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@unknownp1506

3 жыл бұрын

I'm only 30 seconds in and I'm already trying to find the chords Edit: how do you guys make such relatable songs

@sabarisalim4735

3 жыл бұрын

Wow It's just wow... Like you penned down what many of us are trying to say ❤️

@gnomio1362

3 жыл бұрын

te amooo 🖤😭

@xXnofsteruXx

3 жыл бұрын

This band is straight up the soundtracks to my hard days. And they did it again. 5/5 without a shred of hesitation.

@Luna_B_8

3 жыл бұрын

Seem title as an another band's song, was it on purpose ? Anyway who cares ^^ once again you've done an amazing job with this song ^^

"Saying insults to someone are as easy as throwing a stone in a lake, but you will never know how far that stone will sink"

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We hear you

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

@deadjack2317

3 жыл бұрын

@@lill_sweets3271 heh, yea right

@heathdetweilerRealtor

3 жыл бұрын

It’s horrible how impactful words can be. And how easily they are carelessly throw out.

@anonymousllama014

3 жыл бұрын

Who/what is this quote from?

the fact that so many people can relate to this is so heartbreaking :(

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We're all in this together 🖤

@marloulaboc5561

3 жыл бұрын

im one of those. 😟😟

@tommyracicot

3 жыл бұрын

@@marloulaboc5561 me too

@smokey8865

3 жыл бұрын

i have listen to this song and i just caught me off guard how accurate it is to my life

@xceryxdemurstra6323

3 жыл бұрын

@@smokey8865 first time I hear most of their songs they set me off because I relate to them that strongly. Some more then others. This one more then most.

“Being who I am has only left me more alone” has never felt more true. People say to be yourself and genuine but anytime you are you get judged for it

@kellycabral10

Ай бұрын

And this is where the saying comes in handy In order to grow, we must put ourselves in uncomfortable situations. And sometimes that means losing a lot of people even family But trust me when I say it's all worth it in the end. Being yourself is all that matters living to impress other people. It's not a life at all and that something people need to learn really fast. I'm a 36 year old woman who literally has had no family, so I know the feeling and I. M trying to figure out how to raise my kids and not fuck them up the way my family messed me up so so much. The best decision I could have ever made was walk away from family and be true to myself. And this is the happiest I've ever been. I pray that everyone gets the courage to not be afraid to be who they really are. Because we only get one life, so live it for yourself. Not for others. There's no point in keeping other people's peace. When you're at peace is not kept you come first❤

"Being who i am, has only left me more alone" describes 100% of me.

@ambermartin7535

8 ай бұрын

You are not alone, I'm the same way. A lot more people than anyone knows. Stay strong! ❤

@N_boi978

7 ай бұрын

Same

@01keyboard

7 ай бұрын

Who are you?

@SpiritOfTheGalaxy143

6 ай бұрын

I get discriminated against, even by teachers, because I have mental disorders like autism, adhd, ocd and more. U even got shouted at for having a mental break down because my ear defender got broke by someone else for no reason. Fuck her and everyone else who hates me for no reason

@javelldunn3379

5 ай бұрын

Same thing 😢💔

Another song that understands me more than my family

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We hear you Maurice 🖤

@toastmrtoast3413

3 жыл бұрын

Same...

@SCP-qe2ob

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@savagewolf23e49

3 жыл бұрын

Felt hang in there ik its hard

@mikeytankersley3916

3 жыл бұрын

I hear ya...

Sometimes when I say "I am not Okay" I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know your not."

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We hear you 🖤

@dbztranks6601

3 жыл бұрын

I feel that

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

@@dbztranks6601Thank you...❤️I wish they would recognize...

@mrsleeve325is

3 жыл бұрын

@@lill_sweets3271. I really wish I had done that for someone not all that long ago, I just didnt know how to at the time..... Give them time if they truly care about you they will see it and realize it.

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

@@mrsleeve325is Thank You ❤️... I know that sometimes you don't know how to help these people and it's hard... I just wish... That they would say more then "ah okay" or "your Stupid"...

One of the worst feelings is gaining the courage to ask for help and for the person you trusted to give up on helping you.

@antilagboostaddiction8322

6 ай бұрын

All to have them shut you down

@SynobyteIdiotGamer

6 ай бұрын

that person wasn't who you thought

@stonedgoddess420

6 ай бұрын

Yep. My best friend did that just cuz I got banned on snapchat. Now she won't even talk to me. I'm so lost.

@krystalnguyen3285

5 ай бұрын

Do you want to share with me by chance? I don't mind listening

@krystalnguyen3285

5 ай бұрын

@@stonedgoddess420 Do you want to talk to me? I'm here if you want to. 🌼

“I always feel like a burden. Let it silence me.” Yes. Exactly. 😢

@shadowjolteon4201

11 ай бұрын

😢

@user-of8hg7cc8o

10 ай бұрын

Me too

@user-jb9sr1lo9i

8 ай бұрын

Same

@rommedina2945

6 ай бұрын

Same

@SynobyteIdiotGamer

6 ай бұрын

whyndo you think this way?????

The hardest thing about deppresion is when you know that people around you love you. It holds you back from leaving this world and let's you know you can never escape the cell your trapped in even though your holding the keys

@kirstynhobbs4505

2 жыл бұрын

But the longer U stay the more it hurts-

@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771

2 жыл бұрын

It's really difficult but I promise you you'll get there not going to bs you like most do and say itll go away cause it just wont it will come back. It's a life sentence but please remember nobody said that this life would be easy but I promise you it's worth it. I know the guilt you feel I feel it daily. But you are seen and understood by others. I just wanna come through my phone and give you a hug.

@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771

2 жыл бұрын

@@kirstynhobbs4505 yes but it's so worth it. Please read my reply it applied to you too. 🙂

@kirstynhobbs4505

2 жыл бұрын

@@tmac.ogsrandocontent9771 thank u for sayin that, I'm aware it won't just go away but it's destroying who I once was

@crypticjoker5097

2 жыл бұрын

truest shit ever.

"The people who smile the brightest feel the deepest pain"

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ

@biri_o

3 жыл бұрын

I smile a lot but not in pain. But I'm here for you@

@jacobbritton4099

3 жыл бұрын

Feel this a lot more then you know

@anannya8348

3 жыл бұрын

@@lill_sweets3271 thank you so much I really need it. Sorry for the late reply

@anannya8348

3 жыл бұрын

@@biri_o i guess we feel the same i'm also here for you anytime 🤗

“You’ll never understand how hard it is to say….I’m not okay”🥺

“Because being who I really am, has only left me more alone.” That really sums it up

@Packers217

4 ай бұрын

Same

@bretthambly3570

3 ай бұрын

Same here

@PLJ95.

2 ай бұрын

Yep, trusted sooo[ooooooooooooo😢 many times, it's like a beautiful dandelion that's actually GOOD , but keeps getting crushed, chopped, smashed , oh let's not forget the chemicals...but IF I trust...try to get up for LOVE , try to grow or shine, nope little dandelion....what or who would ever do this Peace Healing,Compassion , MERCY COME

@PLJ95.

