I have learned from being around drugs my whole life that sobriety is like peeling a onion. You have to go thru layers , peeling back the hurt & trauma of life. It is the only way to get to the heart of why you are numbing the pain with drugs. It is gonna bring tears, its gonna be hell. But, without looking deep inside at the real pain. 99 percent will not quit using. When living with a lifetime of anguish, to be able to take it away , if only temporary is why most people keep using. I speak from experience, sadly I've lost so many friends & family. From addiction. I've also struggled the same fate. I understand what he is saying 100 percent, Everyone has pain deep inside that you carry forward. I hope he gets the help he needs to work on the layers of hurt inside.

@Mrskaseymunzer

2 жыл бұрын

This is so on point! Great message and attitude. :)

@pambeforethestorm9784

2 жыл бұрын

I absolutely LOVE your comment, it moves me because I know exactly what you mean.....peeling those layers back is the most difficult thing....Ever but so very worth it. I wish you well, as well as Stephen, my heart just goes out to him so very much, I see and understand his pain, but he has so much potential, such a beautiful soul. Thank you for this very needed jewel you gave us ❤👑

@miqa5911

2 жыл бұрын

♥️

@loriedwards4953

2 жыл бұрын

@@pambeforethestorm9784, Thank you for your comment. Living thru the hell in life, is only the beginning. They say what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. But, burying it all deep inside will slowly take everything away. I have survived tremendous pain in my 55 years. Like most I buried it, to make it thru another day.But it is all still there, I've learned to take a layer at a time, it gets to be too much too deal with. I'm touched that you understand what I feel. I don't normally talk about these things.i just felt his pain. I hope you find your peace inside, so you can start having happiness you deserve. 💜

@loriedwards4953

2 жыл бұрын

@@Mrskaseymunzer,Thank you for your comment. 💜

I really respect how this guy takes full responsibility for his drug use. I really hope he gets there.

@gailmendez5465

2 жыл бұрын

Right!!! He's focused enough to know what he wants to achieve. He doesn't hide from his problems and he knows what his problems are, he just needs to learn how to stay clean. I wish him the best. I truly hope he follows through. Perhaps Mark you can help him get out of the area, and maybe enroll into a program. Because he does need to be structured.

@jsjrhehhehehdhrhrhrhuruuru914

2 жыл бұрын

It’s the steps man. That shit takes you to the next level as an addict. Work them and you will keep showing improvement.

@Siobhan146

2 жыл бұрын

I agree

@nitemareman1

2 жыл бұрын

You mean when he said it was the "Marine Corp's" fault he smoked cannabis? Lol

@bobnobber2295

2 жыл бұрын

He will get there

I donate to get Stephen into a dual diagnosis program to address his underlying PTSD/trauma. In my opinion, regular drug treatment centers are not qualified to handle his case. He wants to gain traction in life but needs a life coach to teach him how to do so. Sending love, strength and prayers. You can do this Stephen. Do it for yourself and children. They need you more than you realize.

@auntymoi

8 ай бұрын

Peer to peer recovery is the only way

I’ve seen most of Marks interviews & honestly this is one of the most powerful interview showing the effects of addiction, hope you get clean Stephen, stay strong 💪🏽

@tweeterpints8008

2 жыл бұрын

Bungsicle

YOU HAVE TO GET AN UPDATE ON THIS GUY. WE ARE ALL ROOTING FOR HIM AND ALL THE OTHERS BUT THIS GUY SEEMS SO CLOSE TO TURNING IT AROUND.

This man has greatness in him, something about his spirit, and he needs to realize that

@michellerjackson5776

2 жыл бұрын

LaKendria- I 👍agree with your comment.

@JillValentussy

2 жыл бұрын

I 100% agree with your comment, this man has touched my soul I hope he has the power to help himself,

@ariloves10

2 жыл бұрын

Agreed 👍

@sethmarchese397

2 жыл бұрын

Yes, he does.

@tweeterpints8008

2 жыл бұрын

Bonger

Nod from a severely wounded vet from those years. We all found our poison to forget, but your kid needs you.

@Lady-Carmakazi

2 жыл бұрын

He needs a good job opportunity

@marylougeorge9890

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your service. I'm sorry about your struggles.❤️💔

@anciboi

Жыл бұрын

Respect. .....poison to forget. .....Respect.

I'm officially 40 years old today. Never thought I'd live this long. Humbled. Hope everyone is well. Stay warm. It's cold everywhere just about. Freezing here. Thank you Mark and Steve for the interview. ❤️ •This man has the tools, I think he can make it. Wishing you sucess Stephen! You can get home to them kids brother. I know you can.

