Proud of you bro! Thank you so much for sharing with us!

Thanks a lot for sharing your struggles and your story once again in such a vulnerable way. I honestly am inspired by your bravery in the face of soul-quivering terrifying things such as suicidal thoughts, raising a family, grueling self improvement, and battling mental health along with everything else. The fact that you keep moving forward still and are humble enough to break down your past identities in order to adapt and evolve is powerful man, a force to be reckoned with. Just know that watching your life force adds fuel to my own. Bless up brother!

I’m happy for you 😊 keep moving forward

i don't know who you are but I appreciate these stories

Dude you’re fucking dope! I actually knowingly stopped taking my antidepressants and antipsychotics because I had some raves to go to and knew I’d be drinking smoking and taking drugs and didn’t want to mix so much shit and it was honestly one of the best decisions of my life. I feel like when I’m following a steady path and in order for me to really focus and not have to worry about my mental health I’ll start them again but for now I choose not to mix them. I feel you on the smoking weed with them tho it’s hard to stop smoking hella weed when for so long that WAS basically your form of medication.

Please don't take SSRIs Audible bro ya stronger than this you ain't need a band aid brother I know life's hard sometimes but if you have to take a substance weed an very low doses of non SSRI Based anti psychotics could help now temporarily anyways and only if absolutely sure your moods are that unstable or your having trouble controlling anger and the stress of that obviously could be more harnful than not taking drugs but we all have to figure out how to control these things for ourself we aren't gonna do that by using toxic compounds that hide our mental problems temporarily and than lead to suicidal ideation or self harm of the physical or chemical level you can't accept this brother I see you as one of the most important psychedelic channels on KZread as you've been here from the start and made some great content with nothing but passion and dedication to your craft but for damn sure one thing you is or I thought was ,was a man who understood the power of psychedelics and microdosing but now all I'm seeing is someone who wanted to make videos about an edgy topic for clicks... If you have a true passion for life and want to just do you and be happy doing so low doses of mushrooms preferably pcilicybe species ie cyans P.semilencia P Azurozens and do very low doses .1-.2 every 3-4 days paired with regular vitamin uptake particularly important vitamin C Vitamin D And b complex for energy in the day time to help maintain a possitive mental status use cannabis as the true astonishing poweful medication it is not to get high and escape ie instead of smoking all the time try edibles/vapes throughout the day the more methods the better as these all have their uses smoking only use is to get high get only pure sativa or pure indica or extremely dominant sided strains hybrids not only stop the medical effects of certain strains but also make for a confusing up and down type of high that is gonna make your moods more likely to be unstable as it's always gonna be better to smoke a sativa for mood related issues during working days ie adhd depression but if you need to relax something like kosher Kush is gonna put you right down and let you sleep most giving you a choice of feeling ie slight control of your moods when you start to feel irate or irritable dye to not being able to sleep use the right medication for that moment importantly don't forget what you have on this earth already an awesome family and wife a few hundred fans that would be happy to call you their friends in real life and shake your hand for the awesome work you've put out there regardless of what drugs you do or don't do I'll always appreciate your work and time you've put into this channel and I believe in you brother you are gonna kick this phase of hardship right in the fucking ass straight outta this earth :D and remember nothing is permanent bro please don't make a bad habbit of the pills and give you and your family that 100% pure presence and mind when your not working and when you are enjoy that time to think for yourself sure tasks of most jobs now an demeaning and boring but no reason to not grow as a person and enjoy music podcasts books etc when working ;D and also the time to yourself depending on the job this may or may not be possible but don't stress. A you and your fam gonna be just fine :) things will be actually better than fine things will be excellent when you find your right path and get off some of these things or cut down on your weed use but your not alone in problems with weed bro I myself have been trying to beat the monkey of Cannabis for years only past year I've really been making some progress and using it more responsibly but now my alchohol use is going up so it's one thing after another in life but we just gotta strife for betterment of ourselves and fellow man and not worry about what we can't control and change what we can :) peace and love from the uk A been listening since like 2016 bro so I hope to see you making some new inspired documentary / travel style videos

@Audible484

2 жыл бұрын

Hey dude appreciate your comment and the time and thought you put into it. I will say this….my life is better than it’s ever been. I am happy with my decision because I actually did the research and came to the conclusion I was willing to try them out and see how it goes. I don’t want to kill myself anymore. I don’t lose my mind day to day because my moods are constantly going up and down. I appreciate you but It’s all good right now actually. It's not a permanent thing. I will say that. I do still believe in the power of psychedelics OF COURSE but I needed to stay alive and I was absolutely not in the right place to mess with psychedelics IMO. I was literally planning to kill myself and crying multiple times a day. My mental state was totally broken and honestly I think the therapy is what really helped the most. I BEEN doing research and trying new substances for different purposes my whole life, I know what i'm doing. In my opinion psychedelics, along with cannabis and even SSRI’s have a time and place and this was the time for something new i've never done before.....AND THAT WAS NOT A NEW SUBSTANCE. I'm not saying this is the end goal. It just is now. Dare Forward.

