marie: "straight out of the kettle" coffee: *straight to the floor*

The title hit me right in the heart bc I actually like being sad. I like having something to cry about and relieve my stress over. I like the warm baths and Netflix binge watching and the unhealthy eating. I like crying to the point I’m choked up. I guess I don’t like being sad because of the reasons that have caused my pain.

@pauline2.060

4 жыл бұрын

That's exactly how I feel...I don't wanna say I like being sad but there's a weird comfort in it. It's always there and I can always turn to it whenever I need it. Does that make sense?

@becky_anderson

4 жыл бұрын

Pauline 2.0 yes it makes complete sense to me. I thought I was the only one! I’m having quite a good day today, but I hope you are ok and I PROMISE you that one day you’ll start to feel better. Stay strong ❤️❤️

@pauline2.060

4 жыл бұрын

@@becky_anderson gosh, it feels good to not be alone with that weird feeling...I also thought I was the only one. Today was okay, I actually had a really good day , but then suddenly this wave of sadness hit me and I killed the mood ugh. I always do that and I feel so bad about it. But I hope that it will get better! Thank you so much, take care

@becky_anderson

4 жыл бұрын

Pauline 2.0 aww yeah waves of sadness always hit me for no reason :/. Glad you were ok for most of the day though! You take care too❤️

@MindVelvet

4 жыл бұрын

This is easy to relate to! While no one wants to be traumatized, I've found that sometimes, having old traumas triggered can be an incredible route to healing. I'm a happy personality by nature, so I struggle to access the pain and worry I keep inside of me at times. It's rare that something is able to trigger me to such a deep despair that I weep, but whenever it happens, I feel like I cleared out so much negative energy inside of me.

Do you, or does someone in the comments, ever get the feeling that they're partly responsible for the mental health issues? That maybe if you stopped thinking about it, stopped asking yourself so many questions about it, it would just go away? Like "shes not giving me enough attention anymore let's just leave it here"...

@jensaidthat

4 жыл бұрын

Amy Gn yes I often feel like this and then I feel so bad like I must want attention if I keep making stuff worse than it needs to be. It think it comes from the way our society views mental illness as if it’s in our control and something people can simply wish away. Truth is it’s far more complicated than that and we all need to go easy on ourselves and recognize that we are doing the best we can. We can celebrate small victories and be compassionate towards ourselves when things are tough.

@allyhenderson4230

4 жыл бұрын

big yes oh my god

@malinyutuuub2111

4 жыл бұрын

when it all started, i used to think that. and idk if it would or not. but now i'm just deep in this shit and there is no way out.

@Sophie-gq6zl

4 жыл бұрын

I think sometimes that I could stop everything. And sometimes I'm sure I can beat it, but I also don't want to get better. I don't really understand it myself

@gemstones2942

4 жыл бұрын

My dudes it’s called imposter syndrome and good golly is it the worst

Somehow lately i feel less depressed after 9 months to a year of feeling like shit and it feels wrong..

@jkwleodiiskakrnf

4 жыл бұрын

Kai thats really good! If youre noticing other mood changes like mania or something it may be a point of concern but sometimes depression is just fucking weird like that xx

@zaynighiacatchings9046

4 жыл бұрын

Saaame like it concerns me it almost makes me wanna be depressed and it scares me bc I’ve had this kind of like break before where I’m super happy and ik it doesn’t last forever.

@Kai-yl2iq

4 жыл бұрын

@@jkwleodiiskakrnf oh u well i feel like shit again but i mean i could have kind of mania symptoms after drinking 6 cans of energy drink. But nah im always tired.

@Kai-yl2iq

4 жыл бұрын

@@zaynighiacatchings9046 i thougt it would last forever...

