Sometimes I think that it’s harder to cope after gaining weight because your body gains faster than your mind changes and I was still struggling mentally even though I wasn’t underweight anymore. I really is all about the mental state markers. Sending lots of love and hope to everybody!! xx ❤️

My problem last year was not knowing whether I had an actual eating disorder or whether I just had disordered eating. Because literally every single woman I know - without exception - is disordered with food and exercise. So sometimes I thought I was crazy for doing something as "extreme" as eating disorder recovery if I was just like everyone else I knew. But I got to the point where I realized it didn't matter - who CARES if I was anorexic or orthorexic or just dieting. What mattered is that food and exercise and body image controlled my life and I was sick of it and wanted to be free. The other thought that helped me was to realize that eating disorder recovery is not actually as extreme as it feels when you're in it. It is literally eating when your body/mind asks you to, and resting from exercise for a couple of years - why should eating and resting be something we have to get a diagnosis to do??? Now that I'm on the other side I am honestly still not 100% sure I had a diagnosable eating disorder or if I just had disordered eating but I don't really care anymore. I use both phrases interchangeably for myself, and regard recovery as one of the best decisions of my entire life. I would never ever ever go back to being how I was before; my life has improved more than I can express. So who cares if I "deserved" recovery or not? I did it anyway and I'm so glad I did ❤️

@beckyfreestone9908

Жыл бұрын

Huge applause to you! That is so amazing and wonderful that you stopped looking elsewhere for someone else to tell you that you were suffering!

@victoria9663

Жыл бұрын

@@beckyfreestone9908 messages from you, Tabitha and Elisa like the one you posted here in this video today are what kept me going during that time, so keep up the good work!

@ResurrectionPowered

8 ай бұрын

I’m working my way out of the BMI gospel… my BMI is perfect but my mental health and anguish over every meal is absolutely exhausting.

i've struggled with an ed since i was 13, i was underweight two years ago and now i think I'm in a healthy weight but mentally my restrict mindset haven't changed at all but now this video helped me to understand that i still need and deserve recovery even though I'm in a healthy weight right now, honestly thanks for this💕

This is really such an important thing to talk about Becky! 👏👏👏Once I gained some weight and didn’t look unwell anymore people, including my family thought i was fine and that’s exactly the point that I needed more help. Eating disorders really don’t have a particular look and I so hope more people, especially treatment providers begin to understand that! 💜💜💜

I found your channel months ago and at first I didn't really click with your ideas but then the stuff you were mentioning felt really close. I'm currently working on weight restoration and it's been super hard to accept the body change and new jeans size but I can definitely notice how much stronger and upbeat I feel now with these changes. I can't lie and say that I'm happy with my appearance now but I'm glad that my body feels with a lot more energy and I don't look so pale and sick anymore. Thanks for the upload and for your thoughts. Greetings from the Dominican Republic.

Becky - to be honest I've always loved your channel (amongst others like Tabitha Farrar and Emily Spence) as you and them always make it clear that this advice applies to everyone with a r.e.d regardless of body weight. Which is why I keep coming back to your videos (and theirs). Thank you! I also really appreciate the constant message of giving oneself permission - it's crucial and took me way too many years. As someone who has over the years been incredibly emaciated, at other times have appeared to a diet culture lens as 'edging towards overweight' (which in hindsight was my body saving itself at the time coming from a state of extreme emaciation), at other times have blended in with everyone else and at other times appeared as 'too thin/he's a scrawny guy/etc' - I can tell you that during all of those experiences of different body masses - I was struggling beyond belief. My point I mean is to say I so appreciate you and the work you do - and that your message indeed has only ever (in my opinion) drilled home that recovery is for anyone in any size body who feels they are struggling with an r.e.d. Whilst I'm on a rant (though I don't need encouragement!), I've always found it so frustrating how treatment centres and even other sufferers and also folk without r.e.d's tend to categorise things according to behaviour (which then can become a toxic competition of the 'more appealing' r.e.d - reminds me in treatment of some girls who would be holier than thou because they were diagnosed 'anorexic' as opposed to another with 'bulimia'). I'm another example of that being b.s. as again I've been extremely underweight whilst exhibiting all of the behaviours associated with those conditions. I need to end my rant - but to finish - THANK YOU truly so much for everything you do in promoting and facilitating recovery! Your non judgemental approach and sense of humour are appreciated greatly 🤩🌻🌠 P.s. I'm glad to say I have been pushing through lots of the mental rewiring as that's what's been holding me back, still a way to go cause the mind can be tricky but I won't stop until I'm fully recovered :)

Becky, thank you so much for addressing this!! I have also been "praised" for my body, by healthcare providers, when I was at my sickest. I was in a MedExpress one time, getting a shot of antibiotics because of an infection in my finger that was so bad that just oral pills weren't enough, and the nurse giving me the shot was commenting on how "lean" and great I looked... meanwhile, I was suffering on the inside, and the only reason I was even in there getting the shot to begin with was because I was underweight and sick... 😞😞😞

@beckyfreestone9908

Жыл бұрын

That’s awful

I’m really struggling Becky😩. I’m allowing my anxiety and stress to keep me from eating like I did in the beginning of recovery. I’m so hungry! And just want to eat! I am finding it easier to eat right before bed. This is hard! For me it’s like I feel stuck now. I’ve gained and now I’m slowly losing again because the ED voice is still so strong! I know I’m not alone with this. And ty Becky for these videos!!!🙏🏼🥰🙏🏼.

This is so true, when I was at my lowest weight I had to go to my go for a bad knee, was told to keep exercising and not to gain weight. I used to and still do as an excuse to fuel my Ed ( I also struggled with compulsive exercise) . I have now gained some weight but my head is in the same place.

@beckyfreestone9908

Жыл бұрын

Well then this video was made for you!😌

Hi Becky, I just found you and loving all the video. When and if you want, can you please do more others videos about who are restored weight but also want to go all in and recovery? Because, sadly, on the internet there are always and only people underweight and it hurts because there are a lot of people who struggle and want to recover also if not underweight. Thanks a lot and sorry for my english!

I'm really struggling, I have PCOS with an eating disorder.I am also overweight, I've tried to recover so many times but my pcos gets worse.

@GC-fj4lc

Жыл бұрын

Currently in the same boat. If I eat "normally" I get major fatigue and binge urges. Also, I'm terrified of developing diabetes. No one seems to be talking about it