@austinleap5924

2 жыл бұрын

@@Audible484 Im super glad you are feeling better than every at the moment man. Im not entirely sure how those drugs work over time but i do get the feeling that what goes up must come down. I just hope you dont end up even lower after using those drugs for a decent amount of time. I compare it to when you take any drug everyday. It starts out real nice but over time gets messy.. Keep it in mind. hope you keep feeling great man

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Keep on trucking, bro! Your not the only one to have this situation cause mental health deterioration. I’m suffering from crippling anxiety and depression from a past that I can’t even begin to move on through will power or mental therapy alone. Also, don’t let the fearmongering around antidepressants discourage you from healing. Everyone has a different body/situation, and it’s better to medicate if you feel that the slow-acting positives outweigh the immediate negatives. More often than not, side-effects go away with time as you get used to it. I’ve done fluoxetine in a past depressive episode, but I’ve since then had a relapse with added anxiety/ptsd during these lockdowns and gone with Mirtazapine. I’ll eventually make it into psychiatric “rocket-fuel” (Mirtazapine safely combined with an SSRI/SNRI) to deal with residual anxiety, since it is mostly acting as a pure antidepressant with little anxiolytic properties (probably having treatment resistance). I’m inspired to keep moving forward seeing you struggle down a similar road, so keep on trucking through this storm and you’ll eventually find its clearing.

@Audible484

2 жыл бұрын

Hell yeah brother DARE FORWARD AND KEEP TRUCKIN I love it lol ✊✌

Look up ketamine therapy bro! Clinics are popping up all over

Also congrats on the new job brother keep learning and growing work should be challenging nothing worse than being bored :D right now ya gotta a great opportunity to learn and make some cash :D also as for trip Storys I got one exp report from when a doctor gave a me an SSRI called mirtzapine I only took it once and was high for 14 hours wasn't even a full pill and shit had my time dilated so much I waited 3 hours at a bus stop wondering where the busses where when they where off on bonfire night in uk as in my area people throw fireworks at them at bonfire night got a very angry call from my girl as I'd thought I'd been literally waiting halfa 40 mins tops 😂😂 but yea never again truly felt like my brain was cut down to 5% function for 48 hours

@danielcoppock

2 жыл бұрын

:D also as a note to this reaction I know 3 other people with much worse side effects to this supposedly the mildest SSRI one getting so addicted to it hed dose 3-4 times per day the highest dose pill sometimes taking upto 180mgs daily this caused massive damage to his liver and kidneys and he stopped taking it cold turkey and felt more social/Alive after about 4-6 weeks of fighting the withdrawral however my girlfriend similar to me was prescribed this off licence and accidentally redosed as she forgot shed taken it in the morning only making the dose x4 as potent as the original 15mg dose so about a 45-60mg dose however on the bus she began dosing off and started seeing strange very real hallucinations one of a man with a rifle running down the street than seeing ninjas etc lots of stupid not even sensical type of halluicinations went home vomitted for a short while and fell asleep half the day these substances are incredibly variable and my response wasn't that uncommon also not that uncommon is horrific nightmares caused by these substances another friend diagnosed with depression due to him grieving his farther got so far into this hole that every night hed try and fight taking it until finally giving up after not sleeping till 6-7 am hed take it and slip into a dream and have night terrors of this demonic chracter would slink round his room crushing him and just generally getting tortued by his own mind till he finally got help and told his psychiatrist what was going on than they got him addicted to a hard to quit drug im sure many of you know percoset... why they gave him percs for psychosis idk as it was psychosis purely brought on by a drug they'd prescrtibed so its hard to believe but yea that helped for a short bit and he tapered off the percoset and got back to baseline eventually ultimately though seeing massive drug use of all kinds in my city I can say this shit takes the cake even heroin/ meth users have less chance of toxix life changing side effects and thats a scary thought lots of people whos metabolisms have slowed to the point they cant consume 600-1200calories without ballooning up to massive sizes and having permanent digestive issues due to constantly using these substances specifcally SSRI/NSRI based compounds they're basically research chemicals with little research on the effects in the brain physically speaking there is no real data to suggest safety for human use in fact shit loads of the opposite yet they are addictive and offer suppression of mood in some people so although they've saved lives its like arguing that someeone who has abused opiates or stimulants like crack or flacka have been saved by the drug because it distracted them at a point in life when they was suicidal loving being on a drug is not loving life and eventually when that reality sets in most people quit the problem is those who don't usually die or fall of the face of social world and tend to become outcasts and shadows of their former self... the chances of getting their probably 12-17% like most drugs only 1-5 or 1-10 even may get addicted and have toxic effects to their body/social life so its basically just justified legal drug addiction with support in hopes they'l be able to get the user off the substance however often this backfires and peeople whove been sober for years get hooked on these concoctions the psychiatrist reccomends so anyone reading this whos thinking of trying pharmaceuticals please seek all other options first therapy psychedelic treament ie mushrooms dmt etc as most people are gonna benefit from low dose mushroom treatment ie microdosing with therapy where as most people will suffer in some way shape or form from pharmaceutical use and in the future this type of compulsive dosing regiment will be seen as human torture/abuse and a lot of doctors/Psychiatrists will lose their posssitions and possibly even be jailed/fined for the misconduct of and malpractice unfortunately people are not typically good people in the psychiatry field and its filled with a lot of bad eggs looking to find ways to control people so be careful who your doc is people some fucking right weirdos and just people who genuinely dont give a fuck about ya life out there so look for a therapist with genuine passion for his job who doesn't want you to try pills immediately but wants you to try various forms of therapy and get to know you and your issues not one of the ones who will try and mask em with pills to make his job easier...