@amydv8123

2 жыл бұрын

you too

@ZootZinBootZ

2 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday... keep goin.

@sandife4nandes365

2 жыл бұрын

Happy Birthday!

@sandy_she3469

2 жыл бұрын

Happy birthday 🎉🎁🎈🎂

@jaylajoy

2 жыл бұрын

Happy Birthday!!

This soldier should still be taken care of especially since he is a veteran. Please don't give up Stephen, there are people who have your back. Much love take care of your beautiful children.

@lv42daze

2 жыл бұрын

his disdain for the military isn't without merit but i agree that he should be taken care of, he's clearly earned it

@zedwhyex

2 жыл бұрын

The way veterans in need are treated in the US and UK is appalling.

@kimberlysimmons6395

2 жыл бұрын

Soldier

@q.parablesque5610

2 жыл бұрын

Marines don't like being called soldiers. That's for Army.

@kadeelacayo4806

2 жыл бұрын

@@lv42daze he can hate the military all he wants

What an interesting take on the VFW. Also, love hearing from an actual veteran about the sheer neglect from our government after their sacrifice and service. My grandfather came back from Vietnam and was not mentally stable due to the trauma he experienced. I hope this man gets the help he deserves

@sandife4nandes365

2 жыл бұрын

Wounded Warriors is a great non profit group. They operate on donations. This is one of the charities that I donate to. Every dollar counts.

@HaveyouLovedandbeenLoved

2 жыл бұрын

*I have family and friends that have served this country proudly. The unfortunate part is when they returned, the correct mental help for them all was several months away and they had to go through hoops and put on a waiting list for mental health help. When the help was finally given it was so sub par, they turned to drugs & alcohol to cope from the events they seen while serving our country. I also worked many many years as the Emergency Services Supervisor for the American Red Cross and can't even tell you the countless calls I received from service members (and family of) going through the samething and weren't able to access mental health help asap and/or when they did, it wasn't sufficient. It devastates me to see so many men & woman who've sacrificed & served for so many years only to finally come home and have their lives completely fall apart. Many committed suicide because of feeling like they were a failure to their country and love ones because when they returned home, they couldn't mentally deal with what they went through while serving. Our VA care is deplorable.*

@bryan123483

2 жыл бұрын

How we can ask people to die for their county and then not offer them immediately access to whatever help they need as soon as they get home is unacceptable.

@Lady-Carmakazi

2 жыл бұрын

My uncle too

@iamterriffic7041

2 жыл бұрын

Yes I thought the same and it's a damn shame that it's a VFW serving alcohol on every other block in America.

That was hard to watch, so much authenticity and emotion. Stephen, surrender completely. You can do this brother. I had 17 years in alcoholism and this month I celebrated 8 years. There is nothing more rewarding than being released from the chains that bind you. Don't let some bathtub chemical steal your life. Prayers for recovery!

@kimsmith819

2 жыл бұрын

Congrats to you and keep on keeping clean 🙏💖

@robertapascal6962

2 жыл бұрын

Surrender. Ah such a hard part of life for many.

I'm guilty of seeing a photo of the person you interview and making a judgement based on their photo and the title, but most of the time the person you interview is the complete opposite. Making these judgements along with many other flaws I have is something I'm trying to overcome, no matter how big or small it may be. This gentleman has a good head on his shoulders, I pray that he ends up getting clean and be living a fulfilling life. Thank you Mark for everything you do and giving your guests a chance to open up and be heard!

@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607

2 жыл бұрын

I do the same exact thing-I STILL do it even after being wrong so many times about the subject

@BrianKeith2006

2 жыл бұрын

@@annaelisavettavonnedozza9607 Atleast we are honest about it. They say it's human nature which that may be true, but I try not to be judgemental. I have met people who are dressed in a fancy suit and carry themselves well and I assumed they are rich or doing very well in life only to find out they are homeless. On the flip side I have read a story about a married couple who bought an older large sized U-Haul truck and turned it into their home on wheels and they traveled the United States in it. From the outside it looked like a ratty old truck 🚛 and people would view them as being poor but they were worth close to 50 million dollars but they wanted to be as worry free as possible and this was there way of doing so.

@elscheib

2 жыл бұрын

That's called unconscious bias, and every single person automatically does it the moment they see someone. You don't even know it's happening.

