If you're reading this, take a deep breath, wipe off your tears, and never forget how strong you are, you can do this. I Love You

I actually dont listen to this type of music at all, but this isnt like ANYTHING ive heard either. This is beautiful.

@cornpandle

8 ай бұрын

I was listening to this and it reminds me of the artist "hobo johnson" i think his name is

The thing about depression is, that once you get used to that feeling, life won`t be the same anymore. And even if you get better, there are always these thoughts in the back of your head. If you had depression for some years and you learned certian coping mechanisms, it`s hard for you to not fall back into old patterns once you`re okay again. Because when you`re doing better you`ll need to relearn some things in a healthy way. When feeling "normal" is something you have to relearn, this numbing, heavy sadness almost feels comforting, because that`s all you`ve ever known... sry for my little rant but i needed to get that off my chest.

@ramintasa9188

3 жыл бұрын

I thought there was something wrong with me, but I guess this is normal. Thanks for this comment

@taigenanderson9579

3 жыл бұрын

yeah exactly no one understands what i mean when i say that it’s comforting

@whoskittypng

3 жыл бұрын

It feels like depression is my fake friend and anxiety is my bully. I hate the feeling of both because with depression you don't care about much but with anxiety you care about everything. It feels like I'm getting torn down every day. It feels like I'm in a horror movie that you don't know is horror until your fed up stop the movie. Then you realize that was the horror movie, its life.

@sarahannigan7232

3 жыл бұрын

I always get so anxious when I start to get happy because I know depression will always come back

@lobstermix

3 жыл бұрын

im begging you please put a trigger warning. this comment has made me feel worse than i have felt in a long time. even if youre right, this killed my last hope.

THIS MAN THIS ONE RIGHT HERE IS THE REASON I WRITE TODAY AND THE REASON IM STILL HERE

ethan deserves so much more attention then he gets he is so talented

Ethan, I just want to say thank you for the music that you write. I’m a teenager, that went through, and is still going through horrible times, and without fail, your music can always express how I’m feeling. I mostly feel trapped, and I can always listen to a song of yours that I can understand on a personal level. So I just wanted to thank u because your music makes me feel like someone who knows what I’m going through, is there for me, to help me get through all of my hard times. I also hope that if you’re going through anything, it gets better for you. Can’t wait to hear the new song!

@user-ye1ci8kx9w

3 ай бұрын

Same

Your songs are really amazing. It feels like we're alone but after all you're here and remind us that we're not alone and we can find our lights Thank you

I cry alone, in the night, so you don't have to see my tears And I'm the most unstable when I'm controlled by my fears I hate how my body is so I avoid these mirrors And I'm not so happy, things aren't always as they appear The fog is slowly gone and it's becoming all so clear The version of my happy self is no longer near Feeling this way for the entirety of a year So I listen as the sadness whispers things in my ears I rip myself away into a lonely empty hole And you take yourself away as I sell my whole soul Digging into this deprеssion like a crying little mole I fall down an еternal fireman's pole Driving on this road alone it's already 3 am My headlights try their best to push through the dark I'm trapped in But the ghosts of the past stand ahead my racing car They creep and they haunt and keep my thoughts and me from going all too far My emotional comfort runs full out of gas And I'm stuck here in the cold wonder how long I can last So I bang my head to get the demons out upon the shattered glass Hoping I won't survive this mental bash I hike down this path and arrive at the witch's altar I bow and worship this sadness that has become my martyr She whispers in my ear: why have you done this ? And what have you done ? Why couldn't you have made the right choice for once ? So I scream and I sob and I fall into this hole My breath leaves my chest as I hit the worm filled soil I see the stars and they tell me I don't deserve my soul And let me tell you it's real f*cking hard to get out of a hole when they take When they take, when they take away your rope They sell happiness all wrapped inside a pill So I keep writing these poems just to feel something still This can't be happening, no this can't be real But I condemned myself to this place, myself I have sealed So I sprint into the dark to shrivel up all by myself And I look at all these people, how we're all unkept Secrets from my past come rising to the top And one day I'll throw myself off the ledge in order to make it stop And they sell joy all wrapped inside a pill Our own unique character our consumption will slowly kill Just swallow it down before you break the rules too hard And stay right there, stay inside your own backyard I want to leave this place, and never return I want to leave this place, take my past and let it burn I want to leave this place, and leave no rock unturned Until one day I can make it stop And I can make it stop

@bozowozo4664

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks

The pain in this song is so...real I just....i don't feel alone while listening to this

Oh my goodness I wanna hug him so tight

Without a doubt, one of the most beautiful things I've ever heard.

i can’t wait ethan!! i already know this is going to be absolutely amazing, i’m so proud of you.

