. If you want to know why I'm selling, my "for sale" video explains a bit at the end & I've been dropping hints for weeks ;) On another note- I might be taking an extra week off next week to make sure that the swap to our new home goes smoothly. We'll be back soon enough either way though- I can't wait to share this next journey 💃
@wiri2000
Жыл бұрын
I can't wait... enjoy your time off... :)
@divadonna5670
Жыл бұрын
Can’t wait to see what you’re up to next! Good luck that it all goes smoothly!
@seantice
Жыл бұрын
you this was impactful, sending virtual hugs for you and the Mighty Finn.
@scottl8137
Жыл бұрын
Ya know you'll be back on the road before you know it after a well needed break and staying in 1 spot. The next road chapter will be so much better cause now your a vanlife veteran!!
@pammymusic4ever
Жыл бұрын
So glad you and Finn will be back. I look forward to your adventures. I admire you so much for your free spirit. If I could do life over again, I would do it in a van, traveling to see the beauty this country has to offer. Thank you for giving me great ideas for retirement! Give Finn a kiss on the head. He is such a sweet companion for you. I love that he opens the back shades every day! What a smart boy!!!!
Thanks, thanks for making a grown man tear up on a Monday. Love your video, your story, everything you got going on. Anybody that gets the slightest bit emotional, it’s because you made us vested in your journey, that’s not an easy thing to do. Hope the journey continues. P.s. we need a Finn day video.
@PR-lw2oq
Жыл бұрын
After reading your comment I thought to myself that I would make it through her whole video without a tear. Didn’t make it. Still wiping tears
@seantice
Жыл бұрын
well said
@JL-zr8dm
Жыл бұрын
You serious right now?
@wakamatsu3509
Жыл бұрын
Lol
@pienpakvis6118
2 ай бұрын
Agree😊
This video really drove home the idea that van ownership really isn't any different than home ownership. From the repairs and maintenance to the emotion of moving on, it's so similar. Great episode.
@elpiloto100
Жыл бұрын
Except you leave your home to go on adventures, whereas the van takes you on adventures
@gahangore111
Жыл бұрын
@@elpiloto100 to me that's up to the individual. A van won't take you anywhere you don't want to go.
@orcaflotta7867
Жыл бұрын
So, how does your house move? Roadholding similar to a van? Acceleration and speed ok? And where did you sleep last night with your house? Oh, that's right, same spot where your house always has been. Very exciting and awesome. :(
@orcaflotta7867
Жыл бұрын
@@gahangore111 Of course not. If you don't wanna go there in your van, you don't go there in your van. In your house you don't go anywhere, neither the places you don't wanna go, nor the ones you really wanna go. And your point is?
@gahangore111
Жыл бұрын
@@orcaflotta7867 are you alright?
Wow. Pretty sure we all understand how connected you were/are to that van, it was home. It was your area of refuge, it was your area to go thru emotions both amazing and sad. And you took us all along for that journey and 107,000 subscribers are excited for the next chapter. Why? Not because of that fantastic van, but the fantastic owner and her four legged sidekick. Thanks and safe travels to the new owner.
This is not the end, this is the beginning of the next chapter of your life! Love to Finn xx
I've been following your journey for so long now. You always made me feel like I'm following a close friend. I'm so happy for you that you're moving on and I'm sure the best will come for you and Finn in the next chapter. We love you, Mariah!❤️
I don't think they have words to describe these feels. I'm glad you could have all these experiences and share them with us. Thanks.
Glad you got to spend your last days with us in the PNW. You're amazing, and I see nothing but strength and goodness for your next adventure!
Really excited to see the choices you make next. You’ve learned so much about yourself so far. May you continue to find peace in the journey!
I am sobbing right with ya. I found your channel earlier this summer while going thru one of the darkest times and your videos have been such a safe and calm space for me to relieve my anxiety and just sit and live vicariously through. Things have been looking up for me recently this month. As much as your van life videos mean so much to me, I am looking forward to see what’s in store for this new chapter! Very exciting things, change is necessary ❤️
I completely understand all of the emotions coming to the surface. Selling your first home is always a huge deal. Thank you so much for sharing all of your adventures. I have so enjoyed being on this journey with you. Looking forward to seeing what the future holds for you and Finn. Be safe and be blessed!!
Ive truely enjoyd this ride with you and look forward to jumping on the next one with you and fin!! Good luck. We all got ur back!!
@MariahAlice
Жыл бұрын
This energy is the only energy i need rn hahaha. Thank you!