@christineb6524

2 жыл бұрын

Just think how many homeless people are out there just like him 😞. That makes me think and makes me sad. I do believe everyone is precious inside and out 🥰

@leneo1731

2 жыл бұрын

Me too. And I hate that about myself. I want so bad to be non judgemental. In theory I don't care what religion you belong to, what colour you are, what gender you are, what you're attracted to as long as it isn't kids or animals, what you do for a living. I see myself as a very open minded person. Yet, when I see an accountant in suit my first thought is that he's boring. We have nothing in common. But if he rolls up his sleeve and his arm is covered with tattoos, then I'm suddenly interested! This is why I prefer to listen to KZread. I let it play automatically and I just listen. And then in the middle of the video I look. Luckily when I meet people in real life I easily get entertained, so I like most people who talk to me. I find their stories interesting and then I don't care that much about what they look like. People who care about something makes everything interesting.

Mark, if you read this, I just want to say how much I admire what you're doing with this project. It truly illuminates the front lines of an addiction/mental health/housing crisis. It is a window into an issue people have to confront if we have any hope of moving forward. Would love to see the interviews you could get in Boston! Keep yourself safe out there.

I've been telling all of the homeless people that I see that they can go to H&R Block, Liberty Tax, etc. and they can help you get all of your stimulus money. You don't need a permanent address. Y'all, spread the word. And I'm also in Phoenix. Best of luck to you, Stephen. ♥

Fully believe this man will reach sobriety .

@qazy477

2 жыл бұрын

Why

@Thagy1973

2 жыл бұрын

@@qazy477 because he clearly wants to turn his life around. He comes across as very sincere and genuine.

@Dulcimerea

2 жыл бұрын

@@jaf8771 agree. But i want to believe he will and think he can. He's not quite bottomed out yet tho it seems.

@chrishaynes6539

Жыл бұрын

I wish it worked that way..

Stephen is a nice looking guy and has a plan to be better person and parent. I hope he succeeds. Please don't give up. Keep trying.

@thematriarchy2075

2 жыл бұрын

Well, those "nice looks" have nothing to do with it.

@HaveyouLovedandbeenLoved

2 жыл бұрын

Sandi..I agree with you.

@amydv8123

2 жыл бұрын

he looks Danish to me

@sandife4nandes365

2 жыл бұрын

The Matriarchy, you missed my point. Positive reinforcement is important, male or female. We are all worthy.

@KathleenHemrich

2 жыл бұрын

@@sandife4nandes365 Absolutely and he is a handsome man and there's nothing wrong with noting that.

I have so much hope that someone will help Stephen as he seeks out to become sober! What a tender heart!

Not sure if he’ll see this but we’re rooting for you Stephen! I’m hoping that you’ll break this cycle soon. I think you can do it man :)

Thank you for your service and the sacrifice you gave.

My father was a Vietnam veteran and has his own story of lack of care of the government for the trauma and poison (Agent Orange) he was exposed to that affected our family. It really hurts to see how this continues on .. I am the same age as this man…it truly breaks my heart.

@gretchenboyd69

2 жыл бұрын

The Vietnam Dervicemen generally, were treated like shit by Governments. The NZ Government arranged for the returning New Zealand troops to arrive at night, so none would know about them being back

@ianmuir6784

2 жыл бұрын

I am ex army (British Army) the way America treated the Vietnam veterans is scandalous, it’s a different story now when everybody is going Oh thank you for your service, its so false

Steven you can do it..when he said we are the human family makes me cry..stay strong 💪 do it for your kids

What is strange about stimulants and PTSD is that stimulants seem to calm people with PTSD. I believe it works in a similar way to turning up your radio so loud it distorts the sound of the music and you can’t hear it anymore it’s just noise. Stimulants crank up the signals in the brain and distorts the signals and giving the person relief for a short time.

@freebriccs6134

2 жыл бұрын

Interesting insight..

@kiloton1920

2 жыл бұрын

@@freebriccs6134 thanks

@kaelen9906

Жыл бұрын

i think its because it gives us the adrenaline we crave to get to the alert state we had to be in

@richardcullen7007

2 ай бұрын

Stimulants dull emotions. Even in therapeutic doses people take to treat adhd.

My son did two tours in Iraq with the Marine Corp and experienced the unimaginable. He too had just graduated from boot camp Parris Island 7/01. While deployed his (high school sweetheart) wife cheated. After 8 yrs He resigned given an honorable discharge. Unfortunately These two traumatic events left him forever angry! He went to the VA for mental help for what we now know is PTSD. The clinic basically told him, “You’re a Marine, suck it up.” He began drinking but was able to hold a full time job. After a yr I begged him to quit drinking and he did! He has since purchased the company he worked for - boat mechanic from his training as special forces in the MC. He achieved a lot $ but To this day he has a hair trigger anger attitude. The day he graduated I couldn’t have been more proud 🇺🇸 *I haven’t seen MY son (The real him) since 2001 when the recruiter came to escort him away for boot camp.