Ethan jewell..... you're the reason I'm still alive

This man is only so underrated.... It takes my breath away, his music, it just makes me safe, in an odd way.

your music is such a good expression of what so many others are feeling but too afraid to say it. i just want to give you a hug ngl

wow... well... that hit hard. imma just ignore this and just pretend that i can't relate at all. i am fine.. completely fine. i don't listen to your songs every night at all, crying myself to sleep. no i'm completely fine. ok? I AM FINE

@ravenraven3588

2 жыл бұрын

Are you ok?

@kodoku1984

2 жыл бұрын

@@ravenraven3588 I think he’s fine

@vincenthite3648

Жыл бұрын

I see you lie to yourself too like I do 24/7 but I don't cry. I just stare at the ceiling or wall as my head screams at me from the repented bottles piled within me and as the bottles pile the more insane I become until I can't hear anything else in my head but screaming of a tortured soul. So I try to drown it out but I can't stand reality so I revisit often.

this guy is keeping me alive. his songs have saved me and really helped me, i hate to see how many people have to feel this way. he gets it so damn accurate it doesn’t even feel like a song, it feels like my thoughts speaking.

I’M CRYIING everything is MORE than perfect you are TALENTED and someday you will sing all ur poems in the stage and we will be there to hear you :”)💜💜💜💜💜

This piece just made me cry, after a long Time of feeling numb. I'm grateful for that

the only ethan in my life that i will accept

Am I the only one who cried because somebody finally gets me. This is amazing. Thank you so much..

this should be almost another genre of music- it’s so meaningful and you can clearly see and hear the emotion. absolutely beautiful.

The song that made me see a therapist before it was too late. Thank you. X

I didn't realize how bad I was hurting until I herd this

@Maykovasconcelos

2 жыл бұрын

same

Anyone watching this right now?

I hope you all are doing okay and know that you deserve the world 💛

The emotions in your music..... woahh......

Your songs are an escape for me. I sit in my room depressed all day just trying to put my feelings into words. Its just hard. But every one of your songs explains everything i need. Every little feeling. Every mental breakdown. But it helps because i know your music will be here to help me understand my own feelings. Your songs really help me get thru. And it hurts that i relate to the lyrics so much but at the same time its a form of relief. To know im not the only one. But i wish i was the only one so others wouldn't have to go thru my pain.

This means so much to me. Thank you. I hope you see these comments and know how important your work is to so many people.

I've been a fan of Ethan's stuff for a little bit and it's so amazing, like beyond amazing. his voice matches perfectly with the music in a way no-one else's voice could and it FRUSTRATES ME that nobody's heard of him!! like pls give this guy subscribers he deserves them so much and its killing me that he hasn't got millions of views!!!!

There are so many of his poems. These are the only things keeping me alive. And I want to thank him because if I ended it now I wouldn’t have met the people who are with me throughout my journey. I’m glad I met these people. And thank u Ethan Jewell for keeping me alive with ur stunning poems. Keep writing and singing them.

If anything describes me or my feelings, its this. Amazon music auto played this while I was driving. I had to pull over, I was crying so much. It is truly beautiful.

I found "It's Getting Bad Again" by complete random on Pandora of all places and was hooked right off the first key. I am so happy that I found you.

your music saved my life thank you kind sir

@gerson6650

3 жыл бұрын

Same

it comes out a day after my birthday!!

@brutalbrooke3199

3 жыл бұрын

Happy early bday!

@alyssarayne9330

3 жыл бұрын

@@brutalbrooke3199 Thank you!

@sleepmillennium5552

3 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday

I can't describe how much I love him he is a ✨ g r e a t ✨ person ❤️

omgomgomg i really can’t wait !

this is one of my favorites you’ve ever released. keep it up king

i praise your music....you speak for the ones that cant!

i’m so excited for this you don’t even know

@cyberous775

3 жыл бұрын

Me too

@ellag8970

3 жыл бұрын

sameee

ahhhh!!! i’m so excited!!!!!!❤️❤️

Dude I've listened to this song on repeat on spotify for hours a day since it came out I'm so excited for this.