2 ай бұрын

I HUMBLY CRY OUT FOR PURE LOVE, can't Take much more, One hope ...I feel MORE LOST THAN EVER BEFORE 🕊🕊🕊🌻🌻💞, try to get up 23 yrs of fighting for LOVE, holding on to every precious memory where that LOVE won, broke through, past the pain. Gave me more than a sick bed , bathroom, repeat kinda pain Mercy please HEAL THE MILLIONS CRYING , I know YOU HEAR ME, and I'm not lying 😢

You know what's funny? That this song understands feeling more than actual people do and this song doesn't make fun of you it talks to you and tries to help

@adaman.shr.3538

3 жыл бұрын

Why tell me please why why why WHY

@k_Woodbeck1

2 жыл бұрын

Yep

@kidinferno9077

2 жыл бұрын

Music, the one form of speech that understand people so world wide, without making fun of anyone or bringing them down to there knees making them ask why they should push on further, it takes them by the hand and pulls them up, because it has the understand of what we feel to be able to do so, Music is a very powerful thing.

@ferretflashes1721

2 жыл бұрын

It definitely does, it represents me on a daily basis yet all of my friends still believe me when I say that I'm fine even though I'm not. Literally the only difference between me and this song is that there is so much that I want to say but I A.) don't know where to start and B.) don't know how to put anything that I need to talk about/feel into words

@theresesisson1183

2 жыл бұрын

@@ferretflashes1721 me too I believe took room 2 set yup

Sometimes it hurts to know that some songs understand you better than anyone else does.

@TK-uz4ts

2 жыл бұрын

If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best

@flaming-dragon6849

Жыл бұрын

I know just what you mean. My wife and I are so misunderstood by so many just because our disabilitys.

@ianhughes982

Жыл бұрын

@@flaming-dragon6849 ❤

@Sling1989

Жыл бұрын

Absolutely...

@lazarmarinkovic8486

Жыл бұрын

@@flaming-dragon6849 Alt least you have one another to help each other weather the storm...

THIS SONG WAS ONE OF THE REASONS MY DAD GOT HELP AND NOW HE IS DOING MUCH BETTER THANK YOU Citizen soldier you have probably save my dad from himself

@claireellis8242

Ай бұрын

Thanks for sharing too ❤UK

@deoxisjani

Ай бұрын

That's wonderful ❤

@GRIM_REAPER420

Ай бұрын

Thanks guys

Last week, I drove to my parents' house in the middle of the night. I knocked on the door, my mom opened the door to let me in, and the first thing I said after sitting down was: “Mom, Dad, I'm not ok.” But as soon as I said that, I immediately regretted it. I laughed it off and said, “Oh, I was just messing with you.” Do you know what they did? They laughed too and didn't think much about it. Which made me feel more miserable and worse than I had when I was driving to their house that night. I actually had a lot of things I wanted to talk to them about, but didn't have enough courage, and they didn't pay attention or give it a second thought anyway. So why even bother? On top of all this, now I have to deal with the disappointment. I truly feel really let down and disappointed. What a pity.

@linkybearable

Ай бұрын

Hey. I am sorry u went through this. If I could make contact with u privately I would so that u know u always have a friend to talk to. Stay strong. Thinking of u

@AssiaBalde

Ай бұрын

U should have tried to open up to them.its not easy at all but me am not ok i do listen at m'y favourite songs .or just text to m'y best freind,when i Say am not ok she IS around even if i dont have thé courage to share but she Always makes me feel better at thé end with her love and care

@AssiaBalde

Ай бұрын

If one day u need to talk dont hesitate i also went throught allott.

@shawnbaker8821

25 күн бұрын

Wish I had someone to even attempt to talk to

@dawnbellows7642

18 күн бұрын

I don't know you but I'm a mom. If you need to talk reach out to me. I'm here day ight. I'll pick up the phone, FaceTime etc. Don't feel like nobody cares please. I truly mean it ❤❤

Hey. Hey, you. Yes, you. You're the one reading this, aren't you? Well, let me tell you something. You need to know. DON'T SCROLL, please.. I know, I know I'm a stranger here on the internet. But, I guarantee you, you need to hear this. Are you in a dark place? You aren't alone. We all were there, y'know. Feeling Suicidal? Please don't. I think you matter. Even if I don't know you, I still think you matter. You are the best stranger I've met. So, do something for me real quick. It's quick, I promise. Drink some water. WAIT! DON'T WIPE THE WATER OFF YOUR LIPS YET! Look, see how they shine? See how they twinkle and glimmer? it's like you. Even in the tiniest bit of light, you shine. If you want to take your life, think about something. Out of the 7 billion+ people on this earth.. Someone out there, they think you're perfect. They love you, so much. Imagine how much you'd hurt them if you left.. even if it seems unlikely, I can assure you. Someone out there, they love you. So keep fighting. You'll win, no matter how hard it is. "Fight the storm to see the rainbow". Remember that, okay? Good, I love you. Stay safe, handsome/beautiful :)

@mklai3664

3 жыл бұрын

This is one of the most amazing comments I've read. Thank you for this, I needed it

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing this 🖤

@alinailie1472

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you :')

@emilie.louise.chandler8852

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you I needed today xx

@Kayla-bi7lv

3 жыл бұрын

Please don't ever delete this comment. Because, I really needed this right now, in this moment. I'm going to have to keep coming back to this comment because it is the only thing good right now

I'm a soldier. I've deployed enough that my time out of country equals my second daughters age. This song is literally my brain daily.

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ...

@marleysankor

3 жыл бұрын

Thank~YOU for your service!! #IAppreciateYou 💗

@davidgibson6364

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for your service you are not forgotten and may God bless you

@curtisanderson1949

3 жыл бұрын

Thank You so much Brother for Sacraficing All You have for me collective i can't speak of but personally i can 💪💪🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲💪🙏🙏🙏

@erichorridge6666

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you brother for your service for ex service man 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇺🇲🇺🇲

I lost my wife of 16 years recently. Today was the first time hearing this song. This song resonates with me in a way no song ever has before, to say it touched my soul would be an understatement.

@whitneybalmes7993

4 ай бұрын

I am so truly sorry to hear about your loss and I can clearly hear your pain. I too lost my spouse after many years.. However, I brought that loss onto myself after almost twenty years of marriage to a very loving, thoughtful and very patient man. Because of my inability to cope appropriately with the suicide of my father, I sought solace in all the wrong places with all the wrong people and self medicated myself right into a divorce and mental and physical health issues that would take years to resolve. A divorce I very unfortunately deserved and even more, regretfully have had to accept and learn to live with. I not only betrayed, disrespected and hurt very badly and deeply my best friend, but also my (at that time) two beautiful teenage sons. Even after the divorce he continued to show concern for my well-being and helped me in times of need for several years. He stuck around so much longer than any other man I'm sure would have. Anyone else would have kicked me to the curb long before he finally turned his back. He has since remarried. Many years have gone past now and my life has been restored both mentally and physically. Miraculously and by the grace of God, I now have a loving relationship with my son's and have been forgiven. It has been a very lengthy, tough, emotional and at times unbearable road to recover my life and lost relationships. With time, as with myself you will grow stronger and with that, you will have the strength to accept what once was is now gone and the beautiful memories and time you shared together will always remain with you. You are and will remain always a part of one another and nothing will ever take that from you. I pray God will give you peace over your sadness and give you strength to move forward without the need to have answers for why and give you comfort during those quiet times of feeling lost and lonely. I pray He makes Himself and His loving presence known and imprisons any thoughts of doubt or fear you may have, reminding you that you are never alone. Our circumstances are clearly very different and for very different reasons but, having said that it's important to acknowledge that experiencing loss for whatever reason is extremely painful for everyone. I have accepted my loss and understand I am ultimately accountable. But I am able to find reasons each day to live life and move forward. I tell myself, I would much rather have had a moment of beauty than a lifetime of nothingness alone. My prayer is that you are able to do the same. For you are enough and you are worthy of a beautiful life. God bless you.