@thematriarchy2075

2 жыл бұрын

Does he watch this content? It might help him.

@kimmie020

2 жыл бұрын

@@thematriarchy2075 I forward EVERY one that relates to him obviously without my comment. 😔 It’s so sad to watch these/him as his mom. Let me add he won’t talk about “What It” is. He needs professional help. And he developed a CONSTANT ringing in his ears but refuses to collect $. His macho reply is, I’m alive with all parts…others need the $ more than I do.

@thematriarchy2075

2 жыл бұрын

@@kimmie020That's tough. I think all this content is about all of us, regardless the story. I wish you both the very best, and keep communicating, because that's the most important thing. Thank you very much for sharing ❤

@wesleyalan9179

2 жыл бұрын

Bless your sweet heart, ma'am. I hope the very best for you and YOUR son....im going to call my mother now,I'm almost in tears, I haven't talked to my mother in almost 2weeks now, I need to go see her, sorry for the rambling 😆 Bless you and your son,ma'am, I appreciate his service also. 💜🙏

@lilaworley8935

2 жыл бұрын

Stay strong mama. 💜

If there was a way I could get a hold of this man. I have an incredible amount in common with him. I'm now 3 years sober. I am also LDS and would love to be able to converse with him and give him some hope.

My father was in WW2 and saw atrocities and death doing what he was trained to do. He once told me " every night he closed his eyes he slept with the devil". Alcohol became his way to stop the pain he felt . This man lives the hell many live. Thank you for your service and truth and honesty to yourself will take you to where you need to be. You are a well spoken, aware and genuine man . I wish you nothing but happiness and sobriety in your life

My brother was a contractor for the military twice in Iraq and at Guantanamo. He died in his early 50s last year of alcoholism. He briefly mentioned he suffered from ptsd, but there was no type of VA help for him as a civilian. I wonder how pervasive this problem is among other contractors.

@kimsmith819

2 жыл бұрын

This is so sad that he couldn't get help. Im so sorry for your loss 🙏💜

@Plumeria1

2 жыл бұрын

@@kimsmith819 Thank you.

@loricook5172

2 жыл бұрын

I get this so much

As a recovered meth addict for almost 11 years now, I wish nothing but the best for this young man! Meth WILL destroy everything about you and your family suffers right along with you. Prayers to all meth addicts!!

@kimsmith819

2 жыл бұрын

Congrats to you. You did it. Keep on keeping on. 🙏

@TheToywa

2 жыл бұрын

My husband has been struggling for about 10 years. Just relapsed on a 5 month sobriety journey. Thank you for your prayers

@ericjones2659

2 жыл бұрын

@@kimsmith819 thank you. Appreciate you

@ericjones2659

2 жыл бұрын

@@TheToywa hopefully he will pick himself back up. Sobriety is so awesome and I wish nothing but the best for you and yours.

@TheToywa

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you

Hoping he reaches sobriety and gets to be the best version of himself. For everyone that is not easy. Sending love and light

Great interview, I'm speechless. This hit home to me also...I was in the Army, (4 year term)I was also in basic training when 9/11 happened. 💜

@tylerlienau7548

2 жыл бұрын

Are you having struggles after getting out?

@wesleyalan9179

2 жыл бұрын

@@tylerlienau7548....yeah,I did for several years, but I got it all squared away, I'm good now,I reckon 😉

@tylerlienau7548

2 жыл бұрын

@@wesleyalan9179 awesome man!

@MsFunnyfeet

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your service!!

@marylougeorge9890

2 жыл бұрын

Love you, Wesley. You're a treasure.❤️❤️❤️

Ohhhhh this one right here hit home. As a veteran I know way too we’ll the sucky transition to the civilian life. 5 year navy veteran here.

@octaviobarajas3980

2 жыл бұрын

Thank you for your service!!!

These videos give me the strength to still try with my dad. Keep my distance, but to remember he’s still a human; sentient, with feelings and emotions that he struggles with. Even if I’m not sure if I can have a father daughter relationship with him, I know he needs shelter, food, and protection.

@bashmeesh

2 жыл бұрын

❤❤

@ccole1255

2 жыл бұрын

True

My heart goes out to you, Steven. I'll be praying for you. Gotta break your meth addiction man before you can get with your kids and get some discipline for your art. Good bless you.

Once a marine always a marine. Bless this man. God is with him. I have no fear for him because he is not alone. Praise God for being with you sir. Thank you for your service.