Im shocked no one has mentioned this, but imo the gasps for breath convey crying, which just makes it better

its a bit overwhelming and at the same time a relief and i don't know how that can make sense, but its a mess in here and it kinda helped sorting it out a bit

God Ethan is so awesome I can’t express how much I appreciate him cause it takes a lot to show your feelings because your vulnerable but him, he shares it and here we are he has many subs and he is just amazing cause people can actually relate to what he is feeling and I wonder what happened but really you shouldn’t think you should think how is he is so brave to let me people know that he is in pain he is in a place where he feels he can’t get out he is somewhere that he needs help! But instead of taking his life or just being alone he expresses his feelings to this beautiful art piece and it’s so inspiring and so amazing and he may still have these thought of taking his life or maybe just leaving it but he hasn’t and hopefully he never will cause he may not realize this but he is saving lives and letting people know that they are NOT alone with these feelings that they can’t get rid of. We need him in this world, we need him to express his feelings cause if he keeps doing that, in a couple years I bet you that he will have saved over 5,000+ lives and in a couple years if he keeps going with this beautiful art I’ll bet you that there will be so many more people all over the world who were inspired by him and start doing this too but in there own words, own languages, own cultures and just own feelings. And thank you for reading this u are beautiful no matter what u have a purpose and you are special :)

@renostervdm1749

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you for saying this, I don't think people realise exactly what you've said and someone needed to.

@heyheyd5730

3 жыл бұрын

@@renostervdm1749 thank you for noticing my comment, ya I just wanted to say what needed to be said

This hit hard....

✨spicy hobo Johnson ✨ love it

@retrophilic3464

3 жыл бұрын

LMAO TRUE

Every time I try to talk to my friends about how I feel, I feel so talked over. Every time I talk about anything bad, my one friend also had it happen. She always talks to me but will I ever be able to talk to her.

It's amazing. When I'm down in the dumps. When I can't name my feelings, or I'm just to scared to do it, I can listen to your music, knowing that this is exactly what I wanted to shout out and feel safe.

I love every single one of you. Stay. Please. We can all help each other get through this. Tell me about how it feels right now. Let it all out. I'm here for you😘

@alinaa1119

3 жыл бұрын

its so hard

@diora266

3 жыл бұрын

@@alinaa1119 i know baby but time heals. i threw my razor away after 3 years, it isnt impossible💜

@septicvortex8114

3 жыл бұрын

It feels like I’ll never change

@ellabrown6320

3 жыл бұрын

@@alinaa1119 ik... I can't tell you that it gets better bc it doesn't but you have to keep fighting for yourself and your friends and your family and for me. I love you

this is one of my top 10 favourite songs

Watched it on the premiere and can’t stop thinking about this video. Thank you Ethan. And once again, the axe was a key element. 💛

are you alright man? i love your stuff, but remember that we’re always here for you and we love you.

I wanted to thank you for putting words on what I’ve felt since I’m 12. Thanks a lot, and I hope you’re happier now

we all have the days, weeks, months ,year’s that we just want to die to end it to make it all stop and we just hide it behind a smile and act like we are okay when we aren’t and we don’t tell any one you are not okay because you don’t want to be selfish and you think it going to be okay but it never gets better so we just live with it. Act like it’s not there.

your music makes me feel like i’m not the only person feeling this way. your words hit hard but in some way it’s comforting to know i’m not alone.

Thank you, Ethan. Feeling the same way is like finding the best friend in the middle of the loneliness field. 🧡

Ethan im so sorry you have covid plz get better ❤ praying for u

I can't wait! :) also I just wanted to say thank you! :))

Thank you for writing I have be battling with anxiety and depression for 3 years and your songs are the one thing that makes me fell like I am not alone which makes me keep going when at night all I want to do is end it because my parents blame me for be raped and they blame me for cutting your songs keep me from just leaving because I am stressed I am only 13 but the world is so evil I am bullied every day thank you

@-oof-8269

3 жыл бұрын

I fully agree and can fully relate to everything you wrote above here, and I wish I could tell you something like 'it'll be alright', but I don't even know myself if it's going to be... Just know your at least not alone (:

One of my favorite songs of his.