I will end by rewatching Finn un-cover the windows 🥹😍 But I can only imagine how sad and bittersweet it must be saying goodbye to something that was there through some of the most transformative years of your life. 💖 Looking forward to your next adventures, I think life has so many amazing things in store for you! 😊
Sending lots of hugs. Change is hard, even when it's needed and wanted. So excited for the next chapter too. I hope it's a smooth transition!
I cried several times during this vid. I've been a huge fan since you began and you're easily my favorite person to watch on KZread. I cannot believe this is it. I cannot wait to see you're next chapter. You're an incredible story teller and the ability you have to expose your vulnerablilties and feelings has allowed me to really get to know you. Thank you for being so generous with your experiences and talents. I'm hoping to see/hear from you soon, Mariah! Best of luck in your next chapter.
I’m enjoying you so much! You are so precious and you make my day! I get so excited to see that you posted a new video! Your honesty, your funny little sense of humor, your courage to move through the transitions of life are all an inspiration to me! can’t wait to see your new ride!💖🧚♀️💖🧚♀️💖🧚♀️💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐
I found your videos yesterday and I love them. Now I have watched basically all of them. Thank you for sharing and may the best still be to come❤️
Oh my goodness, Mariah!! This was so freaking wonderful! And although many tears were/and are being shed as we all collectively share in this big change, I think it’s safe to say we’re all so proud and happy for you!! Looking forward to what’s next! It’s been really encouraging the last couple years watching you grow into such an awesome human!! 🥹🤙🏼
Never feel bad or apologize for showing emotion. Especially when it comes to your home and your lifestyle and livelihood... change is hard! And you've experienced a lot of it in this space. I've been watching since #22, and it's amazing to see all you've accomplished. It's truly inspiring. Can't wait to see what comes next, and all the very best in your next chapter on the road!
Thank you for allowing us to be here with you as you close this chapter of your journey. I sit here with baited breath waiting for you to open the next chapter of your journey. You are a good soul Mariah, Karma will treat you well! Till we see you again , you and Finn stay safe.
I have followed your journey for a year and half now and thank you for bringing a real person feeling perspective! Good luck on your next adventure! Hope to see you on here again with a new van.
Thank you for sharing this video. I started this day with tears in my eyes, but happy tears for you. I've been following you for awhile and your videos have helped me through some really tough times. All I can say is a huge thank you, thank you for being genuine and true to your heart. Your the best! 😪
Looking for to seeing your next build!!! Don't apologize for crying.. you've done so much and lived through so much in these past few years.
Wherever life brings you next, just know that so many people love you and thank you for allowing us to experience the van life along with you.
Changes are always difficult, and you have had so many adventures with that van. But I can't wait to see the new chapter of your life with more adventures, and see the next place that you call home! I hope you asked the new owner to periodically send you photos of the adventures that the van is taking!
10 seconds into this video. And as someone who's been watching you since your second video if I remember correctly. I already know I'm gonna be in tears by the end of this! It's been amazing watching you grow and living through your adventures Mariah!
@kayhinkle9104
Жыл бұрын
Went through a whole box of tissues watching this! Can't wait to see where your next adventure takes you and Finn!
Let me just say, I have binged all of your videos and I absolutely love them. I totally bawled my eyes out because I have seen you go on so many adventures, I’m living vicariously through you. Wishing you luck for the next best things eat to come! ❤
Thks Mariah, really enjoyed watching you the last two years, you are amazing and looking forward to whatever you bring to us down the road… God Bless you 🥰
Mariah, Thanks for sharing your journey. Everything has a beginning, middle and end. You have shared deeply with us, and I have appreciated your skill as a story teller. Wish you the best for whatever is next. Just make it count!
not me LITERALLY CRYING WITH YOU omg well congrats and I can't wait to see where you go next!! Your van life journey inspired me to finally take the leap and head out in my van (which I procrastinated for 3 years out of fear) and life is great. so thank you💖
Mariah, I hope you're doing well. We all enjoyed your trips so much and many great things will happen in the future. Keep us posted on your adventures! Thanks for all the life lessons you've taught us... by overcoming them yourself.
It’s been a joy following you I wish you and Finn all the best. Thanks for sharing your story and travels.
We all love you Mariah, this is just another footnote in your journey thru life. Hug your puppy and know tomorrow is a start of another adventure
Yup, you had me tearing up as well. Love the way Fin starts the day taking down the rear blinds and the shots at the end were he is giving a tour of his own to the new 4-legged owner. Special times… one chapter has completed, but there are so many amazing chapters ahead in this novel life of yours. Can’t wait to see the first pages of the next chapter….