@nicoleb7056

4 ай бұрын

I'm sorry for your loss... My husband I would of been married for 14 years April 17... But I can't do this anymore. I'm drinking now to become numb and finish it all.

@Bob-pj6tz

3 ай бұрын

Losing my hub of 41 yrs is not ok .time is making things worse I just miss him more he told me he never met anyone as strong as me.but I used it up.i just didn't know####

Anyone in 2024? Masterpiece ❤

@ashleychapman8656

2 ай бұрын

I know im not okay i just want to end my life as i write this feeling unwanted and unloved and like i be better off dead

@Olly328

Ай бұрын

​@@ashleychapman8656 Actually, I love you, so that's not true. 💖💖💖

@cliffcrowder4245

Ай бұрын

Me

“Cause being who i really am has only left me more alone” DAMN IT

@TK-uz4ts

2 жыл бұрын

If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best

@whatimsoconfuse

2 жыл бұрын

@@TK-uz4ts my mom or dad wont let me get a therapist, while my friend today told me they are getting antidepressants and a therapist cause they scored high on the anxiety/depression quiz thing.

@TK-uz4ts

2 жыл бұрын

@@whatimsoconfuse If those arent options for you then I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could

@mattyman051

2 жыл бұрын

I finally found someone who likes me for who i am, just so nobody worries or whatever

@tempy8969

2 жыл бұрын

Same,

"you'll never understand how hard it is to say I'm not okay" Preach 😞🖐️

@alexsimpson8042

2 жыл бұрын

Yep no one really understands so I fell you

@bradleyocampo9838

2 жыл бұрын

I agree 💯💯💯

@lorireed8046

2 жыл бұрын

Yet ... when you tell them they mock you for being weak.

@Moochi4

2 жыл бұрын

Glad I'm not the only one I've been so numb and jadded and it's so hard to tell people I'm not okay because they say they understand but they truly dont

@rachellstewart7029

2 жыл бұрын

@@Moochi4 nope they pretend to understand but they are fake as hell....

You know you've beaten depression when you can listen to this and actually vibe and not cry. Keep fighting guys, life is worth it. You got this!

@shootingstar.3789

21 күн бұрын

Don't you lie to my face like that.

Music speaks louder feelings than normal words could ever express

When you can’t explain your emotions, music like this speaks it for you. The problem is, you’re the only one listening. 💔

@epicknightgames9979

Жыл бұрын

Songs nobody else around you would understand. When I try to explain... I'm told it's just a phase. So yes I listen to them alone.

@amelietaghon606

Жыл бұрын

Right!? I try by showing my friends lyrics that I relate to, or by singing songs to my parents that explain my feelings, I try to let them know what I'm going through. But all they ever say is: beautiful song or nice voice or idk, they don't look further than what they hear or see. They don't see that I'm crying to the lyrics of the song I sent them, they don't feel the knot in my stomach or the lump in my throat when I'm singing the words to an almost musical version of myself. They don't.

@jordbarker6154

Жыл бұрын

Sorry but not true all the relatability you get from the song all that emotion that you feel when you listen that's all of us listening with you all you have to do is realise that the people around you don't understand but there is still a world full of people who do understand you just don't know them yet 😊

@amelietaghon606

Жыл бұрын

@@jordbarker6154 awww that's like the sweetest thing. Thank you for saying this I really needed that 😍

@Gothic_glowworm_purge

Жыл бұрын

I feel that

If you're reading this that means you're still here. Come back tomorrow and the next day and the next because everytime you do that's just another day you survived when you thought you wouldn't. Keep your head up and fight back :)

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

True! 🖤

@AkizatheNacho

3 жыл бұрын

Counting the days i'm coming Back to this song/comment: 1

@TeeJayVR26

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you ❤

@sarahsmith5606

3 жыл бұрын

@@AkizatheNacho you got this!

@sarahsmith5606

3 жыл бұрын

@@TeeJayVR26 You're welcome!

“I never have the words to explain this hell” felt that.

Another song that understands me more then I understand myself

Hey, if you ever feel worthless, know, Butterflies can't see their wings, Flamingos all see themselves as the same as everyone else, And Beethoven never heard his work. *You matter, even if you can't see it*

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

💜

@Bambie6432

2 жыл бұрын

This is a work of art. Thank you

@oikawatooru3755

2 жыл бұрын

tysm...🖤

@loust1264

2 жыл бұрын

okay first of all, butterflies can see the wings with mirrors, pretty much how you cant see some parts on your back. no, flamingos dont see themselves as the same as everyone else

@antoniaquinones8731

2 жыл бұрын

@@loust1264 it's a saying

People that make music like this should be known as heroes

@aubriemckenzie7112

Жыл бұрын

100%

@hannahbuscher6832

Жыл бұрын

Yes

@Aryae_Sakura

Жыл бұрын

These guys are Heroes to me. And they probably will never know the full extent of their amazing work they do.

@chocoholicBella

Жыл бұрын

I completely agree

@vanessacruz8140

Жыл бұрын

Yes

"If I finally break, will you still stay?" is so true to me.

I lost my wife almost 2 years ago. She was my world. I have two grown boys but I don't want to talk to them because they lost a mom and she was only 41. This song speaks for so many including myself. This world without her still just doesn't make sense and I don't think it ever will.

The lyrics, written out: Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud But I built walls so high So they never even make a sound It's a mask, it's a lie It's the only home I've ever known Cause being who I really am Has only left me more alone I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'm not okay I wish I had a scar Had a bruise on the surface Any kind of proof That everything I feel is more than Just some sad excuse My life's invisible abuse I'm either judged or have to hide The only symptom you can see Is I don't wanna be alive I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it The reason I keep quiet With so much at stake I always feel like a burden Let it silence me You'll never understand Why it's so hard to say I'll never have the words I can't explain this hell But what if it kills me If I keep it to myself To myself I am not okay And I need you to see it I have so much to say And no one to hear it I'm not okay I'm not okay I'm never safe It's not a phase If I finally break Would you still stay Tonight the monsters in my head Are screaming so damn loud Another wonderful song from Citizen Soldier 🖤 If I made any mistakes with the lyrics, please let me know.

@darlingcadieuxvachon9741

3 жыл бұрын

The only mistake you made that I see is that you put ''out'' instead of ''of'' in ''Any kind of proof'' ! Otherwise, good job and thanks for the lyric !

@strangelittlefoxes

3 жыл бұрын

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 Thank you! Fixed that just now

@karczochowa_rypka

3 жыл бұрын

The only symptom you see ➡ the only symptom you CAN see ;) Still, great job buddy, thanks!

@M-O-K-O-I

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing

@aidenplayz5926

3 жыл бұрын

This is a lyric video! The lyrics are already on the screen.