@Kai-yl2iq

4 жыл бұрын

@@jkwleodiiskakrnf also tjos made me stop with selfharm till now

Watched u spill ur coffee and subscribed instantly

you & pip should collab with kati morton, would be very interesting :)) love your videos btw xxx

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

i would love that! she’s such a good youtuber and therapist!! xxx

@meganmelissa2032

4 жыл бұрын

Sophie Wood YES

There was time in my life when I was a teenager that I felt defined by my sadness, and in a really fucked way, I didn’t want to get better, i felt that my sadness made me interesting and different and I didn’t want anyone to be as sad as me. Flash forward I’m the least toxic, most positive person I know, I’m grateful for every moment and I do the law of attraction lifestyle

i’ve linked my spotify in the description 🤩

How do you look so good in a headband? I just look like miss trunchball

I struggle with depression diagnosis too because I didn't feel like I was, but then when it gets really bad im like OHHH yeah, maybe I do have it after all

0:39 ''I had a vision'' if this isn't the most pisces thing I've heard.. cause sAME

I completely get you about the high functioning depression thing. I think I'm still suffering with depression, it still creeps up on me every now and then but I don't feel 'depressed'. I get similar symptoms to you. Like you, I know what it's like to be rock bottom, so not being that doesnt feel like "real depression"

@user-ey7xv9pf2e

4 жыл бұрын

Same with me that’s exactly what I’m feeling rn

@CosyKat

4 жыл бұрын

omg yes exactly x

My counseling session is literally me sitting in a dim room closing my eyes and talking to myself

She answers it in the minute 22:26 You are welcome :)

@blanca2620

4 жыл бұрын

Sorry if it sounds offensive but I totally understand that some people might feel interested in some parts and not in some others so that is why I said the minute where she answer the question on the title ;)

Would love a video on ways to reduce appearance of scars (older ones ideally) xx love your videos as always thank you

@amaliperry-falvey253

4 жыл бұрын

Aloe vera is really good for scars

I know why I sometimes don’t want to stop self harming 😐 it’s the whole competitive side and maybe if I had deeper cuts people would take me more seriously. Sorry to say that but it’s a struggle.

I’m really struggling with a relapse rn & this video couldn’t have come at a better time 💖 I love u & your videos sm x

@dilarakaraman2005

4 жыл бұрын

same girl hang in there ur not alone ❤

30 mins of u???!!! Literal heaven

It feels easier to follow a negative circle round and round rather than break out if it ... I feel like saying yes to things and getting out of your house slowly makes recovery possible, as well as trying not to feel ashamed of mistakes and set backs!! That's what i'm trying to tell myself anyways lol!

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

your advice is so important - thankyou for sharing 💗

Mental health Monday!! 😁 yay!! 💜💕💖💗💗💓❣️

I totally get what you mean when you say you just want to live a mundane life and don't wanna be known as the depressed auntie, that thought has been a huuuuge reason (if not the main reason) I want to get better tbh. Also, to anyone who feels like they're stuck in a rut right now, you can come around to wanting to recover

Thank you for being so open and honest in every video💓. You being open helps me to try and be open in my recovery. Thank you for being you xx

I haven’t formally been diagnosed with depression (Only anxiety), but I developed these illnesses while in therapy. I’ve gotten used to being so miserable all the time and I don’t care anymore. It’s not that I like being sad, but I just don’t have the energy to get better. My parents and therapist know I’ve self harmed but think I’ve stopped. I haven’t stopped and I don’t know how to tell them or if I should. Nothing is working right for me even with my medication and treatments I can’t stay well. It’s also incredibly exhausting keeping up this facade of being happy, talking to people, and keeping up with my hygiene. Im only 14 but it feels like life in general is against me. Nobody has realized I’m still doing bad and I’ve pretty much given up. Sorry about that tangent but nobody knows who I am on here so I can say that stuff. Also love you Marie! You’re so incredibly beautiful and strong. I’m inspired by you.