Whew this was a lot for all of us. I just found your channel last week and chewed through all of your videos. I love them and you and Finn. I also saw one of Christian’s videos and I was so excited to see Finn :) You got what you needed from that van, and now that woman will get what she needs. You also found out ‘it was inside you all along’ and still is….. I look forward to the new adventures in the new vehicle/home. You really are brave, strong, smart, introspective, and inspiring xoxo
You’re a strong person who is respected so much. Thank you for the journeys!
I will miss you so much but I know the next chapter will be amazing and I can’t wait. Thank you for sharing … big hugs to you and Finn ❤️😃❤️❤️
Loved watching your videos from the beginning. New beginnings now! Thanks for all the beautiful honest content. Good luck on your new journey! 💚🌻✨
Thank you for sharing your life with us, I honestly love each video! Anyway hope you’re good! You certainly made me happy to watch!
I’m super stoked for you Mariah! From the early videos up until now, it’s been an awesome journey and can’t wait to see what comes next for you! & Finn of course! Stay safe and can’t wait to see the future videos!
Just came across your videos while looking for ideas for a Ford Transit camper build and seeing how you live and where you go reminded me of my first van life time 5 years ago and how I miss those times. Thank you :)
I just love watching your videos, it’s always been my ultimate dream to buy a van and decorate it all out so it’s very homely. You inspire us on how to get the best out of our selfs and how to love our selfs whilst making these journeys, i just love watching your videos so moving good luck for the future.
I've watched a lot of van life videos over the years and this was the most touching and most well put for anybody wondering why people name their vans. Thanks for sharing.
Been following you for a while and I live through you and your adventures! I get the emotional part! But I have a feeling season 2 will be even better for you and Finn! When that rain cloud came in while you were swimming I was like SO JEALOUS! What a gift! Happy travels! Keep going! ☺️🙏
Congrats to everyone involved! Can’t wait to see what next down the road for you!
YOU GOT ME IN MY FEELS MARIAH! I’ve been watching your videos since you started. I’ve always wanted to do what your doing. So watching you has always made me feel better about not being able to get out. I can’t 😭😭😭😩
Hey Mariah, Amazing emotions you trigger!! But I am also cheering up- changes are good and enable us for greater things. Can’t wait for the next chapter!!!
A new chapter. I too have enjoyed this journey and look forward to what's in store. Thanks for sharing.
Mariah, i have been here since the very start of your journey. thank you for sharing all the moments you did- good and bad. it has been a pleasure to share these memories with you and watch you grow as an individual. lots of love from Texas
Good luck! You are wise beyond your years. Thanks for sharing your journey.
thank you so much Mariah, I've enjoyed watching your journey for the last couple of years. I am 60 yrs old and live in the Northern part of Australia spending alot of time on the road in my 2002 transit van. this is my 5th van from vw kombi to Toyota's.. once you've tasted van life it stays in you.. can't wait to follow you on your coming journey,take care and stay safe. Gary the ex- truckie.
Just found ur channel probably 2 months ago. Just wanna say thank you! The life uve lived the last few years is a life many of dreamed of. Good luck on ur next adventure
Dang, what an emotional season 1 finale Here's to a great season 2 🥂
@MariahAlice
Жыл бұрын
Here's to hoping season 2 lives up to season 1 lololol
@josiahm10
Жыл бұрын
@@MariahAlice I have no doubt it will!
@katumankaiku9319
Жыл бұрын
me too, Mariah, you and Finn are too awesome to disappoint
@momohue6432
Жыл бұрын
@@katumankaiku9319 did she let Finn go with the lady who bought her van?
@AnnaZinova
Жыл бұрын
@@momohue6432 That's what I was wondering. But I think maybe she was talking about the other dog
I use to live jn Bellingham. I lived there for 22 years. It was good to see the mountains again. It is such a beautiful place and I miss the seasons there. Thank you for taking us along with you on your journey. 🌲 ♥️🌲
Hi Mariah, I usually don't leave comments. But I started watching your videos around december last year (2021), from the very first video and I just caught up to this video today. My, I have to say, what a journey you've gone through and how awesome to see you grow as an individual. You're like the same age as me (I'm 24) and I'm dying to get a van one day, but first finishing my studies. I can only wish you goodluck and happiness the coming weeks and I'm curious to see where this new journey will take you. Lot's of love Jessica from the Netherlands.