Now I can tell that I have favourite artist😶

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks Gabrysia 🖤

@tomaszgozdalskiWauW

3 жыл бұрын

Ja to samo🥺 Same me*

@donaldjohnson4502

3 жыл бұрын

FR!

@user-yv6uu3kd3k

3 жыл бұрын

I agreeeee ❤️ (3 months late tho)

@Skarman314

3 жыл бұрын

Same

I was finally able to stop crying and then this song played and I’m in tears again

@shortysusagirabbitry5244

5 ай бұрын

Playing on repeat to keep the tears coming. That’s nice to find something that helps me feel.

@KatieHenson-tq2wg

3 ай бұрын

I feel ya

Man, this track cuts so deep. This sums up so much internal conflict inside of me. The pressure of a married man and being a father of 4, while balancing work life and trying to keep others happy isn't easy. I run daily to help keep the internal conflict and my monsters at bay... so many times I've wondered how'd they be without me.

Just remember if you're sitting here listening to this I'm proud of you. You made it 100% through your bad days so far. You got this I know you do. Just take care of yourself and believe you can. I love you even if you are a stranger.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

I appreciate that! 🖤

@Stitch8199donemilio

3 жыл бұрын

You know... these kind of comments are the ones saving lifes, thankyou so much for doing this.

@s_o_l_t_y8389

3 жыл бұрын

@@Stitch8199donemilio I try to do the best I can to help

@oliviafronkova5678

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much

@gamedayplays7894

3 жыл бұрын

i love you too

Was looking for "I'm not okay" by My Chemical Romance. Came across this instead... lets just say I'm not disappointed

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Glad to hear that 🖤

@anastasiagause1633

3 жыл бұрын

Same here and im so glad i found them. I wish everyday i didnt relate to this song as much as i do.

@donaldmashburn1039

3 жыл бұрын

@@CitizenSoldier I've heard of you but never listened. So glad I took the time to hear your words. Keep it up you will help more people than you know.

@IcyLapis

3 жыл бұрын

Same

Seeing the title at the end in my native language was... wow. Just wow. Thank you.

As I have been diagnosed as Bipolar, boy does this song ever hit home! I am crying inside for help while my mouth spews mean and hurtful things at the ones I love!!!! This is a living hell!!!! Thank you for a song that helps to explain this mess

@MikaSL53

10 ай бұрын

My brother is Bipolar. I don't wish it on anyone. I hope that you're getting the help you need. Please don't give up if the medication(s) you're given don't work the way they should. If they make you feel drugged & unable to focus, tell them they need to try something different. I watched my brother struggle for so many years. He hated how the meds made him feel, so he'd stop. Unmedicated, he could be so scary and angry. It's difficult to look beyond that to the person inside that you know & love, but we did it. Those hurtful things you spew are not you. Don't give up. Keep trying. It took several tries for them to find the right meds that worked well for my brother. Bipolar, like many things, isn't a "one size fits all" type of illness. There is a brighter side, and I hope with all my heart that you're able to get there soon.

*_“I wish I had a scar had a bruise on the surface any kind of proof... That everything I feel is more than just a sad excuse”_* That emotional truck hit me kind of pretty hard is like so freaking accurate if you know what I mean... Hope you don’t

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for listening 💜;

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

@laceygilmour2216

3 жыл бұрын

Self harm sucks😓

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

@@laceygilmour2216 Send you a bug hug❤️

@Walker-pb2ec

3 жыл бұрын

I understand same truck hit me full force

"I always feel like a burden, let it silence me" Damn, I felt that that one hit my core. I love this song so much; it's composed beautifully, and gives me the courage to speak up about my doubts, fears, and anxieties, it helps me get help, and I love it, and I love Citizen Soldier for this song, as well as all of the other songs they've made

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for listening! 🖤

my friends spy on my spotify list...they know when I start listening to citizen soldier I need to be checked on...thanks for making such wonderful music

"It's a mask". I can't got away from that feeling. This song is the only song I can fully feel understood by.

So many people seem to go through the same darkness and have dark days. So why are we still judged by the society, even though we're so many? I never understood that. Why is it bad to be simply human, to feel pain, anger and sadness? Every emotion is valid. Why don't we reach out for each other and go together? If no one had to fight alone, the pain doesn't get too hard go near maybe... But instead they think you want attention and are just dramatic...

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

You’re not alone friend. Much love to you 🖤🙏🏻

@hikariyamini6157

3 жыл бұрын

It's not the same darkness but others think it is they think that our darkness is the same down hill short termed struggles they've gone through and judge us based on their own experiences...

@xceryxdemurstra6323

3 жыл бұрын

@@hikariyamini6157 exactly. They don't see the true depth of the darkness and pain that so many do suffer through... They see it as just a phase you'll grow out of. But true depression. Is not a phase and not something you will EVER "grow out of". It's something that will make every single day a fight just to wake up and get out of bed in the morning. It gnaws at your mind and spirit and beats you down so far you feel like you'll never be able to get up again...

@apostolachecosmin7175

3 жыл бұрын

@@xceryxdemurstra6323 truth is you're never gonna grow out of it, it's gonna get more and more dark, I'm 24 by now and each day is getting more and more dark.

@luciferpetrenkoff5040

3 жыл бұрын

My issue was I lived with my mom and any time I let the mask slip to tell people how I was feeling I just got told to quit talking stupid and quit acting like a girl, so I just shut down and didnt let anyone in at all and just kept burying my darkness on top of each other

This song speaks volumes. I spend all of my time pretending that I'm ok to everyone. In reality, I'm waging war within myself. My head is a very dark, dangerous and scary place to be. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, because I don't want to burden others with my problems. Why? They have their own to worry about. 🖤

@unknownspaceworld6335

3 жыл бұрын

Hey it's okay to open up we all do at some point it understandable that people have there own problems but some people will help

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We hear you 🖤

@shadowhawk4164

3 жыл бұрын

I know how you feel M A, trust me you are not alone, I guess that is why we love music so much, because it explains what we cannot say out loud, it knows us more than the people we have spent our whole lives with, it seems to know exactly how we feel, it explains what we cannot and music has literally saved people’s lives, music is everything and I don’t think humanity would have survived this long without it, music is so much more than sound, so much more, sorry if that didn’t make sense, I have not slept yet

@WilliamKister

3 жыл бұрын

I think if we were all honest with each other, we would all find out we all have a lot in common.

@MemeLord42

3 жыл бұрын

Same but I usually listen to heavier music so I can’t hear my own thoughts

Wow i get why shes kinda quiet, but shes not a burden, shes someone i care about and want to have her get it out

This song just made me realize that only one of my friends is wiling to listen to me talk forever and no one else has done that before if you are that friend thank you

"The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive." HOLY FUCK CITIZEN SOLDIER YOU'RE GONNA BRING ME TO TEARS

@snowflakecanary5933

2 жыл бұрын

Ikr

@kaylapreds610

2 жыл бұрын

Yeah 👏👍

I dont want to be one of those people but I've never been here this early... I so far love how it sounds.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks! 🖤

@ElysianAngel

3 жыл бұрын

Yep. Definitely love this song. *(Promptly adds to music library)*

@darlingcadieuxvachon9741

3 жыл бұрын

I'm happy to see that you understand this. I'm only 16 years old and my parents doesn't even care about how I feel and I'm protected by a children protection thing... (Called dpj here. I'm in Quebec) Even those doesn't understand and try to help me, instead they put me in a psychiatric hospital for only being sad and being not able to go to school (I had the disease of always being tired). I'm still traumatized. And now my parents treat my like a burden. I always have to wear a mask because if I don't, they'll kill me even more. I hope to everyone not to feel this way, because this is awful and I've never felt this low before.