@aliekatsmom

2 жыл бұрын

Amen

@StandForTruth205

2 жыл бұрын

The god that the Mormons follow is not the true God of the bible

@jsjrhehhehehdhrhrhrhuruuru914

2 жыл бұрын

@@StandForTruth205 ya man. The Mormons have a cult. I’d like to think above that. Mormons and their child brides is not cool with me. I fuck with the Mormons when I’m out in Utah. When I’m talking about God. I’m talking about the higher power. The God that has given me life and sobriety. Not a cult of dudes who like to dress nice and have 6 wives.

I hope this man finds a dependable support system as he recovers. From one artist to another, keep creating! The world needs your vision and your kids need a sober dad. Wishing you the best.

Stephen seems like a wonderful person. It sounds to me like he uses drugs as a way to escape the PTSD. I hope that along with a sobriety program he gets help from a therapist that specializes in PTSD treatment. I think that will save him.

@evantochydlowski4787

2 жыл бұрын

I agree. It's so sad to me that these war vets come back from serving our country and have terrible trauma from war... They are the one's that pay the price of defending our freedom. And then when they return home they have no help or treatment for their PTSD so they turn to street drugs and self medication as a means of coping...

@BillViets

2 жыл бұрын

He was using drugs right out of bootcamp.

@sydney_rave

2 жыл бұрын

@@evantochydlowski4787 I think another deep trauma for him is the loss of his ex partner, the mother of his 3 kids. He broke down quickly remembering her, he stated that he thinks he's party responsible for her drug overdose death.

Wish he'd write about his life experiences. Lyrics, short stories, rap/poetry etc. Always interesting, thanks!

@annaxefta2421

2 жыл бұрын

Lol

Stephan thank you for your service first and foremost! As a sister and child of combat vets I can say with certainty they scrambled your brains a bit. The only thing we can take blame for is the next wrong decision so never blame yourself for somebody else's demon!!! I'm so sorry for your great loss. You have a strong faith and GOD DOES LOVE YOU AND HE WILL DELIVER YOU!!! We will always hear or see something from somebody in the rooms that we can twist around as an excuse lol the IMPORTANT thing is you RECOGNIZE IT!!! Keep up the good thinking you GOT THIS. Unleashing that beast like you did today is the best thing too. Love and prayers from Ohio.

@akhilrana8112

2 жыл бұрын

for the love of god and Stephan, Please change your dp

@wakingohiomama9110

2 жыл бұрын

@@akhilrana8112 😂😂😂

Another great interview with this intelligent and skilled young man. We do not the truth but after serving in the marine, weed or not weed, he's entitled to some after care. It's good that he's taking responsibility for his addiction, but if there is some ptsd has to be taken care and not self medicating with meth.

@Karenanneseven

2 жыл бұрын

Absolutely! Great comment

@NismoPro780

2 жыл бұрын

He can get the help he needs at the va. He needs to fully accept that it involves work on his part and making a 2 minute phone call and filing out a one to two page application. Everyone’s shitting on the va. The ones that say it’s so bad are the ones that are being lazy and not asking for the help and taking the steps to get in the system. It’s not hard.

@lilaworley8935

2 жыл бұрын

@@NismoPro780 I agree. He HAS to do the work. He has to want it. The assistance and support is there. It takes individual persistence to accept the support. And it's not an overnight thing. He needs to commit to it. I know plenty of programs out there and many vets that have taken advantage of the services offered. It comes down to being able to do the leg work and the desire to get better.

@tamaralerette3669

2 жыл бұрын

Is he still eligible for va services with a bad conduct discharge? I sure hope so. I think his weed usage was medicating from ptsd.

He has and knows he can do it. Someone needs to help him be accountable and believe in him. You can do it brother.

@Monica-gene1

2 жыл бұрын

Yes I was thinking the same. He needs almost like someone to help him everyday. But that’s not realistic I know.

This one hits close. Both of my parents have been addicts my whole life. I’m 21 now and my entire life I’ve watched them put their habits ahead of my needs. The love is in their core but their actions are always based off of their own needs. That’s what addiction does. :/ It’s painful because I can’t really be mad at them but I also am incapable of trusting them anymore. And honestly it’s hard to trust anybody. I wanted nothing more than to have parents that were there for me. I hope this guy gets better and takes care of his kids man. Growing up without guidance is extremely sad and I will probably never fully heal from the things they’ve put me through. I don’t resent them, I don’t hate them, but they have broken parts of my soul I can never get back. I can’t see them in the same light. And that’s a pain nobody should ever feel.

I have high hopes for Steven. I respect that he takes full responsibility for his drug use and where his life has went, that seems to be the first step to sobriety. Wish him success.