@lostotter1956

3 жыл бұрын

Hey, I would strongly encourage you to tell them about everything. Chances are it’s the medication not working with you, and I think just letting them in to know that you’re stroll struggling will help take away that burden of having to pretend like you’re happy. I wish you the best of luck

The background of the quote was soooo much better. Thank you so much Marie. Xx

Love u sm 😁 ur so inspirational and the coffee spill is so relatable 😂❤️

You’re such an inspiration to me 💗

Needed this today, thank you, so much xx

I too was diagnosed with bpd and depression I deal with it the same way as you.I only realized the social part this year Im trying to go out on more dates and be social despite feeling so sad

needed this

You're such an inspiration! Your videos help me so much! 😊💗

Absolutely adore you girl Thankyou for such a good vid xxx

Lots of love Marie 💕

I love your videos so much, thank you for giving me hope 💙 I hope you’re doing well! 💙

Loved the video! Yes please for lives xx

You are so wise and inspiring! Thank you for this video 💛

Marie you're such a beautiful soul. You make me so happy 😊

I understand you so well Marie 🖤

I feel like my experience of coming out of hospital is that I actually found it more isolating then hospital itself. It’s kind of like you forget that while your life is stagnant everyone else’s still goes on. So I think that’s definitely what I struggled with the most because it can be really lonely and scary. X

@drewtyler4974

4 жыл бұрын

Omg I relate to this so much x

WE LOVE YOU MARIE

OMG you answered my question 😱🤭 that has made my day 💙 your a living inspiration Marie, your so strong, stunning and just inspirational ❤️❤️❤️

You’re so gorgeous omg

you’re such an inspiration to me and many others, keep going strong!!! you’ve inspired me to do my own youtube channel💫

Do a video on what you do on your bad days!!💗xx

Very powerful video, Marie xxx 💞

Your videos always come at the right time. I’m seeing a councillor soon and I’m not sure I want to. What you said about experiencing joy made me realise why I want to get better, for my family and for my boyfriend, thank you x

Please could you do a video on podcasts that you listen to that are helpful as I really struggle to find ones that I actually find engaging... thank you for everything you do xxxx

you’re glowing in this vid marie✨!!x

I haven't commented in a while but I wanna say that this video came just at the right time for me and has helped me so much. I have an important meeting today for my future and I was feeling so anxious about it. But I know I have to just get through this afternoon. It will be so good for me to have achieved it today. And that's what I'm gonna do for my recovery right now! Lots of love for you. Hope you're doing well ❤️ (also a thing that helps me want to get better and stay out of hospital is the thought of how much I missed my dog when I was admitted!)

I really liked the deep part! I feel the same way (not wanting to waste my life being ill) because there is so much more to life!

Your answer to the question at 22:22 is on point 👌 thanks Marie

Honestly inspirational x

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

🥺💘

Do you use any filters on your videos or do you have amazing lightning?

Really loved this video! That intro with the coffe was honestly so relatable haha! 💗

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

😂😂😂😂

Your videos are so helpful and calming to watch. Love you 💕

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

love you!

I am really going through a bad time but your videos help me so much

This video really helped me, I really appreciate you.

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

🥺💗

I literally can’t deal anymore. 😩 but you’re so gorgeous x

@kelliebannister4100

4 жыл бұрын

U ok?

Meant to be trying to sort my sleep pattern out for sixth form next week but I am already late for your vid :)) love your vids! you really inspire me and I am now 6 months clean of self-harm. So I just wanted you to know you and your videos are the reason I ever opened up about my self harm. Your helping so many people, love u xxx

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

omg i love you!! 6 months 🥺🥺🥺 that’s bloody amazing!! you’re such a kind and lovely person to comment this - thankYOU!! it means so much to me. sending so much love to you 💞

You are beautiful and such a wonderful woman!!!! Stay strong pretty

remember a clean room = a clean mind so keep your room clean!