@bluem.artemis159

3 жыл бұрын

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 i really sorry, i even don't know what to say, you don't deserve feel like this, i hope you find a moment to heal.

@AtlasMays

3 жыл бұрын

@@darlingcadieuxvachon9741 did you have narcolepsy? That's a Hell of a thing to have at 16. Best of luck

This song perfectly represents why I don't share what's inside me, but at the same time the longing to someone to see that I'm not okay.

Feeling this song I cried for the first times in so many years. I can't take this anymore like I really can't. I just want to end it every single second of every single day

"cause being who I really am, has only left me more alone" Those lyrics meant a lot because I cant be myself were I live, because I have to pretend to be what I am not.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We hear you 🖤

@25-niluhmadea.g13

3 жыл бұрын

Same here.. i have to change my real self.. and now i dont know who is tge real me..

@klunoxall7164

3 жыл бұрын

Same here.. I know how you feel Where I live, literally everything I am feels like a sin If people knew I am a pansexual furry- I would get beaten up or worse.. So I understand how you feel But you gotta keep fighting and don't give up alright? One day you'll get away to a better place with people who will accept you 💚

@emilykershey1706

3 жыл бұрын

Same here and it's truly painful. All I hope for is to someday soon be somewhere where I'm free to be me without the fear of my family judging me over any little thing I say or do that is against their wants out of me.

@user-kc6ty2pf3q

3 жыл бұрын

I have to deal with that to😞

"Depression is like being in a prison where you're both the suffering prisoner and the cruel jailor"

@larisuc

3 жыл бұрын

And it doesn't matter you're both . You'll still have the chains that you put on yourself after trowing the key . The shit is deep inside we know where the key is but we're so used to pain and suffering to the point we think we deserve it and we welcome it by becoming it

@Jess-gr8mj

3 жыл бұрын

Damn this is deep as hell😭😭😭

My husband passed February this year... I did real good till other family people in my life don't get anything and cause my suffering. Thanks for this song

@Citizen Soldier I want to thank you so much.. i am not okay and thank you.. this is one of my songs i listen too and i can't ever admit that im not okay.. I cry even though im a man and we are supposed to be the strong ones.. Thank you.. I wish to see you guys in Seattle when ya come out.. I am not okay..

I know I'm just a kid...only 15 years of age..but I have a story to tell Look at the sky, see those stars?.. they represent us humans, they shine so bright they don't care about what other stars say nor how brighter other stars are shining, they stay brightest to thier fullest potential, much like them we can shine as bright as then but we let society hold use down. Be like the stars and shine as bright as your can, till you very last moment Never be afraid of failure..be afraid of not learning "From my lungs through the dark, spoken straight from the heart" -citizen soldier

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Appreciate you Kaisser 🖤 Stay strong friend

@Goofytitan69

3 жыл бұрын

This is very inspirational

@mikemateika3071

3 жыл бұрын

Age is irrelevant!! My thoughts for you are make your thoughts known. Also live for yourself.

@dr.doomengloomin6757

3 жыл бұрын

Age has no bearing on the suffering of the soul, my friend. Just take a deep breath or two and stay in the present. I am still here, I do not understand why or how, but I am. The Japanese I think it is, have a saying, get knocked down 7 times, stand up 8. In life one thing is for certain, you are going to get knocked down, we all do, it is the hard knocks school of life. But each time to stand up one more time, you grow stronger. Just remember, no matter how dark the storm may be, This too shall pass. I am rooting for you, I know you can find a way. Life still has a lot to offer.

@theotherguy21

3 жыл бұрын

You wanna talk ? I'll post my snap of insta

Damn my KZread recommendations knows how I feel better than all the people around me ...

@celestemariefuchs2177

3 жыл бұрын

why is this so true

@madelinenewell4848

3 жыл бұрын

Fr tho

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for listening 🖤

@rileyhudson8963

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@Andreyenne

3 жыл бұрын

@@CitizenSoldier hii can you make a song For me and my girlfriend... If you like...'

Painful to think that so many people have to live like this 💛

*I have autism and it feels like he understands how much pain one can go through. I always hate myself for my past and my mistakes. And if I have a bit of confidence in me, I would become spiteful and….be alone again….no matter how nice they’re words are…*

If anyone opens up to you please don't say these things: "You're not depressed, you're ungrateful." "How can you say no one is there for you? What about me?" "This isn't you. You know that. Come back."

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing that 🖤

@furanjibun

3 жыл бұрын

I had my breaking point in Match last year, and my Mom just said "you're not depressed, I was u not." it really hurted, but I went to a teacher and told her about it and cried out. Sometimes I regret not killing myself, but than I think: I want to achieve something and want to visit Japan one day in my life. But what my mom said there, made me really upset. And then telling me it's my own fault for not telling her that I feel that way.

@Xaforn

3 жыл бұрын

Omg yes, don’t tell them they just need to pray more, get an attitude adjustment and change their perspective! And my mom wonders why I don’t tell her anything.

@NeonJJ_195

3 жыл бұрын

I opened up to my 'best friend' after 3 years What did I get as an answer? ''I'm sorry but we can't be friends anymore. You know what? We've only been friends with you because we felt sorry. Without us you would've been alone. So yeah, we never actually liked you.'' We've known each other for 5 years...

@saltbae1789

3 жыл бұрын

@@NeonJJ_195 Sorry to hear that man. You gotta take out the trash to make room for the good stuff. It's easier to be alone and rely on yourself than to rely on unreliable people. Don't know if that helps, but it's what I tell myself. Hang in there, dude. These people don't know what they're saying.

Came home from school a few hours ago and now I'm sitting here, crying like an idiot....I once wanted to say "I'm not okay." but I knew it would get ignored. So, I kept my demons deep inside myself and it's breaking me now....I'm definitely not okay. I don't want to live anymore but your music is one of those things which save me from the darkness inside of me. I keep going. Even if I don't want to....the reason is this one person out there who needs me. She told me that if I would attempt suicide, she will follow me. We're like sisters even tho we aren't sisters in real life. And I'm so glad to know her

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing this. Appreciate you! 🖤

@neonhaze3725

3 жыл бұрын

It's people like those that shine their light on us when we're covered in darkness. Keep those people close and they'll help you through the hardest and darkest times

@whydoineeddis8988

3 жыл бұрын

Hey pika I'm here if you ever want to talk

@Anonymous-eg3wk

3 жыл бұрын

I know almost exactly how you feel except nobody has ever seen my pain. I have always been seen as the one everyone can rely on when they need someone to pick up the slack and it sucks. I am so happy that you have found someone to help you keep going.