@Siobhan146

2 жыл бұрын

Same

@MoonbeamBear61

2 жыл бұрын

He's incredibly honest & apparently transparent about things. He's really struggling to hold it together, may God help him. Being honest is the 1st step towards healing.

@wendysaponaro3812

2 жыл бұрын

Amen!

@gabriellerosewood7850

2 жыл бұрын

I think he’s feeling way too ashamed and guilty someone needs to tell him it’s not his fault and not even blame him for getting into a drug

@gabriellerosewood7850

2 жыл бұрын

I think he’s feeling way too ashamed and guilty someone needs to tell him it’s not his fault and not even blame him for getting into a drug

I hear him loud and clear... This man will have a freedom testimony! So be it. I see him healed.. so shall it be.

Seems like a really good guy that lost his way to meth. If he can get some time away from the drug and concentrate on his family I think that he could turn things around it seems like he is being honest with himself

If this guy really got screwed over for a positive weed test, that's damn near criminal...

@jgreen6434

2 жыл бұрын

It’s against the rules! It’s made clear to recruits that there’s a zero tolerance policy towards non-prescription drugs, marijuana being one of them

@gabrielmartin4726

2 жыл бұрын

I have a ton of empathy for this man. Semper Fidelis (always faithful) is the Marine Corps motto. A lot of vets have gotten messed over in many different ways. Truth. But, he knew the rules, as all Marines do, with regard to drugs and piss tests. U.S. Service Members answer to the Uniform Code of Military Justice (UCMJ) and not the civilian legal system. Today, if you piss hot, nine times out of ten, you're gone. The only exception is, if you are a junior Service Member, and you self admit before the urinalysis. I'm a Marine and a recovering alcoholic. I hope this man finds help and is able to excise some of the demons he has. Recovery must come first. Have a blessed and fruitful New Year.

@Nobodyshoes

2 жыл бұрын

He wasnt just using weed in the marines. He admitted to starting meth when he was on post deployment leave. This man is not telling the full story.

@jgreen6434

2 жыл бұрын

@@gabrielmartin4726 You said it better than me. I was discharged from the Coast Guard after three years after testing positive for multiple illegal drugs that I used while on leave. The use of those drugs affected my job performance in no way whatsoever, but the FACT is, I knew the rules!!! I intentionally disregarded those rules knowing full well the consequences would be life changing if I was caught. I have no one to blame but myself. Having children now and concerned more for their future than my own, I teach them that when you know the rules and you break the rules, you and only you are to blame

@Lady-Carmakazi

2 жыл бұрын

@@Nobodyshoes If I'd been through Wray he has I'd be self medicating too

please bring this man back i loved hearing his story and i know he has a good heart and i wanna see him win and progress in life

I watch this channel ALLLLLL the time. This interview has impacted me the most as far as someone who is really trying to fight this disease , addiction. I would really love to see follow ups of Stephen. Wishing Stephen and Mark both many blessings this year. Sending you good vibes and prayers 🙏

The VA has in patient treatment centers. I've been there. One has to go to the VA though. While you're there, you have all the paperwork resources you need for your DD-214 and service connection. They will help with housing,, jobs,, etc. Get to Ohio VA if need be.I hope the best for you brother. You're not alone.

@Lady-Carmakazi

2 жыл бұрын

Even for those with dishonorable discharge or are you just thrown away and forgotten

@ewetn1

2 жыл бұрын

Pretty sure he was dishonorably discharged, meaning this doesn't apply, unfortunately

Perfect timing, thanks Mark I needed something to watch!

This has been one of my favorites. What a sweet soul. Totally takes responsibility for his situation. He has such a deep spirituality. " we are all family. We are created by same creator ". I hope he gets the help he needs and is successful. So much potential

"And I didn't have to remember" is the truest shit ever said about amphetamines. Opiates have a similar effect of helping you not remember but some people want to be wide awake, others 3/4 asleep. Same underlying problems but different coping mechanism/lifestyle.

@mongogojjo5944

2 жыл бұрын

Ehh and obviously everyone reacts differently. Amphetamines and other uppers definitely don't make me forget about any of my problems, at least not in the way that alcohol and opiates do the trick for me. I've just never really "gotten off" from stimulants, I will admit the rush from snorting meth is insane but after like 6 hours I'd catch myself just praying that the effect ends soon.

Have been watching your videos for quite a while now. People are fascinating and we’ve all had our struggles- some worse than others, and some are dealt a bad hand given their circumstances. It’s incredible to hear the stories from people from all walks of life. In the little things, we are different; but in the big things, we are as one.