If it's any consolation I cried along with you. So much goes into these vehicles we call home and I can completely relate to growing as a person as you journey physically and emotionally. I'm looking forward to your next chapter. Hugs
so excited to see your next journey. I can't imagine how hard it was but I'm so happy for you and Fynn. Good luck and congratulations!
The saga must continue!!! So many of us are attached to you, waiting for the next adventure. No matter what you do, or what you choose, we're all behind you, supporting you. This could be a mini-series someday!!! Take care, we'll all be waiting! You're the best!
Thanks for taking us with you! When you share your life with others they are with you. You have a bright future ahead of you so, go enjoy it! Look forward to seeing you soon.
So excited for you!! You're doing the right thing. I truly cannot wait to see your next video and hear about what is going on with you. You are going to run into some tough spots, but they are going to be your stepping stones up to your highest points yet!!! You got this, Baby Girl!!!
Been following for a long time, still may favorite channel. Can't wait to see where you go from here!
Life has many sad moments that really turn into happier ones, like a caterpillar who dreads pupate into a chrysalis unknowing what happens next. Looking forward to your next chapter, no doubt will be better!!
Mariah i cried too just watching you,it was really emotional.i still have my dad's car which is33 years old but i love my vintage car as i have so many memories of my late father with it. I hope we see you soon. Best wishes for new chapter of ur life.i have seen all 83 videos many times as i see myself in you.stay blessed
I wish you a good start in your new path of life, I totally understand how you feel, been there. Good things are coming. Thank you for your stories, looking forward in seeing more... take care. ✌️✨️
Well that was definitely emotional for me aswell. Almost had me in tears too. I know exactly how you feel becoming emotionaly attached to your amazing van (Home) that's been one hell of an awesome adventure you have had. Been watching you from the start and you certainly are an inspiration not just to me but I'm sure all your viewers. I wish you all the very best in your next adventure whatever you decide to do. Best wishes. Regards Paul from England. ♥👍
Good bye to this part of your journey. It was awesome! 👍🏼 No one tells that's easy to let things or people go which/who has to go, but letting it go means also freeing yourself for the new things to come. You do it right, Mariah! And your tears were also touching me. I do understand you. Best wishes for the next step, and I hope you will let us following on it, too! 🤞🏼🤞🏼
It is your baby. You have poured your heart and soul into this van. Much success on your next chapter of life!
stop i’m crying. these videos have been soo therapeutic for me for months now bc i had exams and was stressed constantly, i’m really sad to see them go but i’m excited for your new chapter which is happening just as i’m going into mine which is crazy
Mariah you are an inspiration. Looking forward to joining you for season 2! So much love ❤
Thank you for sharing this with us today, stay safe, happy and healthy. Excited for the next chapter of your adventures to come. From Henrico County Virginia
Wow!!! I love how you manifested your buyer!!! And her 4-legged will enjoy all the things Finn did!! Congratulations 🎉 And I certainly understand the tears!!!!! Life is good ❤
I hope your feeling better now and I hope it’s not the last we see of you and Finn. Wishing you well always 💜
Ill be so sad from now on.... Im looking forward to enjoy your next chapter, love your videos Mariah, and wish you nothing but success!
I’ve adored watching your journey from this last year I’ve been subscribed to your channel. I am also in WA. This hits close to home for me too. Good luck in your new endeavors whatever you do Mariah and Finn. You will love it and wherever life takes you you’ll always make an adventure out of it! 🌈 Sending positive vibes your way. ❤️🌟 🏔
So my husband just asked, "why are you sitting at the computer crying over your morning coffee?" Well, see, my favorite little vanlifer is crying, so....so am I. Again. Big Hugs. Can't wait to see what you do next. Best wishes to you and Finn.
Hi Mariah and Finn. Not crying, must be the chopped onions. You and Finn have touched many lives over the last 2 years. May there be more Adventures to come. We will be along for the ride.
So. It's a beautiful September afternoon here. I should be out mowing my yard. Instead, I am sitting here bawling after watching your video (I'm a Pieces also). Mariah. I am getting old, but you have your whole life in front of you. Be smart. Be safe. And most of all have fun! You are a wonderful person. And thank you so much for the sharing your life with us.