@whydoineeddis8988

3 жыл бұрын

@@Anonymous-eg3wk hey, I'm also here if you ever want to talk :)

This song is so relatable. I'm not ok. I sometimes have suicidal thoughts. I don't have any friends at school. I wish I had someone I could run to when I needed to and just cry on their shoulder. Always be nice to everyone. You don't know what they are going through

@Tsarina21

5 ай бұрын

Your words hit me very hard. Please do not ever act on those suicidal thoughts. Please. There are so many people out there that are willing to listen to you, to hold you when you cry, and to care. You are not alone. I have been alone for a very, very long time. I understand. No one knows the value and the importance of a hug until they have been without one for a very long time. I understand how you feel and how you long for someone to hold you and someone to care. But there are people in your life and people who will be in your life that care. I'm a stranger to you and yet I care. My eyes are filled with tears and my heart hurts from just reading your words. So please do not despair or lose hope. Because there are so many people out there for whom you matter a great deal. Think about the people you know and those you have yet to meet. Though you may not know it, they care about you. Reach out and get professional help to get you through this. You are a gift that is to be treasured. You have so much to give and to experience. Every day, you start anew with new experiences and new options in front of you. You have so much to offer and so many places and people to encounter. Do not ever lose hope for more and hope for better things. It will come. I promise you. I know that all good things will come to you. Please know and believe that your words left their mark on my soul and in my heart. So now you will be in my thoughts and in my prayers for those warm and caring hugs to come to you, to make you believe and understand how precious you are to all who know you and to this world. They care.

“I’m not okay I’m not okay, I’m never safe, it’s not a phase” That hit a little too close to home “I wish I had a scar had a mark on the surface, any kind of proof that what I feel is more than just some sad excuse” Damn. This band explains how I feel better than I could myself: Citizen soilger is definitely one of the most underrated bands ever

It’s ok to just be like “today is a bad day but today is just one day” doesn’t mean it’ll last forever.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

You CAN be victorious in your battle. Stay strong and keep fighting 🖤

@garicanewbold1734

3 жыл бұрын

I wish I had the motivation to learn this on my guitar

@stardustempress9062

3 жыл бұрын

@@garicanewbold1734 Well. One day or another, you will def have the motivation and strength to go through with it buddy. You will absolutely get what you want in your life so dont ever think so low of yourself. You are so previous more than you have ever known. ^♡^ Love you! You got this buddy!

@anne48503

3 жыл бұрын

“This too shall pass”

@angelicaramirez7402

3 жыл бұрын

what happens if everyday is a bad day??

2 words: This hurt....

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Hope you’re doing okay friend 🖤

@ImKloan

3 жыл бұрын

@@CitizenSoldier I'm doing fine, or so I tell myself? Lord only knows but its songs like this that make me realize I'm not the kid I used to be and (even though I act like a kid) I have to deal with the obstacles life hands me❤😁

Coming back to this now, after being so alone for so long, I realise I'm so much happier. Things are working out. I have friends, I'm not bullied, I'm actually cared about for being me instead of someone else. They do things to help ease my physical pain. They actually care. I found this song maybe a year ago now. I was still alone and felt miserable but couldn't recognise it at that point. Thank you so much for these songs. ❤❤❤

The lyrics being the inspiration, You should Never be ashamed of who you are. People criticize you because they only see the “bad” in you while neglecting your qualities. The problem isn’t you; it’s them who can’t see you for who you are. Embrace yourself, you’re worth it.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

This 🖤

"I wish I had a scar, had a bruise, on the surface any kind of proof that everything that I feel is more than some sad excuse" I'm littered with scars so why does it still not feel like its enough. No matter how bad it gets why does it still feel like I could be lying to everyone, maybe I'm playing it up and it's not that bad. What if I'm fakeing and don't realise. I'm not. My diagnosis and hours of therapy prove that so why does it still feel like I'm fooling myself.

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

@miz.beehaven5570

2 жыл бұрын

Me too. I have so many outside scars, from a head on collusion driving accident which killed my mother. I have multiple scars from that night, from top to bottom!! Bit they are nothing compares to the scars I have inside myself!! I've been told I have survivors guilt and PTSD!! Also been told to embrace my scars as they show I went thru something and survived, but when I see them, I only see that she didnt!!

@sirenict7647

2 жыл бұрын

Its all part of it. Part of the illness is your mind making you feel not strong enough. YOU ARE. DON'T LISTEN TO YOURSELF AND OTHERS WHO DON'T UNDERSTAND!

@fernandopacheco7564

2 жыл бұрын

It's your mind's way of trying to rationalize the way you feel because it doesn't understand what you've been diagnosed with. The human mind when faced with something it doesn't understand often tries to convince itself that it isn't real and it's all in your imagination because being that messed up inside is something the mind can't handle. It's hard to feel as if you're only making it up and fooling yourself and everyone around and the self doubt it creates is so tiring because you can never seem to just accept what you're being told and what you know is actually wrong, believe me I know. but you just have to push away your doubt and keep focusing on getting better. It's a long road ahead of you but hopefully one day you'll reach your destination.

@kaginalauraarc4658

2 жыл бұрын

Your comment just understood me more than anyone has ever did in my life

“Being who I am has left me more alone” hits really hard.

@loveandfaithfulness4479

4 ай бұрын

Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. difficult times can leave us feeling exposed and unprotected but it is only temporary. everything is temporary and that nothing lasts forever. When we only see one solution to our problem, When we only see one way out of our struggle, we need to pray to God to help us to shift our focus toward Him and His infinite wisdom. We serve God who can do all things. Have an Honest confession. Tell God how you’re feeling and what your hang-ups are, He often answers in ways we can’t comprehend. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. God won’t leave us stuck when we come to Him with an honest plea for guidance. He longs to be our Guide. And when we come to Him, He will show us a path we’ve never seen before, overflowing with hope and opportunity. Always Call for God to open your eyes to the truth. Praise God despite the roadblock you are facing. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is have Faith. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. we fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. we need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your strength. Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. Romans 5:6-8 For when we were still without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. for scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

I just want to send this to everyone who makes me feel like this or tries to help me but i never speak about it... Crying now after listening it for the 10th time. So relateble and good song!

Im 23 and I feel like a child when I say this but your music helps me cope so well. I put on your music and cry my eyes and just scream away the pain with your lyrics and its what keeps me going every day. Thank you for existing the whole world needs to hear you

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are...

@jaylah0193

3 жыл бұрын

Dont feel like a child. I'm 25 and honestly I do the same thing. It's not childish in any way.

@brittanyparks8242

3 жыл бұрын

There is nothing childish about music that speaks to your heart and soul, especially with a topic as deep as this.

@harperusyt420

3 жыл бұрын

bro im 30 and i cry myself to sleep still

@brittanyparks8242

3 жыл бұрын

@Shane Harper we do that when we have too much pain and no way to release it. 😃 I've done that more than I care to recall, sometimes for hours.

"When words fails, Music speaks." ~ An old poster I used to have above my bed. This is why I love you guys so damn much. I've lived in ignorance of the all problems plaguing for so long I forgot how to really explain and get them off my chest. I stopped seeing my therapist simply because I can't articulate what was going on inside my head. And yet somehow whenever I hear one of your songs, I can point to it and say 'This! This is what I'm feeling.' The lyrics always find a way to untangle the mess of negative thoughts and give me clarity as to what is causing my suffering.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Appreciate those words Chris! 🖤

@nbtasnim3298

3 жыл бұрын

I feel you.... Because I honestly feel the same. People say "Eyes are the gateway to one's soul" but I think it's the music that is. The music I usually like or listen to relates to me one way or another - perhaps my thoughts or my past or my feelings... Anything even if the tiniest bit.