Im from Sweden but i wish the US could take better care of their vets 🙏

*It’s terrible the way the military treats people when they deem them redundant.* 😡

He has a good soul, I hope his life improves and gets through rehab. Everyone always has a chance to change

so much light... out of everyone ive seen on this channel, Stephen really hits a chord with me.

Please keep us updated 🙏🏿. Keeping him in my prayers. I see a bright future ahead for this man! He has the will and power to make a 180!

Stephen call your brother again! You can't get that day back but you can start again. You know what's right and are so close to changing your life. Keep going you are worth it.

I love these kind of interviews. The sky is the limit. He will get there. Good luck!

Thank you for your service! I’m rooting for you brother. I’m struggling with the same addiction as well and there is no happy ending to that story as many of us know. Just know that you are not alone in this world and I’m in your corner! Best wishes and much love!

Been sober for 2 and a half years. Meth tore my life apart. Now I live a normal, productive life and have my clarity of mind and level headedness back. I really feel for this man, I have watched many of these videos but this is the first to bring a tear to my eye. You can see the strength of Stephen's spirit shine through, and I very much hope he gets healthy, sober and back on track to be reunited with his children and live a life with some semblance of peace. For any reading this who are struggling with addiction, know that YOU CAN CHANGE. If I can, you can. We are all under oppression from the ruler of this world, but remember that you are a child of God, who loves you, and to die in sin is the worst thing that can happen. Time is running out, turn away from babylon.

My niece learned that paper trick on u tide last week. She’s 6. Ur kids must be so proud. Through all his delusions. I can respect the fact that he knows he let his kids go. That’s hard

Good morning Mark. I hope it's warm Where You Are it's freezing here in Philadelphia. Stephen please know that we are not the culmination of our regrets or mistakes. God loves you stay strong and thank you for your service. You can do this man, I believe in you. You have a kind soul sir

What Stephen has described is sheer shame and guilt. Trauma is not pretty however it can be immensely powerful in a beautiful way. Stephen has mega potential!!

Mark another amazing video... God bless this man to find the light and live happy for him and his kids

Good luck to Stephen. Mark your backdrop and lighting is just amazing. Around 10 minutes he could be a classical oil painting come to life. All the best.

@thematriarchy2075

2 жыл бұрын

Velvet.

Stephen has soo much potential. He has family and faith. At some point, I hope he can see all the blessings! He deserves to be happy and have a life without addiction. Paint your life Stephen!!!

He has already done so much service. Helped me today. Thanks bud. Good luck, hope it is easier done than said, getting clean.

I felt this… so much. God bless you my friend. ❤️🙏🏻🕊

This interview was so full of heart. I hope that those who can help will. I believe Stephen can pull through with the right level of support. God be with you Stephen. Anything is possible.

I really respect this man. I hope he is doing great today and with his kids being the great man he was meant to be. It's totally in his reach. Thank you Mark for giving him a chance to tell his story and helping him out. ❤️

I felt this one! As one in recovery myself and a parent this one was a great watch! Hang in there Stephen you got this! I was a 20 yr addict now 7 yrs clean.

This is actually all great self talk. Dude has been through a lot of therapy and is heading in the right direction. Super inspirational and self-aware.

“Picking your kids up from school and taking your kids out of the car seat. Those things are special.” 😢😭 This man has touched my heart in so many ways. Praying for your sobriety Steven. You will have all of the things you want in life.

My brother joined the marines the exact same time! Maybe y’all would know each other. My brother was addicted to meth for over a decade. He’s better now, not as bad as he was. A lot of ptsd. You guys look like you would get along.. Hershell David from Tennessee?? I won’t put his last name but a big tall mean red head You got this 💪🏽 ✊🏽 Much respect to you and thank you. You sacrificed so much. You absolutely deserve an honorable discharge

Love ya Stephen. I really appreciate these videos showing us, we are all deserving of love. Thank you Mark.

This has to be my favorite interview. Nothing too special, because a lot of your interviews are amazing. But I just hope the best for this guy. His honesty really touched me, and he can do so much by helping others. If you’re reading this I hope nothing but the best for you. And just know nobody has it all figured out, we are all zombies. Some better than others.

Thanks for telling a little of your life story. Positive vibes coming straight from me to you. Australia 🇦🇺 to the USA 🇺🇸 🙌

@albertomedina4294

2 жыл бұрын

@Kat2407 Hello how's it going? How's everything over there in Australia 🌏? I'm from Texas USA, This channel is amazing, Are you also hooked to this channel

Stephen is so incredibly self aware. I’m rooting for him.

i can't wait until mark can have an update interview and how your progression thru to finding amazing life sober

I really hope this guy can get the help he deserves and wants! My heart truly goes out to him. Please know u are loved Stephen ✌🏽

Thank you for putting his interview on here!! I really see that he's capable of doing ANYTHING he could ever want.