Th- this music video brings so much more emotion to the song and I could feel through watching you taking it out with that axe to the piano

you deserve a fulfilling life, a joyful life, a life💜

Ethan you are so underrated your poems are the best and you have helped me though so much thank you 💗

damn i’m just speechless this was so good and there was so much emotion put behind it. this is one of the best pieces that you have written. thank you for all of your amazing songs, they are so relatable

sometimes I wonder if Ethan realizes how many people he's saved

@user-ye1ci8kx9w

3 ай бұрын

I don't think so, but It's gonna be like at least 10000 ppl

Honestly I can really relate to your songs so thank you for writing something beautiful.

I'm violently crying in my bathroom to this. I have BPD, and lately I've been feeling so stuck, so hurt, so destructive, so lonely... And I've never been able to put into words what I've felt for so long... And I'm finding it now... 24 years old and I FINALLY feel like there is someone out there that understands. I can't thank you enough for making this. It feels like such a release. Like the world was just taken off my shoulders. I really needed this.

@kierancripps68

2 жыл бұрын

I know it doesn't count for much from a stranger but I genuinely hope that things work out for you one day. I know it's tough but I really respect you for being able to deal with the BPD.

The amount of emotion you put into every song I love it I struggled with severe depression for 6 years and have been hospitalized many times you have always helped me recently I went into the icu from and od and your music helped me so much and I’ve been listening to you before your first album even and I’m 13 now and thank you I’m proud of you

I never felt so understood in my life ❤️ Thank you

Thank you so much for making these songs because it makes me happy that I'm not the only one feeling like that. Thank you 😊

I’m so- extremely excited for this 🥺💞💞

Just so incredibly underrated. I’m so happy and thankful that I returned back to your tiktok account that one day to listened to your music which I quickly fell in love with. The emotion. Just incredible.

so excited and proud of you!!

We all know that you're so good in putting emotions into songs. And I can relate to it so much

You’ve saved me in so many ways, Ethan.. thank you for being who you are. I’m holding onto things that cut me deeper everyday.

HYPED for the release Ethan! We love you!!

Super underated 😔

Tbh I was kinda skeptical about him just you know cuz he's talking, but after u watch it u can't imagine it any other way, he tackled so many stuff that I deal with and countless others. This guy knows

I hope him and Twenty One Pilots make a song together one day. I’m not sure I could handle it, but it’s something that I think should exist in the universe

@sumcebychmoh

3 жыл бұрын

YESS

@neonsoul2756

3 жыл бұрын

Oh my gosh I’ve been wanting that for so long

I love how Ethan puts poetry into his music- it’s so amazing to hear songs with story

thanks for keeping me alive ethan :') i love your new album btw!!

He has helped me through so much so i just wanna say thank you because ive been invisble latley and you make me feel seen and heard

he sings what ever one else is afraid too The truth

this video is so amazing... the concept and camera angles and shots taken were a brilliant fit with the song. i loved it a lot. keep up the amazing work ethan ! much love

I really hope he’s okay, his lyrics sound so personal...

@dallaswinston330

3 жыл бұрын

They have to be, you can't just write like this in a good state of mind. I write poems and songs to myself. The only ones I really like are when I'm overly emotional. Whether its a deep sadness, anger, or fear. It's a weird thing. Those are also when a poem or song is it's most powerful.

This is a whole new level of poetry. Great work.

This is amazing I love this. His poems and music are beautiful.

I wish I could write like this

very hype

currently sobbing to this

It’s is beautiful and I really hope making this pure emotions and breakdown help you keep, and stay in the light. You’ve done a lot for a straw by sharing your word songs poems. And just ultimately your self. So we are so grateful and will be here for you and want you to stay in the light. Now I might feel shivers down my body and goosebumps and kinda crying while typing this. But I mean every word much love Jewell 💜💎💜

this person's songs are so relatable pls

Who hurt this poor, deep soul? I wish I could take your pain away. I KNOW how it feels. And Id never want a soul like yours to suffer with these unbearable pains and sorrows

I literally just got into him yesterday I’m proud of myself for that

This is how I am feeling my anxiety had been so bad when he said the sad whispers in my ears I was like I know his

I mean, honestly, just looking at the video in full view, with headphones it hit close to home in a whole new other way. I swear.

BRO I’M LIKE SO HYPE FOR THIS OKAY

I’m six days early 😀👍

@madson2307

3 жыл бұрын

46 hours early 😀👍

everything about this is incredible, the emotion is just amazing i- i’m at a loss for words, you are doing awesome ethan and anyone who tells you other wise is just blinded by the amount of talent you have, thank you for continuing to be so kind, wholesome and humble about what you do.❤️❤️