@Xaforn

3 жыл бұрын

I hear you. Have you ever tried the MTBI personality test? It can be a life changer, it was for me. Learning how I think and process was a huge step into being able to communicate what I had inside. But yes, these songs are a great weave of threads and words.

@mariellaeck5698

3 жыл бұрын

Incredible song, the lines are exactly what I feel right now... beautiful..

@eduardoangelico717

3 жыл бұрын

I'm feel exactly the same as you, and all of who really feel this music

One can stop the pain temporary but just a single word can trigger the pain

I am not okey has been a song that really explains how a lot of us feel inside n find it hard to tell people wats really happening. I love this song it’s truly a reality song of life for most people. Thank u for creating it ❤

Why is it that.... When I'm crying for help when needed, nobody sees me.... when I need someone the most, they aren't available.... when I'm in the biggest amount of pain, people don't want to help.... When I'm falling apart in front of them, they just brush me off like I'm nothing.... When I say "I'm not okay", they don't see my scars....

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing that 🖤

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... Just look outside the window at night... There are millions of Stars and just like humans, you can't always see them but they are here and care... There will be an Angel who protects you and will not give up on you...❤️👼💫

@M-O-K-O-I

3 жыл бұрын

I do know myself, it doesn't help much. but i want you to- no, i NEED you to know. We're out there. Total strangers, i know. But we listen. And we care for each other. We care for you. And just like this, people do. People probably all around you. Make them take notice. You're beautiful in your own, Special way. You just need to show yourself. Don't give up, you deserve to be seen, need to be heard, and especially, need to keep moving on. It'll get better. If you need it once more - let me tell you, there are people. People like you and me out there - who care. Alot. and loosing you, seeing you hurt more and more, would also hurt them - hurt us. Hang in there, favourite stranger on the internet.

@justmoon9798

3 жыл бұрын

Hugs...i feel your pain.

@patriciaspires5450

3 жыл бұрын

Because you are crying out! But you feel you can’t let anyone know so you keep it bottled up inside of you because you know one will understand! I know what you are going through! I pray for you .. please pray for me!

I will forever be the one that says "I'm OK.." with tears in my eyes. This song touched me tonight!

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for listening Natalie 🖤

@W4nt3D95

3 жыл бұрын

Dont be like me, don't lie to anyone saying you're OK when you're not. I know I'll get through this, but if you think you need to, find someone to talk to, anyone it could be

@natasharichards2048

3 жыл бұрын

It's ok to not be ok. It hurts to admit, more than anything, but it can really help. Humans are social creatures, sometimes you just need to cry on someone's shoulder.

@micheleparker4712

3 жыл бұрын

You look just like my sister

@jessetuominen9551

3 жыл бұрын

Crying makes you strong 💪🏻

"A true worrier will admit that they are not okay" Let's be worrier's and admit that sometimes we need help from other people ❤💝

@WeareAllEqual98

4 ай бұрын

Guess I'm Not a Warroir then

@invisibledreamsmusiccentra4063

4 ай бұрын

@@WeareAllEqual98 Yes you are

This song describes me one hundred percent. Thank you for putting it out

Out of all the your songs that I have heard, this should be the one that I can relate to the most. The lyrics are just on point. I really want to tell my friends and family about my problems, but I know they won't understand. I want to be honest when they ask "are you ok?" but I know very well how they'll act. I tried once... it didn't end well. Since then, I didn't dare to tell them that I'm not okay again again. Thankfully I found Citizen Soldiers, and this community. Thank you for sharing these songs. It's one of the things that keeps me going. 😊❤️

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for sharing this with us and for your support! 🖤

@nikolaseleftheriou1835

3 жыл бұрын

You are loved by us friend. Share your story everyone has one. We always listen. We always read

@urfaceburn9969

3 жыл бұрын

I understand this all too well

@thescripting5036

3 жыл бұрын

@@urfaceburn9969 Same I was about to say the same. Exactly how I feel

I hear so many say that if you suffer from depression, reach out to someone because we want to help. They don't understand that depression makes it almost impossible to say something...for many reasons. That's why I always encourage people to reach out to anyone that you think may be suffering...you don't have to reach out and directly ask them about depression. Just talk to their heart, their true feelings. Earn their trust...eventually you may make it easier for them to tell you what's really going on. But most of all, you will be a friend to someone who really needs one.

@dawnsamv870

2 жыл бұрын

I turn people away because I never want to hurt them, I don’t want other to feel like it’s their problem to solve.

@danpetrica7435

Жыл бұрын

True ,but it's hard to open to someone

@karmaxis

Жыл бұрын

Such a good point. You clearly understand depression, unlike most people in this world

@christinasavoie8582

Жыл бұрын

It's true that some people need a support system. Though sometimes it's easier for a person to deal with their problems on their own. I needed to deal with things at my own pace , and figure out how to battle everything that was going on inside my head. I hated everyone around me, and didn't want them around me. I couldn't trust anybody. I did everything in my power to get better. I did have people reach out to me, but I told them I needed my space because they couldn't help me with what I was going through. They said they understood and gave me space. Which was the best thing they could do for me; understanding that I needed to be alone for however long it took. It took a really long time. But I'm feeling so great now. It feel amazing not feeling like a big heavy demonic boulder is clinging to me. It was amazing how light I felt and how easy it was to breathe when it was gone. Such a strange sensation. I'm still dealing with some things ,but I'm moving forward using everything I learned to not make the same mistakes. Going through everything I did opened my eyes to changes I needed to make with myself and showed me who I could rely on and who actually cared that I was living and breathing. Those people accept me for everything I am. I don't have to hide anything from them. I was being so difficult but they still stood by me. I've learned: *Not everyone is your friend. *Trust your gut. (my gut was right about a lot of things, but I didn't trust it, thinking I was mistaken.) *Be open about how you really feel/Speak up (I always smiled and pretended like I was okay because I didn't want to cause problems. I also felt like I wasn't allowed to be sad or mad about things. Because of this everyone thought I was so happy-go-lucky all the time. So my melt-down was shocking to them.) *Don't be yourself around people you aren't close with. *Even your own blood can be heartless towards you. *Only do for others that you know will do the same for you. *Stand your ground *If you can't vent to someone, then write out everything in a notebook or type it out. (I was skeptical. But I tried it out on the notepad app on my laptop to type out something I was frustrated about. And it really helped get it off my chest without me yammering someone's head off. Sometimes telling someone stressful stuff, can get them stressed out as well. So being able to write it down or type it out is a great option for some people.) *Think things through

@trinistar8

Жыл бұрын

This comment made tears full my eyes. As a person who suffers from anxiety and depression, I like to reach out to another who also deal with it. And with the best of my abilities talk, laugh even cry with them. And let them know they are not alone. That’s all we need.. Someone who understands

I heard this song for the first time today, and its exactly how I feel most of the time.

Sat here in tears singing this knowing these words are so true is the hardest pain anyone will ever understand feel like citizen soldiers knows me yet we never met

loved the "I'm not okay" in different languages at the end! the song, like any of yours, really makes me feel understood and not alone. thank you all so much!