Rooting for this guy! .. remember, YOU can do hard things.

Such a smart and wise man. Thanks to Mark for raising my awareness that drug addiction can and does happen to people of every walk of life, including good, decent people.

You can do this Steven! You have done it before and i know you can again! Sending all the love and healing and strength through getting and staying sober!

Some of your interviews affect me in different ways, this one with Stephen has hit me hard! He is the same age as my eldest daughter and it’s just heartbreaking, I sobbed like a baby, I want to wrap my arms around him and take all his problems away. I am sending love and healing vibes his way. I pray he makes it!! You got this Stephen!! 🙏🏼❤️

Dude still has the mentality and you know his soul is real.... I hope he finds his true calling...he like countless millions deserve peace and harmony. 😇

Really nice to hear someone with hope. I pray he stays clean and finds his way. Thank you, Mark!

My heart is so warm for this man and everyone out there suffering ♥️ spread kindness, joy. Realize your power. Your impact ♥️

I see this everyday. Being a RPN. Saving patients lives from addiction. Their new born babies! Losing patients! Torn Families. Placing them into therapy. Many do return to the emergency units. Some don't. But continue to work to save lives of drug addicts. Their families can't be there. We ARE their family! We don't and won't give up! You shouldn't either Stephen! Stay well my friend. ♥️

Stephen, you seem like such a good human. It seems so clear that, at your core, you're just a good person who wants to do the right thing. But believe me, I know -- addiction makes it impossible to "do the right thing." And the shame that follows that dissonance is crippling. But you know the way... you've walked the path before. I hope you're able to jump back into a 12-step program (since it seems like you really flourished in the fellowship) AND get extensive, long-term trauma therapy. I've been clean & sober a long time now, and if I can say one thing conclusively, it's that nobody, without exception, can achieve long-term recovery without processing the trauma that lead us to the booze, dope, etc. in the first place. Our government owes you this therapy. Sending you so much love & light.

Stephen has a beautiful heart. His story is breaking mine. Sending strength and care and hope for lots more support. ❤

I needed to see this one. Thank you Mark and thank you Stephen. Good luck to you brother. I believe this is your time and you can do it.

I really enjoyed his story, the first step in acknowledging addiction is admitting you have a problem and seeking help and that what he’s doing he just needs to get away from his triggers. I see potential in him and I feel he will make great change! Also how do I recommend someone for an interview to Mark? Anyone know?

@clairelumiere2901

2 жыл бұрын

In the About section on the Soft White Underbelly channel page is Mark’s email and info on how to apply for an interview.

"Keep coming back! It works if you work it! And you're worth it!: I got sober over Zoom in 9/2020. Now, Zoom meetings are my norm over in-person meetings. Faith without works is dead. You got this, Stephen!

Your vulnerability and honesty is so refreshing and absolutely beautiful..., I sincerely wish the best for You and I believe if You keep this attitude and believe system You will absolutely be ok in life...

Thank you for reminding me of the special things in life, Stephen. Sending you love

I love you as a person, Mark. I've always been a bit odd. Since I was a teen, I always asked questions about people, society and how things are looked at. Why am I supposed to automatically have this huge respect almost in awe when I meet a Doctor, a Lawyer, a Surgeon or another person who went to school for many years and got a high degree? Shouldn't I rather have the most respect for the people who wash public toilets, people who pick up the garbage, people like nurses or people like you? Because you live exactly the same way I do. I treat everyone the same. I treat people with respect until they prove me differently. A degree do not teach you how to be a good person. That's the most important thing in life, to be a good person. Often I feel like those people with the highest degrees are the people who care the least about others. They care about their lives and careers and money. The ones who really care are those who suffer themselves. Those who give to others are often those who have the littlest.

There's an urge and you can even say strong desire to STAY sober. That's the key to succeeding in a long term sober journey. Now the question is how much is he willing to sacrifice for his sobriety... I truly hope he does because I can relate on many levels to his emotional turmoil. This is probably going to be the most challenging phase in his life. If you're reading this Stephen, you got this. Even if the going gets tough, don't assume you've had enough. Keep pushing for cleanliness so that you may find your happiness.

What a heartbreaking story I hope that he is on his way to recovery. After listening to him you can tell he has a beautiful soul that needs help healing.

So much pain. Thanks Mark. I come here to remind me that life is in sobriety. These people keep me from going out and doing my own research!! You help more people than you'll ever know!