Marie, you said you want to use what you’ve gone through for good. If you don’t know that you’re already doing this, you are ❤️ also I would love to see live Insta videos

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

thankyou so much clarissa😭💗 and yes i’d love to do some!! xxx

idk why, but your intro always makes me emotional

So my therapists have said this to me . And it drives me crazy. Maybe deep down I didn’t . But now I am doing absolutely EVERYTHING in my power to get better

i will watch the video and i love you but after how bad i feel with bpd and the fact i dont think im ever going to get better. of course i want to get better. i personally dont understand not wanting to get better. im missing out on living and im just existing. well ill watch the video now haha. xox

so beautiful inside and out xoxo

Honestly Marie, every video you post you put so much time into and so much thought. Its appreciated by us all. I love you so much lovely! PS: this is hit or miss but could you possibly do a video on attachments? How you cope and what to do, I think it'll be helpful since I amongst others struggle with this a lot. Just an idea though x

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

thankyou so much it honestly means the world!! and yes i really want to do a video on attachments!! xxx

@daisye9734

4 жыл бұрын

Omg yes this would help so so much!!

Stunner !

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

love you!!!

I'm really struggling with my mental health this past week. But watching your vlog has made me feel better and you are very inspiring. Love you ❤

@marieroseeee

3 жыл бұрын

sending massive hugs to you. keep going 💖

@kirstinvincent85

3 жыл бұрын

@@marieroseeee Thankyou lovely ❤. Really appreciate it😊. I'm trying. I hope you are doing ok today.

Another great video! Thank you! ❤ Can't find link to your Spotify. 🤔

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

linked it in the description!! xxx

Love your videos. What’s your Spotify link?

love uuu,

She looks so beautiful in this video omd 😍😅

I had a similar experience with seeing elderly women in the hospital and being scared into recovery. I was I'm hospital around Christmas in 2013 and there was a women who asked one of the staff members if we'll get Christmas presents and he kind of laughed and said no. And so this woman responded: "but in 1990 when I was here on Christmas we did" And I was so shocked by that because I just thought: omg, she's been struggling with her mental health for more than twenty years, what if that happens to me as well o.O

I feel the same way when i try and explain my depression

There are alot of people who get really fixated into finding an answer and needing a diagnosis and I totally get that you would want a reason but it becomes rather unhealthy to A point they dont move on or let it pass they want it the problem to stay I guess also because they might be not done crying it's in a way of the disorder is gone but now you have problems due to it, when maybe it could of just passed away I dont know that's just the way I see it obviously it isnt for everyone.

Wow your eyes are gorgeous

TW Talking mental health with my family/relatives wouldn't work. It's a stigma in the real world and in my family we've added another one. Lost my father and nearly my mother by suicide, Lost a cousin as well, two other are on the pills for depression. There's no way to ask them for help.

@sydneyhollingsworth433

4 жыл бұрын

Maximalus i think if anything this would make them more understanding and definitely more willing to help and support you. As a family you’ve all seen first hand that being mentally unwell can result in something terrible such as suicide. It sounds like it’s definitely genetic in some way. But please seek help professionally, and try your best to talk to your family so that they can be there to support you. I’m sorry for the losses you’ve had and hope you feel better soon 💗

@tylerhubbard3472

4 жыл бұрын

You find help, teachers, pastors,doctors, friends someone will listen

Pleaaaaase put your Spotify playlist up! On insta or in the comments etc! Wanna listen to some bangerssss ❤️

@donlert

4 жыл бұрын

Lana Roberts she did in another video and I have it so heres the link open.spotify.com/user/marieeesenechal/playlist/28vGrwmzb8v8Xpha2U2IvY?si=qIXIaducS8ew67m1t2Jntw

Those eyes x

AhHHHhHhhH clicked so fast,legit.Lysm x

What's your Spotify!? Need this enlightening music haha

@donlert

4 жыл бұрын

Heres her positive playlist but you can go to her acc from there open.spotify.com/user/marieeesenechal/playlist/28vGrwmzb8v8Xpha2U2IvY?si=qIXIaducS8ew67m1t2Jntw

Any advice with scars and swimming?

@catherinewilson8896

4 жыл бұрын

Perhaps you could find swimming gear that you feel most comfortable in, they have different lengths of sleeves that you could start out with as you start to get more comfortable.