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Appreciate you Nic! Thanks for listening 🖤

I hate how relatable this is. I never talk to people because when I do I feel like I’m bringing down the mood and being a burden 😭💔 Edit : thank you guys so much for the support 😭❤️

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug...❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not a burden...

@littlered9193

3 жыл бұрын

Me too....

@alexisn9615

3 жыл бұрын

same, like my friends are so damn supportive but I don't tell them how I really feel because then it feels like I'm just being a burden :/

@venancionoces2530

3 жыл бұрын

🖤🖤🖤

@gargimandal3665

3 жыл бұрын

Same

For those of us who have to cope with these feelings, thank you very much for existing.

Before the song started, I am already crying. I want to tell everyone I'm not okay. Im never okay but I have tell them I am. They'll judge and not understand why I'm so messed up into the head. I want them, my family especially, to see I'm not okay. They broke my trust and I hate them for that. They'll never understand and I wish I am strong enough to tell them. I'm not. Citizen Soldier took the words out of my mouth and my heart. Thank you. Love the song.

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

You're never alone. We care and we're here for you friend. Stay strong 🖤

@REEbranded

3 жыл бұрын

You might be strong enough, but your brain may know it's not worth to tell them. I hope a person who'll understand will find you and things will get better for you in the future - sincerly from other person messed up in the head

@Mvan09

3 жыл бұрын

@@REEbranded yeah, my brain knows, but my heart just crave for it, to be real with my family. I don't think I can find a person, besides this band, that will truly understand me. Sorry for being a downer. But thank you for your kind words. Hope the best for you as well.

@cosima5168

3 жыл бұрын

Same here.

@jamesmay9517

3 жыл бұрын

Same

“Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud” hits me like nothing before

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thanks for listening Lindsey 🖤

@nataliemariejones3167

3 жыл бұрын

@@CitizenSoldier always

@lill_sweets3271

3 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone...

@jerrodthompson8307

3 жыл бұрын

I get it 100%

Remember there somewhere is an army behind you supporting you always. You are loved.😊

"I am not okay and I need you to see it, I have so much to say and no one to hear it"😢 It's really hit me so hard 😔

*" you'll never understand why it's so hard to say"* I love it

Sitting here tears streaming down my face because this was my reality and sometimes remains my reality because I constantly fear being judged and told I'm overreacting. It's the reality of thousands and for many they lose their battle in the haunted funhouse nightmare that is mental illness because their demons finally win. But damn it. It is your right to demand proper care. You can say "I'm not okay. I'm not safe. Please somebody help me." There may be limits in the US gods knows I know that but you still can. I'm a year and nearly 10 months safe of self harm. I've been suicidal. I've been ignored by doctor after doctor. I've been told by both insurance and pharmacies that my medication isn't needed. I've been to the dark side but sometimes it isn't shadows. Sometimes it is earth surrounding the beautiful flower you are. No matter how broken, scarred, or the crappy circumstances. You can say "I'm not okay." and advocate to be okay. I'm 27. I finally said "I'm not okay. I'm not safe." and I don't regret it. #PTSDComplex #AnxietyNOS #Depression #Suicide/SelfharmFree1Year9.5Months #AdvocateforYOU #EndTheStigma

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Keep fighting the good fight. So proud of you friend 🖤

@Lena-wx7hs

3 жыл бұрын

Get out there and spread all that amazing strength you have! You are awesome! Stay safe and lots of love. ♥️

@ariadne3121

3 жыл бұрын

This made me cry. Ur amazing, I hope you know that. ❤

@Ruescifer

3 жыл бұрын

I feel this so deeply man...

@celticlion

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you guys

The way this song says my thoughts out loud is heartbreaking, but it also gives me this little hope I'm not alone. 🙃

Thank you I am an old veteren who has felt this way for a long long time

Yea they never make a bad music - not gonna lie i love all of their songs

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much 🖤

@theflamingrock3295

3 жыл бұрын

Same

@derpytard455usgenuine6

3 жыл бұрын

My question is, how?

@SpecialInterestShow

3 жыл бұрын

Ikr? I think it's because they take such care to make their songs so meaningful

@Cuteemogirl94

3 жыл бұрын

Because they have so much to say

"I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof that everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse" That hit so hard for me because my mom is always telling me "stop making up excuses 🙄" and it hurts me inside, but I'll never tell anyone how deeply it hurts or how much I cry by myself when I know that nobody can hear me. I also relate to it because I don't wanna live, but I know that 1. cutting hurts a lot (I used to scratch x's on my wrists on my arms and wrists instead of cutting, idk why 🙃) 2. I know that the pain won't go away, but be passed onto other people (only a handful of people, but still) and I believe that me dealing with all this pain is better than making others think they could have done something, and feel guilty about what I CHOSE to do.

@lill_sweets3271

2 жыл бұрын

Send you a Hug... ❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ... you are not alone... No matter what you are going through, you are not alone. And no matter what you've been through, you're beautiful and perfect just as you are... You've been hurt, but you're alive. Think of what a precious privilege it is to be alive, to breath, to think, to enjoy, and to chase the things you love. Sometimes there is sadness in our journey, but there is also a lot of beauty. We must keep putting on Foot in front of the other even when we hurt, for we will never know what is waiting for us just around the bend... ❤️💫

@Bambie6432

2 жыл бұрын

I just want you to know you are not alone. I know quite well how you feel. I know it's a struggle to get through, but I hope you do : )

@valn.6584

2 жыл бұрын

Me too!!! Very powerful words!🙏

@jordant0457

2 жыл бұрын

I’m so sorry to hear this. But I understand you, I hope you’re doing well 🖤

RISE UP WARRIORS! ITS OK NOT TO BE OK TOMORROW NEEDS EACH AND EVERYONE OF YA!! 🙌🙌 KID FROM WRONG SIDE OF THE TRACKS 🙌🙌

Have not been ok for 8 years during a pshychotic period in my adolescence. Eventually people can get you the help you deserve. Just don't count on it. I can relate but no need to be sad, i feel blessed to tell my story

Sometimes, when im in a conversation, I want to talk to them about my problems, but I dont want them to be dragged into it all.. but i'm not okay.. I feel like a failure, and a waste. To all those hurt people, Let's stick together, okay?

@CitizenSoldier

3 жыл бұрын

We're in this together 🖤 Appreciate you

@imale7681

3 жыл бұрын

I read something today and I want to share it with you, hoping you will feel better. "A snowflake is one of the most fragile creations, but look what they can do when they stick together!" We should be like snowflakes, so keep it strong 💕 Sorry for my english

@M-O-K-O-I

3 жыл бұрын

We're in it together. Hang in there, Brother. I- no, we- got your back

@jyotisinha5475

3 жыл бұрын

Thank you so much for this. We will stick together.😊

@wantabmer

3 жыл бұрын

I lost so many in one year during the time family was destroying me. I don’t want to really tell the family still here, and be a burden to them. I was the strong one but now I can’t remember things. It’s hard to continue. I was told 9 weeks after my husband died on the day my Mom died, “where have you been, knowing she wasn’t well?” I replied, I’m sorry I was mourning the death of my husband... She replied, “that was weeks ago, get over it!.. Don’t know what to do. I guess it would be ok as long as I don’t stop trying. I’m lost