You are an inspiration and provided awesome content for us to experience your world on the road. Thanks for giving us a window to all your amazing journeys. Finn is such a great companion and a joy to watch with you every day. Enjoy life!!! 😇🎶❤️
*hugs* Can't wait to see what the future holds for you and your new home 😊
Wow, I have such respect for you. I have enjoyed watching all your videos and they have made me reflect & wished that I could have had the confidence to follow my dreams and undertake the Journey that you have when I was your age. Cannot wait to see the next chapter in your life. Good luck & best wishes from the U.K
What a journey! It was awesome to see your adventures! I can't wait to see whatever you decide to do next!
Very moving video! Thank you very much for sharing your experience!
This was such a beautiful finale to an important part of your journey. Can’t wait to see what happens next. ❤️
Hi, once i stumbled apon one of your videos. I have watched almost all of them now, it made me realise what i want. Freedom, and the way you explain your adventures is the way i wanna feel. I am far too young to own a van like this but you have inspired me so much. Whenever i turn 18 im gonna buy a van, to make my small cozy home. My biggest dream was always that i wanted to feel free and alone but i never realised that until now. Thank you for helping me get on my path, i needed something to wait for and dream of. :)
I'm not crying, you're crying... Excited for your new adventure.
@MariahAlice
Жыл бұрын
we're all crying
@jsutherland1043
Жыл бұрын
@@MariahAlice Crying? I'm boo-hooing my eyeballs out. Glad someone got the van that will likely love it as you did, with her pups.
This tugged at my heart. And was heartbreaking to watch But just like you said you become an adult in the van .. we actually got to experience with you . What a beautiful thing . Glad it went to a good person that now can call it home as well. On to the next chapter in your life. 🙂 those sites where absolutely gorgeous great choice to spend your last day .
Good luck in your next series of Adventures. I hope everything works out well for you, and you at least keep us posted on what you're doing. Thank you for all the good times
Thanks for sharing all these moments with us!!! It's been awesome!! And will get even better!! 😉 Greetings from Brazil!!
Bawling my eyes out with you, and also while reading some of the comments. I feel the same about my baby - my 22 year old/224K mile car that's been with me thru all of life's ups and downs. There's a beautiful poem by Khalil Gibran about joy and sorrow that I think you'd like (if you don't already know it! 😊). "The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain...When you are sorrowful, look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth, you are weeping for that which has been your delight." Celebrating all of the incredible things you've accomplished already with your first heart van, and here's to all the new adventures waiting for you and sweet Finn. 💗💗💗
I'm just starting my journey after my son and I have labored intensively for 9 months on it. I am in love with it and I can totally feel how hard it must be for you to let go. But the horizon ahead is full of splendor, keep looking forward.
There are 100,000 of us rooting for you and everything you do. Good luck.
@--ag
Жыл бұрын
More than a 100,000..
@chasbodaniels1744
Жыл бұрын
More than 150,000 as of 12 Nov 2022 . . . .
I just want to say thank you for the awesome journey you shared with us. Your videos will be missed. You will be missed. Good luck ♥️
Oh my gosh! I'm sad and happy for you all at the same time! You and Finn are on to new adventures! hugsss
It’s always good to build something nice and pass it on for the next person to enjoy whilst cherishing the memories you created. Good luck on the next chapter of adventures.
I’m crying with you!!! Such a beautiful soul!! Thank You for sharing your story and Awe inspiring vistas!!! It’s a biiiig step!!! And I understand the attachment understandably! Moving forward… WOW I feel you are going to BLOOM! Even more than you expect… stepping into a new chapter can be scary daunting and exciting all rolled up in one however your free spirit has and can grasp this new vision for you & the finster!!!🫶🏻👏🌅🙌👍🌞💗much love light & peace to you dear one.. you give us soon to be travelers leaving the comforts of our old homes in exchange for less overhead more peaceful tranquility, hope!! TY!!!! ✌️✌️✌️✌️🫶🏻😎💗
I'm crying with you! But I can't wait to see what is up next in your future. Change is scary, but it sure is thrilling! Thanks for always keeping it real.
I loved watching this. Such a journey for you (so far) and such an attachment to the van, but wonderful to look ahead as well, and knowing the van is in good hands (I hope to see her again one day......).
Every life changing transition will tug at you because you alone deep inside know how much this journey of life transformed you into the person you are today.
Been following you for so long and I will miss the van for sure 😢. Look forward to the next chapter in your life.
"I don't do good with change" - I LOL'd when you said that. Your whole lifestyle revolves around change and it's absolutely wonderful!!! :) Looking forward to your new adventures!