@jennabrammer9317

4 жыл бұрын

I know it's hard but you just need to ignore when people looking at your scars and stuff, with the time you don't even notice it anymore ♥️

Anyone else with an eating disorder not wanting to recover for whatever reason? I’m struggling to recover. I do badly want to go back to old ways

Hi Marie, I’m starting college soon but I feel very detached from reality and I seem to be making bad decisions in my life because I just don’t care about it anymore, I don’t really want to go to college because my mental health is already bad and I’m not sure what to do. Do you have any suggestions? Love you always xxx

@okuuur1640

4 жыл бұрын

How are you now?

@fayegilroy9060

4 жыл бұрын

okuuur Im struggling with derealisation and depersonalisation and my anxiety is still very high so really not much change right now but I’ll be fine I always am xx

I was on a waiting list to speak to someone for years. Eventually just gave up

Did you leave your Spotify? 💓

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

i have now!! xxx

What if I take meds but when they take away the sadness im numb what do I do?

@lilygrace3422

4 жыл бұрын

Kianna Justus have a cold shower

@lostotter1956

3 жыл бұрын

Find someone to talk to, maybe?

🤩 THE COUPON CODE NOW WORKS, USE CODE: MARIE for 20% off!! 🥳🥳🥳

How’s it been lately? Figured I’d ask because one, you deserve to be asked and two, your voice sounds a bit shaky. Hope all is well though! ❤️

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

thankyou so much marissa! i’ve been doing good - my voice is shaky because of my medication but i’m doing well, means a lot that you asked 💗

@donlert

4 жыл бұрын

marieroseeee oh ok great to hear!

"oH FUCK" "YOU ALRIGHT?"

oh, you're an introvert? i wouldn't have guessed, pegged you as an extrovert hehe. but its a compliment coming from me (introverted lily pad), love love your bubliness, optimism and spark. xx if you know the mbti, are you an e/infj?

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

infj 💗

It can't be sad If it's metalcore or death metal :)

What should I do about my shittier family members who belittle my mental illnesses and constantly tell me what I’m doing wrong in my journey? My grandparents on my dads side literally asked me “what do you have to be depressed about? They just don’t get it and without saying “I’m suicidal and haunted by the visual thoughts of killing myself everyday” I don’t know how to help them see how it affects me.

@leahdunn8304

4 жыл бұрын

ive got almost exactly the same thing when I tired to overdose I was ridiculed. my way to deal wih it is to just talk to my teachers, yes they will call your parents but I just choose not to answer their questions

Early squad

@esra7405

4 жыл бұрын

Here !

I guess theres a huge difference between not wanting to get better, but what if I want to get worse, is it even a mental health issue if I make my depression worse on purpose by saying awake and not eating and then having the question am I depressed or am I attention seeking or am i just messed up, does anyone else feel like this or am I just so messed up.

@lostotter1956

3 жыл бұрын

Hmm, sometimes I feel like this because I want people to take me seriously and feel like if my presentation isn’t like other people’s or worse, then they won’t take my pain seriously. Sometimes I question if it’s real, too, maybe I want it to be real because I’m so used to my feelings being undermined that I want to know what I’m experiencing is real. I think some of it is self hatred as well. Maybe you can relate to this? I hope you’re well, good luck with everything

@redxsnipes4226

3 жыл бұрын

@@lostotter1956 thank you!!!

What’s ur Spotify?❤️

@marieroseeee

4 жыл бұрын

i linked it in the description xxxx

i am having councelling because my school found out how low my mental health is/ was a week ago

Yayyyyyyyyy

Guys how do you cope with covering scars in this hot weather? It’s really unbearable.

@umyay2306

4 жыл бұрын

MBXO maybe try get a tattoo concealer thing ? research to find the best ones and good luck :)

@melissasiepman7618

4 жыл бұрын

I dont😉 but do whatever you feel comfy with♡

@MBXO24

4 жыл бұрын

love my dogs 💙

@MBXO24

4 жыл бұрын

um yay Yes, I’ve had one treatment of steroid injections and my scar is completely flat, redness has gone down also. I’m just waiting to have my scar camouflage tattoo so it will almost be good as new.

That coffee’s straight out of the kettle, but I’m gay out of the closet🌈✨🦉